http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:wetblackink&section=today deviantART RSS for by:wetblackink en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 21:45:13 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/10399638/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/10399638/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 10:18:34 PDT it smells like you
and that was the only way
i was able
to get to sleep last night.

]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9740815/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9740815/ Tue, 15 Aug 2006 18:37:08 PDT i feel that i am looking at mars when i look at you.
i fear that i am looking at mars when i look at you. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9711521/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9711521/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 09:52:50 PDT and you wonder why your daughter feels like shit.
i hope you don't ever have to understand.
see,
you don't know a fucking thing
and it's not your fault.
it's mine.
i don't want you to know.

know that your daughter,
well,
she's going insane.
and bones and bruises and cuts and blood
isn't pretty.
but see,
see, that's all she's got to make herself whole again.

fuck.
i'm messing this up.

it's this:
you wonder why your daughter feels like shit
and you wonder why she is so screwed up
screwed up to the point she bleeds and screams
and you wonder why, oh why did we deserve this?
why is this happening to us?

you fucking morons.
and you wonder why your daughter can't stand your touch.
have you wondered lately?
well, she can't.

that's enough for one day. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9618396/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9618396/ Sun, 06 Aug 2006 14:20:10 PDT it could have been a year but I
I gave up long before
long before you cared
her art inspired me to
to do my best and
to paint my music like
like I saw it best and
she says I grew up well
well, well I grew up strong
cause no one's got my back
no one's gonna write me my songs ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9296249/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9296249/ Thu, 06 Jul 2006 20:13:13 PDT i wear my scrubs to bed
so when i wake up
i can get a bowl of lucky charms
and turn the tv to the health channel
and watch surgical/medical shows,
in my scrubs.

because that makes me happy.

because that's who i am. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9172503/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9172503/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 20:03:15 PDT ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9162011/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/9162011/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 18:04:34 PDT i can't believe it fits.

i hate my house.
i hate living here.
i hate my family.
i hate not having a real family.
i hate not having anyone to talk to.

i want to runaway.
to anywhere.
really.

YOU ARE SO FUCKING EGOTISTICAL AND SELF-CENTERED AND SELFISH AND HYPOCRITICAL AND SCREWED UP AND AND AND AND AND AND AND.

i find it depressing when 15 yearolds welcome death.
i find myself depressing.

do you know why i get high?
'cause i can get away.
escapeism.
yeah, i know it is shallow and stupid and inmature and not the best choice ever.
but if i didn't
i don't think i could still be alive
because i can't take it here.
i have to get away,
atleast for a few hours.
maybe, someday,
i will just smoke my brains out and there will be nothing left to think and i will be nothing and everyone can just leave me alone and i will finally be okay; as nothing.

it's why i read too.
i can just get away.
away from the screaming and yelling and fighting and scaredness and fear and hate.
get away from this house/life/world.

never ever ever be like this.
please.

i don't even know what i am doing.

from up here the planes look like birds
and the birds look like bugs
and the bugs look invisible
and i wish i was a bug.
a tiny little fly.
because you don't get the chance to feel
and once you do you die.

i want a family.
a brother that, when guys even look at me, he beats them up
or lies to my parents when they catch me doing something i shouldn't
or tells me secrets
or takes me out to eat
or lets me stay up late
or gets me birthday presents
or be someone i could come to with anything.

i want to stop fucking crying. really. i do that too much
and i want to stop swearing, i do that too much, too.

i don't know where to stop.

you know why i don't eat sometimes?
cause i am hoping,
maybe,
if i am lucky,
i will just shrink down
and i'll only be a skeleton
and skin
and i'll be nothing.
i'll be gone.
and i won't have to feel or fear or hate or want or cry
cause i will just be a skeleton
and everything in me will be gone
and no one will care enough to yell at me or hit me
cause there will be nothing there.
just a bag of skin
and my bones will sink into the ground
and i'll grow into the dasies and dandylions
and no one hates those things or yells at them
because they can't do anything wrong.
i could just disapear.

i want out.
i am not okay.
i wish i was but i'm not
and there is so much more
but i'm just going to stop
because i am probably really depressing and stupid
and i don't know what to do
or how to fix this
or how to stop
and please don't care(i don't mean this but i want to).
i don't know what i am doing
or why i am typing this.

i just want you to know why,
one day,
i won't be here. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8992087/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8992087/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 18:31:27 PDT
how the fuck do i get away?

sometimes i don't even care where i am going.

and that is what scares me. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8634013/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8634013/ Sun, 30 Apr 2006 18:20:54 PDT when i feel lonely.

*cue dramatic sigh*

i have come up with some requirements. :
someone who likes deep, intelligent conversations.
someone who has no problem talking about philosophy, religion, thoughts, and other things.
someone who is not imtidated by my intelligence.
someone who is romantic, caring, sweet, and makes you go "aww".
someone who, when they hold me, makes me feel protected and safe.
someone who is strong.
someone who will just shut up and let me talk.
someone who i can listen to.
someone who isn't afraid of my past.
someone who understands and respects my independence.
someone who respects me.
someone who is creative.
someone who is protective but not jealous.
someone who is beautiful.
someone who thinks i am beautiful.
someone who can make me laugh no matter what.
someone who will make me dream about them.
someone who i want to say "i love you" to.
someone who will get to know me mentally.
someone who is okay with my mood swings.
someone who will come over, no matter when or what time, to comfort me.
someone who can deal with my whinning and depression.
someone who appreciates me.
someone who will sit and listen to poetry with me.
someone who reads.
someone who has artistic ability.
someone who doesn't care about anyone's colour, race, religion, culture, etc.
someone who believes in equal rights for everyone.
someone who enjoys creativity and expression.
someone who likes learning.
someone who is open to new things.
someone who likes to go iceskating.
someone who has correct grammar.
someone who is okay with my medical history.
someone who will sit with me in the hospital.
someone who i can wake up to when i get out of surgery.
someone who will buy me flowers.
someone who likes to go on walks in the park.
someone who listens to music.
someone who i can fall asleep to when i am not at all tired.

the list goes on and
i have more but i am tired.
goodnight. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8544770/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8544770/ Fri, 21 Apr 2006 20:04:47 PDT my pelvis is surely not supposed to
fit this way underneath my skin.

zeros hang around my waist
loose and shivering.

who was standing by my side
as i got skinner and food was
only on tv commercials?
not you. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8139184/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8139184/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 12:07:48 PST
usually, people would think this is terrible.
everyone does think that.
they don't understand.

i was so happy, i cried.

no crohns,
no i.v.s,
no, needles,
no surgery,
no pain.

some would think this is still
a shitty hand to be dealt.
but if this is all i have to deal with,
compared to what i have,
then i will laugh and cry with
joy.

they don't understand.

no hospital bedrooms,
no car trips,
no scapels,
no doctors,
no pain.

no pain.

jeez.

no one should ever have to say
that they are fine with vomiting,
but if that is all,
if i am free of everything,
vomiting is fine with me.

yeah, i am pretty happy.
you know why?
'cause my blood work shows no crohns,
no inflammation,
no crohns,
and i won't have to start on remicade.

i'm okay.
being sick has never made me feel so
happy.

this is just what i have to deal with,
what i have to go through.
this is what i'm dealt,
and it's a wondrous hand.
this is all.

i'm okay.
you don't understand.
everything i've gone through.
my brother is going to cure me.
i am not going to have to live with this forever
and if i do
well,
i am okay with that.

i.. just am.
'cause it didn't happen again.
none of that.
no bad.
i am happy.
probably the most happy i have been in a long time.
please, just understand, someone. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8086266/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/8086266/ Mon, 06 Mar 2006 17:07:32 PST
this is as good as i got:

una estrella luz, una estrella brillante,
prima estrella yo veo esta noche,
yo deseo yo puedo, yo deseo yo podría
yo tengo un deseo yo deseo esta noche

ehh
i wish it was better.

help, anyone? ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7983510/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7983510/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 17:51:04 PST 'cause you know i'm only five foot two
and i'm giggly wiggly
tell me again, what did i do
why are you scared of me

i fight with love
and i laugh with rage
you've gotta live light enough
to see the humor
and long enough to see some change

i think shy is boring
i think depressed is too
i think pretty is nice
but i'd rather see something new

Ani DiFranco - Pick Yer Nose ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7897253/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7897253/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 15:35:47 PST like every other single person out there.

i hate my past relationships.
and i hate not having someone i can think about
and smile.

i wish male A would get the hell out of my head.
i wish male B would leave me alone.
i wish male C liked me (and was single).

i wish i liked girls.
'cause plenty of them like me.

isn't life grand?

ps. my cat is adorable.
and just scratched me.

::le sigh:: ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7875545/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7875545/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 16:14:20 PST ...i promise


If you cannot be the poet, be the poem. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7798739/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7798739/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 11:02:19 PST Watch me trade my wheels for wings.
But don't ever use those wings to fly
Just the essence of a lullaby"

-Badly Drawn Boy, Another Pearl ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7752541/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7752541/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 14:55:28 PST and I scrub
too hard,
too long,
too fast,
‘till my skin comes off.
That’s all I’ve ever wanted,
just to be bone.
Feel me now,
I break so easily,
and if you want to
I’ll let you snap me in half,
like a candy bar.
just promise to share.

-Kori [Stone]
1-19-06 ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7705049/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7705049/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 14:23:27 PST Was wandering since the day she was born
Swinging on a swing in her childhood
Swinging her memories all the way until now.
Playing an opening theme, looking into the sky
I think of petals trying to fall

That day I skipped school for you;
That day the flower fell;
The space of the classroom;
Why can’t I see it?
That rainy day that disappeared -
How I want to be rained upon again
Never thought that I still kept my lost courage
How I want to ask again:
Will you wait or will you go away?

That day that the wind blew I tried to hold your hand
But unfortunetly, the rain kept on
Falling until I couldn’t see you
How much longer until I can be beside you again?
Waiting for the day to turn clear, maybe I’ll be a little better then

Long ago, a person loved you for so long
But unfortunetly, the wind kept on
Blowing, widening the gap so much further
But it seems that, at the end of the tale you still said, "Goodbye" ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7500436/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7500436/ Tue, 03 Jan 2006 15:37:28 PST -311 - I'll Be Here A While
-Red Hot Chili Peppers - Soul to Squeeze
-Bare Naked Ladies Lyrics - It's All Been Done

land-ho pirates! ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7466292/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7466292/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 11:32:46 PST
"i've been up on drugs again and dreams i never mentioned"

too true. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7344933/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7344933/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 11:36:34 PST [link] and hopefully ben will be there. ::crosses fingers::

i have a huge list of books i want for christmas. it's kind of sick how much i read. jeez, >_<.

Eldest (Inheritance, Book 2)
The Golem's Eye (The Bartimaeus Trilogy, Book 2)
Ptolemy's Gate (The Bartimaeus Trilogy, Book 3)
The Opal Deception (Artemis Fowl, Book 4)
Inkspell
Buried Fire
The Rivers of Zadaa (Pendragon)
A Great and Terrible Beauty
Rebel Angels (sequel to A Great And Terrible Beauty)
Twilight
Midnighters #1: The Secret Hour (Midnighters)
Midnighters #2: Touching Darkness (Midnighters)
Hawksong : The Kiesha'ra: Volume I
Snakecharm: The Kiesha'ra: Volume II
Falcondance : The Kiesha'ra: Volume III
The Water Mirror (Dark Reflections)
The Last Apprentice: Revenge of the Witch (The Last Apprentice)
Trickster's Choice (Daughter of the Lioness Book 1)
Trickster's Queen (Aliane)
Circle Opens (any)
Charlie Bone And The Castle Of Mirrors (Charlie Bone)
The Dark Hills Divide (The Land of Elyon, Book 1)/Beyond The Valley Of Thorns (Land of Elyon, Book 2)
The Dark Is Rising Sequence: Silver on the Tree/The Grey King/Greenwitch
Taran Wanderer/The Black Cauldron/The High King/The Book of Three/The Castle of Llyr (Pyrdain Chronicles)

you can get them off of amazon, used, for a really amazing price.

i love amelia at-water rhodes. yes, yes i do. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7264910/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7264910/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 12:43:03 PST "You said tonight is a wonderful night to die
I asked you how you could tell
You told me to look at the sky
Look at all those stars
Look at how goddamn ugly the stars are"

the rest of the song here..: [link] ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7213594/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7213594/ Sat, 03 Dec 2005 16:22:00 PST "So, I hope you get happy soon
because you only deserve the best out of life,
and you've only gotten the worse."

written for me by my girlfriend.
she is the best in the world.
<3

over and out.

adios space cowboys. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7132684/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7132684/ Thu, 24 Nov 2005 12:56:16 PST _<. there was this guy who slamed, ben[jamin] solis. ...WOW. he was amazing. it was a two minute long piece and he memorized the whole thing! he laso didn't use the microphone. it was so.. aspiring. i think i started drooling in stupidity. so afterwards i go up to him to say congratulations and he is like "hey natalie, i am so glad you came! your poem was awesome." i thought, how the hell does he know me? well, it turns out that he was one of the people at Writer's Block that convinced me to go in the first place. he was one of the people that was astounded by my poetry. O_O yeah, that's how i felt. it was crazy. and i am in love. yeah, okay, well i am totally head over heels. i really hope i see him again ^_^.

my brother is home and my grandparents are here as well. it's pretty busy, and loud, and scurried. i do not have a bed either. i had to sleep on the couch, though i did stay up til 1:00 watching Sex and the City (which is an amazing show). i am infatuated by it completely.

no school until Monday. hurray. there is less to think about. but also less things to get my mind off of the things that are thought about. erugh, it is an awful cycle. though, a while ago, i felt disgusting so i biked for about six miles around Canton and ended up going past his house, listening to music full blast, falling off at the empty park, puking, and crying til the my body shook. i felt the best i had in a long time. i advise it to anyone who really needs to get something off their chest. although, talking to addie about feels good too. heh. i am glad atleast he knows. atleast somebody knows. 'cause somebody needs to know.

have you ever wanted to see someone so bad but at the same time you wish you never saw them again? he thinks that i will go back to him in three years (after he gets out of jail). that pissed me off. I WILL NOT. you can feel guilty about something and not be in love with the person. but i guess i am. i guess i will always be in love with him.

carrie (sex and the city) is right, people play games. me? i play games. that is how nick and i get along so well. we play games until we can't breathe anymore. it is an awful relationship. you know, the kind where you hate everything about it but you can't stop calling the person and making dates? yeah, games make people into monsters. i am a monster. i am just like her.

house is also an amazing show. i got will addicted to it. augh, i don't know how i feel about him anymore. he gets on my nerves so much lately. so does dan. i just plain don't like him. he is very obnoxious. well, isn't everybody?

betty and i plan to hang out tomorrow. we are going to make snowmen and cookies and hangout drinking hot cocoa. it is going to be a blast.

so, dinnertime. i am sorry turkey. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7083356/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7083356/ Fri, 18 Nov 2005 18:44:07 PST
darling, i can see the lights again.
they are up in the sky
shinning down a parade of white.
i remember when we would
sit on outside
on opposites sides of the phoneline,
opposite sides of the town,
and watch them at night.
it was comforting knowing
that we were watching the same thing.
but it's cloudy out tonight
and i fear
that you are not able to see them
any longer.

Something I thought of.. Maybe I shall turn it into something. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7056805/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/7056805/ Tue, 15 Nov 2005 17:05:28 PST it is mean to her sometimes.

i guess you think that you can decide
when i need to cry.
and after all these years
you are the person
that can make me cry the hardest.
how do you do that?

males are getting on my nerves,
and that is why i think i might
take suzanna up on the whole
"dating each other" thing.
it might be a nice change.

i hate the word "whatever"
and the words "i don't know".
i think he says them too much.
it needs to be something
and you should know.
what is wrong with you?

"Yes I'll love you always
And I'll do it without aching.
Yes I'd give you everything,
Yes I'd give you anything
I gave you everything"
-Tegan and Sara This Is Everything

i need to write.
i need to read.
i need to do something other than think,
because that is what is
reminding me of you. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6942979/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6942979/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 08:56:17 PST friends
forget about my birthday
(don't get me wrong
I don't really care)
but he writes me
from PRISION
to wish me a happy birthday.

wow.

I sorted through my CDs
because they were all
jumbled up.
I feel organized.

back to school on Monday.
I miss my friends.

my incision is looking good though,
but it is starting to itch.

I need to talk to someone.
I wish I could call him.

I am writing him back
but my parents might not
let me send it.
but it seems like I don't care;
I am going to anyways.
he has a right to know,
and I want him to know.
I need him to.

have you ever missed someone
so much
that you feel like your heart
is being stretched apart?
or maybe this is another feeling. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6904042/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6904042/ Sun, 30 Oct 2005 06:39:36 PST
thats all folks. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6775272/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6775272/ Sat, 15 Oct 2005 13:47:46 PDT ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6614212/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6614212/ Tue, 27 Sep 2005 06:21:47 PDT i don't care much for people.
you are it. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6474789/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6474789/ Sun, 11 Sep 2005 08:26:16 PDT
The money will fund research into the cause of IBD (inflammatory bowl disease) so a cure can be found.

Last year walkers raised $66,000 not just for research but for education and support programs for patients and physicians.


Please help us. There are so many suffering, including me. Help us find a cure for this. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6467014/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6467014/ Sat, 10 Sep 2005 11:00:41 PDT "Every ten year-old enemy soldier
Thinks falling bombs are shooting stars sometimes
But she doesn't make wishes on them
When she wishes, she wishes for less ways to wish for
More ways to work toward it
Ten year-old enemy soldier
Our falling bombs are her shooting stars"

-Metric "IOU"

"Combat baby come back baby
Fight off the lethargy
Don't go quietly
Combat baby
Said you would never give up easy
Combat baby come back"

-Metric "Combat Baby"

"If she weren't writing in blood
She'd bring him her jokes
A new liver
And a shovel for the mud
If he were not knee-deep in mud
He'd bring her his drugs
He'd get her a typewriter"

-Metric "Grow Up And Blow Away" ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6442029/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6442029/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 14:39:30 PDT that pain is important,
that words matter,
that healing is possible,

that I am not alone in this.


.j.o.n.<.3. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6327771/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6327771/ Thu, 25 Aug 2005 18:38:07 PDT Scout Niblett
Cathal Coughlan

any of 'em good?


[link] ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6274334/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6274334/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 20:28:25 PDT ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6268059/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6268059/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 05:22:21 PDT ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6105414/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6105414/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 19:52:21 PDT We were both holding on just as tightly but I was the one falling. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6033739/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6033739/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 20:00:37 PDT
i have been balling my eyes out for the past half hour. that is such a terribly sad movie. j _ j

more about me sobbing tomorrow.. i am so tired from crying.

though tomorrow i do get to hang out with nik, and today he told me he liked me! AH, i like him too<3 oh, i cannot wait.

"my heart is sinking like the titanic" j _ j ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6012287/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6012287/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 11:10:26 PDT ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6007641/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/6007641/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 19:45:51 PDT
much has been happening in the mind of i. i'll will type it up sometime for all of my journals. when i feel i am ready and set i will let the world know.

thank you all for the wonderful comments on my newest stuff. it really pleases me that people like them.

breathe deep, seek peace. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5779489/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5779489/ Tue, 28 Jun 2005 08:22:27 PDT
sleep did not come for me so i replied.

praying to bastet and anubis helped sleep along, though i dreamt. i do not like dreaming. it reminds me too much of the daytime. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5715139/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5715139/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 14:58:17 PDT
so i am back. anybody miss me? i added some work that i wrote while i was gone, though i still have some to add. hopw you guys had fun too.

school finally ended and it's just starting to sink it. not getting up until 11.00 feels good. i miss my tag friends though (betty, linda, and millie).

yeah, i have met someone. his name is adam. he rocks. he asked me out. he got the reply of "yes". natalie is very, extremely happy because she likes him a lot. but she misses him dearly because he lives in kalamazoo. they are going to see each other next week though. that shall be much fun. i cannot wait.

adam<3 ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5617951/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5617951/ Sat, 11 Jun 2005 11:24:38 PDT
i hate my house right now. my parents are so awful. would anyone like to take an extra person into their home?

my friend ashley and i went into an abonded house the other day and are planning on going back. i am going to bring a camera and post some of the picturse on here. it was the greatest thing ever!

so yeah, school is ending. i am quite happy with that. i get to go to a writers block at MSU for four days after schools. i am so excited. best of all i get to take my best friend, ~andyoufollow.

peace everyone. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5571726/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5571726/ Mon, 06 Jun 2005 15:48:32 PDT ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5561282/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5561282/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 14:19:19 PDT
you are the one
that tears me apart
and you are
the only one
that can put me
back together. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5553183/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5553183/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 16:20:08 PDT

mucho tiene sucedido. diga tu luego. adios por ahora. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5391099/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5391099/ Wed, 18 May 2005 10:35:47 PDT ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5375477/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5375477/ Mon, 16 May 2005 16:36:09 PDT
Tell me what you think. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5314118/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5314118/ Mon, 09 May 2005 18:23:40 PDT ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5304984/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5304984/ Sun, 08 May 2005 18:34:57 PDT like a woman was a drum like a body was a weapon
like there was something more they wanted

-Ani DiFranco ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5295511/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5295511/ Sat, 07 May 2005 17:24:27 PDT don't notice
when you are afraid, or hurt, or sad.
but whats even worse
is when they notice
but don't care"

"I've been dreaming of the things i've learnt about a boy
Who's leaving, nothing else to chance again
You've got to let me in or let me out"

"simple times once were but only now the memories tug at me and fill me with longing." ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5238674/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5238674/ Sun, 01 May 2005 13:33:24 PDT that i had plenty of blood to give
and each elbow cradled a needle
but listless & faint ain't no way to live

-Ani DiFranco ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5195049/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5195049/ Tue, 26 Apr 2005 13:41:17 PDT
Open Mic was cool. All the new stuff I did there.

Okay, well I really don't care anymore and I keep doing typos which is extremely annoying so I'm going to stop. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5111891/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/5111891/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 13:00:50 PDT Love and war
Is it unfair in
Hate and peace? ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4982095/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4982095/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 18:37:03 PST Go listen to them
and watch About A Boy. ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4979327/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4979327/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 12:33:00 PST ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4882973/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4882973/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 15:58:49 PST
Just to sum everything up that has been happening:

Friends- Over all; good. One is freaking retarded and another I am completely in love with (there might be a possibility it might start going somewhere).
Family- the same
School- Grades are getting better... slowly. Finished the Spanish movie (kinda).
Toughts- A crap load, what else?
Writing- Haven't done much lately.
Life in general- Needs to turn for the better more quickly.

Leaving for Flordia tomorrow. I will miss you all! *waves* ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4874870/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4874870/ Mon, 21 Mar 2005 17:43:03 PST ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4801613/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4801613/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 12:14:18 PST
Watched a bit of The Breakfast Club in the morning. I love that movie.

Today has been far less exciting than yesterday. But atleast today I will have a chance to talk to him. Hehe. I'm debating on wether it wouldbe okay to call him today. Eh, I don't think I will.

My father found out how to play Lack Of Color by Death Cab For Cutie but I can't do it. Its too difficult for me. Durn.

Household hasn't been that bad today. We went to see National Treasure yesterday and my brother and I, for once, got along. It was kind of nice.

I screwed with my friend (not that way!!) because he didn't know my new screen name and I was fooling around with him. It actually was a very amusing conversation.

Ergh!, I really want to go to The Bean and go to one of their Open Mics. I think it would be a ton of fun. But I don't know when or even if I could.

The cruise is coming up shortly and its weird but, I'm really not that excited or interested in it. Actually, I would rather be talking to him and updating my deviantions (which yes, is probably the freakiest thing you have ever heard). I'm more looking forward to summer and camp and... Downtown like everyday. Even, for the cruise, I have to wear a bathing suit and I don't like how I look in one. Well, doesn't every teenage girl say that? No, but its true. "She looks in the mirror to see if her scar is showing", that line fits perfectly.

Well, I really want to go play Anubis and write something. Maybe even sit down and watch some Cowboy Bebop and have some crackers with peanut butter . Blessed Be.

Oh yeah, here is a place for Otep's lyrics: [link]
Enjoy!

Look! Calvin! and Hobbes! ]]> ~wetblackink http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4794776/ http://wetblackink.deviantart.com/journal/4794776/ Sat, 12 Mar 2005 14:36:37 PST
I have not been in a very happy mood... I feel very alone now-a-days. At least I have DeviantArt to keep me busy. Thank you!

There is this guy I like (hehe) and he seems and little (tad bit!) interested in me. But I doubt it very much. I mean, why would he? I'm nothing. He shouldn't like me.

All I have to say about my family life is, its unsatisfactory. As always... I hate it here. Anybody willing to set me up with a room?

Otep is wonderful music. If you have never heard them (or heard of them) you need to go download or buy some of their music. I might be able to set you up with some if you talk to me about it. Oh yeah, they are heavy black metal if you like that kind of stuff. Which I do but you can probably figure that out by yourself.

I'm off to play Anubis so I will leave it here for today. Blessed be. ]]> ~wetblackink