http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xfaktor&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xfaktor en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 07:11:23 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/27604324/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/27604324/ Mon, 05 Oct 2009 19:10:39 PDT
Well, not entirely. I just relocated.

I'm back in Long Island, NY, and I've got a lot of work I've been doing.


But enough about that...Let's talk Defencer!!!

YES, the comic is still in the works. HOWEVER, I've revamped all of the main characters in the first book, and I've even switched some characters around, which means, yes, new character art real soon!

I've revamped the entire story as well, and yes, I'm still taking character ideas from those who want to see their character in the story(and yes, this still means that there's no fee of any sorts, but will give written credit to those whom which submitted me a character). Keep in mind however, that not every character will be used in the same chapter/saga/volume/etc. But in any case, those with ideas, can email me at leftstanding81@aol.com


I'm tired right now, so I'm sorry if this journal entry is all over the place. lol

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/22632473/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/22632473/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 11:52:22 PST
I forgot to mention that, these characters will make appearances in later sagas of Defencer, NOT the first book. ALSO, this isn't for a profit share; This is mainly for people who normally ask artists to do commission drawings for them, only this is a step further. Their characters will actually be in a manga. I had people ask if I was going to split profit with them and such. There's no profit right now, and I'm actually doing this for people who just love coming up with their own avatar, and would love to see their characters being a huge part of a story that I have high hopes of making successful in the world of Anime/Manga/video Games. HOWEVER, everyone WILL be credited for their character contributions with the utmost appreciation and respect. ^_^


As far as how many characters I'm looking to actually use? The answer is this: I'm going to be taking a specific amount of character contributions for each saga. there's really no set book number to label each saga, so I'll be updating you all about each saga before I work on it. So far, for the first saga, I will happy to take 10 character contributions for the following race(s)under the following condition(s):

Oni-Shigerian (must have a history with ++Fleurha++, and stand in the way of ++Kintei++ as an antagonist OR provide a backstory which leads them within the path of ++Kintei++ and/or ++Fleurha++ as a protagonist)

Machina - (Must prove to be an obstacle against ++Kintei++ as an antagonist OR be of help to ++Kintei++ as a protagonist)

Human(Must have some history with ++Mykelle++ as a neutral, or protagonist OR have a background which leads to serving under the Mezmos in order to help track ++Mykelle++ as an antagonist)

I kept the conditions vague, to provide more freedom with making a backstory. If you choose NOT to provide a backstory, I'll most likely make one for that character. ALSO one more important thing:

- Magic must be labeled as Elemental Reign(i.e. Fire Elemental Reign, Earth-Elemental Reign)

- Those who chooses to make a human, can give that human the skill of Technomancy

- Those who choose to make an Oni-Shigerian, can give that "O-Shi" the skill of Grafting

- Machina are basically cyborgs that look almost exactly like humans, with some exceptions. But they're capable of using Elemental Reign.

- EMAIL ME AT: LEFTSTANDING81@AOL.COM TO LEARN EACH RACE YOU CHOOSE, AND KNOW THE INFORMATION ABOUT EACH SKILL, OR ABOUT THE STORY OR ANY QUESTION YOU MIGHT HAVE, BEFORE SENDING ME YOUR CHARACTER

Once I receive characters, I'll draw them one by one, and will display them on my DevART page, so stay tuned!

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/22620221/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/22620221/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 18:22:15 PST
But back on the subject, I am now 28 years of age...Which means in two years time, I will be the big 3-0...Wow...I'm freaking old! Mrs. Ultimate Arts Jutsu is only 21, and she wants to have Ultimate Arts Jutsu, Jr. when she's atleast 22 or 23 the latest. Which is fine by me, because I want a child. I will raise it to become strong enough to grip the world and crush it, and from the remaining sands, build an empire that will make Barack Obama's quest for change seem like a Reading Rainbow segment.

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA! *cough* *hack* *choke!* HAHAHA!


Ahem...Of course I am kidding about all of that, so please people, don't take offense. >_>

Expect more Defencer stuff soon. I've been steadily reinventing my computer to endure rigorous Photoshop work.

And speaking of Defencer, I'm going to eventually need more characters for future plot, SO, I will be making another post about the different races and realms within Defencer, and should anyone like to have like, their Gaia Online Avatar, or themselves in general, immortalized into the story, drop me a note, comment, or email me at: leftstanding81@aol.com

Make sure to have a distinct description, background, some sort of tie-in with the main villain (Valloth, Mezmos Devourer), and their own obstacle or rival(optional). Also, amongst the races that I will post, you are free to pick one of them(especially Grafter, since I don't have many of them lined up).

For all artist, feel free to draw out a description, and I'll have my version of every character up each week.

In the meantime, I'm gonna catch some shut-eye.

*ninja vanish*

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/22459081/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/22459081/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 19:04:59 PST
HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR!!!!!

I finally got my computer up here from Long Island! NOW it's time to go to work! This is the beginning of good things to come yo.

With Defencer in the works, I am looking to restart my regime in full force!

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/22100144/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/22100144/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 10:15:58 PST
Remember Naruto Shippuden, and its very first episode? How they previewed the meeting of Naruto and Sasuke since their epic battle? This is what this preview of Defencer is; It's showing you a little bit of the future, before the beginning. So I hope you guys enjoy it!

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/21477497/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/21477497/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 22:02:13 PST [link] ), and will be out mid to late 2009. Be on the lookout for preview pages coming soon!

And now, I sleep, because I've been working on this comic all day. O_o

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/21363430/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/21363430/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 19:18:48 PST
I revamped "Defencer" and stared on the comic again. I re-wrote it, re-drew it, and now it's going to be AWESOME!

Also, I'm working on another manga. It's called "Gaiden: Ogre Doctrine." It's a villain comic, kinda like my Lupin the 3rd type of comic, only the protagonist, being the villain, actually burns villages, kills innocent people, fights the goody good guys, and causes chaos, all in the name of waging war. It should be a really good manga when I'm ready to start it.

I've been working on writing novels, but I'm putting those on the back burner. I go back and forth a lot, but in the end, what I really want to do is everything. I'm really motivating myself to get back to anime and manga, and it should be coming back in full effect. Look for more deviations real soon!

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/19069900/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/19069900/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 06:08:07 PDT
So, I've moved upstate to Canastota, New York.

I don't have my own computer just yet, but hopefully by July I will.

Plenty of changes to the story lineup....

-I'm working on a novel, well TWO actually. I'm taking S.O.L. and making it into a novel, and I might still do a comic with it, or graphic novel. There's just so much I can do with that story with illustrated words than pictures, plus I'm still working on Defencer as being the launch project for my first manga.

-I've got a small business thing going on which involves designing canvas-textured apparel. If you have a myspace, or just curious, go to:

[link]

It explains most of it.

-I'm looking into drawing a comic strip for the Oneida Daily Dispatch. I WILL have artwork on here soon.

In the meantime, hit me up, I check here again regularly. PEACE!

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/14630110/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/14630110/ Fri, 14 Sep 2007 12:16:49 PDT
In the meantime, I shall continue to update when you all least expect it!

As far as life goes, I've been doing fine. Things have been looking up, and although life is having its ups and downs, I've been fighting through the mayhem. Trust me, this is a different xfaktor this year!

PEACE!!

]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/8926017/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/8926017/ Wed, 31 May 2006 00:30:19 PDT
Children of Gunn, Evalusion Media's first killer app, has gone through a lot of positive changes, and in the production bible, it will show the story's progression. It feels good to finally start getting serious about work.

S.O.L.: War Machine, is still on the back burner. It's going to be awhile until I work up more designs for the story. It's an awesome story, and I think it will be a story that will turn a lot of heads.

A joint manga, Night Syndicate, is in the works. I think this will also be an awesome manga once the gears start turning.

Also, another story that will make its way in the rankings, "Oh Mercurcio!" is also on the back burner until the killer apps are out.

Be on the lookout for more mecha stories by Evalusion Media.

Also, be on the lookout for a preview chapter of Anomaly: OS, to a deviantART page near you. ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/8880792/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/8880792/ Fri, 26 May 2006 06:19:49 PDT
If you all haven't been checking, I've already posted some deviations of one of the main characters, Sevynn, and the Golem(mech) that she pilots known as "The Red."

Expect the same deal that I did with Children of Gunn; a preview chapter that will explain the gist of the story, around 20-30 pages, to be posted on my page. Look out for those, and let me know how you like the story so far.

In the meantime, The production bible for Children of Gunn is moving, and TyranT and I plan to push the prod bibles to publishers at Otakon, and see if we get a legit gig to publish CoG. I'm REALLY looking forward to seeing everything TyranT and I've done so far, go mainstream. I know it'll happen.


Current inspirations:

Naruto
Ghost In A Shell: S.A.C. 2nd Gig
Eureka SeveN
Trigun
Neon Genesis: Evangelion
Samurai Champloo ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/8272487/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/8272487/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 08:23:38 PST and I are working hard on the comic, "Children of Gunn." I've thrown a rough of the first act, and the rest of the book is going to be only shown at Otakon, in August(hopefully if we have everything all set and situated by then...LET'S CROSS OUR FINGERS!!) However, I am looking for people who would love to dedicate their talents and themselves, to this project. What we're looking for are pencilists, colorists, cover artists, and digital artists, for future volumes of the book. NOW, whoever is interested, hit us up. More on this subject later. PEACE! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/7912790/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/7912790/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 04:25:01 PST
We introduce the main character, Nikki Miyamoto, and you see how usually her days turn out, from training/working out at home, to attending classes at her martial arts academy. her professor, Ichiwa Michio, is like her "made" coach, he's tough on her 99.3% of the time, because she's an orphan, with not much guidance in her life. At the end of the prologue, he signs her up for her academy's martial arts competition, where her rival, Lam, is introduced.


Nothing too flashy, but I want to make sure I'm making the right approach. I mean drawing is one thing, creating a masterpiece is another. I don't care too much about the artwork, but rather the storyline. but yeah, I just thought I'd give you guys the heads up. Let me know if you have any ideas, k?

XMan OUT ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/3381577/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/3381577/ Fri, 17 Sep 2004 10:54:02 PDT he does some amazing work!

Well it seems like I have two cover artists to work on colors...I also suggest you all check out too. She rocks!

These two can really color well, and when I have the two covers drawn out, I want them to both do one cover for the SOL project. I'm thinking either two different "edition" covers, one original, and the other with some added shtuff in it...In the meantime, I'm going to get cracking on the pages once again.

I started school over at Briarcliffe, so I still need to settle in with that, and once that happens, you can guarauntee that I'll have some more stuff up. Until then, PAYCE! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/3051796/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/3051796/ Thu, 05 Aug 2004 18:15:34 PDT
-been workin on comic

-cancelled plans on going to Boston(sorry for my DA peeps i planned on seeing there)

-Trying to enroll in Briarcliffe

-met someone around my way (Much love C!! <3 )

-will not be around for awhile because of the above list of things


I'll be around to clean out my messages and such, but other than that, until i really have something to show, i won't put up any submissions until they are all complete. Don't have the time now cuz everything's been busy, but i've been doing pretty good, and have been smiling allot. Things are lookin up, which is good. Every rollercoaster has it's ups and downs, and i guess mine's goin up right now.

anywho, X-Man OUT ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2911507/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2911507/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 13:42:31 PDT
In other news, more frustration from online people, well maybe just ONE person. The rest of you are okay, and anyone I spoke to last night I've got lots of love for. But other than that, that person's been removed from my "Like" list, until they tell me what's the deal with them.

In OTHER news....Computer's running smoother after F-Disking it, I just have to keep people from going on it. I let them go on my computer for one second, then, "Jayme, the computer froze, I don't know what happened, but all these popups just started popping up."

Time 157 I had to tell them to WATCH WHAT SITE THEY GO ON....

But nonetheless....Now that my computer's completely cleaned of FILTH, I can set this baby up as a work station, so I can get some artwork, and artwork ONLY, done on this machine.

That's all, X-Man OUT ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2884890/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2884890/ Wed, 14 Jul 2004 22:57:45 PDT
Top 5 comments I've read so far:

1) I wish I was closer to you, like an hour or so...

2) You REALLY should come down here to *Insert country in Europe or South America here*

3)

4) I normally don't act like this, but there's something about your beauty that I can't help but to act so rude an pig-headed about

5) I know I live in *insert foreign country here* but for you, I'd travel around the world just to be with you.

...Is DA turning more and more into an online dating community??

Then there's some artists themselves, who feed off of it for either amusement or a boost of self esteem, even though from my eyes, all they need is "Nice work" or somethign more tasteful(no offense to those I know that this might relate to), but hey, I guess that's their perogotive...

It's not even the pictures anymore..I've seen comments made on the artist, even on their ARTWORK....I mean damn, yo...That's sad....

I've pretty much stopped commenting on certain pages due to the extent of that...I used to find it amusing, but now it just gets so predictable...So bourgeoie...So, boring, and annoying...But what can you do, but not even look at the pages anymore? So that's my plan, so I can stop ranting about things I haven't the power to cease.

So, if any of you on my friends list that happens to have this happen to you, and wonder why I haven't been commenting as of late..this is why...Unless I've been away or something, then I'll eventually get to commenting...But any photo galleries, stock, photo manip(with some exceptions) I'm not even bothering to look at, for my sanity's sake.

In happier news, Boston's just days away(hopefully) and when I return, my plans to make Otakon....This is gonna be my first anime con I've went to, and by my wrath, I PLAN TO MAKE THIS ONE!! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2872249/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2872249/ Tue, 13 Jul 2004 12:37:28 PDT ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2864726/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2864726/ Mon, 12 Jul 2004 14:20:16 PDT
Which is one of the reasons why I haven't been around. Another reason is because I've got Pt. 1 and 2 of .hack for the PS2, and well...I found myself rather addicted to it pretty quick. I'm on the 2nd .hack now, but I always go back and boost up my character in the 1st one, then bring all the stats and items on to the 2nd...I think that's hot as hell.

Also working on more Solness...I've done some action scenes from the first and second chapters thus far.

About a week or so before I head up to Boston and see about enrolling to school. Pretty excited. I miss my fam over AIM/Y!/MSN, but hey, I'm still alive. Hope yall are havin' some fun. I know I am ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2808290/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2808290/ Mon, 05 Jul 2004 10:19:03 PDT
Went to Jones Beach and caught the fireworks there. I'm not sure if Gucci was doing it or not, but it was pretty good.

got my camera fixed just in time to take some shots....Too bad it's the digi cam that takes those stinking Kodak Advantix films >.<

My uncle and aunt are leaving today, so before I head off to thake a shower, I gotta bid them a safe trip.

In two weeks I'll be heading up to Boston, hopefully ready to enroll, then it's back home to work more on SOL: War Machine

Umm...Yep, allot of good things I'm hearing about Otakon, so I'm trying to save some money to go make that. It'll be my first time to a Con, so I'm REALLY trying to go all out...I'm trying to cosplay as Amarant, from FF 9, but if not, I'll probably dress up as Sol, or whatever ^^

Well, that's all I have to update. Tune in next time when X prepares for Boston and meets new friends...

X-Man OUT ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2798527/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2798527/ Sat, 03 Jul 2004 22:49:28 PDT
Okay, so my uncle and(future)aunt Are in town, from Boston, and we kicked allot of ass today! We didn't grill today, but I got it cleaned and repainted, along with some old tables, now they look close to new again ^^

We all went to go see Spiderman 2 tonight....VERY nice movie. and as probably most people are saying...Doc OC is the MAN in that movie! I'm not just saying it for his methods of kicking ass, but the actor really played the part well. And I'm glad Kirsten Dunst's b/f NEVER got the role of Spiderman when he tried out...Because Tobe(in my opinion) plays a terrific Spiderman!

I found out my grandfather's birthday's on Thursday, but since my uncle and aunt aren't going to be here for it, we've decided to give him a cake and celebrate his Birthday tomorrow(Later on today) for the 4th of July. I wanna buy him this nice tool set, with a power saw and power drill, and various size bits. Since he's pretty much the handyman of this immense family of mine, I'm sure he'll love it...Plus he's in need of some new tools, and I love him to death, so, gotta look out for me grandpoppa!

My grandmother got sick taking some meds for her eyes, and suddenly got the hives, so I am really hoping she is fine come tomorrow(I hate seeing anyone from my family, ESPECIALLY my grandmother and grandfater, sick and resting for most of the day) *muahs* get well soon grandmomma!

Well I'm home now, and am playing this new Yu Gi Oh came for the Gamecube.

This weekend I probably won't get any comicness done, but come this coming week, it's back to the lab again, doing my thing...Peace folks! X-Man OUT!! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2766731/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2766731/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 20:22:00 PDT
Due to some issues interfering my ability to do this comic, if you see me online and IM me, don't expect an answer back(Unless you're TyranT, because that's the only person I'm expecting to keep in contact with as far as this comic's concerned) So, I don't know an easier way to say this so I'll just say it...Everyone else has to take a backseat for awhile until I get atleast this first chapter finished, and let my head clear up from all this other nonsense.

As far as DA, you'll see me around while submitting...Umm, not sure if I'll be doing allot of commenting...I'm pretty much in a cruddy mood, so...We'll see...

In other news; I'm trying to make it to ONE of these anime cons this year, and I plan to cosplay as Amarant from "Final Fantasy 9" Because his dreads are hot as hell.

More SOLness coming soon. ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2759622/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2759622/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 21:59:07 PDT Has put up the script for chapters 1 and 2 of SOL: War Machine. for those interested in how the story is, or what it's about so far, take a gander. Constructive Critique is HIGHLY welcome and appreciated to the both of us, so comment him about anything regarding the script, and feel free to give me some pointers on how I can draw up some good scenes, or possibly, what you might want to see in it(This is my first time really workign on a comic, so I'm definately open to some suggestions along with my own and Ty's)

Okay, X-Man OUT

(it feels good to say that again) ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2753463/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2753463/ Mon, 28 Jun 2004 07:24:14 PDT
Gonan be working hard on this comic once again, instead of crapping on about how how I'm all lonely and what not..Oh boo hoo!! gotta suck it up. It's go time! It's BEEEEEN go time!! But NOW I'm goin' Goin, goin...and now I'm gone...PEACE!! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2744221/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2744221/ Sat, 26 Jun 2004 23:34:12 PDT

Can't sleep...Nobody's online now...I'm hyper...But I feel like talking....Nobody's on now....grr...I'll try to go to bed... ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2744056/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2744056/ Sat, 26 Jun 2004 23:03:35 PDT
*exhales* okay...Happy, let's become HAPPY again...hmmm...NOT working...Okay, SMILE...Thaaat's it..Smi--whoops! That DEFINATELY didn't work....Hmmm...Draw....Yess...that's what I'll do....

I think it's just being on here that's really irking me...I can't stay away from it, but yet, Certain things and people just seem to piss me off...Ergo, I gotta force myself to take a hiatus...Get some drawing done...because I'm losing focus again, which is BAD...And I've complained WAY too much than I normally do about the same thing, and it's not helping me...so, just GIVE up on it, and continue to focus on self....

A few more weeks(hopefully) until I head up to Boston to see about enrolling at Gibbs Boston...hopefully I'll make some pretty cool friends, have a MUCH BETTER mood, and will be more motivated to draw....I need motivation...Because I'm just stressing out on trivial stuff...Okay, end rant... ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2741133/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2741133/ Sat, 26 Jun 2004 12:59:01 PDT
Well as soon as I'm through with lunch, I'll probably head outside for a bit. I need to see about more Yu Gi Oh cards....And manga...I DEFINATELY need MANGA....And pie....apple pie....mmmmmmm....

Okay, while my subconsious daydreams for me, time to knock off this homemade burger and homefries ^______^

Lol I eat WAY too much fattening foods...Blah, I like it though, can't help it...Gah! Rambling!! gonna go now ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2737408/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2737408/ Fri, 25 Jun 2004 22:18:33 PDT
Blah, just some IM-ness some several hours ago that went nowhere, so I stopped talking to them and talked to someone who actually made me smile all night after the fact. ( BIG hugs for that person, they know who they are) As usual, you make my day a good one. I'm glad you were there tonight. Lol now I can't go to sleep, I'm doing more oekaki-ness on Ex-Anime thanks to you It's all good though. I'm gonna try to get some sleep. What I thought was gonna be a bad night, turned out pretty good, and I should end it on a good note by going to sleep now ^^ ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2730571/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2730571/ Thu, 24 Jun 2004 21:39:15 PDT
Been listening to Slipknot allot lately, this song really had my mind set to draw some action drawings for SOL:

Duality - Slipknot

I push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I have to take...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited last, my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like on big past
You'll live with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

Pull me back together
Or separate the skin from the bone
Leave me all the Pieces, and then you can leave me
alone
Tell me the reality is better than dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2729239/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2729239/ Thu, 24 Jun 2004 13:54:42 PDT ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2718308/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2718308/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 09:49:54 PDT
And please, no "I'll miss you" comments please, because I'm sure once I get back, I'll only hear from the selective few that I normally hear from lol

Nah but seriously. Da s/n's up on my profile if you want to IM me. I'll probably be on, but most likely only make an effort to talk to those who really inspire me to do work(you know who you are) No offense to the others I adore on here. But...Yeah Da X-Man't out...For now.

P.S. As far as submissions go...I'll try to stay true to my word and have something in today...Just don't expect me to stalk anyone as usual though. ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2715928/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2715928/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 00:05:28 PDT
In anycase, I'm still trying to cope with the whole single issue, it's just hard. I find myself meeting different females, but then I just feel like I get jinxed...Ah well, enough of that. Got som esubmissions to upload finally!! Got a profile of Ebony I'll be working on all day later on, plus a profile of Sol to follow, and a profile of their pops. They will be sketched, but I'll put them in my gallery for yall to see.

Got a new icon too. It's supposed to be my little "emotipet" (I came up with that myself, whoot!) this one here, is the emoticat that you'll see utop the hat that Sol wears. I know it's probably hard to really see, but darn 50x50 size does no justice, even for text! Anywho, I'm gonna try and find some well needed sleep. was talking to a really good friend all night, and pretty much I always seem to be really hyper after talking with them (You know who you are! )

Well, hopefully, this is goodnight(morning) for now, DA world! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2713908/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2713908/ Mon, 21 Jun 2004 18:07:47 PDT
I can't lie, I do it myself at times, but only to get a reaction really. But you get guys that just try too damn hard to either impress the model in order to get with them, or just, whatever. But I just find it really funny, especially those who are like, WAY out in a different country, trying really hard to either "mack" a broad or whatever. lol I just find it humorous.

Especially since I do the same thing, but keep in mind, you'll never see me try and bag some girl from Zimbabwe or Abu Dahbi. The farthes I've ever went out with a girl(and that means physically as well, not just online folks) was in Canada, and I promised myself I'd stick with either girls around my way, or within a train's distance.
but hey, I find myself doing allot of flirting on here if not somewhere else....But I don't try and over do it, I mean I have enough respect to comment solely for the interest of the artist's submission, not just how she looks.

Here are some things I've been picking up lately:

1) comments made about wanting to be the model's personal photographer

2) witty, subliminal comments about a specific "region" of the model's body, and whay they want to do with it

3) obvious side hints like, "Nice, umm...lighting *wink*" or, "hmm, you look lonely in that pic *wink*"

4) just all out badgering the model about wanting to get in their pants lol

or

5) "hinting" that they want to get in their pants

6) an all out barrage of emoticons, i.e.

Oh geez, there's so much lol But, pretty much I've been going around checking to see how much of this has been going on...And for those who know MY comments, pretty much I:

1) make an annoyingly LONG comment about almost EVERYTHING in the picture

2) make my own witty comments about how good the model looks

3) make sarcastic comments most likely following someone else's comment(of one of the 7 listed above)

4)act pretty humorous before making a comment

5) Do my fair share of flirting, but just about always follow up with a mature comment based on the submission

I'm not saying for the comments to stop, because, it's not really hurting me any...I just really find it hard to comment on certain pages because of it...Or end up laughing at the comments made because it just makes the person(s) look like they're just trying SO hard to hook up with the artist or model lol

You gotta love us guys though, lol Letting you beautiful ladies know how much we adore your splendid goddess-like looks...God bless Deviant Art lol ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2702815/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2702815/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 09:11:58 PDT
Other than that, I got some paper, and can continue doin' some more pages for the comic.

Wished more people were online; seems like they're dropping like flies lol

This week will be dedicated to drawing, so I'm gonna miss my peeps here even moreso lol ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2700279/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2700279/ Sat, 19 Jun 2004 21:32:36 PDT
Jade, beautiful. I'll be on tomorrow definately!

In the menatime, all my DA peeps, keep doing your thing, and good night ^^ ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2699654/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2699654/ Sat, 19 Jun 2004 19:46:25 PDT
Since none of my friends are on at the moment, I'll take this time to do just that...gonna get drunk tonight...Atleast there's a small bar around my area...Bah, I need to do SOMETHING while the night is still young for me. I'm getting tired of staying in front of the computer all day. I need AIR!! lol ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2697303/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2697303/ Sat, 19 Jun 2004 12:50:01 PDT
Need to check out what's happening on Go-Gaia, since it's been a minute since I've been on there for awhile...Nobody's probably really around at the usual RP place though...

Should have some more paper tomorrow. and check out when you all have the chance. Give her some love, she's well deserving of it

That's it for me right now...tune in next time when I talk about the life and times of X...Peace!! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2695778/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2695778/ Sat, 19 Jun 2004 08:22:54 PDT

In other news....Da X-Man's moving up to Roslindale, Mass. to attend Gibbs Boston...sometime in July, I'm heading up there to enroll, so I might not be on for like a week or so...beforehand, I'm gonna try to put up some submissions I've been secretly working on for some time...So stay tuned.. ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2691797/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2691797/ Fri, 18 Jun 2004 17:03:10 PDT I took a nap like, an hour afterwards, woke up 3(close to 4) hours later lol

I'm seeing a good change in definition in my stomach and chest, and well, my arms always swell up when I'm lifting weights or doing pushups, but after letting them settle, I can see the change in my arms. I need to start jogging again...

In much more important news, got 1 pages of SOL: War Machine drawn out! Whoot!! I'm actually having trouble drawing because my arms and my chest are still sore lol but it's getting there, the comic is getting there! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2685018/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2685018/ Thu, 17 Jun 2004 19:10:51 PDT Check her out!! her work kicks ass!! Trust me

I love rain, and I'm glad it's raining now...Too hot in my room, and I hate it when it's hot...especially when I'm trying to draw up these comic pages

I might go outside again for a bit, catch some air, unless anyone on here who knows me through AIM feels like chatting. Other than that, I might go singing in the rain or something ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2681298/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2681298/ Thu, 17 Jun 2004 09:43:35 PDT
Last night was a drag(queen) in a half, up until late in the evening. Stayed up drinking with a really great friend ( Love ya lots!!!) and pretty much made each other laugh and act crazy. It was really fun, and I really needed that. VERY much appreciated!

After we both left, I still couldn't sleep though, thoughts of loneliness and all of that Dawson's Creek crap built up...I can be such a panzy at times. Right now is like, I'm returning to roots, whereas I will once again only care about myself, the people I do love(friends and family), and just devoting my thoughts and my time solely on my goals, and to drawing...Because I've been yapping about doing it, but I have YET to make a new submission... Back to the lab again...
P.S. Too much info, but I just happened to once again happen to discover that I am walking around with no clothes on.....That's scary--oh wait, that's right, shower...duuuuh! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2678819/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2678819/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 23:17:14 PDT - When those on my buddylist who used to frequent IMs are oddly never on anymore(which gives me the impression that I've been blocked)

- when people either answer me with just "yeah" or "aww" or "yup" and never anything more than that

There's plenty more, but I'm too drunk right now to put any down... ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2668754/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2668754/ Tue, 15 Jun 2004 18:11:04 PDT ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2666057/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2666057/ Tue, 15 Jun 2004 11:31:41 PDT
Lately, it's been either long distance issues, or they're struggling with someone else in their life that they cannot let go of, or just not the least bit interested in me, yet they come across me like they are....Well the latter one isn't that recent, but in the past it's happened allot...

I swear, I am convinced that the gods do not want my generation to live on....Or they just find it amusing to make me "The last man on earth" type....Meh, I get a kick out of it anyway....Now I'm thinking what IF my generation lives on?? Damn, my bloodline would be FEARED!!! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2502411/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2502411/ Mon, 24 May 2004 23:47:14 PDT
I plan to clean my gallery out of most of my sketches if not all of them...This is because, I want to keep my gallery with finished pieces, fully colored and framed.

Second, I'll be offline for most of this month and next...Mainly because I have a comic I'm working on, for most who've checked out my scrapbook, you've probably seen some of the sketches of from the comic SOL, which I'll be working on.

I've been falling off, mind, skill, and spirit, and I need to get that back, and stop slacking off and letting myself slowly deteriorate.

I'll be on the IMs late in the evening, and whoever I don't see, can email me at:

x_faktor_1@hotmail.com


Alright, off to bed for me... ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2488726/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2488726/ Sun, 23 May 2004 07:13:28 PDT .<

Anywho, should be having some more work in my GALLERY section as soon as I reinstall PhotoshopCS on my computer...Hera's juuust not doing too well with just 195mb of RAM in her.... -_- ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2471340/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2471340/ Thu, 20 May 2004 16:44:04 PDT ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2427120/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2427120/ Fri, 14 May 2004 10:55:45 PDT
Characters and pages for SOL: Warmachine

A Sig for my sister Cas

Work to submit to the TMEye Account

Gaia Commissions

and

Finding out where my pants are O.o ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2381395/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2381395/ Fri, 07 May 2004 19:32:28 PDT
Thank you all for coming, bless you, and good night... ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2362682/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/2362682/ Wed, 05 May 2004 00:47:12 PDT
In the meantime, I've missed my first 2000 hits, so I am planning on doing a special drawing for the deviant who hits 3000. Just take a screenshot and send it to me, and I'll do a special drawing for ya! ^_^ Tune in! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/1815944/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/1815944/ Mon, 09 Feb 2004 00:30:15 PST
In other news, I plan to have some sketches this and following weeks of...

Kera

Merc & Kera

NEW Harlequin

NEW Cihua

NEW St. Claire

NEW Puppy

FINAL Saiba

FINAL Gaiden

FINAL Misao

NEW Siryn

NEW AiR

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Characters from: SOL: The War Machine

Characters from: Excalibur Thieves Guild

Characters from: Children of Gunn

Characters from: Braves of Zodius


....I'll have like 1-2 drawings a day posted, if possible, so keep an eye out for them.

X-Man OUT!! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/1241551/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/1241551/ Mon, 06 Oct 2003 08:15:00 PDT
In other news, I'll have some art up here in a pinch, due to my return to school as well as my leave for Ontario again( can't get enough of that place for some reason ::daydreams of a certain someone:: ) plus I have work, which I'm ejoying way too much lol Life is good right now, and even with its obstacles, I tend to stay strong and kick a plethora of ass along the way (figuratively and/or literally speaking) in the meantime, keep looking out for more X-F Art...and keep up the comments both good or bad, I love my critics just as much as my fans(critique helps me with what I have to work on)thank you all for viewing, bless you and goodnight ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/1150291/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/1150291/ Thu, 11 Sep 2003 08:24:41 PDT
One thing.......Brooding...I hate it, brings nothing but negativity...I can see people who brood and want to be cheered up...but you have these people who sit there and brood just to get frickin attention!! it's annoying, and a waste of breath.

"Hey, how are you?"

"terrible, and I don't wanna talk about it"

"Fair enough, so what did you do today?"

"I miss my girlfriend!! T_T"

"uumm, what?"

"I can't believe I did that!"

"did what??"

"nothing"

....this PISSES me OFF!! if you wanna bitch and moan, go do what I'M doing, and write a damn journal!!! don't bring burdens to others just for attention...it's fuckin annoying....and if it's an online buddy, you can read their profile, and notice how morbid it is, most likely saying something about a fucked up day, and all this other crap put into some damn poem....it's rediculous....If you're gonna brood, brood to your family, or your damn journal, or play an uber violent videogame or some shit like that...DAMN, life isn't the worst thing in the damn world, you're bound to run into obstacles....To those who know who they are...STOP BITCHIN'!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whew! that felt goooood! ok, folks, X-MaN signing off...PEACE!! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/1090491/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/1090491/ Fri, 22 Aug 2003 23:07:30 PDT
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MSN: X_Faktor_1@hotmail.com ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/994634/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/994634/ Sun, 27 Jul 2003 05:54:43 PDT Laterz! ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/993642/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/993642/ Sat, 26 Jul 2003 22:08:20 PDT ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/918050/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/918050/ Mon, 07 Jul 2003 05:16:12 PDT

written by yours truly...Just that trust is very hard to do sometimes. I have the problem with trust, given the many times my trust has been taken advantage of....It's hard, it really is. Some may say it's easy, but there is just that one feeling that just pops up inside; that feeling for the one you devote youeself to, that occasionally plagues you, in an attempt to try your patience and love....Sometimes that feeling's right...sometimes that feeling leaves a terrible streak of paranoia and over possession, even binge obsession...But that feelin's always there. It's harder to fight off when you've been through a couple of relationships, even friendships, in which trust was abused. I'm trying to fight this feeling off, so I don't have to worry about trust issues in the near future...Any comment on this entry, please feel free to speak your mind ]]> ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/846534/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/846534/ Tue, 17 Jun 2003 20:51:10 PDT ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/796567/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/796567/ Wed, 04 Jun 2003 21:16:11 PDT ~xfaktor http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/775307/ http://xfaktor.deviantart.com/journal/775307/ Thu, 29 May 2003 21:32:50 PDT
That's not the whole problem though. I think this one person likes her, which pisses me off...the person should know how close we are, and I get REALLY insecure when I find out they talk to gether, and while I was talking to him, he seemed like he likes her just as much as I do...WHAT THE FUCK!!!! I feel like telling him to "back the fuck off" but I don't wanna do that, becuase I'm not 100% on their relationship...Mind you I got to know her before he did....I'ma vent for a second, and it might not make any sense, but....HOW and WHEN did he start talking to her!?!? WHY did he, and WHY is he trying to step on MY feet!?!? IS he trying to step on my feet!?!? WHAT the FUCK!? I wish he was NEVER in the fuckin picture to begin with!! POOF!! VAMOOSE!! BEGONE!! Let me be with the one I'm falling for!!!


Ok, well, anyway, as you can see, it's tearing me apart...I know a good friend told me that, given it's an online relationship, it's better to tell her how you feel in person...But I can't wait that long...Maybe I should....But......I don't know.....SOMEONE HELP ME PLEEEEEAAAASE!!!! ]]> ~xfaktor