http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xXlive-freelyXx&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xXlive-freelyXx en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 01:18:37 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/28034144/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/28034144/ Thu, 29 Oct 2009 17:52:35 PDT i'm so happy
things. man. senior year is tough. college apps are stressful. i already grew ONE GREY HAIR. D8 sad stuff.

HOWEVER
I BOUGHT MARKERS
24pk triart, 24pk tria shounen, 2 skin copics, and 1 prisma mixer

i'm so content with them. however, i still need to practicee. my crap is still crappy. xD

to those who wanted that free sketch from me: I DID THEM. D8 i just havent posted them up yet. (mom) yuup. please forgive me. i didnt forget

boys are weird. no offense. lol

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/26569704/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/26569704/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 13:20:26 PDT

The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a sketch, free. However, in return, you must offer 10 free sketches in your own journal. If you've already done 10 Free Sketches, simply link the journal entry in your comment: You still qualify

I am doing this remember these are sketches~

1. done
2. done
3. done
4. done
5. done
6. done
7.
8.
9.
10.

*small side note:
it'll take me while, though. no, not to draw. just to post. -___- blame my mom.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/26388553/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/26388553/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 19:39:58 PDT after summer school (i took gov btw, cuz my senior year schedule would hold nothing more because im taking 2 science classes this year), all i do now is study, study, eat, poop, study, sleep, (maybe play gameboy)

i barely drew anything! especially because my mom hates it when i draw, and rips up anything that she finds. (i'm not kidding.)
but i am currently drawing something , and i'm trying to hide it from my mom, because im sure this will turn out into something...not as bad as what i usually draw hahaa..

yea. i havent been out of the house in days. somebody save me. abduct me, kidnap me, drug me, etc. something.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/25684596/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/25684596/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 22:39:40 PDT then 4th grade, when i got yelled at for walking around.
then junior high, when i got picked on so much.
then freshman year, when i nearly went down the deep side.

NOW. i've finally become a seniorr! it's pretty weird to say this, but i'm sad. my days as a child/adolescent is coming to an end, and in a few months, i will have to grow up and BE a grownup.
even if i've been through some really sad stuff (the strict asian thing; beatings, nagging, etc), i know i'll miss all the fun and good stuff that i've been through the last 15-16 years of my life.
as to all of you who've been there for me, or just been there in my life, i say with all gratefulness, thank you.

BLAHBLAHBLAHHHHHHHHH
sorry. i hate being really serious
hahahahaha!
OH DUDE
BTW. almost 4000 pageviews! just 223 to go!
lol thats a lot.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23926695/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23926695/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 00:37:43 PDT thanks for watching my stuff guys
man i was like, counting for it. just waiting til it hit 3000
LMAO.

i appreciate all of you for looking at my stuff, even when it looks like complete shitt!
hahahahahaha. thankss!

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23806474/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23806474/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 00:02:03 PDT goodnight.


ARGH I HATE AP BIOLOGY.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23734265/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23734265/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 17:34:32 PDT [link]

:\ i need to get rid of him without hurting his feelings. thats kinda hard.
-___- *sighh.
i wish i was five again.


THEN AGAIN. i got rid of SATs. yay kudos to the ppl who wished me luckk.

my friend told me to...ask the guy i like out, to get rid of the sopho. and im like,.... i dont know if i could. what should i do?! URGH.

photoshop. yay.
LMAO. i havent used it properly in months. back to my addictionnn!
MUAHAHHAA.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23516265/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23516265/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 21:57:43 PST i hate SATs. waste of my life.

mannn. i just noticed so much of my stuff now on devart is like. over 50% pictures? not sure. but a lot these days.
i realized that i havent used photoshop for over 2(?) months now. crazy right?
anyways. i need some models for my pictures. i cant have only one ().
anyone want to participate?

mmmmmmmmmmm i need new liquid eyeliner. im running out. 0___0

how do i reject this sophomore guy? hes getting way creepy.
i just realized the word "creeper" is used a lot these days.

wow. okay.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23225953/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/23225953/ Sun, 15 Feb 2009 23:08:24 PST just kidding. i need to get rid of the SATs again, thistime, at least a 1900 >__>
if i dont, im a failure as an asian.
I WANT UCSD. or UCD. both are good.


i am currently:
single.
and hating it

someone find me a guy
AHAHAHHA!

>_____> man im bored.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/22855534/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/22855534/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 00:09:00 PST and so depressed. *sighh*

i want to shoot myself in the head. over and over again.
its hard living life.

i cant seem to like him anymore. its heartshattering.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/22811974/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/22811974/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 20:04:31 PST 1. kiss a boy ;D my lips are still virgin AHHAHA.
2. jump off an airplane (though i may die when i land lol)
3. dye my hair bright pink lol

Three Names You Go By:
1. pamela
2. pam
3. pammy -_-

Four Screen Names You Have Had:
1. aznpuppy826(aim)
2. xxuhksoh
3. panda1117
4. xxsolidd.uhksoh

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1. nada
2. nada
3. nada

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1. chinese?
2. taiwanese?
3. asian? LOL

Three Things That Scare You:
1. i dont know the meaning of fear! ;D
2. i dont know the meaning of fear! ;D
3. i dont know the meaning of fear! ;D except for online weirdos LOL

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1. music
2. sleep
3. internet

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. gray t-shirt
2. black jeans
3. undies? LOL

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1. utada hikaru
2. may day
3. superjunior! LOL

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1. first love
2. 人生海海
3. 戀愛ing

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1. honesty
2. equalityy!
3. time together

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1. i once drew on my face with highlighter when i was little ;D
2. i dyed my hair black
3. i have a pink bike

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. Drawing
2. photoshopping
3. singing

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1. GO
2. TO
3. the restroom ;D

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1. vet
2. haircutting
3. artist? O_o

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1. japan
2. italy
3. taiwan

Three Names You Like:
1. Bridget
2. Mila
3. Mary-sue

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1. makeup
2. obsessed about my weight
3. i freak out about ppl touching my hair lol

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1. i have a lot of muscle. i mean. A LOT. ;D
2. i like rugby! AHAHA.
3. i like violent/freaky scary movies


oh yeah. happy chinese new year, everyone ;D

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/22018787/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/22018787/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 16:16:57 PST MAnn. junior year is starting to get the best of me D:
so tiringg...
any tips, alumni, seniors?

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/21523309/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/21523309/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 17:46:12 PST sorry if i havent been replying you guys,, junior year is really getting the best (and worst) out of me ;w;
MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMRRO im excitedd, sweet sixteen hahaa~ just kiddingg, i think my birthdays are so depressinggg roflmao. i never get to have any parties TwT

anyways,, I LOVE YOU GUYS :3 random,, i know, but still,. im content with life, as of today :]
and me and the guy i like; we're getting closer each and every day ... its most likely friendzoned, but still. being friends is better than having broken relationships and never ever talking to each other again, right? C8 well, its only my opinion, so whateverr.

ill ttyl :]

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/20272617/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/20272617/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 13:28:09 PDT
and why im on the computer right now, cuz my parents arent home. -__- i hate being sneaky like this, its annoying.
i want to sketch new designs of clothes (keeter knows, right?) ... D: man, this summers been a drag.

BAMF.
ahaha. random.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/18713791/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/18713791/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 12:22:01 PDT graduation's on the 12th.
im gonna miss so many of my friends :[
and im soooooooo not looking forward to next year. seriously, i mean, one AP was enough. 3 APs is murder. GAHHH.
i hate school. = =
i have to take summer school too this year. D: THIS SUCKS~~~~

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]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/18455639/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/18455639/ Thu, 22 May 2008 22:27:40 PDT tragic roleplay, where everyone in the end DIES.
its like,,
a vamp/demon/angel story...lol
iono.
maybe ill post it uphere sometime.
:] who knows.

OMFG. i found this hair dye
that i REALLY WANT
its like,, from palty, and its "peach chocolate"
i dont want to get in trouble
but its fun to dye hair hahahahha~
im getting eyelash serum soon. hopefully i can get big and pretty eyelashes
hm. mineral wear powder works wonderfully. muahaha.

blech. new topic. OK. so i finally found my wacom drawing tablet. ive been using it,,, soso amount of times. not that many. i still prefer mouse,, even though it isnt as accurate and stuff. i keep drawing during class, so maybe ill post up new drawings up here. since my photoshopped pics are like crap anyways. XD my friend sasha told me to put up my old drawings. unfortunately, i cant find any. i think i shredded them. its like,, whenever i see any past drawings, i usually think they look like crap, so i destroy them and make new ones that are better. but afterwards, i think those are crap too, so i destroy those also. its like, circle of destruction. i guess. i want to go pro, but like,, im way off. my drawings,, not too good. my coloring? total crap. i should train more. im more of a critic. heh heh heh.

OH. so today,, we did beauty and the best for music theatre. im in the orch pit. i play violin for them(pretty crappily.) and get money for it. its not for school, so the teachers pay us. yay. i guess. right? ill do anything for munny. muahaha.

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]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/18028744/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/18028744/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 19:50:06 PDT i did a rebellious thing ;]]
(rebellious because i have strict asian parents)
i bleached my hair
and my parent got mad at me about it
well,,
i guess it was worth it
totally fun
smelled bad thou.. ammonia ...blech
hahaha~~
talk to mehhhhh.
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]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17702333/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17702333/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 16:36:26 PDT and so tired..
YAY spring break~
:]]
so anyways,, my problem with my friend was never ressolved.
but i dont care anymore
blech.
im so weird.
i have nothing else to do
but to take pictures
and photoshop
im like,,
a photoshop whore.
a bad one at that
XD
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]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17294805/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17294805/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 23:27:32 PDT after orchestra retreat(march 7-9, 2008) on monday, she came up to me and said "you know, you were really rude to ming shao" i was like
-.- how so? she replied with a "because you told him he had dandruff"
DUDE. like, its dandruff. a lot of ppl get it. its not like i told him he was fat. and she was like, trying to boss me around, probably cuz she likes him. iunno. so basically, i went loco en la cabeza and wrote her a letter. an ANGRY letter. if she wanted to be honest with me, ill be honest with her. x_O
so i told her, i didnt need to hear her bullshit and that i could take care of myself. also, i stated all the things that she most likely lied about.
when she wrote me back, i heard she was totally bitching to my friend about it. seriously. and like, shes the one who told me that i need anger management. shes getting really hypocritical.
blah blah blah........... and while i was talking to my friend Lani, i didnt even know i had tears coming out of my eyes until my other friend, Lisa, told me. basically, it was angry tears, so my voice didnt crack or anything. i just had a pissed look on my face.
and today, she tries to go back to me. at lunch, she tried to be all buddy-buddy with me, but i was still pissed at her, so i just ignored her. man, i felt like i needed to vomit there and then. seriously, she needs to know when to stay away. and when i ignored her, she pounded on my back to get my attention, so i snapped at her.
i dont wanna know whats gonna go on tomorrow.
-.- DamN. girl fights are scary.

but anyways, im gonna post new drawings up tomorrow. theyre lolita girls. theres two versions, ones a gothic type and decapitated and all dark, and the other one is a cute style. at least i think it is. who knows.

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17197764/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17197764/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 15:55:26 PST i thought about the title, and dug into the story. Apparently, this person was against immigrants or people of different races speaking in a different language or if its broadcasted somewhere, like mexican or chinese restaurants. i quote "in america, they're supposed to speak english"
As an asian immigrant, my friends too, i was very offended by this article, especially how naive they were about this topic. America was founded by people from central Asia, where they crossed the landbridge connecting Asia and America thousands of years ago. After adapting in America, they were called, "the native americans".
During that time, native americans DIDNT speak english, they spoke a different language. Only when the Europeans came over and took over the land did America speak english. and before, california was once part of mexico, not included in america before WWI.
i believe that those people are naive, conceited, and idiotic. its not right for people, especially immigrants, to not be allowed to speak their own native languages. What if they needed to return to their country, and dont even know how to speak their native language?
The US is one of the only countries that have multiple languages that the people there speak. Besides, the US is "the land of the free", so everyone should have their own rights to do what they want, when they want.
----------------------------------------------------
second of all, another article i read in the wolfpacket talked about religion. They called the beliefs of the Rapture, or Armageddon, "baloney" and "malarkey". First of all, no one writes "malarkey" in any article, even if its only a high school newspaper. And also, calling something "baloney" sounds really immature.
But because i am a devout Christian, im offended by these words and surprised by the words of the students in CHS. When i came to America, people taught me that there was 3 big, touchy subjects: prejudice, politics, and religion. Apparently, people nowdays, usually the youth, dont give a shit about anything like this.
When i read it, they wrote that the Armageddon was all just a big fake, all bullshit. but for Believers like many, they are offended because they have already read, from the Bible, that one day, Jesus is going to come and separate the right from the wrong, and send the believers to heaven, while the Armageddon destroys the world and the Sinners.
Also, there has been said that Christianity doesnt exist, thats its all fake and bullshit. Nowdays, many young Christians are searching for the "truth", whether the Word of God is the truth, or evolution. Many times, i have tried incorporating scientific facts with the Bible, seeing if it could all work out. Some parts could, most parts not. One of the unbelievable things, like the ark found in the Black Sea, was suspected to be "Noah's Ark", the ark said in the Bible, when God saw the evil of mankind and washed it all away with a flood that lasted a long time.

at least i attacked the writer of the one talking about Christianity being bullshit. that made me feel much better.

[[if anyone reads this, this is only my opinion..well, actually, some are facts, but only some. if you are against this, go ahead and write it out. Wont do you any good, since im strongheaded. BRING IT ON.]]

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17123596/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17123596/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 19:58:56 PST
yes, freshman year was horribly boring.

but anyways, im gonna put up some old pics, since i have them saved on photobucket, and i dont like it just staying there doing nothing
(drawings have feelings tooooooooooooo...)

]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17105964/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17105964/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 16:37:56 PST and the end of the trimester is next friday.
..
I AM SO SCREWDDD
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
sigh.
at this moment, my friend would say,
"lets mosh."
iunno why
hahaha~
sigh
im depresseddddddddddddd
im so
uglyyy--
UGLY BUTTT
arrrrrrrrggHHHHHHHHH.
and totally tired.
yesterday, i had to go home during 5th period
cuz my stomach was doing flips and hurting like a bitch,
and im sick
i throw up a lot now
but im not losing any weight
THATS SO GAY
WHAST THE USE OF THROWING UP IF YOU CANT LOSE WEIGHT????????
>x<
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]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17050005/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17050005/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 22:21:35 PST so ive been told that i look like rainie yang (yang tzen ling) i think its total BS
cuz i dont.
not even if i try to photoshop my pics.
and i totally dont want to go to school tomorrow..
>_<''
我太累了~
man..
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]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17032644/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/17032644/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 21:24:46 PST sigh..
so i need to photoshop about 10 new pics, some of them cosplay of L from deathnote, some of them from the concert day, and another from our band, kusari, haha~
so, im super happy, cuz my mom let me have makeup, and shes the type of asian parent who doesnt like me wearing makeup, and currently, im wearing makeup
LOL
so i met this guy on facebook, and he asked me out. ROFLMAO. i dont even know him, and hes like
"heyy" *poke*
hahahahahahahahahahahaha.
so yeah...
i got another customer for cutting hair, since im like, super good at layering and styling hair now hahaha
.........................................................................imma tired,
gnite :]]

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]]> ~xXlive-freelyXx http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/16915241/ http://xXlive-freelyXx.deviantart.com/journal/16915241/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 14:03:12 PST
anyways.. yesterday sucked, and everyone thought i was high.. (no surprise there,, mufufu..) at least i can drum much better than last week ;]] im pretty happy about that..
band day.. hmm.. im pretty sure we're not gonna do that this week.. and iunno if my mom will allow girl's day.......... GUITAR HERO ALL THE WAYYYYYYYY~ maybe DDRsupernova and extreme2.. lol.
tomorrow gonna go to disneyland and play in orchestra, hopefully i dont mess up, since i havent practiced mrs samuel seemed pissed about it hahahaha~
at least that wasnt the bad new..
a lot of ppl think im cutting again. which im not. stupid ppl. = =
a lot of ppl think depressed, which isnt exactly true.....i think. hahaha.
so yeah. ill continue this later.
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