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If you're interested, please contact me via email at lexidecouture@hotmail.com

Minimal designs I'll probably do for free. =]


Thanks!
Lexi Harrington

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Tyler, you're such a wonderful person. I wish I were able to put together words that would makes sense to explain how much I love you and how important you are to me.

You're such a great lover. I would be absolutely nothing without you. You complete me. I, whole heartedly, am in love with you.

And I don't ever want to lose you. I would do anything just to see you smile and have you be happy.

<333

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I hate how I look. I'm so tired of this body.

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I'll give you updates on Wednesday. Or Friday, depending on when I get some more photo paper.

Hello. I was calling to say hello to you, and let you know that I've been thinking about you. You should call me when you're done with practice. I'd like to hear your voice.

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My negitives from the past weekend were shit.
Light leaked into the canister, wo there were lines all over my film. Dammit. Plus I'm out of photopaper.

What a drag.

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Tomorrow's Photo Club, which will let me get some more work done until Tyler's car gets fixed. I'm excited. Here's to the weekend!

lovelove
lexi

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I have 2 rolls of film to develope. I might try and have Tyler pose with me today, seeing as how it's all nice and sunny. That way, we'll have pictures...together.

He's so sweet. My parents think he's just darling. Because he is.

Mom has yet to get my camera fixed. Dammit.

lovelove
lexi

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It's funny, because if Ryan would have come to see me this weekend, I would have never met him.

I'm glad he didnt.



GOOD NEWS! I found my Canon film camera. I told mom to take it to the shop and get a new battery for it. Im excited.

Time for All Saint's and Tyler. If he's lucky.

lovelove
lexi

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He made me promise him. To wait for him. He'll be magic 18 in July. He said i could have as many boyfriends as I want, but when he comes home. He wants me back.

I promise.


lovelove
lexi

]]> ~withEYESthatKILL http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10969562/ http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10969562/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 08:05:42 PST Well I'm a weapon of mass destruction
Got no apologies for a hyper concussion
I might swipe your identity
Take your love and turn it into obscenity

You say that I don't care about
All the little things that you care about
Oh you think that I don't care about
All the little things that make you want to shout

This are getting better. In fact perfect would be nothing short of how to describe these times. Amends will be made. Bruises will heal. And cuts will be sewn closed with kisses of unmatchable proportions.

My angel's back in my arms. I've stuck to my promises. I kept tapping my heels. And wishes came true. Wishes come true.


Imnotacasualtyanymore
lexi

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Im hoping that something magical will happen this weekend.

Im hoping that there will be a wish that comes true.



I still have yet to develope those pictures of him. But that will be a project for tomarrow, and hopefully I can suprise him.


lovelove
lexi

]]> ~withEYESthatKILL http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10650961/ http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10650961/ Tue, 07 Nov 2006 18:05:29 PST You're weird.
Your mom is weird.


now that we have that out of the way.

I took some AMAZING pictures the other day of Mr. Ryan. I want to develope them right now. RIGHT NOW.

But unfortunately, that will have to wait for tomarrow.

HOORAY! As he would say. ^_^

<3ryan<3

Lovelove
lexi

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his name's ryan.

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My first kiss.
My first smoke.
My first fuck.
My first mistake.
My first love.
My first everything.

Down the drain. Down the fucking kitchen sink drain.
I was nothing but another hole to fuck...and it hurts. It hurts so much.

"Our friendship is going nowhere. "

i seem to remember hearing that somewhere..from someone...who can't give a shit less about me.


thatfuckingringtonekillsme.
lexi

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Those pictures i spent so long painting, because i felt that happy with myself. And i wrote down those dates. Those days that made me so happy.



It was a lie.



And now...Im looking at those walls...

Those walls that are now covered with the blood from my knuckles...

Those walls i want to tear down...

Those walls that were once part of our history...

Those walls.

Those goddamn walls, that goddamn writing, and those goddamn pictures i took.

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sexianorexilexi: whats up with daniel being so...anti-social lately?
sexianorexilexi: it makes want to punt a baby at him >
kablamiieee: oh goodness.
kablamiieee: well
kablamiieee: you should ask him. its for him to tell.
sexianorexilexi: WTF
sexianorexilexi: jesus!
sexianorexilexi: i keep asking the both of you!
kablamiieee: just ask him, lexi.

I think I know...and I think its my fault


Im clawing myself out of this sess pool. Im trying so hard. Feelings are hard to erase.

lexi

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I can't decide whether I'm happy it happened, or whether i screwed the fuck up again.

On one side, i was so happy...and he might be coming around. More than what you think went down. he said shit that made me think about the past.

But then. Hes done it before. This would be the third time. And i should expect this.


i keep holding my breath, closing my eyes, and repeatedly saying in my head, "I want it to be back to normal. I want things to be back to normal..."
that's when i tap my heels together, and wishes come true...


do my wishes come true?
lexi

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Im sitting in his kitchen...glass littering the ground, and an angry rumble of an afternoon storm outside. Simply sittin gin a dining room chair is me. I told myself 'He cant get away with this...' and i ment it. "And so i'll wait here in this nice little kitchen for you to come home. All i wanted to say was thanks for turning my life into some Soap Opera cliche. You think ' Oh she doesnt have the guts to pull that trigger...' Well think again. You hurt me, and theres nothing to describe the feeling of heartbreak and betrayal. That is...except for this little bullet i have laying in my hand..." And thats when I stand up, high off the look of fear in his eyes, and slowly edge up to that beautiful face of his. My shaky hand pointing that pistol at his forhead never ment anything more epic.

I daydreamed today in English. About what it would be like to see those tears gather in his eyes...
I want him to regret. I dont want him back anymore. I simply want to see him feel like how i feel inside. I want him to know what its like to cry over someone who isnt there anymore.


Dontbeafraidwhenyouhearthosegunshots
lexi

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Let me grab my lawn chair so i can watch things work out. I think im done getting involved in these types of situations for awhile. It only makes things worse.

I told her everything. I hope he gets in a car crash. I hope she's alright after this whole thing.

the only three people i can worry about right now.

i am purely a messenger right now. (ps im dressing liek a slut tomarrow just to let you know...)

christsaveusall
lexi ]]> ~withEYESthatKILL http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10144539/ http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10144539/ Thu, 21 Sep 2006 16:13:07 PDT
but other than that, itll rock your balls off

lexi ]]> ~withEYESthatKILL http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10099765/ http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10099765/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 09:42:19 PDT
That would be cool to get the old Daniel back, although i doubt he will ever be ressurected from the dead....but its a nice thought to keep in the back of my head.

lovelove
lexi ]]> ~withEYESthatKILL http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10063404/ http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10063404/ Wed, 13 Sep 2006 18:21:43 PDT kablamiieee: no you're not.
sexianorexilexi: i went and lit a candle and smoked a cigarette from my bathroom window
sexianorexilexi: and thought to myself, Why am i still denying everything?
sexianorexilexi: Crying never solved anything. And ive got someone...whos always been there...someone ive been calling for advice abotu this whole thing
sexianorexilexi: and im denying the fact that hes been such a good friend to me through all of this
sexianorexilexi: and i thought, Well, why are you still even hung over this? He never cared obviously. And ive got someone who cares more than he ever did...so why im i still here? trying to feel pity for myself?
sexianorexilexi: and i realized that its not worth my time and effort...to bury myself alive in this mess ive created.
sexianorexilexi: And then i turned out the lights...and took a shower by candle light. And figured out that life doesnt have to be as bad as i make it seem... if you accept the fact that some people are peices of shit and have no regard for other's feelings. All i can do is be there for their support and be their best friend.
kablamiieee: :-\
sexianorexilexi: And so heres the start of my new life...where i dont blame myself for what others do to me, and cherish the fact that there's someone who loves me for who i am, and who im not.
kablamiieee: well, i'm glad you're trying to make yourself happy.
kablamiieee: and i love you.
kablamiieee: lots and lots.
sexianorexilexi: im not trying to. i am and i dont even have to try
sexianorexilexi: because life is what yo umake it seem. if you want it to be a peice of shit..then it will be
sexianorexilexi: theres always goign to be people who walk all over me and use me.
sexianorexilexi: but i cant let it get to me
sexianorexilexi: i have to realize that those people just havent had their own revalation
sexianorexilexi: and griffin's been there for me...hes been there to say that to me...but i didnt realize it until now.


im done drying my eyes, mate...and now ive got a fucking nose bleed
lexi ]]> ~withEYESthatKILL http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10045282/ http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10045282/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 22:46:58 PDT
he lied. she lied. i lied. and now God's up there. He's looking down and laughing.

he cant keep me down. Do what you want. YOU CANT KEEP ME DOWN.


here's to being best friends and hiding things from me.
It seems that i have too much heart, and too much trust for people to handle.




im going down like the two towers.
lexi ]]> ~withEYESthatKILL http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10035505/ http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10035505/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 04:17:37 PDT
and now. im dead to him.

and thats all that matters.

lexi ]]> ~withEYESthatKILL http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10001466/ http://withEYESthatKILL.deviantart.com/journal/10001466/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 17:32:19 PDT
lets party.

lovelove
lexi ]]> ~withEYESthatKILL