http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xXxReapeRxXx&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xXxReapeRxXx en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 08:49:53 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/27603326/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/27603326/ Mon, 05 Oct 2009 18:19:29 PDT Mirrors is coming along, bit by little bit. I've been busy as hell lately with school, figuring out college, and trying to get a job. It's pretty stressful. Once the weekend hits all I want to do is hang out with some friends and just chill out to keep my head screwed on right. Writing Mirrors is just adding on a little bit too much, I'm going to try and focus on short stories for a little bit then come back to it later. Right now I just need to blow off some steam before my brain explodes all over the place.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26948404/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26948404/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 00:13:52 PDT
Suddenly realizing that I need to start preparing for life after school has sent me into a few breakdowns. It hasn't been fun, but I'm getting through it for the most part Once school gets going I think I'll be fine since it'll get me used to dealing with people again.

I have been working on Mirrors on and off, I'm trying to edit them better. I'm tired of finding a shitload of typos and sentences that could have been worded better after I post them. BUT, we are getting somewhere in the story finally! There is hope in the world!(kinda...) The story should be done in the next few parts, I don't see it going too much longer

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26652892/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26652892/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 15:10:58 PDT
Anyway, so I went camping which was alright since I had a friend with me. We had to share a tiny tent which wasn't very comfortable and got really hot in the morning. I got back on Thursday and found out a friend of mine just got back from Oaxaca. So I got to see her and everyone else. They invited me to go to Warped tour, which was pretty cool. The line up was kinda sucky but we had fun. I probably shouldn't have worn a skirt though. I wore one because I knew it was going to be hot, but I haven't worn one in so long I couldn't remember how to walk and sit in one. Then one of my friends picked me up and swung me around, panty shotting anyone who happened to be watching

But, now I'm back and will be working on stuff since I can get an internet connection here. The new part to Mirrors should be up within the next couple of weeks. If not then you'll probably be seeing some short stories or something.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26433212/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26433212/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 21:49:08 PDT
Camping, we'll see. Should be better since I'll have someone I don't live with there. If I'm lucky none of my step-mom's friends will be there. Whenever they get together I usually fight with myself over whether or not I should just take mom's truck and go back home. They're the kind of people that believe just about everything on TV. It's terrible. They come in and I can feel my brain beginning to liquefy.

So, yeah, I won't be back until Wednesday. After that it's back to Mirrors and worrying about school starting.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26346425/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26346425/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 20:48:17 PDT Mirrors up. The next part is on it's way to being finished so don't worry.

Tomorrow I get to go look for jobs and a cheap birthday present for a friend of mine. It's probably going to be hot though, which kinda sucks. The weather has been INSANE lately. We've broke 100 degrees(Fahrenheit)a couple times now and it's just not ok with me. Luckily we have air conditioning so until I'm forced outside it doesn't bug me too much.

But, yeah, my body has been trying to kill me over the past three weeks. First I had this nasty cold, and as soon as that clears up BAM! One of my wisdom teeth tries breaking through the gum and makes the left side of my face swell up and throb. I couldn't even eat oatmeal. I was not happy. The dentist gave me some medicine for it and some vicodin for the pain. A lot of vicodin, she gave me like 20 and I only took like one a day for the first three days so I could eat. It wasn't cool, I hated being on it, I couldn't talk well. I had what I wanted to say in my head, but on it's way out something terrible happened and I'd get words mixed up or forget them. It was annoying. And once that clears up I start cramping up and yeah...no need for details on that one.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26099145/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/26099145/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 00:28:11 PDT ) Now that I'm not in a strange place from all the cold medicine mom had me take I'll be able to write Mirrors. The next part will be up by Saturday at the latest.

And I will never again take Nyquil. That shit gave me some weird dreams. I don't feel like getting into it. If you wanna know then go watch some Hentai and imagine the girl beating the tenta-beast into a pulp after a slight struggle with a 2X4 that is there for no apparent reason.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25889677/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25889677/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 22:55:07 PDT

In other news, I've been having nosebleeds almost every morning. Some days they keep coming on and off, it worries me. Mom also gave me her cold. All we know is that it isn't strep throat, so I'll be dipping into the cough syrup that expired about seven years ago. If I die, well, we'll know why.

Mirrors is still being worked on. I know what I want to happen in this part, it's just writing it that's the problem. I can't quite get it to sound right. So once that's taken care of I'll post it. Until then I'm going to do some one shots; I need to practice writing short stories that don't end with everyone dying.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25504923/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25504923/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 20:56:19 PDT Mirrors is coming along. I'm a bit stuck on a couple parts because they may appeal to the wrong audience and I really do not want that.

As a warning, from this next part on Mirrors is going to get more and more fucked up. I'm trying to write it so it makes the audience uncomfortable, it is obviously not a happy story and I'm debating on whether or not it should end nicely. There are going to be nasty parts, mainly within the dreams, that will definitely make me seem like a sadistic freak for writing it. If anyone is deeply offended by this, don't read.

Although what I will be writing is going to be at least a bit disturbing, I'm not going to restrict it to deviants over 18. Mainly because I find that extremely annoying. Instead I'm going to stick with the usual warnings and elaborate in the Artist's Comment box.

In other news, job hunting is annoying. I'll probably be going out tomorrow to apply around. It's a lot easier to do in the late morning and early afternoon, not as many people around to make me uncomfortable .

I might be doing a comic at some point. It will stay a side project while I do Mirrors because I don't want to end up abandoning Mirrors and replacing it with the comic. Plus I still need to figure out how to draw the people consistently. I don't have a tablet (and don't want to bogart =ShiiLovesHim's tablet) so it'll be done by hand.

I'll talk about it every once in a while as it progresses. If making it into a comic frustrates me too much I'll try and write it out as a story, which will be a challenge...

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25380710/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25380710/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 19:27:56 PDT
So, now that school is over I'll be able to pay more attention to my stories and getting a job...and just developing a life outside of my room

The next part to Mirrors is being worked on. A Walk in the Woods is being moved to a different site (maybe, I might just not update it anymore on this site since it gets like, no views ...we'll see what happens with that.) Um, other things are probably going to be done now that I don't have to worry about dragging my lazy ass out of bed at six in the morning only to find out there's no coffee left in the pot and I have to leave for the bus in ten minutes (whew, last nine months of muh life condensed in one long sentence ^^ )

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25225773/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25225773/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 21:18:23 PDT
My essay final thing is almost done so once I finish that up tonight I'll be working on my stories again.

And this, well, this is the best thing I've seen on TV in so long [link] when America fails, we have Chinchilli day. I could totally see my chinchilla doing that, he's just that evil.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25130882/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/25130882/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 18:26:20 PDT
Also, I gots me a nasty little cold, complete with sore throat, man voice, and an on-and-off fever that makes my food taste funky. I am displeased. RIGHT IN TIME FOR FINALS

Anyway, enough bitching. Mirrors is progressing, slowly. My teachers know the end is near and have piled on the work (little projects mainly) that are all due tomorrow or on Wednesday. Next week will be preparing for summer and cramming for finals which will be the week after. Lovely, no? So Mirrors and anything else will be put on hold until summer starts.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/24932285/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/24932285/ Sun, 24 May 2009 21:12:15 PDT
Hopefully tomorrow I won't be doing much aside from practicing a song for guitar class (Hymn for the Dead = my death =^= ). So, if I'm lucky I'll be able to relax a bit and write more. Maybe even work on this comic I've had an idea for but have yet to actually start...

My weekend. Has been ridiculously busy. (At least for me anyway, normally the most I do is sleep for 14 hours then try to remember what I have for homework.) Friday one of my friends called me at around 8 to see if she could crash at my house because a pipe burst in her kitchen while she was at the movies and flooded her house. So we were up late then Saturday went to help her and her family get her house ready to be fixed. We went to the mall after that, I bought some lotion that smells AWESOME from Bath&Body Works (expensive but totally worth it ¬ 3¬ ). And today I was at the park from about noon to almost three working on the presentation part of my Spanish project with my group. We're recording it so it can be edited. It'll turn out as something along the lines of a really fucking cheap Smosh rip off in bad Español. Spending that much time in the sun was not smart. I'm so white I glow in the dark. My shoulders, face, and the back of my neck are kinda sore...It's already fading into a bad tan so hopefully it won't be too bad...

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/24743946/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/24743946/ Wed, 13 May 2009 19:11:29 PDT It's a bitch.

So Mirrors is being worked on. I'm at that wonderful stage where I write think it's good come back grimace and rewrite it. I'll let you know when that passes....

In other news: I'M GOING TO FUCKIN EUROPE *^*

I'm happy. ~Lexetizol goes to Sicily every once in a while to visit her mom's family and they invited me to come with them next summer. **tears of joy** I shall blind them all with my severe paleness. ^^

Oh, and another thing. THEY'RE THINKING ABOUT TAXING SODA! TO RAISE MONEY FOR HEALTH CARE! This might be the thing that gets me to cut down on soda...or just switch to cheap as generic nasties instead of nice delicious Pepsi....FUCK.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/24557880/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/24557880/ Sun, 03 May 2009 00:40:03 PDT

It's like, 12 40 right now, I'ma go pass out for about twelve hours then rush to finish homework DX

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/24367571/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/24367571/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 20:02:20 PDT
The weather here has been so nice for the past couple days. I got sunburned yesterday during photography. Luckily it wasn't even bad...more of a warning of things to come if I don't get my lazy ass outside and build up a base tan...which I will probably never actually do... There once was a time when I'd be outside all the time, but oh how that ship has sailed ¬.¬

Also, I would really like to know why the fuck Anderson Cooper isn't getting fired. On April 15 some Republicans came out and protested the rising taxes in front the White House. They called the protest the TEA (Taxed Enough Already) Party. I honestly don't care for protests and don't really know enough details about the protest to comfortably state an opinion. But during a discussion on CNN, David Gergen said the Republican party was in "disarray" and that this was an example of a minority group trying to find it's voice. Cooper replied saying, "It's hard to talk when you're tea-bagging."

I honestly don't find what Cooper said to be all that bad (mainly because I'm in high school and often here far worse between people just playing around with each other). What pisses me off so much is that it's no worse than when Don Imus called the Rutger's Girl's basketball team "nappy headed ho's." One would think that the controversy that began would have set a standard for what could be said during a show that is supposed to be at least somewhat professional. Cooper was just as vulgar as Imus and should be treated the same. Instead of just being asked to issue an apology to the conservative and gay community he should be fired for being vulgar and unprofessional. If one person can't be lax and show their opinion in a straight forward, (or in Imus' case joke around)not quite media friendly way, why should another be able to?

Opinions?

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23995979/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23995979/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 23:32:56 PDT
Anyway, I'll probably be posting a lot more pictures now that I know how to work my camera. I have had it for a year or so now and am only starting to learn, 'bout time righ'?! I'm also in photography so stuff I like but didn't turn in will probably be posted on here.

I'm cleaning up my gallery, too. I was going through it and kept having those, 'Holy Christ why the hell did I post this? It's horrible!' moments.

I'm in a good mood right now though, =ShiiLovesHim and I are determined to see Miss March on Sunday. The day keeps changing because of her class schedule and when my mom gets paid. I'm still looking for a flippin' job so she's kinda my only source of money @tm... Hopefully I'll get an interview at some point.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23906410/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23906410/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 19:04:40 PDT
In other news, my friends have gotten into some drama with each other. It's giving me a fucking migraine. First I find out the little one (she's about to turn fifteen) was dating a guy a few months older than me (I'll be 18 come January) which made me short circuit for a bit, then there was this blow out right after they broke up. I don't wanna go into details @tm. This all happened last week, on like Wed. I think. Now another of my friends, from the same group as the little one, is dating the guy that's older than me. She anounced this yesterday. So now ~Lexetizol and I are pissed that she would move in on the guy so quickly and that lead to an argument. Drama drama drama...

BUT, I might be able to do something this weekend. SHILLY THIS MEANS YOU! lol I wanna go see Miss March, so hopefully I'll be able to do that.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23454295/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23454295/ Sat, 28 Feb 2009 16:05:09 PST
Plus, now I don't have to try clicking back an forth between windows when I'm writing out a part that I know sounds extremely wrong when the rest of it hasn't been read, of course it's only when I happen to be writing one of these parts that they decide to go to the kitchen for something. ¬.¬ Conspiracy, I say.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23124273/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23124273/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 16:07:43 PST
...It's been coming down since early this morning, and finally began to stick around fourth period so like, since 12:30 to one-ish. It's not stopping either...

If I get stranded at home again I'll most likely be working on Mirrors (and ~Lexetizol's Spanish homework). This part is taking me a while to write, I got faced by writer's block So at least there will be that to look foreward to...but still, IT'S FUCKING FEBUARY! THE SNOW SHOULD BE GONE UNTIL NEXT WINTER! BUT NOOOO~~~....of course not...I BLAME WHEREVER THE FUCK THIS SYSTEM IS COMING FROM!

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23049702/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/23049702/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 21:20:54 PST I think I might be getting sick, my tonsels keep swelling, then going back to normal, then swelling up again, and my throats scratchy. So, either I'll have a cold by the end of next week or I'm going to stay in seasonal cold purgatory for the rest of winter.

Anyway, I'm starting the draft for the next part of Mirrors (just for ~Rural-Decay THANKS FOR READING!) I also started up a fiction press account [link] . It's just as neglected as this account but the I'm going to post more stories to that account than this one. I think I'm only going to have a couple stories, maybe an essay here and there for this one. I'm still not quite sure.

I'm also getting used to my new schedule, only two classes have changed but it's still enough to make me twitchy. Now, instead of running back and forth across the front of the school I get to run from the middle of the top floor to the other side of the second floor, across the school after that to a separate building, then all the way back to the cafeteria, then to the middle of the second floor, run back across the front to the basement dungeon thing, and from there to the other side of the school on the top floor. Maybe that's why I'm so tired when I get home, the school may be small but there's a shitload of people and a lot of stairs

BUT, I have digital photography now, so I can finally figure out what the hell my camera is telling me to do when it starts beeping and what the graphs and stuff are. No, I haven't read the manual. Manuals make me angry for no particular reason.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22912922/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22912922/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 20:59:13 PST
Luckily, they gave us today off so I got the rest of the weekend to recuperate and hopefully post something. I'm not making any promises, though. I also get to clean out my chinchilla's cage and maybe my room, depends on whether or not I can force myself into it...start job hunting again. Now that's some frustrating shit.

I'm getting a headache thinking of it...hopefully Target and PetSmart are hiring, they're close and I really don't want to go to Wal-mart...


In other news; now that first semester finals are done my classes are going to change so hopefully I can get something good. I will most likely start photography and some class for an english credit...I think it was expository writing or something, I don't know...as long as I know people at my lunch I'll be fine. The last thing anyone needs is for me to go feral because I don't have anyone to help relax when I'm at lunch.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22853180/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22853180/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 21:00:39 PST I froze up as soon as the song started playing; as soon as I realized I needed to start playing my guitar the song was halfway over and I couldn't find where I was on the tab. It was horrid, I kept trying to back up into the filing cabinets and wasn't able to stop shaking until the end of the period.

The rest of my finals should be fine, though. They're the kind of tests that I can bullshit my way through and pass with a high C so unless I decide just sit and reread Uzumaki through the study periods I should be perfectly fine.

When finals are done I'm going to start writing again; I'm too stressed out right now, it's not pretty. When I stress my body likes to rebel against me and get me sick. The weather isn't helping. This morning I got to stand in the snow and wind to wait for my bus, which happened to be late. Not fun. Then, because I am that lucky, I have to go outside, away from the nice, warmish school, up to the tower to guitar, then back outside, down the tower, spend about three seconds awkwardly shuffling myself across a crowded hall to go back out, around the school and into this basement/dungeon thing that's supposed to be my math class.

I really don't care for it down there; half the time I go there I expect to walk into the wrong room and stumble in on this one teacher who takes his job way too serious torturing the students in ISS. Or just S&M gear, that wouldn't surprise me too much. It'd be awkward though...like walking in on kinky sex...

Anyway...

Back to stressing and my body trying to kill me. I've been getting the start of a cold on and off for a while, it's just now starting to progress into and actual cold. Just in time, of course. So whenever I'm done eating antihistamines like candy and stop being all mood swingy I'll start up with Mirrors, maybe A Walk in the Woods. It all depends on what I'm in the mood for and however quickly my laptop gets fixed. (It decided to randomly crap out on me the other day so now we have to send it in or something so it can be fixed. I don't know the details, all I can say for sure is that Mom is pissed and she scares me shitless so I'll be hiding in my room until it's over.)

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22723069/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22723069/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 21:10:48 PST
I'm also out of soda...which is a big deal...just ask =ShiiLovesHim, I've been lethargic all week. Normally I have two Diet Pepsi's during lunch to get me through fifth and sixth period. But, no, this week I've had water...Healthier, yes, helpful, not so much. I go all dyslexic and hullucinaty when I'm tired (which is part of what brought forth Mirrors) and we've been reading the Theban Plays in Classical Lit. They are really fucking confusing when you can barely keep your head up.

I'll update as soon as I get some sleep and stop being all pissy and get out of caffeine withdrawal.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22586068/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22586068/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 20:13:54 PST . I don't even have writer's block to blame this time Anyway, I'll probably get that up during the weekend or whenever I'm not lazing around, trying to find something to do that keeps me from doing my homework, praying that I'll end up with strep or something so I don't have to go to school but still be able to make the hot guy twitch by sitting in his line while he tries to space out w/out staring at people... I'm so deep, I know.

¬.¬

So, school...I really do do that, I feel kinda bad for the guy sometimes but then get distracted by someone so, yeah. Besides, without there I don't have anything better to do.

HOPE YOU GET BETTER WITHOUT PEOPLE POKIN' AROUND INSIDE TO IMPLANT ALIEN BABIES! (that sounds...so very wrong....)

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22406561/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22406561/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 02:19:19 PST
I blame Christmas and not being able to do ANYTHING over break. Seriously, the most I was able to do was stay at a friends house for the night and had to come back the next morning because my little brother was raising hell about his mom's inability to READ THE DAMN INSTRUCTIONS on how to put his toys together.

It started snowing earlier though, if I'm lucky I'll get a delay or something...but...the news reports are against me...so, I don't know, I'll just have to wait until seven-ish to see what's happening...

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22219084/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22219084/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 00:15:50 PST Unfortunately, as the shock of getting a computer for myself wears off cabin fever sets in. Since break started I've only left the house twice. It's gotten to where I was happy to go the the Bremerton Wal-Mart. BREMERTON WAL-MART. It's sad enough that it's freaking Wal-Mart, but the only one worse than Bremerton is in Port Orchard with all the freakishly over-weight trailer trash that migrates out once a week or so to stock up on cheep food and drinks that will allow them to be overweight yet still die of malnutrition (assuming, of course, the drugs don't get them first).

Tomorrow I might be leaving the house for a bit though...Mom wants to go out shopping and since I got a couple gift cards I might be going with her... wanted me to come over at some point but still hasn't got on messenger or just given up and called me...

I'll do something eventually. Just don't hold your breath...not that anyone on here reads anything I write, but whatever, it's nice to be able to bitch at someone and let off some steam.

I also have one of my back teeth coming in...it doesn't hurt...I just need to find something to chew on...

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22186075/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/22186075/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 09:18:00 PST !!!!!

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/21954749/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/21954749/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 21:03:59 PST
I don't really have that much to say right now. I'm still working on the next part of A Walk in the Woods and this other story that and I are making. Aside from that I have homework...lots and lots of homework... TToTT

Um...so...yeh...


Oh, and COSTANZA FOR THE LOVE OF CHRIST I NEED MY COAT!!! IT'S GETTING SO FUCKING COLD AND I HAVE TO WAIT AT THE BUS STOP EVERY MORNING IN A WORN OUT SWEATSHIRT THAT BELLA CHEWS UP WHEN I PLAY WITH HER!!!

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/21807586/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/21807586/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 21:19:57 PST
Luckily, it hasn't gotten that bad since the fifth grade when my teacher had me write a speech and present it at an assembly...so not fun....

Also, I have guitar class... We have this movie music project and I've got the first half done (we had to bring in a clip of a movie or T.V. show that had a good correlation between the movie and the background music. I brought in Pan's Labyrinth). It's the second part that's making me bug out. We have to play the song that accompanied the clip we brought in, a different clip, or just play a song we feel better suits a movie/T.V. show clip. I picked the end of an episode of house that plays Grey Room by Damien Rice, and lucky me! I CAN'T FIND THE FUCKING TAB OR SONG BOOK ANYWHERE! TT-TT So I have to use this crappy guess-and-check method of using the chords printed with the lyric to the actual song and hope that she won't notice just how horrifyingly off I am. (this is what I mean if you don't know wtf I'm talking about [link] <---NO FUCKING HELP AT ALL. ) So, if I don't live through Friday, we'll all know why.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/21704368/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/21704368/ Thu, 27 Nov 2008 18:23:33 PST

Um...so...any good bands out there? I'm getting really bored with listening to the same stuff over and over again.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/21618137/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/21618137/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 17:13:52 PST A well done third part has been long over due. I took down the third part I threw on here because it was, for lack of a better description, a steaming pile of over emotional filler garbage that needed to be destroyed. I'm finally working on it and the story might actually be updated on regularly until writer's block decides to once again, make me its prison bitch.

In other news, I'm still kinda iffy about this job interview...it's my first time and I really would like to get hired and don't want to fuck it up...which will be hard. When I'm nervous I tend to either talk way too freaking much or not at all, which makes it really awkward...it will definitely be memorable....

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So, my brain is dead...just completely done...like, it's not even twitching too much anymore...and every time I get an idea to update with something by the time I get to the computer it's gone... So, yeah...don't expect much from me lately...not that I ever really do anything anyway...

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I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it that night at the mental hospital and I saw you carve your initials into my best friend. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that I did a sex-change. I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when I think of a new life as a clone.

Go and drown yourself,
-Amanda-


le tagged: um....idk three other people too well on here

Anyway --->[link] <--- that's the outline thing for this.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/20892405/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/20892405/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 15:44:30 PDT So, when she calls me out I'm in perfect view of everyone and my nerves are just going off like a siren. It goes something like this:

"Where's your group?"

With the way she talks it's really hard to tell if she's pissed or just asking a question, and I'm all nerves, half asleep, "I don't know?"

"What do you mean you don't know?"

Still can't tell if she's angry or no, "I don't have one."

She says, loudly, "Well, did you just think one would fall out of the sky?"

Her loud startled me, making me twitch and fall out of my chair, setting my nerves off like fireworks on Independence Day, "People make me nervous..."

So she just lets me play solo, but my nerves have me spazzing like and OCD person in a barn so I can't hit any of the right chords, completely destroy the strum pattern, and get lost a couple times so I had to restart about three times. By the end of the class I was clutching my guitar thinking that I just want to go home.

Then, in fourth period (which is usually where shit happens to me because it's Fitness for Life and I'm really clumsy) I get back to the locker room to change into my street clothes only to find out some one thought it'd be cute to put super glue on the locks. I got my lock open and off my basket (because the school is too cheap for an actual locker) then, holding the lock in my left hand, realize I have something on my right thumb, investigate with my ring finger and when they won't separate realize just what it is... I went up to my gym teacher, holding my hands up with the lock stuck to one and my fingers glued together on the other, and ask for help. We spend a good ten minutes running my hands under warm water so I could get everything off and separated without hurting myself, thinking, "Oh, yeah, how fucking cute..."

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/20746335/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/20746335/ Mon, 29 Sep 2008 17:16:58 PDT INVALID VERB and the white screen of death... What's even better is now the player has changed and is more or less copying what purevolume.com already does. The only difference is PUREVOLUME WORKS ... You'd think that when some one updates they're site they'd at least check to make sure everything works right BUT NO! MS is an internet whore with the mentality of a scene kid ....


In other news, my new boyfriend is shoving us in my ex-boyfriends face so not only do I have the internet pissing me off at every turn, I HAVE FUCKING DRAMA AT SCHOOL! ME! DRAMA! Normally I can just walk away from this crap or scare people into acting like they have some shred of dignity, but I'm being thrown into issues behind my back and am probably going to end up in the principal's office explaining why I punched up my boyfriend and my ex.

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/20655572/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/20655572/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 16:49:07 PDT ... so, yeah... Nothing too interesting going on here,the most that's happened since my EXTREMELY DISGUSTING bloody nose so far is my amorphous blob of an ex is plotting with the beast so wtever comes of that should be...interesting... Mainly because his friend and I started going out... BUT FOR THE RECORD! I didn't know they were friends until my ex decided to be an emo bitch about it (which is a bit hypocritical since about a month after we broke up my ex decided to date my friend). Anyway, that's all that's really going on here... still trying to get a job... which is RIDICULOUSLY hard when you're applying for your first job and have no experience aside from watching your mom's girlfriend's kid once in a while...

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It's not JUST blood either, there's sick ass coagulated blood loogy coming out as well. I'm pretty sure that's supposed to stay in there to stop up the blood but of course my body likes to do whatver the fuck it can to piss me off in newer, more interesting ways....

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For those of you who don't know, a few months ago (don't remember when exactly and don't feel like looking it up right now) a bunch of feet washed up in Port Angeles...still in the shoes... So, after the sixth foot came on shore they found out that two feet belonged to some guy from Canada, I think, and wouldn't say any more. Later they just kinda figured that some people were out fishing or something and ended up drowning then after the bodies began to decay the feet seperated from the bodies and drifted onshore in Western Washington...because I guess we aren't weird enough already...

Now, the Orca Avenger is a man named Gabriel Mondragon, he shocked himself so badly he ended up losing his hand and a couple toes ALL TO PROTEST THE DEATH OF AN ORCA. At the trial he pleaded guilty and then blamed the whales death on rich white people and the depletion of the rain forests...

So far nothing out of the ordinary has happened since...but we still got two, three months until the year is up AND WE START THE CYCLE AGAIN. Maybe next year we'll have another serial killer or something...

]]> ~xXxReapeRxXx http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/20426855/ http://xXxReapeRxXx.deviantart.com/journal/20426855/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 17:05:28 PDT

Anyway, I get to school and everyone is talking about it. Turns out if they get a black hole that can sustain itself they're going to nuke it...which is just soooo much better -_-; And poor had a little panic attack at lunch because we found out that they were going to test it out...again... I would have been flipping out too if my stomach wasn't trying to digest itself (we've had spaghetti for dinner for the last couple of nights and I refuse to eat the stuff so I've been surviving off of granola bars and making my friends feel my ribs so they get me food). BUT. When I got home and looked it up on CNN I learned that all of the worry is supposedly for NOTHING. I only skimmed through the article 'cause I'm a bit off right now and can't focus too long on anything (the proof is in the parenthesis)and found that unless the scientists are just horribly wrong the black hole the engery thingy will generate won't have enough power to blink out existence as we know it...so...THANK YOU SHILLY'S FRIEND FOR FREAKING THE HELL OUT OF ME WHEN I GOT HOME AND REALIZED THE GRAVITY OF HAVING THE WORLD BLINKED OUT IN AN INSTANT.

Right now, existing is all I pretty much do. AND I WOULD LIKE TO KEEP IT THAT WAY. **uber twitch**

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And, holy crap, Panera Bread makes the best bagels and cream cheese! The hazelnut cream cheese, I could eat that by itself it's so delicious ^=^

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