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Oh well. They are my friends so I guess I don't care that much, but it would be nice to hear from them.

E- ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/1436688/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/1436688/ Sat, 22 Nov 2003 12:49:45 PST A3 (Alabama 3) - Mansion on the Hill

~so how long you gonna wait until
~you get the keys
~to the mansion on the hill?

Nothing really going to speak of just kind of a general update. Might actually be able to make the DevMeet this time around which would be nice to actually meet some of the local devs. From what I understand PDX has the largest collection of Devs (willing to meet that is). Some of that probably has to do with how pro-creativity this area is. Kind of refreshing even coming from somewhere as enlightened about such things as the SF bay area.

got a WP up this time, mostly submitted it because i created something, no matter how simple it is. Also got started getting my shit together about becoming a graphic artist, registered for school and stuff. This should be a simple thing for me to do, and more than likely I will find it an intensely rewarding career (hopefully). About damn time I got off my ass and did something career oriented. Also learning Japanese. Planning on learning Russian as a group of us are planning on moving to Europe soon (as in a 3-5 year plan), mostly because this country is going to hell in a handbasket. I don't know how marketable japanese is going to be in europe but russian couldn't hurt. Krydannia (my wife) is planning on learning Spanish and French, which should both be handy, and she is half Mexican so it is cultural too. By the way, Japanese is a damn hard language for Americans to learn.

now that I have totally rambled on I think I will drop this off. No-one but my wife and a couple of friends actually read this drivel anyway...

Oh, and Aeden if you do read this, I wanted to congradulate you on your recent promotion/new job mr. manager-type-guy.

anyway, much love to you all, you know who you are.

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I live in the wonderful Pac NW where suddenly temperatures have plummetted, sinking me into a deep illnes which has me house ridden. At least kry has seen fit to grace me with her presence during these dark hours, at least when she isn't working. And well, maybe I am being a bit melodramatic, I mean after all, it is just a cold. Still, it is keeping me from doing my job as I lost my voice this morning, and I answer stupid questions on the phone all day.

X- ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/1318617/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/1318617/ Fri, 24 Oct 2003 18:36:37 PDT violent femmes
Country Death Song

Man this is a effed up song....

I am a lowsy artist... not that I don't have talent, but talent isn't everything. You need to be able to produce work, and lets face it: I am not producing. Maybe if I berate myslef over this I will get off my a$$ and produce something instead of just scanning in crap from 3 years ago. theoretically I should have become a much better artist since then, but I have my doubts.

~music:
Tricky
Evolution Revolution

maybe I am just taking myself too seriously. could be, since I am writing to myself mostly. Oh well. I should try to work on some stuff for the Backspace and see if they want to put anything up. I should try to see about framing the stuff I have though, because a lot of it would be good choices to go up.

Halloween! Yay! I love this freaking holiday! only bitch I have is that I haven't got a costume and I have a party to go to tomorrow. Guess it is time to pull out the sewing machine and get my ass to work...

~X ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/907792/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/907792/ Fri, 04 Jul 2003 06:26:52 PDT
I hadn't posted in a while, (work has been hellish lately, and that is where I actually do a lot of my updates) so I thought maybe I should. I was reading Phillip K. Dick's VALIS recently, which ties in with my previous entry. I guess just prior to his death in the early 80's he had some really strange experiences. He claimed to have been blinded (temporarily) with a beam of pink energy which transmitted information directly to his brain. uh huh. (could be the years of heavy drug use?). At any rate, some other really strange shit went down at the same time, all of his pets dying of cancer/radiation(?) posioning, one of the pieces of information that was 'beamed' at him was that his son (who was a little over a year old) had an ingueneal hurnea, which would have killed him (the doctors missed this) and the information saved his son. Again, I say ' uh huh'. Well, regardless, it was the seed for VALIS, quite possibly one of the most warped and paranoid books PKD has ever written. The wierdest part is, it is a trilogy.

At any rate, if you like reading about pre-catholic christians, pink laser beams of information, suicidal delusional writers and the illuminati then this one is for you.

I digressed completely; anyway, the point was that I guess maybe I am not the only abstractly religious person who has a (mild) obsession with the unknown and unknowable. I guess it is fairly natural for us to seek the answers to what we don't know or understand. As such we will all seek it in our own ways, and with the tools we were raised with, or found. I with my art and literature, others with their books of knowledge. I guess the difference for me is that I am not satisfied to have the answer handed to me; I am to cynical to believe that someone 1200 years ago figured it all out. Of course, to go along with that, what makes me any better equipped to come up with those answers? I am no holy man, no devout.

Eeek. I really need to get out more.

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He took a duck in the face at 250 knots... ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/699120/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/699120/ Wed, 07 May 2003 18:16:10 PDT
as far as my more recent deviation (Q&A) I was origninally just going to post it in my journal, but decided against it. also figured that I couldn't just leave it as plain text so I formatted it against the I-Ching symbols I scanned from a book I have on I-Ching fortune telling. I keep thinking there is something I can do with those symbols but I haven't really come up with something yet. The clean little dashed lines seem to give rise to something that I can't really put my finger on. It illicits a reaction that I don't quite understand. maybe it is the pure symmetry in it that catches my eye, maybe I am just obsessed with symbols of the occult and religious natures. Maybe it is the lack of my own spirituality that causes this. I don't know. Faith has always been something that I am a little short of, and sometimes it depresses me. A friend of mine believes that having faith is a sign of lazy thinking. I am not so convinced, as I tend to recoil from his severity in that almost as defiantly as I do from those of a more traditional (religious) background.

Maybe part of me believes that there is this fantastic and magical world all around us, but the other half of me believes in something a little more mundane.

I don't know. I can't help but think there is something more to it, but I don't know that anyone I have heard has enough of them for me to credit them as 'right' or even mostly right. Also, if there is a 'god', then why would he give a rat's ass how anyone actually lived their lives? I would think that he would weigh humanities sins versus there virtues on a more general scale, as all administrators do. Sort of a curve. In which case, then Hitler and Mother Theresa really screwed up the curve for all the rest of us huh?

whatever. probably no-one will read this, but whatever. I guess it is more for me.

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He took a duck in the face at 250 knots... ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/694288/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/694288/ Tue, 06 May 2003 10:09:44 PDT
So I don't really know what is going on with me lately. Everything seems to be turned up a shade, as if someone had adjusted the contrast on the world. Just a little sharper and brighter. While what I am creating may be a bit more into the pop-art category, or at least industrial-minimilism, I am doing it more consistently than anything I have done in months.

I am more concerned with death lately than usual. Some of this may have to do with the recent passing of one of my Grandparents. I was never very close to him, but there is this strange feeling knowing he is gone. It just leaves me wondering about a lot of things. I don't know if I believe in an afterlife per se. I don't think he did, he never struck me as a particularly faithful type, so I don't suspect that he will be haunting anyone or anyplace, except maybe the steel mill where he worked almost all of his adult life, maybe out of habit.

All this introspection is all fine and dandy, but really I'm to introspective already. I don't need this kind of internal drama really.

X-He took a duck in the face at 250 knots... ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/678637/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/678637/ Thu, 01 May 2003 16:02:19 PDT
I had this whole Journal thing written about the positives of psychotropic drugs, how we could really improve the state of affairs by dosing our Prez with some high levels of Anti-Manic agents to counteract the immense amount of Cocaine that he inhales daily. but, due to DA hiccuping for a sec, just as I updated I lost it. the only bitch I have is that I am a slow typist. Oh well. anyway, I am posting art again, which is the point of DA after all. I can't wait for the new version of DA so that we will hopefully see a little constructive criticism. I know that my artwork could use some help, that's why I'm here. Not that we all don't want a little random praise, but praise without criticism is like cotton candy: it gets you through the carnival, but tends to lack something as a meal...

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He took a duck in the face at 250 knots... ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/678631/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/678631/ Thu, 01 May 2003 16:00:07 PDT
I had this whole Journal thing written about the positives of psychotropic drugs, how we could really improve the state of affairs by dosing our Prez with some high levels of Anti-Manic agents to counteract the immense amount of Cocaine that he inhales daily. but, due to DA hiccuping for a sec, just as I updated I lost it. the only bitch I have is that I am a slow typist. Oh well. anyway, I am posting art again, which is the point of DA after all. I can't wait for the new version of DA so that we will hopefully see a little constructive criticism. I know that my artwork could use some help, that's why I'm here. Not that we all don't want a little random praise, but praise without criticism is like cotton candy: it gets you through the carnival, but tends to lack something as a meal...

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He took a duck in the face at 250 knots... ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/416401/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/416401/ Mon, 30 Dec 2002 15:06:44 PST
I have been struggling to get this stuff up so you know... working sucks. luckily I can utilize both my time here and my BANDWIDTH to optimal usage. unfortuantely, I don't feel very inspired to draw when all I really want is to sleep.

thppt!!!!

anyway, to all those deviants who have been so nice to comment and be supportive, no matter how lame I am, and no matter how little work I actually manage to post, thank you.

everything is a lot funnier when you are delerious... ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/411724/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/411724/ Fri, 27 Dec 2002 18:09:16 PST
decided to work on finishing Blood Money, especially since I decided to go digital with the peice, I think it may be easier to complete. fraught with terror, haughty with denial, all is apparent to one who opens his eyes and his mind. then all fears can be known. ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/410173/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/410173/ Thu, 26 Dec 2002 18:54:21 PST
contemplating putting together stuff to colaborate with Jake and Kry to get a comic together; don't usually post all that stuff mostly 'cause it feels like my most incomplete and inferior work. (I have kind of a complex about such crap)

Maybe will post some anyway just to get over the hump and get working on it. Haven't been drawing subjects for a few years now so it feels kind of like I forgot how to. At any rate, I guess now is the time to get it together, new years and all.

Been reading 'Preacher'; good work, but a little heavy handed on the gruesome details (brain-splattered violence seems to appear on every 5th or 6th page), but all in all it isn't inappropriate for the subject matter. Just a little much sometimes.

Trying to lean a bit towards my subject roots more though, and work with anime-style characters more than realistic-style characters. just having difficulty remembering how to do that....fraught with terror, haughty with denial, all is apparent to one who opens his eyes and his mind. then all fears can be known. ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/315014/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/315014/ Wed, 23 Oct 2002 08:04:22 PDT
will make concerted effort today.

should change screenshot as am now using morph's [noir] suite... it is sweet too, clean and easy on the eyes. 'course it could get kind of old for some people as it's kind o' monochromatic...

fraught with terror, haughty with denial, all is apparent to one who opens his eyes and his mind. then all fears can be known. ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/305800/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/305800/ Tue, 15 Oct 2002 17:09:15 PDT
fraught with terror, haughty with denial, all is apparent to one who opens his eyes and his mind. then all fears can be known. ]]> ~x40sw0n http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/300910/ http://x40sw0n.deviantart.com/journal/300910/ Fri, 11 Oct 2002 14:46:15 PDT
pointless i know but mostly i am here at work and lacking things to do.

i better get a scanner. problem for me is that most of my visual work is on canvas right now so it is not to be here. maybe soon though.

ah well. maybe later.

fraught with terror, haughty with denial, all is apparent to one who opens his eyes and his mind. then all fears can be known. ]]> ~x40sw0n