http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xvillex&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xvillex en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 04:46:42 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/15414141/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/15414141/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 23:18:20 PST It has been three days since I actually went to bed at all. Living off aderol and caffinated beverages is not wise, but unfortunately necessary. As I t
ype this, I am still sitting in the library reading biology and hoping that my brain does not turn to mush and ooze out of my ears.
In other news, my ex has a girlfriend. I shuddered, then giggled, then shuddered again.
Life is becoming incredibly difficult. Goodness, I cannot wait for our "circle" to spend a bit of lazy, do nothing at all but get wasted, quality time with one another.
Bio. must do bio.
My bottom hurts because I have been sitting on it too long. I think I will take this time to have a well deserved cigarette. Excitement.
I know.

]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/14899972/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/14899972/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 14:15:59 PDT it most certainly is.
i miss being back home. not home home of course because i havent gotten that desperate at least not yet.
i miss my friends really. that is all. i miss feeling loved.
school is sort of shitty. and awesome. all rolled into one.
does that make sense. i dont think so either.
senate is taking up a lot of my time. a lot.
but i love doing it. so it is alright.
things with people here are quite stressful. some of the people.
others are wonderfully awesome.
i am done rambling. pointless rambling is time consuming and i have so many other things to do.
well not really.
i am just annoying myself at this point.

]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/14848003/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/14848003/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 22:05:27 PDT
]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11914511/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11914511/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 21:06:10 PST i vanished for a few weeks.
There was a lot going on around here and i had absolutely no time for anything other than school and tennis.
I visited Gustavus this last week and spent a few days touring the school and meeting the tennis team. It seems quite likely that i will be going there.
Highschool has remained the same.
awful and unpleasant.
i am really making a concious effort to stay engrossed in my educational experience, but i recieve hardly any stimulation in that environment.
my friends keep me interested and interesting.
Study hall with Brittany is the best.
and there is food. always there is food.
I should really be working on a psych project which is due tomorrow. dominic and i arent exactly organized. i love having him in class with me, especially that class. because my teacher. is. a. fruit. (the 'one fry short of a happy meal' kind of fruit).
As for artwork, i have absolutely no inspiration or time or motivation etc. etc. if there is one thing i am good at, it is making excuses.
I will try and put something up this weekend, but frankly, i am not
optimistic.
i have about 20 billion new deviations to look through and comment on and fav (mainly because everyone on my devwatch is an amazing artist), so i think i will do that now.

so i say.
chou.

]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11428187/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11428187/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 22:09:06 PST
are over.

He lied one to many times. He was stupid one to many times. There is a point in every relationship where you ask yourself if you can see a future with this person. I thought i saw that in him, and i risked a lot of things so that he and i could stay together.
i am so sick of going all the way. love is a two way street. i want to be in a relationship with someone whose actions reflect their words. i dont need to be mistreated and disrespected constantly by pathetic boys who are rude and obnoxious to me. somehow i always manage to allow myself to sink to their levels. These highschool-drop out addicts who have little more intelligence than a doorknob. i want to be with someone who i can build a future with. someone who i can hold an intelligent conversation with.
is that really all that much to ask for?
no.
i dont believe it is.

]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11404702/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11404702/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 23:03:38 PST
I really wish it would be easier for me to take pictures. Talent wise, i think i lack. Plus, all my pictures i litterally have to stack boxes, put the camera on the top and use the timer. Really doesnt work so well.

END RANT.


Nothing new going on really. Just felt like typing a bit. Homework to finish.

Bye. Bye.


]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11380653/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11380653/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 21:26:22 PST

Found an apartment.

[Do you think i will be able to survive living with three boys for very long?]
Granted, they are my best friends, but i am always the one cleaning up, picking up. doing there laundry , making sure everything is in order....it's going to be a long couple of years, isn't it?

Love to you all.

]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11330237/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11330237/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 21:16:38 PST

Right.
Now.

]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11318021/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/11318021/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 19:56:46 PST
No time for art.

Put up some spur of the moment pictures.

Have a few projects in progress.

Nothing good.

No inspiration.

Highschool makes me ill.

Apartment hunting this weekend.

Thank goodness.

That is all really.

Goodnight.

]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/10782384/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/10782384/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 20:19:16 PST
Bobbity.

Boo.



]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/7047836/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/7047836/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 17:53:21 PST When devotion is no longer skin deep. When you no longer are yourself around him, but instead something far greater.

Love is something tender; something precious. Please dont throw around the word as if it were some common verb. I type this as i am reading all these girl's profiles and how much they 'love' there boyfriend. Maybe you do truly love him, but please, respect the sanctity of that word, because for some of us, it still holds a special place in our hearts. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/6744291/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/6744291/ Tue, 11 Oct 2005 23:19:54 PDT

i really need to update this thing. i have no new material since my health has been rapidly declining.

i have addison's disease. it means that i have a brain tumor and that my adrenal glands have almost stopped producing cotisol and my white blood cells are turning into antibodies to destroy my adrenal glands.
i have surgery ahead of me and the prospect of being put on steroids for the rest of my life. things are difficult and i am quite exhausted from all of this. it would be nice to be able to rest for a little while, but i have state in two days and the chances of me getting any relaxation in these next few days are slim to none. i will just have to tough this out i assume. there seems to be nothing else for me to do. i hope everyone else is doing much better than i am. i will start putting up work sometime later this month, once more of my test results are finished and im not in the hospital as often.
<3 kar kar ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/6407539/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/6407539/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 17:38:04 PDT
i was sent to the acupuncturist for my stomach. although i find eastern medicine to be much more effective than our western narcotics, getting pins stuck into my body and then having the pins lit on fire was an experience i would have rather witnessed than participated in. i am insanly exhausted for i have not slept since last thursday when this whole trauma began. ive been in and out of the hospital since and i dont feel the least bit pleasant.
i am in the mood for some artwork, so i will be photographing tonight and posting the results sometime this week.
love to you all <3

if anyone has any theme suggestions, i would greatly appreciate it. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/6389480/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/6389480/ Thu, 01 Sep 2005 16:03:05 PDT
somehow i became a deviantart subscriber. i have no clue what i did. oh well. its cool to have all these little extra features, so im not complaining. i got my camera back last night, so i will definately be adding some new artwork in the next week or so.
i hope everyone's first day of school went as well as mine did.

i dont know what this is, but im going to type in the box and see what comes of it. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/6377312/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/6377312/ Wed, 31 Aug 2005 10:44:26 PDT i so have my internet back!!!
now i can continue my annoyance as planned.
:dances: ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/5288714/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/5288714/ Fri, 06 May 2005 21:17:04 PDT kinda been a bit busy, what with being locked up in the loony bin and all.
well im back now, but i wont really have the internet for a while because my mom got rid of it.
its my birthday in ten days ^^
things are really bad around here, but whatever... ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/4656418/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/4656418/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 18:15:52 PST my cousin said she was willing to be my model, so next time i see her im going to go crazy ^^.

i miss justin <3 ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/4489057/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/4489057/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 14:22:01 PST
i need a model for my photos. i have so many great ideas that i want to try out and i have no one that i can use.

god damnit.
---see this is what happens when you have no life. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/4479232/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/4479232/ Wed, 02 Feb 2005 11:50:04 PST
-blares Arch Enemy- ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/4469340/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/4469340/ Tue, 01 Feb 2005 09:55:01 PST ....sighs... -glump-

meeting at East on thursday. -nervousness-

its not fun to drown in shit. no no. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3996735/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3996735/ Sun, 05 Dec 2004 16:40:53 PST
cradle in 3 days. elaborate plans to get me there, but they are so very worth it.

i put up some pictures from nicks house. they are in the scrap book section.

i fucking miss justin. but i get to see him on wed instead of having to wait a whole week. i m so happy.

mother is screaming. im very frightened. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3976625/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3976625/ Thu, 02 Dec 2004 23:38:45 PST DA finally allows me to submit work from home. so i went crazy.

Cradle of Filth on Wed. -smiles-

school is all schoolish.
i used to love school because it meant getting away from my mother, but now it just frusturates me so much that i cant stand being there.
last year was hurtful and confusing and awful.
this year just makes me want to throw bolders.
weekends are my only escape because i get to see Justin.
but i also have to spend more time with my mom, so really none of my situations are ideal.

nicholas, i would just like to tell you that i ate today. 7 pieces of cucumber. -nods-. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3722522/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3722522/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 07:38:40 PST O_o
i guess that would be better then my current situation.
i am glad though that my bruises are starting to go away. she popped a blood vessel above my eye when she hit me, and so its taking awhile to heal.
--
i will finally be able to put up my art tuesday. :claps: ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3635067/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3635067/ Wed, 20 Oct 2004 14:06:24 PDT
cassie soon comes home. and with halloween just around the corner, things are starting to shape up.

the scenery is beautiful this time of year. i absolutely love to stare out my window. i wish it could always stay like this.

some trajic events happened today and i am very sorry to nick. i hope you feel better, though i know that there is nothing i can say to make your pain subside. know that i am here for you.

>.< chemistry test. stupid stupid stupid.

i really want to go to bed. i am so very tired. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3592522/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3592522/ Thu, 14 Oct 2004 21:34:58 PDT that is far from saying much.

:3 Boom.

how come every conversation we have always ends up with heads exploding?

a great comment by Bill today.
im so non conformist, it's cool.


i felt very french today.
damn that black bow for making me GAWTh!
:shoot me: >.<

though Buck and i amused ourselves with that comment for awhile.

tom and justin now just walk around saying loch. that word has lost all meaning to me.

i am competely surrounded by idiots.

o_O i licked jake today.

-ill just end on that- ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3592519/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3592519/ Thu, 14 Oct 2004 21:34:35 PDT that is far from saying much.

:3 Boom.

how come every conversation we have always ends up with heads exploding?

a great comment by Bill today.
im so non conformist, it's cool.


i felt very french today.
damn that black bow for making me GAWTh!
:shoot me: >.<

though Buck and i amused ourselves with that comment for awhile.

tom and justin now just walk around saying loch. that word has lost all meaning to me.

i am completely surrounded by idiots.

o_O i licked jake today.

-ill just end on that- ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3567344/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3567344/ Mon, 11 Oct 2004 17:25:27 PDT --
homecoming was awful. it was boring and uncomfortable, and i wished it had never happened.
but i cant complain. its my own fault i let amy talk me into it. besides, i got to know anna a lot better. i found out we have a lot in common.
--
i dont want you to fucking know. just leave me the fuck alone.
you bag of shit.

you caring.
its all so very new to me.
i always wanted to see the real side of you.
i need to learn to be careful for what i wish for. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3535112/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3535112/ Thu, 07 Oct 2004 14:14:58 PDT :sigh:
--
homecoming week. nothing interesting. just lots of people wandering through the more decorated halls.
and we didnt even get to do the hallways.
that was such shit.

sectionals were today. im trying not to think about it because it makes me want to sob.
and my fucking arm hurts like hell, but i am refusing to wear the stupid cast, because the longer its fractured, the longer it is that i dont have to play.

and to all those fucked up pissheads out there:

.fuck.you. ]]> ~xvillex http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3511704/ http://xvillex.deviantart.com/journal/3511704/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 14:52:38 PDT have a slushie wont you?


i hope to put up work as soon as meh damn scanner works.



concert at the rave. marilyn and kittie. much fun. will be there.
come, bitches.
]]> ~xvillex