http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xPurplexTearsx&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xPurplexTearsx en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 27 Nov 2009 10:38:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/28526951/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/28526951/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 11:36:25 PST
But besides the family drama-llama crap, I have a new boyfriend
He's so sweet and I miss him so much. I never thought that I would find somone like him. Everything about him is so...right. I don't know, it's hard to explain. It's so much better dating someone my age, it means I can act my age. Plus his dad knows who I am, so I don't have to worry about the parents ! His dad is Christina's step-dad, so, heh, he knows me really well.

As soon as I do some editing, I should have a few pictures up here. Not many mind you, my camera was slung into a cup of coffee so I'm SOL. And it sucks ass.

I guess I've been ignoring DA alot lately. Besides not being home, not many of my friends are active on here. I check on my stuff every few days, the most I have is 3 DA's and a message. It depresses me and I get to the point where I say screw this, stop getting on. But I come back anyways. It's a bad habbit.

I guess I'm glad to be home. It's going to be hard to adjust to being here. I'm stuck here until Friday... I personally don't think I'll survive. They will get mad because all I will do is sit on my ass, at my computer, not saying a word, playing my music too loud, and being tired as hell. Yup. thats what it's going to be like.

I'm ready for Thanksgiving. Thats all the food I get this week. Dad doesn't get paid until next Tuesday. All we have is deer meat and the more I eat meat the more I throw up! Suprisingly I didn't puke up that little peice of rib I ate at Grandma's house. Anyhoo, I think I'ma leave y'all with that. Happy Thanksgiving y'all.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/27165525/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/27165525/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 08:17:51 PDT I love you guys!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/26700205/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/26700205/ Wed, 19 Aug 2009 19:41:36 PDT
My math teacher from last year wants me to swith classes so I can be in hers ! The only problem is, I am perfectly happy with all my classes that I have now.

But anyhoozer, Marty Breeze came back to our school and rocked (: . It was completely awesome. Um we spent alot of time in the gym then we went in to our home rooms and discussed shat. It was boring. I swear crazy people want to talk to me all the damn time! Everytime I started talking to someone, someone else would shout my name and want to talk to me. I'm over here like 'damn!'. I didn't mind it, but it was a constant thing! I thought I was gonna go crazy! I gotta go find out what I'm going to wear tomorrow. Our water is currently shut off due to a leak so I'm kinda limited at the moment.

I HATE THE HUMIDITY! It totally ruined my hair..-.-;.
I care for my hair, it is not a crime. I think more people should. I have friends that complain that they are ugly when they are really pretty, I tell them that I feel ugly too sometimes, all I do is make myself pretty. Thats why I take care of my looks all the time.

Does anyone know if Anti Humidity Hairspray works? I bought some today, I'm hoping it saves me tomorrow .

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/26243453/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/26243453/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 21:50:23 PDT the bank ripped my brother off about $60.
he had $125 in change
then my mom and dad gave him another $35 in change
then he made another $35 at a yardsale

so yea he had around $195
the gave him $142.

he's mad

but i died my hair BRIGHTISH DARKISH RED!!! YAY! I look so bad ass! lawl!

yea anyhoo

granddaddys viewing is tomorrow and the funeral is thursday

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/26161913/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/26161913/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 23:41:52 PDT [link] - I just watched it and I was sitting here trying not to piss myself from excitement.

It's totally amazing.
And come to my suprise Helena Bonhem Carter and Tim Burton have been dating since like 2001. I was like OMG! They even have kids together!

Also for another movie that is coming out, New Moon. I'm sure you all have seen the dazzling trailor for it. But for those few who haven't heres the link - [link] - It's truely amazing.

Unfortunately, I'm not getting to see Harry Potter in theatres this year, BUT New Moon and Alice in Wonderland can surely see me there! I will NOT miss out on them two! I don't like Robert Pat. playing Edward, but at the same time I don't think Kristen Stew. should have the privelage (SP?) to play Bella. In interviews people have asked her what it was like to kiss a vampire and he response is something like "what kind of bull shit question is that?" Yes it isn't the most bright question in the world, but you are surrounded by 564641564651 fans out there, show a little more enthusiasm please! Your making alot of money Kris, get your thumb out of your ass and act like a girl for once, kkthxbai :].

She also needs to stop smoking otherwise she won't live long enough to make Breaking Dawn.

Well I'm out!
Hit me up on Myspace. [link]

or Twitter [link]

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/26113589/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/26113589/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 17:19:59 PDT
OKAY i added more to the song so here is the new linkkk

[link]

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25555278/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25555278/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 23:05:59 PDT So far like 8 pounds are off!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! Or 10. Idk xD I feel AWESOME! I'm doing this new work out. I do yoga, meditate, dance. I shower at like one in the morning lol. I only workout after the 'rents are in bed and I have alone time. I got a body sized mirror so I can look myself over to see if I can tell any results. My room is clean. I don't understand why, but I've had these awful urges to just clean my room. It can't be dirty I will totally freak out on yo' ass! Even if it's not your fault! IT'S THAT BAD!!!! Gawd, does anyone even read my journals? If you do, COMMENT! I have to know xD.

Thank you to all my peoples supporting me on this. ^_^ I feel luffed.

Well I really need to get off, meditate and go to bed. Goodnight guys! ILY!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25534350/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25534350/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 08:28:00 PDT Lawlz :]
I did it for poops and giggles, bby, poops and giggles.

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

NOW DO IT FOR THE LAWLZ!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25463419/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25463419/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 22:41:17 PDT
I bet Kathy is like "oh yea, NOW you wanna do make up and shit! I FICKING HATE J00!" Just kidding...But you never know o.0 Wouldn't doubt it, but anyhoo. I'm starving! and yes...it's 12:40 am! IT'S PAST MY BEDTIME!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25391908/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25391908/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 10:34:06 PDT Today [[June 18, 2008]] I might be going to my friends house and if I don't I have to stay home and clean. Either way I have to clean before I go over -.-. I think cleaning out the entire kitchen and my room is enough cleaning for a while, but evidentally not. I really need to wake up even though I've been up for like an hour. I'm thinking about making like a daily blog about my eating habits through out the day. So far I've lost like 2 lbs xD. It makes me feel good I'm going to work on drinking like 2 gallons of water a day. The only thing I'm worried about by going to my friends house is that I don't think that have anything vegetarian, but thats ok. I'll take a snack!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25380669/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25380669/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 19:25:21 PDT RaWR!




mood thingy won't change. I'm MAD : (

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25324714/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25324714/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 08:56:01 PDT .

I haven't quiet set a goal weight yet, but I think it's going to be in the 180's or something. Maybe less. It just depends on what I do and if I can keep it up. Which I hope I can. I might even keep doing it during school. I was thinking about going to Kathys house today but I can leave because my mom's back hurts and she cant move. So I need to stay here. I dont think she wants to come over because I suggested to her the meditation thing and I know it was like I was forcing it upon her, but I've looked into it alot and it helps depression and can help relax a person to where they can have a great sleep. She complains about it so I'm giving her ideas. And people can try to sit still long enough to try something that will help them calm down and help them find peace of mind. I meditated for ten minutes last night, and the feeling I got is hard to explain. It was as if there were no more problems on my shoulders and I was floating. It was great

If you think what I am doing is crazy or not let me know

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25314542/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25314542/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 17:59:49 PDT . Everyday.

-Ok, to the vegan thing that I'm thinking about commiting myself to. I've actually been thinking about it for quite some time now, and I think that I might can do it. But I'm going to mix it up a bit. Eat meat once or twice a week for protein. [[protein bars are NASTY]] I ate grits for breakfast...They were actually pretty good. I think that my friends who know about this already think I'm nuts. I was looking into meditation while my brother, Christina (( )) and myself were watching Supernatural. She kept looking at me weird. I don't think she likes it that much. Mason thinks it some kind of antiChrist thing... I think it would be great relax...mentally. I've read some place on the net that some meditation techneques can help you to relax well enough to have a GREAT nightsleep and I know a friend who could use that. I'm thinking about doing yoga. I know my mom could use that. I can't remember where, BUT I heard somewhere that yoga can relieve back pains, and doing it for a while can be great for your body. I'm seriously thinking that I can do it. It just takes a little time and effort and I have alot of both. Seeing how it's summer and I have absolutely nothing to do, it's possible.

Support with this would be nice, but I doubt that I would really get any, but that is fine. I can do this. Okay well at the moment I have to go, I think I will try to type up more later. I love you guys!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25251131/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/25251131/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 09:25:15 PDT
On Saturday, my Uncle got married. Our whole family LOVES(!) Sheila We are so incredibly happy! My only question is "Does Ashley know?" Ashley is my cousin. Her mom brainwashed her to hate her dad so now she lives on the street because her mom kicked her out of the house. Anyhoozer. The day after the wedding my mom took me and my brother to the lake and I got a horrible sunburn. My mom wanted to fish off a fifty foot bluff and nearly fell off and died. She only hurt her leg though, but it does look pretty bad. Monday I decided that I would go to the cabin. Like I said, I had fun, but this morning my grandpa said that I needed to go on a diet and ever since I've been PISSED. So I guess I'll stop eating and move about alot. Maybe then I'll be small enough for them. They like NEVER lay off.

The last two nights we played Scrabble and I was OUT OF CONTROL. I could NOT stop laughing. Usually I'm pretty chill but DAMN. I was like BAM! lol.

Ok well I don't have much more to say. Bobby is coming over tomorrow. Maybe we can go SWAMMIN!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24955310/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24955310/ Tue, 26 May 2009 05:07:49 PDT
And in my opinion,calling him the new Freddie Mercury is very ... whats the word? idk, well anyway, Mercury is probably crawling in his grave to get out so he can kick someones ass. I think that if Adam DID produce a song or even an album with Queen, then I will not listen to it due to accessive (sp?) screaming. Thank you, good day.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24939575/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24939575/ Mon, 25 May 2009 09:44:10 PDT
I got a really cute bow! If that matters at all. I'm thinking that after I take a shower and stuff, then I can stragithen my hair and do my make up and take some pictures, but I'm still not sure.

I don't think I ever updated about Wild River Country from Friday. It was fun. 'Nuff said lol.

Shcoo let's out Thursday, so that's my last day. I'm thinking that on Wednesday and Thursday I'll leave school at 8th period. Here's how I see it...
We take out even class semester test on Wednesday and the odds on Thursday.
On Wednesday, I only have 2 tests. And they are in the same class. They are Health and Civics. I can take them both 4th period and leave 8th.
Then Thursday I have 3 tests. English, Sceince(ewwy), and Math. Engish is 3rd period, Science is 5th, and Math is 7th. Right after I take that test, I can leaf . Then no more school for the rest of ....well for three months.

I dyed Christina's hair yesterday I think I'll be uploading pictures of it soon so she can do what ever she wants with them. Actually I think I'm do that now while its on my mind.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24921195/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24921195/ Sun, 24 May 2009 09:23:14 PDT
I have a few ideas for new eyeshadow styles. My favorite is the rainbow thing I do. I found somethin new to try, but it requires alot of yellow and my yellow eyeshadow is very crappy...
BUT! They do have some MAX eyeshadow at Wal-Mart that has some good yellow in it.

OMG! I was at the dollar general in town yesterday and found hot pink eyeshadow. It's very pretty. I'll most likey post the pictures of all my make up on Myspace when I get the chance. I only have like 5 friends on there lol. I also bought some hot pink lipstick at Wal-Mart for like a dollar. I hate pink, but it was really bright and pretty so I didn't really complain. Um...Hmmmm....Idk....

I think I'm gonna ask Kaitlin if I can make her my G-Pig for a day. I have a few things I wanna do to her hair. And Monday when Chris comes over, she is SO my G-pig! I have to dye her hair

A friend of mine, Daniel, suggested that I create my own clothing line thing. It was a pretty good idea, but I shot it down because I don't want people dressing like me.
I got to a REALLY SMALL SCHOOL. Our k-12 can fit in our gym. It's quite sad. But anyway, I dress so different from everyone. And my eye makeup is different everyday lol. But I would hate for everyone to start doing that. I do some peoples make up, for practice and practice only.
But I would have a shitfit if some one started doing what I do at my school. It's flattering that people are trying be different from everyone else, but be different in your own way, not mine. kkthanx.

Oooo!!! Christina already knows this but!, I'm dying my hair like a bright red, and the underneath will be streaked in rainbow colors. My mom is actually thinking about letting me do it since I only want the underneath of it done. Most people think its weird. AND FYI I am NOT gay. I do not support the gay community, but I love the rainbow. If the parts don't fit, don't do it. But I also see it as, as long as your happy that's all that matters.

My moms birthday is like in 3 days. I'm taking her to the movies lol. I'm hoping that my dad will go to make her REALLY happy.
I wanna go to Sally's and see if they have some red eyeshadow lol.

I have like nothing else to talk about so yea. Good'ay mate!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24784470/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24784470/ Sat, 16 May 2009 09:58:40 PDT
]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24331382/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24331382/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 18:13:42 PDT Okay, so Thursday was my birthday! Today was Kathy's. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHY! I feel sorry for what went down. =\.

Okay, this is a list of my bday gifts:
Purse
Green Eyeshadow
Blue Eyeshadow
Purple Eyeshadow
Hair Straightener
Eyeliner
Blush
Nails
Red Plaid Shorts
Liquid Foundation Brush
Ankle Bracelet
Flowers
Approaching Normal (New Blue October CD Bishes)
A Heart Peace-Sign Necklace
Eyebrow Shapers
$110
New Make Up Carrier
A Wallet
And I think thats it
It was awesome though!
I can't wait to get my hair extentions!!!!

I'm going to the doctors tomorrow, gotta get some blood tests done.
I might most likely possibley be hypoglycemic.
Yea...-.-

CHRISSY! can you get my homework and tell me it xD
tank maaan!

Welllllll Yea.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24206916/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24206916/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 18:03:46 PDT I've been having a few problems lately, but you guys know that I never stress out over it. I could if I wanted to, but I look at the positive side of things. When I am told something that could make me or break me, I have a tendancy to purposely forget about it. It helps ALOT!
Friday a friend of mine wrote down my name and my teachers last name! IT PISSED ME OFF!! THAT IS SO FRIGGIN NASTY!!!!!!!!!!!! >.
Anyways, I HAVE A NEW FAVORITE SONG!
It's Picking Up Pieces by Blue October, I have it, but it messes up at the begining -.-. So youtube is now a buddy of mine!
I totally think everyone should listen to it! And JUMP ROPE! They are two amazingly great song!
Blue October is just a great band! I love Justin's voice, it goes perfectly with all the songs!
Okay, well I guess I am going to go.

I CAN'T WAIT TIL MY BIRTHDAY!!! 15 BABY!!!! >:] April 16th here I COME!!!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24030325/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24030325/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 19:40:20 PDT Here's the scoop!
I've just finished trimming my hair and cutting my mom's. She wanted something that would make her look young and prettiful. So I layered her hair, gave her a poof in the back (kind of like scene/emo hair) She's about to turn 39 xD. But she looks good! My daddy and brother liked it so, I guess it works! I told her what to do to style it and everything.

SO! THIS IS THE BEST PART!
To my friends who live in my town and go to my school, with your parents permission I will cut your hair! I can layer, if you buy the dye, I can color...maybe, still thinking about that one. But I can/will cut your hair for no cost, because I'm an awesome friend like that, and I can give you tips on styling! So yea. Please post a comment below and have a damn good day!

REMINDER
My birthday is on the 16th of this month!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24018681/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/24018681/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 06:36:51 PDT :]

Last week I saw a film
As I recall it was a horror film
Walked outside into the rain
And saw you rain
And I Jizzed in my pants!

I jizz right in my pants
Everytime you're next to me
And when we're holding hands
It's like having sex with me
You say I'm premature
But I just call it ecstasy
I wear a rubber at all times
It's a necessity

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23986883/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23986883/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 14:12:58 PDT
[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
[] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 3

[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[x ] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 8


[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[x] You can mow the lawn
[] You study even when you dont have to
[x] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 13


[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL SO FAR: 17


[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[x] You have been to a Tupperware party
[x] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[] You have more bills than you can pay
[x]You use the internet every day
[]You have been outside of the united states 3 or more times
[]You make your bed in the morning

TOTAL: 21

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23899231/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23899231/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 12:40:35 PDT

Gotsta tell ya 8 things 'bout myself...

1. Post these rules.

2. Each person should say at least 8 things about themselves.

3. When you finish the journal will need to choose 8 people and tagged.

4. Then go to their pages and say they have been tagged.

5. Don't return the tag to whom send it to you
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1. I've dyed my hair over 30 times in the bast 3 years

2. I wish I was shorter

3. I've broken my nose

4. I have activity indused ( sp?) asthma

5. guys with alot of muscles disgust me

6. Candles with baked good scents make me sick

7. I can't live with out make up and a hair straightener

8. The begining of With or Without You by U2 almost makes me cry. idky xD

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23878910/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23878910/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 07:49:22 PDT and I need more . juice sounds good right about now. Well I got my it wasn't a good one, but it was a nonetheless. I don't have any plans for today so I might watch it's a great western . MAN! I got the sudden urge to watch cartoons! >.! OK ... I'm done..


I you Ubu!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23845411/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23845411/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 08:39:17 PDT . I hate and I think is okay. I LOVE , and at the moment I wish I had a . I'm about to have for breakfast. I might put on them. Mmmm! I might just eat some too! I don't like so thats out of the question. sounds good right now. Hot steamy . Maybe some too. My birthday is April 16, so I'm ready for some !!!! When people ask me for help or something, I usually like to put my in. Oh, I want so bad. Maybe a million too. The only way I will ever enjoy my wonderful breakfast would be by eating with a !! I'm going to go now. GOODBYE!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23829786/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23829786/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 10:54:33 PDT


I'm happier now. It doesn't help that I'm PMSing. But ANYHOO!


I'm leaf ya on dis note.

bubye!

ILYBOBBY!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23827634/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23827634/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 08:30:18 PDT
My boyfriend and I got in a slight arguement. I don't wanna fight with him over REALLY stupid things. I can't help that my self esteem is like -5.... >.< And I know that it can be uncomfortable for a guy to watch Rocky Horror Picture Show. But it's uncomfortable for a girl so see half nekkid girls having sex while they die and make girls look sluttier all the time. I don't want to watch that, especially when my boyfriend is right next to me! >.
I HATE guys who think LESBIANS are hawt.
I HATE guys who get a hard on when the look at a woman in a low top shirt when their girlfriend/wife are right next to them.
I HATE guys who look at porn when they are dating/merried to someone.
I HATE GIRLS who pose for porn because it makes ALL women look bad.


I love him soooo much, but I feel like I'm fat and ugly and I swear I will go freakin anerexic just to make that feeling go away. I don't care how bad it is, I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS BAD ANYMORE! I wear a jacket 24/7 in public, I don't want people to see me with out one. When I go to walmart and I see a pair of shorts and the largest size is 10, I wanna break down and cry and kill all the people who make the clothes because they don't make anything someone like ME can wear. I hate this feeling of self conscienceness, and this feeling like I'm fat and boyfriend gets bored of that and wants to be with someone better. I can't help it. No one understands how awful it feels unless they have the same damn problem. I hate when girls that weigh 120lbs say they are fat. IT PISSES ME OFF! I'm 213lbs 5'4 and almost 15. I'm completely paportional.

I just... Idk, stupid little remarks, can really make me feel like a fat worthless person.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23786896/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23786896/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 19:36:40 PDT FAGGOT shooting crap going on, I got photoshop. I don't have ANY idea how to work it, BUT I did learn how to make myself look skinny!! YAY!

2 points for me

Ok,
So,
How was your day?
Mine was ok
Coulda been better
But it never gets that way
But I'm ok with that!
Because I'm used to it
I miss my baby
I can't wait to see him ^^
I'm so excited
Fatman wants to have a party this week
So we might just do that
I hope I get to see Bob quite a bit
That'd be awesome!
I love him alot!
This is weird lol
xD!!!!
ok I'll stop being this way
ILY guys lol
Bubye!
LEAVE
COMMENTS
PLEASE
YOU
KNOW
YOU
WANT
TO!!!!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23780654/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23780654/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 13:42:40 PDT FREAK would kill/rape 3 random, innocent, helpless women for some FAGGOT ASS gang appraciation SHIT

It's got this entire state scared shitless to go to Conway!

YOU SONS OF BITCHES NEED TO DIE! YOU'RE CAUSING PAIN TO THOSE WHO DON'T DESERVE IT!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23747959/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23747959/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 14:19:44 PDT Ok I was thinking last night and today about something that is kinda true. If you're having problems, like RELATIONSHIP problems, or FAMILY RELATED problems, or SELF ESTEEM issues, talk to someone you've NEVER met before. It's like going to a shrink but ALOT cheaper. Just someone around your age, listening to what you think is going wrong in your life. I LOVE listening to people. I know it can get you into a shit hole sometimes, but still.


Just vent out to some random person.

I WOULD GLADLY LISTEN TO SOMEONE! IT'S WHY I AM HERE!

Having problems just hit me up in a note and we can talk about this crap, man!

I always like to put people before myself. It makes me feel good when I know that I have helped someone. Even though I have MY OWN problems, that rush of happiness and accomplishment helps ALOT.

I'm just saying that you want someone to talk to?

Talk to me!!

You know the deal! NOTE ME!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23731093/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23731093/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 14:47:50 PDT I know I just posted a journal entry, but I was in the kitchen making coffee, yes I know. Coffee, 4:30 in the afternoon, odd mix. But anyhoos, I was thinking about my friend Chrissy and how she likes this guy who she's scared to talk to about that fact, and he's fighting with his girlfriend right now, she wants to help, but at the same time she wants to be with him very badly.

But this isn't about her. This is about how girls will do crazy things to get what they want. I mean seriously. If the right woman walked into a cafe called " Breakfast: The Way You Want It" and they didn't make the eggs the way she wanted it then she would call the President to tell them to make the eggs the way she wanted them. I mean we are CRAAAZZZZYYYY. Men don't understand how we get. We HAVE TO HAVE WHAT WE WANT. We'll hardly ever be satisfied, but if you give us what we want every now and then, you're working your way up the ladder to something that you want. We might want a man, or we might want a pair of shoes, or we might want sex, or we might want eggs from a Cafe. What ever it is we will get it. And the sex thing, I'm not implying that we would cheat on our man. I know I wouldn't I know I have to wait until the time is right to do that kind of thing. I'm patient...Sorta. But anyways. We will do CRAZY ass things in life.

If you're a girl and you've done something crazy to get what you want, post in either the comments below or a journal entry. ((If you post in a journal entry, put the link to the journal in MY journal comments so I can read it.))

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CHECK THESE PEOPLE OUT!

First veiw She's nice and always faves my art xD

Then His art is the shiz man. lol

Can't forget Kyla's da b0mb3rz!

And this person is like awesome lol. we don't talk that much any more, nor did we in the begining but I like to pop in on their profile and check out their st00f.

Next I think I'll mention more of my watchers.

LEAVE COMMENTS!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23730038/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23730038/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 13:50:24 PDT First period for some reason my friend, ole buddy, pal Christina and I could not stop laughing.
We went like 10 minutes straight laughing out heads off because I made a powerpoint slide that said "My Parade" at the bottom then it had a "No" sign crossing out a cloud that was raining. For some reason, we found it HILARRRIOOOUSS!

Anyhoo, moving on.
Second period wasn't as great. I got this feeling like I'm not good enough because of certain things that have gone down recently. I don't want to discuss any of it on here so yea.

Third period we are working on another Power Point covering the book Ellen Foster. Yea, mine looks bad ass, not to brag or nothing, it's just the truth lol.

Fourth period, I MADE CHRISTINA PUT HER OWN EYELINER ON HAHA!!!!!!! >:] Bishie hehe. Now tell your mommy you know how to do it so she can spend like $50 on make up xD.

Fifth period. Is it weird when you and your bestfriend discuss your science teacher sleeping with a student??? Because we kinda started thinking about teachter sleeping with students and having 'relationships' with them. It's nasty, slutty, WRONG!, and yea. You get the picture. We have like a 60 year old english/history teacher, about 4'11, white fro, well we thought of her sleeping with this boy in science class. His name is Dausan and I think he's gay. He broke my gaydar and by Gawd he didn't replace it! >.< We still gotta have a chat about that one. lol

Sixth period. Hyperactive Preppy 12th grades. Katie B. and Ashley S. Always fuss over how "great" my eye shadow is. I swear they are always high.

Seventh Period. Math class. -shudders- Not much happened here xD

Eighth Period. Well Dobbers wouldn't shut up lol. That's about it. "HEEYY BOOOOYSS!" xD People who know Dobber will know what I mean. xDDD

THE END OF THE SCHOOL DAY! Ok I burped and Mr. Harpers door was open and Christina heard me and tried not to laugh. xD I didn't know the door was open xD! My bad lol. Christina Paoli was walking by so I excuseded myself.

Ok that was my day and You've just been inside the mind a 14 yo wild child.


PS. GOT MSN IF YOU WANT YOU CAN ADD ME, WON'T PROMISE THAT WE'LL TALK MUCH SEEING HOW I DON'T TALK THAT MUCH TO PEOPLE I DON'T KNOW. THANK YOU HAVE A NICE DAY!

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VEIW THESE PEOPLE'S PROFILES!!

Ok view Because she's cool! And my best bud Christina.

Then theres Because I love him more than I love myself. And I miss him like crazy!

Then theres Hehe, it's Kat, my sista from anudda mista.

Then the fatkid whose so proud of himself because he has an iPhone, but got it taken away >:] HAH! lol
More people will be mentioned in other journals. Leave them a comment because they are BADASS, yo. And what I say goes >:]. HA!

jk.
But on a seriously funny note. Drop by, say, hi, maybe you'll make a friend.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23664734/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23664734/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:56:37 PDT IT'S CRAPPY
BUT IT WORKS!
LOL

[link]

THERES THE LINK!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23632698/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23632698/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 18:47:57 PDT
Im in the middle of writing a country song called "Wild Weekend" and I'm thinking of submitting it on youtube after I finish it up. I WISH WITH ALL MY LITTLE BITTY 'OLE HEART that I could have some music to match it but Idk how to get it and make it sound good. I need help yo!

It sounds OK so far, Chippy likes it <3 ^^. I'm gonna send it to Rosetta when I get it finished and see if she's got any ideas.

COMMENT PLEASE!! I need to know what you thinK!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23628203/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23628203/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 14:55:15 PDT
How's it goin?

I'm fine. Recently got MSN. I only have a few contacts.

If you want my address for it just send me a note and I MIGHT add you. I don't really like talking on it that much, but ya know.

Hmm, what else is there to say?

Not muh goes on in my life o.0...

I'm boring...It's awful, I know.

OMG!

Yea... I got nothing lol.

BUT WAIT! WHAT'S THIS?!

Oh nevermind...
It's a napkin

Well crap

>:]

G'bye!
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Please leave comments in the little box v(below)

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23611930/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23611930/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 15:27:05 PDT :]

Don't ask

Cuz

Idk,

yo.

I have to pee.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23502591/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23502591/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 06:42:56 PST

Thankies baby for your support ^^

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23469054/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23469054/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 11:49:23 PST
My mom says that she can't stand to watch all of us eat all the fatty foods so now we are taking this all family diet... I think >.>;.
And certain fat kids called Mason and my dad keep eating my Valentines day chocolates!!! >.Might hide them lol.

I'm cutting out all soda's and gonna try walking alot more this summer. YAY HEAT!

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>>>>In other news<<<<

**I'm dying my hair dark brown again YAY!!!
I've been having "dark hair withdrawls"
It's never going to be the blonde that I want it because my hair dresser/cousin is constantly working and ignoring my calls, so we are going back to the begining when everything was perfect.

**My moms upset because her computer keeps crashing....That bastard! jk
but she is really upset. She has nothing better to do, so later today we are going to go to walmart and spend money we don't have. SOUNDS LIKE FUN!

But seriously.
We are out of milk which means I have no breakfast.

HAPPY FIRST DAY OF MARCH!!!!!!<3

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23388043/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23388043/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 18:53:49 PST OK so I got this CRAZY idea while I was playing with my hair right, well here it is!

Be someone else for a few days!

Ok well not ENTIRELY someone else. Be the opposite of what you are.

If your gothic, be ungothic for a day or so and see how people react to your change. Change your hairstyle, your wardrobe, your make up, etc.

What I want you to do after you dress/ act different

1. Tell how long you changed (like 1 day, 2 days, etc.)

2. Tell what you usually wear

3. Tell what you wore that made you look different from usual

4. Type what kind of comments you got (if you got any) through out the day ((HONESTY PLEASE!))

5. Tell how it made you feel!

Ok that was my idear!!!!

Think it's any good?

COMMENTS PL0X!

((This journal is ment for teenagers))

>:]

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23382404/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23382404/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 14:05:55 PST If you cheese has slid off your cracker say:
Ay!

Ok to the POINT!
I don't think I have one atm

I don't want to end the friend ship that we have, and I didn't mean to hurt you. I know that alot of people beiieve in other things. You said you wanted to be unique, you can be unique because you already are. I'm a God freak and a half and I'm about as unique and rare as they come... So says the people in the box outside my house o.0.

The people in my family don't like wicca, Atheism, Satanist (rebliousnessess), Anti- Christians, and so on and so forth.

I've looked them all up, seen who does what, where, and why.

Atheist must get sad. They can't have Christmas presents.

I likey me some Chismas pesents >:]

I don't like birthday presents though... Most the time they suck tbh. I did like my candle though <3

Back to the POINT!

What was the point?

IDK.

Anyways.

ILY

Merry Deviantday!
(My new holiday^)

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23367732/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23367732/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 16:54:06 PST
I don't agree with this kind of thing being spoke about on the web because of many different opinions, but I know God is with me, when my friend Chris died, I knew it was time for me to reconnect with him. I feel closer to God now more than I ever have. I feel Chris is with me all the time. And this past 2 years, I've lost a few family members, but I know God has them safe with him and that they are happy. Death is hard to deal with, but you learn to cope. My grandma lost her husband and it took her along time to realize that my Grandpa was sick and now he's somewhere where he doens't have to be sick anymore. As long as I believe God is here with me, protecting me from REAL harm, he's there, here, with me. And I don't think he's leaving. Everything he has done to me is to make me a better or worse person. It was up to me on how I chose what to do. I chose to say "hey God, I need you more than ever now, and I need you to help me get through this." Nearly 2 years later, I feel like me and God are inseperable. I feel bad for the things that I've done, but no one's a perfect Christian or person.

And right now, I don't want anyone to get hurt again because they are nieve, or they think they can't do any better than what they are doing, or just because they won't listen to what others are try to say to them so they can help.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23308115/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23308115/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 14:55:38 PST
]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23269909/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/23269909/ Wed, 18 Feb 2009 11:35:29 PST Well this is how I do it.

1. Pin your hair back

2. Wet face with warm water

3. I use Clearasil Stayclear Face cleaner. It's the Deep Cleansing Scrub ((White with little blue beads =]))Put a little of this on and scrub your face really good.

4. Take a warm/hot wet washcloth and rinse your face.

5.Now for moisturizer: You can use PONDS dry skin cream OR Johnson's 24 hour moisturizer. They both work well and leave your skin very healthy and smooth. Put a little bit on your finger tips and rub it on your face.


Well that's how I do it. If you wanna know where to get the BEST CHEAPEST make up, send me a Note and I'll make a journal on how I do my make up and where to get it. I'll even upload pictures and place the links in the journal to show you what it all looks like.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/22870372/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/22870372/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 16:56:42 PST
1.) She still talks to us. I guess she's not taking this as serious as I am.

2.) She claims that her boyfriend hasn't broke her heart before, and others have, such as the farewellingness of our friendship. ((Funny story behind that right there, I'll fill you in later.))

3.) She posts things up on facebook like "I can't believe we've been together for a year" when they have broke up like 5 times. ((IMO one you break up and go back out again, you START OVER! It doesn't continue. It a fresh clean slate where new bounderies are made, more respect and you listen to each side of the party before you make a decision...ATM I'm just babbling. Trying to sound smart. I think I failed.

4.) She insists on bringing up memories that I INSIST on getting rid of. She's digging up a grave that shouldn't be messed with.

5.) She thinks that all of what has happened, the lying ((Yes that lie still pisses me off.)), the stress, the constant "I don't want your advice/ Charity\Christina I need your help" ((That got OLD FAST)), is all behind us so we can be FRIENDS AGAIN!!! NO! It's not.

Wouldn't you be angry if someone nearly sent you into a state of depression because they wanted help, you gave them what you could and they throw it all away then ask for your help again?! Ever since that I feel like the relationship between me and my boyfriend has been different. I'm more demanding which NEITHER of us like. Kate bitched and complained that her seeing her 'boyfriend' wasn't enough she wanted to see him every single day. Well I was like that once too, a year later, I see him maybe once a week for a few hours. She needs to shut up.

She lied about having sex with the schools "Pretty Boy" Christian. I could spill all her secrets all over the internet...But I guess deviant is as far as it goes. I think she's pretty proud that she would have sex with her boyfriend on the way to school and on the way home, then once they got home. she's 16 she acts 4! NOT EVEN THAT OLD! SHE ACTS HALF THAT! IT'S ANNOYING! GROW UP!

OKAY NOW FOR THE EXPLINATION OF NUMBER TWO!!!! THE MOMENT YOU ALL HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR! I think.... I don't care XD.

Okay, from the begining!

Ever since they started dating he knew what he wanted... Something no other would give him. SEX!! yes this boy is so ugly he should be caged before the government thinks that something escaped from Area 51.

Well like 3 weeks or months I can't remember, into their relationship that no one approves of, they have sex. So then they made it into an every day thing. Would her daddy be proud? he died a year or so ago, and I think if that sweet man in which I have never met but seemed like a really nice guy was still here, Trae wouldn't be.

Well anyways, he started looking around at this girl named Karen. She's this pretty Philipino (SP?) whe was like head of heels for him. They would flirt with each other in Spanish class, footsies, giggles, her writing "Karen Loves You" on his arm. You know, the 'cute' stuff that makes you nauseous (SP?).

Kate new of this, made her very upset, she even admited a few times that she was HEART BROKEN over the situation. They broke up.

Then came Chelsi. Now this is funny. This girl IMO resembles Taylor Swift in a weird way she's pretty-sih, EVERYONE FLIRTS WITH HER. So Trae thinks he can go flirt with her IN FRONT of Kate. He knows its pissing her off etc etc etc. He keeps doing it. Well they BREAK UP AGAIN!

She tells him if he looks at, thinks of, talks to ANYTHING WITHA A VAGINA ((besides her of course)) it's over, no more chances. He thinks she's bluffing. GREAT CALL ROCKETMAN! So one day at lunch we are sitting outside kates on one side of me Chrissy on the other, Trae on the other side of Kate, Chelsi on the very end by Square. Trae gets up and starts talking to Chelsi. Well Kate notices somethings weird about his posture. He had a hard-on by talking to Chelsi. Once again she threatens to end the relationship. He leaves everyone alone for a while. She decides maybe it is best for them to be apart, they are apart a week. HE breaks down. "oh kate now I know how you felt! I thought I lost you for good." she GOES BACK AGAIN!! She just can't stop. now they are still together. he broke her heart over and over and she still says on FACEBOOK that "OTHERS WILL BREAK MY HEART BEFORE HE EVER WILL" it's bullstuff ((not allowed to say sh!t. the MR. will get mad ILY BABE!))

thanks for reading.

IF YOU WERE IN THE SITUATION AS KATE WHAT WOULD YOU DO!? Please reply. If you want more details plz send me a note. I just want opinions here.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/22276702/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/22276702/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 09:44:12 PST
This year I've had a 'friend' stress me out by asking me to help her with her problems with her boyfriend. I'm the kind of person who will listen and give you my opinion. She kept coming back, knowing what I would say, then she would tell me "I'll listen to what my heart is saying, because I still love him too much to break up with him." I was getting mad because she would do that over and over and over. They broke up twice and now she expects everyone to be happy for her. I told her I didn't want to be her friend and now her mom is pretty much blaming me for her daughters unhappiness. But I could givea flying rats ass. She isn't worth the headache. I don't need many friends. I need about 2 or 3 and I'm good. I don't need all of these people knowing much about me. I like to see the fear in their eyes Muhahahahaha.

My boyfriend and I will have been together for one year on January 13th. Lately things have been pretty stressful, but I think we are pulling through. He's getting surgery on his tongue around the 13th so I might not get to see him then. If I do, he will be laid up in bed probably unconscience. Maybe with slobber all over his mouth, who knows? lol.

I've been thinking about being the way I was in 7th grade. Mean and evil. . Sounds like a plan to me. Now everyone thinks I'm so nice and crap. God all I was is everyone to shut up so I can take a nap. Theres a few people I can deal with...Acutally theres like one....They Yatskas are freaking annoying. They are twins and just HATE each other. I mean you can feel it radiate off of them. Their voices are so winny omg. But at times, they can be civial enough to talk to and have a decent conversation.

I have to ask my cousin if she can finish my hair and blond my arse up. I was this strawberry splotchy blond, then we took the red out and it make be a medium/dark brown. I'm not liking it all that well. These days I don't really care about my hair I just kinda of get out of the shower, brush it, pull it back and go on with my day.

I'm not happy right now. Or mad or sad, what have you. I feel nothing. Just a little sleepy. I miss my baby. My moms pissed because she can't get a hold of Altel, so our phones might be shut off. Dad's being ...dad... He's at work though. When I was on the phone with my boyfriend last night, we heard this creepy laugh in the phone then we lost the call. Then we couldn't remember half of the conversation we had before that happened. I was like HOLY CRAAAP. It didn't help that the past two days I've been watching TAPS and A HAUNTING with Mason and Mom. Thats some scurry shyt right there folks. If you haven't seen them, I suggest that you get your lazy ass off this website and look them up on youtube, or cable tv, dish network, direct. ANYTHING. It's great.

Thanks for reading y'all. Bye.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/22192491/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/22192491/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 14:15:04 PST
You must say Merry Christmas to me.

Xmas is disrespectful so if you type it

I kill you.

Happy Holidays.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/22089813/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/22089813/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 17:53:44 PST
Thank you for your time. Merry Christmas!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21951047/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21951047/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 16:58:43 PST . I think one of the main reasons I quit going to Kat's house was because I didn't want her to think that I was using her to see HIM. I wanted to hang out with both of them, and hardly get to see him nowadays and it's unbearable, but I make it. God helps me . Kathy's a sweet person, very hyperactive and fun, she acts like a 5 year old and is very jumpy but thats something you grow to love after a while lol. I've been thinking about going to her house, but I'm going to wait until Christmas break that way I don't have to go home at like...9. We really don't much of the same stuff. She likes this heavy metal stuff, I on the other hand, love classic rock and a bit of country thrown in there somewhere. She loves anime, I don't like it that much. She enjoys playstation games like rockband and guitar hero, I got burnt out on it a few monthes after it came out. The most we ever did was walk, which was great for thinking but bad because you always think of the WRONG things lol. I usually danced around and sang like an idiot. After a while she just died down from it. =\. It was sad. I know it damaged her alot. The most I could tell her was, she wasn't herself. I thought I lost her. I told myself she would never be the friend I used to have. She was so dark and hidden. From my eyes everyday when I saw her it felt like I was at a funeral. It was that disturbing. I guess I'm just different or weird or something beucause when I get sad, I force myself to be happy. Usually after that happens I forget the sadness. People say that when they are sad, I make them happy by making them laugh. That makes me feel great. For a while now, I've felt like I just don't wanna talk to anyone. I just don't feel like it. But I know I could never be like that because I'm loud and rude and I'm an openminded person. I'm blunt and PROUD. Peoples feelings don't really matter to me. I don't think I'm better than everyone else nor to I feel like I know best, but I am entitled to my opinion. Even if you don't want it, you'll get it. When Kathy was sad, I got sad, tried to cheer her up, she got pissed off most of the time, so I was like "Screw it". I miss that Backstreet boy lovin, happy, funny, perverted, jumpy, natural, not "goth/emo/punk" what have you person. I ADORED that person. I think it got lost. That would be like me become a total PREP. It wouldn't be me, and people would miss the person that I am now. I just want her to know that I haven't forgot about her. I don't hate her, never did. I love ya girly.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21871321/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21871321/ Sun, 07 Dec 2008 18:51:26 PST . I know that I haven't been on lately, so I'm updating you! Exciting eh? Yeah, I know, it's not that exciting.

-I've been on Runescape. Yes Sirry. I'm a faithful player, an everyday'er, my least favorite thing to do is work on my prayer.

Oh, I'm a rapper too!
I like to rap my rhymes and waste some time. I already got my fishing to 99, fool! I'm super bad in my boater hat. I even got myself a purple cat! I only got one 99 but thats alright, i can get another one any time!

Ok...enough rapping.

- I'm excited, because after this coming week, I am out for er, 2 weeks? Somewhere around there. YAY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

I need some MAJOR help guys, what the crap do guys want for Christmas? My boyfriend won't tell me anything, so I need opinions! NOW! PLEASE! He's 19....So i'm like...."?" and hes like "nothing" and I'm like 'UGH! *pulls hair out*'

Yea. lolz...
Bye!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21714480/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21714480/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 13:10:00 PST
I don't really know how to tell you this, but you're a leprechaun. I think I realized it when I tripped on peanut butter in your apartment and I saw you sit on Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection. I'm sure you're Open enough to understand that there is no solution to you being a dumb kid. I'm returning your pet rock to you, but I'll keep your photo with the moustache drawn on it as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about the moose poaching and I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo.

Go drown yourself
Charity


NOW ITS YOUR TURN!
Dear (someone),

I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12)(Your name)


1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're mean
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When you smacked my butt
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Lasagna- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
None – My prized statue of Michael Jackson in the nude
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
Fuse - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exsist
Silly - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - The cut toenails
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - Your love letters to me
Other - Your Hannah Montanna underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbour’s dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - your butterfly collection
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credi... ]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21693961/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21693961/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 07:40:18 PST . And instead of turkey or ham we are having Deer rost, potato salad, pumpkin pie, sugar free chocolate pudding pie, and stuffing. GREAT HUH!? ok Well I have to go! Bye!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21627302/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21627302/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 08:38:44 PST
ATM I am downloading new updates for my war game JOE. I'm getting the I.C.E mod and wondering what the S one is X(. I guess I will live with the ICE. I can't wait to play it, but I have like 45 more minutes of downloading time before its done...I think.

I am so ready for christmas! I can't wait. I hope it snows...alot. that'd be great. I've had photographers block for a while and can't think of ANYTHING to take pictures of. I'm bored of the sunset, and I believe all you are too. I know my literature isn't the best, but it works. I'm thinking about doing JOE screenies, but I'm not sure yet.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21582275/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21582275/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 13:48:56 PST
]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21567008/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21567008/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 14:04:20 PST Okay, I’m getting sick and tired of people. I was called a bitch today by my “ex best friend”. She keeps writing her boyfriends dick’s name all over my friends crap and I told her “You need to stop writing Pedro loves you on Christina’s stuff, it’s none of her business,” or something along those lines. She goes up to Christina after the bell rings to go to 8th period and says “You know you can just tell me stuff without having Charity say it to me for you. She was being a bitch about it and she needs to stop. She needs to quite being such a bitch to me.” Christina told her that she didn’t know I was going to tell her. I don’t care if she thinks I was being a bitch, I’d like to say thanks and go on with my day. I’m just getting aggravated with the fact that she won’t get over it like I have. She does things to piss me off now. She knows I don’t care anymore. ‘Bout ready to punch her face in. UGH!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21551756/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21551756/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 14:17:22 PST THANKS GUYS!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21534993/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21534993/ Mon, 17 Nov 2008 13:41:10 PST to whom we please but one kiss.


Article 1:

Statement of Love:
The Kiss


1.Kiss on the hand
I adore you

2. Kiss on the cheek
I just want to be friends

3. Kiss on the neck
I want you

4.Kiss on the lips
I love you

5.Kiss on the ears
I am just playing

6.Kiss anywhere else
lets not get carried away


7. Look in your eyes
kiss me

8.Playing with your hair

I can't live without you

9. Hand on your waist
I love you to much to let you go


Article 2:
The Three Steps


1. Girls:
If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.

2. Guys
If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.

3.Guys & Girls
Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to
stare.

Article 3:
The Commandments


1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.

2.Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.

3.Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.

* Remember *

A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes, and give your tongue some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons
why guys
like girls:

1. They will always smell good
even if its just shampoo

2. The way their heads always
find the right spot on our shoulder

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms

5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world

6. How cute they are when they eat

7. The way they take hours to get dressed
but in the end it makes it all worth while

8.Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think
she's the most beautiful thing on this earth

11. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds yours

13. The way they smile

14. The way you feel when you see their name
on the call ID after you just had a big fight

15. The way she says 'lets not fight anymore'
even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them

17.The way they kiss you when you say 'I love you'

18.
Actually ... just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize
when it does hurt. (even though
we don't admit it)!

23. The way they say 'I miss you'

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want to
change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them,
hate them, wish they would die or
know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to the depths of their souls
and you say a million things without trace of
a sound, you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed within
the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

*

This chain started in 1887.
It is a love chain letter.....................................

In an hour you are supposed to send it to 25 people.
It is easy, just look into chat rooms and find them.
Anyway, send it to 25 people in 1 hour..
Now here comes the fun part.
You then say the name of the person you like or love and then the person will say 'I love you,' or 'Will you go out with me?'

NO JOKE!!!!!


NOW

THE CONSEQUENCES


The consequences are:

If you break the chain letter,
you will have bad luck in future
relationships. If you don't
break the chain, then you will be a
happy camper!!!

CoNgRatULaTioNs!!

You have been chosen
to participate
in the
LONGEST
and the
LUCKIEST
chain letter on the Internet!
Once you read, this letter you must
IMMEDIATELY
(meaning within
the hour)
be sent to
25
people After
you send it,
make... ]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21436525/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21436525/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 11:04:50 PST . Anyhoo, we went to the local 'Harvest Foods' store to pick up some cheese to nibble on along with our tasty summer sausage (that we left at wal-mart, Way-to-go mom). There was a homeless man in the store. He had an old worn-out flannel coat, his hair was zig-zagged, and he didn't smell all the pretty as he walked by. But this man made me think. He was in this store buying food, unlike other homeless people you see who buy boose instead of food. If they are only going to drink alcohol instead of buying things to help them live, there is no point of them even having money. They are only wasting money. Most of these people are honerable men who fought in wars. It's very sad to see them. I've always wondered how they ended up there. But yea...I've gotta go...Byes!

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21419412/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21419412/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 11:12:43 PST
Oh and christina I'm gonna need your science notes tomarrow loll.

]]> ~xPurplexTearsx http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21358877/ http://xPurplexTearsx.deviantart.com/journal/21358877/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 14:45:50 PST
Well first of all, I have beg plans for this weekend, not going to ruin them, by telling everyone, but the few who know, feel free to comment on it! Nothing bad though! Tsk Tsk Tsk.

Um, Well...Thats about the only thing I've been thinking about XD. I'm very excited though. I just need to get away from all this drama, that I happily told my friend to kiss my ass, because she was a waste of my time. But now she wants to act like it never happened, all I wanna do is tell'er I don't want to be your friend right now, all this crap that I've put up with, I just don't want to be acting like nothing was wrong.

Saturday we are leaving out early Saturday to head to the moutains and stay up there for a while. WAKE UP EARLY BABE! Yes it is true, my love is coming with me on this well needed two-day-get-away. I just can not wait!

I was thinking that we go out early saturday and sunday morning with my grandpa and watch the deer come in and feed on the food-plot. Then after sitting up there in the peace for a few hours, not long, then head back to the cabin, eat breakfast if we haven't already. Then after that, I take him down to the main DR and drive him around. Show him a few things. We will be stuck at the cabin most of the time, but we will find ways to have fun. You NEVER get bored up there.
I hope he doesn't get mad at the thought of not really getting out much, but when next fourth of July comes around, I'm dragging him and only him up there. I'm only allowed one friend to go with me, and he's the only one that I want up there. Mainly because of our lack of time spent together. ILY!

We will have fun though.
Well I have to go, TTFN!!!!

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