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and do it with Heart...because if you put your heart into it, then it will definitely mean something.

]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/8048950/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/8048950/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 16:47:55 PST
Somehow I manage to put myself on a familiar boat ride, never realizing i'm purchasing the same ticket each time I do so. I guess I'll never reach the Island. The Island in my mind is one in which everything Sacred manifests itself in the best way possible. Where I can have the one thing that I truly, with the bottom of my heart, desire.

The Island, my friends, does not exist. It is a figment of your Imagination...

then again, some would just say I'm being bitter...again.

Jonathan Z. ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/6989111/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/6989111/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 09:45:07 PST
Sadly I have abandoned this website, because it seems that the people that made this website special for me have abandoned me, including people who dont even have an account here. Those would be my friends that have sadly left me, in one shape or form.

...I have changed very much since I last visited this site. Last time I visited, I complained about my lack of a companion. All that has changed since...still no companion, but I seem to have accepted the fact that it shall be a while before I am graced by the wonderful prescence of a young woman at my side...

the madness never stops, and neither does mine...

so perhaps, you may expect some sort of artistic creation by me in the near future...but dont keep your hopes up.

Viele danke, und viele lieben,
Jonathan Z. ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/5535901/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/5535901/ Thu, 02 Jun 2005 19:20:14 PDT My choice of movie is Revenge of the Sith...i'm starting to feel like Anakin...i'm ready to rebel and go against everyone...

Mood: Im ready, Depression
Listening to: "Again I Go Unnoticed"
Reading: Dune
Watching: Revenge of the Sith

So first off before anything at all...I just want to thank DeviantART for the subscription, though I must say I am very undeserving of this...but the trial for it is swell, and I am in gratitude for it.

So i have submitted stuff recently...and just...yea...school sucks...and I'm getting used to having my heart broken...oh well though, right? It is what gives me inspiration and keeps you all interested!! *laughs hysterically, almost maniacally* I find myself writing about the same things in this journal though...so I wont bore you...I'm only writing here because i am attempting to take advantage of this subscription...

woot woot!!! Saturdays are SAT IIs!!! yayyy...not T_T...but a high note...Saturday night, I am going to an LA Galaxy game...which is totally gonna kick booty, cause they're gonna woop the Metrostar's asses!! yesssss...I am a big footy fan...so yea...i love you all dearly...be safe...

Revenge is a meal, best served cold...and my choice i wish i didn't get to make was the choice to make choices...

welcome to my world... ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/5461578/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/5461578/ Wed, 25 May 2005 21:08:01 PDT
thats how I see it. Thats how it is happening...out of my control again, punishment again...either way, it is of irrelevant value...cause in the end...i have to be happy again...right?

I guess that is the single most inspiring, yet single most destructive power that the human mind has...to hope.

the only choice we can't make is whether or not to make choices...cause even if we decided not to make any choices, we just made a choice then...so its a giant paradox no one can escape...just like hope...humans shall always have hope, and I shall be one victim to that. And perhaps I shall succumb, perhaps i shall overcome...but the first seems more likely. I wont do what I did back when I poured my heart out onto this screen, because I lost friends last time I did that, and lost other things as well...so I shall refrain and spare you all of that.

Time is all I need but it seems to be the most unlimited resource on this planet that cannot be replaced...interesting though, do you not agree? I tried time again...but it betrayed me yet again...if God has a sense of humor, i have yet to find it, or at least i find it more troublesome than funny.

What is wrong with me? seriously, tell me my one greatest flaw that screws me over? Tell me the one thing you hate about me the most...maybe I can change...maybe not. Either way...I want to know why this continually happens to me...maybe God shall show me in my dreams or in signs...soon I shall know.

sleep well all of you...I love you all dearly...I'll always be here for you...but somehow that isn't enough, being nice, is it?

Jonathan Z. ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/3821762/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/3821762/ Fri, 12 Nov 2004 22:39:29 PST Isn't it weird...how I seem to repeat myself?
Isn't it weird...that the mistakes continue?


Don't you find it strange...that what you started can't be finished?
Don't you find it strange...that I gave up so quickly?
Don't you find it strange...that without you I'm lost?

Anything you wanted to say?
Anything you wanted to do?
Anything you have regrets for?

No...
I wish i didnt....
I seem to have no control...

I'm not surprised...
I'm not surprised...
I couldn't be more surprised...

No...I dont like the taste of foot...
I've done too much...
I regret the mistake I made..."

--Written by a good friend of mine...

Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/3518334/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/3518334/ Tue, 05 Oct 2004 11:42:06 PDT
Somehow I know it will probably escalate into worse things...and if it does, well....multiple personalities aren't that bad, right?

Resentfully submitted by,
Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/3469347/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/3469347/ Tue, 28 Sep 2004 20:48:16 PDT i think i will do well though...pray for me...and if you're reading this...know that i think ur great..."vote for pedro"hahaha...we should see it again sometime soon...together...

Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/3075464/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/3075464/ Sun, 08 Aug 2004 15:54:06 PDT
Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/2381272/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/2381272/ Fri, 07 May 2004 19:15:34 PDT

One day before this incident, a similiar accident occured, but fortunately, Rubens Barrichello did not die, but was injured severly enough to be out of that race. Aryton Senna, three time F1 World Champion, 41 Race Victor, 65 Pole Positions achieved and 19 fastest lap holder, was at his hospital bed side that day, weeping over his fellow Brazilians close to death experience. The next day, Roland Ratzenburger died...

Aryton Senna da Silva was born on March 21, 1960. He grew up in Brazil and was naturally, a soccer aficionado and Formula 1 fan...as was to be expected of a Brazilian. He grew up doing kart races and winning many of them in which he competed. He was always striving to be the quickest. He finally got to F1 in 1984, driving for Toleman...he drove there for that year and then Lotus noticed him and picked him up. In 1985, he drove a stunning race in the rain at Estoril, Portugal. Suddenly, everyone realized that they had a driver that was going to be great...He won three championships with McLaren, the next team to pick him up in 1988. That year, along with Alain Prost, they won 15 out of the 16 races on the calender. Senna was World Champion for the first time that year. He lost the championship in 1989 to Alain Prost, who was now driving for Ferrari. A rivalship was developing. In 1990, Senna returned with a vengance and took the title...his second. He made an amazing follow up in 1991 and won his third Championship...before Juan Manuel Fangio's death, he said that he believed that Senna would be the one to break his 5-time World Championship record...In 1992, Nigel Mansell won the World Championship, but Senna was still not backing down. In 1993, Alain Prost won and it was his fourth Championship...suddenly, a fifth looked imminent for him...Senna, in 1994, joined the Renault Williams F1 team, which had an F1 car that looked promising. Then came the race weekend in Imola...during Friday practice, Rubens Barrichello almost died, the next day, Roland Ratzenburger suffered a fatal crash. Aryton Senna had a bad feeling about the next day...

Aryton Senna achieved his 65th Pole Position that weekend. He hung onto first when there was an accident and a pace car came to slow the cars down until the crash was cleared. Three laps after it was cleared, Aryton Senna hit the 190mph Tamburello Curve at full speed, trying to keep himself in front of Michael Schumacer, who like Senna ten years prior to that, looked promising for the future...Senna left the track at that moment and struck the wall on the outside of Tamburello at a speed in excess of 170mph. Aryton Senna da Silva, was air-lifted to the nearest hospital where he was pronounced dead an hour later. Michael Schumacer, when he discovered one of his role model's death, did not continue his celebration on the top step/1st place of the podium...as unfortunate as it sounds, Senna's death was needed. The speed of the sport was getting out of control, and the safety was falling behind. After his death, new regulations were put into place and the sport became much safer for all the drivers.

R.I.P. Aryton Senna da Silva...


Within Senna's car, they found an Austrian national flag...Roland Ratzenburger was Austrian, and he was going to honor a fellow race car driver's death when the race had ended, but this was never accomplished due to his own death...Senna raised the skill level of his own ability with each year and thought only of winning. But he never wanted to see the pain of another driver...That is just the man that Aryton Senna da Silva was...


-Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/2354486/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/2354486/ Mon, 03 May 2004 20:40:24 PDT I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you & I can't be
without that scent. It's filling me
with all you mean to me."
-Living in Your Letters, Dashboard Confessional


It doesn't matter what they want, what they say...Im still living in the past...

Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1935771/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1935771/ Mon, 01 Mar 2004 19:37:04 PST
It is called Konstantine...

"I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams

and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless, and i'm naked
you've gotta get out
you can't stand to see me shaking
no
could you let me go?
I didn't think so

and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz your afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

then you bring me home
cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights
when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
no

this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant

and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine

konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no

this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you? [x7]
oh god i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live

my Konstantine"


I very much love those lyrics...

Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1906880/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1906880/ Wed, 25 Feb 2004 21:03:32 PST
Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1759231/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1759231/ Wed, 28 Jan 2004 20:58:02 PST
I want you all to know this...What I may have done to have caused such a thing is not at all a bad thing. It is instead just a way to show my affection for her and my wanting to make positive that she is pleased in life...But "they" want us seperated still and this is forbidden. Maybe it is a sign.... ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1759222/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1759222/ Wed, 28 Jan 2004 20:56:34 PST
I want you all to know this...What I may have done to have caused such a thing is not at all a bad thing. It is instead just a way to show my affection for her and my wanting to make positive that she is pleased in life...But "they" want us seperated still and this is forbidden. Maybe it is a sign.... ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1402601/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1402601/ Fri, 14 Nov 2003 22:40:25 PST

Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1311538/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1311538/ Wed, 22 Oct 2003 21:29:12 PDT
please do read the letter series in order...and i realize i said that i would put screenshots but my scanner doesn't like me. that is if you care to read the series.

Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1183839/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1183839/ Sat, 20 Sep 2003 13:27:43 PDT

Jonathan ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1152134/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1152134/ Thu, 11 Sep 2003 18:52:10 PDT
Jonathan.

PS: Remember 9/11... ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1123081/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1123081/ Tue, 02 Sep 2003 21:14:27 PDT .) I know my absence is unexcused, but screw you guys, i dont care...i got to see Thai again this past Friday...which was the best 6-7 hours of my life...sorry...lost my train of thought...


oh well, good day/night to you all. ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1066574/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1066574/ Thu, 14 Aug 2003 12:51:02 PDT
I know that this is totally random information, but I have nothing better to say to the citizens of DA...oh well. BTW, I have submitted a new poem concerning new events in my life...sigh, but then again, I believe that I have felt this way for quite a while now.

Talk to you all soon,

Mr. Zagato ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1028560/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/1028560/ Sun, 03 Aug 2003 18:16:12 PDT
It has been quite a bit of time since I last appeared here, in this journal, to fill the wonderful citizens of the DA(has anyone else noticed that the DA is the same thing as District Attorney? sorry...I just could not resist bringing that up.) community into what has happened in my life. But it is not important, so it does not matter.

But Friday...I got to see my beautiful girlfriend during the day...got to see her smile...it was great. And then later Friday, I got to go see American Wedding with her...that was ten times better than before. So all in all, my Friday was amazing...it was just...words can't begin to describe...

well, I must be leaving now... ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/926830/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/926830/ Wed, 09 Jul 2003 15:13:09 PDT
to explain my latest two entries, "Unfinished Business Parts I and II"...uh...this idea has been lingering in my head, just as the description says...but I hadn't put it up yet because i guess my mind was a bit occupied with other thoughts, so i wasn't able to put this down without interference from my clustered mind. but the idea behind this is obvious...i hope somebody will figure it out and say it, cause i dont want to be the one to explain it...it makes it less interesting that way. and i will not be surprised if nobody likes it...i hate it...i feel that i could have written this a thousand times better...but i guess when im this happy, i can't really write about sad times or about anger....its too difficult to write about what u ur not understanding then and there...so if these two things appear again later, it'll most likely be because i'll know how to write it better. see you all later... ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/842585/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/842585/ Mon, 16 Jun 2003 21:00:28 PDT But in a way, it is good to let go of some things. Maybe not what I lost, but it is good to lose things that way. I mean, why should we let past events and insecurities pull us beneath the surface of sanity? No matter how hard we try though, it seems that things cling on to us, even after we've thought that we have dropped them away into the abyss.
But I can't control everything, just as no one else can.

I wish I could. I would attempt to try to mend broken objects of my past and attempt to avoid hurting myself. I would make sure that I would be able to hold on to everything that I want and let go of everything I dont need.

But I'm like the man who attempted to build a time machine...only with dreams and no realities.

Maybe I'll end up in the lower level of hell and walk around backwards for the rest of eternity... ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/754852/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/754852/ Sat, 24 May 2003 12:24:30 PDT
Maybe I should fall asleep again...so then my dreams can take over and maybe I will be able to let go. The world is filled with such great beauty that I don't want to let go...but I need to. It is inevitable that this happens. In my sleep, time can pass faster so that I may let you heal. Cause I cut myself much to deep, much to long ago and am at a point of no return. Maybe I will wake up again...........

The world is so beautiful...and so are you....... ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/749591/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/749591/ Thu, 22 May 2003 20:39:25 PDT Fo some reason, today was a sort of defiant day...but, i dont care too much for that. today, i dont feel a need to explain all of that went on today, except that it was a day of discovering....thats all i'll say. Goodnight for now. ]]> ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/740496/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/740496/ Mon, 19 May 2003 20:16:41 PDT ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/726650/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/726650/ Thu, 15 May 2003 20:43:44 PDT ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/716310/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/716310/ Mon, 12 May 2003 21:05:25 PDT ~wanderingtruths http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/711696/ http://wanderingtruths.deviantart.com/journal/711696/ Sun, 11 May 2003 16:18:45 PDT ~wanderingtruths