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deviantART: by:xfallingxsnowx http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xfallingxsnowx&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xfallingxsnowx en-us Copyright 2010, deviantART.com Fri, 01 Jan 2010 10:11:39 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png YAY!!!! :D http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/29119615/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/29119615/ Wed, 23 Dec 2009 00:45:58 PST
I'm still learning and improving, but I learned how to play one piece that made me supremely happy.

It's fairly simple, but I was like, "YAYYYYYY!!!!"

Kyir showed me the tabs and I got it fairly quickly.

.....TO ZANARKAND from FFX. :]

Such a pretty piece....

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Oh home... [Warning: Rant] http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/28651765/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/28651765/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 13:16:56 PST Watch me Note me Journal Instructions

How it never feels like a home.

Just the latest shit in my house. To fill anyone in, I live with my mom, my 3 stoner dead beat, sometimes quite the asshole step brothers, and my step dad whom I dislike.

Yesterday, I guess I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Everyone does sometimes. I wasn't feeling really good, and I went downstairs, to then get lectured by my mom and my step dad (Ed), about how I need to get a job. They're joking every so often, but as I'm in a bad mood, I'm not in the mood to hear it.

Later, I felt like I needed to talk to my mom about things, and I started ranting, and when it comes to certain topics when I rant, I start crying because it's so heavily emotional on me, and I'm stressed out enough as it is. She's listening to me, sometimes arguing with me, but in the end, tries to calm me down. I guess we took up too much time though because my mom and Ed were gonna check out wedding places, and they ran out of time because oh god forbid, I actually WANT to talk to my mom for a change. So thus, Ed gets in a bad mood. OH POOR ED! HE'S PISSED OFF! I don't really give a fuck. He's generally an ass to me so I don't really give a flying fuck about him.

Then Ed proceeds to yell at David, my oldest step brother about smoking a blunt with my two other step bros and their cousin in the middle of Thanksgiving.[NOTE: A blunt is a joint wrapped in tobacco cigar wrap. A joint is a weed cigarette basically. Just an fyi.] So they're in a bitch fest, and somehow my mom gets involved. One of the things David yelled at my mom saying was that she changed his dad, and made him meaner and stricter. Which she didn't. But whatever. I was in my room at the time talking to Kyiren, and the whole house erupts. I felt like I was back in my childhood again, especially when David screamed at my mom. My dad used to scream at my mom a lot, so now whenever a guy screams at her, it reminds me of that.

ANYWAYS. My mom runs in my room and asks me if I wanted to get out of the house for awhile with her. Mind you,I had a bit of a look of horror on my face that she could tell, and so we were about to leave. [Note: the whole David, Ed argument happened at the front door.] So I being frazzled enough as it is, went back inside, grabbed my iPod, and went out, not realising I slammed the door because I was so frazzled.

Ed opened the front door and started screaming at me saying that everyone is in this mood because of me and everything is my fault, and etc etc etc. I just kept screaming at him saying I'm done with this fucking house and everyone in it, and that how the fuck is it my fault. My mom got involved again and started yelling at Ed wondering how the fuck it was my fault too. After she went back inside and closed the door to scream at him, I sped off, blasting Three Days Grace. I just circled my neighborhood by the way. But never in my life have I ever started sobbing while driving. I actually heavily sobbed while circling the neighborhood, and even passed by this one moving truck, where the people looked at me as if I just was raped or something.

Anyways, my mom was calling me wondering where the fuck I was at, and I told her, so we met up at the cleaners by my house (she had to drop off something), and I begged her if I could leave to Agoura for the night. I COULD NOT stand being in that house that night. Something would have happened. So finally after begging, I went back home for a short bit, grabbed my shit, and sped off. Jacob, Hannah, and Kyir were talking to me throughout my drive, and they all helped calm me down and cheer me up. I went over to Kyir's house for the night, and yeah. She helped me out a lot. I felt quite safer staying with her than my own house, and I felt quite welcome.

Thank you Kyiren. Like, SO much. You're behind me as I'm typing this, playing that zombie game on Xbox (haha), but seriously Kyir. You have no idea how much I love you. You like, were able to take me in when my own home got too rough to be in. Thank you sooo much T^T

But yeah. That's what happened. Ranting helps a lot...

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Another new character! :3 http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/26758600/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/26758600/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 16:42:42 PDT 1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!

Hmm. I choose my new character! Jaden!

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
I don't have a nickname. I'm just Jaden.

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
Well, technically I'm 18. But my true age is much older. You see, I'm not human...

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
I can be a fatass. xD
Sushi!

4. And your favorite drink?
Smoothies :3

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
Well, no one has caught my eye yet.

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Well, if there's no one I like or love, then obviously I wouldn't have kissed them if they don't exist.

7. Classic question! What's your favorite colour?
Purple >3

8. Who's your favorite author?
Probably Edgar Allen Poe. :]

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Losing the ones I love.

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
Yeah! :] I have a twin brother! Whose name I'll reveal later xP

11. Who's your hero?
Hmm. I don't know yet.

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
Any murderer.

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
No freakin idea.

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Be like, "Oh wow, so you're the person who created me. HAI! *huggles*"

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
When I grow up?

16. What's your worst nightmare?
Death before saving.

17. What's your lifelong dream?
I have no idea.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
.............

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
Forest, by a stream. :]

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Giving people comic relief. x]

21. We're done! Now tag whoever you want. DO IT!
Well, everone I would've tagged has already done this so... if you want to do this, do it!

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx My new character :] http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/26034723/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/26034723/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 22:03:12 PDT 1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!

Hmm. I choose my new character! Angel of Light :]

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
I don't have a nickname. My name is the Angel of Light.

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
How long has the universe existed? Well, that age.

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
I don't eat.

4. And your favorite drink?
Don't drink either.

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
No one.

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Well, if there's no one I like or love, then obviously I wouldn't have kissed them if they don't exist.

7. Classic question! What's your favorite colour?
White.

8. Who's your favorite author?
Edgar Allen Poe. He understands me.

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Not being able to help someone

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
I don't have any.

11. Who's your hero?
I don't have one. Although I do have a great respect for people who can bring themselves out of the darkness

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
I wouldn't call it an enemy, but me and the Grim Reaper never really got along. He always takes their soul before I can at least heal that. >>

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
What?

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
I have no creator. I just manifested myself.

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
When I...grow...up?

16. What's your worst nightmare?
Death before healing.

17. What's your lifelong dream?
That's kind of a pointless question for me.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
I have NO lifelong dream...

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
On a cloud. Very relaxing.

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Watching over people, if they need any healing.

21. We're done! Now tag whoever you want. DO IT!
Well, everone I would've tagged has already done this so... if you want to do this, do it!

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx I'm a mermaid and a witch! 8D http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/25054197/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/25054197/ Sun, 31 May 2009 15:36:26 PDT
Centaur:
[x] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[] You get drunk a lot.
[x] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[x] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[x] You like to read your daily horoscope.
[] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[x] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[x] You are spiritual.
[x] The horse is your favorite animal.
[x] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 8

Elf:
[x] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips.
[x] You are very intelligent.
[x] Your five senses are extremely keen.
[] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height.
[] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible.
[x] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[] You look very young for your age
[] You rarely get sick.
[x When I want to] You are a very hard worker.
[x I can see the future already...] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.
Total: 6

Fairy:
[] You are happy a lot of the time.
[x] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[x At first] You are very shy.
[x] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[x] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[Neither xD] You are young and short.
[] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[x] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[x] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear.
[x] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.
Total: 7

Gnome/Dwarf:
[x] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[x] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.
[] You are short for your age.
[x I can be] You are an isolationist.
[x] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.
[x] You look older than your age.
[x] You love the woods and the mountains.
[x Iffy] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[x] You have a short temper.
Total: 8

Harpy/Siren:
[] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[x] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you.
[] You often take things that aren't yours
[x] You are easily angered.
[x] Death fascinates you.
[x] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[x] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[] You love to trick others.
[] You have a ravenous appetite.
Total: 5

Mermaid:
[x] You love the beach moreso because of the water than the shore itself.
[x] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you.
[x] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater.
[] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[x] You are good at swimming.
[x] You like to collect shells.
[x] You use sea items as jewelry or decoration.
[x] You enjoy learning about the ocean and the life inside it.
[x] You are extremely against ocean pollution, and someday, perhaps (if you haven't already), you will work to stop that.
[x] Legs on land are not as important as a fin in the sea.
Total: 9

Vampire:
[x] You're a night person.
[x] You have a fascination with blood.
[] You are extremely pale.
[x] You wish you had a bat as a pet.
[x] You are not religious at all.
[x Honestly it depends. Sometimes it is esp. if I'm with other people, sometimes I love tight spaces] Tight spaces are not scary or uncomfortable for you.
[x] The sun's glare annoys you all too often.
[] You hate food with lots of garlic in it.( I LOVE garlic)
[x It can be

] To you, a kiss on the neck is more romantic than a kiss on the cheek or lips.
[x] You don't like sharp objects near you.(who does?)
Total: 8
added:[IF I WEAR SPARKLES! 8D But seriously, this isn't Twilight...] you sparkle in the sunlight.

Werewolf:
[x one of] The full moon is the most beautiful scene to you.
[] You have a lot of body hair.
[x THAT WOULD BE COOL 8D] The ability to shapeshift is the best superpower to you.
[] You prefer gold over silver items.
[x] You lack self control.
[x] You find it easier to have sympathy for animals than for humans.
[x] You have a deep respect for wolves and wild dogs.
[x]... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Survey :P http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/24249405/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/24249405/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 00:36:07 PDT

:]

The Axis Powers

North Italy (Vargas Feliciano)

[x] You were bullied a lot in your childhood
[x] You adore pasta, pizza, cheese, and fruit.
[ ] You're very happy-go-lucky
[ ] You constantly have a dozy look on your face as if you're always away with the fairies
[x] You have a long curly strand of hair that always tends to stick up
[x] You're a good artist
[x] You can be clumsy
[x] You have a friend you always depend upon if you mess up something
[ ] If your life was in danger, you would do the typical Italian thing and say: "PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I HAVE RELATIVES IN YOUR COUNTRY!"
[ ] You would surrender in a war situation

(6/10)

Germany (Ludwig)

[ ] You're very stoic and serious
[ ] Sausages are your favourite foods.
[ ] You like to walk dogs/your dog
[x] Your boss/principal/tutor/home-room teacher is a nut-case.
[ ] You love rules and think they should always be followed to
[x Depends] You think the world would be better if everyone played by the rules
[x] You work very hard too hard...
[x] Your alone time is your 'happy time'
[x] You can appear tough but be very considerate towards people
[x] You've had issues with money once or twice

(6/10)

Japan (Kiku Honda)

[x] You're very mature
[x] You think everything over before saying it.
[x] You believe in ghosts but aren't phased by the experience when you see one
[x] You isolated yourself during childhood
[ ] You became very successful in a short amount of time
[ ] You are somewhat inexperienced when it comes to the outside world
[x] You can seem cold/aloof to other people (But I'm not a cold person! D

[x] You're good at practical tasks
[x] You need time to adjust to new people

(7/10)

The Allies

The United States of America (Alfred F. Jones)

[x] You love hamburgers
[ ] You think you're awesome
[ ] You love to invent things
[x] You love going to the cinema/watching films/making films
[ ] You can seem to be very brash to other people
[ ] You have a tendency to stick your nose into other peoples' business
[ ] You're terrified of ghosts
[x] You know aliens exist
[ ] You tend to wear a bomber jacket all the time
[x] You wear glasses

(4/10)

The United Kingdom of England, Wales, Scotland, and Northern Ireland (Arthur Kirkland)

[x] You like tea
[x] You were quite tough and troublesome as a kid
[x] You're very sarcastic and cynical
[ ] Your cooking is awful
[x] You love spiritual magical stuff, such as fairies, ghosts...
[ ] ...But you refuse to believe in aliens.
[ ] You have tried doing black magic before
[x] You get drunk quite easily.
[ ] When you are drunk, you tend to be very unhappy
[ ] You're good at embroidery

(5/10)

France (Francis Bonnefoy)

[x] You're very affectionate
[x] You think you have a great fashion sense
[x] You like wine (Hellz yeah, but does champagne count?)
[x] You're the master of whispering romantic things into peoples' ears
[x] You love red roses
[x] When it comes to l'amour, you don't mind men or women
[ ] You're very proud of yourself
[x] You love culture and the arts
[ ] You're very flamboyant
[ ] You say you're a gourmet

(7/10)

Russia (Ivan Braginski)

[x] You had a very sad childhood.
[x] You're very tall
[x] You have a tendency to switch between personalities
[ ] You wear a scarf all the time
[x] You love sunflowers
[ ] You love vodka
[x Depends] You can seem intimidating to other people
[x] You're very strong
[x] You have a big nose
[x] You have a strange laugh that can scare people

(8/10)

China (Wong Yao)

[x] You're very mature
[ ] You're very superstitious
[ ] You're very religious
[x] You love pandas
[x] You love cooking so much that you nag if food has a certain pattern of tastes
[x] You love Hello Kitty
[x] You try to be a role-model for your brothers/sisters/whatever, but are never taken seriously.
[x] You work hard
[x] You're good at drawing
[x] You like sweets

(8/10)

And now for some other countries!

Austria (Roderich Edelstein)

[x] You are very well-raised
[x] You're polite
[ ] You love classical music
[x] You like cake
[x] You have a mole on your fac... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Death is a horrible thing... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/23838357/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/23838357/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 19:00:39 PDT
This time it's me.

My aunt died I think yesterday and I found out today.

I loved her so much.

Words can't describe how close I was to her.

She taught me to love music.

She taught me how to play piano.

She gave me my love to learn instruments.

Heart attacks really know how to finish someone with already health problems off....

Despite the fact that I only got to see her when I was 5, and again for a week in 8th grade (she lived in Chicago), I talked to her a lot on the phone, and I was still very close to her. Extremely attached...

When my mom pulled me aside and told me the news, I was dumbfounded.

I'm still dumbfounded.

I can't believe she's really gone.

It's not possible....

I love you dearly Aunt Pat and I hope you're in a pain free and a better place now.

I love you.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Why....just....why? http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/23735867/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/23735867/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 18:59:11 PDT
I massively screwed up, like more than I can explain.
I want to prove to her I can be a trustworthy friend.

I want to be someone she can be proud of.

I hate having lost someone's trust.

She's made me want to be a better person.

I want to prove myself again.

I want to be able to call my friend and be able to joke with her and share secrets and make sure that those secrets are not told.

Which was my fault.
I royally fucked up.

I want to be able to earn her trust back.

I know it won't be an easy task...but I'm willing to put in the effort.

I want her to know I'm truly sorry from the bottom of my heart and I would do anything and everything in my power to fix it.

I just want my friend back.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx OMFG! 8D http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/23407979/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/23407979/ Wed, 25 Feb 2009 21:56:16 PST

Pardon my Italian.

BUT OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINA-FUCKIN-LY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Again I apologize for cursing. xD

Sooooo friggin happy! I got 7 wrong. (You can miss at most 8.)

And this was my first try.

-is beyond happy-

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Lets see how screwed up I am... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21835285/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21835285/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 17:08:46 PST [x] you have dry skin.
[ ] you eat 1 meal.
[] you're very weak.
[x] you hate yourself.
[ ] you starve yourself.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[x] you need to be more skinny.
[ ] people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat.
[ ] people think you are too skinny.
Total: 4

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER) :
[x] your mind is all over the place.
[x] you are hyper most of the time.
[x] you barely pay attention to anything.
[ ] you can't cooperate well.
[x] you talk all the time.
[ ] you need attention 24/7.
Total: 4

BIPOLAR DISORDER :
[x] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[x] you are very irritable.
[x] you are anti-social.
[ ] you have very high self esteem sometimes.
[ ]you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
Total: 4

BULIMIA NERVOSA :
[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[x] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[x] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[But I am...] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[ ] people think you're way too skinny.
Total: 2

CONDUCT DISORDER :
[ ] you are a bully.
[ ] you threaten other people.
[x] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[ ] you destroy property on purpose.
[ ] you always lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
Total: 1

DEPRESSION :
[x] you are always sad.
[x] you find no hope in your future.
[x] you find no longer excitement over the activities you use to love.
[x] you always find yourself in bed/around the house all day.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[x] everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[x] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[x] you are failing school.
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[] you have ran away from home.
[x] hope is no longer there for you.
Total: 10.... o.o

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER) :
[x] you have daily rituals.
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[XXXXXXXXXXX] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] you have harmed yourself.
[ ] you are afraid you will get a std, aids, or any kind of germs.
[XXXXXX] you have to check some stuff over again.
Total: 6

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER) :
[x] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life
[x] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[xxxxxxxxxxxx] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[x] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[XXXXXXXXXXXXXX] you have not had a lot of sleep lately.
[x] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[x] you can have angry outbursts.
[In certain situations x] You act younger than your age.
Total: 8

SCHIZOPHRENIA :
[ ] you often have hallucinations.
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts. (thoughts)
[] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[x] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness. [anxiety]
[x making friends...I can keep staying friends but making them in the first place is hard...] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[x] you are very shy.
[x...more like just say my thoughts outloud...] you often talk to yourself.
Total: 6

Oh dear... xD

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx My new obsession: http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21655926/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21655926/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 21:36:15 PST The Heroin Diaries Soundtrack

The book is by Nikki Sixx and the Heroin Diaries Soundtrack is by Sixx: A.M.

I'll post what the book is about here: (I did not write this. I copied it from Amazon.com.)

"In one of the most unique memoirs of addiction ever published, MÃ¶tley CrÃ¼e's Nikki Sixx shares mesmerizing diary entries from the year he spiraled out of control in a haze of heroin and cocaine, presented alongside riveting commentary from people who were there at the time, and from Nikki himself.
When MÃ¶tley CrÃ¼e was at the height of its fame, there wasn't any drug Nikki Sixx wouldn't do. He spent days -- sometimes alone, sometimes with other addicts, friends, and lovers -- in a coke and heroin-fueled daze. The highs were high, and Nikki's journal entries reveal some euphoria and joy. But the lows were lower, often ending with Nikki in his closet, surrounded by drug paraphernalia and wrapped in paranoid delusions.

Here, Nikki shares those diary entries -- some poetic, some scatterbrained, some bizarre -- and reflects on that time. Joining him are Tommy Lee, Vince Neil, Mick Mars, Slash, Rick Nielsen, Bob Rock, and a host of ex-managers, ex-lovers, and more.

Brutally honest, utterly riveting, and shockingly moving, The Heroin Diaries follows Nikki during the year he plunged to rock bottom -- and his courageous decision to pick himself up and start living again. "

And the soundtrack features amazing music basically as a soundtrack to this book.

God I wish they made a audio book to this book! Normally I prefer reading it myself, but like, with this book at least after hearing the first track on the CD, X-mas In Hell, you want to hear his voice along while reading it. It would make it even more amazing than it already is.

I have yet to read/buy this book and I've only listened to about 4-5 songs on this CD, but honestly, the description of the book and those few songs I heard pulled me in enough!

GO CHECK IT OUT!!!!!!! PLEASEEE!

You won't regret it!!

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Wow I'ma horrible child..xD 93% I screwed up http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21585354/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21585354/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 16:48:04 PST [x] gotten a phone taken away in class
[ ] gotten suspended
[x] gotten caught chewing gum
[x] gotten caught cheating on a test
Total so far: 4

[x] arrived late to class more than 5 times
[x] didn't do homework over 5 times
[x] turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] missed school just because you felt like it
[x] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class
Total so far: 9

[x] got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[x] text people during class
[x] passed notes
[x] threw stuff across the room
[x] laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 14

[x] been in a fight at school, fist or verbal
[x] took pictures during school hours
[x] called someone during school hours
[x] listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours
[x] skipped a class period
Total So Far: 19

[ ] threw something at the teacher
[x] went outside the classroom without permission
[x] broke the dress code
[x] failed a class
[x] ate food during class
Total So Far: 23

[x] gotten a call from school
[ ] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] didn't take your stuff to school
[x] given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
[x] curse during class/school
total so far: 27

[x] faked your parents signature
[x] slept in class
[ ] cursed at your teacher
[x] copied homework
[x] got in trouble with the principal/vice principal
total So Far: 31

Multiply by 3
27 x 3 = 81
grand total: 93

Post as "I screwed up (percentage) of my teenage life" and tag 3 people!

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Homecoming survey! http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21428913/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21428913/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 20:37:34 PST It was actually pretty kick ass!

What was your ride?
Danielle!

Did you dance with any strangers?
Lol technically if you count those 2 random guys dancing with everyone. xDD

Dance with your friends?
YESSSSSSSS

Kiss anyone?
Nope

Did you want to kiss anyone there?
I wouldn't have minded

Have a date?
Lol CHA! DANIELLE!!! xD
And Liz, Jenna, Kami...

I has a huge list!!

Jk jk jk jk jk xDDD

How was the music?
"It was all that crap youÂd run away from covering your ears if you heard it in public, but since itÂs a dance and everyoneÂs high off sugar, you sing to it like a crazy fool." ~Liz

Yeah pretty much. xD

Do anything illegal?
You see...this is why I brought socks to hide joints in...

xDD KIDDING

What were you wearing?
I had a really pretty black dress that was flowy and had jewels on

Eat anything while there?
Just some water and 1 piece of candy :]]

Drink anything?
OUZOOO

xD Kidding

Water

What was the most akward moment?
"Oh dear, ok so they were playing ÂI Kissed a GirlÂ by Kate Perry, and as a joke I leaned over to give Katie a kiss on the cheek, but she turned her head at that exact moment, and I kissed the tiny corner of her lip, barely anything, but I was so close, so we both pulled away quickly, then bursted into laughter and hugged.
xD"

Yeah. That's kinda exactly what happened xDDDD

What was the BEST moment?
HA, like I could chose just one. The whole night was the best moment.

Anything you regret that happened that night?
Nah.

So someone cute was checking you out at the dance, what would you have done?
Blushed. x3

Would you have still bought your ticket if there was no free food or drink?
Haha yeah probally. Only cause my friends would have gone xD

Someone just grabbed your butt while you were shaking it out there, what do you do?
Squeak and jump several feet in the air, then glare at whoever did it.
xD

Would you go to next yearÂs homecoming?
YEAHHHHHHHH

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Bordom info thingy xD http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21364710/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21364710/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 20:50:54 PST [] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses/contacts.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[Ha ha ha..] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[x Technically..] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor's office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[I WISH] I've been to Japan
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[Technically x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. ( Hahah... xD; )
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x Heh..very long story] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged. ( LOL. xDD;; )
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x I'ma bad girl...] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[Meh..not as much anymore] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've s... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx RISE AGAINST CONCERT!!!!!!!!! http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21291848/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/21291848/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 21:42:56 PST
The lineup:

Gaslight Anthem
Thrice
Alkaline Trio
RISE AGAINST

I went with Rebecca and Krystal!! <33

One of the best nights of my life. I think all the bands did an amazing job! <33
Btw, I took all the pics that I put up from my phone. It was insanely hard cause the crowd was so insane, they kept moving, and I was being thrashed around and having random crowd surfers dropped on my head.

Lets see....

I was in the mosh pit for Thrice, Alkaline Trio, and Rise Against.
Well for Rise Against I was in the front, but the front was so insane it was pretty much the fucking pit.
But I was in the "traditional" mosh pit for Thrice and Alkaline Trio.

The ONLY GIRL in the Thrice pit haha. Everyone else was huge guys. One pushed me to the floor where I fell on my knee and the tip of my elbow and they both have a pretty bruise on them. Then some guy punched me in the arm and I have another pretty bruise there. But I'd do it all over again and get hurt worse if I could re-live it. AMAZING. I got to shove people and go fucking insane and it would be perfectly fine!!! XD The people there were pretty nice. When I fell some guys came and picked me up.

Lets see what else happened...

There wasn't one spot where there wasn't a heavy smell of pot and booze. This one guy was passing a bottle of Whisky around before Rise Against went on, the guy behind me drank a lot of it, shouted "Ew this tastes like SHIT!" I turned around and told him "It's whisky, it's GONNA taste like shit." A few seconds later he spit it out all over everyone in front of him, including me and Becca. Eww...

Oh also, the guy next to me right before Rise Against started playing started waving a switchblade around, which made me really nervous..I tried to get Becca and Krystal to scoot over with me but no one could move. We were squished in. xD Once literally the first strum hit, crowd went INSANE. Becca and Krystal had to get out cause they were gonna passout. Me, no. I stayed in the whole time! Fucking amazing. I swear you never get closer to a bunch of strangers than in a fuckin pit or in front of the stage. Hahaha. I swear by the end of the night, I wasn't covered in my own sweat...needless to say we all took showers as soon as we got back to Becca's house.

Crowd surers kept landing on my head literally over 10 times. Of course they seemed to like to turn around on their stomachs the minute they came to me....yeah. Face full of random guys dicks. FUN... xD

I thought it was pretty funny though.. OH YEAH. This one crowd surfer accidentally kicked my glasses to the floor and I was FREAKING OUT. I bent down and started looking for shards of my glasses, but this one lady asked me what I was looking for and helped me find my glasses. She found them for me...miraciously in one piece and perfectly fine. That was a miracle. Everyone was stomping around I coulda sworn it would have been destroyed for sure.

I also found a random Rise Against t-shirt covered in sweat that's a youth large that's now going on my wall. (Now that I washed it...haha)

All in all, got a bit hurt, but AMAZING NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Word of advice: Go in the fucking mosh pits. they're amazing. Unless you're Becca or Jenna or are just plain short. Then please don't or I'll worry about you. xD

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Letter! xD http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/20857587/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/20857587/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 12:36:56 PDT Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflÃ©
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Ti... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Boredom... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/20245068/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/20245068/ Sat, 30 Aug 2008 23:55:16 PDT [x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[x] Sad movies suck.
[] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x Well at least I cover my mouth... xD] Talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] Wear boxers.
Boys side: 15

Your Girl Side
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[EW] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ]You are in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like....
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid. (I kinda... killed my barbies when I was a child, but that was a different story...)
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored
Girls side: 11

Mommy it's a boy!!

Crap...

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx As days go on... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/20228106/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/20228106/ Fri, 29 Aug 2008 23:43:20 PDT

Others school has started, mine still hasn't.

I'm starting to get used to the idea of moving.

I really like the house.

It has a beautiful night time view of the city.

But honestly, despite the fact that I'm living in such a nice house with really nice people..

I'm still really gonna dearly miss my friends like hell.

It's not like I'll never ever see them again or talk to them again...

It's just different.

I don't like this difference..

But whatever...I'm developing a hard outer shell now to my feelings all over again...

Keep having to please people...

Sacrifice my emotions so I don't stir drama...

I'm so used to this...

But I wish I could stop this facade...

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Fuck I'm moving http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19962698/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19962698/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 01:20:45 PDT

To South Torrance

I DON'T WANNA LEAVEEE!!!!!

But I'm being forced to.

So...

Unfortunately I won;t be able to be back next year.

It's killing me inside.

But at least I'll be back every weekend..my mom will drive me out till I get my liscense and my grandparents are gonna be living at the same house I'm at now.

Plus Jana said she'll come pick me up too or come over with a shit load of people for the weekends..

God I hope this works out...

This won't leave my mind and it's taunting me..

It's slowly killing me inside...

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx I can't believe it http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19780066/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19780066/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 21:40:06 PDT

Holyy shit.

It came too fast.

I'm excited to finally be 16.

But a little scared at the same time.

I'm getting older...and soon 18.

It's so close..

But...

What if I don't want to grow up yet?

I guess I just have to embrace the new age I will be.

Ready or not here I come.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Tagged thing... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19703108/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19703108/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 15:51:55 PDT
* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs

1.) Never give me a beta. They seem to always commit suicide around me. T^T No seriously...3/5 betas I've had in my life...have jumped out of their bowl in the night, or jumped down the drain. XD

2.) I want to be a photographer for National Geographic.

3.) My friends are insane. But I love them. ^^

4.) I'm terrified of needles and clowns. So seriously never get me close to one or prick me with a needle. You'll see me literally turn white and faint. I also have a bunch of other random assortments of quirks and fears.

5.) I'm not good at school.

6.) I don't think I'm a very good artist...

7.) One of my cats is crazy to new people, but she's amazing-ness and I love her to death.

8.) I'm random as hell. xD

Now I shall tag no one. Because I can't think of anyone because everyone has pretty much been tagged. xD

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx The Controversial Survey http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19547007/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19547007/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 00:00:02 PDT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Questions of Controversy

Do you have the guts to answer these Q's and repost as The Controversial Survey?
Yeah sure. I don't really give a fuck.

Would you do Meth if it was legalized?
Nah. I like my brain cells.

Abortion. For, or against?
A toughie. Generally im against it, though i do agree there are some cases where it's be okay.

Would our country fall with a woman president?
How could it fall anymore? Ha
A woman president would be better ! think.

Do you believe in the death penalty?
Hmm..not a whole lot. Death would release them from their crimes. Wanna make them suffer? Give them the life sentence in an isolation room. That's harsh.

Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
I really don't care cause I don't want to do it either way. I guess yeah fine so the people who already do it can stop complaining that it's illegal.

Are you for or against premarital sex?
Sure. Their choice.

Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
Yeah, love is love.

Do you think its wrong that so many Hispanics and immigrants are moving to the USA?
Personally, I don't mind if someone wants to move to the country. It's the illegal ones that bother me a lot. If they want to come to this country so fucking badly, come legally! I know it's not gonna be easy, but do it anyways!

A 12 year old girl has a baby. Should she keep it?
It's her own damn fault for getting knocked up at 12. Unless she was raped. Then not her fault. But either way... abortion should be the last option. Try giving it up fo adoption first.

Should the legal alcohol age be lowered to 18?
I'm not sure. There might be more accidents due to drunk driving if that happens.

Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Yes, should never have started. It was a stupid war...

I admire the soldiers for being brave enough to go to war, but I think there were a lot of lives wasted in that war.

Assisted suicide is illegal. Do you agree?
Kind of. Only if the person is terminally ill and has no chance of survival ex. a terminal cancer patient who is just sitting in a hospital bed suffering.

Other than that, no.

Do you believe in spanking your children?
No, you can discipline kids without violence, and thats what it is.

Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
Haha I don't know. I'd probally get a lot of shit for saying this but yeah probally. Maybe. I don't know...

It's just a fucking flag for crying out loud! It's not like I'm hurting someone.

A mother is declared innocent after murdering her five children in a temporary insanity case. Opinion?
Not innoscent. Doesn't matter if she was temporarily insane. She still killed them. Plus what the fuck is temporarily insane?! That's just a cover for "I lost my temper!" >.<

It's between you and a person who is being kept alive by life support machines. One has to die. Who?
Me

Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
I don't give a flying fuck what people will tell me. It's their opinion. Shouldn't be forced on me.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Your avarage crazy conversation with me and Kyiren http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19502996/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19502996/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 16:01:07 PDT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Kyiren: Gots me some lemonade
Me:

Me: Yays
Kyiren: xD
Me: Lemonade ish good

Me: It's like.........lemons....but liquid lemons! That sounds like it would be like radioactive or something. XD
Kyiren: xDDDDD
Kyiren: Yeah xD
Me: It will give you superpowers!!
Me: XD
Kyiren: I'm going to read that conversation Elizabeth and I had
Kyiren: makes me feel better
Kyiren: xD
Me: Yay ^^
Me: xD
Kyiren: Super lemon powers!
Kyiren: YAY!
Kyiren: xD
Me: xD
Me: YAY
Me: -attempts to fly-
Me: -falls-
Me: .....
Kyiren: O.O
Kyiren: Aw
Me: -tries again by jumping out of window-
Kyiren: Katie go splat
Me: WHEEEE!!!! -falls-
Me: Yesh. xD
Me: Hey look! My food popped off! -pops foot back on like a barbie-
Me: XDDDDD
Kyiren: xDDD
Me: Coffee makes me hyper.
Me:

Kyiren: xD
Me: -bounces around-
Me: -crashes into wall-
Kyiren:

Kyiren: You have a wall fetish too!
Kyiren:

Me: xD
Me:

Me: xD
Me: -lays on floor while laughing hysterically-
Kyiren:

Kyiren: xDDDDDD
Me: XD
Me: -is being stared at oddly by my cat-
Me: <.< W?HATCHA LOOKIN AT?!
Me: -gets tackled-
Kyiren: xD
Kyiren: KITTY!!!!!!
Me: xD Mrow
Kyiren: I just remembered actually have 5 kitties
Me: XDDDDDDD
Kyiren: I call Shane kitty xD
Kyiren: So he's my 5th one
Me: xD Yay
Kyiren: I gave him a pair of cat ears towards the end of the first semester
Me: xD
Kyiren: I've been calling him kitty since
Me: xd Yays!
Me: xD
Me: -holds onto wall- ..........I don't have a wall fetish! -shifty eyes-
Me: >.>.....................<.<
Kyiren: xDDDDD
Kyiren: but but but but!
Kyiren: WE CAN BE WALL FETISH SISTERS!!!!
Me: YAYS!!!!!!!!!!!
Me:

-a few minutes later-

Kyiren: Yuss I shall drink green tea and the will see how silly I can be >:]
Kyiren: they**
Me: xD BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Kyiren: *Fwee standing at the water's edge*
Kyiren: Me: HOMG FWEE WHAT' THAT?!
Kyiren: Fwee: what? Where?
Kyiren: *Shoves*
Kyiren: *SPLASH!8
Me: -whispers to self- Little does she know I spiked the green tea with something that will make her incredibly hyper!!!! -sees you right behind me- "You know I can hear everything you're saying.." -whispers to self again- DAMN!
Kyiren: Me: HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH >8D
Kyiren: xDDDDDDD
Me: xD LMAO
Kyiren: Shane:...........Oh my
Me: Fwee: -dripping wet-
Kyiren: Fwee: What the fuck are you on?!
Kyiren: Me: GrEEN TEA!!!!!
Me: xD SPIKED GREEN TEA
Kyiren: xD
Me: Oops I wasn't suppossed to say that last part
Kyiren: xD

-another few minutes later-

Me: xD
Kyiren: xD
Kyiren: YAY
Me: xd
Me: xD
Me: damn typos
Me: -shoots typos-
Me: -watches them fall dead-
Me: -looks around.......... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx You know what I realised once again..? http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19473694/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/19473694/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 22:15:11 PDT

Just thinking.

Like it's their own damn problem if they don't like me.

If they're too shallow to thnk I'm not pretty enough, or too emotional, or some other utter bullshit like that, then it's their loss.

I'm just so sick of this bullshit.

It's gone on long enough!

I'm not gonna freakin pretend to be happy when I'm not anymore! It's getting old and tiring! I'm also NOT gonna pretend to like something when I obviously don't just so someone will like me. It's total bullshit.

If I'm gonna be friends with someone, they're gonna see the true me. Weither they like it or not.

I'm sick of the mask.

Sick of hiding.

Here I am.

Ready or not.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Character Interview :D http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/18205198/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/18205198/ Tue, 06 May 2008 23:36:57 PDT 2) Make them answer the following questions.
3) Feel free to add some questions of your own.

Chosen Character:
Isabella

Interviewer: Okay and let's get this started!
Isabella: Fine... -is annoyed-ish-

1) What gender are you?
Isabella: .....WHAT DO I FUCKING LOOK LIKE TO YOU?! I'm a girl dumbshit...

2) How old are you?
Isabella: Well, when I died, I was 17. By now I'm 125 years old.

3) What is your profession?
Isabella: I'm a vampire, who also is a witch. But a white witch. In otherwords, healing spells with herbs...god..do I have to explain everything?!

4) Do you have any bad habits?
Isabella: I'm still trying to control my "urges"...

5) How tall are you? Hair color? Eyes?
Isabella: I'm about 5'10". My eye color changes from deep hazel, to emerald green, to deep blue mixed with emerald green, to liquid gold, to silver grey.

6) Do you have any distinguishing marks?
On my arm I have a scar in the shape of a sythe. Damn vampire hunters...

7) Are you a virgin?
Isabella: I was when I died, then well...you can't exactly "live" to be 125 without a little. XD

8) Have you killed anyone?
Isabella:...................Well I'm a vampire. I got hungry...not ANYONE though. Animals...so no people.

9) Do you hate anyone?
Isabella: Yes....for the purpose of them trying to hide from them I won't say who...

10) What is your favorite season, and why?
Isabella: ...Winter. It's the darkest time of year.... -evil grin-

11) Do you have any secrets?
Isabella:......Why should I tell you?

12) Who is/are your best friends?
Isabella: I live alone. I am alone. It's pretty depressing. I want to be able to at least meet one person that I can call a friend..but once people find out the vampire side of me, they all just run away in fear before actually getting to know me...little do they know I'm a healer too. But fine...run off bitch! -cries- I did have a boyfriend, but he disappeared...

13) What are your hobbies?
Isabella: Well, my spells and healing training is a big part of my life. I'm always trying to learn new spells and trying to become a more powerful healer, so I guess you can say that. I'm also on a long quest to find my long lost boyfriend...whom I hope the vampire hunters haven't killed.

14) What is your favorite drink?
Isabella:...........BLOOD! Lol no that's way too stereotypical of me to say. Actually I really do enjoy coffee and hot chocolate. -smiles-

15) When is your birthday?
Isabella: December 1

16) At what age did you die?
I told you, 17.

17) Are you nice or mean?
Isabella: Well, I have very anti-social tendencies. Which makes people think I'm a mean person..but people honestly need to try to get to know me..

18) What do you think of your creator?
Isabella: Well, overall Katie is a really kind person, but I think she can be really weird sometimes. She will say and do THE MOST random, crazy things. But when she's in the mood. Othertimes she can be completely bitter and agressive. She also has a seriously short temper that doesn't show usually, but if you push her over the edge enough, you will actually see it, and that's something NO ONE wants to see. Hmm...some of her hobbies tend to be lazing around on the computer, playing Guitar Hero and other video games (mainly Guitar Hero), fan girling over Avenged Sevenfold and Sweeny Todd, reading manga and watching anime, drawing, singing, and of course, obsessively listening to music. -grins- Al in all though, she's a really sweet, crazy, loving person, IF you take the time to get to know her. But get on her bad side, and you will feel full wrath. She can be an EXTREMELY vengeful person. She also loves Zacky Vengeance, and is weird enough to have an inside joke with her crazy friend Danielle who calls her Zacky, and she calls her Matt. But honestly, try to get to know her, you won't regret it! Oh, and don't piss her off...
Katie: Yeah...better not. You don't want to know... -glares-
Isabella: -nervous laughter- Heh heh....yeah....I found that out the hard way...Sorry! But I was hungry and practically in a trance of hunger and I was with you alone for so long and there was no anim-
Katie:Sorry isn't good enough! You tried to feed off me! -glares-
Isabella: Sorry..... -sad-
Katie: .....Fine...I forgive you....but don't ever do it again!!!
Isabella: I won't! -grins and glomps Katie-
Katie: Ughh... -is on floor-

19) What is your weakness?
Isabella: When my hunger takes over, I get into a bit of a trance for food...just ask my creator...
Katie: Yeah....it's true. BUT, some other weaknesses would be that she can be self conscious, anti-social tendencies, can be... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Ranting... [Friends I'm close to esp Jenna read!] http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17982271/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17982271/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 23:09:24 PDT
Finally summer is coming up.

But I have summer school for 3 weeks...

Gah!

Oh well...

Such is life I suppose...

At least I can rant and be as emotional I need to be to get it out of my system to the people who are willing to listen/help me/be there for me. Aka: My friends. <3

No really.

I swear I really have the best friends anyone can ask for.

They're always there for me and always have my back.

Always listen to my rants...

Won't freak when I end up crying...

Will let me rant and cry and just be there for me and stay up with me as late as it goes until it's out of my system.

Some would take a bullet for me, and I'd do the same for them in a heartbeat.

They know who they are. Although not all of them can read this because like only 4 of them have a deviantart account. XDDD

And those 4 people are...
Jenna
Maryanne
Megan
Kami

Oh well...that's what myspace blogs are for! XD

<33

.....

Jenna! I'm already your shrink...

Will you be my shrink too?!

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Agh. More ranting needed.... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17819148/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17819148/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 18:24:41 PDT
Agh. Probally no one will know what I'm talking about...oh well.

Ugh...I hate my cousins CONSTANTLY pestering me about seeing my dad.

"Oh, he's in that room over there for a Gomidas meeting. My dad is in there too. You should go visit your dad."

"No! NO! I am NOT gonna visit him!"

"But he's your da-"

"NO!!! JUST BUTT OUT OF MY BUSINESS! THIS IS BETWEEN ME AND MY DAD!!!! I SWEAR IF YOU TELL KEEP PESTERING ME...."

"Ok ok....fine. -my other cousings chime in- Calm down....ok ok.... -glares-"

ERG!!!! AS IF MY LIFE ISN'T STRESSFUL ENOUGH!!!! I DON'T NEED THEM FUCKING BREATHING DOWN MY NECK ABOUT THIS TOO!!!

Check out the song, Down With The Sickness by Disturbed. Replace the mommy in the song with a dad and you basically have my past. Also replace the boy part with girl lol. But, in my past there was a little less hitting/threatening to beat me silly than the song puts it to. But not by much....

Here are the lyrics:

(Can you feel that?)
(Oh shit)
Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing ... in me
(Will you give in to me?)

Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes
Oh no, There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon ... in me

Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me
(Will you give in to me?)

It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes
Oh no, the world is a scary place
Now that you've woken up the demon ... in me

Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

And when I dream
And when I dream
And when I dream
And when I dream!!!!
No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me Oh-oohh
Why did you have to hit me like that mommy?
Don't do it! You're hurting me Oh-oohh!
Why did you have to be such a bitch?
Why don't you,
Why don't you fuck off and die?
Why can't you just fuck off and die?
Why can't you just leave here and die?
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
FUCK YOU!!!
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
Would you like to see how it feels mommy?
Here it comes, get ready to die!

Ooh ah ah ah ah!
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up
Come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up
Come on get down with the sickness
Mad-ness has now come over me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

See now why I hate my dad?

Yeah.........

I have anger issues.....

>.<****

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Uggggggg...... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17722936/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17722936/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 21:00:28 PDT
I don't know why but I've been so fucking down lately...

And EVERYTHING just seems to be pissing me off.

But......eh.

Damn those hormones. xDDDDDD

Ugggg....I'll get over it. Just dealing with a lot of shit at the moment...

Whatever...

Just....wish....things would seem to fix up..

Wounds would heal...

Well.....for me not physical..

But for my friend, physical..

He would'nt care if I said what it is here....he made it open.

He's a compulsive cutter who is trying to stop.

Seems after like 3 months of being clean, he caved in again, and well......had to go to the ER and get stitches.

Scared the shit outta me.

His girlfriend, my "sister", was so fucking scared.

I wish...he could just stop....

And of course, it's not complete without the stupid fucking high school drama that everyone can live without.

Oh he likes me, wait he's going out with my friend? That bitch! I'm gonna now talk shit about her behind her back so that it will eventually get back to her and create even more drama.....UGH!

I'm just the side friend that helps my friends deal with that shit...another friend of mine is in that delima....'cept she's the girl that the guy is going out with.... >.<

UGHHH.....I HATE DRAMA!

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Anotha survey..... =P http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17511754/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17511754/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 22:53:28 PDT Hmm....lots of halarious-ness. =]

2) What did you wake up to this morning?
My grandma yelling at me.

3) Who were you with last night?
Maryanne, Meg-man, Jana

4) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
No. Not by a long shot!

5) When is the last time you saw your crush?
I'm not like fully crushing on anyone yet.

6) Who can you tell everything to?
My best friends =] They know who they are.

7) Do you know anyone named Peter?
Yes. Waaa he's graduating! =[

8) Who is your last phone call with?
FUZZ!

10) Last person you talked to in person?
My grandma

11) Last time you cried?
Like....weekend.

12) Why?
Really long story.

13) Have you ever thrown up?
Unfortunately yes......

14) Where was the first kiss you had with the last person you kissed?
Outside Nordstroms.

15) Do you love anyone who's name starts with a V?
I don't KNOW anyone who's name starts with a V. xD

16) Are you happy?
Meh. Getting a bit better.

17) Are you excited about anything?
Yeah. ^^

18) What makes you happy in life?
My friends
Music
Shows/concerts
Life's little pleasures

19) What were you doing at 3 in the morning?
Sleeping

20) Do you have any text messages saved on your phone?
Haha yeah. xD

21) What color shirt are you wearing?
White

22) Are you waiting for anything?
Kind of?

23) Do you enjoy life?
Kind of

28) Have you ever took medicine that wasn't prescribed to you?
Technically. xD

29) Are you surprised about something?
Not at the moment.

30) Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Yeah. Hell I know people that hate me. Do I look like I really give a flying fuck? Not at all!

31) Do you feel bad because someone doesn't like you?
I don't give a flying fuck!

32) In your household who do you fight with the most?
My grandma and my mom

33) Do you like anyone?
Meh. It's hard to say. Kind of.

34) What's the worst thing about hugs?
Choking?

38) What's the most stupid thing you've ever done?
I have a list.........

40) When was the last time you went ice skating?
Long ass fucking time ago.....xD

41) Describe the perfect girlfriend/boyfriend in 1 word:
Well...I don't have one.

44) What was the last thing that really made you smile?
Fuzz. XD

45) Someone trips in front of you-what do you do?
Laugh. Then help them. =]

46) Have you ever failed a class?
Yes

47) A person says they like you-you say:
If I like them, then you, me, go out, now! XD

Nah not like that. But basically with that message. XP

48) Do you like cuddling?
I love it!!

49) Are you close to your parents?
Not a whole lot

50) Do you go hunting?
FUCK NO! HATE IT!

52) What's your favorite sport?
Fencing, swimming. =]

53) Do you like to run?
Fuck no!

54) Do you plan on dressing up for Halloween this year?
Yeah

55) What word starts with M?
Marilyn Manson

56) What favorite day of week?
Saturday

8) Has your favorite color ever been pink or blue?
Yes. Both.

59) Do you believe in true love?
Yep

60) How many hoodies do you own?
Like....2.

61) Hows your heart?
My heart has patches on it. It's like...at this point decaying. But some-what healing.

62) Does the person you like, like you back?
Dunno.

63) Where'd you get the shirt you're wearing?
Hot Topic. xP

64) What time did you go to bed last night?
Like...12?

65) Are you cocky?
Don't think so.

66) Do you make your bed daily?
Meh....not always. XD

67) Have you ever put a question mark at the end of every sentence?
No

68) Do you own slippers?
Yep

69) Is there a TV i... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Awh! This is really cute. xD http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17309123/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17309123/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 22:02:14 PDT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.... I dont
care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.....just read this, it will
make a difference.....

...if only everyone could see this and understand it....

When she stares at your mouth

[ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger
than you

[ Grab her and dont let go ]

When she starts cursing at you tryin to act all tuff

[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she's quiet

[ Ask her whats wrong ]

When she ignores you

[ Give her your attention ]

When she pulls away

[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst

[Tell her she's beautiful]

When you see her start crying

[Just hold her and dont say a word]

When you see her walking

[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]

When she's scared

[ Protect her ]

When she steals your favorite hat

[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she teases you

[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn't answer for a long time

[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt

[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you

[SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN YOU COULD UNDERSTAND!!!]

when she asks u if you like her

[its because she doesnt want to lose you]

When she grabs at your hands

[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you

[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes

[ dont look away until she does ]

When she says it's over

[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she reposts this bulletin

[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's
stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:

"Whose ass am I kicking baby?"

Guys post as: "I'd be this Boyfriend."
Girls post as: "A real Boyfriend." and if u do not re-post this
within 3 minute you'll have bad luck with the person u love...

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Gah... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17278520/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17278520/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 20:56:32 PDT

Honestly, is this karma or something?

No matter what I do.

Always bashed.

Always screamed at.

Always being told I'm wrong.

If I can't find something, and someone else finds it, I'm automatically bashed for not finding it.

I'm a defensive person. It's in my nature.

So why bash?

What's the point?

Eghh....just needed to rant.

Can't stop listening to Darkness by Disturbed.

When I get into these moods, I constantly listen to Darkness, and Stand in the Rain by Superchick.

Read the lyrics and you'll know why.

I'm pissed, hurt, and just......sad.

That's all.

No one's fault.

Just too much shit at home. I guess that's the fault?

Whatever...

So sick of the fake smiles.

So sick of crying.

So sick of acting happy when I'm honestly not.

So much shit.

I wish it would end.

There's very few times when I'm actually happy and it's not fake.

Usually, it's when I'm with him.

He's one of the very few people I will honestly be happy around and I would'nt be faking it.

Him, and a few close friends. Like half of which don't even go to my school. -_______-

Whatever...I'm used to it.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Blah...survey time AGAIN. http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17140913/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17140913/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 22:59:21 PDT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1. Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
Meh...I don't really have those feelings much for anyone at the moment. Kinda like this one guy, but not like that, that much yet.

2. What are you doing friday night?
Hmmmm no clue. xD

3. Name what you did yesterday?
Hannah came over and we swam. <3 XD

4. Last person you text messaged?
Jana lol

5. Who was the last person to call you?
Hannah

6. What are you doing right now?
Just this survey.

7. What color are your eyes?
Changes color from hazel to dark brown. Depending on a mix of my mood, energy level, and clothing I'm wearing. xD

8. Do you like anyone?
MEh.

9. Favorite Flower?
Rose!!!!!!!! <33333333

10. Who is the last person to message you?
Skylar

11. What color is your hair?
Dark brown

12. When was the last time you cried?
Weekend

13. Did you have a nap today?
Not really no.

14. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
Jeans

15. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Hot Topic

16. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
No.

17. Have any regrets?
Shall I make a fucking list?

18. Where were you one hour ago?
Living room

19. Where were you eight hours ago?
home?

20. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend?
M'hmm.

21. Is cheating ever okay?
NEVER EVER EVER EVER!

22. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Mon mere.

23. What are you looking forward to?
SUMMER BREAKKKK!!!!

24. Do you want to kill someone right now?
Yessss. BIG TIME.

25. What radio station do you listen to?
Pandora lol

26. What are you listening to?
Avenged Sevenfold. 'Nuff said.

27. What do most people call you?
Lets see...Kathleen, Katie, Kat, Kate, Kathy, Katie Grr Muffin, Katie Muffin, Little Muffy, Zacky, Teya, Katie Cricket, Lily (newly added), yeah.....xD

28. What time did you wake up today?
Like...7 am. =]

29. How do you want to die?
I don't really like thinking about that thank you very much....

30. Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
Yeah....

31. How often do you go to church?
Rarely.

32. Do you have a secret right now
'Cha.

33. If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to vent to?
Hannah, Danielle, Jenna, Ryan, Fuzz, Megan...anyone WILLING to listen and not give me crap over it.

I rant a lot. xD

34. Do you like to cuddle?
God yesssssssssssssss

35. Are you confident?
At times....

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Kay, survey time. xD AGAIN. http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17033825/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17033825/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 10:25:09 PDT Yeah I don't see why not. ^^

2. What color are your eyes?
Hazel to dark brown. It changes either based on what I wear, makeup, my mood, or a combination of the two. xD

3. Who was the first person that you texted this morning?
Hannah

4.Do you have a best friend?
Yeah. I have several and I love them all to death! <3333

5. What is one thing you say a lot?
I want (Danielle) Matt and (real) Zacky in my pants. XDD (Inside joke)

6. Where is your ex right now?
Don't know.

7. Are you married?
No

8. Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them?
Yes...

9. Is there anyone that doesn't like you because of something you didn't do?
Er, I don't know.

10. Do you miss someone?
Yess!

11. Did any of your friends go out with any of your ex's?
Nope.

12. Do you have a cell phone?
Yep. It's crap. Gonna get a new one soon.

13. Are looks important?
Not really. Usually a bonus for me. But...hot emo guy...lip ring....-drool- -gets bucket for drool- -bucket overflows- XDDD

It's really what's on the inside that matters. =]

14. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Band tee, jeans.

15. Are you mad at someone right now?
Kinda....not as much as before...but yeah. And then other people that I hate, it's a constant mad.

16. Are you taking anyone for granted?
Nope.

17. What are you listening to?
Indestructible ~Disturbed

18. Kissed in the rain?
Nope.

20. What is your hair color?
Dark brown and never been dyed. xD

21. How did you wake up this morning?
Woke up on my own at like 10.

22. Which is more romantic to you: sunrise or sunset?
Sunset by far. <3

23. What was the highlight of your day?
Julio's Man Thongs (Inside joke)

24. Would you die for anyone?
Yesss. But I'd also live for people too. <333

25. What's the last bone you broke?
Technically if you count breaking bones including fingers and toes, my finger in 6th grade.

Hurt like a bitch..but it straightened it. xD Used to be slightly crooked. VERY slightly.

26. How many different letters are in your last name?
6.

28. What book did you read last?
Eclipse

29. How was your day?
So far boring.

30. When is your birthday?
August 10

31. Are you scared of spiders?
Nah. Not really. xD

Just don't like them.

I don't think I can honestly be scared of spiders after I volentarily held a tarantula and let it crawl onto my face. xDDDDDD

32. Are you wearing any jewelry?
Necklace

33. What mood are you in?
Meh. Tired, throat hurts...basically not a good mood.

34. What do you think of Fergie?
Ewwwwwwwwwwwwww......

35. Do you believe in a thing called love?
Yes

36. What is your current favorite song?
Can't name them all. <3333

37. How is your heart?
Stabbed..dying. But's a weird stab. Not a killing one. One that needs to heal...

39. What do you know about the future?
Some parties coming up. =]

40. Do you Love your car?
My dirty dirty cracked window car. Sure. XD

Even though I can't drive it yet. xD

41. Do you only drink bottled water?
No. o.O

42. Are you happier single or with a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Well.....it was stressful being in one for me, then really depressing and lonely being out of one...so you know. Lose lose situation. Just need to find the right guy...

43. Do you believe that everyone deserves a second chance?
Not always.

45. Most hated food?
Bakla (fava beans), Ishkembe (You don't even WANT to know what's in the soup. It would make you gag)

46. What are you doing tomorrow?
Finals....EW.

47. Do you wish "someone" would call you?
Don't have "someone".

48. Are you single or taken? If taken, with who?
Single.

49. Whats your favorite movie?
Haha I have no idea. I love so many.

50. What's something you wish you could understand better?
People in general. People confuse me sometimes...

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx OMGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!! <33333333 http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17033660/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/17033660/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 22:55:21 PST
So guess what?

My friend introduced me to this AMAZING online radio called pandora.com

IT'S FREAKING AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Literally. It's COMPLETELY free, and SO easy to use!

Just type in any artist or song you like, it will play that artist, and artists similar to it!

I've been introduced to so much! I love music. <333

My passion, life.

Basically I'm your typical girl who lives and breathes music. Need to listen or sing EVERY day or I will go insane. xD

Too late.

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! -ahem-

Oh, and that same friend introduced me to this program to download music. It's basically like a safe limewire, but different.

It takes the music from the site. Basically with this program, if you can listen or watch it, you can grab it. xD

It's called Orbit.

To download it go to endlesslovers.tk and download it from there.

It's my friend's page.

Orbit is tricky to use at first, but once you get the hang of it, it's super easy.

You can only use Orbit with Internet Explorer or Firefox.

Personally, I use pandora and have orbit open at the same time.

That's how I get the music.

So far I've gotten over 80 songs! ^^

If you have any questions using Orbit, ask me. ^^

I felt like spreading my new discovery. xD

Enjoy! ^^

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Yes. Boredom strikes again and another survey has http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16798856/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16798856/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 10:54:05 PST Kathleen

What was the date your mom popped you out?
8/10/92

What's your favorite band?:
I have a few favorites =]

Avenged Sevenfold is WAYYY up there though <3333

Do you like to give high fives?:
Haha yeah.

Who do you want to win the presidential election?:
Either Hillary or Obama.

No more republican presidents for a while please... -___-

Do you think crack is wack?:
Haha it's definitely not good for you. XD

Do you watch the show Rob and Big?
No

Have you seen the chocolate rain video?:
Nope

Do you believe in god?:
Yeah.

Just not really religious...

But I don't mind discussing religion.

I'm weird like that. XD

What are your fears?:
Clowns, needles, people I love dying, etc.....

Do you like screamo music?:
Some is ok.

If you could would you ever go to outer space?:
Yeah

Do you like The Used?:
I hate them so much...

What was the last song you heard?:
Black Magic Woman ~Santana

When you are walking alone outside in the dark do you
ever think that someone is going to come and kidnap
you in one of those rapist vans and then take you to
some kind of warehouse and then kill you and chop you
up into little pieces and put you in their freezer?:
Haha no. XD

Are you sad Heath Ledger died?:
A bit =[

Who's better Batman or Spiderman?:
Dunno.

Do you get annoyed easily?:
Sometimes.

Is there somebody in your life that you could not
survive without?
Yeah.

Who is the most beautifulest person you know?
A few people =]

Who in your life has hurt you the most?
You know...a lot of people have hurt me in my past. Probally my dad though...

Is there someone you know you should hate, but you
can't?
Hmm..no.

Do you like someone as more than a friend right now?
Yessus =]

What is the 8th text in your inbox?
Lol I dunno.

Have you ever lost anybody close to you?
Yes. =[

Is there anyone you trust even though you should not?
Don't think so.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?
Somewhat.

Relationship or Hook-Up?
Relatioinship

Few close friends or many acquaintances?
Few close friends

Ever had your heart broken?
Yeah.

Ever broken somebody elseÂ¹s?
Doubt it...

Ever love someone that wasnÂ¹t good for you?
Yeah. Not love...but...yeah.

How's your heart lately?
My heart is currently slowly healing =]

The last song you listened to?
Stricken ~Disturbed

What did you do yesterday?
School and then Jana slept over XD

Who is your most religious friend?
Jana XD

Who do you trust with your life?
I have a list..

If you could change your name to anything what would
it be?
Nothing. I like my name. ^^

What do you hate about your Job?
I don't work yet..=[

Would you move to another country to be with the one
you love?
=/

Not sure.

Name two things you would not tolerate in a
relationship?
Cheating and lying.

Which one of your friends do you think would make a
good prostitute?
XDDDDDDDDDD

I could have totally said something right now as a joke, but I won't. XDDD

Are you afraid of falling in love?
Ehhh.....not really.

Would you stop talking to your friends because you
hooked up with a new person?
No.

But I would'nt hook up with a new person. I gots one now...and it ain't no hookup! XD

Hows you hair?
Straight.

What are you wearing right now?
Jeans and a funny t-shirt XD

Righty or Lefty?
Both. But I write mainly with my left hand. XD

Favorite juice?
Pomegranate

Have you had the chicken pox?
Nope

Have you had a sore throat?
Yeah

Ever been to California?
I live there. XDDD

What are your plans for the weekend?
I'm not sure. Everything is up in the air. XD

Are you a forgiving person?
Yeah. Sometimes too forgiving.... =[

Are you talking to someone while doing this?
Yeah.

What school plays were you part of in primary school?
Just one.

Are you younger than 20?
Yeah

Have you ever kissed someone who's name starts with a
J?
...Yeah.

Do you have a crush on someone?
XD

Yeah. I'd be... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Another survey...XD http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16713769/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16713769/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 19:43:23 PST ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
14 LOVE ?????????'S
Body: If you opened it, you have to do it.
or a loved 1 will be in an accident.

1. Two Names You Go By:
A) Kathleen
B) Katie

2. Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
A) Jeans
B) T-shirt
C) Necklace

*You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!*

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?
Yup. <3

02] Have you ever been given a rose?
Yep.

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
Holiday probally. I'm really not sure...XD

[04] Which is better, hugs or kisses?
I love them both, but I think I like kisses more. <3

05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
Yeah.

[06]Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes..many times.

[07] Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?
Hmm...I have my little thing about them...but after seeing Connor and Hannah, and Danny and Elizabeth, yeah...I dunno. It could work...

[09] How many kids do you want to have?
2 maybe. Lol.

[10] What is/are your favorite color?
Black, dark red, blue, purple, sea-green. =]

[11] Do you believe you truly only love once?
Nope.

12. Where did 12 go?
Eloped to Vegas! XD

[13] What song do u want to be played at your wedding?
I have no clue. XD

[14] Do you love anyone?
Love someone, yes. IN love, no. That's a term I DO NOT use loosely..

I'll make it very clear when I'm IN LOVE...XD

Now post this as 14 love questions
How about no.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx 'Kay, rant time... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16683373/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16683373/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 23:56:38 PST
Good things have happened to me lately.

He knows who he is. =]

But...

My luck can never be fully good can it?

Finally my luck actually changes for once and someONE really good came, but...

My best friend in the whole freaking world, my twin, my "sister", etc.

Just moved states.

She just moved all the way to Tuson, Arizona.

I remember when she first told me that she was moving. It was a threat for awhile and she wasn't sure where...then...suddenly in December, she told me that she was moving in about a month or two.

Honestly, I was in such a shock and disbelief that...I went basically numb. I honestly didn't feel like she was actually gonna leave.

Then....she did. I was sobbing constantly. Just the mention of her would make me cry.

And...I refuse to lose touch with her for the rest of my life. <3

I owe this girl everything. My life.

I will fly out on every given chance I get to Tuson.

And she will come too. (Besides she has to anyways because her mom still lives here lol)

Ugh. I just....hate this.

I'll probally be really depressed....well more than usual for awhile.

At least until I adjust...

Ugh..I just wish....things would stay the same.

I miss her so much. Like I can't even describe it...

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx 44 Things a girl *loves* http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16648432/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16648432/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 17:54:36 PST
Girls actually really do love this, even though they might deny some of it.

Well at least I do. X3
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1-touch their waist

2-talk to them

3-share secrets

4-give her your jacket

5-kiss them slowly

6-hug them

7-hold her

8-laugh with her

9-invite her somewhere

10-let her be with you when your with your friends

11-smile with her

12-take pics with her

13-pull her onto your lap

14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back...

15-when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight
back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved

16-always hug her and say i love you when you see her

17-kiss her unexpectedly

18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST!****

19-tell her she is beautiful not sexy!

20-tell her the way you feel about her!

21-kiss her on the lips

22-DONT ask her to buy you stuff. you buy HER stuff

23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD

24-make her feel loved

25-buy them stuff. like small things can still help

26-don't lie to her

27-dont cheat on her

28-take her anywhere she wants

29-txt messege her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school/work, and how much you miss her

30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even though she doesn't need you just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you

31. Hold her close when she's cold and she can hold you too.

32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the tip of her nose; (it will give her the hint that
you want to kiss them).

34. While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. When she complains that her neck/shoulders hurts massage it for her.

36. When people diss her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.

38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.

39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.

40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible

41. call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.

42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

43. Take her for long walks at night.

44. Always Remind her how much you love her.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx I'm in love with... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16559382/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16559382/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 01:27:17 PST

They're AMAZING!

Honestly, they're pretty different from what you normally find.

They're a Finnish band also. But their songs are in English...

Some songs are slow, some are faster.

All are amazing.

Their lyrics are very deep too.

Instrumentals are amazing.

Vocals in my opinion are breathtakingly beautiful.

I miss Tarja though. I wish they didn't kick her out. =[

Don't get me wrong. I like Annette's voice too, but Tarja is better.

I COMPLETELY regret not going to see them at the House of Blues when I had the chance. Even if Tarja wasn't gonna be performing in that one due to the fact that she left in about 2005? and this concert was last November. =[

GAH.

Basically......yeah.

Nightwish is amazing. Check them out!

A list of songs to check out. (If anyone listens to Nightwish and knows any songs that isn't on the list, PLEASE tell me!)

Wishmaster
Amaranth
Sleeping Sun
Wish I had An Angel
Over The Hills and Far Away (Cover)
Planet Hell
Nemo
Bye Bye Beautiful
Gethsemane
End Of All Hope
Bless The Child
Dark Chest Of Wonders

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Expert level... http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16495530/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16495530/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 19:13:53 PST
XD

Oh Guitar Hero 3.

Yeah I'm obsessed...

But hey. So far I'm almost to Raining Blood on expert. X3

I'm at Cult Of Personality now. GAH....

I literally get stuck, same spot.

75% in the song.

>.<

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Written by a guy http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16492852/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16492852/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 15:51:00 PST ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
written by a guy...
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls >OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in.
let us pay for you!
dont "feel bad"
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say "thank you."
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not what you are.
honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my
tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"
i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
on the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )
Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change. ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "i love you" ..and actually mean it.
Give the nice guys a chance
Guys repost this if you agree
Girls repost this if you think it's cute
Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this

*Holdin Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of
times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.
*Cuddling
Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.
*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.
*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her
too... And mean it.
*Laying below the stars
Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

By 12 am tonight your one true love will realize how much they want you.

Girls repost as: Written by a guy...
Guys post as: Girls need to realize...

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Quiz! Cause I wanna... XD http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16439728/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16439728/ Wed, 16 Jan 2008 22:50:50 PST Single or taken: Single.
Gender: Girl.
Birthday: August 10, 1992
Sign: LEO!
Hair color: Dark brown.
Eye color: It changes from dark brown to hazel. Currently hazel.
Height: 5'7"-5'8" =]
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight. =]

-----------Â Ã Â F A S H I O N | S T U F F Â Ã Â--------------

Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes?: Torrid and Hot Topic ^^
favorite designer?: Dunno...
What is your sexiest outfit?: o.O No clue..I guess when I wear a cami only as a top in the summer...
What is your most comfortable outfit?: Hmm...probally pj's XD
What do you usually wear?: Umm...jeans and either a band tee or another t shirt xD

--------------Â Ã Â S P E C I F I C S Â Ã Â -------------------

What kind of shampoo do you use?: Dove
What are you listening to right now?: Hannah's soulll!!! XD It's very loud.
Who is the last person that called you?: .......No clue. xD
How many buddies are online right now?: None. XD
-------------Â Ã Â F A V O R I T E S Â Ã Â-----------------

Foods: Mediterranean, calamari, Italian, Asian, Mexican, "comfort" foods...and other stuff. XD
Girls names: Uhh..I dunno.
Boys names: Again as above.
Subjects in school: Theatre, French, occasionally Choir when Mosely isn't being a jerk...
Animals: Wolf <33333

----------------Â Ã Â H A V E | Y O U | E V E R Â Ã Â-------------

Given anyone a bath?: Two of my cousins when they were about 2 years old. XD
Smoked?: Nope.
Bungee jumped?: Nope.
Made yourself throw up?: o.o NO! It's like a fear of mine to throw up...not sure why...
Skinny dipped?: ...Only in my bath tub! XDDDD
Ever been in love?: I'm not sure...
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: Nope.
Pictured your crush naked?: HAHAHAHA....XDDDDD
Actually seen your crush naked?: XDDDDD No.
Cried when someone died?: Who would'nt? So YES. A LOT!
Lied: Who hasn't?
Fallen for your best friend?: Yes. =[
Rejected someone?: Yeah.
Used someone?: =O That's against my morals...
Done something you regret?: Yes. Many somethings...

------------Â Ã Â C U R R E N T Â Ã Â---------------

Clothes: Pj's.
Music: Avenged Sevenfold. <3
Smell: My cat. XDDDD
CD in player: Avenged Sevenfold self titled album (Latest cd)
DVD in player: Final Destination 3 XD
Currently doing: This quiz dumbass.

----------------Â Ã Â L A S T | P E R S O N Â Ã Â----------------------

You touched: My mom?
Hugged: MATT! XD (Danielle...it's an inside joke)
You IMed: Hannah?
You yelled at: My mom.
You kissed: My cat. X3 She's SO CUTE!

---------------Â Ã Â A R E | Y O U Â Ã Â---------------------

Understanding: Yes
Open-minded: Yeah.
Arrogant: No, arrogance bugs the shit outta me. D:<
Insecure: Sometimes...
Random: What the fu- COW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hungry: Yes.
Smart: I thinks so. Uhm...doesn't the square root of 64 equal cow?
Moody: MAYBE! WHAT'S IT TO YOU?!?!?!
YOU TRYING TO TELL ME IM MOODY? (XDDD For people who think Im serious, I'm not...me no no moody...often XD)
Hard Working: Sometimes.
Organized: THATS A GOOD ONE. HAHAHAHA
Healthy: Hahaha good one again...
Shy: Sometimes..
Difficult: I don't think so...sell..I guess I can be sometimes...but I'm a complex person!
Obsessed: Avenged Sevenfold, music in general, animals, anime/manga, VIDEO GAMES...etc.
Angry: I don't often show it....I tend to hold it in then vent when I get home.
Sad: Well...................................hard to explain. Ask me about it then I will.
Happy: When I'm with my friends. ^^
Hyper: -bounce-
Trusting: Yeah. I keep secrets no matter what. ^^

---------Â Ã Â W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A Â Ã Â--------

Kill?: Certain people....
Get high with: I'm not too crazy about even getting high...
Talk to offline: My cat. XDDDD
Talk to online: My friends
Sex it up with: Hahahaha good one...yeah right. I only joke like that with certain friends...JOKE ONLY! XD

------------------Â Ã Â R A N D O M Â Ã Â---------------------

In the morning I: Wake up at 6 freaking am. STUPID 0 PERIOD!
Love is: The queen bitch to me at the moment.
I dream of: Nothing...I rarely dream..and when I do, I swear they're like acid tripped XD
What do you notice first in the gender you're in to?: Personality, eyes.

---------------Â Ã Â W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R Â Ã ---------------

Coke or Pepsi: Coke
Flowers or candy: Flowers..perferrably a rose..my FAVORITE flower <3
Tall or short: Tall.

---------------Â... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx This is what happens when I get bored/can't s http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16425268/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/16425268/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 23:12:17 PST
Nicknames: Katie, Kate, Kat, Poodle (Damnit Fuzz!), Teya (Long time ago Aoife called me that..), Zacky, Kathy (Ugh...I don't really care for that one...), and more..XD

Age: 15

Location: My room.... >.>

Gender: Bo-

-checks-

Girl.

Height: Hmm..'bout 5'7" to 5'8". =]

Weight: Psh...you think I'd tell? XD

Favorite food: Asian, Mediterranean, Mexican, "Comfort" food, calamari XD, Italian, and more..

Favorite colors: Black, deep red, blue, purple

Favorite book: I have a lot....Harry Potter series, Impulse, Speak, the shit load of manga that I read....the list goes on! XD

Favorite video game: GUITAR HEROS! <3333333333 And probally rock band too once I actually play it. XD

Favorite computer games: Hmm...dunno really. I rarely play computer games XD

Favorite past time: Listen to music, sing, draw, computer, talk to friends, play video games, etc...I'm pretty laid back lol.

What I'm doing now: This survey XD

Additional: I can bend my fingers and toes backwards, do a Stitch voice, can probally kick your ass in Guitar Heros (Hahaha only maybe XD), wears glasses since 4th grade..ugh, almost died so many times I've lost count, have a permanant dent in my right leg due to some stupid skateboarding accident because I can't skateboard for shit XD, and...more...just too lazy to type. XD

Oh, and I've gotten run over by a bike before, left tire marks on me and ripped off my skin..fun. >.>/////

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx I'm so bored so here! XD http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/15800754/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/15800754/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 22:42:46 PST
1) Full Name: Kathleen
2) Male/Female: Last I checked I was a girl. XD
3) Were you named after anyone?: Nope
4) Does your name mean anything?: Tis Irish and means dear to my heart.
5) Nick Name(s):
Katie
Kate
Kat
Poodle (what Maryanne calls me)
Katie Grr Muffin (Again from Maryanne)
Zacky V (Haha Danielle)
6) What do you think you look like..name wise?: Huh?
7) Date Of Birth: August 10, 1992
8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Woodland Hills, and I'm in Calabasas
9) Nationality: ARMENIAN!
10) Astrology Sign: LEO!!!
11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Monkey!
12) Religion: Eastern Orthodox(Christian, although that branch is conservative and I'm hella not conservative! I actually have a lot of athiest tendencies on the way I act)
13) Whats your favorite smell?: The ocean, vanilla, ROSES, morning breeze, baked cookies
14) Political Position?: Complete liberal and democrat
15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Cafe O Le. <3
16) Hair + Eye color: Dark brown, currently hazel.
17) Do you look like anyone famous?: Nope
18) What do you look like?: That girl who is constantly singing, drawing, or reading instead of paying attention, or a metal head as some people have called me before o.O
19) Any unusual talents?: I can bend my fingers and toes backwards.
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Usually lefty, but ambidexterous.
21) Straight, Bi, Gay or Other?: I'm straight, but I fully support gay pride, rights, and marriage. Plus I believe everyone is a little gay, except homophobes, and the most hated family in America. If you don't know who I'm talking about, watch the BBC news clip on youtube about it.
22) What do you do for a living?: Student, but I want to become a musician/vocalist, artist, therapist...
23) What do you do for fun?: Music, sing, talk on the phone, swim, hang out with my peeps, draw, computer, theatre stuff like that.
24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: Pencil, photoshop(even though I don't have it...), prismacolor markers(again I don't have it, Kastia does), sharpies to ink in, colored pencils....
25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: Charcoal, pastels....
26) Have you met your grandparents?: Yes, I live with the ones on my mom's side along with my mom, and I visit my other ones rarely. They live about 30 minutes away...
27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: None. =[
28) Crush: Someone... -blush-
29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: Johnny Depp if he was younger(DAMNIT).
30) Current worries?: Where do I start.....I worry A LOT.
I found a white hair once from all this stress. >.<
31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): My friends who are awsome to me online and my friends in real life who I also talk to online.
32) Favorite place to be?: Beach, anywhere with the people I love.
33) Least favorite place to be?: Stuck in a place where I hate everyone...
34) Do you burn or tan?: Both.
35) Ever break a bone?: Yup, I fractured my pinky toe and broke my pinky finger.
36) What is your favorite cereal?: Coco puffs if I want something junky, and granola cereal for something healthier.
37) Person you cry with: My closest friends and my cousins.

Do You Have...
38) Any sisters: Only child
39) Any brothers: Only child
40) Any pets: 2 cats, Kenji and Katie. I used to have two betas but they committed suicide =[
41) An Illness: If moderate depression counts as an illness then yeah that.
42) A Pager: Haha no.
43) A Personal phone line: Yeah, cell phone.
44) A Cell phone: Yup.
45) A visible birthmark: Nope
46) A Pool or hot tub: I have a pool and a jacuzzi on my street....
47) A Car: Pfft..I wish..I want a Mustang.... :[

Describe Your...
48) Personality: Crazy, Kind, shy around new people, around people I know I don't shutup, right Kastia?
49) Driving: I'd probally be a good driver...
50) Your clothing style: Band tees, jeans, rocker style at times, laid back too, sometimes colorul, sometimes a lot of black, unique, yeah. ^^
51) Room: A lot of posters, a lot of cds...mostly burned ones, jewelry boxes, lotsa pillows on my bead....yeah.

52) WhatÂs missing: My....SOUL!!!! Hahaha jk, but probally it would be......the feeling of being TRUELY and not temporaily happy for something. I haven't felt it for a very long time...
53) School: It's ok. My friends=LOVE.
54) Bed: Lotsa pillows!
55) Relationship with your parent(s): My mom is good, I don't speak to my dad anymore.
56) Do You believe in yourself: Yeah, but I have my self doubt moments.
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?... ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Homophobia http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/15800577/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/15800577/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 22:21:39 PST Homophobia and You: They're people too! Stop the hate and spread the love!

*I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

*I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

*I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

*We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

*I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

*I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

*I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

*I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

*We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

*I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

*I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

*I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

*I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

*I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

*I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

*I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

*I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

*I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

*I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

*I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Muhuhahahaha!!! So bored. http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/13584626/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/13584626/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 21:33:05 PDT
And I'm extremely bored at the moment.....so..............................PUDDING!!!

I'm so slap-happy from my cough medicine, being sick, and tired als hell. >.<

A
[ ] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[ ] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[x] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking.
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[ ] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[ ] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightening.
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[ ] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[ ] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[ ] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.

B
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[ ] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[ ] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[ ] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed publicly.
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks.
[ ] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[X So creepy...] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers. [Hahaha, well I would'nt exactly be on one if I had it...]
[ ] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[ ] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[ ] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[ ] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[ ] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[ ] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[ ] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers. [Hahaha, an MCR song....]
[ ] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

G
[ ] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[ ] Genuphobia - Fear of knees. [WTF?]
[ ] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
[ ] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[ ] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[ ] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[ ] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[ ] Hydrophobia - Fear of water. [Oh yeah, with that fear you're so gonna be healthy...]
[ ] Hexakosioihexakontahexaphobia - fear of the number 666

I
[ ] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[ ] Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

K
[ ] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[ ] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[x] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[ ] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

M
[ ] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[ ] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[ ] Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[ ] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.

N
[ ] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
[ ] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night.
[>] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.[Well....kind of, but not really]

O
[ ] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.
[ ] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[ ] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[ ] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[ ] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.

P
[ ] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper. (WTF?!)
[ ] Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[ ] Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[ ] Philophobia - Fear of love.
[ ] Phobophobia - Fear of being afraid. [HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! Phobophobe]
[ ] Podophobia - Fear of feet. [Hahaha]
[ ] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple.
[ ] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[ ] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

S
[ ] Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[ ] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[ ] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[ ] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

T
[ ] Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[ ] Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[ ] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[ ] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections.

V-Z
[ ] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[ ] Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[ ] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[ ] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers or foreigners.
[ ] Zoophobia - Fear of animals. ]]> ~xfallingxsnowx This random stuff. :] http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/12736480/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/12736480/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 21:36:14 PDT CAUSE HE/SHE RAWKS!

1. Do you like animals?

Yes, a whole lot! Everytime I see a hurt animal on the sidewalk, 'I take it to the wildlife vet. I originally wanted to be a veteranian, but I'm extremely squeemish, making me faint if I ever have to operate...don't want that to happen do we? Lol.

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Yes, but I knew them first in real life...does that count?

3. Are you athletic?

Haha, I wish. I'm an okay swimmer though. :]

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:

I'm built naturally curvy because I have wide hips, but since I'm overweight right now....eeeehhh....

5. How much do you weigh?
You think I'd actually tell? First I'd like to know myself. XD

6. What's your height?
5'7"
-5-8"
7. Shoe size?
10-11

8. Girls - are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
I'm myself. I'm basically it all. I have my moments of them all. Sometimes I go through my skirt phase, and sometimes I go through my jock phase, and sometimes I go through my "I NEED TO PUNCH SOMETHING" phase..although that last one doesn't really come up too often. Lol. XD

10. How old are you?
I'm 14 righty-o. But I shall be 15 in August.

11. When is your birthday?
8/10/92 :]

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
Seriously..who doesnt?

13. Are you sociable?
Depends, if I'm around a new crowd, I'm pretty quiet, but if I'm with my friends, I talk a lot.

14. Do you have many friends?
Yup ^^ *huggles them all*

15. What's your race?

I'm fully ARMENIAN! ^^

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
Yar, a lot of people hate the phone or call it evil, I personally talk on the phone...a lot. XD

17. Are you single or taken?
Single and going...Eeeeehh......I'm not desperate, nor do I need a guy to make me happy. But like my mom told me once, "It sure makes things nicer.."

18. Do you eat meat?
Yeah, but I'm thinking of becoming a semi-veg, like Kastia. :]

19. Are you paranoid?

Not really.

20. Do you read a lot?

OMG!! I'm such a bookworm.

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?

I listen to just about everything. I've been called retro for listening to Janis Joplin. Lol. Mostly I listen to is metal, hard rock, some death metal, some oldies, punk rock, classic rock, some soft rock...basically everything. Except mariachi bands. I really REALLY don't like the sound of mariachi bands. XD

22. Do you play any instruments?
Yup! ^^ I play violin for about 7 years now!

23. How long have you been drawing?
Since I could hold a pencil.

24. What's the meaning of life?
HUGS!!!!!

25. Now tag five of your friends! They MUST take this quiz and post it in their journal.

]]> ~xfallingxsnowx Ooers, first entry!!! http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/12450401/ http://xfallingxsnowx.deviantart.com/journal/12450401/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 22:01:48 PDT

Shocking isn't it?!

Basically.....it's been...BLAH.

I got sick....ick. Plus a performance tomorrow, it's singing...

AHHHHH!!!!!

I got the sudden urge to......

DOODLE!!!!

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