http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:viviones&section=today deviantART RSS for by:viviones en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 13:14:26 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/24234201/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/24234201/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 07:28:26 PDT
Last week I went outside and I saw nature changing and spring has sprung. With 20C Degrees it's really warm and sunny outside. The perfect weather to go outside and show you all what spring offered me.

I went outside and started with trees and flowers. I came across a cat who wanted me to play with him. Later I wanted to take a photo of a butterfly. It's a shame that the butterfly kept flying and not landing. But it took me to a old guy who was busy checking up his sheep. His sheep also had little lambs. It was really pretty and cute. We had a chat and he liked photography as well.

Then it was time for me to return. I saw a tree blossoming and took a photo of it.

That was my hour of photography for you,

Let me know what you think!

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the site is [link] so if you're interested, visit it.

That's the journal for now.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22869390/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22869390/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 16:12:38 PST
But enough of Turisas, DragonForce was far greater than I expected. Every member of the band was putting on their own show so it was hard to follow everything. Aside from their fast playing. It was magnificent. The lead singer of DragonForce kept cursing at the people at the balcony because they usually don't do much and he said: Motherfuckers join! If they didn't he would give them the finger. It was awesome. I got showered in beer and got second hand weed smoke. Other than that it was awesome. If they perform again this year, I'll definately come again!

For those who don't know DragonForce, shame on you.

P.s they took my camera from me because if they saw me with it, they would take it for real. Sadly I couldn't take photos

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22559592/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22559592/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 11:06:13 PST
Yeah I know weird journal but I thought I would share my thoughts.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22472728/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22472728/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 15:37:21 PST

I always missed it each year. I look at the date I joined and I think: Oh darn I missed it again!

so anyway. 4 year anniversary ^_^

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22245233/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22245233/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 15:23:04 PST
I'm about to dive into my bed again but I needed to tell that I've fallen ill. First my brother fell ill, a few days later my mom and the next day I fell ill. Now my sister came downstairs as I was trying to relax and she has fallen very ill too. The only healthy one is my dad and my brother has been cured now. Also we're going to have four guests tomorrow and I wonder how things are going to turn out as my dad will work in the early morning and the rest of the family is sick.

Well that's the update for now. I'll keep you posted. Also I will create another video once I'm healthy and have time and interest.

Keep healthy,

Marin

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22058911/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/22058911/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 11:28:23 PST
After that during September, there was a Flower Parade. Or however you call that. It's every year and little cars and big cars fully packed with flowers drive by. I took my camera with me and shot lots of photo's. Those I will upload too

Then I came back and had to go to school. While things went their way, and I was doing well, at least that's what I thought. I got 'fired' from internship. Which caused a big shock to me. I went to school yesterday to talk about my future and I just came back from the doctor. I will be tested on autism and I will seek a psychologist and so I can work on myself.

Other than that, I will upload some miscellaneous photo's.

I have really been too away from deviantart. I'm sorry everyone!

I'm still very alive and do check every day. I will answer every comment, even if it takes half a year XD

NEW UPDATE:

I created a youtube video about my vacation in Romania and this is the link:

[link]

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]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/19204434/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/19204434/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 14:42:57 PDT
On august 1 I will go to Romania for three weeks. I will be sightseeing with a close friend who lives there. I also received my camcorder yesterday. It's actually a photo camera, video camera, video player, mp3 player, webcam and storage device. I am very content with it. I have trouble when it becomes dark or in lamp light. I haven't checked every setting on it yet, so I guess I'll have to toy around with it. I bought my camcorder to take photos and videos of my journey in Romania so stay tuned when I come back at the end of august. I can hardly wait. Of course I'll put my efforts in taking the photos the best way I can.

Also one week left for archeology and I'll have my summer holidays (finally) BUT first write a report. that has to be done within two weeks after summer vacation starts. (don't they ever give me a break?)

That's the update for now. Thank you for reading, who actually checks my stuff on deviantart nowadays anyway?

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/18823871/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/18823871/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 15:58:04 PDT
Sure been a long time wow.
Well everything here is going great. I got great grades and I am doing archaeology work currently. I am sorry that I haven't been on here, well I have been checking my messages and occasionally a new deviation but no updates on the journal.
Sorry about that though.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/16111842/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/16111842/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 15:59:06 PST
Long time NEVER heard of you XD
Well neither have you heard much of me, anyway im alive and while I do check deviantart daily I never take the time to reply <_<
I got 143 messages left to be replied. Its going to take me ages. =x
Anyway I am further in college and in period two. After two bad grades and three good grades I learned to not make the same mistakes again. I am getting along with everyone of the class though I do not talk much with a great deal of the class, but that's alright. I am getting more and more positive in life too. So if you want to know any specific details about me, just ask.


About the collaboration:

I am looking for someone to work with it can be the following things:

1. A collaboration poem. Another poet and me work together on one.
2. A poetical drawing. This can be devided into two ways. I create a poem on the drawing you made, or you can make a drawing based on a poem I made
3. A poetical photo. A photo says more than thousand words, thats how the saying goes. But a poem can say more than 1000 different photos as every interpretets words to their own feelings and visions.
The idea is the same as a poetical drawing. Either I create a poem on the photo, or you take a photo based on a poem I wrote.
4. Misc: anything you can do and want to have associated/decorated /get a deeper meaning with poetry.

rules for drawings and photography:
If I create a poem based on a drawing or a photo, it musn't be too illustrative. What I try to point out is that the photo or drawing should not already tell what happens. There should still be room for poetry. For example: A squirrel sitting on the pavement, is already showing everything. But a squirrel in a different setting could tell a lot more. The same goes with drawing.

The other way around there are no limits. You have the freedom to do what you want. =]

Well thats about it. Let me hear what you think of it and definately tell me if you want to work with me.

And please reply to this journal even if you dont participate in it, cause I am wondering who still reads what I write or do.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/15146257/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/15146257/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 16:04:13 PDT
Lots of things have happened since my last journal. I went to the introduction days of my school and it turned out to be nice. Here in the netherlands, we have a pass that makes you able to travel throughout the netherlands for free using trains and busses. But I could only use it starting september 1. And it wasn't that date yet. I arranged sleeping at my aunt's place since she lives there in that city. , so Stefan, my friend, and I slept at her place those days.

day 1: Stefan and I decided to go walk to the college. We could have used the bus but we had hours before we had to be at school. I suggested to walk through the park and we saw a bunch of guys and girls hanging out. I tried not to pay attention to it, and they all stared at us. Some girl made a remark and I thought she talked to me. She snapped at me how she didn't address me, but suddenly the girls went: Hey you look hot, can I have your number? Can I have your msn? But I ignored them and they screamed loud: GAY!
So we walked on and went to a store, when we walked out there was a girl and she repeated herself saying: 'Hi hotty', 'Hi hotty'. I was emberassed. So yeah we thought it was time to head over to school. When we arrived it was still way too early so we walked around town some more and then we got back. We sat down on a table, while all the other tables were full, that one was free and we were the only ones at the table. Noone was interested in sitting at our table either. Well Stefan went to get a drink and then suddenly a guy and a girl came. the guy politely asked: Do you mind if we go sit at your table? And I told them that I didn't. So we chat for a bit and they were really really nice people and it turned out they were in the same archeology class as me and stefan. we had dinner at school. So after dinner we went into town as a group. Since every student got a special shirt colour. We went to a club there, where young people can enjoy themselves. So yeah I went in and tried to get into it. Every girl in there was smoking. I Went to the bar and I saw a pretty girl and I started talking to her. she was smoking and yeah she caught my eye. So yeah after a few minutes she asked me: Do you smoke? And I told her I did. She then offered me one and lit me. I think I'll never forget that moment. Then the group decided to go somewhere for a pop quiz. Well I did not know anything about it so the four of us lost. Then the group went to a discotheque to hold a match who can drink the most alcohol within an hour. Well Django, Ayla and me don't drink alcohol and it was awfully crowded so me and stefan went back and sat on a bench. after 5 minutes django & ayla came back too and we decided we called it a day.

Day 2:
So day two we went to school again, and when we arrived it turned out that django & ayla sat with a bunch of other people. I did not know any of them. But Stefan thought it'd be a good idea to sit there as well. Well I felt pretty uncomfortable cause I was surrounded by strangers.
So after breakfast I asked stefan if we could go somewhere, I just didn't feel like being there.
So we went in town and when we returned we saw our group and we went back in town and had all kinds of activities. Like bungee running, see how far you can get before the string puls you back. Well I got over the 100 (which was the max, lol)
After the afternoon we went to my aunt's place to pee & poo. And get something to drink. So when we got back it turned out that django & ayla hadn't arrived yet. Stefan and I already found a table. When we saw them they waved that we had to sit at a different table. So we went there. This time I was less nervous. Anyway. After dinner they there was a food fight and it was lame cause the cook worked really hard to make the meals. It was sad. A guy at our table got hit and yeah they said they were going to 'midtown'. I was like, well why not. And yeah I had a good evening there cause I tried my best to get to know everyone. the evening was a success.

Day 3: Well not much to say about day three it was more or less like I had to go to school for some brief information and then I went home.

Wow what a story, and that was just about 3 days.

Well my college is fun and I kinda like it except that we have to do a lot! Im on holidays now though, until sunday. so yeah it almost ended. But the fun part of the projects is that I learn
a lot of it. I get to see all of my country and it's amazing. I learned a lot these months, I am a happier person in life.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/14290350/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/14290350/ Wed, 22 Aug 2007 15:14:36 PDT
Today I crossed all over the netherlands and it was a lot of fun. I had fun hanging out with Jochem Barelds (not the one in the photo) and yeah their family is kinda very different but it was fun. We went to the library, gamed, watched a movie and chatted. It was good to see them after 1,5 years. When I went back home, a girl named Suzanne (don't know if i spelled her name right) and we chat for nearly an hour. Which was fun too, since I am usually shy around strangers, she just seemed polite and kind. So yeah, I gave her my deviantart ID and hopefully she'll leave a comment. She said she would so I'll see when I get a message from her. I also chat to other strangers and it's very good to talk to people since I get over my shyness and my intolerance to people. So yeah I had a great day. Im going to bed soon since I only had 5 hours and 45 minutes of sleep last night. Well if Anyone who watches me still watches what I write here, you can reply
If not then you won't xD.

for now, good night everyone.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/14226644/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/14226644/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 13:40:07 PDT
So here is my fav list:
Plus description why I picked that one.

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black magic - by kisskiss3 - [link]

It's so surreal and secretive. And hard to imagine. It's just secretive, check it out
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the best place by kisskiss3 - [link]

I like this one because it's so protective and well it's hard to describe, it gives me a safe feeling. So look for yourself
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Formal Dress - by kisskiss3 - [link]

I think she looks good on dresses. the colours just suit her.
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RedHead. - by blackbird-me - [link]

Well I have a smoking fetish so it's just logical that I love that one. btw I love the expression of her eyes.
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Fish - by blackbird-me - [link]

Maybe it wasnt meant to be like that but I see the difference between good and evil in it. Like the main focus is good, but the fish on the background look evil =O
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Croatia..? - by blackbird-me - [link]

I love the environment, it's so pretty, and the water is so clean. I wish I could visit that place one day. Just watch it!
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Fontana II - by MaryCrazy - [link]

I love history, and this one looks very interesting, also it has been taken at a very good angle (to me that is)
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Moon is night friend - by Marycrazy -
[link]

Moonlight, so secretive and many thoughts are going on and on at the moonlight. Many romantic dinners are held under it, and many kisses to be shared. I just love this, I can go on fantasizing on it
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Jaaj Slovensko - by MaryCrazy - [link]

We don't have mountains here and the view is just amazing! I could sit there and picknick, and just gaze at the view. There are so many things I love in the world and one is all the nature.
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Forever by - babygirl-16 - [link]

This is really art, hard to say anything about it, on poetry everyone sees it different and I think this one is very good.
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Heart Montage by - babygirl-16 - [link]

The colours are really pretty and it seems you can look forever in the heart and it's deep and endlessly. Really amazing
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Me in camo yo by - babygirl-16 - [link]

Hehe, what can I say, she looks cool in a dress. and she has an interesting face
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Final Fantasy 6 Poster by - dawndelver - [link]

I love final fantasy 6! And she just draws awesomely! Be sure to visit her art!
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Evil Fairies by - dawndelver - [link]

I love how she played with the colours and how she edited it, for some reason this one just caught my eye http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/13810443/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 02:02:06 PDT
Unlike the original journal. You don't have to paste this in your journal like I did so in any case, it's kinda free. Those are my rules

spaces still available

1 - Babygirl-16
2 - Kisskiss3
3 - dawndelver
4 - MaryCrazy
5 - Blackbird-me


EDIT: Noone can participate anymore. If you want to, you should have been quicker and pay more attention to my journal. Bwhahaaha.

Anyway when I checked everyone's gallery and picked my three favourites I'll update it.


UPDATE - I have browsed through two persons galleries and picked my three favourites so far. I'll add a new journal when I'm done. So just be a little more patient ok? I'll not just fav them but I will also add WHY i chose them.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/13745450/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/13745450/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 14:33:42 PDT
I'm alive, yes I was alive before and I still am
I finished my exams, I graduated and a few days ago I heard I got into my new college. And I am relaxing, gaming, and just chilling. My camera works again but I'm just inspirationless. There have been many things that have been going on but I don't know where to start so yeah, just ask and I'll let you know.

Have a nice day,

Marin

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/12632737/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/12632737/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 13:46:26 PDT
It's been a while for sure, almost two months. I am very sorry about it. So what took me so long? Well the fact is that I had very little time and so much to do, I checked deviantart everyday to read your comments, it took me a while to comment back and I am sorry for that. But I did comment back

So how am I doing? Well I am a lot more relaxed now since most of the things I needed to do are gone, if not all. So I got more freetime on my hands. If I pass my exams next month I'll go to the college and then I'll become a Assistant Archeologic Researcher. Which is almost like an Archeologist. I just do more digging and discovering. I can also study real hard to become an Archeologist in the end. I'll just see.

Tomorrow I'll go Rotterdam, it's the second biggest city in the netherlands and has been bombed during the second world war. Also the city where there are more than 50% foreigners. lol
It has the biggest harbour of the world. We'll go to a museum and a concert and then me and stefan will go to a manga shop hurray

Yeah that's about it I guess. Feel free to ask me anything. =]

Marin

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11957566/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11957566/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 06:58:46 PST
[link]


seems my brain isn't that weird right? I mean that's what's going on in our world. Soon I'll be a pet. Oh well what can I say. Women will rule the world, lol. Oh and for all the girls stalking me here. I mean watching, no offense ^^

It's just as I foresaw.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11869009/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11869009/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 14:08:04 PST
I "pimped" my DA account, My literature has got more "style"
For all of you who think its the venus symbol, no its an ankh from egypt, the symbol of life and the background are stars. Look at my signature to find the meaning of it. I added some of my information and deleted some, just to make it a bit more serious I guess.
I also added featured deviation.

So Yeah I hope you all like my new profile.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11822828/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11822828/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 21:50:42 PST I threw up last day and this night. I have barely slept and I am cooooold and warm. My whole body hurts and I am getting sick of it. How ironically eh?

Well nothing new to report at least not anything I can think of...
so I'll make this the shortest journal ever.

Marin

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11573930/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11573930/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 08:40:36 PST
I haven't updated my journal in a year xD
Well happy new year once again, may it be a good year with lots of artistic work

I have uploaded a lot of poems some time ago. I also have been going good in life. I made a new friend from class. ^_^
Well not formally a friend yet.

Anyway about spelling. I have found out that I keep messing up with the colour/color word and armour/armor. I had to look it up and came across different spelling of America and Britain. Since I chat and talk with a lot of americans and have a lot of english at school it kinda get's all confusing. So I found this:

[link]

and also

[link]

There are words like: cinema, bloke, plaster, flat, queue, rubbish, WC, Zebra Crossing. And a lot of them are a bit like dutch. The way we use to name things. I also found out that a lot of people sometimes don't understand me when I speak english while using those words. However I learned them at english so yeah.. it's weird But I finally found it out

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11243595/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11243595/ Sat, 30 Dec 2006 10:14:47 PST 2006 was the year that I made a come back. and how!
I made a lot of new friends on here and I am happy to announce that I made a lot of work.

It's also the year that I have been busy and under stress a lot. But also the year that I went to talk to a psychologist and it helped a lot.
I am more open minded than I used to be.

I write poems to help people and myself. I love to write them since it's the only form of art I can do.

But those last days til the new year is also frightning. I hate fireworks. well not the beauty fireworks though. I hate the kaboom you know.
Fireworks have been thrown when I was barely 4 years old. They were illegal and more powerful than the legal firework you can buy in december... So I always smell and look everywhere.

Like today I was letting the dog out and my dog looked back and when I looked back suddenly a guy was illegally firing off fireworks.
My heart beated and I felt afraid. I quickly walked further and was afraid of the big bang...

I just hate fireworks, but oh well I would love to watch fireworks at 1 january 00:00

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11122508/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/11122508/ Wed, 20 Dec 2006 00:23:01 PST
Yes this is a blog and it's no journal but to give you some 'updates' about me and my poem power. I don't feel like writing poetry at all. Just not now I am all down and sad. I need a loooooooooooot of rest and then I can be my old self again. I'm sorry that I failed.

Marin

p.s comments like: don't write this here, don't overreact, stop being sad won't work at all. I'll ignore those. Yep I am in a bad mood.
Peace~

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]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10936629/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10936629/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 12:46:27 PST

It's just too bad that Sinterklaas leaves on 6 december =/
Then the next day in the early morning around 5/6am every single thing that would remind you of Sinterklaas is taken away and christmas stuff comes which is just sad. I don't want santaclaus the fake man, I don't want reindeers and I don't want the overrated christmas. Christmas is all good and comfy, but just don't overdo it. Save the electricity for something else

YEah enough complaining.

My Sinterklaas day rocked and I might put some collage of webcam photos. Yeah my camera is dead but my webcam ain't

Well that's that,

good day.

Marin

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10853969/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10853969/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 08:11:56 PST
So...

What would you do if...
I cried:
I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I died:
I was afraid:
I stole something:
I were hospitalized:
I ran away:
I got in a fight and you were there:

What do you think about my?...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
Friends:

Would You?...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, No matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash If i needed it:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Love me for who I am:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Are we close?
[13] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14] Do you wish I was cooler?
[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[17] Am I loveable?
[18] How long have you known me?
[19] Describe me in one word:
[20] What was your first impression?
[21] Do you still think that way about me now?
[22] What do you think my weakness is?
[23] Do you think I'll get married?
[24] What about me makes you happy?
[25] What about me makes you sad?
[26] What reminds you of me?
[27] What's something you would change about me?
[28] How well do you know me?
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30] Do you think I would kill someone?
[31] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10799150/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10799150/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 11:27:01 PST A lot of americans, canadians and the rest of the world don't know about it. I can sometimes be very frustrated about it. Especially the fact that America ruins our tradition with those awful early christmas things. I hate it. Christmas Is the time when Christ is born. I admit we have the christmas tree, and the christmas stable.
Anyway I am not here to discuss christmas.

I'm here to get people to know our tradition and the truth about Santaclaus


First a little history:

In turkey he helped orphans and took care of the poor. He became a Saint there after his death. The news spread throughout Europe.
We dutch people heard it from Spain and that's why they are known and dressed in middle age clothes here. This is also why we say he comes from Spain when he actually comes from Turkey.

We were the ones to land in virginia (usa) and make New Amsterdam. The Britains took it over by trading Suriname. Of course they heard here and there about Sinterklaas and made up their own tradition. The Fake tradition called: Santaclaus.
The Americans started to spread this like wildfire.
The whole world took the fake tradition over. But we dutch refused.

Where it is still celebrated/known:
Belgium, since it was part of the Netherlands.
Germany, almost forgotten though.


How we celebrate it:
Sinterklaas usually comes on the second saturday/sunday of November on his steamboat. He leaves on his birthday; the 6th of December. This is odd cause Saint Nicolaas died in Turkey on the 6th of December.
Every night you can put your shoe in the corridor, The helpers of Sinterklaas (pieten) will put something in it.
You can write poems and put them in your shoe for Sinterklaas to read and you can put a carrot in the shoe for Sinterklaas' horse.
On the 5th of November, Sinterklaas will come with his helpers and bring you a visit or not. He will read his big book where the wish of every child is saved in. He knows everything about you and if you've been a good child, you'll get candy. Candy as in "spice nuts" I don't know the real translation for it, or maybe it is. He usually rides the rooftops with his horse and helpers and puts presents through the chimney's. Oh and Sinterklaas is everywhere in the netherlands with his helpers throwing candy around for everyone.


Just stating a few facts about the fake Santa and the real Sinterklaas how we celebrate it:

The helpers of Sinterklaas (pieten) are black men who give kids presents in their shoe!
Americans thought it would be elves putting it in their sock.

Sinterklaas comes in November by boat.
Americans thought it would be a sled with reindeers during christmas.

Sinterklaas lives in spain.
Americans thought it would be the north pole.

Sinterklaas rides on his horse on the rooftops and puts presents through the chimney.
Americans thought it would be FLYING?? reindeers and he put the presents under the christmas tree? How does he do that. Oo

Sinterklaas was a man with thick clothes made of silk.
Americans thought he was fat, but it was just the clothes.

Sinterklaas beard is normal.
Americans thought it was curly

And last: Sinterklaas has excisted for real in turkey, we say: Sint Nicolaas. Or Sinterklaas for short.

Just so you know...
Oh and if I come up with new facts I'll add them. If you're interested, just google something up.


Hope to have made your mind more pure and not that brainwashed

It's good to know more,

Marin

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10755319/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10755319/ Fri, 17 Nov 2006 11:51:33 PST Want to know what the cause is of almost every depression? People.
When you think the sun is not shining for you, it actually does. Just like it does for anyone else. Everyone has moments when they're down. Just don't let it eat you. When you live happily you feel that you can do much more. Walking doesn't cost that much energy when you're happy than when you're depressed and want to just fall down.

It seems my I'm getting my poem spirit back. Let's hope it will never fade out ^^

Have a nice day everyone.



P.s One more thing: Being happy makes things easier and you use less energy, so you got more time for other things

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10693433/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10693433/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 19:04:20 PST
And my depression started seducing me. I'm trying not to give in but it's hard.

Yeah I don't feel like writing a poem. I have to help people with my poems not depress people so no poems for some time from me.

I hope you all understand it. I will talk to a psychologist tomorrow.

Have a good night.

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10560854/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10560854/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 15:11:42 PST Don't get me wrong. Mendy is a friend of mine and she has a bf. Since wednesday lol.
So yeah I am going to bed I guess and wake up to enjoy my birthday.

So see ya everyone. ^^

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10433400/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10433400/ Wed, 18 Oct 2006 11:26:15 PDT
You know, I am getting better and better in real life. I socialize more and it's GOOD. Really I would recommend this to everyone ^^

I made a new friend about an hour ago. She was alone on a bench, and I thought she might be a little depressed. So as you all know me here. I help people. However in real life I was a wimp. But I changed. I went to her to talk to her and I thought that maybe I could support her. It turned out that she was just waiting for someone and about to leave when I asked her if she wanted to talk. But she was kind and polite and we got into a talk. She is 16 and lives in a city around 5 miles away. Her friend was Sanne. I know that Sanne cause I had a talk with her on the busstation once. Well we talked a bit about school and just normal things. Later she asked me if I got msn. I replied positive and we swapped msn adresses. So soon I will talk with her on msn. ^^

I asked my friend Nick to come here this evening too. As I said before I have to socialize more and be there more for my friends. So that's another good thing.
I had a good talk with Stefan yesterday and it has been going great. He understood how I felt and we made an appointment to do some things together again.

I got less shy and I have helped a friend of mine in real life on the phone too. She was really depressed (she does Self injury). I kept her away from that. I am so glad.

I set a new goal. I am changing and its for the better. BUT don't worry my friends. I am still the same me, but better!

Peace, have fun, and tell me if there is anything troubling you,

Much hugs to you!

Marin

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10355429/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10355429/ Wed, 11 Oct 2006 06:34:51 PDT I have been better, though today was a crappy one.
I had a tough talk with the confidant who asked me if he may consult the psychologist. I have a social disorder. So yea.. I had it tough with the talk. So I became depressed as I came to think too much. I was first drawing all kind of happy things then it became dark and grey. And well this very popular girl turned around and said: Wtf are you doing? Me: oh.. yea nothing. She: yea I can see that, how far are you progressing. question 27? Which chapter? Me: Uhhhhh..
She said well I don't do anything either for this subject. Fuck economy.
Me: uhu
I was writing down all the questions that began rattling in my head. Then she turned around again and looked at them and tried to read them. God I was so afraid, so I held my hand on it. I was afraid of stupid reactions..
So yea I will be invited to talk to a psychologist =x
Never thought it was so bad with me but on the other hand. Maybe it is. Things they are now will seem like I will never get any contact with real life people and never a real life girlfriend. So I want to get over this. I want to broaden my horizons and try not to hate the society that much. I want to become more important to my real life friends as they seem to dislike me for spending too much time on the net. As a result they do things with other friends and so I am left out. Well serves me right I guess? As for now I am in an endless selfdestruction cycle. I need to get out of it, or it will affect me seriously. I mean, I have been rejected at a job application because I was too humble. If I don't do anything against it, I will keep on drowning.

What has been bothering me more is Jochem.. He seems to get along fine with Stefan but yea well Stefan keeps doing things with him and his sisters friends. So I feel like running and he catches up with me and drives with a car past me. Or I am the statue, he is the man. Anyway if I want to become more happy about myself, I have to get away from him. He keeps insulting me with that I am ugly he can't even name one goddamnit good thing about me when I asked him. And he said I should have joined his and Stefan's "sun club"
To help depressed people. When I heard that, I snapped. How can you help someone's depression if you're the cause of it!
It's like Hitler saying to the jews don't be so sad, be happy. Yea RIGHT. I do have an okay time with them but sometimes I feel like I am ignored. When I try to let them know I feel that way, they just say I am overreacting -_-"

What's more I can't to get over my shyness, it's like so hard. There's a barrier that I can't get through.

Oh right there were two or three girls when I came in school walking behind me and one said: Hi
Me: hi
She: bye
Me: bye
She: hot stuff
Other girl: EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Me: -_-"
I thought to myself, yea whatever. Keep those comments to yourself. if you think I am ugly just do not say it at all. I know I am, no need to remind me. <_<
That was before I met the confidant that morning, just 5 minutes before. Great eh?

So well what I need to do is:

1. Spend less time online
2. Spend more time on homework
3. Spend more time with friends
4. Try to get to talk to people
5. Try to keep talking to them
6. Don't feel insecure and afraid when I am alone
7. Try to be a better friend
8. Discover new talents of myself to be proud of
9. Work on the relationship of my family
10. Be there for people in real life, who really need me who I can't reach because I can't seem to get in contact with people.

That's it for today I guess

]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10181264/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10181264/ Mon, 25 Sep 2006 10:32:04 PDT [x] Do you have long hair?
[ ] Do you like Beer?
[ ] Have you ever been in a Moshpit?
[ ]You don't believe in God? (lol I thought they meant that I blieved in god, so I checked but guess I was wrong. )
[ ] You got a Pentagram/heartogram on some clothing article etc.?
[ ] You own some spikes?
[x] Can you play guitar?
[ ] Can you growl?
[ ] Do you own Boots?
[ ] Do you rock out?
Total X: 2

--DRAMA GEEK--
[ ] Ever been in a play?
[ ] Have you ever seen a Broadway show?
[ ] More than 10 Broadway shows?
[ ] Have you ever been/are you in school shows?
[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater
[ ] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[x] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever!!
[ ] Do you like the 'Sound of Music'?
[ ] Did you like the Broadway show(s) you saw?
Total X: 1

--REDNECK--
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[ ] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[ ] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[ ] Do you like to get dirty? (((haha )))
[x] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[ ] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[ ] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy videos?
[ ] Do you live on more than 1 acres?
Total X: 1

--GOTH--
[ ] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[ ] Is most of your clothing dark?
[x] Do you think about death often?
[ ] Do you want to die?
[x] Are you a social outcast?
[x] Are you pale? ( a little )
[ ] Do you like Hot Topic?
[x] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies?
[ ] Are you mean? (no not really, I never intend to that is)
Total X: 4 (Oo

-SKATER/PUNK--
[ ] Can you skateboard?
[ ] Do you wear Skateboarding shoes?
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[ ] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[ ] Do you watch the x-games?
[ ] Do/did you have any piercings other than your ears?
[ ] Do you like/wear a mohawk?
[ ] Do you wear Band t-shirts?
[ ] Have you called someone a poser recently?
Total X: 1

--PREP--
[ ] Do you say the word "like".
[ ] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aero?
[ ] Do the people in Hot Topic scare you?
[x] Do u giggle alot when your'e with your friends/girlfriend/boyfriend?
[ ] Have/do you watch(ed) LAGUNA BEACH?
[ ] Do you like pop music?
[ ] Do you want/have a little dog?
[½] Do you laugh a lot? (at school with this guy, I do.. lol)
Total X: 1½

--HIPPIE--
[x] Is your hair long? (yeah Oo)
[x] Do you own a tye-dye shirt? (I think so)
[x] Do you want to save the animals?
[x] Do you think war is unnecessary?
[x] Do you like classic rock?
[x] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[x] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
[ ] Is your idea of fun sitting around one person playing a guitar and singing along?
[ ] Do you see someone playing frisbee and automatically ask to play?
Total X: 7 (lol yea I think this will be the best one XD)

--GANGSTA--
[ ] Do you act ghetto sometimes?
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[ ] Do you like rap?
[ ] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you like afros?
[ ] Have you ever said "Fo Sho"?
[ ] Do you like to dance?
[ ] Do You own 40 cd's...
[ ] Are you colored?
total X: 0 (no... not a gangsta )

--EMO-
[x] Do you cry often?
[ ] Do you wear hoodies?
[x] Do you like soft music?
[x] Do people not understand you? (need to deal with that a loooot)
[x] Do you write your own poems?
[ ] Do you dye your hair red, black, or any dark color?
[ ] Do you cut your own hair?
[x] Do you sometimes feel very lonely?
[ ] Is "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights a good song?
Total X: 5 (lol i am like 55% emo XD)


--SURFER--
[ ] Do you surf?
[ ] Do you wear flip flops all year around?
[ ] Is your hair shaggy/layered?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[x] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[ ] Do you think... ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10150652/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10150652/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 09:00:18 PDT I will have a talk to him on wednesday morning. =x
I printed out my life story -> bullying based. And gave it to him but thats only 30% of my life. Yeah I will complain and complain. He's there for me and he won't say like SOME people do: stop complaining, don't do this, etcetera...
Or grow up. Don't live in your past. What if my past has never been concluded? Yea I will probably talk about you guys as well, the ones who have been here for me and supported me. It really comforts me to know there are always people there for me. Though I have to say it here too that my real life friends well I am too shy to go to them and cry my lungs out. I never did that, I am scared they'll be shocked and dunno what to do... or angry. But then again if they become angry they aren't friends so I don't think they'll be angry but argh. My throat hurts, my chest hurts, my neck hurts. And just extremely tired. So sorry

Oh and I need to apologise for not replying to your work... It's just that I have been very tired lately. I am very sorry. ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10142637/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10142637/ Thu, 21 Sep 2006 12:53:48 PDT Yeah my friend and his friend went to the back of the class on the seats to the door. Well I just sat alone before them. Then this girl asked, is this seat taken?
Me: Uhh no. (I thought why the hell would she sit next to me)
She: oh is it ok if I move the table to their side? Me: Oo uh yea sure. So she grabbed the table and moved it to two girls who were sitting together. So there was no table besides me, and noone could even try to sit next to me EVEN if they wanted to. Well that was a bit annoying. Then there was this girl who usually sat in front of them, but she went sitting before me in the first place. So I thought like. Oh there is someone who is not afraid to sit in front of me.
-wrong- She grabbed her bag and went to sit on the other side of the class. So there I sat stretch out to the wall almost lying on my back in class.
I was like, who cares if they see me like this. I don't care about you people. Like I am carrying a discease.

Yeah I know I am not popular. I probably smell... lol
Also it doesn't hurt to sit next to me, it doesn't really...
But I am used to sitting alone. >_>
Been alone for years in class. getting questioned if I could talk. ~_~
And why I didn't talk, why I didn't want to talk.
Yeah I know noone probably wants to hear me saying all this shit but I just need to write this...

I am trying to get stronger, really. But I can't get to talk to people if they don't let me talk to them. I am trying my hardest and it's hard. Some people here don't understand that. It comes naturally to them. =/

But not to me... ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10127864/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/10127864/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 23:26:37 PDT But it's all okay, it's just a feeling that will pass away soon I guess ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9987623/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9987623/ Wed, 06 Sep 2006 22:25:59 PDT [ ] You have over 10 bottles of nail polish
[ ] You have a designer purse
[ ] You have something from Abercrombie
[ ] You have long nails
[ ] You are promised or have a car for your 16th bday
[ ] You have clothes or shoes or accesories for your pet
[ ] You have atleast 1 designer item of clothes
[ ] Your pet is a chiuaua, pomeranian, or siamese
[ ] You have a swimming pool
[ ] A pink comforter, walls or sheets
Total: 0

ARE YOU:
[ ] Blonde [dyed or natural]
[ ] Outgoing
[ ] Pretty
[ ] Rich
[ ] Dumb
[ ] Near your cell phone right now (Don't have one )
[ ] Going out with anyone now
[ ] Talking on your cell phone right now?
[ ] Listening to pop or top 40 music?
[ ] Wearing makeup now?
[ ] A shopaholic?
[ ] A shoe freak?
Total: 0

DO YOU LIKE:
[ ] Puppies
[x] Kitties
[ ] Makeup
[ ] Glitter
[ ] Guys
[ ] Money
[ ] Pink [the color]
[ ] Pink the brand by Victoria's Secret
[ ] Shopping
[x] Candy
[x] Talking
[x] Laughing
[ ] Jewelry
[ ] Shoes
[x] Love
[ ] Chick flicks
Total: 5 (WOW 5 at once Oo)

DO YOU SHOP AT/ BUY:
[ ] Hollister
[ ] Abercrombie & Fitch
[ ] American Eagle
[ ] Aeropostale
[ ] Claire's
[ ] Express
[ ] The Limited
[ ] Club Libby Lu
[ ] Kitson
[ ] Jimmy Choo
[ ] Armani
[ ] Juicy Couture
[ ] Sephora
[ ] Versace
[ ] Fendi
Total: 0

DO YOU SAY:
[ ] Slut
[ ] ***** ( Oo wtf?)
[ ] Bitch
[ ] Biotch
[x] Whatever
[x] Oh my god/gosh
[ ] That is so fetch
[ ] I heart you
[ ] Fugly
[ ] That's hot
[ ] Cali
[ ] Babe
[ ] Plush
[ ] Cutie
[ ] Hottie
Total: 2

OTHER:
[ ] In your school picture are you wearing something pink?()
[ ] Do you type like this: // && ~* ;; ::. __ (uhh no?)
[ ] gone to mall in the past 3 days?
[ ] Do you not play sports?
[ ] Do you wear jewelry almost every day?
[ ] Do you dye your hair?
[ ] Do you have nail polish on right now?
[ ] Have you ever had a bf?
[ ] Do you take all those magazine quizzes like "Does he like you?"?
[ ] Is your favorite holiday Valentine's Day?
[ ] Do you have a crush on Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom, Brad Pitt or Tom Cruise?
[ ] Have you met a celebrity?
[x] Have you ever written your first name with his last name?(once or twice...)
Total: 1

DO YOU OR HAVE YOU READ:
[ ] Seventeen
[ ] Cosmogirl
[ ] Teen People
[ ] Teen Vogue
[ ] Teen
[ ] Justine {o____o;; dude WHAT?!}
[ ] Prom magazines
[ ] Ellegirl
[ ] J-14( this and M are the ONLY ones i read lol )
[ ] M
[ ] Ym
[ ] Cosmopolitan
[ ] Glamour
[ ] Marie Claire
[ ] Elle
[ ] Vogue
[ ] Us weekly
[ ] Star
[ ] Tabloids
[ ] Gossip Girl
[ ] The Clique Series
[ ] The A-list series
[ ] The mates, dates series
[ ] The Georgia Nicholson Series
[ ] The It Girl series
[ ] The Au Pairs
[ ] The Hookup Artist
[ ] The Dating Game
[ ] South Beach
[ ] Ttyl
[ ] Ttfn
[ ] The Lovely Bones
Total: 0


HAVE YOU SEEN:
[ ] Legally Blonde
[ ] Legally Blonde 2
[ ] Mean Girls ( i want to ;_; )
[ ] American Pie {I EAT pies. .__.}
[ ] Not Another Teen Movie
[ ] Josie and the Pussycats
[ ] Never been kissed
[ ] Aquamarine
[ ] The Hot Chick
[ ] Beauty shop
[ ] Miss Congeniality
[ ] Miss Congeniality 2
[ ] Beautiful
[ ] Just My Luck
Total: 0

DO YOU WATCH:
[ ] America's Next Top Model
[ ] Project Runway
[ ] Next
[ ] My Super Sweet 16
[ ] Soaps
[ ] Hannah Montana
[ ] Unfabulous
[ ] Zoey 101
[ ] Lizzie Mcguire ( I hated it )
[x] Desperate Housewives (<_<
[ ] The Simple Life
[ ] 8th & Ocean
[ ] Friends
[ ] Sex & the City
[ ] The Fabulous Life of...
[ ] E!'s True Hollywood Story
[ ] The Real World
[ ] The O.C.
[ ] Laguna Beach
[ ] Miss America
[ ] Miss USA
[ ] Miss Teen USA
Total: 1

HAVE YOU BEEN TO:
[ ] Hawaii
[ ] Cali
[ ] The Bahamas
[ ] New York
[x] Paris
[ ] Italy
[ ] Florida
[ ] Las vegas
[ ] Russia
[ ] Canada
[... ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9947673/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9947673/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 04:39:25 PDT
Well I'll come to the point.... My computer will be moved downstairs today without internet. Also I can only be one hour a day on the computer and ONLY in the evening. Furthermore I can have one whole evening on the computer, either friday or saturday night. And well yea My computer won't be used anymore so I probably won't upload anything. Sometimes I'll check my messages but that's it. I guess I must bid you all farewell...

So good bye..

P.S I Will be there for you Jen all the time I can be here

P.S 2- That also means I won't become a G-Idol =/ ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9908976/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9908976/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 14:52:21 PDT (google idol)
With my sunglasses and the song: "I'm too sexy"
Which is actually pretty Ironic since I am too ugly XD
But I am as crazy like that. Be on the internet to be made a fool of
And I am hyper now and tomorrow I am going to practise. Later I will try to submit it and maybe... I will pass round 1. That is just my goal... lol
I mean the selections and round 1. If I passed that. I WILL NEED ALL OF YOUR HELP
for a new song that's funny and cool. XD
Yeah call me crazy but I am crazy enough to do it. hehehe
I doubt I will get selected but if I might win the whole thing. I will say I am sexy. *coughs*

Okay here's the deal. If win the first round after the selection I will wear sunglasses to school

Oh and I don't know much with submitting and stuff on g-idol. So well I'll just see. It is in my head now and don't try to change my mind ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9858522/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9858522/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 05:35:11 PDT So yeah I dunno much about it or where it came from, well saw it on om6..

So...

Are you afraid of...

[x] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] bird
[x] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying on a plane
[ ] flowers or other plants
[]x being touched
[x] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[x] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cotton balls
[x] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[x] large crowds
[ ] crossing bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors
[x] tornadoes
[x] hurricanes
[x] diseases
[ ] snakes
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[x] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] being blind
[x] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] monsters under my bed
[x] creepy noises during the night
[x] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles
[x] blood
[ ] long words such as hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia


25 Oo... *runs away and hides in a corner* ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9758432/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9758432/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 09:58:12 PDT She was my gf 2 years ago.
I hadn't seen her in a year after she disappeared, got a new bf and now after 6 months she came back and she got married...

You see your whole past relationship before you. Well it's kind of new for me... I never experienced anything like this. But I am happy for her that she is happy.

Anyway that relationship has been gone a long time.

It's strange how things work out.
But I don't care about it anymore,

There is a new future for me waiting. ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9708897/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9708897/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 02:34:53 PDT though it's quite hard to reply to everyone's work. That would be insane 25x30=750 at least. So that's not what I'll do but watch your messages cause they'll increase. I know some of my friends are "dead" as in never coming back but still I like their work so it would be useless to comment on dead accounts.

Let's see

I want to thank all who appreciates my art.
Writing poems is hard in english cause it isn't my native language so kind of hard to write if I don't have that extended vocabulary.

It makes me very happy each time I read one of your comments. It inspires me and makes me want to do more.

Well that's it for the journal for today.

Stay healthy
be happy
^_^ ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9687765/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9687765/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 07:35:45 PDT Look I don't mind wether you see me as a guy or woman I mean I don't care really.

It's that I feel a little feminine myself so I don't really care. Oh and for the guys: Being seen as a woman doesn't mean you're a wimp or pussy. got it?

And in some way I like to be a woman sometimes in online games, it's way easier to express yourself when people see you as a woman.

Another note for the guys: If we hug each other we are not considered to be gay. Got it?

Good, I knew you would understand.

I am a guy, and though I may act like a crybaby, and though I may be very sensitive and though I may be overreacting on things. And even though I may annoy you. Just live with it. It's how I am.

I am myself, and though I may be too sweet for the society there are a few people who see the true me and do not see me as girly but as

Marin the friendly, caring guy.


That's it for today I guess ^^ ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9651411/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9651411/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:13:28 PDT

Don't comment me how bad smoking is. I know it, I am 18 and have made the decission to do so, so all comments how bad it is will be ignored.

Thank you and happy reading ^_^


Today (well actually yesterday since it's 1am) I met Lianne, a girl I met 2 years ago because of my own game I made. And we had a lot of fun.
We played Final Fantasy X, eye toy and some ** in one game those old game things in the 80's combined. And it was fun. We also hang out and smoked cigs and she always told me to bring my bubble blow thingy along. We made smoke bubbles outside on a bench but the wind was strong so it destroyed the bubbles very easily so we went later in the shed. And it became so smokey XD
It was funny as I taught her some smoke tricks and we blowed smoke bubbles again. Her dad came in and opened the door causing it to hit my back, but it didn't hit me that hard
Well we hugged now and then.

At first when I met her we both opened our arms and hugged each other. Both smiling as we were happy to finally meet each other in real life.
later she told me she was happy to know me in real life and we just had lots of fun. Hanging out at the skate place wasn't that much fun though since I'm very shy. There were a few crazy girls there and it was pretty weird. Also one guy. later another girl came and said. Hey I love long hair. Long hair looks cool on guys.
Me: uh yeah I guess

Well Lianne stole like 4 cigs of me but I don't mind, I'm happy to be friends with her and she's cool. On Msn and as well in real life.

Lianne is a sweet girl and we had a great time together. I'm sure we'll meet again. And hurray for the first girl meeting success for me

I can tell you that the other 4/5 were awful.
But this makes it all right.
Maybe we go D&D when I meet her again or go bowling with Melissa.

This day was a new great experience. ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9583875/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9583875/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 02:53:00 PDT
1) [x] smoked
2) [ ] consumed alcohol
3) [X] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) [ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) [ ] kissed someone of the same sex
6) [-] had sex (Half?)
7) [X] had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) [x] watched porn
9) [_] bought porn (I only got it delivered at home cause of a prank joke)
10)[x] done drugs

TOTAL: 4½


11) [X] taken pain killers
12) [_] taken someone else's prescription medicine
13) [X] lied to your parents
14) [X] lied to a friend
15) [X] snuck out of the house
16) [_] done something illegal
17) [_] cut yourself (it almost comes to that but never for real)
18) [x] hurt someone (My brother)
19) [X] wished someone to die
20) [_] seen someone die

TOTAL: 6


21) [x] missed curfew (yes a few times my mom called me up 3x lol)
22) [_] stayed out all night
23) [_] eatin a carton of ice cream by yourself
24) [_] been to a therapist
25) [_] been to rehab (what is rehab?)
26) [_] dyed your hair
27) [_] recieved a ticket
28) [_] been in an accident
29) [X] been to a club
30) [X] been to a bar

TOTAL: 3


31) [_] been to a wild party
32) [_] seen the Mardi Gras
33) [_] tried to kill someone (I almost choked my sister once)
34) [_] had a spring break in Florida
35) [_] sniffed anything (No I'm not a druggy)
36) [_] wore black nail polish
37) [_] wore arm bands
38) [_] wore t-shirts with band names (I have t-shirt with FF7 though)
39) [x] listened to rap
40) [_] own 50 cent cd

TOTAL: 1


41) [_] dressed gothic
42) [_] dressed prep (Prep??Oo)
43) [_] dressed punk
44) [_] dressed grunge
45) [_] stole something
46) [_] been too drunk to remember anything
47) [_] blacked out
48) [_] fainted
49) [_] had a crush on your neighbour
50) [X] had someone sneak into your room (unfortunately my sister (13) still
does when her friends are here)

TOTAL: 1


51) [x] snuck into some one else's room (to my brother with his gf they were
doing something that is not allowed to see for kids. xD)
52) [x] had a crush on your best friend's sib. other
53) [x] been to a concert
54) [_] dry humped someone (what is that?)
55) [_] been called a slut
56) [_] called someone a slut
57) [_] installed speakers in your car
58) [_] broke a mirror
59) [x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house (I did, at the
exchange project)
60) [X] brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush

TOTAL: 5


61) [_] consider ludacris your favorite rapper
62) [x] seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) [X] cruised the mall
64) [X] skipped school (too much to count)
65) [_] had an eating disorder
66) [X] had an injury
67) [_] gone to court
68) [_] walked out of a resteraunt without paying
69) [_] caught something on fire
70) [X] lied about your age (well yea I had to tell them I was younger =/)

TOTAL: 5


71) [_] owned an apartment
72) [_] cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) [_] cheated with someone
74) [_] got in trouble with the police
75) [X] talked to a stranger
76) [x] hugged a stranger (stranger hugged me)
77) [_] kissed a stranger
78) [_] rode in the car with a stranger
79) [_] been sexually harrassed
80) [x] been verbally harrassed (extremely much)

TOTAL: 3


81) [x] met face to face with someone you met online
82) [X] stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) [_] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
84) [_] watched tv for 12 hours straight
85) [X] been to a fair
86) [x] been called a bad influence
87) [X] cursed
88) [_] prank called someone
89) [X] laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) [x] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 7


91) [X] cheated on homework
92) [_] held hands with someone of the same sex
93) [X] pushed someone into a pool
94) [X] played pool
95) [_] watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) [_] had a crush on someone 8 years older than you
97) [X] had a crush on someone younger than you
98) [_] wear eyeliner
99) [X] skinny dipped (the sauna )
100) [_] laughed at a retarded person in a wheelcha... ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9562819/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9562819/ Tue, 01 Aug 2006 07:05:16 PDT I'll upload a lot of them that I think are pretty. ^^ ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9521049/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9521049/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 09:37:12 PDT I also visited pamukale the hot chalk streams there are very beautiful. The place was just amazing. I will upload the pictures on tuesday and I hope you'll like them as much as I did taking photo's of it. The weather was nice too, it never rained at the coast and I got a brown skin Oo
Bad thing was that I got sunburned on my shoulders at the third day til the 7th day. Other than that it was neat.
I saw a lot of fishes in the sea and it was pretty funny how some of the fishes hid underneath me in groups. When I looked at them they gave me puppydogeye looks. XD

I slept for 15 - 18 hours when I got there and when I got home. That happens if you don't sleep for 24 hours.

Marin is back and here for you whenever you need him. ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9244450/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/9244450/ Sat, 01 Jul 2006 18:05:18 PDT
Why do I always feel so lonely when I got friends.
I want to hang out with them but on the other side I don't know.
I feel like I am wasting my life.
I will go to turkey on the 12th of Juli. And hmm I dunno I am not even looking forward to it. I am looking forward to this meeting I will have with this girl. She's nice and I don't care if she got a boyfriend. I mean I just want to meet her.

After my past relationship. Questions have been going through my head.

Am I too sensitive?
Too easily upset? Too kind?
Too... myself?

Let me get this straight. My first love thought I was too sweet.
My second one found me too annoying
My third found me too sweet and too annoying too.

Hmm. Combination of both. Hmmmmmm

Ok this is not a journal anymore I guess but still I want this to be written.
I probably get hate comments after I post this but I don't care now.

What do I still want in life?

I want to feel beloved, and I want to be in the arms of someone that TRULY cares about me and LOVES me. I really am tired of giving everything in a relationship. I want some feedback. >_>

I am tired of girls telling me what to do. How I should react, how I should smile how I should be PERFECT for THEM.

You know I am myself and like it or not, I will be more comfortable with being myself. trust me on that.


On to the next topic?

This life is just weird. I wonder everyday why I have been here.
I have been analysing people from different countries.

My conclusion:

Teenagers drink too much. as well as older people. But teenagers just like to be drunk. It's a pity they don't understand what I am going through because of it. No I don't drink but still have to face it.

Lots of people who smoke, also smoke weed. And if they don't smoke they smoke weed. They say the Netherlands (my country) is all about weed.
To tell you the truth. Usa is. 74% of the people there smoke weed.
At least out of the people 15+

People here all care about discotheques and drinking. It's as if they don't ever think about anything else. Also they try to get oversosis alcohol whenever there's a party.

The girl part:

And I hear that girls have a (birthday)party everyday. I mean like wtf? 256 friends? No it's my friend's friend birthday... ohh I see. :/

They are also more busy than men. Why? Because they have more friends -> more parties. More parties -> more friends -> more parties.
If you ask them what they do for their sparetime, it's.... Chatting, Sms'ing. Have sex. Listening to music. I mean, what's the fun in that. Oh did I mention partying already?

Well that is what I wanted to say.

Weird society, weird people, weird me. ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/8874051/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/8874051/ Thu, 25 May 2006 13:16:20 PDT *inside joke*
Don't feel offended. But it's not safe as a black sheep between 100 white sheep. Oo'
There are only yellow sheep now, well very light brown. Hmm... Where did that sheep go. ]]> ~viviones http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/8770333/ http://viviones.deviantart.com/journal/8770333/ Sun, 14 May 2006 16:02:08 PDT ~viviones