http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xalways&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xalways en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 23:45:23 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/26845062/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/26845062/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 20:13:12 PDT Yeeeeeeaaaaaah boi!
I had a whole photoshoot I was going to do in May but I got too busy so I'm gonna be bringing it back soon and putting it in my schedule for November. Redoing all parts (since people are in college and I'm now kind of disliked on a regular basis by some people) and I'm primping my series again so that everything is just right.
*hitting the thrift shops
*getting tons of SPARKLES
*going to either Valley Forge or Riddley Creek State Park
*adding more layers to my characters
*planning wild make up
*sewing the costumes myself (for the most part, hopefully some help here and there)

Needless to say I'm excited about all of this, the series is coming back together and I might throw a preview out in a week or so.

Keep your chins up, kiddies! You're stronger then you look.



]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/26271864/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/26271864/ Thu, 30 Jul 2009 08:40:01 PDT Been up to a lot too!
Graduated
Senior Week way awesome!
Fought with friends
Got into College
Went to the Beach
Connected with old friends
Danced around
Started Packing
Got a new bed for my Dad's house

The list goes oooooonnnn! But it's all good, I'm really excited that I've been up to a lot but not all has been good. I'm moving in with my dad soon, so thats exciting, um I've been lacking in uploading stuff and I lost all my old photos so there were many tears. I'm moving this week but I'M GOING TO SEE BILLY JOEL AND ELTON JOHN on saturday night! Eeeee! Also if you wanna know what else I'm up to....

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It's cool. And anyways... I'm really nervous about moving, decided to wait until I'm out there to look for a barn, and overall it's been a really hectic year!

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/23485165/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/23485165/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 08:32:23 PST I can't even say I saw this coming, because I didn't.
I've been missing John even more lately, and I know it should slowly hurt a little less each day but it just hasn't. I guess it's because all of my friends are being rather hostile towards each other. And it's true! They're all getting mad at each other for silly things and fighting, I'm growing so tired of it. I don't even know what to do anymore. I ended up walling myself away from them because of it, because I'm tired of all this fighting and this stupid drama. We're all young adults at this point, between seventeen and eighteen, so why are we fighting like six year olds?
I just don't get it.
I'd like to tell them but I know that'll only end up causing more drama and chaos, and what's worse is that I can feel myself breaking on the inside. In the past couple of months I've been snapping back, I get upset over tiny things that don't really matter, and I hurt. I hurt myself and my family. I'm just so tired of it. I'm tired and I know that if this doesn't stop then I will. I don't want to be friends with the people that hurt me (and yet here I am) I'm here everyday because I don't want the people I love to hurt. Even though what happened last year is happening again.
I'm not going to let this effect my studies, or I'm trying not to, but can't they just give me a break for once!? Can't they stop fighting?
What silly, hurtful, childish friends I have.
And they know it's true right now. They know.
But I just need some help to show them, I need some advice.
One person dies, someone who brought us closer at this death and then four months later we're all at each other's throats. I know it's not John's death that has caused this, that it's something else, but I want to know. I'm not strong enough, okay? I wish John hadn't been taken away because I need him right now. I need him to smile, tilt his head back like he did, and laugh. I need him to laugh at them, I need to hear that there is some joy left in the world, that this anger and drama is all just a phase and that it'll pass.
So please, if anyone has some advice, I could really use some right now.


tori

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/22790927/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/22790927/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 20:46:48 PST Hey, been awhile!

I'm revamping my gallery, some pieces are being deleted, as they take up room that they really don't need and the galleries have just been redone.
So yeah, updates coming soon about other stuff I think! So yay!


Tori

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21745295/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21745295/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 09:26:52 PST Yeah, figured I would put an update up or... something like that.
Nothing is really going I guess, went to the college fair with Kait and that was AWESOME. Best decision I've made in a long while! 'cause I think I found THE ONE! Eeeeeee! I'm in love with a college... how sad.
Ah well, and I also get to help out on the sets of the "Trashed Bride" photoshoots now too! My dad got me in, and I might also be able to sit in on a few photo classes at Moore college with someone he works with! I'm seriously pumped! Woo! Things are seriously looking up for me!
True, the boy and I broke up but we're still friends so I'm happy all the same, you know? If we weren't friends I'd be way more upset then anything, I hate losing people I care about.
Speaking of people I care about... I started talking to a certain someone a couple of weeks ago lightly, and then the more I thought about it the more it made sense to me to talk to her. When John died I was mad at him, which made me think, what if she dies and she doesn't realize that she's still part of my family? That'd hurt more then anything I think.
Also whenever I tell a story I can pretty much count on her being in it, and not telling that story just because she's in it?
Sorry, I like my life too much to alter it.
I know we'll never be the same as we were before, and thats okay, I'm beginning to keep myself more guarded now because I won't let myself hurt like that ever again. It may mean keeping those I love at arms length but I need to watch out for myself a little more. And I am.

And for Harrison: MOST RECENT PERSON TO CALL ME BABY.
Happy?
I know where he lives... better sleep with one eye open... I'll make my piece of crap car run just so I can go over there and GET HIM!
I wanna sing and dance now though... My school never has any dances that are fun or good... so boo them! I wish we did 'cause it's a great way to burn calories and it's fun and feels awesome! So I think there needs to be a dance asap!
I think thats all for one day!


Tori

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21569323/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21569323/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 16:23:12 PST
Stolen from

So, what's your name?
Victoria (Tori)

And you're how old?
Seventeeeenn! Eighteen in April.

Did it rain today?
Nope, a beautiful sunny day but yesterday it snowed!

Have you ever dated/had a crush on a guy named Michael?
Indeed, I have dated a guy named Michael.

Do you have a favorite TV commercial?
Um... the chocolate axe commercial?

Would you rather be called hot, cute, or beautiful?
I don't really know, I kind of push compliments away but if I had to choose then it'd be beautiful, even if I'm not.

How many times have you gotten detention in school?
In grade school? 12 in 7th grade and one suspension. And in first and second? (Cathloic school) Plenty!

Do you have a little sister?
Indeed I do!

Do you like Taylor Swift?
Yes! I love Our Song and Should've Said No.

Do you like to listen to the radio when you're in the car?
Sometimes, otherwise it's my trusty ipod or an ipod hooked up to the stereo.

Do you own anything from Tiffany & Co?
Mhmm, sweet sixteen gifts.

If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, how long have you guys been together?
I do. Currently I suppose. =\ Right now? A little over four months but we'll see.

Tell me a fact about the last person that texted you:
His website is mg-pictures.com (It's my daddy)

Have you ever been to New York?
Of course!

True or false: Miley Cyrus is the most annoying person ever.
Um... wish I cared. I like some songs and some I don't.

Do you like to wear flip-flops?
Sometimes.

What is your favorite salad dressing?
Ceasar!

Do you miss an ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
Not really, I'm friends with all (except one) of my exes.

Have you ever been to Disney World?
Yep, just went actually.

Is your computer a Dell?
Pfffft, hell no!

Have you ever broken anything because you were mad?
Not that I can recall, my anger issues aren't that bad.

Do you like wearing headbands?
Sometimes.

Do you have a Louis Vuitton purse?
Yeah, but I don't use it. Ever.

Have you ever been in a long distance relationship?
Mhmm.

What was the last thing you ate?
Dinner. It was taco night.

Do you like the song Crush by David Archuleta?
I have no idea. =\

Have you ever watched The OC?
I don't like burning my eyes with crap, thanks.

Do you wear American Eagle?
Some stuff, affordable and it holds up well.

Do you write in cursive or print?
Print bust sometimes I catch myself doing cursive.

Put your iPod/mp3 player on shuffle. What's the first song that comes up?
Autumn Cannibalist: Die Mannequin

Have your parents ever hated your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Mhmm, he started yelling on the phone thinking it was me, needless to say it wasn't.

Who were you with the last time you went to the movie theater?
My dad I think?

Do you like Converse?
YES!

Is it possible for someone to like both Hollister and Hot Topic?
I think so, 'cause I do.

Have you ever watched the show House Hunters?
Once or twice... it bores me.

When's the last time you had an Oreo?
I want an Oreo.

How old were you when you got your first cell phone?
Graduating from 8th grade.

Do you have a friend named Ashley?
Used too.

Who was the last person to call you baby?
The boy I think, a while ago.

Do you like Chris Brown?
Only sometimes.

Have you ever eaten at Chick-fil-a?
I don't like their food. <... ]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21408092/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21408092/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 16:05:00 PST 1. Put your iPod on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the meme as well as the person you got the meme from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Purpose: Avenue Q
It lights a fire under your ass?

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Me and Mrs. Jones: Marvin Gaye

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Sweet Dreams (are made of this): Eurythmics
Mmmm, awkward...

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
First Time: Lifehouse

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Estranged: Guns N' Roses

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
It's Only Love: Bryan Adams and TIna Turner
Thats hot guys...

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Better Life: Keith Urban
I like the beginning.

WHAT IS 2+2?
Thinking of You: Katy Perry

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I'm Free: The Who
Might be correct.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Come On Feel The Noise: Quiet Riot

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Behind These Hazel Eyes: Kelly Clarkson
Not really...

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Bitch: Merideth Brooks
Heck yes!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Should Tell You: Original Broadway Cast (Rent)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
God's Been Good to Me: Keith Urban

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Skyway Avenue: We the Kings

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Back Here: BBMak

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Shut Me Up: Mindless Self Indulgence
I don't wanna be knocked up...

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Everyone's a Little Bit Racist: Avenue Q
Haha, this song makes me smile.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Lucky Man: Montgomery Gentry
True I guess... except I'm not a man.

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Leech: Eve 6

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
No One Mourns the Wicked: Wicked
Shiiiiiitt.

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Beautiful: Faith Hill

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Video Killed the Radio Star: Buggles

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Courtesy of the Red, White, and Blue: Toby Keith

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Paper Angels: Jummy wayne

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Always: Blink 182

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
I Want You: Faith Hill

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
You Can't Stop the Beat: Original Broadway Cast (Hairspray)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
I'm So Bored with the USA: The Clash

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Manamana: Animal and the Muppets

Haha, some of my results were the same as before.. so I left them. Anyways this was pretty fun to do so I decided to share it with you folks on dA. Gosh I'm wonderful! Haha, please don't believe that! So yeah. Booooooo!


]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21363944/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21363944/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 19:54:08 PST Yeah, so it's been awhile.
I'm doing a little better everyday, and things I think are slowly turning back to normal. It doesn't feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest when I walk down certain hallways, and my friends are all still with me. And OMIGOSH! Kevin is back from the hospital and doing pretty well!
Except from getting the life squeezed out of him by me... but he'll get over that.
Looking to upload some new photos into my gallery as well as updating some stuff. I've been terribly lazy as I'm sure everyone can tell, but you still love me right?
Riiiiight.

Um, a few facts about me right now...
-I'm dreading report cards (history, contemporary issues, and environmental science. bad so far)
-I've grown closer to my friends in the past couple of weeks
-It's official, my mother knows I'm in love. Or has known.... sneaky woman
- I think my friends are all going insane and plotting to get rid of me I am loved
-Looking for a new stable, I need to get back into the saddle by the end of the month I've decided
-I'm wearing four pairs of socks right now
-Theres other facts and updates... you just need to wait

Hope you enjoyed that! I sure did!

, ,
-Tori

[link] watched another CSI, and I wanna be Lady Heather when I grow up!
Except for being a dominatrix... but she's pretty kickass.

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21115974/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/21115974/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 18:46:37 PDT
**Warning: Language and content.

Well I don't really know how to put this. Someone I love is dead. We're not talking dead as in we're not talking anymore (I'd love to hear his voice again or even his contagious laugh) but I'm talking dead as in he was in a car accident, and was projected out of the windshield. You can see it in the photos that the press released. No, he wasn't driving but the driver is alive and out of the hospital and the driver's cousin who was in the backseat is in critical condition.
So one of my closest friends, John Schwartz, is dead.
I've never been struck so hard, not to mention this is my third death this year. I'm tired of death, pain, and tears. I'm crushed watching my friends cry and plugging up my own tears.
I want to be strong, I know John would want all of us to happy and not mourn.
Hell! He'd want us to light a joint in his honor! (I'm straightedge though)
I never thought I'd lose someone like this, and it made me see a lot of things differently.
John was my brother, my best friend, my pick-me-up, and my love.
I loved that kid.
He drove me crazy sometimes, irritated me, pissed me off, and hurt me on few occasions (he rough-housed alot) and yet I loved him. I wasn't in love with him but if I could have traded places with him in that car then you can sure believe that I would have.
In a heartbeat.
I don't want to hear anyone saying how sorry they are because why should they be sorry? He was an amazing person, my own mother is even sad. I think he was the first guy at my school that I actually said, "My friend John-" the first guy to become my first real friend there. I remember when the teacher yelled at us in english for "flirting".
"We're not flirting!"
Last year we admitted it. We had been flirting.
He was a stone in our group of friends, quick with a joke and always making us smile. Tricking us but having it end in laughter. His arms always there to give us a hug. His awesome arms. That kid, as small as he was, was jacked! I don't think anyone would've messed with him. Today at lunch a few of us were repeating some of John's favorite Dead Baby jokes.
Whats the difference between a dead baby and an orange?
I don't jizz on my orange after I peel off the skin!
That's just the kind of guy he was.
I wish we had been on better terms, the past six months we had been growing apart a bit but I think we would've resolved it soon enough. I saw myself hanging out with him later in life, just chilling and telling bad jokes. Maybe even swapping massages.
He had magic fingers, knocked every knot out of my back!
So my friends and I are doing okay I think. We're hurting a lot and I know this is a pain that isn't going away anytime soon but we'll be okay. Because thats what John wants.
He'd want us blasting The Red Hot Chili Peppers and Bob Marley out of our car speakers and dancing around like raving loons! He'd want us laughing and having a good time, and teasing each other to no end. He'd want us to be there for each other. And so I say let it be!
I have more tears to cry, more memories to recap, and more clinging to people physically to do. But I'm going to be okay. And if I can make it then so can everyone else.
If we just stick together. :Heart:

I love you guys! So please stay strong!
R.I.P John
You're one damn amazing guy.


"Live the life you love. Love the life you live."
-bob marley


]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20656828/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20656828/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 17:58:29 PDT Looking for some fun...

1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you


1. The age you will be on your next birthday: Eighteen (omigosh...).
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2. A place you'd like to travel: Maybe England someday.
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3. Your favorite place: With friends.
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4. Your favorite object: At the moment? A meaningful gift.
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5. Favorite food: Potato soup. (I'm really cold right now)
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6. Your favorite animal: Horse. Hands down.
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7. Your favorite color: Purple
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8. The town/state/etc in which you live: Downingtown. USA.
[link] [This is predictable of me...]
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9. Name of past pet: Percival.
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10. A dream come true: Living.
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11. Your nickname/screenname: Pumpkin [long story].
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12. Middle name: Marie.
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13. Favorite Smell: Autumn bonfire.
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14. Bad habit of yours: Procrastinating.
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15. Your first job: Babysitting/ Dollar Tree.
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16. Favorite Movie: Amityville Horror (1979).
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17. What are you doing right now? Trying to get warm.
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18. Whats The Weather Like? Slightly windy.
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19. Favourite Sport: Hunter/ Jumpers.
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20. Favourite Music/Style/Band: Musical .
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So if you spy this go have a crack at it!
It brings good times!

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20629618/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20629618/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 03:16:12 PDT That right there... is a personal quote... I went and saw Burn After Reading with my daddy on saturday night. Good bonding night actually. There's three movies coming out that I plan on seeing. So I'm excited.
-The Secret Life of Bees
-W
-MILK

So thats thrilling! But omigosh... if you haven't seen Burn After Reading then I'm telling you to see it as soon as possible, it's totally worth seeing! It's a little odd to follow but it's funny in a way it shouldn't. Awesome soundtrack too! But the few times in the movie when something over the top happened teveryone would make a kind of gasping sound, laugh, or you'd hear low mummerings of talking. You'll adore Brad Pitts character or want to kill him though.... my dad and I really liked it. So go see it....
"We have your shit."
Oh gosh...

And then I got an unexpected visit from three lovely people... Yeah. Well kind of unexpected. I wasn't expecting the phone call but I was expecting them to drive up after I got it, at about 10 pm. , , and Chad decided to all go for a car ride! And what a car ride that was... heh, it was a blast. Even if we did end up passing my house on the way... but it was a pretty good night. And Sunday I tailgaited an Eagles thing. I was actually going to go to the game but I still had work to do at home (my actual home not my dad's) so I didn't end up going.

Good news though I got to see the boy Friday night with a family dinner and from 9 am to about 1: 30ish pm 'cause my daddy left me all alone at the house. 8 am to about 7 pm. But I'm glad I got to spend some time with 'cause I don't get to see him during the week. Very rare if I do. But I feel special 'cause he comes out to visit me. So overall my weekend was interesting, I did get a yelling at by a few Springfielders already though 'cause I didn't call any of them 'cause I figured they'd be busy with homecoming... apparently most of them just drove around.

Crazy-silly heads.

lovelovelove
Tori


]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20527813/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20527813/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 19:15:57 PDT This is a rant... you've been warned.

My photoshop won't open, I can't express how entirely upset and pissed I am. No, seriously. I'm frickin' pissed. I'm apparently grounded for the next two weeks because my mom said to be home around nine last night. I got home at 9:03 so apparently I made her late for work. Fuck that. I don't need her to act like a bitch when it was her fault for saying I could be home then. If she wanted me home earlier then she should've said something earlier. And all my friends are pissy. Yeah, so this isn't helping.

Tonight at work was one of the best times I've had. Billy, Angela and I goofed off for a looooonnngg time, just being crazy pretty much and tackling each other in the parking lot. Also sticking price tags all over each other... we made red marks all over Billy's neck that looked quite suggestive. Pretty amusing. Then Alex came over from deli and chilled with Angela and myself until I had to go.

So that was the best time I've had... well actually I went golfing last night with the boys and that was pretty fun. But until my photoshop gets fixed thats not happening...

Still working out dates for the photo shoot. And homecoming is in two weeks! Yay! But overall I'm just tired, and sore. My forearms are strained and the right one is swollen now. =\ So that sucks. I might head to bead early tonight.
Yeah...
Doubt thats happening anytime soon.
Haha, I kept waking up last night between 1am and 4am. It was pathetic and annoyed the crap out of me. So we'll see if tonight is any better!

lovelovelove

Tori

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20391569/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20391569/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 18:45:36 PDT Okay, so I'm thinking of starting two new projects since I want to redo a lot of the fish faces (many didn't turn out) but the new projects would both be part of a mini series. So I need opinions if I should do them or not... if they seem too overly done then I don't want to do them.
First
Seven Deadly Sins (Greed, Lust, Gluttony, Sloth, Wrath, Pride, Envy)
I might take models on for this I might not, depending on who would want to participate in this. Also this would require make-up, some costume assistance... ect... I want to take this to a whole different level, I have some different concepts I'd like to try out. So I might bring my notebook with all of this stuff in it so I can maybe get a good idea if anyone of my friends would like to do this, maybe Friday? Since we have the whole day off?

**Edit
Yay! So I have people participating in my Deadly Sins shoot now! What sexy little models I have!
Sarah, Sierra, Kait, Greg, Clay, Jake, Lisa, PJ(?), Zack(?) and then whoever is dumb genius enough to join in still! I think for lust and pride I'll be using two people. Something a bit different. Also who knows where I can buy a cheap black sheet? A LARGE cheap black sheet? And more eye makeup? I have some but I need more vibrant stuff. Also I have the colors all sorted out!
Greed: Violet
Lust: Navy
Gluttony: Orange/ Bronze
Sloth: Pale blue/ gray
Wrath: Red
Pride: Magenta/ Whatever feels best
Envy: Green

Second
A downfall from glamour, or something like that. Basically showing from something great to twisted and disgusting. This would be a self project. And it might have a story to go along with it (since I'm that cool and all) so it might be fun. I would need to focus it around a single verse or rhyme though, something childish. So suggestions would be great for this. Greatly appreciated anyhow. Of course. I want to have fun with distorting things, I think it'd be a blast! And it would be a lovely break from the norm I hope.

So whats everyone saying to this?
I'd love to hear what you think and if you'd want to participate. And yes, I plan and taking guys and girls for the seven deadly sins. So boys would have to wear makeup as well. Lucky them, eh?




-Tori

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20347373/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20347373/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 20:32:31 PDT Noooo! How could they do this to me!? Gil Grissom is leaving after episode nine in the newest CSI season... I think they just ripped out my heart and fed it to some rabid dogs... I mean, I love Greg and Nick to pieces! But Grissom fricken makes it! Jeeze!
More uploads...
I'm awesome.
Pretty much
So don't be hating.
First week of school went pretty well actually, made some new friends. I like making new friends and just in general meeting new people.
Sarah and Brit are my Digital Photography buddies!
I think it's gonna be a good year!


lovelovelove
Tori




]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20117330/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/20117330/ Sat, 23 Aug 2008 17:21:15 PDT Well, if you haven't guessed it I'm home!

I don't need to share my bedroom, the bathroom! And best yet!
I don't need to shut off someone's alarm because they insist on getting up at six am and don't! Oh happy day! But it wasn't so bad, I got to the gym a few days and I used my muscles! So thanks.
I took about five-hundred photos down at the shore so expect a wave of uploads. Also I am considering putting some stock up here but I don't know if I want too or not. So we'll see about that.
Overall the trip wasn't so bad, I have an awful farmers tan though where my short line never vanished because my legs did get tanner. Whoopie! Um, I also polished off three books this week so I'm offically awesome.
The Subtle Knife (VERY GOOD)
Midnight Heiress (ehhh... it passed time)
Broken Flower (Yet another V.C Andrews book... rather disturbing and not in a good way)
I also read a little of Bright Captivity but it was as sappy and shitty as romance novels come... so I made it through a few chapters before shooting myself in the temples.
Best part of the vacation: Hot tub and SKINNY DIPPING
So HECK YES I'm such a rebel.
I like Elton John.

Alright... sooo.... let me know if you love me! Because I have a lot to do before tomorrow. Ooo, I'm looking forward to tomorrow. But I really don't want to get into any cars anytime soon. That was a long drive. =\ My ipod is dead. Poor ipod.

lovelovelove
Tori
lovers

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19989934/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19989934/ Sat, 16 Aug 2008 15:18:30 PDT I'm on vacation in obx (not telling where) and my oh my! This house is great!
Just figured I'd let everyone know I'm gone for the week.
Sorry to say I'm missing a party tonight!
But then again I've missed 'em all so far.
Missing the boy too. But I think he already knows that.
Right, Adam?
And of course I miss Sar, Kait and Sierra!
And Rachel, Alex, and PJ.
And so many more people that I'm not up to naiming right now. But it's only out of lazy-buttness that I'm not. It's vacation!
Give me a break!
I have a bunch of photos already too so be prepared for some crazy uploads when I get back.
Missing you all terribly! I might update later this week.
And working out at 6am everyday! Feel the BURN!
Thanks, Jacki.
lovelovelove,
Tori

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19904947/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19904947/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 18:56:02 PDT Yeah... so I hate Sierra.... she's a meanie!

RULES:

1) Post these rules onto your Journal if you've been Tagged.
2) Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves into their Journal.
3) At the end, you have to choose and Tag 8 people and post their icons into this same Journal. I am not doing this because I know that it's painful
4)Go to their page and send them a note saying that you've tagged them.
5) NO TAG-BACKS!!!!


8 FACTS ABOUT ME:

1) I'm very defensive... it's rather sad how defensive I get even though I am wrong. I'll make my case twice as strong even if I'm wrong just to prove a point. And no, not the point that I'm wrong. The point that you should stop harassing me. Or I'll get into a disagreement and I won't leave it alone until it's settled.

2) I'm a sucker for lazy days with the friends. Or they can actually be very busy days where it feels like we're doing nothing. Can you say Haunted Hayride, Bate Motel and Haunted Cornmaze? I can. It's lazy stuff like that and just being with people I like that I'm a sucker for. I guess I really do like the fall.

3) I'm as straight-edge as they come usually. It's rather sad but I take risks and do other stupid things... that we won't mention here. But I don't do drugs, pot, smoke or drink. I'm a nice girl like that.

4) I'm a little OCD on certain things. Necklaces, clothes... makeup. I know it annoys people but I can't help it! A few times it's been for good... I protected my friend from flashing her thong at everyone... for an e n t i r e night. Worst. Night. Ever by-the-way. No really, that was a bad night. I'm sure people will confirm.

5) I can't eat corn or watermelon anymore. I think I'm more upset then anyone right now. WATERMELON! Thats my favorite and my damn work has ruined it for me! Ugh! Well... we'll see how it goes in the Fall. Maybe I'll eat it then.

6) Horror movies are amazing. I just get such a rush from watching them! Comedies are nice every once and a while and Romance flicks are okay if they aren't too sappy. Like The Notebook. I find that sappy and annoying. Sweet in some parts but overall? I'll take the Texas Chainsaw Massacre anytime! That adrenaline just feels great. Plus I don't eat a lot of pop-corn when I watch those. And I love Disney! It's amazing!

7) I care too much about people. I've been fixing it lately but my problem is, no matter the situation or problem (big or small) I always put them before myself. It's gotten me into trouble before and stuff has happened that I wish hadn't but at least they know I care, whether I cry or not over them. Sometimes I wish I didn't care as much as I do but when everything turns out alright I'm really glad actually.

8) I'd rather walk around town with my hand in yours then go to a dinner or out to lunch any day. It doesn't matter to me where we go as long as I can spend time with you and I guess I wish we didn't live as far because gas is being a bitch right now. I'm clumsy when it comes to being affectionate and I make a fool of myself. More or less I have no idea what I'm doing and I want you to tell me when I'm doing something wrong. I just want acceptance.

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I'm not tagging anyone 'cause I'm nice. Besides, if people want to do it I'm sure they will. Anyways... I was supposed to have off from work on Friday but now I work until 7pm, and then I hope to go and have some fun with my friends before I need to leave. Awww, sad face. Exciting news! The boy came and had dinner last night and my parents (step-dad) thoroughly approved, thank god. Got to hear some good stuff about that this morning so I'm glad. I'm on a bit of a high too since I hadn't seen him in a week. So yay for me! We saw too and watched American Psycho. Lovely movie. Christain Bale has a lovely ass. Better then mine even! And I never admit that!
I'll be uploading new photos too. ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19755140/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19755140/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 15:43:07 PDT Yeah, bet that got your attention! Well I'm one short of one-hundred on my dA and I'm hoping to do something special, I really do want to. And for my 99th dA I even through up a little story, I know there are a few mistakes but overall it makes me happy that I can see it there, relive a good and crazy night.

Any-who I must thank for showing me how to get small looking font! So thank yoooooouuuuu!

She's sweet and I lovelovelove her gallery. Check it out! <3

Well I think I can take care of myself a little better, I've been on a wild-sort of high since Friday night, it's slowly wearing down though... booo... but I'll cope. And no, this isn't drug related, I don't approve of drugs or drinking. Besides drugs make you stupid and beer tastes like crap and makes you do and say some dumb things. Mhmm, [insert nodding smiling face here], so stay safe, kiddies!

I'm hoping to have some friends over a few weeks into the school year over my place for a small (or large) get together, my backyard is great right now but I won't really be around much 'cause of work. Work sucks like that. I'm really tempted to take my camera to work and take some inspired photos but then again maybe not. Also I need to work on my graduation project more! Ugh... I'm so tired of writing things down and editing photos but I feel good when I go back and look at everything I've done so far.

lovelovelove you guys!



]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19588895/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19588895/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 11:06:56 PDT Well the photos are fabulous but I think I goofed off more with the camera then took any photos seriously. Also I was terrified of getting sand into my camera!
Because then it would be broken! D=
And I would cry.
No.
Seriously.
I'd cry like a baby and never look at life the same way again.
And I hate 'cause she saw The Dark Knight without me. So that just means I need to see it without her.

Haha, I did soooo much this past week! And last night was Boardwalk night and we did everything we were supposed to do at a boardwalk, my friends and me. My friends and I? Whatever. It was a good night. Ry and I held hands on the boardwalk and were ever so romantic. That and he went on the log flume by himself so Keala, Britt, Bridget and I could ride together for an awesome photo opp. Good night. Very good night indeed. I'll be uploading some photos as well as some other stuff (my dad FINALLY gave me the disc with my photos on it) so my gallery with be plenty busy.
I'm really excited to be home, and maybe I'll plan some friend-time this weekend. Which reminds me.... I need to make a phone call.
Well my vacation was pretty spiffy so thats all I should've said.
Remember, if you read this you must be bored or love meeee!

Lovelovelove yoooouuu

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19436275/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19436275/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 21:42:50 PDT So yeah, figured I may as well update this before I leave. Yes, I'm leaving to go to the beach. How snazzy am I? I wanna get pictures of my friends that are gonna be there (yes, I do have friends) playing around and being the dorks I love and adore. Haha, man, I'm gonna torture the crap outta Ry and hold his hand on the boardwalk so no other girls steal him from me! Haha!
He loves meeeee!
I think.
<3 Oh well if he doesn't! Oh! And I'm going to gaze into his eyes!
Yes!
I can't wait to have a week with Bridget and Brittany though! Omigosh! I'm so ready, I've missed them! Now all we need are Marty, Jon, Keala, and Nicole! Then it's the party-hearty group.
Or Dear-God-I-Hope-They-Don't-Destroy-All-Of-Mankind.
Matt better be there like he promised... and Blair too! Jeeze. I just realized the guys might overpower the girls! Well, not with Bridget on our side at least.
Anyways... my dad found all of the photos from the memory card I gave him in Feb/March!

So when I'm at his place tomorrow night and Friday afternoon before I leave I'll try slapping a few up here. There are Sarah pictures on there! So she'll finally be in my gallery!
ATTENTION ALL FRIENDS!
Photoshoot in the beginning of October. When it's cooler and you can all look snuggly at Highland. I'm saying this now. And we're going to bates and on a hayride/ haunted corn maze! I demand it! Usually I wouldn't care for Autumn but I'm really looking forward to it for once. Weird... I just want the colors I think.
I'm sneaky.
But also...
photos... and the 100th view! Sierra says she got it, Adam said he got it. =\ I'll either put something up for each or make them rock-paper-scissors it out. Honestly I think they should do that. Or fight in a whip cream pool. Haha, what awesome footage that would make! Film and photo!
ANd also I'm having a difficult time being myself lately. I don't really like that, it's like I can't be happy with myself. For a little while I was fine and suddenly I've plummeted. I don't like it. I think I need to go find myself a little more, and at this point I'm starting to think about myself too. I'm tired of putting other people's feelings before my own or keeping someone happy even though I'm not. Blah. I'm looking for a weekend job too, hopefully at a stable or something, I need a healthy place. <3 But yeah. If I ignore you please don't take it personally, I'm just being a bugger.

lovelovelove yooouuuuu<3

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19350839/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19350839/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 08:35:17 PDT Can we not see how excited I am!?
Jeeze, if someone catches the 1000th then I'll do a piece for them. Most likely photomanip so if you want one then catch it. You know the drill but I doubt anyone will step forward with it. I'm also looking for a contest to enter with my stuff, I wanna improve in all aspects. How silly though, right? Anyways I'm going to my dad's tonight and he found the missing memory card that I used in Feb/ March!

Which means I'll be editing some of the most kick ass photos EVER! And some nice portraits. Still gotta get some photos of the boat up... they turned out okay I think. =\ We'll let you judge. So yeah...





These people are the shit.
No seriously.
I need to go ask my mommy for a subscription to here though, like asap.
<3

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19133700/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19133700/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 18:50:34 PDT Not rotting away in Word like my last few.
So thanks.
Yeah so I think I'll try updating some more stuff on here, more variety, and work on those photos of my friends as fishes. Maybe even get the one of my Theatre teacher up. Yeah, thats right, Setlock making a fish face.
Hardcore right there.
Baaahhh.
But other then that I think I might start to lay off texting so much and going on AIM just so I can get myself settled a little more, maybe I'll convince my mom to take me and Serena up to Fox Hollow for her birthday Saturday. Who knows?
Fuuuuucckk. I need some barn time.
But of course my butt still hurts from Sierra and Adam's crappy driving. <3
Three more days of work to go and tomorrow all by my lonesome!
But what I wrote this was to say thanks. And Rachel I really enjoyed your criticism. It's always good to get some so I can improve. I'll be putting that on my list next time I go to take some photos.

((I am not feeling Shame, it just won't change.)

Funny how work kind of lifted my mood. God I have the best co-workers in the world. <3

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19114965/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/19114965/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 18:36:57 PDT WARNING: language, content

Yeah, after a good weekend I'm slowly winding down to where I'm just tired of everything around me, the people I'm friends with and the complications boys bring with them. I mean, I just feel like I'm not getting a break and I know it's bad of me to complain, more or less I've brought it upon me. I just want it to be October or November. Seriously. Screw summer, it's not helping. I work now and it feels like thats all I'm doing, I literally waste my days away in that scum-hole called Acme and I'm tired of my asshat manager. No one's gonna like what I'll be writing for the next few paragraphs or so but if you read them then thats your problem, I just need to vent and DA seems like an okay place to do that.

So crap with my friends seems to be getting worse. No. Seriously. Fucking sucks. I want just one friend- one friend! Who doesn't come with drama and shit like that. I myself want to stop feeling like I need to talk about other people's problems and my own. It's always sex, drugs, pot, smoking, relationships, more sex, parents and more shit about relationships. Fucking done, people! It's not often that I feel like crying over frustration but for once I do. Have been. Will be. And I don't want pity! I don't want any of that, I just want one person to hear me out, nod, give me a hug and go home! I want reassurance that it's okay that I feel like this. I don't want to feel like this but so many internal things and people are telling me what to do and I've just come to the breaking point.

I've also gone and dug myself a ditch in the romance area, oh super, and quite frankly I'm confused, tired, upset and in the department of feeling worthless. Great, right? It's just I've kinda been in the wings when it comes to romance. In the quoting of QC I'm like when you feed a starving person too much too fast except with romance. Sad but true. Yesterday I had an amazing day with a boy and one of my closer friends, we went to my pop-pop's boat and took the mini boat out (like a jet ski except boat shaped and fits (pushing) four people in it. It was a blast until we ran outta gas and swam in the bay waiting to be rescued. Luckily we had a walkie talkie. Overall it was just an amazing day. But there is a lot of inner conflict, a lot I really don't think I should discuss here incase someone comes and reads it then relays it.

I'm a fucking moron.

But I guess I'm just lonely maybe and not for friends. Those I have. I just want someone who I can be with I suppose, I guess I'm tired of feeling alone all the time. I want to learn to grow but I'm tired of being on my own two feet. I want to feel someone's hand in mine, fingers interlaced and holding on tightly. I've been standing on my own two feet for over a year now, some small things here and there but nothing I can call on making it very long. Part of me is afraid of committing because I don't want to disappoint. I hate doing that, it's what helps keep me out of relationships. I'm ashamed of myself because I don't want to be a tease, I just want to find someone who doesn't make me feel so lonely anymore, if thats even a reason.

On top of all that my parents have been the most difficult people to cope with, they monitor my every move and after last week I just wanted to think, to stay at home before I had to go to work. My parents got mad because I didn't want to go on a family outting before work, I work in the fucking produce department hauling vegetables and fruit around. I husk fucking corn for about two hours straight and I always mop the floors because GOD FORBID someone else do it. So now I won't be going riding for even longer, I'm not allowed to look for a more convenient job, and I now dread coming home even. How pathetic.

I'm fucking pathetic.
It's nothing I haven't known.
And now I just ignored his call because I don't feel like answering the phone like a babbling idiot, choked and all. I'm just upset with myself.
So bravo!
I've done it again! I've disappointed someone else!
At least that someone is me, right?

I guess thats enough for one day right? Well I've uploaded some new photos for your viewing and also would love come critique since I want to be good. I really do. So at least I can say I haven't disappointed in some sort of department, right?

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/18666553/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/18666553/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 17:13:51 PDT
1.Put your music player on "random." Skip songs with not-very interesting titles (such as "Concerto #4 in E minor")
2. List the titles of the first 25 songs to come up.
3. Put "in my pants" after each title.
4. Bold the ones that actually made you laugh

1. Larger Then Life in my pants
2. The Time Warp in my pants
3. Hung Up in my pants
4. Car Crash in my pants
5. Candyman in my pants
6. Smack That in my pants
7. Umbrella in my pants
8. Jumpin' Jumpin' in my pants
9. 4 Minutes in my pants
10. Don't Stop Believin' in my pants
11. Superman in my pants
12. Hell Yeah in my pants
13. Heels Over Head in my pants
14. Defying Gravity in my pants
15. Wait a Minute in my pants
16. I Can't Stand It in my pants
17. Gone in my pants
18. You Shook Me All Night Long in my pants
19. It Won't Be Long in my pants
20. Like A Prayer in my pants
21. Love Shack in my pants
22. Do It Alone in my pants
23. Nobody's Perfect in my pants
24. Walk Away in my pants
25. Yeah! in my pants

Haha, good god I have problems... took this from because it was just too awesome to pass up!

Well I started my big project with the fish faces starring because she's pretty damn awesome and everyone should watch her!
Dead serious.
My other friends will follow shortly and also my Theatre arts II teacher!

Well I got poison ivy on Friday at school. Yeah, real great right? Well during a senior prom I went to (which was wicked awesome by the way!) It slowly got worse and yesterday it spread down my arm. It's pretty nasty. Lisa got it too... Which isn't cool so now I'm hiding my arm in shame, dear god its such a pain. My first time getting it too and when I got home I discovered it's on the top of my back, it spread there during gym from transfer. Sucks. But the back isn't really so bad actually.

Now I need to go memorize my monologue from Carrie and strip my sheets.... again.


HTML help please!

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/18293755/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/18293755/ Mon, 12 May 2008 17:27:07 PDT

1) I'm a pretty weird kid, no lie.

2) I'm very critical of myself, it's what I do.

3) I love constructive crit!

4) I procrastinate... it's horrible!

5) I lovelovelove CSI and CSI NY, CSI Miami can go burn in a ditch.

6) I admire my friends and make sure I vocalize it, though I don't think I do it enough.

7) I can't take very good pictures, I'm just not very photogenic.

8) I've been riding for twelve years now and I'm still waiting until I get a pony... or horse. =\

I tag:
Whoever decides to read this! xD


the rules

1. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
2. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
3. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
4. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/17804763/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/17804763/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 23:58:37 PDT Uploaded some new photos bytches, damn straight. Enjoy it, I'm hoping to be uploading even more as time goes on. Also, borrowing my dad; 60mm lens! Ahhh! It makes life WONDERFUL! Since... my 30mm-70mm broke. I think I seriously cried. It was terrible, and on Easter too! Damnnation! But at least I have a replacement for now.
Thanks to everyone who commented and checked in with me (online and at home/school) who saw my last entry, means a lot. I'm doing better now, seeing some professional help actually. Eh, I'm going in three weeks since thats the best opening, but it really has been helping.

She's a nice lady.

Oh, I'm starting a new project, that preview will be the next photo I upload to Deviantart so just you wait! It's gonna be a big thing for me too so.... yeah. Humor me.

For all of you who love me my birthday is on the 19th! I'm gonna be 17! =O Gosh I'm old! Haha, and maybe I'll get to go out to the barn for my birthday so I can take some shots, that'd be nice. HINT-HINT, haha, and since it's a Saturday I shall not be denied! Or I will...

And tomorrow I'm going to be a godmother, how scary is that! But pretty cool at the same time. Maybe I'll take some photos with her, my baby cousin Marissa, she's a sweetie. And then her two older sisters Alexandra (6) and Juliana (2), I wouldn't mind a nice photo with them as an ID. Love those kiddies. But I'm getting changed after the service, no way will I be stuck in nice clothes when the kids wanna rough house! Not smart.

Well anyhow... I think thats all. Um, comments are welcomed! Especially if you fave something! Haha, and if anyone wants to help me with learning how to edit my journal and make a skin and also teach me how to play around with font sizes that'd be awesome.

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/17379281/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/17379281/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 13:01:28 PDT
I really don't like human beings either, guess I should have mentioned that. We're murderous and crazy and we like reproducing way to much. I'm not asking for someone to be perfect, I'm asking that maybe if everyone looked at themselves for a change that maybe we wouldn't get into the same old shit that we always have been. Well, I dunno. I;ll be uploading some new photos over the next few days of the past few weeks. Hopefully everything will go as planned.

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/17102938/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/17102938/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 13:22:47 PST
Destroyed technology.

Or something like that.

But yeah, I'm relaxed and yet stressed out to wazoo! The stupid musical at the school is taking up a lot of our time (Theatre Arts II) and we can't finish our lights because they keep playing with the stuff. Ugh. And now to top that I won't be riding until June because my mom is being a pain. =\ And I think the first she told me I went into hysterics. So until I can get out to the barn with GG to take pictures of her and Jack I won't be posting many new horse pictures. Unfortunately. But I'll try for other things nonetheless.

Oh, and my brother keeps coming into my room looking for stuff. I know he's three but I'm kinda getting irked with the kid. He knows better, not to mention my sister is in my face with a nasty attitude about 94% of the time. The rest of that percentage she's with her friends on our block. But she's seven... whatever.

I need a good ol' distraction.

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/16947041/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/16947041/ Mon, 18 Feb 2008 13:56:26 PST
vfarally@gmail.com


Thanks,
Tori

]]> ~xalways http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/16914680/ http://xalways.deviantart.com/journal/16914680/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 13:24:31 PST
"In west Philadelphia born and raised-"

No, I don't live there, but I live close enough where I can drive and be there in a little over an hour.

So for those of you that know, might learn to know or really don't care... I'm Victoria Farally, I prefer Tori though. And for the people in the rpg world I'm simply known as Reina. I like to hope that I'm fairly easy to get along with.

My father is a photographer so thats how I got into the whole scene. Start 'em out young! Oh yeah! Haha. I do it more so as a hobby then anything else which is why none of my pictures are prints. If I ever decide to put stuff up as stock then I'll let everyone know, because right now I'd rather not, and I still gotta get my Ludwigs pictures up! Argh! Well, I might put one up, and one only! Since I'm on my dad's computer and all that jazz. He deleted all my pictures that were on his computer a few days ago... awwww, but I showed him some cool effects I learned today!

I'm such a great daughter.

Haha!

Anyhow... I'm also going to try to get a few pictures up of my little sister and her friends/ our neighbors playing in the yard soon. They are pretty cute... when they leave me alone. All of them are seven, except Ryan (the only boy) he's eight. But my sister and Lindsey are seven and little balls of energy.

I'm also hoping to start a series with my friends naturally smiling. No poses or anything, its also part of something that I'm writing at the moment. I'm just hot like that. Oh yeah! But It will be a series with it's own section.

As soon as I figure how to work Deviantart out.

My old accounts are phantasy419 and ze-dex. Horrible, but I can't remember the first passes and the other is terrible. If i ever figure out how to delete you can count on the fact I will!

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