http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xcollidexstar&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xcollidexstar en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 07:13:34 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/28467535/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/28467535/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 12:16:11 PST
But change, change is good. I have not change, but I have been changed in ways I can't understand. So we both have a few more scratches, a few more bruises, we all fall... but it is those who keep running that survive. So let us run together.


again, thanks to all of those DA who favorited my stuff. I will continue to post more photography today.

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i know i haven't been here in a while. i actually got 2 jobs+college now. been detached from any other web site that doesn't have anything to do with the school's one. here are some pictures that have been long overdo to download. enjoy!

p.s thanks to all those who have favorite and commented me. love you guys

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/27535650/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/27535650/ Fri, 02 Oct 2009 08:47:27 PDT i was sick with pig flu
and then i went to Paris again for a week to see my great grandma.
i have lots of new pics I will be downloading soon!!!
and thanks to everyone that favorited my work. i love you all!

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/27210971/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/27210971/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 14:39:06 PDT i really wasn't looking for it
it just *POOF* appeared out of nowhere.

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/27110762/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/27110762/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 09:39:45 PDT Then say it, I will listen .

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/27074068/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/27074068/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 12:19:02 PDT but i have lost it in the past couple of days
the world around me seems to be falling apart
and there are some situations i am going through that
keeps me away from breathing.

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26942523/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26942523/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 17:50:24 PDT therefore, i haven't lost faith.

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26824005/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26824005/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 19:22:25 PDT and round & next thing you know, it all comes
to an end.

today has been the hardest day so far
i rather have my step dad beating me
up like he used to every day than to have
found my fiance in bed with another girl

where does things go from here? i have no clue
because i don't even know who i am anymore.

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26764696/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26764696/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 22:37:23 PDT i know i always give my individual thank yous but i can only be sitting down for so long since i've hurt my back.

you guys are awesome! all of you...
i promise in the next week or so ill give my individual thanks like always. i love you guys and thanks for your support!!!

btw Feonix, i am thinking of you, and i am hoping that you will be okay.

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26680439/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26680439/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 20:38:49 PDT Sunday.
i damaged my back doing heavy lifting
my legs went numbed so i collapsed
i took too many pain medications and
passed out
had to be taken to the hospital and they
wash my stomach.

i also found out my liver is not working
the way it used to because
of all the alcohol i used to take back in the
day.


so health is not good. can't wait to see what
happens next.

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26572935/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26572935/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 16:03:25 PDT plans for world domination

i have been slacking but
i've been taking care of school, finals
and such

things are falling back into place like i hoped for

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26443465/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26443465/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 11:37:09 PDT i could buy it for
more than a couple of hours]


my best friend got caught with
3 grams of marijuana, 2 vicodins,
4 xanax, 3 hydrocodeins.

where do we go from here?

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26433390/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26433390/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 22:01:22 PDT crawling through my skin
to white bones and
rivers of veins.

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26412097/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26412097/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 21:35:11 PDT disguised of pure white lace
provoked nakedness
making love in street corners
bowing down to street lamps


i always forget to forget
and remember to remember
wished that my brain would had a
turn-on turn-off switch
just in case i decided to play games tonight.

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26391589/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/26391589/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 22:41:20 PDT non at all. i could change my surroundings in
a minute, but i am so afraid of whats
after the door [i have never taken the future
seriously because no one ever got me a
crystal ball at ebay]

i don't have 9 planets in my ceiling
or butterflies in my stomach, and it seems like
things have taken a turn for the unknown

i am at a place where i have forgotten who i am
so others can live... and i am not happy with
myself anymore.

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oh dear, people are asking me for photo shoots.
it has never been my forte but its never too bad to try.

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oh dear, people are asking me for photo shoots.
it has never been my forte but its never too bad to try.

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I am hoping for the best.

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]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/25490633/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/25490633/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 08:38:24 PDT because they can't keep theirs.
I am not gonna be taken for granted no more.















remember? i told you so

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/25490604/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/25490604/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 08:37:03 PDT (x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 4

Level 2
(x) Are/Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
() Shoplifted
(x) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 8

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone/Something Die

SO FAR: 11

Level 4
(x) Had/Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 14

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 17

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
() Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 21

Level 7
() Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone Off-Roading
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 25

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work/School

SO FAR: 30

Level 9
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
(x) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 33

Level 10
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed/Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 37

Level 11
(x) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car/Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 40

Level 12
(x) Had/Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 143

Level 13
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
() Been obsessed with post-it-notes

*at a partay!!! lol (pole dancing)
SO FAR: 47

Level 14
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 52

Level 15
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons/Coloured Pencils/Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 57

Level 16
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 60

Level 17
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
x() Watched The Sun Set/sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or Anywhere

SO FAR: 64

Level 18
(x) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Roller-skating/Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 68

Level 19
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
(x) Swam With Dolphins.

SO FAR: 71

Level 20
() Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 73

Level 21
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done/ATTEMPTED A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 4 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 77

Level 22
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 81

Level 23
(x) Believed In Ghosts
(x) Have/had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 83

Level 24
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 87

Level 25
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/Got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 92

Level 26
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
() French Braided Someone's Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House... ]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/25339386/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/25339386/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 21:31:57 PDT
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]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/24487469/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/24487469/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 19:52:50 PDT OF COURSE I SAID YES!!! LOL
its been without a doubt, the best day ever.

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i have the spirit of a wild animal, the heart of a mother, the mind of Sigmund Freud, the vision of Salvador Dali and the will of a soldier. I have everything, and everything I would give to the world. I have been the devils reject, and now, I am the wonder wall. I am everything, and everything is never enough.
-nikkiy

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/23859068/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/23859068/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 23:54:05 PDT
i have the spirit of a wild animal, the heart of a mother, the mind of Sigmund Freud, the vision of Salvador Dali and the will of a soldier. I have everything, and everything I would give to the world. I have been the devils reject, and now, I am the wonder wall. I am everything, and everything is never enough.
-nikkiy

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/21855520/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/21855520/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 21:32:22 PST "introduce a little anarchy. upset the establishment order, and everything becomes chaos. I'm and agent of chaos. Oh, and you know the thing about chaos? Its Fair" -The Joker

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17759976/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17759976/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 07:50:36 PDT italy is beautiful
too bad the rest of the ppl i went with didnt appreciate the art and history as much as i did!
but it was an amazing experience!
cant wait to go back there
i threw 3 coins on the Travi Fountain in Rome
1st coin: you'll visit Rome again
2nd coin: you'll get married in Rome
3rd coin: YOU'LL LIVE IN ROME!!!!
hope my dream will come true!
wishing upon a star!

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17520524/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17520524/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 05:24:41 PDT I havent done any packing, everything is on the floor! 4 days worth of work in only couple of hrs. thats what makes it more interesting~
Im going to miss you all!!! Read you in 10 days!

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17390638/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17390638/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 06:23:53 PDT 8 DAYS!!!!
and I'm one exited little person
....
Florence, Rome, Venice and Sorrento
places that I'm going to visit!!!!!!
and I need a tour guy!!!!!!!!!!!
lol

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17390348/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17390348/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 05:44:44 PDT That stab in the back that left me bleeding
That look on your face that nearly killed me
That stroke with your hands that left me with no breathing
That part of our love that started dying
That rescue, the failure, the tears, the lying,
the motive, the human, the life, the forgiveness.
That punch, that stab, that look, that stroke, the rescue, the failure, the tears, the lies, the motive, the life, the forgiveness; gave me
a reason to stop feeling, stop loving, stop thinking about you

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17054591/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/17054591/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 09:11:05 PST the lights turn on and off
just like creativity and imagination.
The world goes round and round,
and what goes around comes around.

In a world of peace, war
the directions goes either side.
North, South, East, West
someone out there is waiting for death.

In a world of tears, and laughs
the lover turns into madness
brandy is the medicine for the nerves.

In a world where I dont understand my writting
who is able to indentify themselves with me?
Am I unique, or from another planet?
I just want you to let me be me!

]]> ~xcollidexstar http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/16994327/ http://xcollidexstar.deviantart.com/journal/16994327/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 14:18:58 PST I only told one person, until today. Like a victim I felt ashamed and guilty because I thought it was my fault. This has changed my life because the damaged inside of me was so hard that I don't know if I'm not going to be able to have children. From every bad things comes out something positive and sometimes, we can turn this around. What doesn't kill you makes you so much stronger. Why did i decided to post this here in deviantart? Because I know I'm not alone, and because theres other people out there that are silent. Don't wait till its too late to do something; It is not your fault. Everything happens for a reason, and the reasons only God's know the purpose. You are not alone, speak up!!!!!!!!!! You can show people how strong you are if you tell... and remember friend, you are not alone!
nikkiy S.

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