http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:x-san&section=today deviantART RSS for by:x-san en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 04:20:41 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/27722596/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/27722596/ Mon, 12 Oct 2009 09:44:02 PDT
Uhhhhg... ranting gives me a headache.
I need a shower.
I love you, celia.

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/27479029/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/27479029/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 01:09:25 PDT and how much she means to me. She'll be living with her dad for a few weeks and I'm going to miss her so much! Oh well, it IS for the better. Just when I think I'm down, she shows me I can smile. I thank her more than she'll ever know for that. While I'm still one big ball of sunshine I AM still human and I DO get whiny/sad sometimes. I hope that's not how people see me though... I'm afraid people see me as a sad person b/c I'm shy or I'm tired(I usually am until the sun goes down). Oh what should I do~? Heh, I should do my homework. Something surprised me the other day. I figured out what miracle wish I'd have if I could have one. Before I stated my own, I asked a friend. He answered with what I was thinking. That everyone in the world was always in a good mood.

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]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/24087310/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/24087310/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 04:12:55 PDT
And THANK YOU SO MUCH for the thousand views that have passed me by while I took the time to blink. Seriously, I guess someone must be reading this.

And [link] for all of you lazy people who are willing to take a quick watch.

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]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/21925488/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/21925488/ Thu, 11 Dec 2008 04:23:55 PST
Anywho. It's almost x-mas. I can't stop thinking of standing by my moms bedside, staring down at her trying to smile for her sake. She looked so happy... but she didn't look like my mother. This is the first year without her. She REALLY loved x-mas. That's why I always have. I can't this year... I just can't. But there are things to be happy about. This is the first year I can spend in a steady relationship. If you wanna know more, feel free to ask. There's the other thing as well. I'm finally getting a ps3 and I'm damn happy about it.

So what's it been DA? Two years since I was seriously active? Wow. Hopefully I'll have something for you soon. In the mean time, know I've been drawing.

My grandma just had a heart attack two weeks ago. She quit smoking and now she's really bipolar. It would make me happy if everyone could just say a prayer tonight. I'd be lost without her.

I can't get my beloved off my mind. Funny part... nothing big happened today. I think of her all the time every day and have been obsessing over her for two years now. I'm so happy.

So I play Blackout Ragnarok Online now. - [link]
Anyone care to play with me? I own a guild and I'm looking for people to join. Weather you never played before or been playing every day for years, I'd love to have you. The guild is called 505.

What I want for X-mas... Well I really don't expect anything. If anyone is nice enough, I'd like a drawing of my main avatar in RO and maybe alongside or with my pet. [link] Or if your feeling especially generous, I'm open to any gold donations on gaia as well.

More than for myself, I'd like to give. Let me know what you want drawn and I'll see if maybe I can sketch it out for you for X-mas.

One gift I can let you open early is some drugs. Not really... ut I've always been a huge fan of Designer Drugs and here, take a listen.

[link] [link] [link] [link] [link]

Happy holidays everyone. And thanks for the 7K views.


Funfact: I take showers really hot to relieve stress and then gradually go to freezing to meditate and build on concentration and find inner peace.

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/19616996/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/19616996/ Sun, 27 Jul 2008 02:34:48 PDT
Wow... last journal was in march? Too far! Everyone should comment me if they want to get reacquainted. *nods* I miss you all! And thank you so much for the people who still care. <3

I have a unfinished meme... but I doubt I'll finish it. So I might just post the picture in scraps later.

And STOP USING HEADERS! Makes it hard with DA's journal previews. Just put the points at the top. It'll make things easy. ^^

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/17523491/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/17523491/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 10:52:27 PDT My dearest friend is having commissions and really needs the money. And I urge you to help in any way you can. the reason I'm doing this? He's awesome. And better then me. xD ((I was giving my art for free and only 3 people wanted it?)) Anyway, at least click the icon.

Next, art. I've slowly been getting out of my block, currently I got nothing to show besides my ceiling tile. I'll show something when I get stuff scanned. Sorry for the wait.

I got a haircut for the first time in a year! It's very sexy. ;D Cha, pictures on the way. till then, I think I'll let you guess! >D

Uhhhm... yeah. So more to come. ((Maybe)) until then. <3

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/16777987/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/16777987/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 22:53:47 PST

Thought I'd let you know.

Well hello everybody. ;D
Well I thought since I decided to keep it private... I'll let you guys in on something. My mom died three weeks ago. On that note. I'll be more active very, very soon. I have three things on the way right now. The first is a ceiling tile. My very own art for the class. Something pretty weird and not expected by most of you, it's similar to my newest pencil drawing... Next is a "shout" taken from a friend of mine. Some little honestys most of you don't know. Warning, will most likely offend. And the last piece will be the 5K snag for whoever grabs it. Just screen it and you'll get your art.... eventually. But on the good side I will work hard on it. That might be the reason it'll take so long... I erase.
Big news: I'm getting an 80gig custom Zune!! Hellz yeahs bitches!!*cough* I'll post pictures. :3 I'm loving the faint. <3 I'm getting more and more into electronic pop... So yes. :3 I hope to get a sub soon. And by the way, a 3 month sub would get the buyer 3 pics and spotlight till it runs out. Speaking of spotlight, I found an amazing artist. Spotlight time! It's kinda crappy without a sub but I can post an icon...
Ciao everyone. <3

Already famous but... more is always better.


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]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/16378729/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/16378729/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 20:52:48 PST
Till next time... which could be a while...
Shane.

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/15948657/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/15948657/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 18:01:59 PST - Make a post containing your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal.

Step Two
- Check to see who has posted their list.

And here's the important part:
- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.
You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.
There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

If you notice, 8 is missing. This leaves room for me to make my announcement (( which makes me feel very selfish )) What I really need are new clothes... More specificly I want some new shirts. Mine are all faded and most likely hand-me-downs. D; So If you would get me anything from [link] I would love you forever and make you two works of art. *nods* Though it's Christmas so I can't legally say that... Erm... I CAN'T WAIT TO GIVE GIFTS TO _______ ((the buyer)) 8D *wink wink nudge nudge hump hump*

Once more, I love you all. ;-;


1. [link] [persona 3 headphones. <3]-Note me for details.-<33333333333333
2. Pora ice on gaia. [userneame : xenoix] You can buy it for $5 at the cash shoppe' <<;;
3. Gift art of Me ((yes? : D )), Kyoku, Alister, or bear. [links to come soon.] Or if your real nice you'll do a couple art for me. -Note me for details.-
4. A subscription! <3333 *will love you forever*
5. A bracelet or some form of chained necklace... or a cool looking chain. I like accessorys <<;;-Note me for details.-
6. More friends, it has gotten too cold around here D;
7. A new computer? 8D*shot*

9. A CSS with a chibi Shanes!! 8D And possibly with a sheep! Or even better... you! : D
10. Just stop by and give your unliteral two cents. <3

If you can make any of those happen (Especially 1 or 2), I will love you. SRSLY. And most likely make an attempt to get you something back. ^^

Happy gathering.

*Notes are for address mostly, so if you need it don't tell me the present.
**If noting for the couple art it's ok to tell me your going to draw?

I want to play not-so-secret-Santa! 8D *hopes he won't slack off*...*like usual.*
Gift art to be declared:
*Birthday art for
*"Thank you" pic for the hits"
*Forgotten pics and commisions.

"I'd hit that."

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/15637659/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/15637659/ Sat, 24 Nov 2007 01:49:57 PST 's birthday is today and people should go see. :3 He's a really good friend of mine as well as an amazing artist and deserves some love! xD And shame on you who are too lazy to click an icon, geez. As for x-mas... I'm sorry to say I most likely wont be as enthusiastic as last year. My apologies. Any gift art still will be much appreciated. I would like to think I would return it but... well you should know I most likely wont. So those of you who do are truly nice people and will have to settle with my unwavering affection.
So until later,
Shane.

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/15101835/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/15101835/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 13:18:12 PDT The air is stolen from my lungs
In darkness I lay idle
I exhale my hope as I stop looking for a way out
Denial passes as does time and I no longer search for a way out
laying idle in the dark


^*looks at "popular"* Kingdom hearts needs to die already. Seriously.

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/14432638/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/14432638/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 23:59:32 PDT
new below
Ok So, I have said a lot of stuff about jurnals and so to you I write. Lets go by thee alf-a-bet

AngelicPanda
[link]
LOOK AT THAT! I mean.. do I need a reason for here to be my first DA idol? shes nice too x3

animekeeper
Your really nice and I love talking to you on msn no matter how short and awkward it gets ^^

Annerb
You have been a huge moral support. It feels as long as I post art you will comment, I owe you SO MUCH for that...

AuraHACK
Truely mr. bomb digety. You rock AND roll like a pointed object! Serious coolness factor D: not to mention I now use last FM all the time now << Thanks xD

Bishiglomper
Even if you might forget about me some times I shall never forget about you xD

blue-fang
You have been really nice to me and when I colored your drawing I had a huge breakthrough, thanks so much ^^ Not to mention your name is the first firefox hasn't wigged out about when I type it xD

fatcat89
You sexy goose =[ Your so awesome and wise and awesome and stuff and awesome xD
And yeeeah... << XD

FelicitySilver
Your poems are awesome and You look at so much of my stuff and comment. I couldn't thank you enough. ^^

hyuga-n3j1
Your awesome, hot, and have great art xD Though I think you should be on msn more, your the coolest xD

KamyuFaust
Your arts cool, and your really nice ^^ I'm glad to have you as a friend X3

Laark
Oh my, were to start? YOU ARE AWESOME. Your one of those people who I get on the internet to look for! I always see your new stuff and hope your on msn. Your the sweetest and even though I feel foreign I feel like you can relate to everything. ^^ And you drew me efore even talking to me wich I find to be SOSOSOOOO the nicest thing anyone on DA has ever done for me x3

Lancha
My second idol? The one who to today I still admire? Your awesome and I want you to know that! You've been SUCH an inspiration to me! ^^

Lar-Ki
I'm mad at you at the moment ;-;

http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13664945/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 23:08:10 PDT Favorite Color: Blue and black and neon green!
Favorite Food: Orange chiken from panda express <3... << >> what!?
Favorite Movie: Pirates of the Caribbean and anything Hayao Miyazaki.
Favorite Sport: Pokemonz! 8D
Favorite Day of the Week: Any day I'm not at school or work or being forced to do somthing I don't want to : D
Favorite Season: winter. Up yours mr. sunny 107 F degree weather! D<
Favorite Ice Cream: cookie dough, cookies and cream, French vanilla

CURRENTS:
Current Mood: Aggravated, urning, feeling misunderstood.
Current Clothes: a tight famous stras and stripes shirt with some pants I found from 4th grade....
Current Desktop: some image stollen from 4chan.
Current Time: 9:43pm.
Current Surroundings: bunk bed, my room
Current Annoyances: Transformers movie sucked. Mom won't stop complaining. Roommate thinks he knows more than me about computers. Mom is loud. My tummy hurts from too much popcorn. I found out I like cheese cake. I miss my beloved who won't be back till Tuesday. It's too hot. Ps2 is broke and my cuz is taking his sweet ass time fixing it. These pants are going up my crack. Shia lubuff is a fag. product placement everywhere. I scratched my neck too hard. I feel I have no one to talk to. BBs are all over my floor. And I'm getting a head ache.
Current Thoughts: I want to be gone. Just gone somewhere where the stars illuminate the sky; the air is chilly and crisp. The only noises to be heard are the ruffling brush in the wind currents and the sweet whispers of me love and I.

FIRSTS:
First Best Friend: Raj from first grade, not quite sure how you spell it.
First Crush: 6th grade, first failure.
First Movie: can't remember, most likely the never ending story.
First Lie:can't remember.
First Music: Star 98.7 Alternative of the 90's

LASTS:
Last Drink: water
Last Crush: Obvious much?
Last Phone Call: My 2 year old neice.
Last CD played: Alkaline trio

HAVE YOU EVER:
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: Nope
Have you ever broken the law: Curfew, jay walk, minor theft, entering a cigerette shop JUST cuz the sigh said no one under 18. I'm SUCH a bad boy...
Have you ever been arrested: Nope
Have you ever been on TV: A couple times. Once for finding a bear in a tree.
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: *shudders* yes...

THINGS:
5 things you are good at: Art, being calm, listening, quick learner on some things, seeing humor in nearly anything.
4 things you done today: played pokemon, eat, went to the transoformers, called Celia.
3 things you can hear right now: Tv in the background, hummin of computer and and breathing
1 thing you do when you are bored: MASTER-doodle.... yus, I mastered my craft of doodling... <<;;;

Now to perpetuate this tag for an extended period of time before it reaches it's useby date...

The next tagger's are:






]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13580939/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13580939/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 16:39:52 PDT Request art through shoutbox

Stole from

Psychoanalyze Yourself. Answer the following questions with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read which each answer means. (No cheating!)

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. With who?
My love.

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it?
Penguin

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
I pet and imaitate it.

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe it?
stories high and sniney, oddly shaped.

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
Nope but it has a bit of a moat

6. You enter the house. You walk in to the dining room and see
Bread and a moose

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
white tea cup with grape juice

8. What do you do with the cup?
put it on my head

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself
standing at the edge of a body of water. What kind of body of water is it?
moat...

10. How will you cross the water?
there a bridge! xD
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1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important person in your life.


2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.


3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.


4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.


5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.


6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.


7. The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.


8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude.


9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.


10. How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance of your sex life.

Hmm..
started off good but.. then the answers got odd xD ]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13534227/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13534227/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 04:22:53 PDT Request art through shoutbox

- Open up your music folder or what ever and look at the titles of your songs
- Put in the title that best goes with the question

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Otherside by: Rancid

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Fun and games by: Pennywise

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Smile by: AFI

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
failing, flailing by: Streetlight manifesto

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Living for Today by: Pennywise

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Swing life away by: The Rise against

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Cut up angels by: The used

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Her Voice Resides by: Bullet for my valentine

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Fuck authority by: Pennywise

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
My star by: The (International) Noise Conspiracy

WHAT IS YOUR THEME SONG?
But tonight we dance by: Rise against

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Indestructible by: Rancid

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The good left undone by: Rise against

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Heres to life by: Streetlight manifesto

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Of Greetings And Goodbyes by: AFI

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Down under by: Pennywise (( Had to xD ))

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
The artist in the ambulance by: Thrice

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
A jacknife to a swan by: The Mighty Mighty Bosstones

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
All my people by: The suicide machines

that was fun :]

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13533760/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13533760/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 03:01:57 PDT Request art through shoutbox

x - sorta
xx - greater
xxx - evil crippling fear

[ ] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[x] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[xx] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[x] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking.
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[x] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[xx] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightening.
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[xxx] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[xxx] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[xxx] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.

B
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[ ] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[x] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[xx] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed publicly.
[] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks.
[ ] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[x] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[x] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[ ] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[x] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[x] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[ ] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[ ] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[ ] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[ ] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

G
[ ] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[ ] Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[xx] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
[ ] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[ ] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[x] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[ ] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[ ] Hydrophobia - Fear of water.

I
[ ] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[x] Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

K
[ ] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[ ] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[ ] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[x] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

M
[ ] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[ ] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[ ] Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[ ] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.

N
[ ] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
[ ] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[xx] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[ ] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.

P
[ ] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[x] Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[ ] Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[ ] Philophobia - Fear of love.
[ ] Phobophobia - Fear of being afraid. ((lol))
[ ] Podophobia - Fear of feet.
[ ] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple.
[ ] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[ ] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

S
[x] Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[ ] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[x] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[ ] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

T
[x] Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[ ] Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[ ] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[xxx] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections.

V-Z
[x] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[ ] Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[ ] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[ ] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers.
[ ] Zoophobia - Fear of animals.

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13520210/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13520210/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 02:42:19 PDT Request art through shoutbox

OPENING CREDITS:choke on this by senses fail

WAKING UP: give 'em hell kid by MCR ((how I like to wake up! xD)

FALLING IN LOVE: noble stabbings! by dillengt four

FIGHT SCENE: Out of control by rancid ((niiiiice xD))

BREAKING UP: The despair factor by AFI

GETTING BACK TOGETHER: The future freaks me out by motion city soundtrack((hahaha well said xD))

SECRET LOVE: smile by AFI (("I'l set the world on fire and in the burning light I will write my first love song"))

LIFE'S OKAY: Riding the fourth wave by streetlight manifesto (( nice fit =o ))

MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Inside out by eve 6 (([link]))

DRIVING FLASHBACK: A moment of silence by streetlight manifesto

PARTYING: Stupid mother fucker by mindless self indulgence

HAPPY DANCE: state of fear by useless ID

REGRETTING: 9mm and a 3 piece suit by streetlight manifesto

LONG NIGHT ALONE: Tall cans in the air by transplants

THE NEXT MORNING: one trillion dollars by Anti-Flag

FINAL BATTLE: Fields of Agony [Acoustic] by no use for a name

DEATH SCENE: 911 for peace by Anti-Flag

END CREDITS: Boombox Generation by Motion city soundtrack

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13400281/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13400281/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 23:07:54 PDT Request art through shoutbox

WEEEELL Today I went out with someone ^^ (3 hours late =_ aaaand did some stuff at the mall and went to the arcade and did some more stuff... and went to a bookstore and....stuff... and then My mom picked us up and went to red lobster ^^ she stole the salt xD and then took us back for some home made cake. ^^ then I went back to that pesons house and did...stuff...
._. Sorry I would say more but I would get shot xD;;

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13257825/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/13257825/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 20:52:24 PDT Request art through shoutbox

I'M BACK MOTHA- oh wait... yeah but I'm back. =] expect more art soon as in I...
AM GETTING A TABLET FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! take thats bishes! D<
so more art <3
lots more
I've improved while on break and now I'm going to be more active too ^^ so don't forget about poor mr.shanes ;-;
And it IS my birthday so even the littlest things to acknowledge that would make me realy happy. ^^

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12894508/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12894508/ Wed, 09 May 2007 00:23:46 PDT Request art through shoutbox

Have been pretty true T_T I dun mean to be dead, realy I love you DA but.. i'm busy with school and love and...Disgaea <3

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12488654/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12488654/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 20:58:15 PDT Request art through shoutbox

Eki eki! Damn bishes! D<

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12402701/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12402701/ Sat, 31 Mar 2007 13:33:47 PDT Request art through shoutbox

I hate march.
I hate march.
I hate march.
I hate march.
I hate march.
I hate march.
I hate march.
I hate march.
I hate march.
worst month of my life. and how does march end? with the end of my subscription. So I might be on hiatus for a while till I scrape up a few dollars and buy a visa giftcard thingie. It may have been the saddest drawing I have ver done but you should look at my newest drawing, I'm rather proud of it.


WORKLIST
-contest for - line art done and now I'm coloring
-pic of me at a rave with - thinking
-L for - nothing yet....
-emo dude for - your gonna have to wait....
-ZP hugging a cactus for - crappy ass doodle, might upload later
-Pikachu for - some ideas....
- Rose (her) in a bear suit for - last! cuz i'm mean like that
if I forgot art that you wanted me to do let me know, seriously, let me know!

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12288654/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12288654/ Thu, 22 Mar 2007 19:13:51 PDT Request art through shoutbox




I have decided to feature a realy great friend of mine ^^ her art is realy great and I think that everyone should see it ^^ heres some examples =3



WORKLIST
-contest for - line art done and now I'm coloring
-pic of me at a rave with - thinking
-L for - nothing yet....
-emo dude for - your gonna have to wait....
-ZP hugging a cactus for - crappy ass doodle, might upload later
-Pikachu for - some ideas....
- Rose (her) in a bear suit for - last! cuz i'm mean like that
if I forgot art that you wanted me to do let me know, seriously, let me know! ]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12251056/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12251056/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 18:25:58 PDT Request art through shoutbox

I lay here as the icy chill cascades down my frostbitten exterior.
Were am I, or rather at were do I stand?
Is this even framiliar?
I can't seem to comprehend this perplexing rut I have crawled into.
Please dicribe the sun.
Let me feel any warmth at all before I take my last frozen breath.
Take my hand, as to say I have one yet.
I'm so numb.
I think and infer and ponder and run it all through again.
There is no light, no sun for me.
I haven't even taken a step as far as I can see.
I lay here once more being being molested by pinpricking frost.
No light. No warmth. No hope.
---
Kill me were I stand so I fall to grace and be replenished.
I have lost my mind as well as my compony.
I can not breath as I lie, even the air has been striken from my lips.
My faith has been digarded and my sences stolen from me in my subconsious.
I have thrown all else into the wind as to take hold of a ghost.
My name is no longer muttered against my ears tenderly but rather cast to the shadows and the wind, being the only ones who travel through.
My face is no longer my own, the once happy expression liquified and reformed.
So I beg of you, drive that dagger you keep with and rid me of what is not me and rid thee of wich is now me so that nothing is me neigh longer.
So please,
Kill me were I stand so I fall to grace and be replenished.
---
Rain.
It soaks throught my garmets to my heart, deeming it heavy.
This is my prison.
Wether is be by bus, sidewalk, nor dwelling space, I can not be free.
Apathy, pesimizm, and ilusion have become my cellmates, binding me to their pressance.
An enemy of another world and yet the other dwelling inside myself.
Neither can be defeated but I try, I try with all my will, feeling defeated I focus on the closer.
I shed myself time and time again against my peers but nothing works.
They are but test dummies for my completion.
I do care for them but never as much for her.
I am blinded by hopes of happiness.
These hopes come in the form of liquid bliss that trickles down my sences.
I once dreamed of happiness with no need for reason and no room for regrets.
I have, to my dismay, woken once more from that dream to find myself in a pool of apathy.
No misgiving has been given as of the current.
My hope has been washed away, leaving speckles of happy memorys to a cold empty riverbed that is now filling with the ice cold rain of human defeat.

WORKLIST
-contest for - line art done and now I'm coloring
-pic of me at a rave with - thinking
-L for - nothing yet....
-emo dude for - your gonna have to wait....
-ZP hugging a cactus for - crappy ass doodle, might upload later
-Pikachu for - some ideas....
- Rose (her) in a bear suit for - last! cuz i'm mean like that
if I forgot art that you wanted me to do let me know, seriously, let me know! ]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12187824/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12187824/ Wed, 14 Mar 2007 22:34:27 PDT Request art through shoutbox

Love is winter snow set,
Falls unexpected to the blind,
Florecant white cascades down till surface met,
To hot a day sudden chill is kind.

Snow dictates its way through over everything,
Not an inch beyond unsaturated vison,
Beautiful to the eyes, the sweet melodic trace to your ears ring,
You embrase it with hastey colision.

Though it nips and bites It is all the worth,
It gentles down to a warmer tension,
You strongly feel elation beyond earth,
The end is not to mention.

The snow is gone as reasonless as it came,
You sweat in the summer sun without hope feeling you have lost the game.

WORKLIST
-contest for - line art done and now I'm coloring
-pic of me at a rave with - thinking
-L for - nothing yet....
-emo dude for - your gonna have to wait....
-ZP hugging a cactus for - crappy ass doodle, might upload later
-Pikachu for - some ideas....
- Rose (her) in a bear suit for - last! cuz i'm mean like that
if I forgot art that you wanted me to do let me know, seriously, let me know! ]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12055038/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12055038/ Sun, 04 Mar 2007 14:07:08 PST Request art through shoutbox

I to keep an up-to-date-24/7-worklist in the footer of my journal so If you wanna know how your art is coming out go there, if you havent requested art, put the request up in my shoutbox! I love taking requests.

now... stolen from
~*~*~*~*~

Part One: "Only in America..."

...can a pizza get to your house faster than an ambulance.

...are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink.

...do drug stores make the sick walk to the back to get their medication when heality people can buy cigarettes at the front.

...do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a DIET coke.

...do banks leave both doors open but chain their pens to the counters.

...do we use answering machines to screen calls and then have call waiting so we dont miss a call from someone we didnt want to talk to in the first place.

...do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten, and buns in packages of eight.

...do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille writing.

~*~*~*~*~

Part Two: Ever Wonder?

~why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

~why women cant put on mascara with their mouth closed?

~why dont you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

~why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, but dishwashing liquid is made with real lemons?

~why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

~when dog food is new and imporved tasting, who tests it?

~why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

~why dont sheep shrink when it rains?

~if flying is safe, why do they call the airport the "terminal"?

~*~*~*~*~

Part Three: Product Lables:

~On a bar of Dial Soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would be how..?)

~On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but it's "just" a suggestion)

~On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down" (Well DUH! A bit late, dontcha think?!)

~On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot if heated" (...and you thought...?)

~On packaging for a Rowents iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (but wouldnt this save me more time?)

~On Boots Children Cough Medicine: "Do not drive a car or operate heavy machinery after taking this medication." (We could totally reduce the rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with head-colds off those forklifts.)

~On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and I'm taking this because...?)

~On most brands of chirstmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only." (as opposed to...what?)

~On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a news flash.)

On an American Airlines packet of nuts: "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts." (Step 3: maybe, uhh...fly Delta?)

On a Sweedish Chainsaw: "Do not attempt to stop chain with hands or genitals." (...was there a lot of this happening somewhere?)

~*~*~*~*~*~

WORKLIST
-contest for - line art done and now I'm coloring
-pic of me at a rave with - thinking
-L for - nothing yet....
-emo dude for - your gonna have to wait....
-ZP hugging a cactus for - crappy ass doodle, might upload later
-Pikachu for - some ideas....
- Rose (her) in a bear suit for ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12034055/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/12034055/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 00:02:41 PST
Its oficial, I think it's safe to say I have a new girlfriend! <3 I think this one will make me alot more happy. ^^ I won't go into a huge speach about love here (cuz I'm VERY good at that xD) so yeah just thought i'd let you know. ^^

my curent worklist is this
-contest for - sketched
-pic of me at a rave with
-L for
-emo dude for
-ZP hugging a cactus for
if I forgot art that you wanted me to do let me know, seriously, let me know!

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11995155/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11995155/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 00:43:56 PST
Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who get tagged MUST (not really but be a good sport ) write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...

1.- I flail my right hand

2.-I flap my arms like a penguin

3.- People think i'm king of the birds

4.- I compare r/l challenges to a game

5.- I have a drawing by my lovie on my backpack

6.- I'M WEARING BLACK SOCKS :B
I tag:


oookay. second half.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
- Shane
- Teh shane
- X
not so unique ._.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE DEVIATIONS FROM 2007 SO FAR:
- [link]
- [link]
- [link]
woo~

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- hair!
- my omptimism
- I can wear a size small again

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- I wish I was a better artist
- zits D:
- everything else

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
- IRISH!!!
- scotish
- America

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
- razors
- my firends -.-
- one eyed one horn'd flying purple people eaters!!! D:

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS:
- Rise against
- AFI
- Halifax

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
- moosic
- friends
- computer

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE ALBUMS:
- a wrtiers refrence (halifax)
- The Sufferer & the Witness (rise against)
- Rock against bush 2

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
- go to a concert
- get a cool haircut
- not fail a class

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
- not procrastinate.
- homework
- stop listening to music

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- drawing
- Initial D
-watching anime

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
- SLEEP! Its almost 1AM
- see Celia...
- *repeats*

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE MOVIES:
- Boondock saints
- Stealing harvard
- Garden state

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE VIDEO GAMES:
- Xenosaga
- Inital D
- DDR

THREE JOBS YOU'D CONSIDER DOING OTHER THAN THE ONE YOU HAVE/WANT:
- graphic artist/tech
- Hot topic
- boba loca

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
- Tokyo
- Canada
- Someplace with lots of snow

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
- visit citsy for 2 and a half weeks, living out of my car
- get reconized as an artist
- get realy good at skateboarding/snowboarding

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11981647/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11981647/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 23:16:29 PST
-CG'd pic
-pencil pic
-(will try)sprite
-color one of your pics
-be hosted in journal for a while


i'm open to suggestions btw

if no one gets screenie btw, its next closest #

sorry i've been so inactive, i'm very busy lately >w<

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11804649/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11804649/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 20:01:48 PST feel,
felt,
kiss,
love,
wonder,
want,
blieve,
hope,
chance,
discourage,
doubt,
paraoia,
still,
waiting,
waiting,
waiting.

To kiss is a kiss
A beat of the heart sounding so sweet,
I long for this,
Our lips,hands, hearts to meet.

To love you forever,
A chance taken ill,
A tie hesitant to sever,
Huge shoes to fill.

I can feel the the love strong,
But maybe not for me,
It feels so sweet but to others wrong,
Forever hidden, not to see.

The day of love the valentine,
would you be willing to be forever mine?

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11686230/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11686230/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 15:38:46 PST
[link]


Tagged by for a quiz:

[A is for age]
14?! WAH! ( ﾟ ヮﾟ )

[B is for booze of choice]
Boobs? what? >_>

[C is for career of choice]
technition bishes! D<

[D is for your drug of choice]
omgomgomgomgcaffieneomgomgomgomgomgomgom gomgomgomgomg
GIVE ME SOME! щ(ﾟДﾟщ )

[E is for one essential item you use everyday]
laptop <333

[F is for favorite song at the moment]
don't make me eshplode! ><

[G is for favorite game]
xenosaga...But my disk broke ;-;

[H is for Hometown]
hell If I know ( ﾟ ヮﾟ )

[I is for instruments you play]
I'm trying to learn the guitar =o

[J is for favorite juice]
mmmmmmmmmmh...apple ciderrrrrr.... *drools*........*seizure*

[K is for kids]
NO! trix are for kids! get it the fuck right! D<

[L is for last hug]
my mom yesterday ^^ ;

[M is for marriage?]
psh I'm sorry I don't even date letters e_e;;

[N is for nickname]
...

[O is for number of overnight hospital stays]
haha It looks like a zero....wich is my answer ( ﾟ ヮﾟ )

[P is for phobias]
gore in r/l ><

[Q is for quote]
"SHUT UP! It's complimentry...."

[R is for biggest regret]
I don't ^^

[S is for singing]
... xD;;

[T is for time you woke up]
2:30PM ^^ ;;

[U is for underwear]
why yes I am wearing some

[V is for vegetable you love]
ew >_>

[W is for worst habit]
snaping hand.. hard to explain

[X is for number of x-rays you've gotten]
idk o.O

[Y is for yummy food you make]
homemade mc muffins

[Z is for zodiac sign]
geminiiiiiiii `(•.°)~

10 Favorites
Favorite Color: blue,black,wgitedark red ectect
Favorite Food: rice,orange chiken, anything tariyaki,,cheese
Favorite Month: december
Favorite Song: wasn't this question up there?
Favorite Movie: Stealing harvard
Favorite Sport: Skateboarding
Favorite Season: Winter <3
Favorite Day of the week: saturday! <3333
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: cookies and cream
Favorite Time of Day: dawn

9 CURRENTS
Current Mood: freaked out
Current Taste: nothing =[
Current Clothes: boxers
Current Desktop: samurai dude...
Current Time: 3:09PM
Current Surroundings: laptop,gun
Current Thoughts: holy shit... I gotta clean..omg
8 FIRSTS
First Best Friend: N/A I don't consider anything before 6thgrade "me"
First Kiss: .... *smiles*
First Screen Name: something with trunks in it
First Pet: PENNY!!! <3333
First Piercing: not yet =o
First Crush: some girl with a choker in elementry
First CD: Hason

7 LASTS
Last Cigarette: =[
Last Drink: root beer
Last Car Ride: home last night
Last Kiss: 2 days ago <3
Last Movie Seen: idk =o
Last Phone Call: michael.....-.-
Last CD Played:sffer & the witness - rise against

Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Guy/Girl Friends: kinda...
Have You Ever Broken the Law: alot x3
Have You Ever Been Arrested: almost one time ^^ ;
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: not yet =[
Have You Ever Been on TV: on the news!
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn’t Know: I frenched her actualy....

5 THINGS
Thing You’re Wearing: boxers... i just got outa bed
Thing You’ve Done Today: shot a roach ><
Thing You Do When You’re Bored: Go online

4 PLACES YOU’VE BEEN TODAY
1. My Room
2. My Room
3. My Room
4. My room again! hey! isn't THAT redundant?! ( ﾟ ヮﾟ )...........................

3 PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO
1. almost anyone
2.
3.

2 CHOICES
1. Black or Whi... ]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11594888/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11594888/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 02:52:19 PST ((···· Soy Hippie y amo a Taro····)) wuuu : D... Te amo Zelos!!! ...Alguien me regala una fruta Paopu y Un Axel? :3 says:
MY42876523789653784657890324893278768936 78230738067289'3867895768276807289762894768923768956489 6738576 AYOI ANSEXY AND LEMON YAOI GUYS!!!! ATAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK... SHANE! !!!!

((···· Soy Hippie y amo a Taro····)) wuuu : D... Te amo Zelos!!! ...Alguien me regala una fruta Paopu y Un Axel? :3 says:
i cant read that number D:

Shane says:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *runs*(((( ；ﾟДﾟ ))

Shane says:
I shal defeat them by.....

Shane says:
AKWARD DANCING!
♪┏(・o･ )┛♪┗ ( ･o･ ) ┓♪┏ (･o･ ) ┛♪┗ (･o･ ) ┓♪┏(･o･ )┛♪

I love jap emotes xD well to more important buisness! I......This.......Uh.........crap... its kinda dull ._. well I found out I can draw lines except when im on caffiene...then I can't drawperiod after too much xD;; but yeeeah ^^ weeeee caffine! <3 Its been to quet on DA.. is everyone hiding? ;-; I wanna talk with my friends DA is for art fun and people ^^ and i've been lacking the last 2 ._. waaah I need a better brain! D8 well I would just like to say uehrjwhvbfkjewrhdgkfjrbhjkrbdk but I don't think i'm physicaly able to do that so I shall just say good night ^^ and this...

I`ve been tagged by no one.. I stole this from


1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
waaaah too faaaaar DX

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
*hits wall* =o

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
monk ._.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
like...3:10AM?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
3:02 I was damn close! DX

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
I have my headphones on...

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
yesterday, taking out the trash ╥_╥

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
the clock ><

9. What are you wearing?
l3[]X[]Rz

10. Did you dream last night?
I can't remember it though ('A`)

11. When did you last laugh?
no clue

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
crappy posters

13. Seen anything weird lately?
YOUR MOM!...oh....yeah.....WOAH.........mhmm.....bur..n...........
...
...
...
I'm sorry

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Good reason not to sleep ^^

15. What is the last film you saw?
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhh......

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
tablet, block of cheese, magic asian man who knows the price of everything (don't ask, he exists)

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I don't burp I just release gas from my mouth

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
deside who my true selfis

19. Do you like to dance?
...

20. George Bush:
-_-*,,|,

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
bananaphone

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
kickass (totaly serious here)

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
huh?

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
haha your dead ( ﾟ∀ﾟ )ｱ

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11520194/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11520194/ Sun, 21 Jan 2007 16:21:54 PST I realy have nothing to say other then that xD but I do think my real life best friends need to be seen and deserve a litle spotlight =3 so I've decided to put up some art ^^









]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11442451/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11442451/ Mon, 15 Jan 2007 02:14:27 PST finaly somthing is clear. Even if I still love her my ex no longer has any feelings for me no matter what she says. So fuck her, fuck life, fuck worries. I just want to live fe for now. no studding. (im good on ests and finals are just big tests...) no girlfriends. No taking any more shit from anyone. No moreworries. I plan on living the next few days/weeks up the way I want. Skating,dancing,drawing,kissing,partying,talking,being idiotic in public, you name it and im gonna do it. And if anyone doesn't like it.... they can leave cuz I sure as hell aint. I'm having as much fun as i want for a change. I'm also gonna be drawing alot and trying to get better. I must also say that i love all my friends on DA Lancha,laark,hyuga,(as weird as it sounds to a guy) AuraHACK, everyone! so if anyone feels left out, your not. Your great too ; ] It's 1:52 and last night was 3:40.... I think I might just be an insomniac =o

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11429891/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11429891/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 02:57:41 PST new kidney CCS! Sooo I was wondering if someone would make me one! But that never works for me....so i'l hold a contest!! not only will you be fetured in every footer as long my memory lasts i'l also advertise your page on my myspace and gaia pages ^^ sound good? I hope so b/c i can't think of anything better.... unless you want my soul! : D.......

On a side note my life is as confusing as apes soaked in viniger and made into tacos to feed to snakes on a plane who talk with fake british accents. So I won't even bother explaining. "indeed".

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11332938/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11332938/ Sat, 06 Jan 2007 04:28:12 PST
Is your hair up? right now? yes... i havent brushed it in days.....
Is your phone right beside you? mot anymore, im in my laguna house now....
Do you wish you were somewhere else?most definately but I don't think she'd want me there...
Do you have plans for tonight? its 4 in the fuck'n morning.....freaking dunce...
Are you wearing clothes? oddly, yes fully clothed for sleep tonight
Are you wearing chap stick? I wish, big cold sore ;-;
Are you cold? not at all...
Are you tired? not realy... kinda...
Are you excited? I lost that...
Are you watching t.v.? I was playing SC3 earlier...
Are you wearing pajamas? I already answered this...
Who's the last person you im'ed? Celia this morning..
Who's the last person that called you? Michael saying he was outside my door...

Past -

Anything you regret? leting worry over come joy
Ever lied? my middle name is phukmankey... lies...
Ever stuck gum under a desk? I should go stick more...
Ever spit at someone? hehe im evil like that...
Ever kick something living? so many things...
Ever had your nails done? not once...well.. my ex painted them.....
Ever thrown up because you cried so hard? no.

Last week -

Had any plans last week? disapointment
Who did you see most last week? My ex girlfriend
Was last week interesting? for me it was.. I felt SO happy....

Today -

Have you yelled at someone? Today? Yes...
Have you gotten mad at someone? Yes...
Have you cried? yes...
Have you called more than 3 people? Nopers...
Have you im’ed more than 3 people? mmmhmmmm
Have you eaten anything gross? that was monday... turkey, penut butter, bacon, and french bread dont mix.....

I tag all my friends, you know who you are.....

]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11317121/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11317121/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 18:32:15 PST To stand and to fall
hit the floor
to feel nothing at all
become no more

loose yourself
without emotion
empty shelf
die after devotion

nothing more
can not feel
stay indoors
what is real?

rain rain stay with me
This home I feel, I find in apathy

I got a subscription...woofuckinghoo.....
I also got dumped by the only one i give my time to; my now ex girlfriend. im so confused and torn.....



if anyone wants this song note me, its a good song

Rise against -The approching curve

[Spoken:]
The music played with a calming frequency.
The speakers gently seeped the sound of ambient keyboards and light percussion,
creating a seductive soundtrack to our midnight drive through curtains of blackness.
The windows were cold to the touch, reflecting the icy conditions in our immediate extremity.
Salt stains and fingerprints littered the glass, and streaks with melted snow cascaded down it's length.
The music pulsed louder, yet gentle, like the far away squeal of a pot of boiling water.
The skylight was glowing faintly with vague hints of an impending dawn.
The car raced along a painfully straight stretch of road,
and she hadn't so much as turned the steering wheel two degrees in the last twenty minutes
nor had we spoken.

[sang:]
As we were, so perfect, so happy.
They'll remember, only our smiles 'cause that's all they've seen.
Long since dried, when we are found, are the tears in which we had drowned.
As we were, so perfect, so happy.

[Spoken:]
"Why are you doing this?" she spoke as if not expecting a response.
Her voice penetrated the still air of our speechless drive, so suddenly that my heart had jumped.
"I'm not doing anything," I said, but I didn't even believe that myself.
"This is what's best, for me, for you, for us," or maybe just for me I thought,
as a tear formed in the pit of her eye. The music poured through the speakers
and we were losing ourselves in the cadence. She looked down momentarily and closed her eyes
for a bit longer than a standard blink. Then she was crying. Then she was shouting.
Then I was shouting, now pouring confessions, having no answers, or solutions,
we barely even knew the questions.

[snag:]
As we were, so perfect, so happy.
They'll remember, only our smiles 'cause that's all they've seen.
Long since dried, when we are found, are the tears in which we had drowned.
As we were, so perfect, so happy.

Don't put me underground, I was meant for a life somewhere else.
Please, love, give me the wheel, before both of our hearts you
will steal tonight (will steal tonight).

As we were, so perfect, so happy.
Don't remember, only your smiles 'cause that's all they've seen.
Long since dried, when we are found, are the tears in which we had drowned.
As we were, so perfect, so happy.

[Spoken:]
Our cracking voices became part of the music.
The car pressed on faster through the night. As our voices lowered,
The cadence again overtook the air.
Up ahead there was a curve approaching.
She made no indications of slowing.

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WORK LIST
sketch + CG + sprite x 2 each T_T that will take a while....
sprite for sonia
headshot-color70%
colab-done go look!
birthday art-0% will do soon
puffpuff char-0% on hold
contest art



200: My name is:
Shane

199: I was born in:
a bucket

198. I am:
punkish I guess

197. My eye color is:
ever changing

195. My shoe size is:
9.5

194. My ring size is:
chibis dont ha... ]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11023921/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11023921/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 01:05:31 PST


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WORK LIST
sketch + CG + sprite x 2 each T_T that will take a while....
sprite for sonia
headshot-color70%
colab-80%
birthday art-0% will do soon
puffpuff char-0% on hold
somthing im forgeting


I went and saw happy feet today lolz me and my friend were in the very front with our feet up and had larg popcorn and 2 large dr.peppers... I got sick so I couldnt skate for a while but I felt better... we were skating on the parkinglot roof of holiday inn when some random chick hit... ]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11018296/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/11018296/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 14:14:48 PST The person who gets a screenshot of my 1000th view gets a sketch, a CG, AND a sprite! and il love you. forever. for ppl donty know how to take a screen shot there is a button that says prntscreen or somthing like that then open up paint and hit ctrl+V

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WORK LIST
headshot-color
colab
birthday art
puffpuff char
somthing im forgeting

Anyways, this thing, from . Here's how it goes.

FIRST 10 PEOPLE TO REPLY TO THIS JOURNAL GETS FEATURED ON HERE (a.k.a. I shall dive into your gallery and choose three of your best devations and post them up here)
You gotta do the same thing in your journal though! :3 I'll also comment on what I like best about your work style. FUN STUFFS.


1.
-[link] [link] http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/10703261/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 16:25:38 PST -best damn friends eveh-



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A) This has been taken from who took it from who took it from

Actually, I think that this quiz-thingie is a good way to get to know people.

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Shane brown
-- Birthplace:In a flaming doghouse
-- Birthday: june 19 1992 bitches >D
-- Gender: maleness
-- Eye Color: haaaaaaaazel
-- Hair Color: dark brown! =3
-- Height: 5'7 im tall for once :*D
-- Righty or Lefty: right!
-- Zodiac Sign: gemini
-- Elemental Sign: water..
-- Chinese Zodiac Sign: monkay :B

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage:IRISH AND PROUD! ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/10608845/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/10608845/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 21:49:41 PST

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PS:note me if you know the band streetlight manifesto or catch 22 (im just curious)
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]]> ~x-san http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/9633240/ http://x-san.deviantart.com/journal/9633240/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 16:54:10 PDT
If you want a comish, ask! I dont harge cus.. I dont even have to answer that

RULES: You have to answer the question and to put it into your journal. Then you choose 6 other deviants to answer it. Put them into the journal and inform them that they've been tagged.

1)Been drawing since as long as I can remember but anime since 12.

2)Has no one style I love to try new things and find what I like.

3)Draws in class twice as much as takes notes.

4)Very picky about how sharp my pencil is

5) Bad with darwing hands, feet, and spiky hair

6) Most of my best is when im not trying, most of my worst is when I mean to try for a good one

7)Doesnt beleive your compleents, STOP LIEING! DX

8)Has trouble drawing breasts but am too shy to ask for help ._.

9)HATES doing line art but thinks coloring it is fun.

10) I draw when im inspired but I get inspired by random things.. (photoshop, part in bleach were ichigo gets some random cape thing o.O, ect XD)

I tag.... and

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