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Enjoy it while its there...

God Bless and good luck on everything..

You all have my SN...
Take care of yourselves...
everyone..

If I end up creating a new Account.. and you are worth contacting I will let you know.. till then.. bye

-Chris ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/433775/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/433775/ Thu, 09 Jan 2003 19:05:49 PST
Enjoy it while its there...

God Bless and good luck on everything..

You all have my SN...
Take care of yourselves...
everyone..

-Chris ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/431859/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/431859/ Wed, 08 Jan 2003 16:43:55 PST This is a family
I count on you...
...You count on me

I am truly cursed with the mark of the Judas..

I have noticed time pass me by..
Burning all hope that stands in my way.
Just leaving the obstacles so i can lose foot and fall further.

I guess things are ment to happen for a reason...
Maybe im not a good person...
Maybe I shouldnt be around all these people...
Maybe I should just move on and move out...
But shut myself out from exsistance.

Jesus Christ i miss her...



On the run from johnny law and this aint no trip to cleveland ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/420758/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/420758/ Thu, 02 Jan 2003 07:19:57 PST This is a family
I count on you...
...You count on me

Does it really make things better being a Realist?
....

Sometimes i question my own human compilation..

Do I really deserve the things that happen to me?
I dont know...
Maybe
Maybe not..
But they happen anyway... even if I dont deserve them..

So i just except my hatered...
Even if its from the people i love most..

It doesnt hurt me that they hate me...
It hurts me why they hate me..
The reason behind all this reckless rage...
The point there trying to make really has no direction
Let alone any foundation....

So whats the point...
Do i care?
yes...
A lot?
no....
About certian friends like Melissa and Zack and chris?
yes...
Enough to ruin my life
Not at all...
But enough for me to have nothing to say anymore
yes..


Knowledge is Certian doom...

Ignorance is retarded paradise...

Death is the easy way out...

True romance is the hardest task of all..

Will i ever find it?
no....
They will just keep hateing and hateing...

Time is a pattern... This pattern has order...
The order is hate in my case...
So this pattern shall not be broken in my favor..


-Chris



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D3lete




Bury your Fucking dead ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/411179/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/411179/ Fri, 27 Dec 2002 11:21:01 PST This is a family
I count on you...
...You count on me


I am the Realist...
I found out why i cant let go of her..
Because she means to much to me to just leave..
I wont just let go..
If i knew there was no hope i would let go...
But i feel hope...
Yet i still feel Loseing all hope is freedom..
I guess i am a prisoner to my Humaine beliefs..
I can walk out on something if i wanted too...
But i choose i dont want to.. I would rather waste my time
Then know i never tried..

Melissa this one goes out to you...
I still love you as much as the first day.
I know it may heart that I cant let go..
But i know i never did anything..
I have names upon names that know me for who i am
They know i wouldnt ruin anything as beautiful as this...
Or what was...

Chris....


O well ...
Love
--------------
Love to Melissa.. I see something in you.. that no one else sees.. You hold the best of me. I still love you more then any girl i have ever known.. your something truly different
Love to Catie... Your a true friend.. to the very end
Love to Mona.. Your as great as the first day i spoke to you
Love to Ronnie..You dont have to be blood to be family...I love you ronnie..
Love to Richard.. Such a sweet friend...
Love to Rachel.. You always cared to much.. shed to many tears over me.. Your the sister i never had
Love to Danny.. Where do i begin... Your just as good as ronnie and Richard.. But you and me have went through the same problems.. Family... Your the best Danny...


Family
-----------------
Love to Carlos....You are my brother ..
You are the person who keeps me moving on
My human Insperation...
To module my life like yours.
I know i have disgraced my name..
But i still love you ever after...
Your my only family....
You and Michelle..
I remember that Thanksgiving where i was home alone.. and you can and got me...... YOur the best. I love you

----Chris


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D3lete




Bury your Fucking dead ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/410897/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/410897/ Fri, 27 Dec 2002 07:36:33 PST This is a family
I count on you...
...You count on me


Well.......

I have nothing much to say anymore...
Besides...

We are all parting this world alone...

I still miss Melissa greatly..
I dont know why.
I know I didnt say anything.. i would normally let it go.. but i cant...

I like her so much...
I just want to be draged out of my house and shot..
I hate this whole situation...
I hate myself for whatever I did...


All my friends are filling her head with bullshit...
I herd from other people what they were saying.. Now everyone is mad at me... my true friends know i would never do such a thing.. But they dont care much enough to do anything they just tell me to move on..
I know there is a tommorow.. I just want to go back to yesterday...
I want to movie back and find out where this all started...


O well ...

Hate to myself
Love to Catie
Love to Ronnie
Love to Richard
Love to Danny
Hate to myself
Hate to myself
Hate to myself
Hate to myself
Hate to myself
Hate to myself
Hate to myself
Hate to myself
Hate to myself


Bury your Fucking dead ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/404178/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/404178/ Sun, 22 Dec 2002 20:19:54 PST Take your medicine like a Champ


Eh... Well nothing i can really say anymore
Dont you hate when you know you didnt so something wrong but everyone says you did.... dont you hate that....

Well anyways..

List of things gone wrong
1. Almost got arested in a Riot.
2. Knee Cap... Unknown source of pain... but it started with me collapsing and a lot of cracking sounds...
3. Melissa hates me for something i didnt do (again)
4. I hate myself
5. I hate myself
6. I hate myself
7. Melissa doesnt understand and everytime i try to explain it to her something else happends so now im just shit out of fucking luck.
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Things that went good today
1. My mom was being super nice
2. Thank the person who made Pain relievers...
3. Got home from GainsvilleFest unarested...
4. I lived thought Converge
5. I hate Myself

What im gonna try to do is rally up all my friends and see who was talking shit and who wasnt.. and im gonna have Melissa Present cause im tired of this whole Fucking bullshit situation.



Love to Mona.
Love to Catie..
Love to Ronnie even though your slightly Burnt..
Love to RICHARD!
Love to Dannie
You guys are what make me wake up everyday and smile that fuckin dumb smile i always have on..

Fucking jerks.. i love em


Fl hXc













Bury your Fucking dead ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/400041/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/400041/ Thu, 19 Dec 2002 21:52:56 PST Take your medicine like a Champ


Today was a beautiful day... Filled with blood and broke hopes.. Then turned into a different view when Melissa showed up... Everything was cool we talked... she hit me in the face.. i punched her in the leg like 50 times (out of love) Then we talked a little more and she left..

Well today i saw Catie for the first time
~FallingSkies
She is one of the coolest people i know
She is intresting and fun to talk to...
Anyways we went to see The Young and the Useless.. O man they made me .... stand still and enjoy the moment.. im not dancing till tommorow i told myself that millions of times

Well anyways Gainsvillie Fest... O man.. you better Believe it.. SoooooooooOOOOOOOOoooooooooo Excitied...


Anyways I still think there is something between me and Melissa she seems to still have something for me deep down somewhere in her..

Well none the less im off to rest for the show and gather all this power and rage in me and get ready



Love to Melissa
Love to Mona.
Love to Catie..
Love to Ronnie even though your slightly Burnt..
Love to RICHARD!
Love to Dannie
You guys are what make me wake up everyday and smile that fuckin dumb smile i always have on..

Fucking jerks.. i love em


Fl hXc










Its beautiful how things turn out... ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/396709/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/396709/ Tue, 17 Dec 2002 18:35:17 PST Take your medicine like a Champ

Well Me and Melissa are just nothing now... We talked it out.. We really dont fit into eachothers lives anymore...
I guess it workes out for the better... maybe ...maybe not..
But what can i say....
Well the sun Still sleeps....
Everything will just be a memory...
Move on..
Move out...
Move around...
I guess this is the funny thing about time

Its the end of an era...

The birth of a new time...

The death of a spirit....

The rebirth of silent soul...

Ill still love her.. But she will just keep moving on.. and it hurts because I do something so nice.. and it was switched around and totally fucked and now im dicked out of this girl I love..
Fuck me for being nice..
Fuck me for doing anything nice..
Fuck me


Fl hXc








Its beautiful how things turn out....without her everything just gets even harder to find ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/394346/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/394346/ Mon, 16 Dec 2002 09:53:27 PST Take your medicine like a Champ

Well... Last night was one of the worst nights i have had in a long time...
Things were said by another friend of mine to Melissa.. and now she hates my guts in a way.. I really love her a lot and now i dont think me and her will get to go out.. But im more worried about her.. I dont want her to suffer again.. I dont know what i did.. I didnt say anything .. But im so sorry.. Now just knowing she is mad at me is ripping me in two.. I really really care for her so much and now this comes up.. At the time where i wanted to ask her if she would be mine.. Now i can only hug my memories... and kiss my self and just remind myself there are more out there.. But none like her.. she was something different.. out of all the girls i dated ever.. she.... She is something new.. She looked deep into me and saw things no one cared to look for.. Now that she is gone I feel the Romance is dead. I dont think its perminant but i think its harder to have a Relationship now that this happend.. All i wanna do is just kiss her and tell her that i would take everything back..

Well the sun Still sleeps....

Fl hXc






Its beautiful how things turn out....without her everything just gets even harder to find ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/389864/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/389864/ Fri, 13 Dec 2002 12:29:34 PST Take your medicine like a Champ


Southeastern College
Lakeland, FL

Dead Poetic(solid state)
My Existence
The Wonder Years Project
The Young

free show @ 7pm

Yeah im leaving in T- Minus 40 minutes..

I really wanna talk to Melissa.. Im trying to get my words together on how im gonna ask her out.. I really like her alot. And i dont really ask for much in a relationship. I just want her..
Anyways Richard is on his way to come get me for the show,
Well anyways..

Love to Melissa
Love to Mona
Love to Ronnie.
Everyone take it easy


Well anyways.. Lots of love to anyone who reads this bullshit.

Fl hXc




Its beautiful how things turn out ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/376394/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/376394/ Wed, 04 Dec 2002 21:35:31 PST Take your medicine like a Champ


O my god.. Fuckin best night ever.. i saw Dillinger.. I saw Norma Jean... How much fuckin cooler can it get.. I got to see the Beautiful talent of the Elvis like Norma Jean.

Then i got to see the flames rise from Dillinger Escape plan. I sorta got hit in the face again.. which inturn started my nose to start bleeding... (again)

Well on other news...

Um yeah i still love Melissa Face .. even though she doesnt love me as much in return.. But it doesnt hurt showing how much you care for a person right???!

Yeah.. I guess I like her too much sometimes i worry about where drugs might take her some day..

Its so funny... you know.. the Straight Edge thing..
I love being Poison free.. I love find other ways to entertain myself now then falling around some random girls bedroom. (The old days)

How the needles of life popped a whole on the veins of time and showed me that maybe now all i need to do is get over this fuckin Mickey mouse bullshit (drugs) and get on to bigger and better things (Melissa).

Well I just hope one day she will see my love for her and maybe concider taking me in her arms in return.


Well anyways.. Lots of love to anyone who reads this bullshit.

Fl sXe | hXc
XxX Poison Free XxX


Its beautiful how things turn out ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/373543/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/373543/ Tue, 03 Dec 2002 07:45:38 PST Its hard to see when your eyes are rolling
Well Me and Melissa.. Found out we a different people.
Maybe one day she will want a relationship and come back to me. But till then its time to shed blood. Dillinger escape plan is wednesday.. So im gonna go fucking tear it up and get every part of me to break lose. Time to lose all hope. Loseing all hope is freedom. So I welcome pain.

Pain i welcome you to...
Come in to me....
Rip me in two.
Destroy me...
Before the enemy that is me Comes out

-Chris


Its beautiful how things turn out ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/370823/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/370823/ Sun, 01 Dec 2002 15:36:08 PST Its hard to see when your eyes are rolling

Dec. 1

Today Melissa came over and watched the rest of Donnie Darko with me.
She seemed a litle irritated with me.
I guess i was being a jerk or something.
But i dont know. I like her alot and sometimes i dotn know what to say and she just looks at me . Waiting for something to be said.. But i dont know. Its all down to her.. All i can offer her is my honest love and my Persona. The rest is left up to her if she wants to connect and make this relationship move on.


Well other then that i watched another movie..
Got my film Developed.
Worked out.
Bought new shoes and a belt
Saw my old Bestfriend.
Lit insense and dipped into a deep state of mind.

None the less i hope everything with Melissa turns out great.

-Chris


Its beautiful how things turn out ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/370806/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/370806/ Sun, 01 Dec 2002 15:28:10 PST Its hard to see when your eyes are rolling

Dec. 1

Today melissa came over and finished Donnie Darko with me..
She didnt seem to want to be there.
I dont know what to say.. I really like her alot and want to ask her out but i sorta want to make sure she likes me alot also. Because if i get a relationship started i went them to sorta stay for longer then two weeks.

Updates
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Rhythm of Hearts
Carved Desire
Sparta
Couple of others.

I got my photos developed so i will scan them and submit them soon.


Well wish me luck with Melissa

Thanks



Its beautiful how things work out ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/366466/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/366466/ Thu, 28 Nov 2002 20:06:28 PST Its hard to see when your eyes are rolling

Well Melissa just left.

Seemed like we had an interesting time. Very good vibes in the air.
Seems like we keep getting closer and closer everytime we see each other..

ThanksGiving...
Very very boring...

Didnt enjoy it as much as i thought i would
ate a steak.
Sat in my room..
Melissa came over...
Relaxed...
wrote..
thought..
Talked..
listened to music...

When i put it that way it seems like the best thanksgiving i ever had.


-Chris

]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/355935/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/355935/ Thu, 21 Nov 2002 21:40:33 PST Its hard to see when your eyes are rolling


Well today today....
Today i stayed home all day and wrote Sparta.
Seems to be a great Piece. I enjoy the way it rolls off my tounge when i read it outloud.
All the words blend well i think.

Anyways... Talk to Melissa.. What a wonderful Conversation that was

Talk to mona.. Quick but great...

Talk to Joe... another awsome Conversation.

All other then that it seemed to be such a promising day.
Everything seemed to beautifully come together...
But at the same time everything seemed to easily break apart.
When i found some tapes of my father.. i had to watch them.. i missed seeing his face so much.. its funny how time works..

You can see someone in a movie.. you can stand where you were standing in the tape and do what you were doing in the tape hopeing that it might bring him back... but he is gone forever.. and all i can do is go to where i last was with him and bury my sadness in the sand.

-Chris

"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/348937/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/348937/ Sun, 17 Nov 2002 07:17:38 PST -18 vis.


Well i think i gotta go to the Hospital today.. My nose seems to be Fractured. At the show Friday night i was in the hardcore pit during the last song. i was doing some heal kicks and i got fucking kicked in Nose.. Blood went everywhere .. but i danced it out for the last 3 minutes.. i have a picture of my favorite band so im fuckin so happy


"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/346263/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/346263/ Fri, 15 Nov 2002 04:03:38 PST
Tonight is the Atreyu concert... You better believe im gonna take alot of pictures... o yes

Atreyu is gonna rock my socks off
The show 2 weeks ago was good with 18 vis. .... but i wish they would have played better. The lead singer has Black lung.. But i still love them.

Well if you get this before i upload... you will see a shit load of concert photos im gonna take

Other news
My Radio station will be back up tommorow.
so if you guys wanna hear the music i listen to just leave a message and send you a messege telling when it will be on... and what will be playing







"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/314230/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/314230/ Tue, 22 Oct 2002 16:53:14 PDT Current Music: Chimaira- Lumps
Well my Computer is fucking broken so i wont be able to update for about 1 week so just leave me a whole bunch of messages and i will take alot of pictures for the upcoming Chaos.

Anyways so long and see you soon..

Waiting4Chaos
"Chris"




"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/306265/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/306265/ Wed, 16 Oct 2002 00:44:12 PDT Current Music: Chimaira - Severed

Everything is so faraway..

Nothing seems fun anymore.. Steve is the only thing that brings my world to a balance.. he is like my brother . All we do is hang out all day and do nothing but talk . sometimes fight but mostly talk. Even thought he is great he only can do so much for me.. and im afraid that he will lose intrest in me and i will be flung into a world known as Pergitory..
I cant feel myself anymore
my art is the only thing that can help me tap into my emotion now.. But i feel that fading.. its starting to fall lose and out.'

Feels like im passing out of Existance.
maybe its my Forced Life.

Well anyways this is enough for now

Signing off
-Chris Williams

With my feet upon the ground I lose myself
between the sounds and open wide to suck it in,
I feel it move across my skin.
I'm reaching up and reaching out,
I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me.
And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been.
We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been.

Spiral out. Keep going, going...



"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/297982/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/297982/ Tue, 08 Oct 2002 23:03:57 PDT Current Music: Tool - Lateralis

Fuckin jen.... i wish i could let her know how much i still miss her.. Her touch... her kiss... her hug.... Her....

So instead im gonna listen to music, get drunk and forget about this void in me for a bit...


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Lateralis
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Black then white are all I see in my infancy.
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.
lets me see.
As below, so above and beyond, I imagine
drawn beyond the lines of reason.
Push the envelope. Watch it bend.

Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines.

Black then white are all I see in my infancy.
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.
lets me see there is so much more
and beckons me to look through to these infinite possibilities.
As below, so above and beyond, I imagine
drawn outside the lines of reason.
Push the envelope. Watch it bend.

Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
Withering my intuition leaving all these opportunities behind.

Feed my will to feel this moment urging me to cross the line.
Reaching out to embrace the random.
Reaching out to embrace whatever may come.

I embrace my desire to
feel the rhythm, to feel connected
enough to step aside and weep like a widow
to feel inspired, to fathom the power,
to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain,
to swing on the spiral
of our divinity and still be a human.

With my feet upon the ground I lose myself
between the sounds and open wide to suck it in,
I feel it move across my skin.
I'm reaching up and reaching out,
I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me.
And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been.
We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been.

Spiral out. Keep going, going...



"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/278156/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/278156/ Sat, 21 Sep 2002 18:00:01 PDT Current Music: Poison the well -TornWell tonight is gonna make me forget somethings that i need


to forget. To maybe have one more night without her face poping back into my head and making me wish for things to be differnt.. Making me wish for things to go back to those 4 days of happiness.. Making me wish..

Pass out of existance..















"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/275139/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/275139/ Wed, 18 Sep 2002 20:37:23 PDT Current Music: Poison the well -Torn
Well anyways im at the end of my rope.. I think on the other end of that rope is gonna be my throat.. Yeah im sure its gonna be. I miss the girl i used to love.. The girl i used to know. The girl who used to understand me.

steve is the only one around to understand me right now. He understands me alot. At least more then these asshole Doctors or teachers... but who do i have to hold me.. To tell me they care for me..
To Cry on me when they need there Problems worked with...

Well maybe when im not drunk ill write more.. But till then Lights out..










"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/266630/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/266630/ Wed, 11 Sep 2002 03:57:22 PDT Current Music: Dillinger Escape Plan - Poisen the wellFighting for what you believe in hurts....
Hurts so bad..
I believe in love but i also believe in being hopeless.
im stuck in this same Parabola.
Maybe tonight i ykiss the moon....
Maybe tonight i hug the stars...
Maybe tonight i hold the world on my sholders

GET DOWN!!!

Shut up ...
Sit Down ...
Stop Whining...








"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/266090/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/266090/ Tue, 10 Sep 2002 16:43:32 PDT Current Music: Dillinger Escape Plan - mullet Burden

Looks like its just me and you steve..
Best Pals till the end.
Christ im just gonna go back to the old squad...
Me , Ronnie , Richard , Zackiepoo, nat , Who ever else is cool that will like me for who i am and not play games with..
Looks like me and jen are done for.
Well she is done with me or something..
But hey you know.
whatever
its what i get for being caring in this world

Just a Fuckin Ugly loser dork guy right or em i right?

Like it matters
O Well Chris tak it easy
Ronnie ill see you later
Steve ill see you tommorow
The world ill see you in hell

GET DOWN!!!

Shut up ...
Sit Down ...
Stop Whining...








"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/258190/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/258190/ Tue, 03 Sep 2002 18:59:45 PDT Current Music: The Deftones -Digital Bath

I dont want to make people smile
I just want to be quite and write
I would do anythign to be born mute.
Just to have no voice and take the time to bequite and listen sometimes
Im a Horriable listener
GOd help me out with this one
i already know you hate me

I love you jen
I love you steve
you guys are my life......
.

-Love
Chris Williams






"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/256248/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/256248/ Mon, 02 Sep 2002 09:46:07 PDT Current Music: Chimaira - Pass out of Existance

I have no beggining nor end.
No start yet no finish.
Useless to the feeling
Destroyed to the backround
torched in my humanity
Takin from my reality
tonight i kiss the moon
i wish with the stars
i taste the chrisp summer night air
i put up the walls
sit forever
sit
.

-Love
Chris Williams






"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/253837/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/253837/ Sat, 31 Aug 2002 09:11:42 PDT Current Music: Chimaira - Pass out of Existance

Well i had a dream that made me so pist when i woke up

I had a dream that me and Jen were going out and we stayed at the beach for 3 days ....

Hopefully that was a Preminision.
Jus with a little bit of luck and if my stars are in the right place
maybe..
maybe soon...

She went to Kassimee again.
we blew off the talking thing and jus had alot of fun.
But when she comes back ill talk to her.
Ill let her know how i feel.
In person so there is no hiding away of emotion
no distance between one another.
just me and her....
talking about us
if there is one in her world.


-Love
Chris Williams




"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/250212/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/250212/ Wed, 28 Aug 2002 11:16:10 PDT Current Music: Chimaira - Pass out of Existance

Well now she thinks im too good for her.
I sat up all last night watching the stars on my roof again.
I spent about 2 hours Convinicing her thats she is what i look for.
what i search for..
What i wait for.

Well im going to holland in the Fall..
Gonna go up there and spend a month at the beach.

Well ill post more tonight.. im real sickish right now.


-Love
Chris Williams



"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/245415/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/245415/ Sat, 24 Aug 2002 17:31:29 PDT Current Music: Chimaira:Lumps

Why does god Hate me so much

Tink doesnt think i like her,
I have been waiting a fuckin month and a half for an answer from her but all i get is her dad telling me that she skiped town when she told me she would call me back.

I guess she doesnt like me in the way i like her.
I guess im standing on her to much.
I guess she wont want what i have to offer.
I guess..
this is what i get.


Chris Williams

"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/244152/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/244152/ Fri, 23 Aug 2002 19:36:00 PDT Current Music: Chimaira:Lumps
Fuck it all...


Im postive God hates me now.
I think im gonna ask Nikki out hopefull if what steve said is remotely Acurate.... most likely not though since god is gonn fuckin tear me in half one day...
"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/237356/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/237356/ Sun, 18 Aug 2002 17:21:35 PDT Current Music: Kittie-Brackish

Well im at the end of my rope.
The crossing at a bridge with no steps..
Russian Rolet with 6 bullets...
No chance ...
Life hates me

Im sifting threw the pages of my life and cutting my finger on every corner...
Why cant my friends get what is rightfully theres...
Why cant they be happy.. im gonna make it my lifes purpose to make them happy now...


"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/232220/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/232220/ Thu, 15 Aug 2002 03:38:36 PDT Current Music: Tool-AEnima

Some say the end is near...
Some say a comet will end it all...
But alot of dumbfounded Dipshits will be standing there when i ...

I preying for rain......


I preying for Tital Waves.....

I Preying to see it all come down...

I preying te it come down and out..

And you swim...
And you swim....
And you fuckin swim....

Waiting4chaos
"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/228050/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/228050/ Mon, 12 Aug 2002 00:06:26 PDT Current Music: Dead Poetic - August Winterman
Well i talk to tink tonight... for like 2 1/2 hours... We Covered almost everything i wanted too.... I love her so much and i wish she would understand. I think she does but she needs to find herself before she can find me. But ill be holding a Lantern at the end of that dark and whinding road.
Waiting for her to love me in return.
Waiting for her to love me.
Waiting.

Steve you are my brother in everyway. I love you man. SO much its so hard for me to even show it in Writing and speech.
Jus remember whatever happens in your life i always will be there. No matter what happends..
Autumn may not see it in you..
Maybe not now...
Maybe not ever...
Maybe soon...

But its a chance you and me take.
A chance to fall inlove with the women we so Deeply Respect and have found to be are soulmates.. Jus show no signs of defeat and always let her know that you will follow her to the end of time my brother. Because you know you and me would do it for them.


...


~Love Chris.
"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams

To the end of time. Thats where i know i wont stop .

-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/225490/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/225490/ Fri, 09 Aug 2002 21:57:29 PDT Current Music: The Deftones - My own Summer

Tink my love... When the fuck are you gonna come home Jesus Christo.

?? Who the fuck Smokes Tabacco out of a fuckin water bong. Thats the most stupidest shit ive herd in my life. ME and 15 of my friend are laughing are ass's of at this Morning Star Asshole. He sell's bongs... Thats ok. But once you say its for fuckin Tabacco and that Salvia shit. Come on. I mean really who the fuck buys a bong to smoke the shit you can jus roll in like 1 minute. Well Steve ill have to give you a on what happend today my friend. Jesus Christo if Joey broke my cam im gonna waste his ass.

If he trys to run i have 6 little friends that can run faster then he can. If he makes a sound... good ol .44 Makes a sound. (Dusk till dawn)

Well maybe i can talk to MorningStar so i can buy a bong for "Tabacco & Salvia" What a total Fuck

::John:: AHAHHAHAHAH is this morningstar asshole Serious? that picture of that bong. OMG

::Nick:: Um. That guy is a load of shit

::Tim:: Bro that guy looks so gay in those pictures

::aina:: Dont mind tim "he's a dick" But like Chris said who would buy a bong for that worthless shit?

::Kyle:: ......Idiot...

Well we gotta head out to Denny's mmmm hanging out. Well Tink i miss you and i love the you made me. Thank you babe.
"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/215178/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/215178/ Thu, 01 Aug 2002 23:45:46 PDT Current Music: Tool-Laterilis
Well I jus Finished my Chino Portrait. LOL i did it so slick to. no one even saw me work on it. THAS RIGHT MIKE! Well im relaxing right now. Jus droped tink off in Kassimgay. (Kassimee). Man that place is a real shit whole. Fuckin everything in that place makes me so mad. all these Racist mother Sucka's driven around with all these asshole flags everywhere. Im jus happy Tink is with her mom and brother. I think we are getting closer every day. But i like to give her room to breath. At least i try to. She is so Magnetic though. Everytime she is near its like some weird Atraction . Ben is over. Hell yeah thas my Biatch. We went and almost got Arested 3 times today. Fuckin Dairy Ghey (Dairy Queen) . Yeah Tink and Steve where lookin at us like we were nuts. Maybe we are. Fuckin Birthday is on the 5th and my brother is still mad at me . God damnit i jus wanna give him a but he will break my nose .

Gotta Check out my New Chino Portrait i like it alot
Well this is Chris Williams "AKA" Waiting4chaos Saying goodnight


"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/208918/ http://waiting4chaos.deviantart.com/journal/208918/ Sun, 28 Jul 2002 01:44:02 PDT Dont Sweat it Pal

Well Mike leaves today..
Jen is with her mom
Steve is gonna be at work in a couple of hours.. All alone. Gimmie some time to Reflect on shit. Need to take a break. I miss Jen though.. I hope she is having a BLAST. Her Mom is so nice. Seems Pretty nuts (good way) God my Headache is Murdering me. I think i have Brain Cancer or some Shit. How random. I would laugh forever if i did have brain cancer. That would be the Most Random thing ever. Well looks like im getting better and Better with this Poem thing. I MISS MY TINK! (that asshole has my Cellphone) i will break her nose if i dont get it back soon. O well time to passout. Got a long week ahead . My birthday (Birthghey) is coming up. Woh fuckin cares...... God damnit. another year closer to being Homeless...


Jen this is for you
tink

"The Path set is the one i lay with a brick in each hand."
-Chris Williams ]]> ~waiting4chaos