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I'm at high risk for major depression. I took a survey so it's a maybe but i've dealt with these symptoms for so long that it's very likely. I'm irritated by things my husband says and does, things that are innocent and I catch that innocence after I've made a fool of myself. I've tried the doctors. They only make me angry and annoyed. I'm not sure I want the meds because I hate meds of any kinda and the side effects of most anti-depressants are awful. I want my husband but he can't be here. I want my mom [..lol..] but she has a life, my siblings and her show dogs to take care of. I'm finally understanding how crappy life is but that if you want to be happy the only person who can keep you that way is yourself. I'm trying. My dog sure helps.. I need to express myself like I used to. I've lost sight of what i love doing. My painting, drawing writing. I love helping people and taking care of kids. I love taking pictures of random things. Lately all I've done is sit around and wallow.. growing mold and mushrooms..... I'm going outside with my camera. go exploring.. get lost and find home. Or just go shopping.

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I have 19 days, 20 hours, 12 mins, 25 seconds until I see my husband and I get to spend less than three days with him before he leaves for a long while.

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and IT is a fibroadenoma, benign tumor... getting a second opinion just to make sure and will have it removed and biopsied within the next month... thank you to all for supporting me in a moment of mortal fear...

like my wording?? lol I'm just being a dork now.. ^^

I'm happy to know it's not cancerous. That makes all the difference in the world when it runs in the family.

Now to take the wee doggie to the vet for his check up... ^^


THANK YOU ALL ^^

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An emotion I am not used to experience without my stubborn courage raising me to me feet. I know I should not worry over nothing but the uncertainty of this finding is, I think, worth a little fear of the unknown due to truely not having ANY control over the outcome. I have to trust doctors I have found to be complete morons in other simplier cases. I have faith in my God, that His will is the right, just one, but that does not make me any less afraid of this. I have forgotten how to deal with ailments on my own. I have forgotten what it meant to truely take care of my own soul since letting my husband in.

Now I am left to deal with no shoulder that I can cry on without an inquiry from such persons that would condemn me for needing comfort from whoever could give it. A simple hug would be turned into some disgraceful act against my husband.

No one truely listens in person. Over this computer on which I type my feelings, maybe a response, maybe not. This place to write. I do not care if you like what I say or not. I am free to express here. I am free to worry, to cry, to be afraid. The only place my mind feels safe is in a journal, on computer or on paper. It is better than in my head, to be stored and piled on until the piles fall and my sanity with it.

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I found a lump in my left breast, near the underarm. Small like a pebble, I found it. Cancer runs in the family so I will be checked out later today. I am worried but I will not fall. I refuse. I am scared but alas I do not know how to lie down and surrender to anyone or thing. Cross your fingers for me.. I will keep you posted. ^^

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I am the black sheep. Born with eyes too wide, a heart too soft, ears that hear a different drum, and a brain that dreams both day and night. Many think me a fool, they scoff at my reckless notions about life and destiny. What they say makes good sense, but I am the black sheep and so I carry on, for the only thing a black sheep is certain of is that you just never know.


- Markus Pierson

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First my then fiance drops the engagement... then I get pregnant by said ex...<< of which I was SOO happy to be pregnant.. >> then I miscarry.. very hard on my heart.. then ex and I back together and get married...<< happy again>> then now husband is deploying... FCK my life this year....
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So my husband is deploying soon.. I'm worrying.. Naturally.. I have to be strong for him but alone at night I cry and pray he comes home safe.. He is my very best friend. None have ever been like him. I've loved none like I love him.

I prayed I didn't get pregnant before he left and my prayer was answered.. now I'm wondering if I should just to have a piece of him. I love him dearly and I know I am strong enough to deal life's curvesballs. I will be strong because I don't know how to just give up. My heart gives up on my brain lol... but I have never given up on living and dealing with the hardships I've had in my life. I hope my dog will be my outlet, my new happiness but so far I am afraid I will rather take out my angst and lonliness on him.

I love this dog though.. He is a pain in the butt but he is the cutest dog and he tries to tell me.. It's all about 'Am I paying attention enough to him to catch his signals?'

Puppies are like human babies. They can't fully tell you they need to go nasty lol.. you have to pay attention to the signals.. babies have different cries. Jett gets in my face until he feels I'm not listening. We're learning each other just as My husband and I were learning each other.

My boys are my love. I am so happy to have my pup but I really want my husband. I feel the universe is working against me this year.. Testing my character and abilities to deal...

I will live...

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I am the black sheep. Born with eyes too wide, a heart too soft, ears that hear a different drum, and a brain that dreams both day and night. Many think me a fool, they scoff at my reckless notions about life and destiny. What they say makes good sense, but I am the black sheep and so I carry on, for the only thing a black sheep is certain of is that you just never know.


- Markus Pierson

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Why can he not see that they love him..?
He is so damn loveable...
Why can he not understand how I feel about it..?
He does not even try..
Why can I not help but think he would be better off..?
I pray he is not..

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it's my 21st in 10hr 35m... idc about seconds cuz there countin down.. WOOHOO!!!!

^_^ so happY!!!

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Sometimes all I can think about is how different he is from most guys and then coupled with asking myself if I am being naive about this one of a kind, gets me into trouble most times. I don't have a reason not to trust but when weird things happen I question. Questions get you in trouble, especially with a good one like him. I guess moreover I just do not understand why he would want to be with me... a pyscho pain in the ass drama queen control freak independent to a fault self-sufficient to a fault always lonely for no good reason depressed on occassion for no good reason angry fiery tempered quick tempered. I'm trying to dull my faults for him so he doesn't have to deal and then weird things happened and I am back to square one. ANGRY and CONFUSED and JUDGING.......

COuld I be anymore of a woman....????

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THeres just too much to be done. I'm so exhausted.. I'm dying of love though... ^_^ My husband and I are definately newlyweds. We keep fighting over the stupidest things bc we don't understand each other right just yet so its been a little bumpy. I've been controlling and demanding and he's just trying to cope with leave home and dealing with crzy me.. lol.. I have been a lot crzy lately. I don't know what my problem is.. THe doc's just said I was depressed bc I miscarried.. that I needed to move on... Sry for having wanted my own child, ASSHOLES!!! I just can't keep pinning up all the hurt I've been feeling over the past month. It's just making my mood spiral downward... My mom thinks I'm Bi Polar bc my aunt and uncle are.... whatever.. If I am I am, If not then Not.... Idk but I need to figure out how to deal with it in a better way than what I have been. He doesn't deserve to deal and take my crap everyday.. I can't even keep my tone level when all he's done is ask a simple unassuming question.. Not liking myself right now but trying...

Asking for Help is one the hardest things I've ever done bc I don't want anything to be wrong.. is that the right word to use.? idk.. not wrong just don't want to take meds. they don't work.


school work apartment finances mood head body him love self-love


He brought me flowers today and I had to hold back tears. I love him so much.. He always knows exactly what will bring a smile to my face without me having to say one word.

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great horrible sad pissed happy grateful here overseas

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I am a ____________...
My husband is ____________...
I feel __________....
I _________...
I can't wait for him to be _____________...

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Come together right now over me... ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/25138880/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/25138880/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 07:40:50 PDT
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i really am starting to not like my husand's female friend named TIFFANY. he tells her EVERYTHING about us and then she attacks me about "what you don't want him and I to be friends..?"

I don't want to be in this triangle anymore. I thought it was done. apparently not. It's not fair to not be able to have an arugement with him without the annoyance of having her text me at all hours to attack me about why he's upset, like I'm ALWAYS the one at fault. I don't have that person on my side. I always get yelled at for voicing what things that bug me. Watch, somewhere now there's one of my somebodies reading this and in the next day or so I'm going to get attacked again for saying I don't like her or that I'm tired of feeling like the bitch. Why am I always the one wrong.? I know I'm not all the time but I always get attacked. No one cares about my side of the fight. If I was to go to battle, it'd be a battle of one because no one is EVER on my side. I hope my husband will be but sometimes even he will choose against me.<- that being the time I really make sure I'm not wrong. I just feel like I can't win anything anymore. Nothing I do has been right from the beginning. It's been either he and I don't talk and are mad or he just gives up and lets go of what bothered me. I don't want him to just let go of his friendship. That makes me feel awful, but I'm tired of being discussed with her as well.

She likes to think she's behind he and I getting back together. We're back to together because we love each. I let go of my pride and he let his ego down. **they'll be back lol...** I just don't want to have to compete for him to be on my side. I'm done being attacked, and now i'm crying and upset because I feel like I made him give up his best friend. I feel like a bitch and I can't do anything to stop the tears swelling in my eyes or how bad my heart hurts because I don't want him mad or thinking that he had to. I hate myself when things like this happen. I feel like a bad person all because she posted a picture of him with his head with a cheesy face smile quite symmetrical between her and another old female friend's breasts. It wasn't a bad picture, just the positioning of persons doesn't sit well with me. She said i'm overreacting. I'm a newly wed and it doesn't set well with me. I think I'm entitled to want it taken down, but not at the cost of friendship.

He's already leaving his dad behind to be with me. I don't want him to regret marrying me because his friend and i don't get along. I don't want him to hate me because he thinks he can't talk to her. God, I feel like a horrible person. **and a drama queen but we all knew that already**

Maybe he shouldn't have married me then he wouldn't have to deal with all this. I love him too much to make him suffer for my happiness. I hope this gets better. i don't know how much more heartache I can take.

I'm done. I have to talk with him. if this is how our entire marriage is going to be then i don't know how far i'm going to get before i shut off, stop telling him what bugs me, stop being me.

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I'm done being the third wheel. I want to be his number one. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/25003934/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/25003934/ Thu, 28 May 2009 19:06:07 PDT
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finally i reaaly do have something forward to. Im married but he has yet to be here. ties bck home r strong require percision and care....

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24839867/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24839867/ Tue, 19 May 2009 13:35:44 PDT
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As long as He still loves me....

As long as the wedding is still on....

As long as He promises to love me and not leave....

I will get through this....

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24706850/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24706850/ Mon, 11 May 2009 16:28:58 PDT 10wks this coming Saturday ^_^

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To a wonderful man. I'm so happy.

Date: 27th May 2009

I'll be a Mrs. hahaha. Didn't think I'd ever get here but I knew once he and I were together I'd be with him one way another. ^_^ Be that as friends or more, we'd be near each other. We enjoy each other too much to never speak again.

I love my AU. ^_^

my gold.

my treasure.

my knight and king.

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24587618/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24587618/ Mon, 04 May 2009 16:29:07 PDT 9wk this Saturday ^_^

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I hate uniforms. I'd hate mine even if I wasn't pregnant and bloated. The waist is too small. The fabric isn't thick enough for that ICEBOX they call the office. AH!!

On a different note: I've somehow gotten back to my old country roots and started listening to country again. I forgot some artist I actually LIKE..

And yet another note, a good writer I know had some bad news to share. I am sad for her and her husband. I pray this will be a new start, a second chance.

I pray for everyone. May we all find peace of mind and joy in life. ^_^

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24325333/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24325333/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 12:24:46 PDT
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I thought it was going to be nasty. The net says it's very nutrious for pregnancy. I just looked at it and wanted to gag, but then i tried it. It doesn't taste bad. A little bland but its easy to spice up w a little pepper.. I would recommend every mother and pregnant lady to eat and give this to their kids. DELICIOUS and that's a compliment on food rarely given from me. I"m a VERY picky eater.

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24261576/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24261576/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 17:46:56 PDT
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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24243697/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24243697/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 17:36:42 PDT
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Forevermore by Katie Herzig

You could be my white night
And I could be your fairy tale
And you could come and save me
But that is not the end

I will wear will wear a white dress
You will paint a sunset
Life will be a love fest
That’s how it all begins

Say say, oh playmate
Come out and play with me
And bring your dollies three
Climb up my apple tree
Slide down my rainbow
Into my cellar door
And we’ll be jolly friends
Forever more

But the world can spin so madly
And love can hurt so badly
And stories end so sadly
But this is not the end

You still have my heartache
I still have your sweater
Things they will get better
Oh, but not today

Say say oh playmate
I cannot play with you
My dolly’s got the flue
Boo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo
Aint got no rainbow
Aint got no cellar door
But we’ll be jolly friends
Forever more

Say say, oh playmate
Come out and play with me
And bring your dollies three
Climb up my apple tree
Slide down my rainbow
Into my cellar door
And we’ll be jolly friends
Forever more

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24200557/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24200557/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 12:13:08 PDT <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<________>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Love and Sex and Magic by Ciara

Your touch is so magic to me
The strangest things can happen
The way that you react to me
I wanna do something you can’t imagine
Imagine if there was a million me’s talking sexy to you like that
You think you can handle, boy
If I give you my squeeze and I need you to push it right back

Baby, show me, show me
What’s your favorite trick that you wanna use on me
And I’ll volunteer
And I’ll be flowing and going
Till clothing disappears, ain’t nothing but shoes on me
Oh, baby

All night show with just you and the crowd
Doin tricks you never seen
And I bet that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic
So let me drive my body around ya
I bet you know what I mean
Cause you know that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic

Everything ain’t what it seems
I wave my hands and I got you
And you feel so fly assisting me
But now it’s my turn to watch you
I ain’t goin stop you if you wanna grab my neck
Talk sexy to me like that
Just do what I taught you, girl
When I give you my heat and I need you to push it right back

Baby, show me, show me
What’s your favorite trick that you wanna use on me
And I’ll volunteer
And I’ll be flowing and going
Till clothing disappears, ain’t nothing but shoes on me
Oh, baby

All night show with just you and the crowd
Doin tricks you never seen
And I bet that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic
So let me drive my body around ya
I bet you know what I mean
Cause you know that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic

Oh, this is the part where we fall in love (sugar)
Oh, let’s slow it down so we fall in love
But don’t stop what you’re doing to me

All night show with just you and the crowd
Doin tricks you never seen
And I bet that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic
So let me drive my body around ya
I bet you know what I mean
Cause you know that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic

All night show with just you and the crowd
Doin tricks you never seen
And I bet that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic
So let me drive my body around ya
I bet you know what I mean
Cause you know that I can make you believe
In love and sex and magic

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24165652/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24165652/ Fri, 10 Apr 2009 13:29:05 PDT at least i think its good...
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Inside and Out by Feist

Baby, I can't figure it out
Your kisses taste like honey
Sweet lies don't gimme no rise
Oh, what you're trying to do

Livin' on your cheatin'
and the pain grows inside me
It's enough to leave me crying in the rain
Love you forever but you're driving me insane
And I'm hanging on
Oh, oh, oh, oh

I'll win, I'll never give in
Our love has got the power
Too many lovers in one lifetime
Ain't good for you
You treat me like a vision in the night
Someone there to stand behind you
When your world ain't working right
I ain't no vision, I am the girl
who loves you inside and out
Backwards and forwards with my heart hanging out
I love no other way
What are we gonna do if we lose that fire

Wrap myself up and take me home again
Too many heartaches in my lifetime ain't good for me
I figure it's the love that keeps you warm
Let this moment be forever
We won't ever feel the storm
I ain't no vision, I am the girl
Who loves you inside and out
Backwards and forwards with my heart hanging out
I love no other way
What are we gonna do if we lose that fire

Don't try to tell me that it's over
I can't hear a word I can't hear a line
No girl could love you more
And that's what I'm cryin' for
You can't change the way I feel inside

You're the reason for my laughter and my sorrow
Blow out the candle I will burn again tomorrow
No man on earth can stand between my lovin' arms
And no matter how you hurt me, I will love you till I die

I ain't no vision, I am the girl
Who loves you inside and out
Backwards and forwards with my heart hanging out
I love no other way
What are we gonna do if we lose that fire

Loves you inside and out
Backwards and forwards with my heart hanging out
I love no other way
What are we gonna do if we lose that fire

Inside and out
Inside and out
Inside and out
Inside and out

Inside and out
Inside and out

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24110021/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24110021/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 10:59:53 PDT <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<________>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Great DJ by The Ting Tings

Fed up with your indigestion.
Swallow words one by one.
Your folks got high a quarter to five.
Don’t you feel your growing up undone.

Nothing but the local DJ.
He said he had some songs to play.
What went down from this fooling around.
Gave hope and a brand new day.

Imagine all the girls,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums.

Oh
Nothing was the same again.
All about where and when.
Blowing our minds in our lives unkind.
Gotta love the bpl.
When the smoke was all baton
Remember how this all begun.
We wore his love like a hand in a glove.
Where the future plays it all night long.

Imagine all the girls,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums

Making all the girls.
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.
And the drums,
Ah ah ah ah, ah, ah, ah, oh.

All the girls
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee.

And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24057322/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24057322/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 12:02:50 PDT
I'm feeling kinda devious today.. heeheheheheeehehehehhehehehe... BAWHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

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Smile by Lily Allen

When you first left me I was wanting more
But you were fucking that girl next door, what cha do that for (what cha do that for)
When you first left me I didn't know what to say
I never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back
And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack
I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala lalala

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24022880/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/24022880/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 12:41:21 PDT
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One, two, three, four
Tell me that you love me more
Sleepless long nights
That is what my youth was for

Old teenage hopes are alive at your door
Left you with nothing but they want some more

Oh, you're changing your heart
Oh, You know who you are

Sweetheart bitterheart now I can't tell you apart
Cosy and cold, put the horse before the cart

Those teenage hopes who have tears in their eyes
Too scared to own up to one little lie

Oh, you're changing your heart
Oh, you know who you are

One, two, three, four, five, six, nine, or ten
Money can't buy you back the love that you had then
One, two, three, four, five, six, nine, or ten
Money can't buy you back the love that you had then

Oh, you're changing your heart
Oh, you know who you are
Oh, you're changing your heart
Oh, you know who you are
Oh, who you are

For the teenage boys
They're breaking your heart
For the teenage boys
They're breaking your heart

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23999477/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23999477/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 06:39:40 PDT
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Four letter word just to get me along
It's a difficulty and I'm biting on my tongue and I
I keep stalling, keeping me together
People around gotta find something to say now

Holding back, everyday the same
Don't wanna be a loner
Listen to me, oh no
I never say anything at all
But with nothing to consider they forget my name
ame .. ame .. ame

They call me hell
They call me Stacey
They call me her
They call me Jane
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

They call me quiet girl
But I'm a riot
Maybe Joleisa
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

I miss the catch if they through me the ball
I'm the last kid standing up against the wall
Keep up, falling, these heels they keep me boring
Getting glammed up and sitting on the fence now

So alone all the time at night
Lock myself away
Listen to me, I'm not
Although I'm dressed up, out and all with
Everything considered they forget my name
ame .. ame .. ame

They call me hell
They call me Stacey
They call me her
They call me Jane
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

They call me quiet girl
But i'm a riot
Maybe Joleisa
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

Are you calling me darling?
Are you calling me bird?
Are you calling me darling?
Are you calling me bird?

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23956220/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23956220/ Sun, 29 Mar 2009 17:47:08 PDT
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Easy now no need fi(as in for) go down,
easy now no need fi go down,
rock that run that, this where we from
(repeat 2x)

Whoop Whoop
When you run come around,
Cu(z) I kno ur the talk of the town yea
(repeat 4x)

Easy now no need fi go down
Just walk it gently and no break nah bone,
Cool end-it-ly, you have a style of your own,
Me never kno you saw ya master the saxsaphone

cause u sound like the talk of the town yea,
imma lock u when u run come around yea,
make me wobble, make me whole body bubble,
an me no say ya trouble, when ya ready for the double,
and n u hit that,
no ti-na the mickle (as in middle)
play with it a lickle(as in little), why you so na tickle
im tellin' you to, hit that
no ti-na the mickle (as in middle)
stay with it a lickle(as in little), why you so na tickle
im feelin' them
(whoop whoop)

easy now no need fi go down,
easy now no need fi go down,
walk it gently and no break nah bone

Whoop Whoop
When you run come around,
Cu(z) I kno ur the talk of the town yea
(repeat 4x)

Best shown overall, shiny and tall,
One touch make a gal climb whoever you are,
Brass hat, hatter(as in hotter) than fireball
Whoop Whoop!
You not small you not lickle(as in little) at all
Dat touch, just dip on me mind yea
The good feelin dip on rewind yea
make me wobble, make me whole body bubble,
an me no say ya trouble, when ya ready for the double,
and n u hit that,
no ti-na the mickle (as in middle)
play with it a lickle(as in little), why you so na tickle
im tellin' you to, hit that
no ti-na the mickle (as in middle)
stay with it a lickle(as in little), why you so na tickle
im feelin' them

Walk it gently and no break nah bone

easy now no need fi go down,
easy now no need fi go down,
rock that run that, this where we from
(repeat 2x)

Whoop Whoop
When you run come around,
Cu(z) I kno ur the talk of the town yea
(repeat 8x)

Whooop Whooop!!!

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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23923636/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23923636/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 19:54:33 PDT We're going up and the place is slowing down
I knew you'd come around

You captivate me, something about you has got me
I was lonely now you make me feel alive
Will you be mine tonight?

Take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can't take it any more (dadada da dadadada)
I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love
Just take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can give you more (dadada da dadadada)
You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch

My heart is racing as you're moving closer
You take me higher with every breath I take
Would it be wrong to stay?

One look at you and I know what you're thinking
Time's a bitch and my heart is sinking down
You turn me inside out

Take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can't take it any more (dadada da dadadada)
I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love
Just take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can give you more (dadada da dadadada)
You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch

I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna kiss a boy
I wanna ...

I wanna kiss a girl (do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya)
I wanna kiss a girl (do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya)
I wanna kiss a boy (do ya, do ya, do ya, do ya)
I wanna kiss a (kiss a, kiss a, kiss a)

dadada da dadadada
dadada da dadadada
dadada da dadadada (oh)

Take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can't take it any more (dadada da dadadada)
I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love
Just take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can give you more (dadada da dadadada)
You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch

Take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can't take it any more (dadada da dadadada)
I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love
Just take me on the floor (dadada da dadadada)
I can give you more (dadada da dadadada)
You kill me, you kill me, you kill me
Please don't stop!

I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23902349/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23902349/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 15:26:35 PDT
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I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23857098/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23857098/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 20:29:15 PDT
How could we love so much and hurt all the same? He'd be so great and I know I would be good for him but would I have to hide again to keep him?

I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23604211/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23604211/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 05:52:47 PDT
WATCHERS: READ Deux.

..

You've said my work is depressing, emo-ish, filled with sadness. Well, I can't help but be the romantic God made me. I have chosen my path, made my decisions at the forks in the road. My love has never wavered but theirs ALWAYS does. I feel I am not the person everyone sees and if they knew my wholely, they would not like me as much. I am sweet but also I am like a viper angry. I coil up and wait to strike, and know exactly where to strike because I have waited, watched, learned. Often times I think "Maybe I was meant for solitude." but then I find I like people in general. It's the one on one that people start not liking me back. Oh well, I guess. I will live my life the way I chose and pray just maybe there is a soul out there who can put up with all of me.

I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23552156/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23552156/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 05:48:28 PST
What am I going to tell if...? If. I know IF but I'm afraid. Please God, I don't know if I'm ready for this task yet. I feel it but I'm afraid of failing. I'm afraid of the disappointment in her eyes when I say it. In his. In theirs. What if she leaves me to "deal with it"? Disownment was need of my options for her. I was the "good one". I'm not supposed to be the "fuck-up!". Is this to prove I'm human? Did my ego get too big? Was I too selfish to the wrong person and not enough to the right one? Is this how it's supposed to happen?

I'm so afraid. God lend me your strength to live this path if that is your will.

I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23378521/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23378521/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 09:50:35 PST
Facebook...= Caught up with ppl i knew from high school (to include my "rival"), and family.

Myspace...=AF buddies.

Chatango....= crazy, honry, chatty ppl that make my morning fun after work.

I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23345770/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23345770/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 14:54:20 PST

I don't know why I'm asking... I'm just tired and have to go to work, if you call listening to radio static for hours work.... Sun's going down and I'm getting up. Yellow for Sundays... Color therapy somewhat helping my mood, but not really. Check out a new page by a kid after my own heart. His writing speaks my words, though I've never met or read his work before. Amazed! There are people like me. Too bad they're all too young or too old. I am a freak in my generation and can't understand its destructive nature, though unintentionally I do the same thing, most of the time realizing it too late.

I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23299911/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23299911/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 03:26:21 PST









No offense, but ... People are getting too fake on me . They only want posts, comments, or to see how many friends they can get. So let's see who will actually repost this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend...Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "Fake Friends'

True friends will read and repost this. Fake friends will just ignore it.

I personnaly just want them to look at my so called - ''feeling journals'' so that they know how i am.
They don't really need to comment anything, i just want friends, true friends. i'm confused by this journal, i'll sort it out...

I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23244193/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23244193/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 21:11:06 PST
I really believe if everyone had just one person to live their life with, we'd all feel better and live more fulfilled lives. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23201237/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/23201237/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 17:28:37 PST
For that lone dog who had me in his snare for a while... Thanks for waking me up.... ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/22861442/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/22861442/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 09:56:02 PST
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I mean, it's like this scenario...

You're doing the dishes, a stack piled to the ceiling and the minute you think you've made a dent, they add another pile of them for you to clean. They are not any better than you. They are not higher in the chain, but because you took the iniative to start, they will keep piling until up give up. The piles get higher and higher and the only one to do anything about the stench is you because you're not so lazy to leave a mess....

It ridiculous how my mother's house has fallen. It wasn't so bright and shining when I lived here. Don't get me wrong, but I can tell the impact of her giving in and giving up.

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]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21949562/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21949562/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 15:24:50 PST it's never how the animal will die but instead when....
I feel as though i'm shouting amist a crowd and all are ignoring me yet talking about me.....
My heart knows more sorrow now than ever before..
what possessed me to to such things...?
i do not regret for that would be suicide to the soul to do such a thing...
I know only that i need to first find what makes me happy while being alone in order to be happy with someone else be that friend, lover, husband....
Everything is a circle yet nothing connects like it should...'
i need a place to call home and someone waiting for me or someone to wait for, maybe...
truth hurts the worst...
truth wounds the deepest....
sorrow turns into a blanket for the willing....
i will refuse its comfort....

]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21702661/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21702661/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 16:21:39 PST It's about giving thanks for the good things that happened over the year and hoping for more to come.
I am thankful for all the great people in my life. Without them, I don't know how i would have turned out or where i would be now.

Also Thank you Deviantart.com
I am SO happy i found somewhere to post my art so others can give me advice and pointers ^_^

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]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21582205/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21582205/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 13:43:52 PST
Only when life is at its simplest and no vices ever existed.

I'm trying......

God help all in love.
May their hearts mend fast so they do not miss life.
And may God grant them another term of love.
Love is one pain I will not forget and i pray will not die. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21366569/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21366569/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 01:01:42 PST
Only when life is at its simplest and no vices ever existed.

Sitting at the bottom of the deepest hole in the earth
Looking up from this hell
Searching for the way up
Finding it
Climbing takes time
Healing as well

I find myself alone again at the bottom of this Hell. He has chosen a different path and no longer has need of my encouragements. I was lost in the beginning of this ordeal, when i was thrown down here. Now i find myself remebering who i am and how i am. I am me. I will not be defeated so easily. I live to learn and that was a hard lesson but a necessary one. He shown me the knife and i made the cut after he'd dimenstrated oh so many times in the past few months on my heart. I am ready to remember myself. My power. My way. I hope he will not be the last of my teachers. I miss the warmth of strong arms.

God help all in love.
May their hearts mend fast so they do not miss life.
And may God grant them another term of love.
Love is one pain I will not forget and i pray will not die. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21165731/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21165731/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 04:58:05 PDT
God help all in love.
May their hearts mend fast so they do not miss life.
And may God grant them another term of love.
Love is one pain I will not forget and i pray will not die. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21136712/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/21136712/ Fri, 24 Oct 2008 07:45:07 PDT
the world stood between Eric and I.
My heart pounds knowing i might never know your touch again.
the realization that true love doesn't exist in this world due to unforseen circumstances is amazing in itself. I now know why people try to kill themselves although i am not that selfish to those who would care for me. I know he loves me and i still love him but the world will not make he and i possible. Money is my making apparently and i have come face to face with my maker....

God help all in love.
May their hearts mend fast so they do not miss life.
And may God grant them another term of love.
Love is one pain I will not forget and i pray will not die. ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/20689433/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/20689433/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 15:37:22 PDT
I lost a close friend to a motorcycle accident this past Wednesday. Today was the first day back at work, the place I saw him most. I could barely function. I pray they have RockBand in heaven and that he gets to play to his heart's content. I miss him dearly. It's like he's not gone, but on vacation, like he'll be back in a week. He was like an unyielding ray of light. He was such a goofball. Sometimes we didn't know whether we were laughing with or at him but he could make everyday in that dreary little shop brighter. I hope he knew how much he was loved and how much we miss him.

"DO WORK!" his motto and ours.

WE LOVE YOU KING COOPER!!!! ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/20543869/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/20543869/ Wed, 17 Sep 2008 19:34:11 PDT
AND IT'S MINE ALL MINE...!

.... WELL SORT OF...
......GOTTA PAY THE BANK...

BUT ITS MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^_^

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Took my sib's to the movies and watched Batman kick butt and the Joker scare the hell out of my five yo brother. Awesome movie....! Better than the first.

]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/19463748/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/19463748/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 11:45:04 PDT not happy and i have a day and a half before that happens. I don't wanna go......

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So here to Carlos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please if you watch my page, say a pray for this dear artist.

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Look for my old stuff finally being posted b/c I am finally going home..... ^_^ i hope you enjoy..

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HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/19101925/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/19101925/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 00:09:45 PDT <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<+>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

OH I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get to go home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/18736212/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/18736212/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 18:41:22 PDT <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<+>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I want away from this place. I'm trapped and i wish that the trapped sense of being was giving me inspiration to write how i feel but its not... it's doing the opposite... I AM TRAPPED....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am so tired..... ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/18457114/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/18457114/ Fri, 23 May 2008 02:37:41 PDT <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<+>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I'm so happy.. My fiance is coming to see me today... five months I haven't been able to see him... oh so happy.... YES!!!!

I'd like to thank God and everyone involved...hahaha..... oh so happy...

the only negative: I have to work this weekend... POOH! It sucks but someone's gotta do it...

Nothing is going to get me down this week... YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I am so tired..... ]]> *wintersglow http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/18287125/ http://wintersglow.deviantart.com/journal/18287125/ Mon, 12 May 2008 10:19:47 PDT <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<+>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I have a friend that's leaving tomorrow to go overseas for four months... Please say a prayer with me for him and the other troops over there. it'd be much appreciated ^_^

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I am so tired..... ]]> *wintersglow