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December 1-4, 2008
YAYASAN PUSAT KEBUDAYAAN
Jln Naripan No.9 Bandung

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nb: my artwork, Autoerotica Asphyxiation will submitted on DA later, kay ;)


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i was intershipping at DDB Brainstorm Communications in Jakarta, and did some of the most exhausting pitchings, like Indosat and Mayora, and fortunately, we won the pitchs! LOL.. thanks GOD :)
After that, i joined Q Film Festival Jakarta team as assistant designer and venue coordinator. The screenings, fringe events and parties were a blast!

Thank you for Glenn Marsalim, Gandhi Suryoto, and Andri Putra for all the teachings as Creative Director.
Reni, Rani, Randi, Idun, Lala, Lukman, Mbak Dita, Mas Bambang.. for such a great companions!! love ya guys...
Mae, Catherine, Mbak Keke, Mbak Caca, Mbak Aline, Mas Diki, Mas Ages, and all DDB Brainstorm team (sorry i can't write down every name), thank you so much for pushing my skill to limit.
Thanks to John Badalu, Dimas Hary, Menina Putri, Haly, Okka, Barqi, Alam and all Qfest crew... for letting me have fun at rumah senang. miss u guys...
And every single person that i met for those two unbelievable months!

Now.. i'm back for you! :D :D :heart:




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damn you deviantart! (or maybe this computer?)

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wish me luck on my portfolio!
(darn, i wish i'm gonna make a best one)
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They should be finished a month ago... i guess this isn't my year of hard-work and happiness.

but, hell... i'm gonna be happy anyway! :D

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hoaheemmm..
lebaran ga dapet angpao, dipasung di rumah, mati gaya dsb dsb lah.
tugas liburan masih menumpuk, menunggu untuk diseleseikan.

ayo.. kamu pasti bisa!


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pengen bikin gambar Gemma Ward ato Leah Dizon.
tapi malaaaaaassssssss.....

ah.... Tuhan!! bantu aku biar jadi anak yang tidak malas lagi!!!!!



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dia nganggep aku apa sih?

not even a friend?



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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/13021064/ Sun, 20 May 2007 04:02:55 PDT suntuk. banyak tugas.
harus ngerjain 6 tugas dalam 2 hari ini.
soalnya sabtu minggu ini mau ke betsy.

senangnya nongkrong di arsi.

depresi dan depresi.
untung aku bawa semua mp3 Wolf's Rain.
Yoko Kanno memang menenangkan.

aku belajar hari ini:
aku tidak boleh berada di antara perjalanan hubungan persahabatan dua orang.
meskipun dua-duanya sahabatku.
aku lebih baik mundur.


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ternyata yang meledakin NY tuh Sylar yah bukan Peter?

lagi di duya nih.
sambil ngopi-ngopi di komputer ujung, ditiup angin dari jendela sebelah di lt 2. memang enak nongkrong di warnet ini.

saya masih belum ngerjain cover.
saya juga males nyari gambar2 beruang.
dan juga saya males pulang.
aduh.



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 ~xavie fluku kambuh terus http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/12883591/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/12883591/ Tue, 08 May 2007 03:47:37 PDT percuma gw nonton sambil sakit2 badan.
ternyata ga worth banget >.<
high expectation, but sucks.

tadi abis makan di pizzahut ama kukuh dadan.
hmm kenyang banget.
trus ngegosip ampe berjam-jam.
tapi seru banget.
tadi kita liat gerombolan ibu2 yang super seram.
perokok berat, trus bawa 1 anak.
aduh udah kayak penculik aja di mata gw.

bosan nih.
tugas banyak banget.
udah gitu ditawarin pameran ilustrasi ama ruli di ccf.
aduh tapi ga akan sempet >.<
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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/12798917/ Tue, 01 May 2007 04:32:56 PDT besok sih tapinya.
premier, udah mesen tiket tadi. :D :D

arrggghhhhhh...... udah lagi suntuk trus tugas tipografi belum kelar2 juga.
bikin ulang cover kaset chaseiro 3 nih.
udah gw ga gitu tau bandnya.
ya mending lah kalo disuru bikin cover kaset band yang gw suka.

lagi gambar channing tatum nih.
tapi susah banget.
abis fotonya yang lagi senyum.
trus kan kalo dia senyum, lidahnya agak digigit dikit.
khas banget.... tapi jadi bikin susah digambar.
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]]> ~xavie g l a s s e s http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/9593930/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/9593930/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 03:00:57 PDT Listen : Muse - Endlessly
Watch : Prison Break
Read : Forrest Gump
Fave Food : tuna pizza
Mood : :tears: :tears: :tears:



hmm... yesterday, i started to wear glasses. for my better view and better look too ^^. and i really exciting about whole new glasses things.

my pageview is nearly about 4444 hits... so i decided to draw another 'model looks' face like Channing Tatum or Stanislav Ianevski (cast Viktor Krum on Harry Potter movie).
so... just wait for the 4444 hits!! i really excited!!! ^_^



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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/9276756/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 00:29:49 PDT Listen : Homogenic - Faithful Dreams
Watch : FRIENDS DVD season 9
Read : nothing
Fave Food : smoked tuna
Mood : :tears: :tears: :tears:



sad..
my secret admirer didn't show his face since yesterday.
just only me and my friends here right now.

without that person.


Pasar Seni 2006--the one and only greatest sr-itb event-- just take a few moment again. On September.
i must work harder to make this event become perfect. :heart:
i can't wait to see 'the mister dj'

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 ~xavie Sekarang http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/8484832/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/8484832/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 01:50:06 PDT Listen : Maliq & The Essentials - Untitled
Watch : Walk the Line
Read : Forrest Gump (Finally i found this book !!!!!)
Fave Food : my own made fried rice
Mood : :tears: :tears: :tears:



Aku sudah merasakan rasanya patah hati.
Sepi dan tenggelam.
Bintangku jatuh dan memudar diatas tanah.
Aku menyaksikannya sendiri.

Hati hancur berkeping-keping.
Pecah diatas pecahan-pecahan lainnya.
Kucoba memunguti hatiku yang hancur itu satu demi satu.
Meskipun aku tahu.
Rasa sakit untuk memungutinya lagi.
Karena tangan dan lututku terluka karena pecahan-pecahannya.
Namun aku tak peduli.

Dan aku berhasil meraupnya semua.
Lalu kujahit dengan tanganku, setusuk demi setusuk.
Akhirnya hatiku kembali utuh seperti semula.
Meskipun banyak terlihat jahitan.
Namun aku puas.

Dan sekarang...
Ketika aku mendapat bintangku yang baru.
Aku patah hati lagi.
Baru saja bintangku jatuh dan memudar di atas tanah.
Meninggalkan bekas pilu dalam diriku.
Dan akhirnya hatiku hancur berkeping-keping lagi.
Lagi.. dan lagi.

Aku bertanya...
Apakah aku dapat menyatukannya kembali?




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<... ]]> ~xavie Finished http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/8340720/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/8340720/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 06:43:23 PDT Listen : Unbreak My Heart - Toni Braxton
Watch : Date Movie
Read : Forrest Gump (Finally i found this book !!!!!)
Fave Food : my own made fried rice
Mood : :tears:



Sad..
When somebody that you love was gone
Washed by my own tears

with my soul...

Finally, i finished my mid-test work..... i can barely breath easy now... :D



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~xavie i'm over http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7850917/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7850917/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 20:53:24 PST Listen : I Don't Know Why I Can Save You From - Royksopp ft. Kings of Convenience
Watch : Brokeback Mountain
Read : at Swim, Two Boys
Fave Food : Sandwich
Mood : :tears:



I'm over you
I'm over you
and i'm really really over you
because you make me fell in love with you


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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7645182/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 04:09:30 PST Listen : Ada Band - "Setengah Hati"
Watch : Naked Gun 2 1/2 ama 33 1/3... (again and again....)
Read : at Swim, Two Boys
Fave Food : Mommy's fried rice..... *yummy*
Mood : :tears:



ahhhh.......
i'm very busy right now... joining Masquarade for Clear Metamorphoself... Jan 28th...... hhhhhuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....... boring everyday!!!

I miss my crushed one... miss so much... :heart:




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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7560406/ Tue, 10 Jan 2006 02:09:24 PST Listen : My Chemical Romance - "Ghost of You"
Watch : Saw 2
Read : Understanding Comic
Fave Food : Gado-gado
Mood : :tears:



akhirnyaaa... uas dah selesei... horaayy!!!
besok gw mau ke Cimol.. nyari baju buat Gothic Nite ntar...
trus main bowling... that's fantastic!! :D
Gonna lose my weight on this holiday... hope so.....

wish me luck!! :D




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~xavie Rejected http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7369847/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7369847/ Wed, 21 Dec 2005 04:36:47 PST Listen : Muse - "Endlessly"
Watch : Chicken Little
Read : TTKI
Fave Food : Shanghai Ice
Mood : :tears:


Bete nih... lagi uas.
Masih banyak pr yang harus dikerjain. :sad:
belum lagi harus begadang.... belum lagi harus ngapalin... belum lagi harus bikin pr 3d.... belum lagi masalah2 gw.... hiks....


"I'm just an ugly duckling
rejected by anyone
rejected by my friends
rejected by someone that i love

but i'm just an ugly duckling...
i'm ugly.. and i can't be a swan.

just being an ugly duckling"





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~xavie My Feelings http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7333262/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7333262/ Sat, 17 Dec 2005 01:35:13 PST Listen : Green Day - "Wake Me Up When September Ends"
Watch : Flightplan
Read : Ghost
Fave Food : makanan di Salman
Mood : :tears:



I'm glad..
When i see you smile.

I'm sad...
When i see you in pain.

I'm jealous...
When i see you with somebody else.

And i'm happy...
When i remember that i always love you.





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~xavie Contradiction http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7279250/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7279250/ Sun, 11 Dec 2005 02:58:54 PST Listen : Hyde - "Secret Letter"
Watch : Hithchiker's Guide to the Galaxy
Read : Uzumaki
Fave Food : Ga pengen makan...
Mood : :tears:



My mood was going up
My mood was going down
Just because of you

I want to be with you
But i don't...

I want to hold you
But i don't...

Because of you
Just because of you...

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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7234836/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 02:39:41 PST Listen : Baroque - "Butterfly"
Watch : Simple Life 2 : Road Trip DVD
Read : At Swim, Two Boys (thanks to ~platinapastern), again...
Fave Food : Gorengan
Mood : :tears:



Why am i so sad?
Why am i so mad?
Why am i so sick?
Why am i so lonely?
Why am i so desperate?
Why am i so broken?

I Know...
Because you've killed me that day


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pameran pertama mahasiswa fsrd itb 2005
5 - 10 Desember 2005
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Campus Center ITB
jl. Ganesha no. 10 Bandung
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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7151757/ Fri, 02 Dec 2005 00:49:11 PST Listen : Hyde - Angel's Tale
Watch : Grave of the Fireflies (Hotaru no Haka)
Read : At Swim, Two Boys (thanks to ~platinapastern), again...
Fave Food : Fillet o'Fish
Mood : :tears:




I love you...
but i know you don't know i love you
my feelings growing bigger and bigger each day
and i know that's gonna hurt me

I love you...
if you're a firefly, i'll cut your wings
because i love you

I love you...
altough you don't love me
you can't love me
i understand
but i'm a selfish thing

I love you...
until you said that words
that night
...you said that you love somebody

why you just tell me?
why didn't you tell somebody else...
my heart broke into pieces
sad

i blame myself for loving you
and i blame God for giving me life just to love you forever

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~xavie Cursing My Senior http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7099343/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7099343/ Sun, 20 Nov 2005 18:18:01 PST Listen : Baroque - Shagare Boogie
Watch : Grave of Fireflies
Read : At Swim, Two Boys (thanks to ~platinapastern)
Fave Food : Noodles
Mood : :heart:



Yeah... my senior was pushing us down again. they said that we are animals.... and trash!!

we mad... and make things going unusual... :lonely:




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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/7041077/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 00:13:28 PST Listen : Hyde - Angel's Tale
Watch : Ever After
Read : At Swim, Two Boys (thanks to ~platinapastern)
Fave Food : Fried rice
Mood : :lonely:



hmm... after 2 weeks holiday, return again to my usual life---college (finally :D). I only slept 3 hours last nite for finishing my homework.... a metamorf.... really exhausting homework....

my lover is sick... i begin to more... more lonely than ever. Nobody beside me as usual... *sigh*

Hope my lover better soon... i can't wait to hug that person... :cries:




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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/6967312/ Sat, 05 Nov 2005 23:50:22 PST Listen : Baroque - Aimai Drastic Number and Baroque - Ila
Watch : Schindler's List
Read : Bleach (mangascan)
Fave Food : Ketupat (Lebaran Mood)
Mood : In Love :heart:, but :lonely:.... again



Yeah... so many homework, so many stresses.
Lebaran this year means nothing to me, my love is far, far away....

I need to hug that person :heart:, but i can't... until i die



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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/6798366/ Tue, 18 Oct 2005 06:10:30 PDT Listen : Baroque - Butterfly and Baroque - Tight
Watch : 3rd Season 'Queer As Folk' (again)
Read : Uzumaki
Fave Food : Pinky Lychee
Mood : In Love :heart:, but :lonely:



Again and again... i still love that person.. :heart:, but i feel so lonely... during the time when that person isn't there, my mood was dropped down.... down to the center of earth..

why i must have this feeling????



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~xavie Loving Month http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/6622755/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/6622755/ Wed, 28 Sep 2005 05:56:33 PDT Listen : SPITZ - Mizuiro no Machi
Watch : 3rd Season 'Queer As Folk'
Read : Insiden Anjing di Tengah Malam yang Bikin Penasaran
Fave Food : Stuffed Donuts
Mood : In Love :heart:



In the middle of my first month in my college.... That's really hard, y know. I was thinking that in college, there were a lot of fun. But i know that really hard to ignore the reality :surrender:

Yeah... finally, i had crush to someone. That's great!! i can't stop thinking of that person. Drive me crazy... questions in my head.... make me blind.. yeah.... :jawdrop: I love myself when i'm fallin in love!! :flirty:

Last saturday, when i and all of my friends in my faculty had some "graduating" job for my seniors. We all went crazy. Starting with boys cover by mud all over our bodies, and girls with leaves... We make a sensational move and teatherical performances in front of Sabuga building in my college.
Burning feet and back, didn't make us less integrity. We made all peoples near us jealous. Yeah... a narcist faculty. I kind of like it :D

In the night of that day, we must stand in Fancy Night. We weared jewish costumes. But not as usual, we make it not as great as we always wear. So, our seniors, mad at us. :nirvana: But we have a great time that day, even if my legs can't be moved, because i was so tired....

Hmmph.... i thinking about that person again right now.....
I do care and i love that person very much... :heart:




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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/6339594/ Sat, 27 Aug 2005 04:14:02 PDT Listen : Green Day's "Jesus of Suburbia"
Watch : Motorcycle Diaries
Read : Le Petite Prince (A Little Prince)
Fave Food : French Fries



Yesterday, me and my college friends made a show dedicated to my seniors. The theme is "Alien Kidnapping Human". Me and my friends as the alien and my seniors as human. :D
We all weared costumes regarding to the theme. Many of us was perfect. Just only 2 days, they can made a wonderful costumes. My friend, Neina, weared Darth Vader costume. She was awesome wearing that thing. There are also Darth Maul, one jellyfish that weared by two people, and old style gothic, Laruku "Smile", Princess from Mars and other great costumes. :)
I weared underwear in my head and the outside of my jeans. With a tie, and "Bear Hat', i were the most disgusting and creative costume and i proud of it :D
And we all have a great time together... :heart:



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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/6265715/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 20:59:01 PDT Listen : Tangga - "Hebat" and Maliq & d'essentials - "Terdiam"
Watch : LOST tv series dvd season 1
Read : My new college's Book of Rules
Fave Food : Meat Loaf




Yeah.... i'm in the middle of my orientation on my new college. :no: That's hard, you know.... i must be on college at 6 am. and be there for all of my day. And return home on 9 pm. What a hard week...:abduction:

Me and another 3000 new college students get a "nice" days. We must stand still on the yard at noon, sunlight burning our faces while senior-college student (We called 'em Nebula)yelling in front of our faces :depressed:. We ought to follow their will and orders.

I can't resist, because those are the rules for being new student... and i must stay focus and strong. For them... and for my future.... :nod:



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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/6072907/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 23:10:49 PDT Listen : Arrested Development's "Honeymoon Day"
Watch : Shutter (A Thai movie, scariest movie EVER!!)
Read : Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince (for the second time)
Fave food : Seafood



This is my last days together with my beloved classmates in 12th grade "12 IPA Enam Anjing Metal Endjoy Destroy Tak Pernah Padam":sniff:. In every single breath i take, i never feel so lonely to be separated with my 12th grade classmates. I never feel like this before. It's like somebody stolen my heart pieces :tears:. Feel so sad.

My classmates are unbelieveable crazy. Sometimes we sit on our beloved bench in front of our class, watch another students walking by, look for the sunrise and feel those moments together. Sometime when our teacher is absent, we go to the canteen together, eat cookies, ice juices, candies, and sometimes we write out opinion about other classes and how they don't get as much as unity we have on canteen's table. Just call us "The Destroyer Class", because there are so many BadBoys in our class, or call us "The Champion Class", because we won many championship, like 1st place on "Cleanest Class 2004-2005", 1st place on "3on3 Basketball Championship", "Mural Championship", and of course "Most Hated Class"-because everybody jealous of our winnings, and i proud of it :blushes:. Not once or twice, we make our teachers upset, mad, even cry. And we can still smile together, take our picture with cameras and handycams. But i know, that time won't last forever.

On last saturday, from 23rd to 26th of July 2005, our class-Science 6 have a trip to Pangandaran Beach-one of the most famous beach in Indonesia, place in West Java.

We're on a bus to get there... it's take about 6 hours to get there. Once we get the beach, we felt so thirsty. Because the weather of every single beach is HOT!! :sarcasm:
We spend fisrt night in Dania's Grandmother's house. Very nice house, not too big, but not to small either. Pretty nice house for a beach house.

In the next day, we move on to 3 cottages that we ordered before. Females-mates in one cottage, and for Male, two cottages. As soon as we arrive in cottages, in seconds, we all half-naked. Just weared swimsuit of boxer, rent a surfboard for each of us, and jump to the salt-water. It feel so unbelieveable great :headbang:. We race to get a great wave and have fun together. Some of my mates buried themself in sand, and make some sexy bodies from it. Just have fun.

Next day, we went to Pasir Putih, a beautiful beach next to Pangandaran. With white sand, and beautiful corals, we're snorkling and diving. Some of my mates, go to look for monkeys and deers. In the Afternoon, we made a Surfing Championship for ourself, but i'm sure that there was no prize, we're only have fun, spending our last days. :star: And my skin was become tanner, but i like it.:D

In the night before we go home, we make a huge lightfire. Spending our last time together, we shared our story and opinion about our class. Some story told cheerfully, and the other told sadly. After we look at a falling star, we make wish together and saying goodbye to every single of us. I can't stand my feelings on that moment, we hug each other, say sorry, and cry for a moments. I don't wanna this moment over.... :cries: i don't wanna this happen............. oh my god, i will miss u, GUYS !!!! i can't stand for it !!!!!!!!!!


dedicated to :
:star:adit. ali. andhika. andini. ariandy. andi. bajoe. bhar. danie. dewi. dian. puput. erdy. eky. fahmi. ghena. batu. gie. gina. dn. irman. janu. jaer. jen. jihan. juju. kori. maya.mia. hatta. nanank. niko. nugie. pandu. prita. rachma. razif. as. rina. shinta. sube. thess. tomi. vani. wiwix. wulan ~xavie Feeling "Walking Contradiction" http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5999206/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5999206/ Thu, 21 Jul 2005 20:44:25 PDT Listen : Green Day's "Redundant"
Watch : FRIENDS DVD season 4
Read : Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince
Fave food : Nasi Kuning (Kind of Indonesian favourite food)



I just grabbed the title of Green Day "Walking Contradiction", because of me, me and me!!! When i remembered this video, it's kind of like me right now. When i walk to somewhere place, there were many accidents. Like maybe my bro shattering glass, vase in my aunt's house broke because of me...:boo: and the worst thing was when i got cold :sneeze:, my entire family got cold too....
i feel pathetic and horrable :no:

:please: please God help me... to make this "jinx" out of me...... pleeeaaaassseeeee.................. aaarrrrggghhh!!!!! :pissedoff:




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~xavie Hard to Say Goodbye http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5937709/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5937709/ Thu, 14 Jul 2005 22:56:59 PDT Listening to : Green Day's "Basket Case"
Watch : Fantastic Four and BeautyShop
Read : Eiji Yoshikawa's "Musashi" vol. 6
Fave food : Just now, i like Yakiniku


Last Saturday, i was on my Prom Night. All of students in my school attended it. And all of them weared fantastic gowns and tuxedos. But there were some friends weared a themed suit like Cinderella, Adam Sandler's "Longest Yard" and ofcourse there were "bee-atch" costumes...:ignore: (wonder where they get that ideas :crazy: ). And i weared Green Day costume... maybe sort of Billie Joe Amstrong meet Gerard Way (MCR) :psychotic:
I was planned it for 1 week!!! :nirvana: what a short time it was!! :D
That night, my ears was trembled by my school's bands. And my faves are The Fangkiboys and The Rockin' Monsters... They're ROCK!!! :headbang:

But my point aren't that. My exact point is time to say goodbye.... My friends, my enemies, my backstabbers and all of my teachers. I didn't want that happened. But i must tough and just look to the future. And i realized something that real friends never say goodbye
Just good luck to all of you and hope for the best, friends!!! :heart: :heart: :heart:



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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5808725/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 20:45:17 PDT . But there're so many friends that failed that exam. And one of my best friend didn't pass national school test. I feel so sad to them :sad:. They're so desperated by the things that happened to them. I'm just like dancing on their pain, but i didn't want that happened to them..... :cries:
Hopefully, God always gives them a best way for their life.
God bless you all my friends... :please:

These days... i wacthed Green Day music video "Wake Me Up When September Ends"... that was A W E S O M E !! :headbang: :jawdrop:
And perfectly clever video... I really like the romances and dramatic scenes inside... make my heart melting and i started to think about those friends... :disbelief:




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... ]]> ~xavie F I N A L L Y http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5516296/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5516296/ Tue, 28 Jun 2005 07:46:14 PDT :crazy: i feel so relieved. All i wanna do is sleep now and enjoyed last moment of school.
Someday.... me and all of my friends will meet again. But who knows....
:sadangel:



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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5473544/ Fri, 27 May 2005 04:11:16 PDT
I'm doing nothing right now. Only writing my poem....

School

Every morning we hurry to that place.
Hurry for not late.
Hurry for get teached.
We don't know what for we do that thing....

For make our money spent?
For make our mind washed?
Or for make our believe faked?
We just do it.

School just a bunch of rules that can make your heart stop beating
Just a bunch of rules....
Rules that can make our life further from us.

But i realize something...
That most precious teacher is life itself...




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~xavie Exhausting Day http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5306606/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5306606/ Sun, 22 May 2005 22:09:14 PDT am. My friend, Julia poop before it started :disbelief:. When i did the work, my head is turn upside down :headache::nirvana:. And Julia puked once, baby... once!! She hadn't eat anything before.... Phew... finally i have done it :heart:.

All i want to do is SLEEP!!!
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http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5233773/ Sun, 08 May 2005 00:32:09 PDT But the biggest problem is i don't know which way it is. It's like searching a needle in my vein.

My finger can't stop bouncing and i don't want it harshly.

I think that i'm in a big big big problem right know, and i don't know how to solve it.



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:bulletred::bulletred::bulletred: My Club :... ]]></description> <author>~xavie</author> </item> <item> <title>Just F*ck Myself....</title> <link>http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5066126/</link> <guid isPermaLink=http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/5066126/ Tue, 12 Apr 2005 01:49:54 PDT I was unconcious yesterday... just because all of my friends did something like "JackAss" scene.... and i fell down. I didn't feel any regret... and my heart feel more comfortable with my attitude. To become more free and more "mess".
I just f*ck myself....... ]]> ~xavie Lonely.... http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/3507584/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/3507584/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 00:52:14 PDT I only just be nobody in this world... ]]> ~xavie a Story About Someone http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/3439816/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/3439816/ Fri, 24 Sep 2004 22:31:33 PDT One day, Cinderella meets Harry Potter in Barbershop next to the Terminal. Harry is a Sk8ter Boi and he want some Jersey Girl. She want Harry to be her Bachelor. They really like Animals, but they prefer like Butterfly rather than Anaconda. And of course they like Butterfly Effect the most!!
Harry take Cinderella to Meet the Parents and some White Chicks on their Trip. They rent a Bus to make tehir Vacation "Hairy Tale". The cost of the bust is Cheaper by the Dozen, and they so happy.
On the Road. They Trapped on the Sahara. They hungry and thirsty. Spider is full that place. They scare and hope to be in their House again. Not piss in the Hell and kiss some Jackass. So they be Survivor for 40 Days 40 Nights. But they don't make it. They die in that Sahara and become a famous Cinderella Story. ]]> ~xavie Friday http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/3380953/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/3380953/ Thu, 16 Sep 2004 21:58:52 PDT All of my teacher was have a trip to Kuta Beach, Bali... so all of students in my school was studied at home at that period......

What a bad day this friday...... this day.... f***!! ]]> ~xavie Black and White http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/3359693/ http://xavie.deviantart.com/journal/3359693/ Tue, 14 Sep 2004 03:08:17 PDT
why all my 17 years is fulfill with black days... not my white and excite days?
Black... black and black... you can see it trough my eyes and you can feel it im my heartbeat.
Nobody can save me. Nobody!!

Black and black..... why all my life isn't fulfill with white day? I don't know.....

I just want to catch a white day with my barehands... but they are too far and high... my hopes just swept away from my mind... swept by the black. ]]> ~xavie