http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:wynterashes&section=today deviantART RSS for by:wynterashes en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 19:49:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/10372024/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/10372024/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 17:29:47 PDT
Kay, so. I come back to DA. Again. This time I hope to stick around. But I'm not making any promises.

Regardless, I've been drawing more lately, so that could be one of the reasons I'm back. Mmmyep.

But coming back to 4234230840238 messages isn't cool. No offense to anyone, but I deleted them all. I grabbed a few I liked and favorited some pictures, but as for comments and such, well, 9 hours at work doesn't leave my head in a very good state of mind to start sifting through stuff, and I have a drawing of Adam I'd like to finish, as well as a drawing of my undead Priestess on WoW. (I actually adore comments, and pictures, and journals, and will return to being a proper comment whore once I can manage them as they come in day by day - but I can't really sift through 900 things. I'll go insane. >:l )

...anyways, what's this about a contest? Well, I'm subscribed again, so here's the deal.

CONTEST THING FOR ASHEY
Design me a header and a footer. It can have anything to do with anything. Afi. Violence. Sex. Love. Happy rainbow colored sheep. It really doesn't matter. Before I had a lovely set by gothgeisha but since not keeping up with my subscription I lost where I had linked them.

Anyways, make them nifty and awesome and I shall love you. One person can win, or two people, depending on if I like the header of one person and the footer of another.

Prizes are a two month subscription and/or a drawing done by me. (like that's worth shit, lawls.) Yeah.

Anyways, I can't think of anything fascinating to say, so Ashey, over and out.

Make me a footer too, plz. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/9284679/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/9284679/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 18:27:47 PDT to draw it. Kay? Kay.

I got a Jade drawing that's almost done, so we'll see if I can finish it by tonight. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/9274798/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/9274798/ Tue, 04 Jul 2006 19:55:56 PDT
I've actually drawn a lot more than the Davey I decided to post - but they're all sketches and stuff.

I so just deleted the 320840238538 messages I had - if I missed any really awesome art, I apologize. I don't have the right mind to really go through that much. @.@;;

Thanks for all the comments and favorites and stuff I got on my two year absence, though. Ahaha, I came back and my ID is all like "LOL GUYS I'M 18!" -_-; I'm freaking 20 now. Jeez. That tells you something.

Gods, I hate not having a subscription. I'd get myself one if I had the cash... fugging saving for apartments and crap. And other things.

I had a bunch of stuff I wanted to say, but I'm not sure anymore. Have a nice 4th if that's your thing, and if it's not, go burn a flag. I'm kinda neutral on the whole thing.

Oh, and, yeah, since I like AFI I feel the need to say I like decemberunderground - Black Sails is still my favorite album, and I don't think all the songs on decemberunderground are good, but there are some utterly fantastic ones. <3 "Kiss and Control" is my fav.

And, that's it. Love ya.

-ashey. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3886421/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3886421/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 16:25:16 PST
]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3837015/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3837015/ Sun, 14 Nov 2004 21:23:05 PST

The title of this journal has absolutely NOTHING to do with the journal itself. I just felt like saying "pickle jar" because it has a certain asthetically pleasing sound to it..

Well, not really, but we can pretend. ^^

Zomfg, I have a header and a footer now, both NOT done by me. The upper one was done by ~gothgeisha1129 and the lower one was drawn by * PsYcHo-MiDnIgHt. Both are very lovely indeed, yup yup, that they are!

I've been planning three AFI themed works, all gift arts. So expect at least one in the next week! Yeah. I'm trying to convince myself of that, anyways. x_x

I got to see "Taking Lives" this weekend. OMG, I adore Ethan Hawke. As if I didn't love him enough in GATTACA. x_x But now he's this uber hot rapisty psychopath in this movie, and I"m like, "OMFG, I can't believe I feel this way, but God, I want to be Angelina Jolie right now. Passionate love with Ethan Hawke!" He is just so adorable. x_x

Omg, omg, I'm such a fangirl. x_x It's odd. Somehow, Jade Puget and Ethan Hawke don't really seem to be on the same page, but that's just me.

Incidentally, thinking of Jade reminds me of my new favorite song, entitled Milk and Cereal. You'll laugh. You'll cry. You'll... eh, nevermind. x_x

Anyways... um, yeah. x_x I can't think of what else I wanted to say. ^_^

Besides the fact that I <3 Alex more than Ethan Hawke and Jade. Omg. But how is that possible? Well... it is. But just barely. XD (kidding, kidding, Alex is specialer by far. ^_^)

---

Gift art list!! ZOMFG.
*PsYcHo-MiDnIgHt - Drawing for making me a footer! And cause I loves her muchly! ^_^
~gothgeisha1129 - Birthday present!! < 3
~dreamer15 - Hunter drawing! Gasp. x_x
~XxPOGOxX - another birthday present! < 3
Alex - pretend he's on DA. *clicks repeatedly on his name* Gah! No linkee! Anyways, his birthday is on the 18th, so I must draw him something!

]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3716066/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3716066/ Sun, 31 Oct 2004 19:33:05 PST

...that my computer is infected with dangerous Spyware and my anti virus protection can't stop it?!

At least, that's what my computer is telling me. O_o Not sure I should listen to it. It's not even my computer - my computer is safe at school. After all, who gives a damn about my parent's computer? O_o

"Not I," said the fly.

Hm... my messages have really built up. I seriously need to cut it out with this "Hm... must play RO. I'll leave DA for a week or two and come back. I won't have THAT many messages..."

Fsck that. O_o

From here on out I declare that I shall check it at least every two days. o_o;;

I will not swear to the Lord or any beings of higher power, however. For one thing, that would indicate I believed in some higher being. For another, I'm fearful of being struck with some "stray" bolt of lightning. >_> *cough* Um... yeah.

I'm hyper. ; _ ; *falls over*

I've been insanely mood swingy lately. Half of me wants to hurl myself off a very tall building. The other half wants to... I dunno. Write long, ranting journal entries about my computer and higher beings. We can see what side is winning right now. O_O

Anywas, muchos apologies to anyone and everyone who filled up my messages. ^_^;; I'm going to attempt to sift through all those later once I get back to school. >_> Hooray for slackerish moi.

Oh yah! And thanks for all the red hot love I got on the last journal entry. ; _ ; You people make me weep for joy. ^_^ I love you from the depths of my being. <3

You know you're awesome when you respond to my complete and total shit journals. O_O;;

Anyways, I'll stop harassing you and leave you guys alone. Damn, my journal needs a banner. >_>

[EDIT OF DOOM] My journal NO LONGER needs a banner. O_O It was done for me by the very wonderful ~gothgeisha1129 and I will now proceed to love her with every inch of my being. Hooray! ^_^ Go spam her with kisses. <3 [/edit]

Um... yeah. I'll go now, before I start harassing people.

-ash.

]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3577671/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3577671/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 23:24:20 PDT
OMFG, I love you all. <3

]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3530919/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3530919/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 22:38:47 PDT
Today was really bad, I think, but I didn't hate it so much. I'm too hooked on awful flash animations to care. The perky music makes me feel alive. o.o;

School is weird. I study some, and I get okay grades, but I feel so apathetic.

In other news... I love Alex. Alot. Rawr. He's the sort of guy I'd wanna marry, which is funny, cause I was always sort of against marriage because I thought it was stuffy and unromantic.

But Alex's stability is nicer than whirlwind excitement. If marriage is like my relationship with him, calm, quiet, comfortable... then I think I wouldn't mind being married. I seriously adore that boy.

---

Rawr. Must. Share. Seizure. Inducing. Flash. Animations.

You want obnoxious flash animations problably influenced by Ecstasy, go here ---> It's better than drugs, I tell ya.

I recommend Suzukisan, the James Bond one, and Darkwing Duck. The music for all of them is so... addicting.

All I can say is this: a gay Peter Pan singing with the voice of Megumi Hayashibara (a japanese pop star) while Nicholas, the villian of the Carebears movie plots to take over the world with an army of Alex Trebechs much to the chagrin of James Bond, who, in his normal hero-esque fashion attempts to thwart Nicholas.

What am I talking about, this flash sucks. Just watch it for it's music, Suzukisan is much more fun. O_O And the Darkwing Duck theme in German pwns j00.

Yeah, I'm tired. Can you tell? :3

Night everyone. ^_^

]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3434910/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3434910/ Fri, 24 Sep 2004 09:14:06 PDT I've gotten like, 12 hours of sleep this entire week, and yet, while I'm tired, I still feel completely strung out.

Dorm room life is funny. People get crazy ass drunk. A couple of days ago some girl was screaming from down the hall about how her brother was having a baby. After that, I proceeded to hear bouts of insane, manical laughter. o.o;;

My suite mates are both in the gospel choir, and they want to be broadway singers. Everytime I go to the bathroom, I am greeted with a musical medly of various songs that I can vaguely remember hearing before, but can't quite place. You know those crazy musical songs.

Speaking of bathrooms - there's water all over the sink that no one has bothered to pick up, and I think my suite mates dropped a glass dispenser of blue sparkly soap on the bathroom floor. It's quite slippery and slimey now.

This morning, I woke up to the sound of what appeared to be someone with a chainsaw on the other side of the wall. I still haven't figured out what that was.

And about the bathrooms again... I've been to lazy to go to the store and get more toliet paper, so I've been having to filch toliet paper from the academic buildings.

Oh yeah. I'm so going to hell. >

I feel so evil, stashing rolls of it in my messenger bag and sneaking out all ninjitsu style. ^_^;;

Mwah, I am a rebel!

]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3411086/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3411086/ Tue, 21 Sep 2004 01:07:05 PDT
Because I'm crazy and I'm tired, and damn, college SUCKS wax fruit.

Actually, there is a reason. Besides the fact that I've always wanted one that is.

I figure that I'll have to stick around on DA for a bit cause I just blew some amount of money... (however much a 3 month subscription costs!) to pay for this.

I got an Art History exam in the morning. I am so going to fail that.

Wow.

I'm not making any sense.

I'm talking to Alex, in England now... at 2:57 am. He's amazing.

I love him.

Yeah... and here, at school? In college? There's huge bugs here. OMFG, I saw this cricket that was the size of my hand... And Monty is running into flies that are the size of a half dollar coin.

It's like we're in the Australian outback, and we're only in Huntsville for goddsake.

Mmm, late now. I'm going to shut up before I make people hate me.

But wow, guys... I love you all.

]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3114654/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/3114654/ Fri, 13 Aug 2004 08:56:52 PDT
I don't know. I've been a zombie all summer long. I started playing a on a hack RO server, and everything went downhill from there. o_o

Addictions are baaaaaaad things. Very distracting. Very frustrating. Indeed, probably the only reason I'm on DA right now is because my froiking computer had to be reformated and now my game isn't running properly.

I'm sorry I couldn't get to all your comments and pictures and journals. I got on and I had 1,200+ messages. Being gone for that long really doesn't work. O_o

I'm goint to start attempting to get on more, but... ^_^

I'll probably post some pictures tomorrow or something. -__-;; I haven't colored anything recently, and I'd rather start off my existance again with a piece of artwork that doesn't look like crap. =3

Much love to everyone who still rememembers who I am,
-ash. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2595712/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2595712/ Sun, 06 Jun 2004 10:02:14 PDT really need to draw something.

Actually, I'm sort of working on an AFI comic right now that I might actually finish... (not like my last one. yeah, um... that sucked.) Anyways, I've got the sketches and most of the inking done for the first page. Just need some color...

I got to see two movies this week! Van Helsing and HPOA. Van Helsing, I think, would have been awesome save for some few overly goofy moments. HP was fun, but not fantastic. The new director completely revamped Hogwarts. It was weird. Of course, seeing movies with Monty and Stephen makes anything cool, though.

Monty got me sick at Van Helsing, though... actually, it's probably more like my fault since I let him share my vanilla shake and he was uber sick. Yeah, I'm really stupid sometimes.

So now I'm really sick, cold sores, fever, sore throat... I want ice cream or some ice coffee, whichever comes first...

Actually, I want to go out for coffee with Monty, but since I'm sick...

Yeah. It's strange.

Oh. And I want a subscription! That would be bad-assed.

Nothing much else to say. I guess I'll catch you guys later.

I you all!

-ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2541530/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2541530/ Sun, 30 May 2004 09:27:31 PDT “…Live in a big house together by an angry sea.”
---
I’m stealing ~nekokawai’s habit of using song lyrics for journal entries and continuing them on into the journal itself dramatically. But this is how I feel. If I could marry all of my friends to keep them from going away – and wouldn’t it be fun? We could sit around and party all day, in some big house far away from everything. Away from everyone else.

I graduated on Thursday.

I graduated The Woodlands high school, with 1,250 of my classmates on a humid Thursday night. Three hours of my life I spent there, sitting in one row out of a hundred rows of chairs watching person after person walk across the stage taking sheets of paper in leather cases. Those sheets of paper were like goodbye notices. Overly formal letters, stale and impersonal and lonely. I cried.

After graduation, I went with Monty to the after graduation lock-in party (from 10:00 PM on Thursday until 5:00 AM on Friday morning), cheesily titled “Operation Graduation”. I got to see a lot of people all over again, no longer in snooty forest green graduation robes. We wandered around with Niki, (and were often joined by the fantastic Chris) talking to people, having our fortunes read, and eating random food in a cafeteria where the DJ played rap music way too loud. Staying up all night like that, wandering around and talking to everyone – the entire event was insanely surreal. But at the time, even the rap music was fun.

I got many pictures of everyone, whether by actual posed shots or candid shots I managed to get while playing camera-flash tag (where you run around, using your camera’s flash like a gunshot to blind people in the eyes). I even got two shots of the drug-addicted Dandelion Boy, although I had to chase after him a bit to get those. He’s so adorable.

If you want to see my pictures, I figured I’d put them up on Fotki so as not to crowd my DA deviations even more than they already are.

Ash's Photographs of Doom! ----> [link]

Can you figure out which one is the lovable Dandelion Boy? We’ll see if you can remember his name and pick him out from everyone else. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2476475/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2476475/ Fri, 21 May 2004 11:17:32 PDT ”…that last a lifetime.”
---
School is over in a couple of days, and I don’t want it to end. College is cool, I guess, but I’m going to miss high school and everyone I’ve grown to adore over the years. It’s hard to imagine saying goodbye…

Never mind the fact that I’m utterly and completely in love with someone who has become a special friend – someone who’s going off to college 9 hours away from me in the fall… I don’t know whether I want to tell him how I feel for him, and risk losing a friendship that probably will fade away with time and distance, anyway – or not say anything in an effort to preserve whatever it is that we have between us now. Confessions of love seem to have a detrimental effect on friendships, unfortunately. More than likely because people are so bitter.

I’ve been crying almost every day, recently – whether it’s because of Dan (alas, I love him) or because of school, or because of both… Dan introduced me to the band Of Montreal and almost every single one of their songs makes me get all weepy. In the middle of class, no less.

Anyways, I’m sorry if I haven’t been commenting on much, recently – I haven’t had much time, seeing as I’m grounded from the computer at home and my internet time at school is usually distracted by the ever-lovable Monty. My thoughts have also been insanely preoccupied by the ever-annoying Dan of Doom, who, by the way, got me to steal a traffic cone from a bunch of street cleaners the other day when he was taking me home - it was a drive-by theft, see; I had to lean out of the window of his car to get it (although he slowed down from 60 to 10 mph so I wouldn’t lose my hand on contact…!) We were both hysterical – the expressions on the faces of the street cleaners were priceless. I think they yelled something in Spanish at us, but we had the music going so loud that I couldn’t hear.

Hm… I’m being swayed to the dark side. Or so my friend Alison says. Dan also offered to get me free marijuana (even though he pays $25 a pop for his) if I wanted to try some, which I lovingly declined. Stealing traffic cones is one thing – getting high is another. Still, I love that boy – and god, he has awesome taste in music.

Which is another thing worth mentioning – I’m getting hooked on crazy Indie music. It’s completely awesome. Of course, some Indie really, really sucks – but there’s quite a bit of it that’s so bad-assed, there aren’t words to describe it. Yum.

Well, I’m babbling, so I’ll let everyone go. I actually put up two pieces of art this week – maybe I’m coming out of my slump?

Thanks for putting up with my shit, everyone – I love you all insanely.

-ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2365150/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2365150/ Wed, 05 May 2004 12:12:24 PDT
On Monday, I was in a car accident. (and I was driving).

It happened like this: I was going home from school, driving behind this really large truck ( a Ford F350 Super Duty, for those of you who are familiar with cars) when this jack ass pulls in front of the truck and slams on his breaks. So the truck has to slam on his breaks, and I try to, but I slam my little Dodge Neon right into the big ass truck, rearending into his big ass trailer hitch.

Of course the truck was fine – how could a tank masquerading as a truck NOT be? But my car was really trashed. Okay, it wasn’t sooooo bad – but it wasn’t good, either.

And considering the fact that, even though it was the car in front of the truck’s fault, since I rear ended the truck, it’s MY fault.

Nevermind the fact that I was taking Dan (who, mind you, I’m completely mad for…) home from school when I got in the accident.

Which was, oddly enough, a good thing. Because I was totally freaking out, completely having a panic attack, and the only reason I managed to keep myself from throwing myself into oncoming traffic was because he was there with me. He made sure I got out of the car safely, he told me what to do with my insurance, he worried over me, and he insisted that he drive what he could home when it was done.

It’s so funny. He portrays himself as this really harsh, mean person sometimes. I mean, right before we got in the accident, he was talking about his weekend, which consisted of his experiment with prescription painkillers downed with rum (illegally) and his exploits trying to drive while completely high. Mind you, I attempted to chastise him – but he got me laughing by telling me how, when trying to fall asleep, he was convinced that the bed he was supposed to sleep on was a house and he needed to remove the roof – thus prompting him to remove the covers from the floor upon which he had fallen (he missed the bed when he fell down) with his feet.

Yeah. So we have this crazy druggie boy person (who today, informed me of elaborate plans to make his own bong) who’s sitting around at my accident, telling me to calm down, letting me lean on his shoulder when I was afraid I was going to cry, and generally being a really, really nice person.

Duuuuuude. I’m so completely in love with this boy. Who cares if he does drugs? I don’t approve, but… he’s not any less of a person. He’s much nicer, actually, than a lot of people I know. If he hadn’t been there… god knows what I would have done.

Anyways. ^____^ Yeah. But I’m so insanely grounded now. It’s not even funny. No phone, no internet. Too bad mom and dad can’t regulate me from school!

---

I’ll have an AFI group picture up tomorrow for . But… that’s tomorrow. It's almost all done. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2331213/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2331213/ Sat, 01 May 2004 17:49:24 PDT
Um, yeah...

Uh...

Nothing much else to say!



(I need to draw some more...)

---

I finally got my AIM to work, so now everyone can talk to me...

(not that anyone wants to!) ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2310313/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2310313/ Tue, 27 Apr 2004 14:25:50 PDT Heh. If you don’t like long, rambling journal entries questioning love, then I suggest you not read this. The only thing important in this journal, really, is that I’m now obsessed with The Decemberists. They’re an awesome band, you know.

---

Life has been so incredibly strange, recently. I can’t even be sure of what I’m feeling – I’ll be thrilled to death one second, incredibly depressed one second more. It’s insane. Like having two personalities smashed up inside of yourself.

This is usually the way I get when I end up crushing on someone – which is what I’m doing right now, I guess – but this time, it’s really amplified and really spastic. Monty asked me the other day if I thought this was the “love of my life”. He always asks me weird questions like that; but I guess it makes you think, and sometimes, I’d rather not think. I’d rather not question things like that.

I suppose this particular relationship, this particular person, is exceptionally strange. Not only does said boy preoccupy all my thoughts recently, but said boy also manages to spend a lot of time outside dreamy imagination with me. I talk to him on the phone, I take him places. We’re decently close. I’ve been friends with a lot of my crushes, but I’d have to say that he’s the first person I have really, really done things with. Actually really talked to.

Which makes it that much worse. There’s something safe about liking someone you know you don’t have a chance with – there’s nothing that can make you think “He doesn’t like me because something about me makes him dislike me.” If you never had a chance with them, say, because they were higher up on the social ladder than you, or, as in Jade’s case, they were a famous pretty boy, you don’t have to worry that some fault of yours makes you unlikeable.

Your affections also aren’t fed as much – Jade doesn’t sit around in my car and compliment me for my mad driving abilities. He doesn’t hit my arm playfully when I’m falling asleep in class, or give me goofy wide-eyed expressions when I say something less than intelligent, or admit to me that he pees in the shower.

It’s all those little things. All those little things that bring out the desperation and the lack of self confidence and the distraction. I can’t draw – I can’t write – I can’t do anything recently. All I can do is think, and like I said, there are things that I’d rather not think about.

It’s not even like there’s much to like about him… (not Jade – my Dandelion Boy). He sat next to me in class for at least a couple weeks before I even noticed his existence – and suddenly, I hear him talking to my friend, completely smashing AFI. “It’s bad music.” That’s what he said!

Why, then, do I like him? He’s an ass – he’s cruel to little animals, he’s angry, he drinks (10 shots of vodka in 10 minutes), he does drugs (snorting painkillers and a nice variety of other legal and illegal substances), he drives too fast, he’s mean, he’s critical, ect., ect. But you know, he’s nice to me, and I, for some reason, adore him. Did I mention he hates AFI?

God, I hate myself. I don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I usually like such nice people – people with good morals. People who share the same taste in music as I do.

But… I dunno. And suddenly he’s got me hooked on all these crazy Indie bands, like m83 and The Decemberists. Why do I have to like his music? When he so obviously disapproves of mine?

It’s okay, I guess. The Decemberists are awesome, and now I have a new favorite band.

(after AFI of course).

---

*Random Stupid Note of Doom If you talk to anyone else who goes to my school (which you probably don't...) you'd have found out through various other journal entries that some random girl entered a contest via Seventeen magazine and one this contest called "Rock Your Prom."

Anyways, now Nick Lachey (or however you spell his name) is coming to our prom to "Rock Our Prom." This is the same Nick Lachey who is married to Jessica Simpson (Simson?), and is a former member of the boy band 98 degrees.

Needless to say, I'm very amused. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2228657/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2228657/ Thu, 15 Apr 2004 11:36:29 PDT
*ahem*

"Deviant ~wynterashes has 557 new messages:
( 5M | 82C | 314D | 149J | 7N )"

Shit. No way in hell.

I'm sorry, everybody, but I just deleted everything. I promise that I'll start commenting and stuff from today on, but the stuff from the time I was gone... if I add that to new stuff, gods... I'll just never have time for anything.

I'm also really sorry for not being here... life has been incredibly hectic recently, and my internet time spent on things that matter (like DA) have been incredibly lax. My inspiration has been shot to hell by multiple things (but mainly things involving love...) and I haven't been able to draw, or look at art, or even think about anything like that without breaking down and sobbing. I've sort of had an urge to draw, recently, so I'm going to start paying attention to DA again and quit avoiding things that make me crazy. I'm not really going crazy anymore...

Well, somewhat. But... that's what love does to you. Past and present combined... stuff really gets fucked up.

But I'm back to being alive, and I'll start commenting on everyone's stuff now. Sorry for the dissapearence! I was having a mid life... er, early life crisis. Mad depression is not good for everyone, right?

-ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2076375/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2076375/ Wed, 24 Mar 2004 14:36:13 PST
Hah. How funny.

When things are over, they're over. There is no going back, and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry if I liked someone after it was over. Is that a sin? There is nothing between us, between him and I and you and I, and yet, I've betrayed you.

What the hell? ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2048105/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/2048105/ Sat, 20 Mar 2004 09:08:54 PST lamont much birthday wishes, and spank him muchly.

Monty, I love you! Thanks for always being there for me - and Dan didn't kill me yesterday, so I'm still alive for your birthday, yes yes!

Now begins the 15 day count to my birthday! ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1967084/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1967084/ Sun, 07 Mar 2004 09:35:39 PST
You all get my love forever:





---

Special love goes out to Monty who sat with me on the phone for an hour and a half listening to me sob hysterically about that little crisis. I miss you, and you need to hurry up and come back.

---

Eternal love to everyone... I'm so glad I have you all.

-ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1962041/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1962041/ Sat, 06 Mar 2004 11:16:37 PST
My AFI show, the one that I bought tickets for two months ago the minute (the minute!) that they came out, had been canceled.

I sobbed hysterically to Monty for a whole hour. Nevermind that I had almost driven myself over a bridge on Thursday in a highly dangerous suicidal rage (Thursday was horrible, too.)

This whole week sucks shit. I just found out while browsing the music forum at Gaia that the reason the tour was canceled was because Davey has a cyst in his throat.

Of course I find it out from a girl who got to go right before the canceled the tour.

I seriously want(ed) to die. Life is so not fair. I hate it with every breath in my body. Hate it, hate it, hate it.

Thank god for Monty - but you know, he just left on vacation, so who's here to save me from my insane craziness?

They canceled my fucking tour. My fucking show - stupid, stupid, stupid fucking shit.

I don't have anything else to say. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1947582/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1947582/ Thu, 04 Mar 2004 14:03:01 PST + Current Stuff +
Current Song: "This Is Halloween" - Nightmare Before Christmas
Current Book: n/a
Current Snack: Strawberry Poptarts
Current Videogame: n/a
Current Activity: Being obsessed.
-----
--------------------
-----
+ Journal +
Alright, so here's the winner:

Who said she got a screen shot!

EDIT:
And here it is...
[link]

Wow, never got a screenshot before... Thanks so much! I'll start on your Jade as soon as I'm done with Hunter!

END EDIT

Next kiriban goes to the catcher of the 9,999th hit. I know I got awhile to go, but I'd figure I'd tell you in advance.

Nothing much else to say, but thanks to everyone for trying hard!
-----
--------------------
-----
+ "Thee, I Adore." +
My closest friends on DA (and some outside!).
- Monty's my best friend in the whole world, ever. No questions asked.
- Masmo is adorably sweet!
- Longest DA friend, by a long shot...! Pluggy, I wuv you!
- My Davey obsessed DA little sissy. You should love Ali muchly!
- Wow. Never thought I could make such awesome friends through AFI on DA, but here's my proof. All three of them are fantastic - they prove that DA is much more than just an art community where people look at stuff. They're like total real life friends, now - just... far away.
--------------------
+ Mad Awesome Friends +
Much love to all the totally awesome people who are there for me always, through everything.
http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1938312/ Tue, 02 Mar 2004 09:23:52 PST If I haven't been commenting on your stuff, I'm very sorry! It isn't that I don't love you - I've just been grounded from the internet at home, and I've been somewhat busy at school... (nevermind that DA hasn't been working well lately!) I'll try to get to your deviations as I can, but my messages gets flooded a lot because I watch a lot of people!
--------------------
+ Current Stuff +
Current Song: "Bleed Black" - AFI'S Sing the Sorrow
Current Book: n/a
Current Snack: Cheezits
Current Videogame: n/a
Current Activity: Nothing much. Stalking people, I guess.
-----
--------------------
-----
+ Journal +
Woot! My 8,888 pageview is coming up, and I'll give a gift art to whoever catches it. That means I'll draw whatever you want, see?! ^___^

So, if you wanna be stuck with Davey, now's your chance...

Nothing much else to say. So I'll catch everyone later!
-----
--------------------
-----
+ "Thee, I Adore." +
My closest friends on DA (and some outside!).
- Monty's my best friend in the whole world, ever. No questions asked.
- Masmo is adorably sweet!
- Longest DA friend, by a long shot...! Pluggy, I wuv you!
- My Davey obsessed DA little sissy. You should love Ali muchly!
- Wow. Never thought I could make such awesome friends through AFI on DA, but here's my proof. All three of them are fantastic - they prove that DA is much more than just an art community where people look at stuff. They're like total real life friends, now - just... far away.
--------------------
+ Mad Awesome Friends +
Much love to all the totally awesome people who are there for me always, through everything.
~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1905030/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1905030/ Mon, 01 Mar 2004 17:44:17 PST If I haven't been commenting on your stuff, I'm very sorry! It isn't that I don't love you - I've just been grounded from the internet at home, and I've been somewhat busy at school... (nevermind that DA hasn't been working well lately!) I'll try to get to your deviations as I can, but my messages gets flooded a lot because I watch a lot of people!
--------------------
+ Current Stuff +
Current Song: "rologue"(?) - Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone Soundtrack.
Current Book: Dante's Inferno - Dante.
Current Snack: Lucky Charms
Current Videogame: n/a
Current Activity: pilfering the "current activity" and from Monty's - [link] - journal...
-----
--------------------
-----
+ Journal +
Well, my journal is back to being long and stuff, because I had some time to slum around and be crazy last night. So I organized everyone into categories and put them all up! (if I forgot anyone and you know you should be up, I'm really sorry! I didn't mean to forget that you were my friend... I'm sure I probably did, because I was working from memory and names evade me sometimes...)

Note, I've also stolen Monty's idea for current activity. Technically, my current activity should be "blogging" or something, because I'm keeping an online journal now, and when DA is down, I'm on that taking obscene amounts of quizzes and chronicling the stupidity of my day. It could be why I've neglected this journal so much...

Besides that, you know... I drew and colored and finished a Pirate Adam, I just haven't put him up... why? Because I think he isn't very good. No one has seen him yet, not even Monty, and I'm thinking I might keep it that way. Some one wants me to do some sketches of a regal looking Davey, and I'm thinking that is sounding good after Adam's little let-down... *beats Adam lovingly with a snausage*

I'm using too many "..."! I should be definitive with my ".". <---- ( see? I'm definitive! ) Or maybe excited with the "!"!

Anyways, I'm in a pretty good mood, and I should be drawing stuff soon. Thanks for all the people who keep catching my hits - And a free drawing of your choice ("kiriban" to anyone who catches my 8,888th pageview!
-----
--------------------
-----
+ "Thee, I Adore." +
My closest friends on DA (and some outside!).
- Monty's my best friend in the whole world, ever. No questions asked.
- Masmo is adorably sweet!
- Longest DA friend, by a long shot...! Pluggy, I wuv you!
- My Davey obsessed DA little sissy. You should love Ali muchly! http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1817969/ Mon, 09 Feb 2004 12:37:25 PST I'm excited.

Oh, and by the way, everyone... I'm grounded from the computer at my house (my parents pulled the beat down on me because I had an account on Gaia. Please tell me why this is wrong) so now I don't have time to do anything internet related at home. A thousand pardons if I don't get to your deviations or journals or something! As it was, I got on today at school and had 177 messages. 70+ deviations, 25+ journals, etc, etc. Scary. Especially seeing as now I have no time, and sometimes, sometimes it's good to do stuff in class. Like class work.

8 is my favorite number. Kiriban (gift art) to anyone who catches my 8,888th pageview!

Like I said, I'm really sorry everyone - I'll try to get to you, promise!

-ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1803685/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1803685/ Fri, 06 Feb 2004 15:25:48 PST But I’m back! ^___^ My busy-ness was also what kept me from getting the Davey sketch up for awhile. I’ve been drawing like mad recently, though, so expect to see some more stuff in the future… Just because I haven’t had time for the internet doesn’t mean I haven’t had time to draw.

Anyways, thanks for all the favorites you guys gave me for the “Davey Flees from Hunter” picture. 14 favorites in two days! Madness. I’ve never had a picture get favorites that fast! It means a lot to me – thanks so much!

^___^ Oh, mine and ~BockBockChewy’s Jade Club ([link]) is still going strong – check it out and become a member, won’t you?
----------
People To Be Hugged ( )
”Support your local sad person!”

- She’s back after being grounded by super-spastic parents! We missed you, love!

- Kat’s got the worst luck out of everyone I know, cept for maybe Monty, or Pluggy on a bad day. Big hugs for her – she’s going through some tough times and needs the love.

- She’s currently grounded for the week by her dad for… missing chores? Parents suck – I’m missing you~!!

- Ali gets a hug because she's Ali. I hope she's not sad, but hey, if she is, here's a hug for you, love.

- Much love to Pluggy, whom I almost forgot! ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1755740/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1755740/ Wed, 28 Jan 2004 09:27:17 PST
----------
Jade’s Ninjas – Jade’s First Community
Besides the secret I mentioned in my journal awhile ago, I have another secret that ~BockBockChewy and I have been working on for the past two weeks or so – well, I don’t remember if it’s two weeks, actually, but it’s been going on for awhile.

Anyways, however many ACTUAL weeks ago it was, Chewy approached me with plans of starting up a DA community for Jade (from AFI, mind you) – I was both flattered (that she’d choose me) and excited at the prospect of creating such a thing. (Jade being not only my favorite member, the man I want to marry… ) Fifty-billion notes later, Jade’s nifty ass community is finished and open for membership.

We decided to be spastic-goofy, and the name just so happens to be “Jade’s Ninjas”, or more specifically “XxJade’s-NinjasxX”. Check out the mad-awesome icon Chewy made for it –



I would really appreciate it if anyone interested joined – it’s a fun thing to watch your club expand. I know the special feeling personally, as me and Monty founded the Shinra Club ([link] – submit, you fools!). 72 members have joined since I started it, and I must admit, it’s sort of like watching your children grow.

Of course, Jade doesn’t have as big of an audience as Shinra does, but hey, we can try.
-----------
My New Car!
In other news, I got a car! I paid for the down payment and some of the other stuff with the money I’ve saved up with my job, and when I get a new one, I’ll pay for around half the monthly costs – my parents are picking up the other half. Anyways, my car is so cute – it’s this little, brand new, four door Dodge Neon (geeky, yes, I know, but still… cute!) all bright red and stuff. It’s all sporty looking, too – it’s got one of those cool swishes on the back, and fog lights, and styleized interior. Now I can drive 90 mph down the highway blaring AFI really loud with the windows open. Or, I could just drive around my neighborhood at 45 mph blaring AFI really loud with the windows open. Fast speeds scare me.
----------
AFI Concert Update
Last note of the day - more development in the AFI concert drama - Monty probably will not be able to go with me to the AFI concert ( ), but my buddy, Laura-kitty (the wonderful artist, ~ minuetterai ) offered to go with me in art class, which would be totally awesome. Of course, we’re going to have to sift through her crazy, super protective parents before she can go – I told her she should tell them that AFI was a “soft-rock, adult contemporary band” playing “old classics”. Luckily, I don’t think they (or my parents, thank god) know anything about moshing. Praise the lord! ^__^

Anyways, my parents won’t let me go unless I have someone to go with, so let’s all make a wish that Laura-chan can go with me! Anyways, Laura, if we can go, it’ll be so totally awesome!
----------
much love!
-ash the perkigoth. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1732751/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1732751/ Sat, 24 Jan 2004 08:27:01 PST

OMG - I'm so excited - I'll get the ticket in around 14 days. Argh. Too long.

Anyways, expect my character sketch of Hunter to be put up on Monday, because I forgot his lineart at school - and I haven't even started on Davey's yet.

Hm... oh, and here's a fun survey for all you strange people.

If I were a month I would be DECEMBER
If I were a day of the week I would be FRIDAY
If I were a time of day I would be NIGHTTIME
If I were a planet I would be SATURN (it's pretty.)
If I were a sea animal I would be ...A BLUE WHALE.
If I were a direction I would EAST.
If I were a piece of furniture I would be A LOVESEAT.
If I were a sin I would be LUST.
If I were a historical figure I would be ...?
If I were a liquid I would be A ROOTBEER FLOAT.
If I were a tree I would be a CHERRY BLOSSOM TREE.
If I were a flower/plant I would be BLUE ROSE
If I were a kind of weather I would be SNOW.
If I were a musical instrument I would be GUITAR.
If I were an animal I would be A TIGER.
If I were a color I would be ORANGE.
If I were a vegetable I would be A BROCOLLI.
If I were a sound I would be THE SOUND OF SNOW.
If I were an element I would MERCURY.
If I were a car I would be ...I'm not a car person.
If I were a song I would be BLEED BLACK by AFI
If I were a movie I would be directed by TIM BURTON.
If I were a book I would be written by ANNE RICE OR RAY BRADBURY.
If I were a food I would be ICE CREAM.
If I were a place I would be NYC or TOKYO.
If I were a material I would be SILK.
If I were a taste I would be VANILLA.
If I were a scent I would be VANILLA.
If I were a word I would be SQUEEGEE! - *pokes ali happily*
If I were an object I would be A JAPANESE SWORD
If I were a body part I would be MOUTH.
If I were a facial expression I would be FROWNING.
If I were a cartoon character I would be... I dunno!
If I were a shape I would be a CIRCLE.
If I were a number I would be 8

I ripped this from ~vampireDoLL's journal, but *OtherNews was where I saw it first.

^___^ Anyways, I'll talk to everyone later. Bai bai!

-ash. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1714044/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1714044/ Tue, 20 Jan 2004 18:39:39 PST
Tickets go on sale January 24th – just a week away! Of course… I heard this all on the radio last night – see, that the tickets were going to go on sale on the 24th, and that the show was going to be on March 12th or something like that…

Well, like the good fan that I am, I decided to research this on the internet – I checked three fscking websites trying to confirm it. AFI’s website said nothing, but that isn’t surprising – they don’t upkeep it very well. I checked the Verizon Wireless Theater’s website (where they are supposedly supposed to be playing at) and found nothing… and then I checked the radio station’s website (94.5 the Buzz) to check there concert stuff… and well, it said that AFI WAS going to be in Texas sometime in March, but it said something about Plano, Texas. Where the hell is Plano Texas?

So I’m hearing one thing on the radio, and hearing nothing via the internet. It’s very frightening – I don’t like getting my hopes up for nothing, but I’m being optimistic and praying that at least one of these sites puts up information sometime before ticket sale day. Maybe they’re just not publizing it?

I mentioned it to my parents, too, and they seemed pretty cool with the idea of me going… now, all I have to do is keep my grades up, and I’ll most definitely get to go! (well, if they really DO come to Houston, and that radio thing I heard wasn’t just a screw up…)

Jade! ^____^ Seeing him… would be so totally awesome.

*EDIT Woot! I just got proof! They are coming! Yeah! See? Here's the link!!!!!
[link]

-----

In other news, I cut my hair – tis the first time ever I’ve actually had anything really professional done to my hair, and it shows, too – that’s the best my hair has ever looked. The lady who did it was really sweet, too – which was good, considering that I had to talk to her for three hours while she highlighted and styled my hair.

I already put pictures up, so I’m sure you’ve already seen it… ^___^ I’m wearing my AFI hoodie in the picture, so it’s extra-cool…

Woot! Of course, now that my hair isn’t really straight (well, I can leave it straight… it wasn’t permed or anything…) it might be harder to draw. Also, it’s above my shoulder’s now, so if I draw myself, I’ll have short hair again! Whee!

Hm… nothing much else to say. Much love!

-ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1690041/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1690041/ Fri, 16 Jan 2004 12:24:49 PST
Anyways, I'm working on a secret project involving my "Character Sketch" thing that I have going on. Well, right now, I only have Jade done, but Davey is next, and then Adam, and then Hunter...

And this all leads up to my mystical magical secret project. That no one knows about. Except Monty. Because he's cool.

Yay for happiness! Jade is my main squeeze... why doesn't he always work so well?

-ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1675363/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1675363/ Tue, 13 Jan 2004 17:19:48 PST minuetterai for catching my 7,000 on my last journal.

(kiriban is a reward to someone who catches a certain amount of pageviews, Japanese style. since laura caught my views, i'm obligated to draw her something, of her choice.)

I just caught hers, too. Which is always fun. ^^ Yay for her 2,500.

I also finished my Davey picture today, but... I dunno. I think I was happy with it, but now I'm not so sure. Now I think I'm back to hating it. I worried about that picture and worked on it for a fucking week and a half, and it didn't come out well enough for having spent that much time on it. I screwed up the original pencil sketch while trying to ink it originally, and got really, really upset.

And what do I have to show for it?

It's so half-assed, it tempts me to take it down. I don't know - I'm so angry right now, I could cry.

Something is seriously wrong with me - I feel like I'm suffocating or something. Everything is going wrong, and there's really nothing wrong at all. Everything feels like an attack - I'm getting so stressed out over nothing. I'm not like this. I'm not supposed to be emotional.

Somebody tell me what's wrong with me. Nothing is working out, at all... ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1670309/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1670309/ Mon, 12 Jan 2004 18:34:12 PST
But it was alright – it was okay. I got to school, and Monty made me feel better. I stopped hating the way Davey the sketch was turning out, revamped his inking on another program, and he is now halfway finished. Regardless, that was earlier today; I should have known today was going to be bad.

So anyhow, in the afternoon, after school, my mom decided to scream at me for an hour because my grade in AP Biology was not up to her god-set standards. All the way home, she screamed at me.

My problem is, with classes I am not fantastic in, if I feel that I cannot be the best, then I aspire to a normal, Joe-Blow type attitude. I like being average where I cannot be the best of the above average people. Monty is like this too – competition is a frustrating thing that only leads to severe depression. Hence, I try in my AP English class, because I can get a 98 in it even though it’s a college level course. However, as AP Biology is not my cup of tea, I tend to stay more towards high 70’s or low to mid 80’s.

I explain this to my mother, whom I assume will understand because she is quite the perfectionist herself – and of course, she takes it the wrong way, and starts saying things like “Why don’t you give up on art, then? You’re far from the best – Lamont is way better than you will ever be.” (no bitterness to Monty on this point – he is utterly fantastic. To put it the way a mutual friend of ours put it – an artist also – “By the time we get to be as good as you, or even draw eyes as well as you, you’ll be painting the Sistine Chapel. Again.”)

I don’t know about other people - but that hurts a lot. To have your own mother tell you that you will never amount to anything artistically, and to tell you give up on something that you consider your passion. I went quietly up to my room, and proceeded to stare at the ceiling and sob for the next hour and a half. My parents never believe in me. They never respect anything I like – they don’t care about my likes or dislikes if it has nothing to do with what they planned for me.

Anyways, being the sucker for pain like I am, I also went down to help her put away the groceries. Of course, she yells at me again, because “I’m not doing it right.” She tells me to leave. Mad again. Of course. Story of her life, her daughter, the thorn in her side, the strange one who will never amount to anything, the stupid one who never does anything right.

I used to think I didn’t care that she didn’t care. I used to think it didn’t bother me that she had no interest in anything I did. But you know, I wish like hell that she would care about something good for once. “Wow, Ashton. You got a 98 in AP English? That’s amazing!” Not “Gods, you are such a lazy, asinine fool. Why do you have a 78 in Biology? You’re a failure as a person and as a daughter! Get out of here before I hit you!”

Argh. It’s a good thing I’m so fucking optimistic when it comes to things like this. More like “Who cares what she thinks?” It helps.

On a stranger note, I got a sort of formal invitation to join the “straight-edge” community. How weird is that? Not that I’m not straight edge, I just think it’s fun that it has its own club…

I guess everyone wants to feel like they belong, somewhere. It’s a nice feeling: belonging.

-ash

ps – sorry that everything is so depressing – I promise that I’ll get better. Tomorrow. I promise I’ll feel better tomorrow.

pps – thanks, Monty. For the hours of phone counseling you give me – you make me feel like I matter to someone when everything goes completely wrong.

ppps – sorry, this is really long. Anyways, I should have Davey up finished probably by tomorrow. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1657873/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1657873/ Sat, 10 Jan 2004 11:23:41 PST
Probably as close to a best friend as I can get after Monty, Ali is very, very fun to talk to. I love her terribly.

She's been going through some really hard times, recently. If I could, I'd fly up and make her feel better. Regardless, she's been with me a long time, and she's awesome. Give her hugs. Now.

My best friend, who has to deal with me every day. He deserves a prize for that.

Marcel is my God. And my schnookums. Need I say more?

Oldest friend on DA to date - she's as sweet as anyone. I miss you, love.

He's so fun. We talk about shit, and he makes me laugh. I love him immensely.


Much love to everyone,
Ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1655196/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1655196/ Fri, 09 Jan 2004 20:22:31 PST
+ I’ve been feeling very inadequeate about my drawing abilities recently and haven’t felt much like looking at art. Nothing I’ve been doing has worked out recently at all, and it makes me very, very sad.
+ My emotions have been rather unstable lately, and have threatened to spill from my nice and normal neutral attitude towards either maniac mode or severe depression. I didn’t want to push anything.
+ School has started up again, and I am determined not to slack off in any of my classes.
+ I applied for three colleges a couple of days ago, and my future is on my mind. (woot. I’m responsible. I’m doing something with my life!)
+ I was worried about someone. You know who you are.

*yawn* I’m so tired – I just got back from work, and I’m not feeling too well. Despite this, I’m in a somewhat cynically happy mood. I like these moods. They make me sarcastic and perky.

I got in a massive argument with someone today. It was funny. I won’t mention names, but I will say that he called me several fun things: “slut”; “bitch”. I think getting into arguments with people is actually very funny. Especially when you get into arguments with people you don’t like very much. It’s like, “Why do I care if you call me a bitch?” Monty says I’m most infuriating to argue with most of the time. I don’t raise my voice almost ever – I keep a calm tone – and I act like I don’t care. With Monty, of course, it’s just an act. I care when I get into an argument with him – it upsets me.

However, it’s nearly hysterically funny to get into an argument with someone you couldn’t give a shit about. If you don’t give a shit about them, why should you give a shit about what they say to you? People are so funny – getting worked up over sentiments from a person who doesn’t matter. If Monty called me a bitch, I’d care – it would hurt. If mister Full-of-Himself calls me a bitch, I think it’s funny – I laugh. “You think I’m a bitch? Cool! I like being bitchy!”

And as for being a slut? Heh. I’m perfectly proud to say I have never had sex with anyone. Straight-edge lifestyle dictates “Thou shalt not have casual sex.” Why the hell would I have sex with someone I wasn’t completely in love with? My boyfriend is all the way in Germany, for chrissakes. Yay for me – I’m a morally upstanding girl. For once.

I don’t get really hateful with people when I’m in arguments – indeed, I’ve only really, really hated one person in my life, and it wasn’t Mr. Shithead today. In fact, I pity him. I pity his quick anger and his mental disturbance and all the problems that fucked his life up so bad he has to run around asserting his manhood by calling me a bitch and abusing the people he loves. I’m not like that – I trust my friends, I trust my boyfriend, and hey! – life doesn’t suck as bad as it seems sometimes. I try very hard not to be mean to the people I care about most. I try very hard not to use my friends. I try very hard to be kind to my boyfriend. In the very least, I am loyal to him.

Sticks and stones, slings and arrows. I don’t care what you have to say to me. I don’t care about you at all. I care for what you hurt. What you do to someone I care for. Say all you want to me, though. I’ll just laugh in your pathetic face. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1633165/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1633165/ Mon, 05 Jan 2004 11:53:33 PST (well, two days.) Which IS awhile now that I have my own internet at home. But I have an excuse! – not a good one, but an excuse indeed.

I was abducted by the Sims! They’re very addictive – especially after you replace all the ugly default people skins with anime skins and skins of people of your choice… (for those of you who don’t know what skins are (god forbid) skins are the form your Sim (Sims are people) takes – what they look like.)

So now, not only do I have a bunch of cool video game people (Sephiroth, Seifer, Rinoa, Aeris, etc.) but I also have the MOST of the Fellowship of the Ring living in a house together (Gandalf, Aragorn, Frodo, Gimli, etc.) and then there’s Michael, my favorite character from Angel Sanctuary, who Monty made just for me!

This also brings me to my journal TITLE… yes, I have a Davey, and yes, Aliera ( ~Aliera ) did marry him. It was very cute. See? I have a Davey, a Jade, and a Hunter… and they were all living in this kick ass house, and stuff, and then I had Davey and Jade get married. Twas fun, but see, I had Jade get married to this girl who looks like Rinoa as I didn’t have someone who looked like me. *frown* Except, now I do. So I’m going to have Seifer sweep in and have an affair with the Rinoa-girl Jade is married to, and then I’m going to come over and make him feel better, and he’s going to fall in love with me (WOOOOOOT!) and we’re going to get married, and I’ll get to share a house with Aliera, Davey and Hunter. (I don’t have an Adam yet…)

[link] Go HERE to see the pictures of their wedding! (use the scroller on the side to choose pictures…!)

Anyways, for the time being – if I don’t comment on your deviations, I’m sorry – I had 140 fscking messages, and the temptation to delete them all was painful. Gomen ne.

As for the Davey I’m working on, he’s now a “Havok Ink” but you won’t see him until he’s colored.

And… school starts tomorrow. But who cares?


-ash. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1598424/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1598424/ Tue, 30 Dec 2003 10:30:16 PST Currents:
Current Song: System of a Down's Toxic City
Current Snack: French fries
Current Novel: nada.
Current Video Game: Final Fantasy Tactics Advance!!
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special (eventually)
-----
Well, I haven’t felt like doing much in the way of art because I got Final Fantasy Tactics Advance for my new Gameboy SP for Christmas. Spent 20 hours on the thing already, and only played it for three days. I love a good strategy RPG… it’s like playing the original FFT all over again…

Anyway, so yesterday, I finally decided to take a break from playing Tactics to get some stuff done – both for the very lovely ~PsYcHo-MiDnIgHt.

+ [link] ~ The original picture I did for her – but it ended up a bit too serious.
+ [link] ~A Davey Havok plushie to make up for the seriousness of the last picture.

Besides this, I also started on:

+ a very late Christmas AFI picture. [40%]
+ gift art for: ~Aliera Her and Davey. How fun! [20%]

Lots of Davey… eeep.
---
So yeah… I feel like hugging people. Click on the link to see who I’m hugging!

+ A for Marcel, because he isn’t dead and because he’s lovable. [link]

+ Another for Punky, because he’s so sweet. [link]

+ More s for Pluggy, cause she’s a great friend. [link]

+ Big for Ali and her admirably strong personality – you’re my hero. [link]

+ And a special for Monty, because he’s coming home soon! [link]

’s to anyone I’ve missed who wants one… That’s about it. Over and out, yes?

much love,
ash
your friendly neighborhood perkigoth.
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
My Best Friend

Yay for Monty! He's the best artist in the whole entire world... well, I think so!
-----
My Deviant Art Little Sister

Yay, I adopted her cause she's so fun. Yay for adorable AFI fans!
-----
The Completely Adored http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1581780/ Thu, 25 Dec 2003 11:36:17 PST
Well, tomorrow, maybe.

Hmph.

Regardless, Merry Christmas "ya'll". (there's some good old fashioned Texan slang for you... even though I hate Southern twangs...

Regardless I hope Santa brought everyone everything they wanted... (or whom ever it is who brings you stuff... the Tooth Fairy, I guess, for all you really confused head wound victims...!)

Be safe, and don't get hit by any raindeer. They'll make a tacky song about you, yes? ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1569801/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1569801/ Mon, 22 Dec 2003 18:11:57 PST Have fun. (i stole it from Monty's journal, hm? go see him here: [link] )

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1555491/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1555491/ Fri, 19 Dec 2003 06:52:45 PST vampireDoLL's survey in her journal!

{SURVEY}
Spell your first name backwards: Nothsa.
The story behind your screen name: " wynterashes" - Wynter, or winter, is my favorite season. ashes is a play off my nickname, Ash.
Where do you live?: The Woodlands, TX.
3 words that sum you up: perky, paranoid, obsessive.

{DESCRIBE YOUR}
Wallet: black wallet from Claire's with little goofy flowers on it.
Hairbrush: Black and green plastic thingee. It hurts my head.
Jewelry worn daily: multiple black jelly bracelets on left wrist; afi armband on right wrist; Methodist Cross silver necklace (even though I'm non-religious...); guitar pick necklace made out of my old guitar pick; and usually a blue dog colar with my name on the tag.
pillow cover: green and white...hate it
Shoes: black Converse.
Favorite pants: green cargo pants.
CD in stereo right now: AFI - "Black Sails In the Sunset."
Piercings: none.
What you are wearing now: black New York hoodie, green pants.
Hair: as it is without my red dye, just boring old brown.
In my mouth: blueberry candycane.
In my head (music): Jingle Bells!
After this: Biology Final... yech.
Eating: blueberry candycane.

FAVORITES:
Favorite T.V. show: Invader Zim... but it's not on anymore...
Favorite Smell: vanillia candles.
Color: orange.
Some of your favorite movies: Interview with a Vampire, Nightmare Before Christmas, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter.
Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months: sleeping.
The last thing you ate?: Trisket Cracker.
Something that you are deathly afraid of?: utter and complete silence - being chased by someone.
Do you like candles:
If you could have any animal for a pet: A chicken! Or Trogdor...
What are 3 places you wouldnt mind re-locating to? Japan, Germany, or New York City.

Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a longtime?: My old best friend who moved to San Antonio.

{In the last 24 hours, have you....}
Cried: yes.
Bought something: absolutely nothing.
Gotten sick: no.
Sang: Yup! Jingle Bells!
Been kissed: nope.
Done something stupid: ...I do something stupid ALL the time.
Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yup.
Talked to someone you have a crush on: ...yup!
Argued with your parents? YES!

{Social Life}
Name some Friends: Monty, Laura, Jessi, Stephen, Beaven, Kyle, Tyler, Andrew, Amanda, Kelli, Rachel.
Are you center of attention or the wallflower: CENTER OF ATTENTION!
What type of automobile do you drive: Absolutely NOTHING!
What type automobile do you wish you drove: a car. yup.
Do you like being around people: God, yes.

{Who}
Who have you known the longest: My buddy Stephen. We've been friends since I was 7 and he was 5.
Who do you argue with the most with? my mom, and Monty.
Who do you always get along with? Monty. Contradictory, huh?
Who has the coolest siblings? Me buddy Monty, and me! ^^
Who is the smartest: definately Monty. Curse him!
Who is your Hero: Jade! ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1546789/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1546789/ Wed, 17 Dec 2003 07:49:14 PST Currents:
Current Song: random songs from Tibet...
Current Snack: apples
Current Novel: Johnny the Homicidal Maniac - the Director's Cut by Jhonen Vasquez.
Current Video Game: Golden Sun
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special
-----
Quote of the Day:
"???"
-----
Journal:
Whargh... I'm so tired and so uninspired to draw anything important... I'm working on a character design for a fanfic I'm writing, and I have to do it in a style that is NOT MY OWN, and thus, it's making me crazy.

^^ But that's okay. I'm currently obsessed with Nny from Johnny the Homicidal Maniac (hence forth referred to as JTHM) because he's so cute and evil. ^^ People who hate humanity are fun. Whee, Nny! *huggles*

Despite being somewhat zoned, I'm pretty happy today, cause my weekend was good (got to hang out with Monty, got to buy a new AFI poster, got to see The Last Samurai, etc...) and because I got the highest score on Monty's quiz!

Speaking of quizzes... see, Monty made this really strange quiz that was all like "How well do you know Monty?" so I made a quiz that's all "How Well do you Know Ash?" quiz. If you wanna go see how well you know me, you can check out my quiz here:

---
How Well do you know Ash? - Quiz
[link]
---

Actually... I think it's kind of hard. But that's okay! You can all fail!

Anyways, I'll see you guys later~!

much love,
ash
your friendly neighborhood perkigoth.

ps - much love to ~Aliera and ~ lemonation. They made me art recently! Go see them here:

Ali's: [link]
Lemon's: [link]

pps - hey. i got 6,000 pageviews! yay...!

-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
My Best Friend

Yay for Monty! He's the best artist in the whole entire world... well, I think so!
-----
My Deviant Art Little Sister

Yay, I adopted her cause she's so fun. Yay for adorable AFI fans!
-----
The Completely Adored
http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1520620/ Thu, 11 Dec 2003 12:22:51 PST Currents:
Current Song: "Ya'll Want a Single?" - Korn
Current Snack: Chicken McNuggets (all white meat!)
Current Novel: Fox's Earth by ???
Current Video Game: Golden Sun
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special
-----
Quote of the Day:
"???"
-----
Journal:
Randomness... eep, I'm perky. I don't know why - must be infested with that damnable Christmas spirit!

Woot! I feel like drawing lots and lots and lots of things - I was also sort of inspired to start re-working on an old comic-y idea of mine (which only like, Monty knows about...) but I'm not sure if I want to take that on at all before I finish that damned AFI Halloween thing. (which SHOULD be done before Christmas is over...)

My marathon AFI listening has been broken up by a few Korn songs recently - this I blame totally on my boyfriend, because before him, I thought Korn was a bit too freaky and that their lead singer (his name escapes me at the moment) sounded strange. Well, thanks to Masmo, I decided to give them another try and am now very addicted. It's strange. Their lead singer's voice is very catchy... (not at all soothing or dreamy, like Davey's, but it certainly packs a certain charm...)

My boyfriend is also why I have a new obsession in Linkin Park - before I just liked them; now I think that they're totally awesome.

Feh. Boyfriends.

It's getting really cold in Texas recently... which is very, very rare mind you. Usually, winter manages to retain its spring and fall temperatures throughout winter, and then burn us all with Hell-like heat in summer. But it's been getting pretty nippy. Maybe it'll snow... I used to live in Maryland, and we had blizzards ALL THE TIME. But in Texas, the last time it snowed was like... when I was in the 2nd grade. So that was ten fscking years ago. The snow didn't even touch the ground - it melted in the air. I mean, what the hell?! I remember everyone in my grade was running around squealing "It's snow, it's snow!" because they'd never seen anything better. Pitiful Texas natives... I remember what REAL snow is like!

Rant about Texas weather over with, I'm not sure what else to say. Cept that Linkin Park is going to be in Houston in February and I want to go. ^^ Maybe if ~minuetterai's mother isn't being spastic, I can go with her, cause she's a fellow Linkin Park/Chester Bennington obsessee. (Chester Bennington is WAY cuter than Mike Shinoda. I don't care what anyone says.)

Of course, I can always bring Monty. And my buddy Steve likes them too, so...

Decisions... I'll just bring them all - it could be a party!

Yaaaaaaaaay!

In other news, I adopted a Deviant Art sister yesterday. Why did I do that? Because I like ~Aliera a lot cause she's fun. ^^ She's younger than me, too, by a bit, so I'm all like, "Yay! I'm gonna take care of you!" Which probably annoys her greatly, but you know, what else do sisters do besides annoy each other...?

Oh, and ~dreamer15 decided to take my complaining about not being able to do pixel art to the extreme and made a base for me. This means I'm probably going to have to get off my lazy ass and try to do some pixel art, cause I guess it would be rude not to. Damnation! I have NO idea where to begin with something like that...

Well... anyways, I'm rambling too much. ^^ Which means I should probably shut-up? Yes, yes, it does. Anyways, I’ll see you later, peeps. (um, don't mind me. heh.)

much love,
ash
your friendly neighborhood perkigoth.
-----
Owner of my Soul
~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1515819/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1515819/ Wed, 10 Dec 2003 10:44:18 PST Currents:
Current Song: "Millions of Peaches" - The Presidents of the United States of America
Current Snack: Starburst
Current Novel: n/a
Current Video Game: Golden Sun
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special
-----
Quote of the Day:
"Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy." - Ben Franklin (I do not promote alcohol use of any kind.)
-----
Journal:
Absolutely nothing to write about. Other than I'm adopting ~Aliera as my little sister cause she's really cool. Yay for Deviant Art families! I like taking care of people. ^^

Monty is drawing a really cool picture at the moment, too. He's some pirate fixer-upper in overalls and he's really cute. Yay for him! He's my new love! (the pirate guy, not Monty.)

Besides Marcel, that is.

Yay for everything! Yay for Christmas! I'm getting a bright red Gameboy SP!

(okay, I'm shutting up now... this is really random...)

-ash
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
My Best Friend

Yay for Monty! He's the best artist in the whole entire world... well, I think so.
-----
My Deviant Art Little Sister

Yay, I adopted her cause she's so fun. Yay for adorable AFI fans!
-----
The Completely Adored
:
http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1507760/ Mon, 08 Dec 2003 16:23:46 PST Currents:
Current Song: All of "Black Sails" by AFI
Current Snack: Cheddar Chex Mix
Current Novel: The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger.
Current Video Game: Golden Sun
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special
-----
Quote of the Day:
"Want to get rid of ads? Subscribe to deviantART now!"
-----
Journal:
Woot - really random day today. I've been so bloody wasted - I didn't sleep at all last night because I stayed up too late watching AFI on MTV and couldn't sleep after it. ^^ So, around 3:30 am or so, I finally calmed down enough to conk out until I had to wake up at 5:30 for school.

All this, and I'm sick, too.

It's okay, because Jade is so totally awesome. I loved him thrashing around the stage... not to mention when he sings the line from "Silver and Cold" the " Cold in life's throws..."

That's just awesome.

Total exhaustion... gods, I feel like I'm going to die. All this because of some bloody head cold. It's madness.

Anyways, I'm at my Mum's school right now - she's teaching at this college, and I'm slumming in her tech lab sitting around getting to all my DA messages. It's way cool. I got everything taken care of.

Not to mention this really cute guy just came up to me and gave me an Orange Tootsie Roll lollipop.

His name's Adam. How fun is that?

Deviant Art has been really weird lately... comments keep being all freaky-tastic. Tis okay, I love it anyways. Well, I should be going... not much to say, cept about my massive love for AFI, and of course, the yummy goodness of Marcel!

-ash
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
The Completely Adored
:
http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1480244/ Tue, 02 Dec 2003 10:45:35 PST
If I don't comment on your stuff, please don't take it personally... I have so much stuff to check on, now...

I'm thinking of just deleteing them all and commenting on only the new stuff from here on out. I'm so friggen swamped! ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1475039/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1475039/ Mon, 01 Dec 2003 09:33:28 PST

This isn’t to say I actually slept through Thanksgiving dinner – on the contrary, my family went to our friend’s house to share in the warm fuzzy moments with their very LARGE family. I swear, half of Houston goes to their house for Thanksgiving. Even this random guy from Alabama was there. I mean, what the hell? But it was cool.

I spent the entire time catching up with my long-time buddy Stephen (known him since we were both really young – around 7 or so; he’s one of my best friends, after Monty). We spent five hours drinking Barqs root beer and getting massive sugar highs from large amounts of ice cream. (Gods, I love ice cream…)

Next day Stephen came over around 4:00 to basically slum around my house eating pretzels and lots and lots of Cheddar Chex mix… we played a bit of Baldur’s Gate, talked about our respective and defective parents, reminisced about old RPG sprees we had when we were kids, and basically acted like old people. ("Back in OUR day…" It was fun. ^^ While flipping channels, we found this ridiculous 2 hour documentary on Michael Jackson on VH1, which caused us to lose what little faith we had in the world immediately. That man is SICK.

After six hours of absolutely nothing (which is so totally fun when it’s with someone else) we decided to go see The Texas Chainsaw Massacre at around 10:25 PM. Woot. And boy, did we get hell when I tried to buy the tickets. As with all R rated movies, you have to have ID stating that you are "17 or up" to get in. As Steve is not yet 17, I was going to buy his ticket, but the lady is all "I need to see his ID too, or you can’t get in." I told her he forgot his ID (which was an outright lie – he doesn’t have any) – so she sits there and scowls at him for like, five fucking minutes. Luckily, he looks older than I do, so she eventually she said it was okay – but the whore overpriced our tickets.

Bitch.

Oh well. So I sat through this crazy gore-fest with Stephen, eyes covered through half the movie, head buried in my arm rest. I love horror movies, don’t get me wrong – I just can’t ever watch much of them. The suspense kills me. Steve sits there all stoic, telling me when and when not to look, and trying to give me a play by play of the events I’m too busy hiding from to see. ^^ I think we annoyed all the people around us – we always talk WAY too much when we watch movies together.

All in all, it was a really predictable, cheesy movie loaded up with lots of blood and chainsaws. I decided that I was never going anywhere near little known small Texas towns, and that was that. We got out at around midnight or something, and enjoyed some really, really cold night air. ^^

So besides the time with Steve, I slept, I drew, and I played Golden Sun on my Game Boy obsessively (which Stephen lent me – damn him for getting me addicted!).

Now I’m back, and faced with answering 200+ DA messages. Jeezus.

Merry Christmas. (Speaking of which, I’m working on a few Christmas Present drawing type things… after I’m with this nifty AFI picture I have almost finished for the very awesome ~Aliera. Bout time I did something for her. ^^)

((But not too many Christmas presents. Just a couple of… collective drawings. Yah. Laziness rules.))

Eek. I ramble. MUST-END-NOW.

There. It’s over with.

(That’s your Christmas present, mind you. Me shutting up…)

-ash ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1449833/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1449833/ Tue, 25 Nov 2003 12:57:36 PST
Actually, I won't be eating tofurkey, it's just fun to pretend that I am. Yay!

So I'll be gone for awhile, which means my messages will pile up, which means I'll go on a homicidal rampage when I come back.

Regardless, I still love everyone. Yay! (even if you do clog up my messages...)



...oh, and much love to you, Marcel! (sorry, I'm all obsessive at the moment...) GO SEE HIM HERE: [link]

(best boyfriend in the world, doncha know.)





((a thousand pardons for not commenting on much for the past two days... been very busy in art class, yes, yes!))


Have a Merry Thanksgiving Everyone! WOOOT! ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1445095/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1445095/ Mon, 24 Nov 2003 10:50:40 PST
My boyfriend lives in Germany.

I live in Texas.

Sounds scary, right?

My boyfriend sent me an Angel Sanctuary artbook (Japanese) and an Angel Sanctuary manga (in German) all the way across the friggen ocean.

It's just a "lil' gift", as he puts it.

Can you believe it?

He sent me stuff!

From Germany!

Isn't that exciting?!

...

...you know what this means, right?

...i'll tell you....





...my boyfriend is way cool.

Way cooler than YOUR boyfriend!



(seriously.) ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1427365/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1427365/ Fri, 21 Nov 2003 10:41:29 PST Currents:
Current Song: Baldur's Gate Music
Current Snack: Pringles Cheezums
Current Novel: Hamlet by William Shakespeare.
Current Video Game: Baldur's Gate II
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special
-----
Quote of the Day:
"I ate the peanut butter sandwich." - Lamont.
-----
Journal:
Meeep. Journal entries are fun. I can't think of anything to write besides Jade is my hero and I like signatures alot. And I'm still in a drawing slump. Tis okay, though, cause Lamont won Hostess Cupcakes for winning an art thingee in class. He offered me some, but I don't like chocolate. Unless it's a butterfinger.

Oh, and I got a lot of Christmas shopping to do. In order to afford everything, I'm gonna have to take out $200 or something... but I have a lot to buy for people.

If I ever finish my Halloween comic, I'm doing a Christmas one, too.

...

But that might not happen, cause I'm so bloody lazy!
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
The Completely Adored
:

http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1417927/ Tue, 18 Nov 2003 10:51:43 PST Currents:
Current Song: Baldur's Gate Music
Current Snack: Wendy's French Fries
Current Novel: Hamlet by William Shakespeare.
Current Video Game: Baldur's Gate II
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special
-----
Quote of the Day:
No quote!
-----
Journal:
Yargh... I hate coming back to school from weekends. I get so tired. Plus, I don't check my DA messages over the weekend, so I come back to 160 messages. Tis not so fun.

I want to make a mod character for Baldur's Gate, but the technicalities of it are going to kill me. I'm never going to be good at anything. It makes me sad.

I'm in a horrific drawing slump, too... (no thanks to Baldur's Gate, probably) but besides that I'm feeling fine. Heh - I got to look at pictures of Nutria today, and that made me happy! I also made my own font, and named it "Nothsa" which is my name backwards. It looked stupid at first, but when you use it in Word, it looks pretty nifty.

Ah... and I forgot to put ~Pawz89 in my journal last time and she was offended! I'm sorry, love, I forget!

Um... nothing much else. Except that I'm a were-nutria. This, of course, is very cool. Oh, and Lamont has forbidden me from having orgasms. This makes me very sad. *pout* He said I can't have any if he's going to teach me scripting for mod character making in Baldur's Gate. Him and his crazy ultimatums, or however you spell it. He's so mean to me! SEXUAL REPRESSION! Damn. (...j/k.) Well, he really did forbid me from having orgasms, but you know...

Anyways, I should probably be leaving - I'm tired, and must go now to Biology. Bai, peoples.

-Ash
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
The Completely Adored
:
~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1400347/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1400347/ Fri, 14 Nov 2003 12:57:47 PST Currents:
Current Song: AFI - "Prayer Position."
Current Snack: Goldfish - Cheddar Flavor.
Current Novel: Hamlet by William Shakespeare.
Current Video Game: Baldur's Gate II
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special
-----
Quote of the Day:
"Butt kicking, for goodness!" - Minsc, Baldur's Gate
-----
Journal:
Look - my journal is back to being nasty long and somewhat frustrating! ^^ Now I have all my friendly people's listed again - you know, cause I love them so much! School was boring today (I'm sitting here, after school, in the comp lab waiting for my mom to get here to pick me up...)

Lamont is puzzling over the background of one of his pictures next to me. Tis fun. It's a picture of the very hot and desirous Eskilys. I am very much enrapt with it. Hee hee.

In other news, in Biology class, this strange kid came Tony came up and fuzzed my hair - after which, he proceeded to bite my finger. He's so strange - it bloody well hurt, but Tony's sweet, so I forgive him. (yesterday, he tried to follow me into the girl's restroom! he's so fun, and cute, and... very gay. ah well.)

Fun Jewish gay dudes. I love him. (well, not like THAT.)

Anyways, random journal entry. I need to draw stuff. And now I feel like writing fanfiction too! Hm... I guess this weekend I shall be busy. Hopefully Baldur's Gate will not take up TOO much of my time...
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
The Completely Adored
:
http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1395318/ Thu, 13 Nov 2003 09:01:39 PST
On a better note, I got to have a bunch of McDonald's breakfasts - I missed three days of school - and I got to play Baldur's Gate constantly. That game stole me soul.

(On a cuter note, too, you collect a bunch of rings in Baldur's gate, see? I collect all the "Jade Rings" even though they're pointless - memoirs to my Jade, yes?)

Butt kicking for goodness! Boo will have clean woodshavings you bastards!

(Yargh, I'm all shaky still, cause I'm not quite healthy - I just have no fever!)

Oooooohhh... and if I don't comment on your deviations and such, I'm sorry - I have 170 new messages since I've been gone, and I might not get through them all...

Much love;
Ash. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1368831/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1368831/ Fri, 07 Nov 2003 10:57:28 PST
Oh, and I heard this cool quote:
"I don't do drugs.
I am drugs."

That's so totally awesome.

Yargh... I'm so tired. We had a pep rally today - I sat in the backroom of an artroom and did nothing. It was random. At least Lamont was there. We had donuts then. We also had donuts next class...

Ah, I'm not making any sense! I'm gonna go fail a test in Biology! How fun! ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1345650/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1345650/ Sat, 01 Nov 2003 10:25:41 PST
BTW - for anyone who knows anime and AFI well, have you seen the Girl's Not Grey video? If you haven't, go here:

[link]

And watch it. I just got finished watching it six or seven times now... (I'm at my mom's school, and it has awesome computers!) and seriously, it's been reminding me of a lot of Clamp things... I mean, we have the crazy bunny rabbit running around (ala' Miyuki Chan in Wonderland bunnies!), lots of cherry blossom petals (although that's more every anime in the world...), a weird blue haired girl (looks more like Ami from Sailor Moon, actually...) and spastic scenery. (you ever seen a Clamp artbook? We're talking WERID!)

Seriously though, this is one of my favorite music videos ever... Davey has such fun hair, and Jade has his pink tie! Yay! ^^ ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1332726/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1332726/ Tue, 28 Oct 2003 09:05:43 PST as i try to scale the walls.
ignored futility fills the air,
you're only there to watch me fall...

if only pure sweetness was offered,
why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?
if i could catch my breath,
just to exhale,
i'd know that i
held it in too long...

from above comes a faint smile,
a new vantage, such a view
familiarity now disowned
just sit and stare
as i walk away.

"Clove Smoke Catharsis" by AFI.

(I felt like being random and overly dramatic. Plus, the song fits my mood. Whee.) ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1328577/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1328577/ Mon, 27 Oct 2003 10:12:46 PST -----
Absolutely the Coolest People Ever!

Wheeee~! Definately my best friend. No one's cooler than Lamont, yes? Ah, you, I adore. ^^
---

Ah, he always makes me feel better! Course, now he's sad, so it's his turn to be comforted!
---

Awwww... she's the sweetest person ever! (not to mention one of the coolest AFI fans I've met!) - check out her other account at:
:eloquent: too!
---

Isn't he so sweet? He gave me his shoulder! *huggles his shoulder* Fun people with fun names - I glomp thee, LB!
---

Wow - with all the plushies you've given me I'm probably drowning in them! *glomps plushies and you* Yay!
---

Old DA friend of mine! I've known her almost since the beginning - absolutely spiffing person!
---

Wheeeee~! Fun Davey obsessed crazy people! She's so kind and nice and loving! at pat:
---

Best writer ever, yes? Thanks so much for your kindess and your love~! *glomp tackle*
-----
(then there's Lamont's groupies!)

I don't know these people too well, but by god, aren't they such cute little homeskillets? *collective glomp* Thanks so much for your concerns! Yay!! ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1316951/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1316951/ Fri, 24 Oct 2003 09:33:59 PDT
We went on a field trip yesterday. Lamont made me happy - Lamont always makes me happy. It isn't his job, but he does it anyways. Isn't he wonderful?

I don't know what to say anymore. Lamont, you're wondeful. If not for you, this world would be absoultely horrific. Yeah. ]]> ~wynterashes http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1308880/ http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1308880/ Wed, 22 Oct 2003 09:30:21 PDT Currents:
Current Song: Hamasaki Ayumi - " Evolution"
Current Snack: Sour Creame and Onion Chips
Current Novel: n/a
Current Video Game: n/a
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special - 1 Pg Done
-----
Quote of the Day:
"Live fast, die young, and leave a good looking corpse." - James Dean.
-----
Journal:
One page done with my comic, another almost done. ^^ It makes me happy. Which is good, because if I wasn't happy about that, I'd be sad about other things...

Like for instance, the fact that someone who means a lot to me is always ignoring me and forgetting about me. Yeah. It depresses me that people take advantage of things and relationships and friendships that they completely disregard any normal civilities. Bothering to talk to me, for instance. It makes me sad when the relationship is so comfortable that we don't have to talk. At least, that's what I'm assuming the reason is.

But regardless - I'm happy. See? I'm smiling. *smile* I guess that's just the way it works, huh?

By the way - thanks for all the support on my comic! ^^ It makes me infinitely happy, yes?


-----
ART TRADE NOTE
Sorry, but I'm not open for art trades or gift arts right now unless I'm really good friends with you, I know you pretty well, I like you a lot, or so on and so forth. (pretty much the people in my journal). But for the time being, I need a break from drawing stuff for other people - I have way too many art trades lined up as it is. (sorry!)
-----
Current Art Trades:
~hated-fixation [0%complete]
He says I can draw him a metal head, so I'm off to do so!
~mrred [45%complete]
Inked - needs to be scanned and colored.
-----
Current Gift Art:
~lamont [50%complete]
Inked - needs to be scanned and colored.
~xdaveys-dreamsx (gift #2) [85%complete]
Images need to be merged together.
~xfallchildx&~xdaveys-dreamsx [30%complete]
Sketch done, needs inking, scanning, and coloring.
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
The Completely Adored

http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1300785/ Mon, 20 Oct 2003 10:48:09 PDT Currents:
Current Song: Hamasaki Ayumi - " Evolution"
Current Snack: Breadsticks
Current Novel: n/a
Current Video Game: n/a
Current Work: AFI - Halloween Comic Special
-----
Quote of the Day:
"Quote quote quote." - Nicki, when asked for a quote.
-----
Journal:
Wheee - it's Monday and my weekend was half-okay, half-not. Lamont and I met with a friend of ours (who is nice, at times, but seeing as me and Lamont are best buds and she barely knows either of us, she's kinda a third wheel - which makes me feel somewhat guilty, but you know, what can you do?) We hung around at the mall for awhile, and looked in a bunch of stores, which is sad - when I'm just with Lamont by myself, we just stalk around outside the stores and look like mean people with bad attitudes scaring little children. (well, not the little children part) With my other friend, we have to act somewhat normal... *sigh* Basically the only thing I saw in the stores that really interested me was a hoodie with Jack Skellington on the front at Suncoast (that store makes me angry unless I'm looking for something besides anime - like cheap candy or boxes of overpriced Pocky - which, now that I think about it, the Pocky makes me angry, too.)

We then proceeded to Walmart - which was also really boring, unless you count Lamont telling her Christmas wishes to a giant blow up doll of The Grinch - or when Lamont nearly slammed me into a wall while I was standing on the back end of a shopping cart (which was friggen scary). Imagine me squished between a shopping cart and a wall of pet supplies. Nasty.

You know... I can't remember what else we did. Besides looking up entirely obscene quiz on Quizzila.com, anyway. ^^ Oh, and both Lamont and my other friend decided that I am part Nutria (you know, those really large rat things with long tails and red insciors? Yeah, that's them.) How they came to this conclusion, I don't know. Regardless, I am now a Were-Nutria, and I turn into a full Nutria on the full moon where upon I commence to eat various vegetarians... or something like that.

And we all decided that Mr. Winkle is the scariest thing alive. To be frighted severely, please go here:
[link]

*On the AFI - Halloween Comic Special
I'm working on completing a comic featuring the world's most perfect people ever (AFI, you ninny) in celebration of Halloween and their absolute awesomeness. ^^ I've got the first page already drawn and inked, so I'll most likely be focusing on that for the next while. Gotta get it done! This is gonna be my first comic (it's a short story) but on request by someone on the AFI message board, I've considered taking AFI into the realm of full fledged comic-hood. (which means I'd be working on two - mine and ~mrred 's, of whose comic Samurai Usher I am most likely going to color) ^^ We'll see if I have the determination to actually go through with something like that...
-----
ART TRADE NOTE
Sorry, but I'm not open for art trades or gift arts right now unless I'm really good friends with you, I know you pretty well, I like you a lot, or so on and so forth. (pretty much the people in my journal). But for the time being, I need a break from drawing stuff for other people - I have way too many art trades lined up as it is. (sorry!)
-----
Current Art Trades:
~hated-fixation [0%complete]
He says I can draw him a metal head, so I'm off to do so!
~mrred [45%complete]
Inked - needs to be scanned and colored.
-----
Current Gift Art:
~lamont [50%complete]
Inked - needs to be scanned and colored.
~xdaveys-dreamsx (gift #2) [85%complete]
Images need to be merged together.
~xfallchildx&~xdaveys-dreamsx [30%complete]
Sketch done, needs inking, scanning, and coloring.
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! http://wynterashes.deviantart.com/journal/1279775/ Wed, 15 Oct 2003 09:11:29 PDT Currents:
Current Song: Zelda Theme - Techno Remix style.
Current Snack: Reeses Peanut Butter Cups
Current Novel: Blackwood Farm - Anne Rice
Current Video Game: n/a
-----
Quote of the Day:
"I understand perfectly because I'm in love with myself. The fact that I'm not transfixed in front of the mirror takes a lot of self control." - Lestat, Blackwood Farm
-----
Journal:
Duuuuuuude~! For some strange reason, my parents decided to let me have a computer. So my dad brings home this computer from work, gives it to me, and voila. Instant artwork in my room. Unfortunately, my USB hub thing won't work without a power cord, and thus my scanner is not working right (it uses a USB hookup). Regardless, my computer is still totally awesome. ^^ I blew $392 outfiting it at Fry's (I bought a printer, some kick ass speakers with a subwoofer, more RAM... and a monitor, that's it...). It's all thrown together in my room all ramshaklely! ^^ It makes me happy.

Still, I can't get on DA when I'm gone for the weekend, so that means when I come back, I have 130 some odd messages - some 74 deviations and 32 journal entries! *screams* TOTALLY RIDICULOUS! Personally, I don't think you should stick up more than three things a day - and when I'm gone for five days, there are people who put up like, ten things in a day, and it drives me crazy! Half of my 74 deviations were all accounted to only one person! EDIT: Actually, I just checked... a lot of people submitted a lot of stuff this weekend! *sobs* Why can't I have that much stuff to put up, too?ENDEDIT How is that possible? I can't comment on everything everyone makes over the weekend, so I apologize... 74 deviations is a lot to look for in an hour and a half... (especially when I'm also supposed to be doing schoolwork!) So if I don't get a chance to comment, it's not cause I don't like your work - it's more like I didn't have time.

Oh - and I forgot to mention! ^^ I got asked to be ~mrred's colorer! I'm so happy! I get to work on an online comic now! *dances around in sheer joy*
-----
ART TRADE NOTE
Sorry, but I'm not open for art trades or gift arts right now unless I'm really good friends with you, I know you pretty well, I like you a lot, or so on and so forth. (pretty much the people in my journal). But for the time being, I need a break from drawing stuff for other people - I have way too many art trades lined up as it is. (sorry!)
-----
Current Art Trades:
*hated-fixation [0%complete]
He says I can draw him a metal head, so I'm off to do so!
~mrred [45%complete]
Inked - needs to be scanned and colored.
-----
Current Gift Art:
~lamont [50%complete]
Inked - needs to be scanned and colored.
~xdaveys-dreamsx (gift #2) [85%complete]
Images need to be merged together.
~xfallchildx&~xdaveys-dreamsx [30%complete]
Sketch done, needs inking, scanning, and coloring.
-----
Owner of my Soul

Oh, thee adoration I feel! Make sure you run and check out my German darling!
-----
The Completely Adored
~wynterashes