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I dont know anymore...


I feel so empty...


I dont know what to do...

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15402199/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15402199/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 07:00:06 PST


Ready?






::BANG::









[no im not going to die...]

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15330429/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15330429/ Fri, 02 Nov 2007 12:01:20 PDT
I sit alone at lunch everyday, although there are multiple people around me, but every single one of them forgets that im there... and ignores my existance...
And its not only lunch... its everywhere... any time i see someone... they act as if i am invisible...

Im done....

This is it...
I dont need people
They dont need me
Im gone...




Gone.....




["Lets Play Russian Roulette With A Full Clip!"]


[No im not suicidal... im just done with people]

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]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15201093/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15201093/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 11:57:11 PDT
Yesterday
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe
In yesterday

Suddenly
I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Oh, yesterday
Came suddenly

Why she
Had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said
Something wrong now I long
For yesterday

Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday

Why she
Had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said
Something wrong now I long
For yesterday

Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh, I believe
In yesterday

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15199027/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15199027/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 08:25:35 PDT 1. A state of great commotion, confusion, or disturbance; tumult; agitation; disquiet: mental turmoil caused by difficult decisions.
2. Obsolete. Harassing labor.

Sorrow
1. Distress caused by loss, affliction, disappointment, etc.; grief, sadness, or regret.
2. A cause or occasion of grief or regret, as an affliction, a misfortune, or trouble:
3. The expression of grief, sadness, disappointment, or the like: muffled sorrow.
4. To feel sorrow; grieve.

Regret
1. To feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment,
2. To think of with a sense of loss: to regret one's vanished youth.
3. A sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.
4. A feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.
5. Regrets, a polite, usually formal refusal of an invitation: .
6. A note expressing regret at one's inability to accept an invitation:

Remorse
1. Deep and painful regret for wrongdoing; compunction.
2. Obsolete. Pity; compassion.

Compunction
1. A feeling of uneasiness or anxiety of the conscience caused by regret for doing wrong or causing pain; contrition; remorse.

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15186900/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15186900/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 11:53:44 PDT


So i dont know....

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15169767/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15169767/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 08:04:22 PDT All because i like someone...
Jason and i hardly talk cuz the argument...
My sister told me that i should be able to keep my legs closed for at least a year... when im a fucking virgin!!!
And im dating someone... and Eddie prolly hates me now... cuz he liked me and told me that i couldnt date anyone besides himmm which is bulllll....


So yeh....


Bleh....

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15112368/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15112368/ Thu, 18 Oct 2007 08:16:31 PDT
NOW:

Is your hair up?: Mmhmm
Is your phone right beside you?: In my pocket
Do you have a bf/ gf?: kinda
Do you wish you were somewhere else?: yeh
Do you have plans for tonight?: nope
Are you wearing makeup?: cheyeah hahaha ... kill me if i ever say that again
Are you wearing chapstick?: A little bit
Are you cold?: Freezing
Are you tired?: A little
Are you excited?: no...
Are you watching t.v.?: nadda
Are you wearing pajamas?: i wish
Who's the last person you IMed?: Tyler....
Who's the last person that called you? Jason...


PAST
Anything you regret? Mmhmm
Ever lied?: uhm.. i used to lie all the time. but its pointless
Ever stuck gum under a desk?: mmhmm
Ever spit at someone? uhm... idk
Ever kick something living?: yeh
Ever had your nails done?: yeh
Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?: Yeh =[

LAST WEEK
Had any plans last week?: No =[
Who did you see most last week?: uhm... people at school
Was last week interesting? No...

TODAY
Have you cussed?: Fuckin right
Have you yelled at someone? not yet
Have you gotten mad at someone? already, yeh
Have you cried? not yet haha...
Have you called more than 3 people?: Nope
Have you IMed more than 3 people?: Nope
Have you eaten anything gross? I havent eaten since yesterday

SPILL YOUR GUTS
Q. First thing you did this morning?
Argued with mom

Q. Last thing you ate?:
Something last night

Q. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?
GETTING MY NEW BOOTS!

Q. What's annoying you right now?
People talking loudly, and being cold

Q. What's the last movie you saw?
Uhm... i cant remember

Q. Do you believe in long distance relationships?:
Kinda... its hard tho

Q Where is the last place you went?:
The potty

Q: Who is the last person you called?:
Jason

Q: Been cheated on?:
Yes =[

Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
Prolly not

Q: Do you wish on stars?:
Mmhmm

Q: Does it work?:
Prolly not

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them of:
nope

Q: When did you last cry?
The other day

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
Its ok

Q: Are you a friendly person?
FUCK NO! NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
mmhmm

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
Your moms

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
Tie Dye

Q: Do you have any pets?
Yeh

Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
White

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
Trying to fix my laptpo, and falling asleep in the process

Q: last person you talked to:
Benny

Q: When is the last time you saw your dad?
August

Q: Look to your left:
Uhmm.... not im afraid to....

Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes... =[

Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder?
They normally dont care

Q: Song that makes you cry?
My Immortal - Evanescence... and some others

Q: Are you a normally happy person?
Not really =[

Q: Is your self-esteem low?
Very

Q: What color are your eyes?
Green

Q: Long or Short Hair:
semi-short....

Q: Current Music?
Black Metal

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15017032/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/15017032/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 15:24:18 PDT
I didnt do anything to deserve this fucking pain!

I was honest, and thoughtful... and i get hurt in the end... because i had to hurt someone so it wasnt as bad in the end... Im sorry i fall in love with someone else besides him...

... My heart is fucking broken because of all this fucking SHIT!
I just wanna cry...

Im the cause of all his pain... but i didnt do ANYTHING to hurt him..

But no... he says i did it on purpose! Yeh, cuz i try to break peoples hearts all the fucking time. I love the kid to death... he is my best friend... I thought he loved me enough to understand that my heart fell for someone else... But i guess not.

It feels like he is doing this to me on purpose... cuz he thinks i did it to him... NO! I DIDNT!!



::I wanna run away, never say goodbye. I wanna know the truth, instead of wondering why. I wanna know the answers, no more lies. I wanna shut the door, and open up my mind.::

:: Dont know who to trust, no surprise. Everyone feels so far awat from me. Heavy thoughts sift through dust, and the lies. Trying not to break, but im so tired of this deceit. Everytime i try to make myself, get back up on my feet. All i ever think about is this, all the tiring time between. And how, trying to put my trust in you, just takes so much out of me. I take everything from the inside, and throw it all away. Cuz i swear, for the last time, i wont trust myself in you.::

::I wanna be in another place, i hate when you say you dont understand.::

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/14909685/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/14909685/ Thu, 04 Oct 2007 08:11:48 PDT I got into a huge fight with my best friend last night and it turns out that he called me a lie, a fake, and i guess i ruined his life. He says that i didnt but i feel as if i did. I hurt him because of Jason. Because i fell in love with Jason and i want to be with him. I feel bad, but i cant help the way my heart feels. And i cant help who i fall for. I love Jason... period. End of story... i dont want people to call me dumb, fake, a lie and a fool... im sick of it...


Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me.... well after a while... they do hurt damn it.

]]> ~xdeepfriedbabies http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/14672834/ http://xdeepfriedbabies.deviantart.com/journal/14672834/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 12:03:13 PDT
besides all that, school is boring, my old friends dont talk to me anymore, and i have maybe 2-3 friends that i can even talk to about anything... so i said just fuck it... i cant say that i dont need them, cuz i do need my friends... but they shall do what they want. Im not one to control someone and make them hang out with me. If they dont like me anymore, then fine. Fuck them. :]

but anywhoo... i dont know what to do with my life anymore... Im trying, but slowly failing...

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