deviantART: by:xomerlinsgfxo http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xomerlinsgfxo&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xomerlinsgfxo en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 14:18:38 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png ayeeeeee http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/28695736/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/28695736/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 17:14:16 PST
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I don't care if you have/are a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.

I don't care if you are a guy or a woman

Just read this, it will make a difference.

If only everyone could see this and understand it.


When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummie cause she thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and dont let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Stay away

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking*
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind*

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

**and when she says something and she doesnt mean it
forgive her and know she loves you more than anything in the world

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stu... ]]> =xomerlinsgfxo my horse is rare!! and other stuff too http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/25894982/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/25894982/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 08:25:58 PDT
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....my horse is really rare.

he's a bucksin dun, which is a really rare color, apparently.

hes buckskin, a golden color with black points, but he also has a dorsal stripe, zebra stripes on his forearms and the tops of his thighs, and has white frosting in his mane. and apparently this is rare.
hooray.

btw....ive been pretty fucking absent. and i WILL do something eventually. :)


kinda can see the mane in the first one when you download it, and can kinda see his dorsal stripe in the last one.
eeeeeeeeeeeee

CSS made by =BloodPromiser ]]> =xomerlinsgfxo wow http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/24333062/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/24333062/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 19:51:08 PDT havent done this in a while haha.
i have like 3 pictures i'm working on at the same time. one of a horsie, one of my friend, and one of a drunk pirate. so thats all good.

my throat hurts. thats not good. both my sister and dad have strep and i shared soda with my friend who prolly has it.
so im betting on i have it.

everything else is fine. there's a lotta shit going on, but there usually is, isnt there?
i havent posted anything, i need to finish something quickkkkkk.

cam i love you and miss you and we havent talked in forever, i gotta get my ass on msn real soon.
kan i write on your wall like constantly and i miss you and love you. :)

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Alright guys I need your Help http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/23346937/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/23346937/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 15:49:00 PST



So I really need you guys right now.

My parents are stressing on me to get a job, and that's something I really can't handle at this point in time. But if I can get money from SOMEWHERE besides the babysitting that I'm already doing, then I'll be all good. So this is my last option, COMMISSIONS.


I'll be offering them now, and I'm just begging for you guys to buy some. I'm trying to keep the prices low, and if you guys could spare the expense it would be amaaaaazing.
So here's prices [all in USD]:

DIGITAL
Sketch- $3
Lineart-$5
Flat Color-$7
Shaded, No Background-$8
Simple Background-$10
Full Detailed Drawing-$20
Every Extra Character-$2

TRADITIONAL
Sketch- $1
Lineart-$3
Flat Color-$5
Shaded, No Background-$7
Simple Background-$9
Full Detailed Drawing-$10
Every Extra Character-$1

Payment can go through Paypal. Payment can be through mail for trusted friends. :]
For digital works you will get the high-resolution image emailed to you, or sent in some other fashion. For traditional ones you will be mailed. :]

Note me for more information. :] I'll draw most anything. :D

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo doomed pictures http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/23202164/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/23202164/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 18:21:16 PST
i have one of two horses that i must've colored eighteen times now, and i'm not sure if i've ever gotten past coloring the first horse. i don't know if i'll ever finish it, i end up getting so frustrated.
i think i might have to give up and cell shade it....oh well.

there are a bunch on my computer just sitting there....



so i'm getting frustrated with my painting style, as usual. it's very meticulous and it's less painting and more putting blobs of color where they should do and blending them a teensey bit. it's been bothering me for the past week or so.

so i'm trying to find another way to paint, if anyone has any suggestions or any good tutorials out there, pleasssssssssssssssssssssssse send them to me!!!

dankeee.
in other sstuff...... everythings been pretty good....have a five day weekend, went to town friday, mall today, aquarium tomorrow, city sometime and sleepover and town another time.
this weekend is too small. i have too many things i want to do. :[

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo tagged. http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/22634213/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/22634213/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 13:32:22 PST :iconcamface:

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

'Aight, let's go.

1. i am so very afraid to be alone. i don't know how to function alone, and when i am, i'm extremely shy and introverted, it's so pathetic, and i wish i could get over it.

2. i wish i could ride more. because of money i really, really can't.

3. i have some FUCKED UP friends. like FUCKED UP. and honestly, they're probably bad for me. they're all probably terrible influences and i KNOW i;ve done stuff i wouldn't have done if i hadn't know them. but i love them beyond belief and i'm having more fun than i ever have.

4. i am never ever happy with my artwork. NEVER. to me it always looks unfinished, like it's lacking something. and i dont know what it is. i always try to make it look complete, but it never happens.

5. i hate people at equestrian farms. hate them. i've had experiences with them that i wish i didn't remember. they're all preppy, rich, stuck up and everything else. if you don't own a horse, you're below them. you may jump higher than them, ride better than them, and they might even know it, but you'll still always be a lesser human being than them. only two months ago i met my first friend ever at riding.

6. i'm actually pretty smart. like really smart, actually. both my grandfather and father and grandmother are certified geniuses, and my mother is either there or very close. but i still end up in the last two weeks of the quarter pulling myself out of Cs or Bs. i often let my hatred for the subject or teacher get in the way of me doing well.

7. i can be a bitch.

8. matt skiba, matt skiba guy, jimmy urine, and neg dupree are my life. :heart:

I TAG:
YOU

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Bad News http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/22082143/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/22082143/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 09:32:08 PST
while i was away at another barn for a year, merlin died. merlin was my first favorite horse. he was a chestnut hanoverian (i have a character that i made after him)and he was a truly great horse. he showjumped with the owner of our barn at madison square garden in new york city. he was sucha sweet horse, he'd always be the most eager to greet you. i learned almost everything on him, the most memorable being the canter. he is the bounciest horse you can imagine, and i learned to canter on him. (: i have quite a nice seat now, thanks to him. he was also a great jumper. even over the tiniest crossrails he would try his hardest to make it look perfect. he was the first horse i showed with and the first horse i got blue ribbons with. he gave his best, tried to make your job as effortless as possible. he was such a smart guy that sometimes he would pick up the wrong lead to canter, cause he was thinking he was supposed to be cross cantering (which he DID have to do for shows in his past). he was such a sweetie, whenever he was alone in the barn with no horses in the stalls around him he would cry out. merlin was a great horse, he'll truly be missed.

when i came back to the old farm i quite quickly noticed the absence of merlin. i asked my instructor what had happened to him. she hesitated for a moment, then told me he had been retired to this beautiful farm with hundreds of acres and horses to just gallop in the pasture with all day. i knew then that he was dead. he was old, he wouldn't be living much longer anyway. the way she described the place, and the way she hesitated....i knew for sure he was gone.
:heart:


]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Well i think that has been fun.... http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/21964353/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/21964353/ Sat, 13 Dec 2008 13:31:30 PST

so good.

we went to a mindless self indulgence concert last sunday. We didn't get home till like 3 AM. xD it was great.
it seemed so short though!!!! we're hoping to go again with a bigger group of people. :D

and town has been fun too, so that's all good.

now i drew this picture, and i like it a LOT, but i still haven't gotten permission to post it. The person hasn't sent me mail back for like two days, and i REALLY want to post it, but i can't without permission!!

IT LOOKS REALLY GOOD THOUGH, AND I WISH I COULD POST IT. jeez.

but right now i'm sick and my parents won't let me go to town (what else is new?)and even though we went to the page at EXACTLY 10:00 AM EST, all the presale DKM tickets were sold out. IDKKKKK what happened, considering we were there at EXACTLY 10:00. so now we have to wait until next saturday.

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo well this seems to need an update http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/21168945/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/21168945/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 10:10:56 PDT sooooo.
update.
my cat just ran into the attic, and i just got her back down. she got sooo mad when i took her away, she was scratching at everything. But she would have gotten stuck in some wall and died, so i had to take her away. she likes to do shit like that....last year she climbed through the storage room into the basement ceiling.

As for life.....everything's good. i'm pretty content, my friends are all happy and aren't changing too much at the current moment.....not like at the beginning of she school year, when everyone became a different person.
although....i am worried about my science grade and....my math grade a bit. gym too, considering i didn't change for half of the quarter. xD

i'm drawing a picture now, and starting to think about opening commissions....

Comment on this journal ,and then I'll..
1-Tell you how I've known you, or something about a picture on your gallery, or why I've added you to my watch list.
2-Associate you with something (a song, a color, an object...)
3-Talk about something I like of you
4-Ask you something I'd die to know
5-tell you what picture I prefer in your gallery
But you had to post that in your journal then ;)

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo oh dear. http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20720242/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20720242/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 09:31:52 PDT
Dear Pin:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your sister. I think I realized it When your dwarf bit me With George Bush and his wife. and I saw you Sit on Manchester United's goalkeeper. I'm sure you're Ashamed enough to understand That I did a sex-change. I'm returning The couch cushions to you, but I'll keep The oil stocks as a memory. You should also know that I Will tell the authorities about Senility .

Fuck off now,
Caffy

:iconvix-kanya::iconharleyquinnx3::iconbananamonkey7::iconpintos-bellaserum::iconfathomed:
[link]

i'm getting a new kitty. i don't know when, since there are none around now that we want.

and i'm drawing stuff.
school is being shitty and friends are...... changing. evvvveryone is changing, it's sad. i wish it was summer again.
but tomorrow will be FUN.
it goes.......
6th period- LUNCH
7th period- SCIENCE (fun)
8th period- FREE
afterschool-TOWN. till prolly 10 or 11 again\
tuesday- NO SCHOOL

how awesome is that?

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo i think my kitty died. http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20558569/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20558569/ Thu, 18 Sep 2008 18:56:04 PDT
i think boo boo died.

i'm actually really sad. he was reallllly awesome.

he NEVER stays out for more than like 7 hours at a time.....and he hasn't been home in 3 days. there have been reports of coyotes killing cats nearby in the past few weeks.


i don't want boo to die.
he was only 4.

and he was my favorite kitty ever.

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo this is a journal entry. http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20422297/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20422297/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 12:32:15 PDT
sooooo. new entry. cooilo.

I was just really happy and after reading some comments got really mad.

some little cocksucker wasn't wearing a helmet and of course we started arguing. and i'm sorry, but i don't see the logic in not wearing it. it's so easy, really, why not? and it's so fucking stupid, because.....life.....vs. not wearing a helmet....like....>SERIOUSLY.
i am so fucking mad now, it's neither funny nor cool. cause i was really happy when i got home.

my grandparents are coming up to see my aunt tomorrow, so they're taking my sister and i to dinner tomorrow. (the situation is that they do not talk to my parents but still want to talk to my sister and i so yeahhhhh) and i'm scared to go because i havent talked to them or answered their emails and i know how mad my grandpa gets about that. oh well.

i felt like being deep but that little bastard of a player kinda ruined my mood.

art is being done, i just havent felt it good enough to post.

school is fun. actually, it's okay. just okay. i don't see half my friends, so it kinda sucks, actually. but i still have town. :heart:

i was thinking about how some certain people split off from our group to be more popular. and i was like.......whoah. i KNOW you. like i was really good friends with you just two or three months ago. and look how you've changed. it's sad. because you see them, and you remember the old times, and you're like....aw....i remember that.
it sucks when someone is a bitch to your whole group of friends, but it even sucks more when everyone misses that person because he was really great.











]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Devious Journal Entry http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20047169/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20047169/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 18:26:15 PDT Honesty
Honestly, what color is your underwear? the one i'm wearing now is green.
Honestly, what's on your mind? how i hate my parents.
Honestly, what are you doing right now? uh answering a quiz
Honestly, who is your best friend? i dunno. prolly lexi.
Honestly, have you done something bad today? i smoked......
Honestly, do you watch Disney channel? nope
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? dad
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? yeah...
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? jackasses. kyle kammer the more and more i hear about him.
Honestly, do you bite your nails? yep
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? OH YESS.
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now? yep.
Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? ohhhh yes.
Honestly, does anyone like you? ....i think so actually, yeah.

Ability
Can you blow a bubble? yeah
Can you dance? eh
Can you do a cart wheel? nope
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? yeah
Can you touch your toes? nope
Can you whistle? uh...no
Can you wiggle your ears? no
Can you wiggle your nose? yes
Can you roll your tongue? yes :p
Can you make a clover with your tongue? no

Anger
What do you do when you’re mad? get really quiet
What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? ....slapped someone.
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? yepp
Do you swear when you’re mad? ohyes.

Tears
Ever really cried your heart out? yep
Ever cried yourself to sleep? yep
Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder? yep
Ever cried over someone of the same sex? yep
Do you cry when you get an injury? depends what it is
Do certain songs make you cry? yes
Do certain movies make you cry? mhmm

Happiness
Are you usually a happy person? yes
What makes you the happiest? MY FRIENDS
Does being with your friends make you happy? THE HAPPIEST EVER.
Do you believe in yourself? mmhmm
Do you wish you were happier? well yeah, who doesn't?
Is being happy overrated? nope
Can music make you happy? yes

Love
How many times have you had your heart broken? .....hm. prolly none. or one.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them? yep
Has anyone besides your friends/family ever said ‘I love you’ to you? yes
Do you actually hate anyone? yes
Ever made a hit list? no
Have you ever been on a hit list? yep
Are you a mean bully? sometimes
Do you hate George Bush? ohyes

Self-esteem
Is your self-esteem extremely low? eh. not so much anymore.
Are you good looking? not really.
Do you wish you could be someone else? ......occasionally.

Physicality
What is your current hair color? blonde with bleach tips.
Current piercings? 4
Have any tattoos? not yet
Straight hair or curly? right now curly. sometimes straight, sometimes in the middle.
What shirt are you wearing? a green one.
Pants? jeans
Shoes? converse
Necklace? shark tooth necklace

Have you ever...
Hugged someone? are you fucking kidding me? OF COURSE. jesus christ yes.
Been on the phone until the sun came up? yep
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants? OH YES.
Laughed so hard you cried? yes
Got in a fight with someone? yep
Been on a plane? yes
Been asked out by someone? yeah. but it was a game so idk if it counts.
Been to the ocean? many, many times.
Painted your nails? yep.

Last...
Person you talked to in person? uhhhhhhh.....my mom and dad.
Person you talked to online? kan
Person you talked to on the phone? dad
Person you hugged? uhhh.....it was either ariel or kelsey.
Person you kissed? uhhh......i THINK it was jp. or jeff.
Person you hung out with? a whole huge group. can't name all of them, it was kinda dark. but like the people i'm normally with.
Thing someone said to you? "go downstairs now"
Time you slept in all morning? this morning.
Thing you said out loud: uhhh idk. had something to do with hating my parents.
Person you IM’ed: cam just imed me.
Restaurant you ate at: planet pizza. xDD
Thing you had to drink: monster
Movie you watched: uhhhhhh.......superbad.
Person you took pictures of: uhhh.....idk..... that random guy on the pier in the city.
Do you like surveys? yes
Do you get along with your parents? basically. i really dislike them at the moment....
Do you have mental breakdowns? i guess you could call it that.

The Present
Current mood: angry
Current music: dropkick murpjys.
Current hair style: down. =xomerlinsgfxo tagged http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20038575/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/20038575/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 09:46:10 PDT
oh fuck me. tagged by the dickass :iconheteroerectus:


1-POST THESE RULES IN YOUR JOURNAL.
2-EACH TAGGED PERSON MUST POST 8 FACTS ABOUT THEM SELVES IN THEIR JOURNAL.
3-AT THE END, YOU MUST TAG 8 PEOPLE AND POST THEIR ICONS IN YOUR SAME JOURNAL.
4-GO TO THEIR PAGE AND SEND THEM A MESSAGE THAT THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED.
6- NO TAG-BACKS.

1. i am a girl.

2. i am going to town today.

3. i have a little sister, whom i hate.

4. i am listening to the dropkick murphys right now.

5. i have a little white fluffy dog named belle who just came to see me.

6. i live in a house.

7. i swam with dolphins.

8. i am excited to see my friends today.

AND NOW I TAG-------------->
.....i don't WANT to tag anyone. so if you want it, do it.









]]> =xomerlinsgfxo almost out of jersey http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/19649119/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/19649119/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 19:54:18 PDT
five more days of jersey. almost four. i'm excited. i want to go home, really, really bad. really bad. like super bad. and yeah.


i got more black pens today. i ran out and had nothing to draw with.


i miss my friends. too bad they all forgot about me. D: being away for six weeks really will do that. fuck. i miss my family too. and my kitty.

i miss my kitty. he apparently won't even go outside anymore, since i've been gone. i think he might miss me a bit. :)

i have a lot of ideas for stories and drawings, so i can't wait to do that when i get back.

i uploaded some photography i did when looking at horses.
i never knew how much i'd miss riding after being away for it for more than a week or two. i really, really, miss it like crazy. hm.

so i'll be home soon and FINALLY upload some art. good.













]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Thank You, Everyone, So Much. +Horse News http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16534983/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16534983/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 14:41:29 PST :glomp::heart:


Everyone has been so amazing, every single one of you, helping me get over Cal.
Your kind words have made this time to much easier, I couldn't thank you enough.
I gotta do some art for you all.


And especially thanks to those who have done art of Cal:
:iconhazel23:-
:iconbananamonkey7:-
:iconradiantthunder:-
:iconequinerhythm:-

This means so much to me. <3333 You have no idea how much all of you have helped. I'm forever grateful. :heart:


Thank you, Everyone, So Much.



Edit
No school tomorrow, should get some stuff done.

So I just got back from the barn. Had a good lesson on Jupiter, and learned a lot.
I learned more about Cal's death. It was as quick as could be. Horhe (A groom) was outside, turning Cal out, just taking it off, and before Cal could even gallop away, he fell down and was dead. It was so, so quick, thank god.
In bad news (bad news first, always) my trainer, Carol, is leaving, at least for a bit. For the next five weeks she's going to be merging us with the other trainer. I met her for the first time today, she seems nice, and is very, very positive. My only problem is that she seems SO positive that I may not learn what I need to fix. A girl who is usually riding at the same time as me isn't really a good rider, and I hear what she needs to work on when her normal trainer, Wendy, is there. She rode the same as usual today, but the new trainer didn't say anything that Wendy did. Maybe it's just that she's starting out here and wants to be really nice at first. :shrug: I'm going to miss Carol a lot, she's been with me since my beginning at this farm.
Onto the good news, I might have a new horse to ride. There's this beautiful black gelding (whom might be a fresian.....He certainly looks it) named Faro, who's just....wow, great mover, beautiful, and Carol said since he's only half leased I might be able to ride him. I'd love to, he's just beautiful.

Going to the barn today was really, really difficult. I saw Cal's empty stall, and god, it was really hard. At the end of my lesson I was just thinking about the differences between Cal and Jupiter. But I thought of all the things you guys said, all the art, and it made me feel so much better.
Thank you all, again. :heart:
/Edit

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo It Doesn't Make Sense http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16445498/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16445498/ Thu, 17 Jan 2008 13:06:09 PST


So it's almost been a day since I've learned of his death. I think I'm finally starting to realize it.
Yesterday I just knew it conciously and cried a bit. But now I think I almost really understand.

But still, I'm expecting to come into the barn, walk over to his stall, see him there, tack him up, ride him, and untack him, then give him a peppermint and watch him lick the wall when he's swallowed it. But instead I'll see an empty stall. Devoid of any memory of him.


It doesn't sound right when I play the encounter over in my head. She said 'Cal died yesterday'. But it doesn't make sense!!!! Cal is a living, breathing horse whom I know so well, he's not DEAD! Those words don't go in a sentence together!!! I've never had anything like this happen to me. The worst was a hamster, but that (no offense, Bear) doesn't compare to a horse!! This horse I knew so much better.
He can't be dead, he can't. He's not old enough!!! He's only about 10 years old!!! He can't be dead!!!! He was perfectly healthy, I rode him a few days before.
He can't be dead!!!!!!!! There is no way that he's dead!! It doesn't make sense. 'Cal is dead'. NO HE'S NOT. He can't be.
How did this happen?
He's not dead, I can't imagine him dead. How did he die? Why did this happen? He can't be dead, no!

It doesn't make sense to me. I've only known him as alive. I never thought of him being dead. He's not supposed to be dead!!!

'Cal died yesterday'. WHy'?>?????He was too young,it's not fair.
How can be dead?
All I can think of now is him, laying limp on some cart. It can't be. THat's not right. He's not dead.

I feel really empty now. I feel like I've been cheated out of something.
I didn't get to say goodbye, I.... it feels like....... it feels like now I've gone somewhere new, and he's not there with me.

Today in school was terrible. On the way to school we pass the farm, and..... I just thought about how he wasn't there (every morning when we pass I wave a little to say hi to him. Not anyone else! Just him) But now he's not.
You have no idea how much energy it took to not cry.
I shouldn't have gone to school today. It took so much out of me to not be bawling my eyes out the whole day.
I actually did cry a little bit, at the very beginning of the day, when Charlotte asked me what was wrong and I finally told her.

And I noticed something. How come all of my songs have something to do with death or missing somebody or hearts or heart attacks?


I'm so tired of crying. My head hurts and I'm making myself sick.
But it's not right.... he shouldn't be dead! He can't be dead.......

In science I had written 'Cal Died' really tiny on the corner of my paper, to try to understand what happened. I (apparently) looked extremely sad and tired, and my science teacher saw what I had written, and gave me the weirdest look, like I was insane. I wanted to start screaming and crying at him. just.... SHUT THE FUCK UP. I wanted to fucking shove all my books in his face, kill him, that stupid faggot. He fucking looked at me like I was retarted. WHAT THE FUCK? The words on my paper and my actions clearly explain what happened, why the fuck do you do that? You fucking asshole. My horse just fucking DIED. ANd you look at me like that? GO FUCKING JUMP OFF A BRIDGE.


He can't be gone. I miss him too much.

It feels like I've lost a person.


I noticed that you really can't imagine this. I've tried to image it if my favorite horse died, but it's nothing compared to when your trainer comes up and actually tells you.

how can he be dead????NO. he's dead....... no..... he can't be dead...... no.



why is he dead?



I didn't know how much I really loved him, and now I feel really lost and confused, and when I need to talk to all my HP friends, of COURSE the webhost didn't do it's job and the site is down.


he's gone. it's not right. why isn't he here?


how he has that little nick in neck from when he was in the womb and his hoof was hitting against him, so it formed that indent.


why is he ot here? it doesn't make any sense to me. i can't imagine him dead.

I'm just a fucking wreck, crying.

it's not fair...... it doesn't make sense, he can't be dead.



i love him so much.

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Cal Died http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16433841/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16433841/ Wed, 16 Jan 2008 15:11:27 PST Cal was the horse I've been riding ever since I started at this new farm. I've been riding him alone for almost one year now.

I love that horse so much. He had his problems, a bit of arrogance, spookyish at times, but I loved him so much.

I came home this afternoon after school, and I remembered something. I told my mom how Cal always licks the side of his stall after I give him a peppermint.

I went to riding and was surprised to see that I was riding Jupiter. I looked to see if anyone in my lesson was riding Cal, but no one. No one for the whole day was riding Cal. I went to his stall, nobody was in there. I assumed he had had too much energy today, and they put him out to pasture.

I went through my whole lesson with Jupiter, which was fun, but I missed Cal. My trainer told me I should put my crop somewhere because Jupiter wasn't used to being ridden with one. So I put it on the side of the wall and went on with my lesson.

I came back after untacking to get my crop. My trainer told me to come over, and she told me that Cal had died.
She said that he had had a heart attack in the pasture yesterday. She said it was really quick, he just was cantering around and then just had the heart attack. Nobody knows what caused it.
I can't really remember all that she said, I just remember her telling me that, and that she thought I should know.

I didn't really realize it until I was walking to the car, and I just...... Cal was dead. He was gone. I was never going to ride him again, I was never going to see him again. Cal. Was dead.

I'm going to miss him so much. He's my favorite horse -ever.
:heart:R.I.P Cal- January 14, 2008


These are the few pictures I have of him:
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]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Caffy Found an Art Thief http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16344738/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16344738/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 14:22:53 PST
I was getting pictures for my project.... and look what I found by searching ';Poseidon'.

Picture One

Picture Two

.....Same picture, different artists...... but I don't know which one is the real artist. D:

Anyone care to lend their expertise?

I'm thinking.....~GiantTitanicFanatic because.... well..... she has another deviation that is of the 'Titanic'. But any person who has looked at the Titanic a couple of times can notice that it is not infact the Titanic, but the Olympic. Also, there is name on the bottom of the picture. And just..... There are some AMAZING paint artists out there, but, I don't think THAT is paint.

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Update-New Years & Other Stories(UFO) http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16227081/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/16227081/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 15:59:47 PST This isn't much of an update, just something to get rid of my last journal.


So, how was your New Years?

I had a pretty nice one, went to the mall, had a lot of fun, AND SAW NATIONAL TREASURE 2. Again.
Now I'm just deciding if I like National Treasure or Pirates of the Caribbean better..... what do you think?


Umm..... Seems word of the craziness got around the farm, a groom and I talked about it today. I was surprised that he spoke such good english. He must have been practicing, because he's much better than the last time I spoke with him. I had like an actual conversation. He's a good guy. :)

At the mall..... caffy had like 5,000 calories, no joke. Mocha Frappachino(sp), mcdonalds, and hagen daaz. xDDD

And at the mall, there was this amazing guy, who was totally :heart:. He worked at the bookstore, which I thought was pretty damn awesome, and he was hot shit. Not like prep hot shit, but caffy's punkness hot shit. And he was like "see you next year!" and he told me I was the first one to get that all day. :D Caffo be smart. God I love him. He was the one guy in the mall that wasn't a tool (say anything guy wasn't at FYE that day).




Okay, for the UFO thing, you need a lot of background. Here we go.

My grandfather is a genius. He's the smartest guy I know. He is legally a genius. He also taught for a while at Washington University in St.Louis. This guy is crazy, he helped make the computer what it is today, he's written 19 textbooks. During the cold war, him and a friend saw this picture of a missile against the clouds. By calculating the size of the clouds they found out the size with this crazy complicated equation. They contacted the government and they took the picture away, it can no longer be seen. (Well maybe now, that the war's over).
This guy knows like..... everything. xD

So I was at the bus stop a few weeks ago. It was a cloudy day, about 6:38 AM. The sun had started to shine, but it didn't get far with the clouds and all. I heard this strange, whimsical noise coming from the sky. I'd never heard anything like it. It was like a sonar, but higher pitched and had a musical tone to it. I looked up, naturally, searching for a plane. But with the clouds, nothing could be seen. So far I had only been hearing this noise, no other ones. Then I heard the traditional airplane noise. From my (not so) educated guess, I say jet, not prop. I continue to search for this craft in vain. The skies are just too cloudy. Soon the plane noise stops, but the high-pitched sonar sounding one keeps on, for maybe 40 or 50 more seconds. I pass it off as some military plane. I know I'm not the only one who heard this. Sean, who is always at the bus stop, was looking at the sky too, searching for the origin of this noise.

I ask my grandfather when he visits a week later. He says he knows nothing of that type of noise. To his knowledge, it simply does not exist.

So if anyone could shed light on this matter, that'd be great. I don't know what I heard. All I can say is some sort of testing of a new military aircraft, which I doubt would be done up here in NY, or a UFO. Now I'm not saying alien, but a UFO, Unidentified Flying Object.
So if you have similar experiences or some knowledge on this subject, please tell me. :)



]]> =xomerlinsgfxo ....Thoughts on The World http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/15936892/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/15936892/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 21:59:22 PST News

IN UR HOUSE, POKIN UR JOURNAL [/end Kodi's hello]
Here we go, getting into Caffy's crazies. :)

Okay. So I feel that the world is pretty fucked right now. I also feel it's largely our (the US';) fault. Bush messed up real bad, this administration sucks goat balls, and because of Bush our economy is starting to get worse, and we likely will go into a recession, which will thereafter effect the rest of the world.

......And I think about everything going on right now, and I just think....... Wow, we are going to die because our world is so, absolutely, completely fucked.

And I wonder if I am the first to think that. Excuse me, if we are the first to think that. Meaning my generation (It's Y, I believe) and the others alive now. It had to have happened in past times, in the 1970's, in 1850's America, everyone thinking that the world, or at least the country, is totally fucking up because all these states are seceding from the union.
But I feel that this is bigger. We have the entire fuckball of shit over in the middle east, global climate change, a C student for president (with no outstanding candidates for the next term*), an administration that is lying to us now more than ever, our descending economy that will likely go into a recession, a social security system that is estimated to go bankrupt before my generation retires, China is putting dangerous lead in our children's toys, and the children of the nation are getting dumber and dumber. That's a lot. It really is.

So...... have other people from other times thought that this world was so screwed? Or is this a feeling new to us, and us alone?



* I don't know if you feel the same way, but it seems that none of the candidates for next term are really great. They all just seem mediocre, no one really standing out above the rest. We need someone like FDR to fix our problems, but I feel like he hasn't shown up yet.
This will be a really messed up election. Nobody wants a republican because of Bush, but many of the people now are small-government people (because of Bush too), and the small government side is republican.
I almost feel we should get rid of the parties, because I fear a lot of people vote just on the side, not on the individual candidate.

And if I can branch into another, slightly related, topic...... church and state. They must be separated. A lot of issues in this election are religious. And I really think there should be a separation (by the constitution, isn't there supposed to be? Whatever, the constitution doesn't matter any more, bush threw it out) because now, more than ever, people are divided. There are hundreds of religions, and there is always going to be an argument between them. But I really think that it is in our best interest to separate them.

Okay, I'm going to offend people now. Just as a warning.


I wish devout religious people would SHUT THE FUCK UP. I'm going to attack catholics here, because I know a lot ( like 10 years of religion class pay off) and they're really pissing me off now.
What does is matter if women get abortions or gay couples are getting married? Is it directly affecting you? NO. They are not hurting you by doing either action. You don't like it, and don't agree with it, but that's ALL. It's not causing you physical pain or discomfort. Let the people have their free will. It's not like they're forcing you to abort your children or get married to the same sex. Do you like your free will to go marry your boyfriend? What if someone took that away? What if they said you could only marry a woman. Flip it around, and that's the issue. What if you wanted to keep your child? But the law said you HAD to abort it. Same thing, just flipped.

And seriously, who believes in intelligent design anymore? Darwinism is almost a law. Get over it, you were not made in god's image. You evolved from a fucking monkey.

I actually know someone who believes in divine creation. She also says she can see demons and ghosts. (Don't get me wrong, I'll be the fist to believe someone can see them, just....... she's scary, and I know it's not true). She's like really scary. She's like
"Demons and monsters walk the earth..... I can see them."

BUT ANYWAY. These are my thoughts, I hope they make you think. :)

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo I have blood on my face http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/15844952/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/15844952/ Sat, 08 Dec 2007 07:50:27 PST

-sings-blood on my face, blood on my face


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]]> =xomerlinsgfxo She's Gone http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/15810985/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/15810985/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 17:14:39 PST
We knew she was going to die soon. She was old when we got her..... about a year later, she developed what we took to be cancer. It's normal. Most hamsters die from cancer. Like most humans die from cancer or heart disease. She had a tumor on her lower abdomen, and this time my mom wouldn't let me go to the vet to have it removed. :(
A month later I picked her up to put her in her bubble and roll around while I washed her cage. It was the greatest shock to me, she had ballooned up. Her abdomen was enormous, just disgustingly large. The right side was a bit larger than the left, I actually have a picture showing how big she got. It's like..... she had a balloon inside of her. We guessed that it was the tumor, having grown rapidly for some reason. And rapidly means like 2 days.
I had noticed for about a week or two before she had stopped going on her wheel.....

I washed her cage on sunday. I put her in her bubble and she didn't roll around at all, she just sat there. I let her walk around for a while on her own, and she walked akwardly to lift herself from the weight of the tumor. I gave her lots of food and treats. My parents estimated for her to die before christmas.

On sunday night I took a lot of pictures of her, knowing I didn't have a lot of time left (I am extrememly wrecked over the lack of images of my previous hamsters). On monday night I walked over to her cage, and she walked out her her cage and let me talk to her. I didn't say much, just the normal things I say to her, 'hey bear, what's up? How's life going?' and then I just got this impulse, so I went with it. I got all quiet and just said 'goodnight' and went to bed. On tuesday when I got home from school I rushed home to her, I didn't dare touch her with my hands, I prodded her with a q-tip, and my thoughts were right, she didn't move at all. I checked again and again, I began to shake the cage in a panick, trying to get her to move, but she did nothing. I cried for a while, then went into my mom's room and told her what had happened.
I decided to bury her, so my mom put her into a box, and now she's in my garage, waiting for my dad to come home tomorrow night, so we can bury her.

I just..... I really liked her a lot, I really did. I talked to her a lot too. Most of it was meaningless, just like 'hey what's up? want to go play in your bubble?' but once in a while I'd say actual important stuff, just to have a pair of ears to talk to.
Most of my philosophical thoughts were heard by her.
And now she's gone. I said that I'd still talk to her, since I believe in ghosts and such. I already have one following me around, I don't mind having my hamster either.

I also feel so guilty...... I feel like I didn't pay enough attention to her. I feel oh so bad..... I feel like she deserved so much more, and I didn't give it to her. I hope she forgives me for that.... if she doesn't, it's not her fault. I just wish I had paid more mind to her, played with her a bit more, gave her more peanut butter and lettuce. But I guess it's better than her life at the pet store right? But I still feel so guilty..... I wish I had done more.

God, I almost started crying during horseback riding today. Nicole was talking about hamsters, and I was just like..... fuck. But I bit my lip and kept it back, thank god.

I can't believe that I'm getting so emotional and writing a huge journal about a hamster. But I believe everything is much more intelligent and self-aware than most of us thinks, and I feel bad just saying 'i can't believe that i'm getting so emotional over a hamster'. She seemed like she was more than that, she seemed like she really was much more intelligent and responsive. I'm really going to miss her.

I wrote a poem soon after I found out, it's not that great, I've never been a great poet, much hopefully it...... I don't know. I think I'm going to draw a hamster too.

I'm really going to miss her.

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It might become my main if I get enough watchers.

I should be getting some nice horse stock as I'll be taking my camera with me to the farm all winter and next summer. :)

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]]> =xomerlinsgfxo Caffy's Update- Question:Why?/Deep http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/15088287/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/15088287/ Tue, 16 Oct 2007 13:57:17 PDT
The thought came to me when I was walking back to the science room after having a really shitty lab period. I was swearing profusely about my science teacher, and how he's a dick, and my friend was like "OMG THERE ARE TEACHERS HERE!!" and I just said, "I don't care". And then the bell rang and people rushed out to go to their next class.
And my the thought popped into my head again.

Why do we listen? Why do we do what they tell us to do? Why? What is making us obey them? Why do we allow them to herd us like animals? Why the fuck do we have to listen to them? We don't, we can just tell them to fuck themselves and run off. Why, why are we doing this? Nothing is stopping us from revolting. We could all just decide to not give a shit about anything, and disregard all the rules. I'm just wondering why we allow ourselves to be treated like that. Why do we follow the rules they set down for us? Why do we spend 42 minutes in each class and go to the next one after 5 minutes of passing time? For things we like, sure, we'll do what they tell us to do. But what about....math? Not many people like math. Why the fuck are we doing what they're telling us to do? Like in science today, everyone was tired and bored, and Mr. Lasala (yeah, I'll put names in here, I don't care) told us to do this stuff we really didn't want to do, but we did what he told us. And it just got me thinking, why do we obey them? What is stopping us from shouting 'FUCK YOU' at them and running out of class at once? Because for hundreds of years we do what we're told in our classes, deal with the crap that's so generously handed to us, but why? Why? Why are we not kicking our crappy teachers in the ass? When they get something wrong? When there is no actual use for them (not pointing fingers buuutttt...... Maggie, my 3rd period and your 4th. You know who I'm talking about ;) )? Why do we listen to their rules?

It was like in gym when our teacher had us running around in circles in the gym, standing in the middle yelling at us. I felt like a horse. It was shit, there was all of us , running, panting in circles and an inconsiderate little whore yelling at us to go faster. Felt like a goddamn animal, and it's happened loads of times last year too. But WHY do we do what they tell us? Why can't we go against their rules and have a party BETTER than homecoming in the student center?


Ah, I guess it's just my fucking rebellious side that thinks about this shit, but no doubt you've thought of it too. ;)
And this doesn't go for just school, it goes for everything.
I can't get the exact way I'm feeling in here, but I'm sure you get the point. :)


Now caffy will bear her soul to people she has never met (except for.....one).
Okay, so for a long time, I've noticed things, things that I'm not sure if others notice. I always keep it inside. And just as a forewarning, I'm not going to be able to get the right words out. I just can't explain these feelings I get.
Okay so yeah, first thing, I'll see things that are ordinary. And I just look at them and say 'Wow, that is the most beautiful thing in the whole world.' And it'll be something shitty like an airport or tree or something. But the way it is lit, or the way something is on it, absolutely draws me to it and I think it looks beautiful. And I don't find the generic beauty in things like oceans and beaches or some mountains. Of course I think they're beautiful, but not in the same way. I've been more open about it lately. But that's not saying much. Sometimes I'll be like 'Oh look at those clouds they're so cool', but in my head I have this whole spew of thoughts and reasons why that's the most beautiful thing in the world. I also have a lot of thoughts. Lots and lots of thoughts that I will never ever say, just because I feel no one will understand.
A friend I had on neopets long, long ago told me that I was a very deep person, and I guess that explains it yeah? I'm just a deep person..... but I haven't found anyone else like myself, anyone that recognizes these things and thinks about the same philosophical things. Because I've tried to talk to my peers about it, and they just don't get it. I've tried to talk to my mom about it, but she REALLY didn't get it. My other friend got similar things, but not to the same level as myself. She said that we are old souls. Our souls are old and wise, and this is the reason for all of this. And... ]]> =xomerlinsgfxo 90's http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/14318864/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/14318864/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 12:20:33 PDT

[x] You can finish this [ice ice _ _ _ _ ] baby

[ x] You remember watching Doug, Ren & Stimpy, Pinky and the Brain(OMG YES!!! BEST SHOWS)

[X] AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!

[x] You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"

[ ] You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin west philidelphia born and raised . . ."

[x] You remember TGIF, Step by Step, Family Matters, Dinosaurs, and Boy Meets World.

[x] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

[X] You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

[x] You remember reading "Goosebumps"

[X] You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

[x] You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence

[x] when everything was settled by rock paper scissors..or bubble gum bubble gum in a dish...and even better daddy had a donkey inky binky bonky.

[x] when cops and robbers was a daily activity.

[x] when we played Hide and go seek until our legs grew numb.

[x] when we used to obey our parents

[x] You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time.

[ ] "Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?" was both a game and a TV game show.

[x ] Captain Planet. He's a Hero.(OMG!!! I LOVED CAPTAIN PLANET!!! WITH THE DIFFERENT ELEMENT RINGS!!!! FUCK YES)

[x] You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together. (Obviously!)

[x] You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.

[x] You always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos (ALWAYS)

[x] You remember watching Home Alone 1, 2 , and 3 . . . and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"

[x] You remember watching The Magic School Bus, Wishbone, and Reading Rainbow on PBS.

[x] You remember when Yo-Yos were cool.

[x] You remember those Where's Waldo books. (I still have some..... Somewhere.....)

[x] You remember eating Warheads.

[X] You loved Bill Nye The Science Guy! (

[x] You remember watching the 1st Batman, Aladin, Ninja Turtles, and 3 Ninjas movies.

[x] You remember Ring Pops.

[x ] You remember drinking Surge, and Tang.

[x] If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB!"

[x] When they made the new lunchables so that you could make pizza AND tacos.
[x] You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.

[x] Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them. (All the time XDDD)

[ ] You played and/or collected "Pogs"

[ x] You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere.

[x] . . . Furbies.

[x] You haven't always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet.

[x] And Windows 95 was the best.

[x] You watched the original cartoons of Rugrats, Power Rangers, and Ninja Turtles.(OMG RUGRATS!!!! OMG TOMMY AND CHUCKY AND..... PHIL, and lily I think. And angelica.)

[x] Michael Jordan was a king.

[x] YIKES pencils and erasers were the stuff!

[x] All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.

[x] You remember when the new Beanie Babies and Talking Elmo were always sold out.

[x] You collected those Beanie Babies.

[x] Carebears...

[ ] Gak was the coolest stuff invented. ?

[x] Lambchop's song never ended.

[x ] The old dollar bills.

[x ] Silver dollars, which were cool to have.

[X] You remember a time before the WB.

[ x] You collected all the Troll dolls (still have them)

[x] If you even know what an original walkman is.

[x] You remember wanting to sit on the orange Nickelodeon couch.(OMG EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY)

[x] You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"

[x] You know the Macarena by heart.

[x] "Talk to the hand" . . . enough said

[x] You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

[x] You know the significance of the number 23.

[x] You went to McDonald's to play in the play place.

[x] You remember playing on merry go rounds at the playground.

[x] You remember the Y2K scare when your parents stocked up on jerky and canned foods

59/63 = im a 90's kid!


I knew it. the 90's kicked ass.

]]> =xomerlinsgfxo The 100 Themes Challenge http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/14213321/ http://xomerlinsgfxo.deviantart.com/journal/14213321/ Fri, 17 Aug 2007 15:20:57 PDT THE LIST:
1. Introduction:[link]
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven-[link]
8. Innocence
9. Drive-[link]
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory-[link]
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting-[link]
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero-[link]
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal-[link]
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

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