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=xcassedega http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26392854/ http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26392854/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 00:32:52 PDT

Tomorrow, I'm going to go job hunting!
Starting at places around my house :]
Then I'm going to go with my brother maybe to wal*mart[where he works] and apply :]

god,
I'm about to be a fucking SENIOR man.
life is going so fuuuucking fast :]


I'm excited.

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=xcassedega http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26364397/ http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26364397/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 17:20:31 PDT
My friend steals my money and his exgirlfriend who is one of my friends,
fucking says its MY fault it got stolen.
-.-
He's a fucking thief.

and all the fucking shit that went down at the con was insane. I'm fucking sick of all this fucking shit going on.


fuck.

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26342033/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 14:56:34 PDT BUT SO MUCH FUN <3


I'll guess I'll do a full update later.


Edit!

Thursday!
Woke up at about 8AM and went to the airport. Arrived at OIA. [orlando international airport] to learn my ride's car broke down. Awesomesauce. Called up my friend Sarah, and she drove me to the hotel, getting lost along the way.

Finally got to the hotel for a huge reunion with my friends,
hung out in the hotel for a bit, got our passes, took like 2 hours, but we did it XD. Saw some OrangeAnime friends :]
Went to the pool and met a kid named frank, and it was awesome.
Went to be bed at about 2AM

Friday Morning, went to burger king, met up with my friend Sarah, and waited in line with her to get her pass. Hung out with her for awhile. Found Pot in my friends bag and approached him about it. Which ended our friendship. Chilled all night at the pool and stuff

Saturday: hung out with my hotelmates for awhile, till everyone left me, this is when the drama starts. Went to hang out with my brothers girlfriend, then met up with my friend sarah, we parted ways after the Improv Anime Panel, when they went to the Yaoi PJ party.
I went to Internet Shannagins. When I got back, my friends were telling me I ditched them and they started yelling at me.
Went to the pool where the pool party, crying/having a panic attack, where my brother told me they were talking shit about me TO him. Candice told me that everyone was talking shit about me, and it was actually her. My brothers friends comforted me, and we hung out in the pool and hot tub full of bubbles : D
Went inside at about 3AM :]

Sunday, All shit hit the fan. We all packed up and candice started shit with me, met up with Sarah, walked around for a couple minutes till I saw my brothers and mine friends Kristen and Adam. they were telling me how much my friends suck and to just hang out with them, and i ended up chilling with them, they offered me a ride home, I went to go meet up with friends to see if they would hlep me, and they didnt. So got all my stuff, but kristen helped after I called her, then I hung out with them for the rest of the day, and the car ride home was pretty amazing :]

Then, now.
I didnt really go to many panels,
I never have ever seen so many Axels and bad haired Demyx's in my life.

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=xcassedega http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26260995/ http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26260995/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 23:19:43 PDT
Usually I get really depressed and homesick, but this year I didn't I grew a lot closer to my stepsister and my brother Bobby, and really repaired his and mine relationship.

But also, I started thinking about my life now, and my future, and I really think I improved it a lot, I let go, finally of the people I don't need, and grew wary of those I might not need, and cut most my ties with them.

I stopped putting a guard up with the people I love most, and put one of up with the people I was trust a little too much.

I finally grew up a little. Bout darn time.

But most of all, I figured out what I want to do. It may surprise some of you. But, if I can get the money, I'm moving to Orlando next year to go to the Paul Mitchell school to be a hairdresser, while acting as well. I love messing with my friends hair, and I realized, I've dyed a lot of my friends hair, and I love doing it. I love the feeling of being in a salon as well. My friend Kathy[my hairdresser and my old next door neighbor] and my friend Sarah [fellow anime convention goer] taught me this.

It has actually been a really great summer, I guess, despite the lack of going to see my family. I'm really happy to know my brother and I are a lot closer than we used to be. That we don't fight every three seconds.

I'm also really happy I finally figured out my future.

I'm determined to make this the best school year ever. I have my best friend, my best guy friend, and all the people I've met along the way to make it that way.

I'm determined to graduate. I really am. I want to do this. I want to be greater than everyone expects me to be. I will walk along that stage and have my diploma handed to me, I will do that the same year as my best friend in the world. I promised myself I would.

I'm determined to take care of myself better, to start exercising and eat better.

I'm determined to be the Christian I know I can be, to start going to school more, and to start growing in my faith. To start reading the bible, and to become a good role model to the younger friends of mine that looked up to me a year ago, that I have failed.

I'm determined to get a job and pay for the Paul Mitchell school on my own. I can and I will do this.


I will.
No matter what any of you think or say.


As I leave to come back to the home I have grown to love in Florida, back to my friends, and back to my reality, I will walk with a higher confidence than I ever have in myself. I will come back with a higher self-esteem, and higher maturity, for I am not so scared of the future anymore. I am still the Cassandra Lee Theriault you know.

But I am finally who I need to be, I am finally myself.
And I will finally work to the best of my potential. and I will make you proud.
All of you.


[fixed without all the shitty html shit]

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26149712/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 11:42:53 PDT I came out of the closet to my stepsister hannah.


She came out as well XD
It was awesome.

Her best friend is a lesbian, so i figured I could tell her shes like 'yeah, my friend jessic and I dated once'

I ws like 'did you kiss her?'

She goes 'yeah i kissed her, and i liked it' and we were texting each other so people didn't hear.

so when she walked back in the room i started playing 'I kissed a girl'

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26141913/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 00:55:30 PDT

I haven't listened to julia nunes all day.
What is wrong with me.

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26120944/ Thu, 23 Jul 2009 01:39:29 PDT got a new RP in Gaia i joined, some new friends a new onexone RP.
So much so much.


Also, its my last week here in massachusetts so some stuff is happening that way.
I got mah new glasses today. :]
They are transitonssss. ooooohhh
XD
and I go school shopping, friday :]

I also have AFO IN A WEEEEEEK.
YES.
:]


I'm also preparing, mentalling for my Demyx cosplay I'm very excited for, I'm going to be traveling an hour every once in awhile to do this too!


As for my writing, I've been roleplaying, and reediting my fanfictions, so thats been taking up most of my time.

Sorry. :/

I'll get something up soon :]

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=xcassedega http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26042289/ http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26042289/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 10:33:06 PDT so i asked my mom if she'll get me a ukulele,
she said SURE.
She was joking
So.
I gotta start saving.



Truth.

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26033878/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 21:05:17 PDT 2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For the first question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button TWICE
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...just type it in, man!
7. Tag 25 people, and they have to do it too

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

Opening Credits: "Drops of Jupiter" by Train

Waking Up: "Seven Deadly Sins" - Flogging Molly

First Day at School: Self Inflicted - Katy Perry

Falling in Love: "Kiss Me" - New Found Glory

Losing Virginity: "uraltalk" - Nevershoutnever!

Fight Song: "The Taste of Ink" - The Used

Breaking Up: "All Downhill From Here" - New Found Glory

Prom: "Make It Rain" - TheAudition

Life: "Fences" - Paramore

Mental Breakdown: "The Middle" - Jimmy Eat World

Driving: "That Green Gentleman" [PATD COVER] - Julia Nunes

Flashback: "If You Could Only See" - Tonic

Getting Back Together: "Burn" Alkaline Trio

Wedding: "My Heart" - Paramore

Birth of Child: "The Dirty Glass" - Dropkick Murphys

Final Battle: "Get Back" - Demi Lovato

Death Scene: "Emergency" - Paramore.



Some of these are pretty hilarous. XD

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/26018550/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 02:08:05 PDT
If you watch me on FF.net
[names xcassedega]

You have learned that all my stories hiatus's are ending soon, the only story that was not on hiatus, Still Around [my xigdem] got updated about 5 minutes ago.

I am completely revising and probably rewriting every single one of my stories.
so keep up with it, I also have some new stories in mine, probably one-shots.


I also have the craving for some stories of my own, non fanfics.
So keep an eye out for that on here.

:]
If you noticed the past week theres been a lack of personal updates of mine,
well, I am starting to use Tumblr more, so a lot of stuff will be on there if you really wanna know
[xcassedega. tumblr.com]
of course, you could always just talk to me and ask!

I'm also having a writers block poetry wise, and I really hope it doesnt lead into a biggggggg writers block like the 6 month long I had before.


Now for some promotion!
CHECK OUT JULIA NUNES.
DO IT NOW.
JUUUUUUU ON YOUTUBE
JUNUMUSIC.COM


SHES SIMPLY AMAZING ASK and
ASK THEM.
THEY KNOW.

She's a bit on the indie side,
most her songs are played on ukelele,
and her covers are just as amazing as her original songs.

:]

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25943654/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 13:42:31 PDT Make a journal entry with the 5 words I give you and describe what those words mean to you. **

My words as chosen by

1. WHORE - Everyone in mine and ari's RP. Oh and Ash :]
2. Destruction - Playing with Sledgehammers :]
3. Stranger - Best. Candy. Ever.
4. Medicate - Yes. Yes I am.
5. Penny - OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SHINY :] and good luck :]

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25927937/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 19:06:27 PDT mode-de-vie and ~deathbyromance's 6 word story contest :]

and as a prize I said I would feature the winners :]


First place: One pill by ~MPMG



Second Place:Six word story by ~Araic


Third Place: Hidden by ~SacredThoughts

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25903111/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 16:27:36 PDT
2)If not, who is your bf/gf? Koriina <2

3)How Long Have You Been Together? 13 days :]

4)If You're Single, Do you Like It? n/a

5)Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now?
not a crush :]

6) First Kiss: Chris stole one, the first real one was Daniel

7)Ever Kiss in the Rain? Nope

8)In a Movie Theater? thats an awesome make out spot ;]

9)Underwater?
Nope.

10)First Love
Dalton.

11) Have you ever Cheated on Anyone? Never ever

12) Been Cheated on? Yep. :/

13) Used Someone? Never.

14) Been used? I think so

15) Lied to your bf/gf? yeah :/

16) Ever Made out With Just a Friend? Nope

17) Ever Had Sex With Just a Friend? I still got my v-card :]

18) Are You a Tease? I have been before XD

19) Do you Flirt a Lot? When I'm single yeah.

20) Longest Relationship?

21) Shortest? Andrew. 24 hours exactly.

22) Have you Ever Gotten a Poem? Nope

23)Ever Get Flowers? Nope

24) Sweetest Thing You've Ever Gotten? My late christmas gift from Arianna.

25) Do you Like Valentine's Day or Sweetest Day? eh.

26) Do you Believe in Love at First Sight? Nope

27) Do you Believe in? BELIEVE IN WHAT?

28) Do you Fall in Love Fast? Sometimes

29) Are you a Player? No.

30)Would you ever Hook Up With Someone of the Same sex? .....Well, if you mean a one night stand, no, but thats cause I dont just 'hook up' but be with one, seeing as I have a girlfriend at the moment, I'll take that as a yes XD

31) Have You ever Kissed 2 People in One Day? Yeah

32)Kissed 2 People At One Time? LOL. YES. XD THAT WAS HILAROUS.

33) Had Sex with 2 People in One day? Oh everyday. XD lol no.

34) Had sex with 2+ People at One Time? Nope.

35)Ever cried over someone of the opposite sex? Yes.

36) Ever Been Dumped? Yeah.

37) Ever dumped someone? yeah

38) Ever been rejected? yeah :/

39) Do you have a lot of ex's? Yeah

40) Are you a slut? Nope

41) Ever been called one? yeah

42) Ever dated someone more than once? Yeah.

43)Do you ever make the first move? Nope XD

44) Double dates or single? Single.

45) Do you want to get married? Yes.

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25903110/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 16:27:34 PDT
2)If not, who is your bf/gf? Koriina <2

3)How Long Have You Been Together? 13 days :]

4)If You're Single, Do you Like It? n/a

5)Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now?
not a crush :]

6) First Kiss: Chris stole one, the first real one was Daniel

7)Ever Kiss in the Rain? Nope

8)In a Movie Theater? thats an awesome make out spot ;]

9)Underwater?
Nope.

10)First Love
Dalton.

11) Have you ever Cheated on Anyone? Never ever

12) Been Cheated on? Yep. :/

13) Used Someone? Never.

14) Been used? I think so

15) Lied to your bf/gf? yeah :/

16) Ever Made out With Just a Friend? Nope

17) Ever Had Sex With Just a Friend? I still got my v-card :]

18) Are You a Tease? I have been before XD

19) Do you Flirt a Lot? When I'm single yeah.

20) Longest Relationship?

21) Shortest? Andrew. 24 hours exactly.

22) Have you Ever Gotten a Poem? Nope

23)Ever Get Flowers? Nope

24) Sweetest Thing You've Ever Gotten? My late christmas gift from Arianna.

25) Do you Like Valentine's Day or Sweetest Day? eh.

26) Do you Believe in Love at First Sight? Nope

27) Do you Believe in? BELIEVE IN WHAT?

28) Do you Fall in Love Fast? Sometimes

29) Are you a Player? No.

30)Would you ever Hook Up With Someone of the Same sex? .....Well, if you mean a one night stand, no, but thats cause I dont just 'hook up' but be with one, seeing as I have a girlfriend at the moment, I'll take that as a yes XD

31) Have You ever Kissed 2 People in One Day? Yeah

32)Kissed 2 People At One Time? LOL. YES. XD THAT WAS HILAROUS.

33) Had Sex with 2 People in One day? Oh everyday. XD lol no.

34) Had sex with 2+ People at One Time? Nope.

35)Ever cried over someone of the opposite sex? Yes.

36) Ever Been Dumped? Yeah.

37) Ever dumped someone? yeah

38) Ever been rejected? yeah :/

39) Do you have a lot of ex's? Yeah

40) Are you a slut? Nope

41) Ever been called one? yeah

42) Ever dated someone more than once? Yeah.

43)Do you ever make the first move? Nope XD

44) Double dates or single? Single.

45) Do you want to get married? Yes.

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25894290/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 07:29:15 PDT saying "Its a beautiful day outside"

I told him "Its beautiful in my dreams"


I have a headache ;_;

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25870189/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 23:54:43 PDT

EDT: I HAVE ALL THESE PROGRAMS AN DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25850690/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 20:04:04 PDT
this is essentially a promotional list for our fellow deviant artists. the rules are:


1. Be one of the first 14 people commenting on this journal entry, and I will add you to the Promotional List.

2. For each of the first 14 people answering this journal I will put his or her avatar and the three deviations I like most from his or her gallery on the list.

3. If you answer, you'll have to do the same on your journal, putting me in the first position, and so forth.


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4.

5.

6.

7.

8.

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25846793/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 19:42:29 PDT and I just thought of a new one, that i might get as my first one. XD



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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25829362/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 23:59:13 PDT bagpipeplayah on you your watch list,
you heard she has a tumblr.
WELL SO DO I : D

[link] <<<

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http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25808693/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 00:48:10 PDT and my homesickness is getting worse.

My best friend, in the entire fucking world, is 17 in a week.
and again, like every year before, I don't to spend t with her.

and it fucking crushes me,
like it always does.
I wish I could be there for her birthday ;_; She's my best friend for goodness sake.

Since I met her, I haven't been there for her birthday.
Ever.
:/



Fuck.
:/

I miss her.
and my mom.
:/

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=xcassedega http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25808690/ http://xcassedega.deviantart.com/journal/25808690/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 00:47:54 PDT and my homesickness is getting worse.

My best friend, in the entire fucking world, is 17 in a week.
and again, like every year before, I don't to spend t with her.

and it fucking crushes me,
like it always does.
I wish I could be there for her birthday ;_; She's my best friend for goodness sake.

Since I met her, I haven't been there for her birthday.
Ever.
:/



Fuck.
:/

I miss her.
and my mom.
:/

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