http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xThornDancerX&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xThornDancerX en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 17:08:40 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/15672156/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/15672156/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 22:03:27 PST I'm giving y'alll my email address.. if you want to email me to stay in touch.. just in case I have to delete my account.
My email address.. is thorn_dancer93@yahoo.com

EMAIL ME!!! RAWR!!!
I LOVE YOU, GUYS!!!
RAWK ON!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/15441909/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/15441909/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 23:05:27 PST My dad saw the pictures I posted on here.. and freaked. Lol. So... maybe since I deleted them I won't have to delete my account. Cross your fingers. I Love you guys and I have missed y'all so much. This may be the last journal entry... for me. Waaaa!! Whatever you do... don't stop rawking and don't stop strutting your stuff here on DA! You guys RAWK!! WOO!!! RAWK ON!!

Tootle loos... for now, I hope.

Thorn

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/14573539/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/14573539/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 10:20:36 PDT I'm working on a few things to post... I've got a few pics... so I guess I will go ahead and post those. Lol.
Hope you enjoy!

Hanzi and I are doing pretty good. I've talked to Lauren and literally cussed her out... letting her know that Hanzi is serious this time about not wanting her anymore. I told her not to call me or him... and so far... it's worked. Lmao! I Love Hanzi!

Meggy is coming to "Where the living is easy" in March!! I can't wait! I miss her so much! RAWR! Oh, her deviantart user name is Mirrored Illusions. x]
Love you lots, Meggy!!

Well, I'm going to go ahead and post those pics.. I will try to write again as soon as possible!

In the middle of life without a paddle,

----THorn---

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13987320/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13987320/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 13:50:06 PDT Thanks!!!!



1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?


Please answer soon!! I'm impatient!!!


I'm going on a date with Hanzi tonight! Wish me luck and I shall give you the updates later!! x]]

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13939333/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13939333/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 10:00:56 PDT
Jazz Dancing
Ballet
Gymnastics
Choreography
Pointe
Track
Soccer
Cheerleading(which I wouldn't mind doing but, I absolutely HATE!! Heh... bad experiences.)

I wish they had girl football here... because I would definitely join the team. I Luff FOotBalL!!
So... there are my options and I really need some opinions. Thank You!
Have a good day!! I'm going to go bake a slide!!

Seriously,
Thorn

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13856650/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13856650/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 07:54:23 PDT Well, I have some disturbing news... Hanzi and I are surprisingly back together. But, this time it is totally different. This probably doesn't sound to promising to you guys, but that's only because you haven't met him, he said that he promised that he would never go over and work at Lauren's house anymore. And this weekend he told me he was going to buy me a promise ring. *sighs* I know you may think I'm crazy to be giving him a third chance but... I really can't see me with anybody else but him. It's something my heart has held on to ever since I met him. -__- I just can't let him go.
Yesterday, was my brother's 13th birthday. Aargh! I feel so OLD!!Even though I am only 18 months older than him... it seems like yesterday I was just holding him. Today, he's a teenager. A zit faced teenager with a squeaky changing voice. Lol... his personality is more stubborn and his head is getting harder. Lmao!
Sometime at the beginning of the month, just before my vacation, my dog was diagnosed with heart worms. He was lying on the couch moaning and crying because they were hurting him so bad. My dad took him to the vet, while of course I was crying, and brought him back with lots of medications and drugs. Alot of you are probably thinking that crying over a dog is stupid. But, he is my best friend. I've known him ever since he was a small puppy... if I lose him I will lose one of my best friends. *sighs*
Well, I think I've updated enough for now. I will try to get back to you later.

Love always,
Thorn

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13521551/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13521551/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 06:21:12 PDT Ergh! I just don't know. I think I may still like him... and I think I may just want to go and give him a big hug and tell him sorry... but I also want to get my pocket knife and carve his heart out. Ergh! My mind's telling me one thing and my heart is telling me another. I don't know which one to listen to. *sighs* Please... help?
I really need some help...

A confused conscience,

Thorn

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13481166/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13481166/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 05:53:47 PDT the thoughts he gave me...
the feelings that he put upon me...
the love that we had...

I thought all of them were good. Heh... I actually thought they were true and.... and... normal. But they were all fake! FAKE FAKE FAKE!

Now... he's about to hurt someone else... only to get revenge. I don't know how to stop it. Even though Lauren deserves being hurt.... she doesn't need to be hurt. I can't let him do this to her. I know how it feels and ... I know how this girl is and she's very sensitive. *sighs* I'm not that sensitive but I cried my freakin' guts out. Just think of what she may do. Oh, gosh. I got to stop this. I don't know how!! Help?? Can any of you smart people help me??? I really need it!! PLEASE!! Aargh!

A swirl in the water with no ripple in sight,

Thorn

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]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13366942/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13366942/ Sat, 16 Jun 2007 09:34:06 PDT
I am having second thoughts on being with Hanzi.
He has been acting weirder than usual lately...
I think he still likes Lauren. He acts as if he does even though he tells me he don't. I think our second break up may be coming soon and I will be the one calling quits this time. *sighs and hangs head in shame* I don't think I can take it anymore.
I went to VBS all of last week with Em&em. We had a blast! w00t! I met awhole lot of new people. Mostly guys.. heh. This guy named Zack said he liked me... which made me think... what if there's a chance I like him back? *sighs* -_-' I am so confuzled.
Geez! I need counseling. Lmao!
Wells, I'm going to go for now... I need to find a pig with cat ears. Byies!


Love with Luff,

>--Thorn-->

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13230564/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13230564/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 16:55:02 PDT I am SOOO glad I am home!!! I traveled through nine states in one week. *sighs*
Yesterday was awesome! I did nothing but sit around the house. w00t!
I talked to Hanzi all day. xD <33
Last night I was on the computer last night (sorry I didn't stop by) talking to Hanzi, Brittnay(it's a he), and CeddyBear(another he). Lmao! They were all emailing back and forth to each other and me. Heh. THey started a big fight... and Hanzi as usual got mad and jealous and stopped emailing me. Lmao! We talked about it today and made mends. Heh. <33
Well, I don't have anything new for you guys... Meh be sorries. I haven't been writing as much, lately. *sighs* V.V' That's very weird for me to say. Lmao! I gotta go grease a muddy cabinet!! Laterz!

-->Thorn<--

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13208401/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13208401/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 22:11:56 PDT
I haven't been on in a long time...
lmao
I have been on a road trip for the past few weeks and I could only use my dad's laptop. I don't think he would approve of my deviantart. lmao! xD
I have been feeling weirder than usual lately. Only because of what Granny Dancer(Lauren) sent Hanzi. Ergh! She sent pictures of herself naked to him. She wants him so bad onlt because I have him. Gah! I don't think he's worth it. I'm not going to fight her for him so Hanzi's just going to have to pick. I will be upset if he choses her over me but I will be even more upset if he goes on with me and secretely likes her. That just makes me worried. She's 12 for heaven's sake!!! Ergh! I should write a poem shouldn't I? Lmao! My life is a country song... *sighs*
SOrry I haven't been posting alot... I have been majorly busy or gone and didn't really care about it. *gasps* Did I just say that??
Well, I think I'm going to go for now. I should be home tomorrow (I'm at my grandmother's house right now). I will probably get my life back to normal(<
Love always in virtualality,
<--Thorn--<<

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13092939/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13092939/ Fri, 25 May 2007 19:30:37 PDT [ ] 12
[ ] 13
[ ] 14
[ ] 15
[ ] 16
[ ] 17
[ ] 18
[ ] 19
[ ] 20
[ ] 21
[ ] 22
[ ] 23
[ ] 24
[ ] 25
[ ] 26
[ ] 27

Describe me in 5 words
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

Would you rather..
[] Do me
Or
[] Date me

Do I have pretty eyes?
[] Yes
[ ] No

Do you like my body?
[] Yes
[ ] No

Would you come visit me?
[] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] Maybe

Am I..
[] Hot
[] Beautiful
[] Sexy
[] Cute
[]Other____(Specify)

Would you rather..
[] Make out
[] Cuddle
[] Go out

Do you want to go out with me?
[ ] Yes
[ ] No

Would you give me your number?
[] Yes
[ ] No
[ ] maybe

If so what's your number?
(DONT ANSWER THIS ONE)


How do your really feel about me?

Are you going to repost this so I can answer for YOU?
[] Yes
[ ] No

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13009616/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/13009616/ Sat, 19 May 2007 06:10:42 PDT I stole this from a friend's friend. lmao!
THis... I guess will tell you alittle more about myself.





Anorexia
[] you hate your body.
[] you have starved yourself.
[] you have low self esteem.
[] you use laxatives.
[] you need to be skinnier.
[] people always say you're skinny, but you think fat.
[] people think you are way too skinny.
[] You skip at least one meal a day.
[] You limit your calories or check them constantly by compulsion.
total: 0

ADHD
[X] you are hyper most of the time.
[] you barely pay attention to anything.
[] you cannot cooperate with people well.
[X] you seem to never sit still.
[] you talk all the time.
[] you need attention 24/7.
[] You aren't very shy.
total: 2

Bipolar Disorder
[X] you can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
[] you are very irritable.
[X] you barely get any or no sleep.
[X] you have very high self esteem at times.
[X] you are have used or abuse alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[X] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[X] you have the worst mood swings of anyone you know.
total: 6

Bulimia Nervosa
[] You've thrown up all your food at one time
[] you thrown it up even when you don't feel sick.
[X] you have no control over how you eat.
[] you use laxatives.
[X] you eat fast.
[X] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[] you always say you are fat.
[X] people think you are way too skinny.
total: 4

Conduct Disorder
[] you are a bully.
[X] you threaten other people.
[] you often find yourself in fights.
[X] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[] you have raped/molested someone.
[X] you destroy property on purpose.
[] you always lie.
[X] you've stayed out all night.
[X] you have ran away from home.
total: 3

Depression
[X] you are always, or normally, feel sad.
[] you always, or normally, are crying.
[X] you find no hope in your future.
[X] you find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[X] you always find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[X] you have low self esteem.
[] everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[X] hope is no longer there for you.
total: 7

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] you have harmed yourself.
[] you are afraid you will get an STD, or AIDS.
[] you have to check some stuff over again.
total: 2

Schizophrenia / Anxiety
[X] you often have hallucinations or sudden memories you can't escape.
[x] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[X] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[x] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.
Total: 5

My Total over all is: 29

Lmao! I guess it's the higher it is the worse it is. Hmmm.... is 29 bad? 0.o Aah! omfg!! What if it's really bad?? *starts breathing heavy* I have something wrong with me!! Aah! No!!! Ergh! Calm Thorn, calm. *sighs* Okies.
Yesterday was a Friday and I did avsolutely nothing... as usual. Well I did go to Dothanna with my folks.
I'm helping my BFF MirroredIllusions write a story. It's going to be so freaking awesome! We have it all layed out and everything. Maybe, if we get it finished, we will post it on here. xD THat would be awesome!! xD w00t!! xD
I'm supposed to be going to BooksAMillion today. Yiiippeeee!!! I Luff BooksAMillion!! THey have the best mangas EVER!! I'm going to look for a new series to start. Since Bizenghast hasn't put out any new ones. Well, atleast I don't think they have. If they have then I haven't seen it. Well, I better get goin'. I need to call Hanzi and let him know why I didn't call him back last night.

Love always,

<--Thorn--<

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12925221/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12925221/ Sat, 12 May 2007 05:50:26 PDT
I am happy as ever. But I don't think it will last long... Love got me in the rear. *Sighs* I hate cupid!! I'm going to KILL HIM!! Mwahahaha!
Hanzi and I are back together. NO WAY! I know some of y'all are probably thinking that I shouldn't have gotten back with him (if you have been reading my previous journals) but everybody deserves a second chance, right? I found out that Lauren was only 12 years old... Heh. She isn't even a teenager yet. LMAO! I feel so stupid when I worry about Peter still liking her. I dunno why... *shrugs* She got her a new victim and everything. Her newest victim is a 17 year old. Lol. I feel sorry for him. lmao!
I went to graduation for BCF yesterday. It was awesome! I got to see Summy and The Rat. xD They are my old friends that moved and I haven't seen them since last year. THe Rat is as tall as I am. Sheesh. -_-" I feel short now. Hanzi came to graduation also. He got to meet Summy and The Rat so he would be able to match a voice to a face. xD
I'm supposed to go to a mother's daughter's banquet tonight. *sighs* I have to decorate a table with Hope. YOu know, the sign of hope is an anchor. I just thought that was weird. Lmao!
Well, I'm going to go for awhile... I might be back on soon. Only if my brother isn't hogging the computer. Lmao!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12824856/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12824856/ Thu, 03 May 2007 06:49:09 PDT I have had some great yesterdays.
Monday,
Ceddy was at Gymnastics and he got me in trouble... so I had to do hand stand push ups. I got up to forty and collapsed.*Sighs* I have alot of people coming to my recital. Most of them are going to be people I don't even know. Ergh! I am so nervous. We just got our Jazz routine finished and I have a few parts where I need to touch up on... and the recital is the 22nd of this month. AAh!
Tuesday,
I did absolutely nothing all day Tuesday.
Tuesday afternoon, my uncle called and said they were on their way down here to visit us. Well they got here and... they caught the alligator in our pond(that's right in our backyard). LMao! It's not that big... Hmmm.. maybe I should post the picture I took of iton DA. I dunno it's not that good. lol. And that's about all that happend Tuesday.
Wednesday,
I finally got to sleep in. *Sighs* THat was a relief.
That afternoon my ubcle and his crew went to Panama while my mom and I stayed home and babysat their daighter Brena. I have an awesome picture of her I am going to post on DA. And yes, I took it. Lol. Wednesday night, I went to church and played football with a beer bottle. Lmao! It was hilarious.
ANd I can't tell you what's going to happen today so... I'll save it for tomorrow. Oh! But I can tell you that we might be going to the homeschool meeting today. *Sighs* I don't know if I want to go. Hanzi will be there and I think I'm alittle jealous of him. Lol.
Well, I better stop here so I can save some words for tomorrow. Lol.

Aliitle nervous with a dab of jealousy,

><

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12786828/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12786828/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 05:56:16 PDT
I had so much fun Saturday!! I was woken up(at 7:30 a.m.) by a phone call asking to see if I was going to help with a carwash. Well, I thought and thought and I decided to go. I went and had a blast!! I want to thank EM&em and RayRay for inviting me!! I love you guys!
We only washed 10 cars... but it felt like a million(because most of them were big and dirty). THe best part was when we got to hold the signs up near the road. Oh! We had this thing in the Piggly Wiggly parking lot. Ok, back to what I was saying... the best part of the whole thing was holding the signs up near the road... we got three semi-trucks to honk at us(with the little hand motion thingie) and lots of whistling. It was fun... until my dad showed up. Lmao! When he left we decided to let the little kids hold the signs. Lol.
I got sunburnt... Lol. But I had fun getting sunburnt! When I got home... I was greeted by a really good friend of mine, Tink (not her real name). She asked me to teach her how to do a front handspring on the trampoline. So, I spent the rest of my afternon teaching her how to do a front handspring. lol. She never got it either. Oh, well.
*sighs*
Yesterday wasn't really a ... happy day. I was feeling crabby and I didn't really want to go anywhere. I went to church that morning and listened to my dad preach a good sermon and then that afternoonm we went to a different church to hear my dad preach again to people he hardly knew. Lmao! He did an awesome job! Hanzi called while I was gone and we got back too late... so I couldn't call him. I had my cell phone and I thought about calling him on my cell but I don't have that many minutes and so I decided not to. I will call him later on this afternoon. Maybe, after gymnastics. Hopefully Ceddy will be at Gymnastics. He wasn't there last week because we were taking pictures and plus he was sick. lmao!
Well, I'm going to stop here.
Thanks for reading!

A flexible body with a cramped heart,

><

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12751754/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12751754/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 07:17:50 PDT
We went to the homeschool meeting and it was fun. We played basketball and football. Oh! Hanzi came!! He came right in the middle of our basketball game. *Sighs* He fit right in. I feel as if he fit in more than I did. He introduced himself ... so I didn't have to do that. And he made really good friends with... 'Mickey Mouse'. That's scary because 'Mickey Mouse' is the guy that I'm starting to like now and if I tell Hanzi that... he will try to do what he did last time his gf broke up with him for his bestfriend. Ergh! Why is it like this?? I hate LOVE!!
I'm going to calm
D
O
W
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The Lock-In was canceled because most of the guys weren't coming. I don't see why they canceled it just because they aren't going. I could've brought enough people to fill that place up. *Sighs* All of my plans for the weekend are ruined because of them. Lol. Now I have to go to Wal-Mart with my mom and dad. I hate going to Wal-Mart with them... they take FOREVER! I hate crowds... I hate shopping and I hate LOVE!!! ERGH! I better stop typing before I get really mad and take it out on y'all. Lmao!

Just another faded heart with alittle tear,

><

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12727775/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12727775/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 08:41:13 PDT I have had some pretty boring days this week. Usually we have tons of stuff happening but so far.... nothing has come up.
Oh! I get to go to the lock- in Friday! WooHoo! Em&em was so excited when I told her. Lmao!
Tomorrow, we are going to the homeschool meeting and my mom invited Mrs. T (Hanzi's mom) to come with her two boys (Hanzi and Johnny). Mrs. T called last night saying that she is going to try her best to make it to the homeschool meeting. *sighs* I'm not looking forward to that. I am going to be the only one there that knows him. I'm going to have to introduce him(unless he introduces himself). Ergh! Hopefully I'll get sick before then... lmao! HAnd over some snot rags and cough on me unto you puke! xD
OMG! I can't believe my gymnastics teacher.... she gave us those small little bitty costumes to wear for the recital. And they are pink! Ergh! I am supposed to do flips in that thing. I'm going to have wear Tough SKin to get them to stay in place, so they won't ride up. Lmao! The good thing is... I'm wearing tights. So.. that might help alittle.
Well, I better stop typing before I poor my whole life out on ya. ROFLMFAO!

A little smile with a twisted mind,

>< Thorn ><

P.S. THanks for your support!! x]

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12664446/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12664446/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 07:03:05 PDT
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

1-The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you

And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still


*Shivers* Scary... I don't know if I still like him like that... Alot of people have been telling me that he's just using me and that I'm just his chick on the side. I don't know... He ... he... ERGH! I hate life!! I don't know what to do or what to say or how to say it.
I'm not mad at him it's not his fault it's actually my fault for getting myself in this shit. I'm the one that told him I liked him first and he's the one that told me he liked me back. *Sighs* I have no idea what to do... please... if you have anything that will help... please... let me know!!

Cofused depression covered by a smile,

><

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12656287/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12656287/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 14:52:05 PDT !). I don't exactly know how old he is but he sounds 13 or older. He didn't come last week because he had a stomach virus and we all know how that goes... Lol. He came this week and this was the first time he has seen me since my haircut. He wouldn't stop staring at me... Lol.. scary but in a good way. Lol. *Smiles shyly*

When he smiles
I melt
When he laughs
I smile
When we touch only out of game (as in when he tags me when we play tag or some other game that you have to use touching in)
I grow wings
Just think how I would fel if he felt the same way...

Hey, I think I'm going to upload that as a deviant... Hmmm... Yeah and maybe add alittle more.
Ok, I'm going to stop talking about this guy.

OMG!! I cannot believe Sanjaya got voted out of Idol last night!! THat is so... so... WRONG!! He was good and you all know it!! Ergh! If you didn't vote for Sanjaya then shame on you... Mwaha! *Points at those with suspicious looks* Mwahaha!! Ok, I need someone else to talk to... I'm off to Gaia people. Lol.

A little girl with a big crush,

><

P.S. Shout out To MEGIZZLE!!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12652155/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12652155/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 08:02:01 PDT
Nothing special has happend at all this week...

Sherlock(Hanzi) lost cell phone service so I haven't been able to text him and it's driving me INSANE!! Because I'm used to texting him all night and parts of the day. I wish I could just call him and talk to him but his mom won't let me talk to him because it's too early during the day to talk to him. Bluh. >xP I don't like him as more than a friend anymore... he's not boyfriend material. I found that out the hard way...ROFLMFAO!

I am SOOOO BORED!! I'm going to go jump off a bridge!
Oh! THat reminds me... Sherlock and I have decided to steal my dad's F-350 and drive to Cali to jump off of Golden Gate Bridge. xD It sounds like fun doesn't it? Mwaha!

I'm supposed to go to a homeschool meeting today but I don't know if I want to go if I am feeling like I just got ran over by an eighteen wheeler. Lol. I'm still going to talk to SHerlock about going... Or... Or... maybe I can invite him over here while my mom and dad are gone. ... Sounds like a plan. Mwaha!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12615803/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12615803/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 07:44:07 PDT Well, just alittle.
The past few days have been nothing.
Wke up, eat, do school, and go back to bed. Except for Sunday.
I am a church person, so I went to church.

I did have some fun Saturday night. I snuck out and went to Hardees. Lol. It was fun. And I was in my PJ's also. Heh. On my way there I was texting Hanzi. He was pretending to be a guardian angel. Lol. Yeah, he's sord of out of it. I'm still alittle mad at him but I know I will get over it. I feel as if I won't but I know I will.

There's a lock- in coming up the 24th and I really want to go. There is going to be mostly all boys and only a few girls. I really, really want to go. For those of you who don't know what a lock-in is .... It's where you have to stay up all night locked in a room with other people. Usually they have games and stuff for you to play, and lots of food. If I go... I'll spend the night with a bunch of guys. (It's not like I haven't done it before) *Winks* Lol...jk. But my parents are still thinking abouth their decision and es they know about all the guys that are going.... I didn't tell them, it's just my dad was the youth teacher for VBS last year. I only know of one girl that's coming and she is one of my closest friends... Em&em!! WooT!

Well, I better get back to my game before my mom and dad get home.

I Love you guys!!

Love always,

><

P.S. Shout out to: Em&em!!!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12583221/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12583221/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 16:41:07 PDT I invited Hanzi to come and he never showed up.
I'm Pissed at the moment an I have nothing to say to you peoples.
Sorry for the grumpiness. I love you guys but, I just don't have nothing to say.

So, I'm going to close this journal for another day or two.
Later freaks!

Love always,

>< Thorn ><

P.S. *Huggles for the Muggles*

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12550135/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12550135/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 07:28:56 PDT I got to talk to Hanzi over MSN. He wasn't able to talk long, because he was doing "school". Psh... I bet he was doing school.
I wrote a few poems last night. I've been obsessed with getting my routine together so all of my poems are about parts of my routine... you shoulod check them out.
Well, I'm going to go for now. *sighs*

Love always,

><

P.S. Thanks for the support on my poetry!!
You guys ROCK!!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12537147/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12537147/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 09:19:44 PDT All I did yesterday was play Gaia and talk on MSN. Oh! And I did get on here to update my journal! xD
I went to Shipley (Not the city's realy name) and ate luch with my mom and my brother. We had an awesome time!

Later, that evening, I went to Dance. For those of you who didn't know, I'm a Jazz dancer and a gymnast. I wouldn't say that I'm very good, but I can be good. xD We added on to our routine, that we are going to perform in front of hundreds of people, and it was confusing.
I'm going to see if I can get a private lesson so I can catch up.

Well, I hope you people enjoyed my new deviations!
ROCK ON!!

A friend with Love,

>< thorn ><


P.S. LOVE YA LOTS MIRRORED ILLUSIONS!!!!!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12520186/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12520186/ Mon, 09 Apr 2007 05:37:57 PDT Well, Happy Late Easter! I'm sorry I didn't get to wish you a happy easter on easter. Lol.
Yesterday morning, I went to church and we had our Easter Cantada , which was kind of BORING! And then that afternoon we went back to where we used to live to see my grandmother.
We went "easter egg hunting" Lol.I found the prize egg!! WOOt! Go me!! *Does the chicken dance*

I also got my haircut. I didn't use to have bangs... but now I do!! My grannie also layered it. I really love it!

I haven't heard from Hanzi in a couple of days...
I hope he's doing ok. In the letter, he wrote that he was scared.
THat's weird because I would never think of him as being scared.

Well, I hope you all had an awesome Easter! I would like to hear your story. I love you guys!!

Love always,

><

P.S. Mirrored Illusions!! WoOt!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12499202/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12499202/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 16:30:43 PDT Hanzi, sent me a letter telling me he still loved me and that he always will.
I am so confused... if he loves me then why is he with her??
Why does he want me to wait for him when he's with her??
Does he love her more than me??

In the envelope he sent me a ring also. I don't know what to do with it... Should I send it back? Should I wear it? Does this mean there's a possibility of us getting back together? Aah!! I'm drowning in these questions that I have tried to ask and he hasn't given me any answers. I need help... if any of you people have any help, I would really appreciate it!

A confused friend with Love,

><

P.S. Love ya lots Illusion-Chan!!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12468157/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12468157/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 09:26:40 PDT Lol... I got advice from this dude on the internet about my ex... Ok... here's the story.: Hanzi(my ex) and I met over a walkie talkie, and at that time we met he was going out with Lauren. Well Him and Lauren broke up and I told him that I liked him and he said he liked me back and we started going out. Well, Last month he said he didn't like that we were friends before our GF BF relationship. SO he decided to break up with me. Well, maybe a week after the break up, Lauren, emailed me saying her and Hanzi were back together. That made me so mad and confused... I told Hanzi that I will always love him and even if I had to wait on him I would... Well, I talked to this guy about it on Gaia (my totally fave online game!!) and he said that Hanzi is just using me as a back up and that I shouldn't be treated like that. He told me that I should tell him to stop coming to me when his heart is broken by another girl. He said that Hanzi is just using my love as a cover up... I really loved him and I see now that he never really loved me. Do any of you people have something to say that will help me?? I would really love your help. xD

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12454303/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12454303/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 08:35:23 PDT
Yesterday was a tiring day. I woke up early just to go to some stupid Camp Victory thing with our homeschool group (Yup, I'm homeschooled). All we did was listen to stories, canoeing (I think I spelled that wrong), and helped clean up afterwards. But the cool thing was, I met alot of new people. I like meeting new people.
After Camp Victory, Hanzi (not his real name) came and picked me up, and we went to a 4-H banquet... which was kind of interesting. He was acting hyper as usual and I was the quiet one. THe only way I am quiet is when I'm around alot of people, if you get me alone, or with a group of friends, I can be loud... very loud to be exact. Oh yeah, btw Hanzi is my ex. Lol. I thought I should mention that.
Well I'm going to go for now so I can work on more poetry to post for you.


Love always,

><

P.S. *hugs* For MirroredIllusions!!!

]]> ~xThornDancerX http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12429298/ http://xThornDancerX.deviantart.com/journal/12429298/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 10:45:15 PDT I am new to this site.... my friend Mirrored Illusions introduced me to it and I absolutely fell in love with it. I am not an artist but I love to write. I decided to sign up and share my poetry with you all. I am not that good but I figured that I could get some help from the ones that are good.

Well, I'm going to go browse... Talk to you folks later.

Love always,

><


P.S. RANDOM SHOUT-OUT TO MY HOMIE: MIRRORED ILLUSIONS!!!

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