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deviantART: by:xEvilDuckyx http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xEvilDuckyx&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xEvilDuckyx en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 28 Nov 2009 03:58:34 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png so.. http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/28510557/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/28510557/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 14:07:08 PST
i decided im gonna attempt to make some dreadfalls.. guess you'll find out how that turns out lol

currently a lil down in the dumps due to holidays approaching.. ugh

playin around in photoshop more..if i wasnt out of sketch book paper i'd draw more :/

so how is everyone??
i got internets back so will be online more yay!

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx laptop go bye bye http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/27712914/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/27712914/ Sun, 11 Oct 2009 18:17:58 PDT i really could use a sec job.

Anyhoo. just moved into new place wit my best friend tyler! its friggin awesome! got so much room and its newwwwwwwwwwwww and prettyyyy. got my air hockey table in the living room so frickin sweet!

also means i gotta find my sketch books lol swimmin in boxes isnt that fun.

still will check in i always find a way!

btw. ZOMBIELAND is friggin amazing! i loved it!
Someone stole my blue bloods book from work.
im addicted to animal crossing
and i fell in love wit laurell k hamilton's books and totally missed her at archon a few weekends ago!! errr

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx Aww cool Surprise updates! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/26161823/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/26161823/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 23:32:33 PDT

So im excited to see some my old friends on here updating their journals! So i best see some new work peoples or i'll spank a bish!

I've added a couple things. some drawings i've had layin around a while. And a few new.

Workin in photoshop again..current project is a new wonderland piece with me NOT in it yay! lol

so i got a puppy

Cerberus the pug

And Anubis is Huge now! Thats my roommate btw Sam. he looks like kevin smith! (silent bob)

Money is tight..but im about to get a second job... jesh that means less time for creativity

boooooooooooooooo damn you economy damn you to hell!!!!!

Currently crushing on a very sweet guy. I'll address him as V for now

Cant say im not fallin head over heels.. cuz i kinda am. altho im just being more careful i guess..a heart can only take so much brutality over time.

I miss seeing a lot of my old friends..

Im worried about some of my new friends...one is been in and out of the hospital for pain she cant stand and they duno how to stop it. basically her body isnt letting her stay healthy and we dont know why.

all i can do is hope she they find what it is and she gets better.

*sigh* ....swear my life could be a soap opera with seasons and seasons of crazy stuff.

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx hey hey hey http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/25641509/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/25641509/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 00:03:55 PDT

oh yeah look who's subscribed. lol i bought 3 months.
im hoping it will get me back into my art again. i miss it.

i have cs4 but im borrowing a laptop from a friend...seeing that i fried mine

lost a lot of projects...will have to rescan and restart a bunch of them

its ok tho. as lil bro wheaman said ..sometimes its better in the second version anyway

makes it a little exciting getting to start up old projects. expect some new stuff because i have drawn a few things. including and updated version of my evil queen of hearts

life in general is basically on survival mode.

doin what i can for food, housing, and to keep my nissan. *sigh*

i may be alone but i think i work on more art and do better art when i am alone and heart broken. so its not all bad.

Thanks for all the fav+'s that i havent been able to keep up with.. ive noticed my angel wings tattoo and my pirate kitty are most viewed and added

[link] <<< add me on myspace friends

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx fallin down teh rabbit holeeee http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/24627383/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/24627383/ Wed, 06 May 2009 22:22:03 PDT
we meet again.

dear bob im 22! when did that happen >.>

i feelz oldz. damn.

Anyhoo quick updates.

N00blet wont stop pissing on stuff. altho its still hilarious that he flushed the toilet on my roomy while he was in the shower. funny stuff. how many people have cats that can do that???

And hes a very very big kitty now

Been doin nothin much but workin. work work work. throwin life away on a dead end job.

Also single again. let my ninja slip away

..i miss him. then i saw this guy andy and he made me feel like shit (mentally abusive) and went back to his ex. ...i think im just gonna stop dating. it sucks. like hardcore. i give up.

plus side ive picked back up my reading

and workin on artz... been helpin my friend penny with photography. she takes the pics i edit them. and in this area we could make a steady business out of it if we wanted. its an idea.

well nice updating i should get back to the real world and quit playin in wonderland.

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx w00t w00t http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/21978317/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/21978317/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 10:31:12 PST ....i think. lolz

got zombage done..after ignoring it for how long??

money troubles have got me highstrung and stressed lately

but having joel to talk to now puts meaning back into my days

n00b is my baby and he just keeps suprising me. little cat isnt so little anymore

this year had some surprises good and bad. cant say it was the worst or the best.but hopefully next year will be amazing

happy holidays friends and a happy new year!

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx All work n no play makes cat a dull girl http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/20944781/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/20944781/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 22:08:32 PDT

I work and work for what? all the money practically goes back into the corporation of hell! its not worth it. as soon as i find a new job im quitting and gettin the hell out.

Anyhoooooos so i think i may have found someone ... someone to center my whole life around. unfortunately i must wait just a little longer for him to get to town. but i would wait a more than a life time for him im pretty damn sure. im hopeful.

so i have been workin on some stuff. i have trouble finishing things when it comes to art work.. i just realized i forgot the damn goggles on _flyer_ cuz i was so eager to finish.

so after 16 years of waitin IVE been waitin since i was 5! i finally got a cat! and im pretty sure it was a damn good wait. cuz Anubis is perfect in every way. little buggar stole my heart.
he surprises me every day. hehe figures i'd get a black cat... ...and he is a noob. lolz n00b! only a noob runs round the house wit a plastic cup on his head... well maybe he shouldnt drink my waterz haha

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx OMG! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/18689972/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/18689972/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 01:20:47 PDT
and drew something else on top of that! i think my art block is gone!!!!!!!!

we will see lol

sO tell mE what You tHink!!!!!!!!??????!??!??! I unveil...... _Flyer_

yay!

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx equilibrium http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/18553321/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/18553321/ Thu, 29 May 2008 00:45:19 PDT
find me on myspace! [link]

yea so life sucks i still work for the umbrella corporation *cough**cough* walmart*cough*
still in electronics sellin the peoples there gadgets and gizmoes!1!!!!01!0!!00!!1!!
for i am ...the ultra nerd! bwahahaha .....whateva lol

anyhoo.. moved out! livin wit teh roomies sam and jason
and gettin me a kitten! little black kitten tis a boy named Anubus! yes a cat named after the egyptian dog god! haha well if it would have been a girl kitty it was gonna be baset.

cant wait! he just opened his eyes this week so in a few weeks i will have a new little buddy to hang out with !!!!

awwness

Also got a new car....i drove the other one til it quit on me basically... now i have a brand new Nissan Versa 08! blue like hiro had in heroes!

hehe told ya im a super nerd!

anyway doin ok. still the singleness but i think im ok on my own for now n e hoo someone will come and take me away one day!

money is tight, health is gettin crappy do to family related acid reflux

and stress...and maybe too much drinking..ive stopped for a while considering i prolly screwed up my throat from it

21 is fun but dangerous!

laterz peoples thanx for the comments and fav's and sharing your art wit me like i share mine with you!

LOVE!!!!

Lady Crow (aka evilducky)

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx sponge bob mac! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/17157783/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/17157783/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 00:03:52 PST
im still thinkin bout that zombie contest idea

so im really stressed out at work cuz someone ate my food i had in the lounge! so i wrote "stop eating my food F*ckerz!" on it and the stupid janitor b*tch decides its "offensive" (more so cuz i left it in there for 5 days cuz i was sick and not at work) and takes it to the managerz office at HELL-Mart and i get another written which gave me a d-day (paid day off to think about what bad things u've done ...haha paid vacation more or less) and now im gonna be so mean and not clean up after myself at work. leave sh*t around for her ass to clean it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dont f*ck with me b*tch!

anyhoo

well i started playin in photoshop again

im tryin to throw myself back into the swing of it i did a catwoman doodle to get me motivated!

well thats bout all. i will be moving out this month..but unfortunately because i got sick and had to go to the hospital ...it will be extra difficult cuz now i have almost $500 in billz ....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

i want a kitten!

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx surprise! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/16747850/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/16747850/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 00:48:16 PST
sad thing is im payin for it so i will be at work more than actually workin on any projects

but i know im still gonna work on:

flyer
zombage project
alice in wonderland
and a new id for me

btw i finally got my angel wings! and my jewels filled in my ankh i'll have to get some pics up for everyone to see my finished tattooes!

PrOjEcT ZoMbAgE ...seeing as im a zombie fan i wanna see zombies! and zombie hunters!!! or both! i wanna see some people get creative with some of your own versions
i'd make it a contest but im poor....

and have many things on my plate already. maybe i'll have wheaman help me and we could think somethin cool up

so hows life everyone???? hows the art coming?

i....actually drew something today which led to the zombage attack lol

off to sleep with me i have work the next six days in a row but i'll make time to work on some stuff

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx Guess whos back! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/16644342/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/16644342/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 13:45:06 PST
i have to go to work ...but when i get back ive got some updates for you!!!

<3 ducky!
guess whos got internet now

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx wonderland kick http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/15281520/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/15281520/ Tue, 30 Oct 2007 01:53:32 PDT

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
i will have more pics later since im ..alice for halloween lol

i do have a new deviation up called "welcome back to wonderland" and its the first time ive really used this much stock so i thank the people lettin me use it

you make my wonderland complete lol litterally

also i have a new dev id if u were curious.

so ...........how are you? ..yes you! how are you!???

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx almost done http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/15037836/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/15037836/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 01:37:00 PDT its just takin a bit longer than i thought it would. but its almost finished!

my friends and i are doing a wonderland theme for halloween and guess who is alice

lol
my girl jess is the mad hatter and my girl nicole is the queen of hearts!
im excited

and we will have pictures

im really hungry.

so i think im gonna eat some lucky charms and go fall in bed.

work sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

potato!

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx heroes http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/14933395/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/14933395/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 21:28:47 PDT

i submitted some new stuff.. been a while but i just started drawing again and u can tell it has been a while and how in a month i progressed ..very little.

life has been work .. :/ work work work

my job has become my prison and its gets more and more suffocating the longer i stay there. the place has morons for managers and i wonder if monkeys run the head office but then that might be a compliment. not that i could spell it right ... bah im tired.

well back to heroes and work

i wish someone would save me from my daily hell. :*(

love to you all. hope your days are better than mine.

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx hair go chop, you get tagged http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/14736687/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/14736687/ Fri, 21 Sep 2007 23:53:17 PDT

The rules are:

1 - Post these rules
2 - Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3 - Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4 - At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5 - Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

1. im a procrastinator
2. i just bought dishes for a home i dont have yet lol
3. im using a hello kitty container from mcdonalds as a piggy bank

4. im a zombie movie fan!
5. i have the numbers 12 2 and 5 written on my hand!
6. i bought a xingular phone but i have t-mobile service..and it works.
7. i love origami and bought a calendar which teaches a different fold each day
8. if i was a pirate i'd want my offical name to be Captain Cassandra Crow nickname "the triple c's" heheh triple seas

get it bwahahaha i will sink your ship!

anyhoo i tag ... saychan, nikki, wally, paul, ashy, ben, wheaman, and alex
if u guys feel like it.

anyhoo hi.
i have short hair now!

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx ello its been awhile! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/14037322/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/14037322/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 01:48:46 PDT
so working fulltime is not fun. and it takes up most of my time.

i have a laptop now so i will be online more than i was.
i went thru most of my messages ..some of them were so old it wasnt even worth replying so if i never got back to you on a message im sorry

i still have 2,515 deviations and i am goin thru ALL of those so its takin a while.

i did put up a new id pic cuz the other one was soooooooooooooooooo old. lol

So how is everyone????

so im up to date on the movie and game scene but not the music >.> ...but im workin on that.

My tablet is currently out of service... :*( ...i lent it to a friend and it came back broken ...grr. never again.

so as soon as i get a new one i plan on working on a bunch of stuff. i just started drawing again..after several months of a nice big artist block. :/
i havent gotten much better since i havent had a chance to work and try and improve ... :/ sad.

<3 me love you!
ME MISS YOUR ART! ;D

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx at worlds end. http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/13233272/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/13233272/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 20:53:35 PDT sadly i have no tablet.. i let someone borrow it and it came back broken. so i need a new one.

... i will prolly be catchin up on here later this summer. but right now work and friends are my life.

i feel ive lost some friends because ive lost a love.
im no longer seeing justin so i dont get to see all my friends who were friends with him much anymore. now im just the "ex"

i had a good reason for leaving him. for he was no longer who i used to know.

ive been on a few dates. and im just really tired. sorry kup but roses cant mend a broken heart ..they are sweet tho <3

well anyway.
im excited for the new harry potter movie and book.
i saw Pirates 3 and loved it

anyway i just figured some of you might like to know im still alive and will still check up on devart on occasion til i get more time

<3 later

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx 20 http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/12838614/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/12838614/ Fri, 04 May 2007 10:27:33 PDT ......... boo. no longer a teen.
anyway.
Full time at work ...makes me wanna fall over and sleep.
Full time party girl .... makse me wanna eat bread.
Full time girlfriend.... makes me happy

..love you jz

so. i lost my subby. but ill survive. i have over 2000 devations-messages i need to go thru

ill get a new subby this summer maybe
i still havent worked on flyer. im finding new ways to create lines thanx to saychan

me needa work on some art!

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx tattoo pics http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11829739/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11829739/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 13:18:12 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

I had the outline redrawn and the eye filled in with green

of my crow alice on my wrist.

This is my Ankh tattoo on my lower back. its not finished yet. it will have an emerald in the center and the bottom point filled in with green

im gonna try to draw somethin for my friend's contest visit

to enter yourself!

Wheaman i love ya!

me must go to work now.

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx tagged? http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11799942/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11799942/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 14:24:50 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

I got tagged! by my crista! haha

"The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours..."

1. I love video games but i seem to get halfway done and lose interest and start another video game and repeat.

2. I jump and hide when a tv goes fuzzy cuz it reminds me of The Ring.

3. Sometimes i think i have OCD cuz i will randomly straighten things and clean or make something look even.

4. I randomly clean when im drunk.

5. I get an overwelming feeling when im around tooooo many people and will freak out a little.

6. today I accidently slid off the same exit ramp that i almost ramped off of on purpose a year ago. its the snows fault.

tagged >>>

haha lets see who puts up a new journal prolly nobody

oh yeah its snowing! yay! ...sucks tho cuz my brakes are about to fail and my tires are bald heh

i should slide off more exit ramps it was almost like sledding in a very big sled. heh

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx blah http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11711585/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11711585/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 15:07:42 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

so i havent been feelin well lately. ill deal

my boyfriend justin is friggin amazing

and so are my friends

so i havent been online much but im gonna go thru DA here soon .. for now me and nicole are lookin for a place we dont wanna live at home anymore so i havent been home to mess with the compy much.

bye.

doof.

FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOD!

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx Her Portrait in Black http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11489406/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11489406/ Fri, 19 Jan 2007 02:37:33 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

So i've been busy lately. Either working or with justin <3
but i have had time to work a bit on _Flyer_ so i could give you a preview...but im not gonna

hehe

my crow tattoo still looks pretty good. i think my skin rejected some of the ink tho cuz it needs a little bit of a touch up and i want it darker. it still looks too much like a dark dove XD hehe but i still love it. i even named my crow Alice

im a dork i know

so im official in electronics

its nice. i dont have to stand behind the register all day and i feel useful. like i actually know the difference between mp3 players and can help someone pick out a tv

sweeeeeeet!

and i actually have a decent movie collection now.

i bought ANOTHER $100 worth of dvds again XD but they were worth it

i think im gonna get a tv one of these paychecks .. and a nice one too. ill give my minion my little tv i think he'd like it cuz i still like it but i need a bigger one.

Atreyu "Her Portrait in Black"

hold your breath quiet now dont say a word
you could run but it wont do any good
prayers forsaken whne you lose faith inside
its not time to die

your life
is it a lie
when you get what your looking for
will your cravings subside
or will you crawl into
a homemade casket
an early tomb
lay down and give up inside
she'd rather die

when you fall
so spent from emotion
she is what
brings you to your feet
where challenges lie
on the verge of destruction
she pulls you back
and she gives you wings
(death wont hold you as tight as she will)

can you feel her
burning through your veins
she will always live forever
can you bear the burn

and you'll turn your back and you'll patronize she's pleading
and you will question your every want
she's bleeding out

shes bleeding out
shes bleeding out
shes bleeding out

death wont hold you as tight as she will

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx tattoo! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11405724/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11405724/ Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:08:38 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

Thats right! i finally got my first tattoo and i love it! i drew it on the wrist of some of my characters and now i got it

i so happy!
its on my left wrist! and i dont have to worry bout coverin it up at work either!

woot!

and turns out i dont get to see my brother this weekend

sadness. but i will see him soon!

i start electronics officially on the 20th! they already have me back there on most of my cashiering shifts but its like trainin mode i guess.

well im out. im gonna go to breakfast with the boys
then SLEEP!

wheaman was the first to know besides the people who went with me

lol

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx januaryyyyyyy blooms http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11319843/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11319843/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 23:42:30 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

So as far as i know i AM goin back to electronics woot!

work will be so much more fun

so i added some photography and a new id but besides that i need to get workin on some more stuff. now that xmas is over work wont be so hectic and i can have more time off

so i saw Eragon with my minion and i havent read the book so i cant compare it. but as just the movie i do like it very much.

also saw black christmas... it was so gross and for me wasnt scary. just super nasty.

jz i

you.

im goin the 12 and 13 to see my older brother and fam in Missouri so that will be fun

anyway later! i have stuff to do ..yes even at 2am i have somewhere to be

no not in wonderland. i still have a few hours

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx ducky season http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11240553/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11240553/ Sat, 30 Dec 2006 02:26:44 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

yeah so i got some new devil duckies!

Calico Jack, Cereal, Milk, and mini Captian Jack Sparrow lol

Anyway i had a good xmas and the new year shall be sweeter because i know its gonna be.

i hope everyone has a happy new year!

have a safe new year people

I'm to lazy to put lyrics but i will leave you with a couple songs

Linkin Park - Points of Authority & Somewhere I belong & Papercut

oh and im addicted to Tomb Raider Legend. i was wondering when i'd get back to my gaming. <3

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx lip gloss and black http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11091581/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11091581/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 07:06:34 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

so i might be movin back to electronics finally. sadly one of our best in electronics got fired...

...but i might take his place. i'll be exstatic if i get the job.. pay goes up AND i will come to work happy with we're im at!

meteor shower last week. i made tons of wishes

and most of them were wishes for people who could use it

xmas is almost here. the year is almost over. a new year a new beginning.
life can always begin again but keep your good old memories alive forever.

ATREYU
Lip Gloss And Black

If I gave you pretty enough words.
could you paint a picture of us that works.
an emphasis on function rather than design.
aren't you tired cause I will carry you, on a broken back
and blown out knees, I have been where you are for a while..
Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream. the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night. every evening that I die.
I am exhumed just a little less human and a lot more bitter and cold.
I am exhumed.. just a little less human....
so much more bitter and cold....
after all these images of pain, have cut right thru you,
I will kiss every scar, and weep you are not alone...
then I'll show you that place in my chest where my heart still tries to beat.
aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream. the stars right out of the sky
and destroy the prettiest starry night. every evening that I die
live love burn die

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx stars http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11046413/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11046413/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 00:48:32 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

Sam bought me Alice and Wonderland for xmas!!!!

i love you sam! thanx!

tonight i saw the movie Blood Diamond. good movie.

i also saw 2 shooting stars.

the sky was just beautiful and clear tonight.

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx :) and the tree is back http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11024462/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/11024462/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 19:46:10 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

ello ello

first thing first!

thanx Mando for the subby you rock and are one of my best friends just so you know!

and another thanx to zikes

for my very first da subby

i didnt forget

as for updates im off work for today and tomorrow so i plan on workin on _flyer_ so hopefully i can get a lot done.

im not sick anymore yay! i was sick for about 2 days kinda like a quick flu i guess. it really sucked ...took a lot out of me but im back

work still sucks but im attempting to get back in electronics and its hard to get in that department apparently but i heard i was number one on the list should a position open

sweet!

besides the normal things that annoy me and some family issues that are pathetic.. i must say. im pretty content with my life right now.
justin i love you

you make me happy.

oh and Garden State is a really good movie

AH and TY are two of my best friends.

Crista i miss you!

shannon

and

firedolphin are two really awesome people

i love hangin with the crew

i love you guys!!!!!

you should check out my friends in my list. cuz everyone is amazing. and i just really wanna hug everyone right now lol

SAM I LOVE YOU! lol

*falls asleep*

OH!!! and this thursday im gettin a new camera! hello awesome quality! Good bye horrible pixelated photos!

Clubs>>>

http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10963978/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 21:47:10 PST [Edit] hey hey hey hey... who bought me a subscription????!?!?!?!?! hey hey tell me. whoooooooooooooo. .... i love you.

*sniffles*

)

boo...

im sick.

could be the flu...
I HATE THROWIN UP! thank bob i only did it once!

anyway. movies and fruit loops are my best friend as well as the couch and klenex tissues ..oh and my warm blanket. *snuggles*

i miss my justin and my friends but i'd rather be alone than get anyone else sick.

so ive watched um... office space, harry potter 4, and next is the matrix then i think its time to pass out.

i better be ok tomorrow or ill be SERIOUSLY pissed. i have to work 2-11pm and if i still feel like this ...then im willing to tell walmart to piss off so i can have just one more sick day.

its bad when ur job doesnt really give a damn bout ur health.
walmart u suck. i'd think a billion dollar company can afford to let a few sick people stay home and get better. i mean who wants their checkers lookin like zombies?

anyway im about gone so ..later. *hopes for good luck*

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx worst day ever. and then some. http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10942865/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10942865/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 23:28:00 PST the only plus to today is that the power is back on and justin is here

so the last week we had a huge ice storm. so bad the trees couldnt hold the weight of the ice and snow. so trees fell down everywhere ..knockin out power lines left and right. so...for about 4 nights my house was freezing.
we did get a generater but it was kinda too late.

the generate ran for last night and since the power came back on this morning it knocked out the power for a min. and reset my alarm clocks.

1. woke up late
2. late for work
3. getting sick ive so got a cold ....woo. *sarcastic*
4. i was harrassed on my way to work by assholes yellin out windows "hey do u look any better from the front?" ...

5. got a stupid lane. back in the corner but was still swamped with customers
6. second customer gave me 5 rolls of pennies and i had to count them...all.
7. i missed breakfast
8. i lost my coat
9. my whole 15min break was 30 min late and i only got one break cuz it was a short shift from 4:30-9:30pm
10. my fake nail broke and disappeared
11. almost cryed when the deli ignored me and so i didnt get to eat what i wanted and just went and bought a bagel with cream cheese instead of a sandwich
12. needed a total void when i got back to electronics and it took forever for the csm to come
13. walmart still doesnt have disney alice and wonderland!

... yesterday sucked.
but its past midnight and justin is here so ..today is already better.

...oh yeah. and my subscription died. ..... FUCK TODAY!

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx winter http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10879137/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10879137/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 13:00:02 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

its hard to stay happy when friends are unhappy. and my friends are a big chunk of my happiness. i really wish everyone could be happy. everyone is more beautiful when they smile.

btw... >>> i let it get bad again XD shit...

AFI
Love Like Winter

Warn you once to turn away
Here it's December, everyday
Press your lips to the sculptures
And surely you'll stay (Love like winter)
Fire, sugar, and iceI am made, I am made

It's in the blood, it's in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
He wanted love, I taste the blood
He bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

She attails the mirror lace,
I barely dreamt her, yesterday (yesterday)
With the lines in the mirror, through the lipstick trace
She said, It seems you're somewhere, far away
To his place

It's in the blood, it's in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
She wanted love, I taste the blood
She bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

Love like winter Oh Oh
Love like winter Winter 34

It's in the blood, it's in the blood
I met my love, before I was born
He wanted love, I taste the blood
He bit my lip, and drank my warmth
From years before, from years before

DIDO
"Here With Me"

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory

Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx HAPPY FRIGGIN TURKEY DAY! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10818874/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10818874/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 03:47:56 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

yay HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!!!!!

yum yum fooooooooooooooooooooood! yay!

BEER TURKEY! lol thanx to miss sam!

that is what i think of that lol

i can thank Zikes

for that image

lol

im very thankful

you justin!

have a great holiday everyone!
ill be workin on some new stuff soon!

like _flyer_

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx Casino Royale http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10752106/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10752106/ Fri, 17 Nov 2006 04:01:52 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

So the new bond movie.

ok the best part of the movie is the beginning. im not gonna spoil it ..im just gonna say ...the friggin free running is coolest shit ever! i wish i could do that crap! ..look up free running if u dont know what im talkin bout. youtube.com has some cool free runners on video.

anyway ...i give that movie an awesome rating!
and then some cuz i got to see it with the sweetest guy ever <3

lol

anyway im back to workin on new projects and gettin some of the old ones done as well.

i need to clean up my deviation message center cuz i have about 800 something of those that need looked at and comments. and over in the myspace.com world..i have an inbox full of old messages that could use a good sweeping to. lol

well im off to work on my new project -Flyer- there might be some scrap candy for those who pay any attention to my scraps

later

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx ... http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10747242/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10747242/ Thu, 16 Nov 2006 16:18:10 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS
It Ends Tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all that wants
And all that needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
Your finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such distain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when your blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx WOOT! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10695186/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10695186/ Sat, 11 Nov 2006 22:27:47 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

woot! compy is back! and still awesome! so far so good

YAY I CAN WORK ON STUFF NOW!

Clubs>>>

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx sign of the apocalypse http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10668810/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10668810/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 13:05:59 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

yes thats right im pretty sure this is a sign of the apocalypse.

ready?

I... (yes me) ...have a boyfriend!

crazy isnt it

im happy.

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx 6 days! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10639909/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10639909/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 17:55:57 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

so compy people said no computer for six days!

i might die.

you'll find out lol

anyway had a fun week

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx This is HALLOWEEN! http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10568335/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10568335/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 08:21:16 PST

DOOM JOURNAL!

first.. HAVE A WICKED SWEET HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!

second... i think my computer went boom. :/ ..well there is a chance it just the monitor but... it could be the tower... gah.. i swear if im missing one photoshop image that computer is scrap metal!

but i dont care. im hangin with the lovely ms. sam to night
and justin is hangin out with me too

hehe

anyway. as soon as my computer is back online ill finish BLOOD BATH..which i wanted to submit for halloween..but due to a STUPID COMPUTER ...its gonna be delayed.

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx kt need sleep http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10451014/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10451014/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 23:35:56 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

ive lost a day of sleep...its so time to sleep. ....

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

btw... the fast internet and the new keyboard i bought... ROCK !

...*passes out from lack of sleep*

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx Sweet New Journal CCS http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10440829/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10440829/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 01:28:31 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

I need to make myself a new header and footer to match my SWEET new ccs journal from mynti
>>>

check it out there are some pretty damn cool ones

i was very tempted by the green and black ccs's zikes had

hehe

PAY DAY is today! Plans! im gonna get a debt card/checking so its easier to pay bills and pay for crap lol. even tho i think straight cash is the best and simplist. but i gotta get with the times. I need to shop for a new pair of converse ..i realllllly want a gray pair. ...god i had so much trouble finding a gray pair and when i found them, they never had my size or would order my size!!

so im DETERMINED to get my damn shoes! then i need longsleeve tees cuz i cant wear short sleeves its too dang cold. plus i need to change the oil in my car and fix the brakes... before they go out and i die before i get to do something fun with my pathetic life.

so NEW INTERNET CONNECTION tomorrow. jesh im so excited i can barely think straight!

no more dial up!

i love you all

quiz cuz i can.

(x) Smoked a cigarette (and eww)

(x) Drank so much you threw up (only once)

( ) Crashed a friend's car

( ) Stolen a car

(x) Been in love (bah love bites)

(x) Been dumped (every time and i never do anything wrong!)

( ) Shoplifted candy

( ) Been laid off

(x) Quit your job

( ) Been in a fist fight (unless u count minion)

(x) Snuck out of your parent's house (only once way back when)

(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back

( ) been arrested

( ) Gone on a blind date

(x) Lied to a friend (rarely and usually something small)

(x) Skipped school (heh)

( ) Seen someone die

( ) been to Canada

( ) Been to Mexico

(x) Been on a plane

(x) Been lost

( ) Been on the op... ]]> ~xEvilDuckyx css http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10418844/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10418844/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 01:00:45 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

gah ok so im havin trouble with css on my own moo... ive been scrollin some how to pages but im too lazy to find out the hard way. zikes, you should so make a quick tutorial cuz ur amazing at those

so i decided im not gonna let stupid stuff get to me right now i have plenty to deal with i dont need any more drama. especially over someone who never gave a shit bout me anyway.
so...lets see this payday better be nice.

i need long sleeve tees cuz its gettin cold out! gah.

it needs to stop raining. i was in a good mood today ...even after all this bad luck. i was still in a good mood. so how bout it not rain all friggin day. lol

im gonna try to keep up with da this time. i need to still go thru A Lot of devaitions.. i accidently let my message center get to over 1,000 messages. so yeah .. right now i have all 200 journals read and a few comments made. and all comments are done. and misc messages. and notes and polls. but now i have deviations left... which are in the 700's. gah.

soooooooooooooooooooooo its sleepy time and im gonna die. cuz i dont have my homework done. im about to say screw it this semester im gonna wait til im comfy to go back to school. i have no money saved, im not in the right mental state for school right now, and im wantin to move out and feel stable b4 i try to learn useless info again.

hi

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx lips of an angel... http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10331390/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10331390/ Sun, 08 Oct 2006 23:45:13 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.
[repeat]

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the grown?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

HINDER
"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx ME need TIME...song too. :) http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10106964/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10106964/ Tue, 26 Sep 2006 00:46:58 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

i need. TIME. where did the damn clock go? ... O.o not enough time. not enough hours in a day. or night. or week.. or YEAR!

song

me loves this song! woo !

PAPA ROACH
"To Be Loved"

Listen up, turn it up and rock it out
party on, I wanna hear you scream and shout
this is real, as real as it gets
I came to get down to get some fucking respect
taking it back to hardcore level
you better be ready, put your pedal to the metal
taking it back to hardcore level
you better be ready, put your pedal to the metal.

Go!

Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved
Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved

I want domination
I want your submission
I see youre not resisting
To this temptation
Ive got one confession
A love deprivation
Ive got a jet black heart
Its all fucked up and its falling apart

Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved
Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved

Ive got another confession
I fell to temptation
And there is no question
There was some connection
Ive got to follow my heart
No matter how far
Ive gotta roll the dice
Never look back and never think twice

Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved
Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved

Take your past and burn it up and let it go
Carry on; Im stronger than youll ever know
Thats the deal; you get no respect
Youre gonna get yours
You better watch your fucking neck

Take your past and burn it up and let it go
Carry on; Im stronger than youll ever know
Thats the deal; you get no respect
Youre gonna get yours
You better watch your fucking neck

Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved
Whoa I'll never give in
Whoa I'll never give up
Whoa I'll never give in
And I just wanna be, wanna be loved

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx :( damn http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10004458/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/10004458/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 23:13:41 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

depressed/lost/caged
Listening to: Garbage- STUPID GIRL
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: In Her Shoes

i dont understand. why cant anyone be happy with me? they always want someone else. im not good enough for anyone. its just like.. the third friggin time. and im tired and ready to just flat out give up. and no one likes the idea of me being with someone and people always interfere. can anyone just be happy for me for once and can a guy like not return to his ex...just once. Please just once.

....dont get mad. this is kinda in general. :/

im just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooo... tired.

school is givin me problems. math is gonna take some work due to i suck at the subject....and i have to get tutored and its not like i have any more friggin time. great.

wheres the freedom. i just wanna leave so far away and do what i want with no worries no restrictions no laws no authority but with a right mind. and just be happy. i feel so trapped. trapped in buildings, trapped in cars, trapped at work, trapped at home. ...just so caged.

:/ im so losing it. my mind is just about gone. ima be a veggie.

.... i love my punching bag

*clings to punching bag*

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx the usual. http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9926088/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9926088/ Fri, 01 Sep 2006 04:06:42 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

sleepin/stressin
Listening to: evanescene- bring me to life.
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: the evilducky dramas.

I just love how.. right as i think life is just starting to get better....it all comes crashing down.

history just keeps repeatin itself and i take a harder beating every time.

im disappointed in myself. why am i not pissed. i should be screaming and goin crazy. but no ... i just beat myself up for it. i deserve it i brought it upon myself. it hurts like hell and it just never gets any easier

i stole some time on ty's compy and jared's compy and got quite a bit of messages done. so im slowly catchin up. ...slowly. but i got at least a 100 to 200 messages cleared/replied/commented on.

havent been online much cuz of home issues and fights with dad and disappearing keyboards and me turnin on every light in the house and the air down to 55 as revenge.

sooooon as i find time i owe some devations. some doodles from class. some pics from ohio. and an icon and some scans for friends. ..soon as i catch my breathe i swear ill be on it :/

Wake me up WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx im alive <.< http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9880742/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9880742/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 04:47:03 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

sleepin
Listening to: Flyleaf- Fully Alive
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Silent Hill

yeah ..so im feelin better..but still a little sniffly. but hey i can breathe!

anyway. classes started. tuesdays and thursdays... and work hours picked up so ... busy busy again... -.- i still have over 600 messages.. and i think next time im at the college i'll use one of their compy's so i can get it done faster. :/

i havent worked on anything new but i got some new pics i can play with on photoshop.

i havent been online. been goin on car cruises and hangin out at the lot all night and makin pasta at 5am

fun fun fun at sam's we still have to watch -mind hunters- XD
yeah i was so on the roof again hahahaha

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx im so sick http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9777374/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9777374/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 23:04:06 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

sleepin
Listening to: Flyleaf- Im so sick/Fully Alive
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Hackers

yeah so ...i cant take the allergy thing no more.

got really bad the last couple of days. so i went to the doc today.

i told her i know its not strept throat or mono and that i think its a sinus infection cuz damn it i cant breathe!

well they took blood and throat swabs anyway only to find i was correct. so that was an hour of waiting and an annoying needle wasted. after waiting a total of 2 and a half hours and gettin impatient while feeling like im gonna die the doc finally gives me a new med besides the allergy crap ive been on that i hate to take. so now im gonna be takin some retardly expensive antibiotic so i can friggin breathe. im just pissed it took them 2 and a half hours to tell me i was right with my assumptions. what the hell do i need a doc for if i know when im sick and what it is. all i need is the cure. damn it. it SERIOUSLY should never take that long. i feel sorry for the peeps who sit there and are REALLY in pain. :/ so heres a little love for those who had to deal with that bullshit

i hate doctors offices.

i was soooooooooooo annoyed and i felt bad cuz my friend jessica had to sit in the waiting room wondering why i had to sit in a smaller room waiting as well. ...ill tell u what those little doctor office rooms can make a person go crazy if ur left in one long enough

man i was about to yell out the door "Can i please not waste my time in here HELLO EARTH TO ANYONE!"

anyway. i guess that was a doc rant. sorry. lol

anyhoo.. gots the meds.. *sigh* i better get well soon or im just gonna kill myself and save some suffering. i feel like ive had a strong cold since january. grrr. COME ON BODY FIGHT ! GET BETTER NOW DAMN IT! *pokes self*

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx busy busy busy http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9744071/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9744071/ Wed, 16 Aug 2006 04:40:04 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

sleepin
Listening to: Evanscence call me when ur sober/Nickelback savin
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: scary movie 4/Edward Scissorhands

im so tired. its like 6:30am... gah. >.0 anyway. i have over 600 message center items..

so..yeah.. i needa borrow a faster computer to get those done. :/ heh. ive been away from the computer quite a bit.
im either at work, at the lot with friends, visitin ty at conico, or watchin movies wit corey, jared, joe, and peeps.

today i dont have to work so maybe ill try to get some of these messages done O.o ...yes on dial up.

...frickin dial up..

i miss chattin wit my online peeps.. ill be back soon i swear.

it was nice to see the crew this weekend

readin Bleach and hangin wit peeps watchin larry the cable guy try to act

lol

anyway i owe some comments and some deviations. i havent had a lot of time but im workin on it. soon ill have less time cuz school starts up. :/ so that will suck big time.

someone seems a bit happier lately. im happy for him. bout friggin time.

k i think thats everything.

oh and Corey i love ya

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx -.-;;; http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9672746/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9672746/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 02:47:14 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

<3 Corey
Listening to: Rise Against- Ready to Fall ===Evanescence
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Clerks 2

...damn it.

oh yeah .. and damn it clerks 2 was funny..but damn it ..it just had to have a damn love story in it.

oh and i really dont care if da looks like sheezyart.. cuz i really just dont care. and i really dont mind that da has changed. i will adapt. i do that. i dont run away like everyone else. i dont abandon my da friends. so im here to stay. and uh.. lets see i do like that u can see more than one recent deviation, i really like that. i heard there was a bug with the help button tho :/

Evanescence ~ Call Me When You're Sober.

Don´t cry to me
If you loved me,you would be here with me
You want me,come find me
Make up your mind

Should have let you fall
And lose it all
So maybe you can remember yourself
Can´t keep believing
We´re only deceving ourselves
And I´m sick of the lie
And you´re too late

Don´t cry to me
If you loved me,you would be here with me
You want me, come find me
Make up your mind

Couldn´t take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
Selfishly hated
No wonder you´re jaded
You can´t play the victim this time
And you're too late

So, don´t cry to me
If you loved me, you would be here with me
You want me, come find me
Make up your mind

You never call me when youre sober
You only want it cause its over ,its over

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I?
You were never mine

So don´t cry to me
If you love me, you would be here with me
Don´t lie to me, just get your things
I´ve made up your mind!

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx 334 message center items http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9639100/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9639100/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 03:52:14 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

i miss corey tonight
Listening to: Rise Against-Like The Angel
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Underworld

so im reallllllllllllllllllllly tired.

the convention was great ..ill report more on it when im not about to fall asleep. lol

tomorrow im off so im sleepin in and doin laundry and such.

damn im tired.
lol

i duno what ima do. im still undecided. i really wanna see corey right now. and im hopein hes feelin better

so since im about to pass out from exhaustion ima keep it short.

i will catch up with deviations and such here soon i promise

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx ohio http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9602967/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9602967/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 22:16:09 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

:)
Listening to: korn- fallin away from me
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: the crow

Hello Catlin's world, this is Crista bringing you the news. Today has been a long day here is Ohio. Crista and I went to Denny's and watched "Easter Bunny, KILL KILL!"... that was well hmm... something else. I learned what a "snowball" was just a few seconds ago. We are here in Ohio to do promo for "Dream Reaper". We attacked Matt Ringering and took photos! I am running aroung looking for light bulbs.... where did they go? I want food, I want room service.... I found money. I will have to read this before Crista can send this.

coreyyyyyyyy

I LOVE YOU CRISTA TOO! LOL

wow. im a crazy bitch lol and im havin a blast lol ill be back mondayyyyyyy

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx hmm http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9573777/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9573777/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 06:17:31 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

woo!
Listening to: LP-somewhere i belong
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Forgotten/UnderGrads

hmm... i love donuts. lol

i hope i see him today.

i cant wait for my weekend trip! the hack crew is gonna have so much fun!
im gonna miss corey tho

i think ill survive XD ...but i am so callin lol

it was funny its like 6am and i call him and he answers
im like ..hang up, dont answer.. i wanna talk to ur voicemail ..lol
i left a message

hehe im a dork i know

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx simple. http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9562173/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9562173/ Tue, 01 Aug 2006 05:16:22 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

woo!
Listening to: Fergie~ London Bridge
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Forgotten/UnderGrads

i so happy.

kinda confused tho. im not sure of myself i think. wheaman knows what i mean XD lol

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx <3 http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9550415/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9550415/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 05:09:36 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

woo!
Listening to: Him ~Rip off the wings of a Butterfly
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Forgotten/UnderGrads

....my message center ...pretty bad. havent had time... im gettin to it

besides that...im pretty happy

i met someone new and lets just say its goin great

...

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx *stares at the sky* http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9517608/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9517608/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 00:18:43 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

... :/
Listening to: eve 6~ Here's to the Night
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Forgotten

and...now i have 224 message center items... im gonna be a while. -.- not to mention im back in my black and baggy clothes. meh.. not that i will keep to that. gonna be a rough couple of days. cuz i decided something and its one of those things that sometimes take years to do. i need to do it in a few days.

im keeping together cuz i got to see my best friend Ashley w. and Mikah (baby) today. i get to see them tomorrow to ...that makes me happier i missed her so much. plus i finally got to hit the punchin bag again

ima be workin all weekend and then next weekend its Twisted Nightmare Weekend. and altho its the anniversery of a series of horrible august 5ths ..im hopeing the hack crew can take my mind off of it and make this august 5th one of the best ive ever had. im puttin any hope into them, im sure we will have a blast.

so im kinda internet slow. cuz ive had alot to do. been out of the house all month. had some fun and some crazy times. so heres a song to that. and then is a song to what i gotta do within a short amount of time.

EVE 6
"Here's To The Night"

So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
-------------------------------------------------
30 SECONDS TO MARS
"Attack"

I won't suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted
Surrender to nothing, I'll give up what I
Started and stop this, from end to beginning
A new day is calling, and I am finalizing

Fight!

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack, I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAA

I would have kept you, forever, what we had to server
It ended for both of us, faster than a
Kill off this thinking, it's starting to sink in
I'm losing control now, and without you I can finally see
Fight!

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack, I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAA

Your promises, they look like lies
Your honesty, like a back that hides a knife(knife)
I promise you (promise you)
I promise you (promise you)
And I am finally free

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack, I'll attack, I will attack

Run away, I'll attack, I will attack
Run away, I'll attack, I will attack
Run away, I'll attack, I will attack
Run away, I'll attack, I'll attack, I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAA

Your promises
(promises, promises)
I promise you
(promise you)
I promise you
(promise you, promise you)

http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9485960/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 03:13:13 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

...
Listening to: Panic! At the Disco/blue october/goo goo dolls
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: City of Angels

i have a headache >.<*

GOO GOO DOLLS
Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am (break and solo) And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx Devious Journal Entry http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9482224/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9482224/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 18:35:37 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

...
Listening to: Panic! At the Disco/blue october
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: kate and leapold

When I get excited... I get hyper
When I get bored... I get depressed and eager to get outside
When I get lonely... I watch movies and sleep til i cant sleep no more
When I get sleepy... I act like im stupid
When I wake up... I lay in bed til i accept for the moment that no ones gonna be there
When I am happy... I smile for real
When I am upset... I get really quiet and stare into space, cry but not in public
When I am awake... I am...awake? O.o
When I sleep... I dream alot but i dont always remember
When I talk... I tend to run words together
When I get hurt... I get quiet and withdrawl from everything and everyone and pretend to be tough
When I don't feel pain... I actually smile
When I work out... I over do it and am sore and tired the next 4 days
When I want attention... I act like a moron or act really mean cuz im prolly jelious that im being ignored
When I die... I will just be dead

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx -.- http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9474550/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9474550/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 03:03:38 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

...
Listening to: Panic! At the Disco/blue october
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: kate and leapold

....and she whispered how could u do this to me..... hate me today, ...hate me tomorrow..... hate me so u can finally see whats good for you.

hate me in ways...ways hard to swallow... hate me so u can finally see whats good for you.

(blue october_ hate me)

Thanx For Readin'

]]> ~xEvilDuckyx shut me up http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9470996/ http://xEvilDuckyx.deviantart.com/journal/9470996/ Sun, 23 Jul 2006 18:37:51 PDT

DOOM JOURNAL!

Mood:

...
Listening to: Panic! At the Disco/MSI- Shut Me Up
Reading: The Vampire Armand~Anne Rice
Watching: Fight Club/Secret Window

i love this skirt.

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, and you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

PANIC! AT THE DISCO
"Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off"

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as you're fingers touch your skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we just were getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think Id let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster
------

She didn't choose this role
But she'll play it and make it sincere
So you cry, you cry
(Give me a break)
But they believe it from the tears
And the teeth right down to the blood
At her feet
Boys will be boys
Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams
(Give me a break)

Have some composure
And where is your posture?
Oh, no, no!
You're pulling the trigger
Pulling the trigger
All wrong

-----

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, and isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
------

I am the new cancer, never lo... ]]> ~xEvilDuckyx