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deviantART: by:xxbcxx http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:xxbcxx&section=today deviantART RSS for by:xxbcxx en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 13:24:29 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png The aftermath... http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28781561/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28781561/ Sun, 06 Dec 2009 07:44:11 PST

I can't think of a better way to describe it other than what I'd put down as my facebook status earlier:

"YESTERDAY! There were jaffa cakes at the Tate, a fire juggler, underground insanity, a singing moose head, a very blue protest march, 20 minute queue at subway, rainrainrain, tantrums, PUB... Booze, awesome people, a pervert, bartender tried to give me AIDS, more booze, waffles, london gateway service station slippage... on a wet floor and muchos shouting at a shit duty manager after getting rather hurt. GOOD TIMES!"

It was a crazy, chaotic day and even though I threw a couple hissy fits [Ok, more than a couple!!!] it all went down rather well... Especially the pub bit! Food was eaten, booze was flowing and I got drunk. I didn't have to buy a single drink - Muchos thanks to =yvanklestein, `dxd, =firedance99 and ~exzes for booze buyings

A super special shout out goes to ~babyhippy123 for keeping me sane AND she bought us some awesome pressies!

It was amazing to finally get to meet =yvanklestein, having known him a couple years. He's such a cool, funny guy and a pleasure to be around. He's also big and strong and gave me a couple piggy back rides when I wouldn't shut up about my feet hurting. Stupid me, wearing heels... Will I ever learn?!

It was also amazing to see some friends I've not seen for a long while - You're all so awesome and I'm glad you guys came!

Photo's will most definitely be going up on facebook - So add me if you wanna see! [link]

~babyhippy123 has a journal up of the people who came, so wonder over and add your name if you were present!

LOVE YOU ALL!

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]]> =xxbcxx London Devmeet - Dec 5th - WINTER WONDERLAND! :D http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28582920/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28582920/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 09:14:50 PST

Hi guys!

Remember when I had that journal up about a December devmeet for the awesome =yvanklestein? Welp, it's all confirmed and we've got a plan! All you need to do is show up

The Day ...

A few of us will be meeting up about 11am at the Tate Modern, have a mosey around and then we'll be heading off to the wonderful Hyde Park - Host to the legendary London HQ devmeet [For those who don't want to come to the Tate, we'll meet up outside Hyde Park Corner station for about 12.30], where we'll then experience the delights of the Winter Wonderland. There will be rides and attractions, an ice rink, outdoor and indoor cafes and a Christmas market [Which I'm sure will be ripe with pretty things you can buy your loved ones

] - Should be an awesome day out

And from there on, we'll be following the London Devmeet tradition by heading off to the Baker Street Metbar [Wetherspoons] where much merriment will continue!

More details here: [link]

Drop =firedance99 or myself a message if you're interested in coming, or if you're unsure about how to get to the Tate or Hyde Park. I'll be more than happy to help you out

OMGSOEXCITED!

E D I T

OMGITSTOMORROWANDICANTWAIT.

Also... Half dreading the early start `dxd and I will have. Gotta set off just after 7 to get into London on time... Lets hope our little car makes it there and back!

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]]> =xxbcxx Uh-oh! (Woohoo!) http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28542248/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28542248/ Tue, 24 Nov 2009 14:11:59 PST

EDIT:

Muchos love to $marioluevanos who's just donated a 3 month subby to me

You're currently my favourite person hehe

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I face this mini-dilemma and I'm not entirely sure what I should do.

There's previously been loads of drama and butthurt about whether subscriptions are even worth having anymore (Since lots of features are becoming standard for everyone), and I'm literally 3 days away from mine ending. I'm not sure whether it's worth having again, or going without?

They say subs make browsing faster due to lack of ads, and the little extras are rather nice to have. I've not been without a subscription over the last 4 and a half years f my 5 year dA existence so I've grown accustomed to it.

So what should I do?

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]]> =xxbcxx Copyright law - PLEASE READ. http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28462265/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28462265/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 03:34:50 PST

I stumbled across `contains-mild-peril's journal this morning, and thought I'd share what was in it with you guys, as it's such an important thing for us to rally against:

"This petition has been setup to try and stop the UK government changing copyright laws, allowing images to be used on non-commercial websites with no credit or charge.

You can't really charge for non-commercial use, blogs don't have the money, but the picture credit can make up for it. Plus, under the orphans act in America, your images can then be taken off a website and re-used in the US, by commercial entities, with no payment whatsoever."

I don't know about you, but I dislike the idea of my images being used on websites without credit to me. Sure, its great if we get paid for their usage, but if they bring this law into effect then that means we're basically NOT entitled to any money, or any credit at all.

As artists it's amazing if people see our work, but without appropriate crediting how are we supposed to make a name for ourselves? How are we supposed to earn a living?

Please vote here: [link]

Thank you

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]]> =xxbcxx Jumping on that ol' bandwagon http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28354023/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28354023/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 13:11:49 PST

There's so much drama surrounding this new dA contest, and I can't say I honestly give enough of a shit, but thought I'd be a drama-ho and cash in on the retardedness.

So here it is:

DRAMA.

DRAMA.

DRAMA.

DRAMA.

DRAMA.

Does that make you feel good, baby?

Awesome, now strip off and send pics kthx

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]]> =xxbcxx CANCER http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28137429/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28137429/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 05:40:21 PST

I have something very important to tell you all, and it's to do with what's in the title.

So brace yourselves.

This could shock you. Possibly even cause you to react in strange ways. So here goes...

...

I DONT HAVE CANCER.

Oh, and my face is in ASIAN BRIDE magazine

Shall post pics when I get my mitts on the issue

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]]> =xxbcxx Work?! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28015456/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/28015456/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 16:20:17 PDT

Soooo... I had a job interview the other day. Nothing overwhelmingly amazing or anything, but I thought the interview went well! I've also been offered an interview at another place doing pretty much the same thing - I need to call them tomorrow to arrange an interview time

Oh. And `dxd's step mum has decided to take the plunge and start up a proper business selling our jewelry, and has asked me if I want to be a part of it. UH DUH, YEAH! She only asked me yesterday, so we're clearly still in the idea and planning stages.

Next to come is researching and locating a premises for the business. Nothing big, just a small shop would do. We've gone around Nottingham and Sheffield today, just exploring avenues and taking note of what's on offer in which area etc.

Our style will be up-market, bespoke bridal jewelry, but we'll also be doing pieces for proms/balls and fancy stuff for nights out. Real classy shit, y'know?

We'll also be offering a consulting service which involves creating one-off made to order pieces.

This probably wont even get set up until January or so - There's a lot of research, budgeting and planning to be done in the meanwhile, and if we manage to find the right property at the right price then we'll also need to get it decorated to a gorgeous, modern minimalist style, which may take a while depending on what needs to be done. I'm already thinking up ideas on how to brand and market the business, may as well put myself to some use right now since budgeting and accounts really isn't my bag

So yeah... Exciting times ahead...!

Still no word on my health, by the way.

Boobs still hurt but I think the doctors have given up on figuring it out. Probably a good sign?

Another [unrelated] problem regarding my health arose a couple weeks ago, and I've had some HORRIBLY PAINFUL tests done, which had me crying and shaking on the exam table in absolute pain. So much so that my doctor couldn't properly finish her examination

They then put me on some rather awful medication - Which had some super shitty side effects so I stopped taking them after 3 days - Probably not a clever idea but I couldnt give a toss. They were making me feel so much worse so I chucked em in the trash.

The doctors were chasing up the results for those tests and were supposed to get back to me yesterday... And like the idiot that I am, I left my phone on silent and missed their call back!

Was supposed to call them today, but we've been kind of busy. I'll phone tomorrow... Promise!

In other news: I just saw `dxd's wang as he was changing

Living together again is weird! Those few months apart meant that I was totally independent, and I strangely miss those days. Not that I don't like living with `dxd again, because it's awesome. I just wish we'd have our OWN space, y'know? Go back to how things were 10 months ago...

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]]> =xxbcxx A PURPLE HAND http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/27940296/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/27940296/ Sat, 24 Oct 2009 11:50:53 PDT

I'm staring at a purple hand on the mantelpiece. It's for jewellery displaying purposes. I'd like to have it laden with prettyful, Bini-made jewellery but I'm lacking motivation to get started properly.

Crud.

So what have I been up to since my last update? Not much really. Been to a 40's day at Pickering, somewhere even further up north from where I am now. That was cool, though got a feeling the photos I've taken from it are a little turdy

`dxd, his family and I are soooo going dressed up in 40s gear next year. I've got this awesome black and white polkadot dress which is completely 40's: [link] Cant see it all there, but it ends at the knees, has a belted waist and is simply gorgeous ^_^ It's perfect for next year! Gotta say it was amazing seeing the whole town of Pickering dressed up in 40's clothes, it's overwhelmingly awesome. Shame it was soooo busy!

Other than that, I've just been looking for work [still unlucky!], being rather shit in terms of health [another story!] and been trying not to kill everything and everyone around me out of self-frustration.

Though there has been one really good thing that's come of the last 6 weeks, and that's `dxd overcoming his alcohol problem. He's been sober for the last 6 weeks and has done amazingly well - I'm so proud of him

So go stop by his page to encourage and congratulate him on being awesome

I'll have to get onto getting some more photos up here, since my sub is about to run out. Wanna make sure I'm able to get crit

.

OHANDHEY. In case you've been retarded and not noticed... FREE SHIPPING on prints

Check out my store and help me not be super-depressed and broke please

[link]

Lord knows I might be able to purchase myself a sub with print profits

OHANDHEYSOMEMORE. I've been a deviant for 5 years now. That's a bloody achievement in itself ;D

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]]> =xxbcxx Home and stuff http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/27394481/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/27394481/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 15:19:23 PDT

Wales was lovely

I ended up coming home last Wednesday as opposed to this Monday just gone, so I was only away for 3 days instead of a week!

I had a few things to sort out in my own head, and the time away did some good. You'll be glad to know things are slowly getting back on track! Emotionally I'm still all over the place, but that's a given since I've moved 150 miles away from everything and everyone I know, and I'm still without a job. All I really have to think about is my lack of money, `dxd and my ever-wavering health.

Pre-Wales visit saw me having yet another blood test, and I've since had the results back - All clear. For what? I have no idea. They keep telling me I'm fine and then calling me up early in the morning and telling me I urgently need another blood test for something or another. It's unnerving, especially when I've now been examined by 4 doctors [2 of which were hospital specialists], have had 4 blood tests, 2 urine tests and a swab/culture test and each time I've been told it's nothing to worry about.

So why all the fucking tests?!

It's getting beyond a joke now. Hopefully this previous one was the last of them and they'll leave me be until my hospital check up, which is in January. I just want to forget that there might be a potential issue with my boob-lump, which I've now non-affectionately named Josephine-Marcellus-Marie-FUCKFACE, and concentrate on getting my life up north sorted out.

Starting with a motherfucking job, because sitting around in this house all day is driving me fucking batshit insane.

Should get onto making some more jewelry to sell

Just gotta get over this silly cold first!

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]]> =xxbcxx Wales http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/27172744/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/27172744/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 15:06:08 PDT

I'll be going to Wales tomorrow for a week, possibly longer. I need to get away from everything here and just sort my head out about certain things.

The opportunity to help out one of dxd's step mothers friends in her beading shop has arisen and so both Callum [dxd's brother] and I are heading down tomorrow to lend a hand and just be generally awesome.

It'd be good for me to get out and about... Do something responsible and different. Plus I just need to get away from it all here because it's been a shit few weeks and I've about had enough of everything.

Should hopefully have internet access, but if I dont then I want you kids to behave for auntie Bini! Don't be slutty fucks... Oh, and remember, don't send photos of yourself in your underwear to other people - or leave said photos of other people on your laptop for your respective other half to find. It'll end in tears.

Bye

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]]> =xxbcxx December Devmeet, anyone? http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/27010497/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/27010497/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 07:29:35 PDT

Who's up for a London devMEET in December? ... Read on!

=yvanklestein is travelling all the way from New Zealand to visit the UK in December, and to celebrate the sheer awesomeness of this, =firedance99 and I have arranged a devMEET in London town!

All the important bits...

Date: Saturday 5th December
Time: between 12-1 starting (we might see about having a flag so you folks can find us)
Place: Meet at the Tate Modern Gallery, after that, wherever we feel like!
Activities: We'll decide that on the day depending on what people want

If you're interested in going, then leave a comment in =firedance99's journal here: [link]

If you need further information about travel [Anywhere in the UK as well as getting around London] then drop me a note and I'll be more than happy to help!

I hope to see you all there

I'm so excited!!!!

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]]> =xxbcxx More health + Job rant + other http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26829195/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26829195/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 03:09:24 PDT

So my previous couple journals have been about what's going on with my boobies.

As you may recall, I had a hospital appointment on the 19th [Wednesday last week] where I then ended up being seen by 2 specialists, which makes 4 doctors in total

. So after being examined by them and giving yet another urine sample, I was told that the lump was nothing to worry about, and they've booked me in for a follow up appointment at the hospital in a few months time. They then sent me to have another blood test

3 vials later I ended up with a bruised arm and a happy feeling that I'm going to be alright

On Thursday, I had a job interview in Nottingham for a Marketing position, and I was called back for a second "all day assessment interview" on Friday. After spending an entire day going door to door in the rain, I'd about had enough. My feet were murdering me from having worn the wrong shoes because I wasn't told what the assessment day would be about. Hammering feet aside, the job was basically about starting from the bottom as a door knocker to promote and sell products via direct "marketing", to end up as a business partner/manager within the next 8-10 months via their management training programme.

The company boasted an average retirement age of 35 for its employees because they make so much money. However impressive the end result may be, I simply didn't feel the job was for me. I'd decided halfway through the assessment day that I probably wouldn't get the job and so I didn't seem as enthusiastic as I had done from the beginning. Imagine my shock that when I finally got back into the office at 9pm and I had a final interview... Where I was offered a position because they were so impressed with me.

I figured I'd accept the job - As I need money and I can always keep looking for an alternative. Finding another job whilst you're currently in a job always seems easier, right? So after accepting the position, the manager told me that there was a special presentation thingybob up in Manchester and invited me to come along as all the big bosses would be there. Reluctantly I accepted the invite and arrived back at the Nottingham office at proposed time of 7.30am the next morning, ready for my trip.

We piled into an ancient, rusty car and off to Manchester we drove. Eventually we arrived into the big M, parked up and off we went to try and find where this event was being held. Walked around for 30 minutes or so, wearing smart heels which were rubbing against my newly aquired blisters from yesterday... We finally found this place tucked away in the middle of nowhere. Four flights of stairs up, no elevator. Urgh. Got up there, and everyone was standing up in this rather cramped room... A couple hours of schmoozing and shoulder rubbing with supposed millionnaires and then we were sent off in groups to do more door knocking. WHAT THE FUCK. No one told me about WORKING that day. So incredibly panicked and unimpressed by the whole thing, I set off to find a Primark so I can buy some cheap ass flat shoes in a size one up from my own, because my feet were that damn sore and swollen. Money spent - Money I dont really have to spend - We piled onto a train [Fare cannot be claimed back!] and off we went to do more door knocking.

After the days door knocking was done, abuse had from half of the people we managed to speak to... We headed back to the Manchester office only to find that our ride back down to Nottingham was non-existant. So I had to spend Â£15 on a single train ticket from Manchester to Sheffield [Sheffield is closer to where I live as opposed to Nottingham... And again, spending money I cannot afford to spend and knowing that I cannot claim back my travel expenses because the company doesnt allow it

] I got home at 10pm again - Shattered, upset and starving as it was the second day in a row that I'd not eaten anything proper.

I was so amazingly fed up and ended up bawling my eyes out that night. So fed up that as impressed as my managers were with me, I didn't bother showing up for work on Monday. Or yesterday. Or today. The trend will continue. I got fooled into thinking this job paid an hourly wage when it is strictly commission based. I cant claim back my expenses and the company expects me to use my own phone for business purposes. Not to mention the working hours are ridicu... ]]> =xxbcxx Health update ** EDIT** http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26416603/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26416603/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 15:21:45 PDT

For those who've been following my journals over the last few weeks, you'll know that I've had some health concerns, but didn't want to say what until I'd found out more.

Well... I know more now.

See, a couple months ago I noticed some discharge coming out from my nipple, and my boobs were really sore and tender - It worried me a little. Researched it a bit on the internet and spoke with a couple friends who knew other people who worked within medicine. Anyway, eventually came to the conclusion that it may have been something to do with medication I had to take prior to that time... Which was screwing with my hormones and causing my body to do strange things, such as the discharge.

This kept happening and didn't show any signs of stopping, so I eventually plucked up the courage to go to my doctor. He examined me and told me that there was a small lump in my right breast. He told me to keep an eye on it for 3 weeks and then go for a blood test. Of course this news worried the fuck out of me. Thoughts of cancerous tumours, operations and even chemotherapy came to mind and it was all I could think about. I tried to keep smiling even though I was worried sick in the back of my mind.

So I waited two weeks but by then it was hurting way too much, and I didnt want to wait another week. So as I was due to move to @dxd's anyway, we decided to get me signed up at his doctors. Had my healthcheck there and was told to do a urine test as registration protocol, and was told that there was in increase in something or another [For the life of me I cant remember what she said] which could mean I might have had an infection. She told me she was going to send it off for further testing.

I then told the nurse about my lump concerns and what had been going on, and she booked me in for an appointment to see a doctor a couple days later. I went in to see the lady doctor a couple days after, and she examined me, agreed there was a lump and told me to do a swab test of the discharge. She also gave me the results of my urine test and told me it was all clear.

I did the swab test and it was handed to the doctors the next day. The following week was spent up in Northumberland with @dxd where we had a lovely time. I had my blood test this Tuesday just gone, where I was told that the swab test results were back and that there was "no significant growth"

Happy dance time!

And today I got the results of my blood test back and it's all clear - I have a clean bill of health and the lump in my breast is just a flipping annoying and painful cyst, but it's nothing to worry about as it'll sort itself out

So that's what I've been worried about, and you can see why I didn't want to make it public until I knew for certain. I didn't want to worry anyone unnecessarily. I'm just so unbelievably happy that there's nothing wrong with me

I just thought I'd let you all know

** EDIT **

So I got a call from the doctors at 9.20 this morning [I just so happened to be in bed, asleep!] when they asked me to come in at 9.30 to get my blood test results. I told the lady on the phone that I'd called up last week for the results and was given the all clear, but she was adamant that I come down to the surgery. So, with only 10 minutes to get out of bed, get ready and get there I started buzzing around the place in a panic.

Then it hit me properly... Right in the middle of brushing my teeth... Why would they tell me everything is fine, only to call me in so urgently a fewt days later? And then the stupid paranoia set in. I thought I'd said goodbye to the worry - Evidently i was just a "See you soon!"

So, @dxd, me and his step mother [who offered to drive us down to the surgery] all arrived on time surprisingly, and I went into the consulting room to see the doctor. She told me that there was in irregularity in my blood test and that my hormones were higher than they should be, then booked me in for an appointment to see an Endocrinologist at Doncaster hospital on Wednesday next week.

They told me everything was alright when I phoned for my blood test results last Thursday, and now... ]]> =xxbcxx Summer contest winners announced! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26339259/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26339259/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 14:14:09 PDT

So you remember me inviting you all to join in on =Ice-11's Summertime Contest a few weeks back? Well, deadlines have been reached, entries judged and the winners have been officially announced!

And as part and parcel of the prize-giving spirit, I've offered journal features to the top winners [As I'm lame and poor and cant afford to buy gifts or subs lol]

So here we have it... The winners! Check them out and give them some much deserved love!

FIRST PLACE

"Summertime" by *chrystine

SECOND PLACE

"You know it's summer" by *fizzymilkshake

THIRD PLACE

"The Morning Butterfly" by *Laura1995

Congratulations to all the winners!

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]]> =xxbcxx Home! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26298593/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26298593/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 13:24:40 PDT

Back home now, and currently watching @dxd dry his keyboard with my hairdryer, after he spilled a glass of mead on it

It's a good watch, I recommend it to anyone haha

So the vacay away was funtimes - We stayed up in Berwick Upon Tweed (Just a couple miles south of the England/Scotland border] and got to explore the walls that were built to protect the town. Also went around Bamburgh Castle and fell in love with the beautiful beach at the foot of it

Drove across a tidal causeway to get to Lindisfarne island, which was gorgeous but was insanely busy that day - Bloody tourists

And also had a fun boat trip around the Farne islands where we got soaked by the waves, got to see seals up close and lots of puffins!!!

I know @dxd got some amazing shots, which he'll hopefully put online soon!

Oh, and spent Wednesday going around Edinburgh, which was beautiful. I'd love to go back there again - Hopefully at new years, but I've been told that you need to book your hotel at least a year in advance

Maybe next year, eh?

Also had little stop offs at places like Spittal, Eyemouth, and Seahouses. Oh, and Hardrians Wall today. We would have got to see a lot more but we ran out of time

Northumberland is definitely a beautiful place and I can't wait to go back and explore it some more... Especially like to go along the "White Adder" route which takes you through some lovely villages, and then onto an awesome scenic drive... The road was fun and the surroundings were breathtaking... Definitely one for the photographers! [Just be careful of the random sheep that like to walk out into roads lol]

Anyway... Enough of boring you with my short break away.

I'll have some pics up soon so you can see for youself

I hope you're all well!

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]]> =xxbcxx Sick, vacation + Gophers http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26165138/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/26165138/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 06:16:46 PDT

I've been pretty ill these last couple days - Quite literally spewing out of both ends until there was nothing left to expel, shivering like a hooker out in a bikini on a frosty winters night, whilst having an incredibly high fever that had me going in and out of consciousness for a bit (Still maintained my sense of humour when I was conscious though, gotta be able to laugh at myself!)

I'm all better now though

My temperature has gone right down, and yesterday I was able to manage a small portion of @dxd's dads home made stir-fry with rice, and even some raspberry pie for dessert!

It all stayed in as well, which was great as I now have a sufficient amount of energy to continue nagging @dxd about keeping his bedroom clean and tidy

So we've set a date for me to move, and it'll be the 22nd August depending on if everything goes to plan back down in Luton. I can't see what could go wrong, other than the possibility of my housing benefit application being rejected, which may cause my landlady to be a turdybitch - But if that happens then I shall deal with it. Lets just hope my application is accepted (I cant see why it would be rejected as I meet all their requirements and have proved it), because I'll then be able to use that money (backdated) to pay for the rent I owe her, and it'll keep her sweet and out of my hair until moving day

So! Off to Northumberland on Monday morning for 5 days - I doubt we'll have internet access, but some time away from seemingly radioactive glowing screens might be a good thing

Will be back "home" [As in dxd's place] on Friday night, and then I'll be off to my current home in Luton on the 4th, where I'll need to sign on for JSA. (The perils of being unemployed. It's doing my fucking head in).

But not before visiting my new doctors up at dxd's to get my blood test

It's a shame they couldn't fit me in before going away. It would have been nice to have come back to a result instead of having to wait longer. Of course, by the time the doctors get my results back, I'll be in Luton... So I'll probably get to hear the good/bad/ugly by the wondrous medium that is the telephone. I dread being alone if it is bad news

I just hope it isn't!

BUT WHAT IF IT IS?
[link]

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]]> =xxbcxx It's all change! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25916265/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25916265/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 09:23:49 PDT

It's all change here in Bini-land!

I've still not managed to find a job, which is now starting to depress the heck out of me. I've spent more and more time over the last week wondering whether or not it'd be feasible setting up a small online business to sell the jewelry that I make [hence the poll], but I'm just a little nervous about doing that. Obviously it's going to start off small and slow so I'm not counting on it being my main source of income, but it's something and it's a start.

So in the next few weeks, I'll be looking to buy loads of pretty things to work with, and I'll be getting photos of my products for pre-site launch teasers

I've spent the last 2 and a half weeks away from home, I've been up at @dxd's place. I'm leaving to go back to Luton tonight

After lots of thinking, it looks like I'll be moving in with him in the next month! Thinking back on the last few months, it's hard to imagine how everything has changed and now we're back together, picking up where we left off. It's been crazy!

I'll also be going away with him and his family in a couple of weeks time for five days

It should be fun, and I can't wait to explore Northumberland and hopefully build up the landscape side of my gallery!

Speaking of photography - I've been contacted by some people about doing some work for them, one of them being with a Jewelry/Accessory business - So who knows where that might lead me!

I've also decided that while I'm an unemployed loser, I'm going to finally learn how to use Photoshop properly. I only really use it to do minimal things like cropping, resizing, adding borders, watermarks, curves/saturation etc. Nothing fancy, all basic crap. So I'm looking forward to being able to [hopefully and eventually!] be able to create some awesome stuff for submission.

Health-wise, I'm not entirely sure what's going on with myself. I've been poorly in varying degrees over the last couple months, but it's mainly been one particular "symptom" that's concerning me. I've seen the doctor and he wants to send me for a blood test to find out what's wrong, but there's definitely something irregular happening. I'm reluctant to actually say what it is until I know, so bear with me being cryptic!

My doc wants me to wait a couple of weeks before going for my blood test, but it's been a week since I've seen him and I'm in more pain now, so I might push to go for the test sooner. He's already given me the paperwork, so I guess I don't really need his permission to go have it done, but it'd be nice to clear it with him first - Just to see what his medical opinion is.

But yeah... I guess I'll know what's wrong with me in a couple weeks time. I'll be sure to keep you guys updated on anything major. I don't want to worry anyone in case it turns out to be nothing, which is why I'm anxious about giving out any more details.

So help me out by thinking positive!

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]]> =xxbcxx Join me! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25810319/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25810319/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 04:14:43 PDT

I fancied a bit of self-promotion/whoring, so I've decided to put up a "filler" journal with some awesome links...

BiniChohan.com - My online portfolio!

Bini Chohan Creative - Facebook profile for my uh... Photography

Up to date info on what's crackalackin in the right side of my brain! More to come on photoshop adventures and jewellery creation!

Bini Chohan group - The facebook group for fans of my photography

Follow me on Twitter!

... What? A girl needs to do something with her spare time! Still no joy in finding a job, so I've been busying myself with shameless self promotion

I've already got a fashion/jewellery maker who's interested in me doing some shots for their company, plus I'm toying with the idea of setting up an online store to sell the jewellery that I make

More to come... Once I know more, that is

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]]> =xxbcxx Fancy winning? http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25647655/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25647655/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 09:44:17 PDT

Ahh... Summertime

There's no doubting that the presence of a bit of decent sunshine brings out the inner child in us all

Golden rays bathing your surroundings and making everything look better, sitting out on the grass in the park reading a good book, ice creams and music, BBQ's and beer gardens. They all evoke images of happiness and friendship

So for those of us who're loving this wondrous season, =Ice-11 has decided to run a competition with the theme of SUMMER

This competition is open to all mediums - Be that Photography, traditional or digital. The aim is to create an image which depicts Summer!

So if you're interested in participating, follow this link -> [link] <- for more details. Subscription prizes for the top 3 winners [One year, 3 months and 1 month] as well as being featured in lots of journals! Oh, and did I mention that the first place winner also gets a Fella Plushie?

So what are you waiting for? Get involved and creative!

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]]> =xxbcxx Oh dear. http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25547705/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25547705/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 17:17:38 PDT

It's a pretty shit time for celebrities, especially when the Grim Reaper decides to have a working vacation up in Hollywood.

Ed McMahon
Farrah Fawcett
Michael Jackson

I wouldn't want to be famous right now, that's for sure

RIP

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]]> =xxbcxx A bit shit http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25498647/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25498647/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 15:16:29 PDT

Welp. I found out about that job on Friday [After calling them 3 times and eventually getting through to the person I needed to speak with!] ... I didn't get it.

They hired someone with more experience, and told me that they were really impressed and if there was another position available that they'd have also hired me. They've asked me if they could keep my details on file, and as soon as another job like that comes up in the area, they'll give me first refusal.

Which is a good result, considering I didn't get the job in the end. Still, doesn't help me now!

I'm pretty damn broke!

Had a Job Seekers Allowance meeting today though.

Not sure if I'll get it to be honest. I quit my job of my own accord, which they frown upon. What I find bizarre is that I've worked since I was 16, and full time since I was 18. My tax contributions have spanned a total of 7 years and it's a damn quest just to get to my OWN money. I now have to play yet another waiting game while they process my claim, and I'll most likely get rejected anyway. Fun times!

Told my landlady yesterday that I'm not going to be able to make rent this month - That was pretty awkward. Oh, and according to the nice guy who interviewed me this afternoon, I'm also entitled to housing benefits to help me with rent, but only if I get approved for JSA. Soooo... It all rests on something I'm not even sure I'll get.

I guess the rest of this week will be spent jobsearching some more, waiting some more, and despairing some more. Still, next week should be good. I'm off to see @dxd on Monday and should be back home on Friday, as I'll have my first sign on date then. Hmm. Still have to sign on even though I probably wont get JSA!

My unemployment is keeping others employed, I guess it's good for something afterall?!?

Blah. Excuse me for being a mardy arse. I've been unemployed for nearly 6 weeks now and it's beginning to get difficult to keep positive. I'm quite literally losing all hope

Health isn't looking/feeling so good either. I think I need to get myself to a doctor. Oh, if only one could afford to pay for prescriptions. Le sigh.

Though, I gotta admit... This video puts a smile back on my face [link]

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]]> =xxbcxx What's a girl to do? http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25386256/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25386256/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 03:09:02 PDT

I'm craving a caramel frappuccino, damn it!

Still no news on whether I've got that job or not, though I'm presuming I haven't because I was supposed to have heard back from them by yesterday [Like they told me]. No rejection email yet, which makes me wonder if they're delaying in telling people for some reason or just can't be bothered. Hmm.

If I don't hear back by tomorrow midday then I'm going to call them and find out what's crackalackin. I think that's a reasonable time to wait, right?

Gotta love being poor :sigh: No job yet, no idea how I'm going to pay my rent and other bills in the next month, my mobile phone has been completely cut off now because I can't afford to pay my bill [and they know my situation and refused a goodwill gesture payment from me, bastards]. Thanks to @dxd for setting me up with a phone and a PAYG sim, so I'm actually able to call people about work.

Desperate times and it seems like everyone else is in the same pit, struggling to climb out. What am I going to do? I'm dead paranoid that I'll be out on the street if I can't pay my rent

Bleh.

/ends shitty journal and moves onto something funny:

OK so there's 3 blondes in a lift, suddenly the lift comes to a halt and the lights go out. First they try and call for help by using their mobile phonesÂ but no luck. The phone's have no signal.

After a couple of hours being stuck with no sign of help, 1 blond says to the others 'I think the best way to call for help is by shouting together.'

The others agree, and they take a deep breath and begin to shout 'Together, together, together!'

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]]> =xxbcxx London HQ Meet... http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25327932/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25327932/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 11:53:17 PDT

INSANE!

So many people showed up and I got to meet some rather awesome folk

It was quite overwhelming, the amount of people that were there... I'm pretty sure that some random park-performing cosplayers decided to join in and pretend to be deviants

There are tons of photos of the London HQ Meet flying around, I've still not managed to look through them all

But it was amazing meeting so many deviants at once - I got some really good photos which I'll upload in a collage soon, and I've even managed to get a fucking amazing video of @Narfmaster dancing with some cosplayers...

A HUGE thank you to $Heidi and $spyed for coming over to our little part of the world and making it such an event! (Thanks for the stickers and giant posters too!

)

Just in case you know, London has the highest amount of deviants as you can tell by the photo below... ;D

After spending a lot of time at the park, a group of us including Angelo and Heidi headed off to le pub, where boozings and eatings followed. Don't tell anyone, but I nicked a chip off $spyed's plate and drew some rude things using his tablet and laptop...

Overall it was good fun! I wonder if they'll ever do something like this again in the future... I hope so!

*****

For those in the know, I quit my job last month and have been bumming around ever since. It's so hard trying to find a job during a stupid ass recession, but I had an interview today which I thought went well. I'm not sure if I'll get the job, but it'd be pretty nice if I did... I'd be able to feed myself and all sorts again!

Fingers crossed that I'll get it... I'll find out by Wednesday afternoon by the latest

I'll either be getting drunk to celebrate, or drowning my sorrows

Much love to you all!

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]]> =xxbcxx London HQ meet! ** UPDATED ** http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25136490/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25136490/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 01:36:38 PDT

EDIT::

In case you've missed the ENORMOUS banner in your message centre, the London devmeet will be THIS SUNDAY, the 14th

You better be there, or I'll be sad

xx

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Hi all

$Moonbeam13 has confirmed that London is the next stop on the epic HQ tour, after Paris that is...

It's anticipated to be within the next couple of weeks, so save a spot in your diary if you're a UK deviant! @dxd and I shall definitely be there, and I know there's already a rather long list of deviant's who're interested: [link]

If this is the first time you're hearing about anything [where the hell have you been?!] then you should check out the official dA HQ Group [link] to get a general idea of what to expect from $spyed and $Heidi's voyage to London.

People will be travelling from quite far to represent the UK's deviant population, so if you've got the time then come and join us! We need to prove that the UK has the most awesome deviants, plus we'd love to meet you!

We'll see you there?! x

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]]> =xxbcxx Auntie... Again! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25093620/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25093620/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 17:26:31 PDT

I just got a text from my brother to let me know I'm an auntie again!

My brothers fiancÃ© gave birth to a healthy 8lbs 6oz girl at 22:19 this evening. She was delivered by an emergency c-section, but both mother and baby are reported to be doing well

YAY! I have a nephew AND a niece now

I'll get pics when I can! xx

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]]> =xxbcxx Owned http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25067918/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/25067918/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 11:12:42 PDT

Apparently I belong to @dxd's doggy Jasper, who's tried to pee on me just now. Lovely.

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]]> =xxbcxx Some more modelling, maybe? http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24892910/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24892910/ Fri, 22 May 2009 15:31:46 PDT

So... People keep telling me I should do some more modelling, and a conversation about doing different types of modelling has sparked my imagination. I've been giving it a bit of thought and figured what the heck! I'm up for it, so long as I'm working with like-minded people who're professional, but know how to have fun too!

So, anyone fancy me for a model in one of their shoots?

Keeping in mind that I'm still a newbie at this, so will most likely be a TFCD basis to begin with, and cost of travel will need to be covered if it's held beyond my local area. Also, no nude shoots

I'm up for most styles but keep it classy, so please refrain from sleazy comments and suggestions.

If you're interested, then please drop me a note with details and we can discuss what/where/when etc!

On another note: @dxd and I are still working through our issues - Or mostly MY issues - And I think we're making progress, slowly but surely. I'm still up at his house, but we're planning on driving back down to my place tomorrow morning for a couple days. It's going to be weird, going back and forth all the time, but it'll all be worth it if things work out

Thanks to everyone who wished us good luck, you're all sweethearts and it's great to know who your real friends are during times like these. People who bother caring enough to respond and offer support are worth holding on to - The people who don't aren't people I'll miss in the long run - So thank you once more!

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]]> =xxbcxx At dxd's. http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24852976/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24852976/ Wed, 20 May 2009 08:36:38 PDT

Hai

So I called it a day with Adam because I realised I was still having feelings for Dom [@dxd] and thought I owed it to myself to give things another try between us.

So Dom came to see me on his way back from Wales on Monday, and last night we drove up to his parents for a few days. I got to meet his gorgeous new doggy Max, who's so cuddly and sweet and always happy [despite slicing his tongue open and bleeding all over the kitchen floor earlier!

]. He really is a gentle giant and I want to take him home with me!

Despite difficulty, @dxd and I are going to try and work things out. It's going to take a lot of time and effort, but we'll see how things go! So wish us luck ;D

Bini x

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]]> =xxbcxx Out with the old http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24786202/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24786202/ Sat, 16 May 2009 11:51:44 PDT

Clearing out devwatch, in particular people.

Out with the old and not necessarily in with the new

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]]> =xxbcxx Freedom http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24752578/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24752578/ Thu, 14 May 2009 11:48:21 PDT

Freedom.

As a child, you think that when you grow up things will all go to plan and you'll have the perfect job, find the perfect guy, settle down, get married and have kids, then live happily ever after. Adorable family dog optional, of course.

And then one day you wake up, aged 23 and realise that you were on your way to having it all but made a stupid mistake which cost you everything... And now you're sharing a house with 4 guys, and bitterly hate everyone and everything, especially yourself because you're not quite sure how you got to this point, and you're not sure how to get out of it either.

So you keep on going the best way you can, plastering on a cute little fake smile to fool people you have to bother with daily, only to find that as much success and headway you think you're making you're just moving backwards because you're really not happy. You're not happy with distracting yourself with stupid things, and even stupider people. I'm 23, moving backwards and I've quit my job for various reasons. I quit yesterday, in fact.

Bouncing back is my specialist subject, but I'm exhausted of it. We're five months into 2009, not even halfway through, and it's been the shittest year of my entire life. I just wonder what other joys the next 7 months will bring my way. Oh boy, I'm super duper excited

So... Freedom. I have what most people desire. No strings, no commitments and nothing stopping me except, well, me. I wish I knew what I wanted to do with myself. It's scary not knowing. I hate not knowing.

Being 23 is awesome

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]]> =xxbcxx Home now! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24715054/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24715054/ Tue, 12 May 2009 04:45:21 PDT

Phew!

I'm back home now, after spending a few days with my new boyfriend Adam up in Nottingham

I had a great birthday - Adam took me to Alton Towers and luckily the weather was gorgeous enough for us to get absolutely soaked on the water rides, and dry off in the sun

Who needs those stupid walk in dryer things when you've got gorgeous sunlight and a rather yummy dude to warm you up?

We got fast track tickets for some of the big rides, which really helped! It wasn't too busy in the morning but queues got rather epic in the afternoon, so I'd definitely recommend the few extra quid to be fast tracked! Also... It's worth queuing a a bit longer to be at the front on Rita Queen of Speed and OH... AIR IS AMAZING!

I can't wait to see sir Adam again!

There's a few loose ends which we both need to tie up before we can figure out when the next time will be, but by the end of this week we should both be a lot clearer on personal situations. Either way, it's definitely going to happen, and he'll get to experience the dull sights of Luton this time. Something tells me we'll be spending a lot of time in London instead...!

Thanks to everyone who sent me happy birthday wishes on here and facebook, I LOVE YOU ALL!

I had some bad news just before I went away to Nottingham, but Adam kept me cheery and positive while I was oop norf. I felt all sad again when I got back home last night, but then I logged in and saw everyone's messages and they brought back my smile

So yeah... All in all an awesome few days in which I realised a few things... A few very important things

x x

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]]> =xxbcxx What's one word? http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24577310/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24577310/ Mon, 04 May 2009 03:06:54 PDT

What's the one word that sums up how you're feeling at this exact moment?

I guess mine would be... Intense.

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]]> =xxbcxx Burning candle. Both ends. http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24371358/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24371358/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 03:54:13 PDT

Ouchies.

Darn that candle and it's double ended wick, allowing me to burn it at both ends. Utter madness I say!

It's been a busy few weeks in Bini-Land. Work has been alright, feeling a little more stable and directed in what I'm doing, which is never a bad thing

My appraisal went well, and dare I say... I'm actually looking forward to my next one in 6 months! I think I might be slightly insane on that count...

So This week just gone, I went down to merry ol' London town for a couple days to meet up with =Spealunker, who'd flown in from the states for a week. Very cool guy

Doesn't wear underwear. Cuddles when drunk too. Love's Arsenal. Good man

Ministry of Sound loltimes

So I have the rest of this week off to kind of catch up on myself. Well, that's my plan for today anyway. Tomorrow I'll be back down in London for a couple of days, meeting up with a special dude-guy by the name of Adam. It should be a right giggle!

I hear there's a devmeet going down in London on Saturday, which I'm down as a maybe for. I'll probably give it a miss to be honest. I'll be knackered from Adam's madness and will need to be back in Luton by saturday afternoon so I can pick up my new glasses.... Spent Â£200 on em!

Necessary though, as my current specs are RUINED with scratches

Anyhoo... Life should start to return to less-than-madness by next week. My 23rd birthday is coming up on May 10th, and the plan is to go to Alton Towers with said dude-guy.

Also heard there's an alton-towers devmeet literally a week after I'll be there, which is a shame!

Oh and guess what? My indian bridal modelling pics are now up on dA, so mosey on over to *sleepybutterfly's page and go favey!

Aw man... I'm SO excited about tomorrow!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

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]]> =xxbcxx I'm back! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24071759/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/24071759/ Sun, 05 Apr 2009 08:42:37 PDT

Hi guys!

Christ almighty, it feels like I've been gone an eternity and I've missed you all! I've not been able to get online due to one housemate being a BASTARD, and then BT not being able to install my own line in because they want to charge me over a grand [Apparently they need to dig up the pavement just to get another line fitted

] and now Virgin can't connect me because we're only allowed one line per household - Long story short, it's left me frustrated and bored senseless!

But thanks to my other housemates Kushal and Dave, we've figured out a work around for the time being. I wont have access all the time, but it's SO much better than none at all! I can't believe I managed to go that long without internet and I haven't killed anyone LOL. Dave and Kush... You guys rock! Not that you can see this, but even so... Rocking is still occurring

I've taken to jewelry making like a duck to water. Last weekend `dxd's step mum and I went down to Swansea to visit her jewelry-making friend Jenny, who showed me the ropes! I've since made a fuck-ton of jewelry

Some of which I might sell. Apparently it's good enough to sell as I've had a few people who're interested in some bespoke pieces

Should be a nice little on-the-side earner!

Speaking of earning on the side, people keep telling me I should model professionally after seeing the AMAZING photo's that ~sleepybutterfly had taken during our 12 hour long Indian bridal photoshoot about 3 weeks ago

She's not put them up on dA yet, but they're up on fk creative on facebook

Here be the direct image links for you to check out ::

[link]
[link]
[link]
[link]

Whatcha think?

Update on work and life in general...

Work is busy and stressful - I have my appraisal coming up soon and I'm not sure how that's gonna go! Life has been... Alright I guess. Through lack of internet, I'm having what equates to some kind of social life and making future plans. I've already decided what I'm doing for my birthday, and it was what I was supposed to do last year, but we never got around to it!

I'm going to ~babyhippy123's wedding next Saturday [her hen do is on Friday... It might get messy! lol], and I shall most definitely be taking some lovely wedding photo's for her!

And then on Sunday =Spealunker and his friend are flying over from America to London, so I shall be getting drunk with them! The following Friday we're all going to see BT at Ministry of Sound, which should be a right giggle!

Then a few days later I'll be back down in London again to meet a friend from Nottingham, who'll be down visiting family but has decided to stop over a couple extra days before so we can chillax like the two little retards that we are!

Oh, and my dad got in touch with me out of nowhere. We decided to meet up and go for drink... ]]> =xxbcxx Modelling + Goodbye dxd http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23697670/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23697670/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 16:26:55 PDT

I had a photoshoot with ~sleepybutterfly and her friend Kiran today! It started at 10am and finished about 10pm - Been a very long day filled with lots of beautiful jewellery, clothing, amazing make up by Kiran, lights having minds of their own and of course, ~sleepybutterfly's great shooting skills which brought it all together

[Oh, and a problem with my boobs being a bit too big for one of the dresses which had this corset thing going on, then having to be SEWN into it LOL]

I'm so excited to see how the photo's turn out

I've had a sneak preview of a couple of looks we did and I was shocked at how stunning they made me look, it was almost like I was looking at someone else

There were 3 looks in all, two very striking Indian Bridal looks, and one insaaaaanely gorgeous high-fashion look - I think Kiran surprised herself with what she could create

Aw man, I really cant wait to see the end results!

They both mentioned that I should think about getting into modelling... I'm not sure I'm confident enough but maybe if given enough practice then I might be

*****

Tomorrow is the last day I'll see `dxd for a while

He's moving back up to Derbyshire with his family. I'm going to miss him so much, but I definitely plan on visiting as soon as I get a car. I have a floor he can sleep on when he visits too

I love you `dxd - I'm sorry for how things turned out but I'm so glad we've been able to remain close. You're my best friend above and beyond everything and I'm going to miss you like hell. I'm going to fail at not crying tomorrow lol, I know I'm just going to blub like a baby but it's not like you're moving to the other side of the world, and it's not like we'll never see each other again. At least I hope not... I only wish that you weren't moving away at all.

Don't be a stranger hun

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]]> =xxbcxx HELLO! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23462343/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23462343/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 02:43:05 PST

Is it meeee you're looking foooor...?

I'm all moved into my new place, and Dom was sweet enough to help me shift some of my crap over, and then set up my computer and wireless connection for me

Also, thank you for the TV... The one that was already in my room decided to ELECTROCUTE ME. Fun times

I've been up and running online since last night, but didn't get much of an opportunity to type up a journal letting you all know everything went smoothly!

I spent most of last night in my housemate's room just chatting away - He's a very cool guy and even made me dinner

The other guys I'm living with are pretty cool too, but Sean [and I hope I've got the right spelling of his name, too many variations

] is rather awesome, chatty and down to earth. A real positive influence, since my initial plan was to just get up and running online and hide away in my room for the evening. I'm glad I didn't go through with being anti-social

I've got tomorrow booked off work, so I'm going to spend the rest of today and tomorrow unpacking. I'm then meeting ~sleepybutterfly in town tomorrow evening for a coffee to discuss an Indian bridal style photoshoot we're going to do in a couple of weeks! She wants me to be one of her models, so we're going to meet up and talk about what's expected

Man I cannot believe how different things are from just two weeks ago. I was about ready to drop off the face of the earth, but now I've decided to just look forward to the future instead of focussing on the past. I cant focus on the past... Bad thoughts happen. But this is all new... New people, new experiences... New and exciting!

I better unpack some of my clothes now

Need more wardrobe space, and more space for all my shoes. Oh, and Sean and I are going to learn how to cook properly together! He makes some gorgeous Caribbean food... And I can do up a pretty good pizza... _{From Domino's}

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]]> =xxbcxx Found a place! [EDIT] http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23397935/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23397935/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 07:57:37 PST

So today I went to view a couple of places to move into... I really liked the sound of the first place, but I hated it when I viewed it

But then she showed me somewhere else, which turned out to be just right!

I'll be house-sharing with a few guys, but the house itself is quite nice and I met a couple of the guys who're really cool. I didn't wanna jump in at the deep end and get my own place straight away, so I figured doing a house-share would ease me into the process.

So I saw this place a couple of hours ago... And I've put down a holding deposit. I just need to wait for it to clear [Which should be immediately, unless there's transfer lag between these two banks

] anyway... Once it clears, I've got the green light to move in!

Hopefully that'll be this weekend. Dom's already started packing his stuff in anticipation. He'll probably end up moving out around the 20th as opposed to the end of March. It's the end of an era people!!! As sad as I am, I'm looking forward to building up some independence, and getting to know new people.

Oh. Pizza tonight helped to convince Dom to help me move on Saturday lol

Now I just gotta figure out where the hizzeck to get some boxes from so I can start packing properly!!!

I'm not entirely sure of the internet situation at the place I'll be staying at. Apparently there's 2 connections and it's all shared, but one person uses one thing and something to do with wireless and 3G... All too confusing to be honest. Not quite sure if I'll be able to get myself up and running online on the day or not - But that's the plan!

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared, but at the end of the day this needs to be done. By the looks of things, Dom and I are going to try and stay friends. We're already joking about stupid things, so that's promising... I think?!

Anyway, gonna get back to watching a film with said ex-fiance.

Speak to you soon!!! xx

--- EDIT ---

Soooo... A deposit, a months rent and the admin fee have been fully paid, and I'm almost ready to move! I signed the contracts today at lunchtime, and I'm meeting my landlady at the property tomorrow at 2pm to get the keys

I'm almost finished packing too. My computer is the last thing I'll be packing up tomorrow afternoon, and the first thing I hope to set up when I'm all moved in... `dxd is helping me move all my stuff too

It's going to be an interestingly emotional day tomorrow. I didn't get any sleep last night so I'm running on steam and juice right now, but I think that 1.5hours and almost everything packed is pretty damn record-worthy

I'm hoping to get online ASAP. We shall see what the set up is when I get there, but hopefully I'll be talking to you all again very shortly! If not, then keep an eye out on my twitter [link] and facebook [link] accounts, as I can update those via my phone [dA seems to disagree with it

]

Righto... I'm almost ready for that big step! Thank you all for your support!!

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]]> =xxbcxx Onwards http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23335961/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23335961/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 03:43:32 PST

And I wish I could say upwards, but that'll take quite some time. This is going to be a tough mountain to climb.

So our cute apartment is no longer going to be a home to either one of us. Dom's handed in his notice at work, and will be leaving at the end of March - Moving into his Dad and step mothers place for a while so he can rekindle ye olde family vibe, which should hopefully do him the world of good and get him back on the right track.

Knowing that I'll struggle to afford this place by myself, I've decided to leave as well. It's awkward living here with Dom, as friendly as we can be with one another, I think we can be equally horrible. It's not easy, and after last weeks events I think I'm better off away from this environment so I don't end up having a crazy-fit and doing something stupid.

I'm viewing a couple of places on Wednesday, and with any luck I might like them enough to be able to move out by the end of next week, or thereabouts. So just thought I'd update you on my latest goings-on, instead of silly emotion-fuelled journals or random "Journal goes here" ones that act as fillers and distractions.

I've contacted our land-lady who now lives in Dubai, and made her aware of the situation. She's been more than understanding, and is going to market this apartment as being available from April onwards.

Oh man. It's hard to believe all this is actually happening. Tough times eh? I should be used to them by now but this is still a shocker. After moving out I'm not really sure what my plans will be. I don't really have any family around to fall back on so I'm going to have to rely on myself - Not sure how that'll work out!

I suppose I'll just concentrate on my job and work on sorting my social life out. Moving out of here should mean I have a bit more money spare - To spend or save. I'm not really sure what I'll save up for... And there's nothing that I really want that I can buy. Stupid stupid.

Anyway. As hard as things have been over the last couple of years, they've been the best of my life and I know I'll never forget them. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for Dom and his love and positive influence - Whether he agrees with that or not!!

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]]> =xxbcxx Devious Journal Entry http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23298416/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23298416/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 23:22:56 PST

Journal goes here

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]]> =xxbcxx Invasion of privacy http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23021084/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/23021084/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 13:48:04 PST

You feel all safe and secure in your own home, right? At least you should. Until one day, some dodgy "salesman" decides to hammer on your front door claiming to be from a major gas and electricity company - And then tries to force his way into your home, and you have to shove him out of your doorway and quickly slam your door shut in his face.

And then run upstairs and hide like a child.

You freak out so badly that you dont even feel safe in the one place that you should be safe in, and that just makes you freak out even more, until you're this stupidly pathetic freak-out mess who has your boyfriend on one phone, and the gas company on another phone because you're irate and need to make a complaint. You need to make sure that it wasnt some horrible man pretending to be a sales person, that it was just someone who overstepped their boundaries and will either learn from their mistakes or get fired. Whatever.

And then you call the police after your boyfriend urges you to. Several hours later, the police show up just to get another description of the guy, only to end up telling you that there's been a few phone calls about a guy doing this in my area. My safe, secure area and they'll have a patrol unit out here tomorrow just to make sure everything is alright.

But you're still freaked out about it. The knowledge that the weather and road conditions are so bad that no one can get to you if the bad guy come back... And then thoughts of "what if he hurt me?" start creeping in. Then wondering what on earth would happen if you couldnt control the situation, that if you did get taken down and if you did get hurt... That NO ONE would know until your boyfriend got home, because you really dont have anyone except him that cares enough to check up on you, that even bothers to call when they've seen that something bad has happened to you via facebook.

And then you start freaking out about being alone. And then you start crying like an idiot.

Chalk it down to a bad day I guess. I get to start again tomorrow, right? And it'll be better. It's always better the next day...

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]]> =xxbcxx Yo http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22935755/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22935755/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 04:58:10 PST

What's crackalackin?

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]]> =xxbcxx For all you cunts out there http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22561719/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22561719/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 14:42:53 PST

[link]

ILY

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]]> =xxbcxx OH http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22499610/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22499610/ Sat, 10 Jan 2009 04:28:30 PST

I JUST DIIIIIED IN YOUR AAAARMS TONIIIGHT...

[link]

or

[link] ?

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]]> =xxbcxx BUH http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22445746/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22445746/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 03:56:24 PST

I has chest infection.

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]]> =xxbcxx The Queen [Bini] Speech http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22183834/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/22183834/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 07:29:57 PST

So...

Merry FUCKmas! Hope you're all having/had a great day and have got loads of lush pressies

I hope you're all fat on yummy foodstuffs as well! If you're not, then you're either in a third world country [Makes me wonder how you can afford a computer and the internet, but not to feed yourself??], or are starving yourself for one reason or another. If the latter is the case then PLEASE for the love of God, SLAP YOURSELF.

Anyhoo.

`dxd bought me a Sony Vaio Laptop and an absolutely stunning diamond cross necklace, which I'm vowing to never take off unless I have a shower/bath/go to bed/attacked and it gets stolen

Besides having an insanely high phone bill for yet another month, I've been boozing it up a bit too much lately - Friggin party season and all

It all culminated in me being ill for the last week or so, and being too ill to go out last night. BAH! No more booze for me... Promise! Which is a great shame because we have so much of it! And it's unfair on `dxd's liver to make him drink it all alone................. Maybe I'll have a small glass of wine with Christmas Dinner later!!

Oh, I'm making Christmas dinner this year. Lets see if the kitchen remains standing in a few hours time

I'll keep you updated haha.

It's been a strange year... Lots of drama and also lots of great things. It's been a weird one in the sense that I've been put into situations I never thought would happen, and I've come out of it alright!

Time to start thinking about new years resolutions now... I think mine are going to be:
1) Be kinder to my liver
2) Quit being so anti-social
3) Be better with my money and actually start saving up
4) Get fit. It's wrong that no matter how thin I am, I'm out of breath when going up 2 flights of stairs. BAD!
5) Continue being awesome.

If I dont get a chance to say it before it rolls around, HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR!!!!

Anyway, this concludes QUEEN BINI'S speech for 2008!

Much love,
... Bini & Dom xx

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]]> =xxbcxx Help one of the most amazing people on dA! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/21945078/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/21945078/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 05:06:33 PST

`ladytwiglet needs your help!

Please go and vote for her [Donna Mills] on all 5 days of the competition:

-> [link] <-

She's currently up against a professional photographer [This competition is meant to be for amateurs!] and to make it worse... He's bitching about her on his flickr account. HOW BLOODY RUDE!

So come on people! As a community of people who're trying to make it in the business, lets help our own!

If she wins, she'll be named the Sony Ericsson Official Photographer 2009 - A MASSIVE opportunity for her.

She's given so much to this community, so give a minute of your time and vote for her on days one through to five.

DO IT NOW.

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]]> =xxbcxx Remind me http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/21297949/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/21297949/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 10:32:16 PST

Please remind me that this community DOES actually have some redeeming qualities anymore. I beg of you.

All I've seen as of late is a drama llama here, a drama llama there, a fake cancer patient here and a fake suicide over yonder. And loads of shit art in between. Obviously, not from the people I watch [If I thought your work was shit then I wouldnt watch you now, would I?

] but from general browsing.

I'm sick to the back teeth of how pathetic it's getting. It's all so bloody lame

I'd hate to sound like an old-arse, but I remember the days when I saw a piece of art which was challenging genres, which would inspire make you want to create. Now all I see is... Shit. Shit mixed in with Anime. Shitime. I know you agree.

So I thought I'd push some spectacular artwork your way

GO AND APPRECIATE. NOW.

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]]> =xxbcxx dAnniversary - 4 bloody years?! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/21041166/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/21041166/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 02:37:26 PDT

ALREADY?!

I shat bricks when I realized that I've now spent 4 years of my life on this site D:

So now we're past dropping shitty brown bricks onto unknowing passers-by, I'd like to take the opportunity to thank you all for being... well... YOU!

The last few months has seen my activity dwindle down to barely nothing, compared to what it had been previously, but it's great to know that you're all still there being supportive, uplifting and generally awesome!

My lack of activity is mostly to do with work and me being uninspired, but seeing all the trees being bathed in golden autumnal light kind of makes me want to pick up my camera again

At this very moment in time I'm concentrating on my life, what direction I want it to go in, and how I'll be getting there. I haven't the slightly bloody clue though

But isn't that always the way...?

Work is still draining me, though it's getting a lot better as I've gotten past a really trying time. And it seems as though that with all the really difficult stuff out of the way, I'm back to doing what I previously thought was impossible... And I'm bored with it?!

It's amazing how people can adapt when they just put their mind to it.

The next few months will probably be about moving out of this cute apartment and into a house where we'll have much more space, planning and saving up for our wedding. Oh, and work of course!

Starting on a new work project where we'll be taking on a different chain of restaurants called HA!HA! [still within our company] and implementing a whole new, revolutionary operation and a fancy new website!

Got until mid-January to have all of that done, and we're only in the beginning stages of this - Quite exciting really!

So yes, I'm a bit of a busy bee these days, but my weekends are thankfully work-free [I'm making that a rule, and if any of you catch me working, SHOOT ME!] so I can make some time to get back into photography and what-not

Oh, I'm making cookies later, and you're not having ANY

LOVE YOU!

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]]> =xxbcxx In all seriousness... http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20925406/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20925406/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 17:56:53 PDT

Work is fucking me up.

Things are SO manic now, and it's gotten to the point where I've been bringing my work home over the last couple of weeks in a [somewhat useless] attempt at trying to keep on top of it all.

I like this company, and I like the people. What I don't like is the utter lack of support at the moment. Me and Steve [the other new guy who started on the same day as me, but a different job] have been left to basically run our department when we don't have any experience within marketing.

I'm starting to lose my mind, and I was so close to tears when I got home earlier. I mean, I'm even staying behind after work to try and finish things up for the day. I'm not getting paid to do that, yet I'm doing it. I'm not getting paid to bring my work home, I'm not getting paid to waste my weekends working... Yet I'm doing it all because I'm the only person who seems to be doing ANYTHING.

While Steve buggers off to useless meetings at pubs across town to discuss issues with our web developers, shit that can be quite frankly done over the phone - I'm left to man the entire department myself and half the time I haven't a clue about what I'm doing. I'm just making it all up as I go along, and I can only presume I'm doing an average job of it because I still have this job.

It's been a month. One week in, our marketing manager Clare decided to up and leave, and left us in the lurch. Passed all her work onto me, Steve and our brand manager Nicola. Nicola went on holiday last week so now we've got all HER work as well as Clare's. Nicola's boss Christine is barely in the office. Her boss Mary is barely around. Her boss Suzanne[We're now getting to the top of the food chain here, our commercial director] is barely around either. Not that anyone else seems to know what to do, or what's going on either.

If I mess up, who's fault will it be? I never got any training, I was dumped right in at the deep end. Man, I feel so fucking stressed out, and it feels like no one even listens. I know I can be a whiny bitch, I know I sometimes have the tendency to repeat myself, but I need some fucking support damn it.

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]]> =xxbcxx Great news ** CLARIFICATION ** http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20888667/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20888667/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 11:55:25 PDT

So my previous journal stated that I had some amazing news

A handful of people guessed right, some replies were more absurd than my Urgent Journal...

So here's some clarification for you:

I'M NOT PREGNANT YOU BUNCH OF NUMPTIES

Christ almighty.

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]]> =xxbcxx Great news! http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20841570/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20841570/ Sun, 05 Oct 2008 12:10:50 PDT

I just got the best news EVER!

But I cant say what

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]]> =xxbcxx Urgent http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20704117/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20704117/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 11:38:17 PDT

There's something I need to say.

I just need to get this off my chest, and then I can finally relax...

...

TITS ASS COCK FUCK PISS SHIT VAGINA BOLLOCKS CUNT BASTARD TWAT PENIS WHORE SLUT ARSE COCKSTAIN BITCH PLATYPUS.

Oh.

I can predict `Rushy's response as:

That is all.

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]]> =xxbcxx Dear Jeaneai... http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20594990/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20594990/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 02:37:11 PDT

Dear =Jeaneai

I don't really know how to tell you this, but your nostrils are insulting. I think I realized it first of May as you ate enchilada and I saw you sit on Manchester United's goalkeeper. I'm sure you're man enough to understand that that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning memories from the military service to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about Oprah Winfrey imitations.

Greetings to your frog Leonard,
-Bini-

WHAT THE FUCK?!

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]]> =xxbcxx Important [Big fat edit / Lady Flu] http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20536251/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20536251/ Thu, 18 Sep 2008 11:50:53 PDT

.

..

...

My feet bloody hurt.

. : E D I T : .

Apologies for the "my feet hurt" journal [above!] I was all geared up to do a long-ish journal about my day and how I thought I would die on the London Underground yesterday... But it turns out that I was too damn tired to type anything more

Today is not really any different. I didnt do ANYTHING at work today, there was just nothing that needed to be done. Seriously. I went in at 9am [ok, got there at 8.30 because I had to get a cab, and they couldnt send me one any later

] So I got in, and just sat there. I sat, sat and sat some more... Right up until 5pm when it was time to leave. I did nothing. I couldnt even browse facebook for fear of getting caught, even though everyone else was doing it

Blargh.

I woke up this morning feeling rough as hell, much worse than last night and it's apparent that I've come down with what I'LL class as "The Lady Flu".

Y'know how guys overreact and say its the flu when they just have the sniffles? I have all of the cold symptoms plus my eyes fucking HURT with bright light, my ears fucking ache, and my entire body is killing me. I had to sit down in the shower again because I couldnt bare to stand

Even my teeth hurt... And my fingernails. So I dunno if I'm chalking this up to be more than what it actually is, but I'll call it LADY FLU.

That and because my feet still hurt

So yeah, I missed a lot of Deviant Day or whatever it was yesterday. Caught some madness in #devart but just needed my bed. So I hope you all had a blast!

Love to all my bitches
Bini xx

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]]> =xxbcxx Stolen http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20465762/ http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20465762/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 04:16:17 PDT

Yoinked this from ~duststorm10's journal! He created this a-mazing drawing of me [Pictured above], so I thought it was about time he got pimped in my journal! GO visit his gallery, you seriously wont be disappointed

_{1.) When you're home alone, do you still close the door when you use the restroom?
Sometimes! Â¬_Â¬

2.) If you have to go grocery shopping, would you rather go alone or with someone?
With someone so they can remind me to get things we NEED, not things that I just want lol

3.) It's your friends birthday, do you buy them a gift even though they didn't buy you one for yours?
Depends on the situation really. If they couldnt afford to get me a gift, then I'll still get them one. If they just plain forgot, then I guess I'll forget too...

4.) You win the lottery. What do you do?
Shit myself twice and pass out. Then come around, dance around my living room, slip and break my neck. It's just my luck.

5.) Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level?
I like loud, but sometimes barely audible is nice too... Also depends on the type of music, who I'm with/if I'm alone and where I am/what I'm doing.

6.) Are you a beach person or a snowy mountain person?
Snowy mountain beach person.

7.) When do you prefer to take a shower, morning or night?
Anytime of the day, really! Usually evenings though, just how things pan out after work

8.) Can you watch scary movies alone?
They have more effect when you're alone... So yes!

9.) Soft bed or firm?
Somewhere in the middle. If I wanna sleep on a rock, I'll sleep on a rock. Likewise, I dont wanna feel like I'm sleeping in quicksand either

10.) Would you rather stay home all day or be out and about?
I AM home all day but I'd much rather go out...there's just nothing to do in this shithole town. <-- Brians answer, which I have to agree with. It's not that I'm antisocial [much], just that there's nothing to do here!

11.) What's one of your worst memories?
Hmm... Probably something which happened when I was 6 - Something really, really fucking bad

12.) Do you like to keep the peace or be confrontational?
Depends on the situation again! If something has annoyed me, I'd rather question it and talk about it instead of doing the whole pseudo peace-keeping passive aggressive bullshit. Then again, if the other person is willing to talk it out as well, then the peace can be kept much more easily and I'll be less of a pain in your ass

13.) Are you more likely to be with a large group of people or a few close?
A few close. Large groups don't stay large very long.

14.) What are your plans for October?
Work, save up for `dxd's birthday gift, try not to hurt anyone...

15.) If money were not a problem, where would you like to live?
EVERYWHERE! I'd travel the world on a private jet and find some beautiful places, and build the perfect house in each and every location I like

16.) What is your ideal profession?
Multi-billionaire.

17.) I've always hated surveys that skip numbers...like this <- lol

18.) What is one fear that you can't seem to overcome?
Deeeeep water!

19.) Are you good at math?
I'm average I have my increadibly retarded math moments where 1+1=11, but other days I... ]]>
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First day...
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20389064/
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20389064/
Mon, 08 Sep 2008 10:29:51 PDT

OOh my first day at Bay! :exciting:

I wasn't all that nervous until `dxd drove me to work this morning. I got all nervy and jittery in the car when we were about halfway there, but I got over it as soon as we were outside my new work place

So I got there a bit early, didn't have a security pass or anything yet so I was let into the office by a lady from HR... Then sent back out and told to wait for the other new guy and that we'll be seen at 9.30. Other new guy finally arrived and we began nattering away, his name is Steven and he's 25, moved from Birmingham back to Luton with his girlfriend and yada yada... Cool guy. He's going to be in a slightly higher position than me, in the sense that he'll be managing the companies new website content, and I'll be dealing with all of the people side of it. He gets a cool laptop. I get a desktop

Guess he'll be office roaming and I'll be chair bound

Met LOADS of people today, cant even remember most of their names! Most of the day was spent chatting with the "main players" ... And my placement in the office is slap bang in the middle of marketing and commerce So I have all these important people around me... At least I've got Steven next on the desk next to me for company of someone on my level.Presuming he'll even be there half the time

Directly in front of me is this funny guy called Perry, he's "Head of food" for the entire brand [Thats going on nearly a hundred bars and restaurants] and will barely be around He swears a lot. I like him. To my left I'll have Steve. To my right is a middle aged orange guy who wears a gold medallion ring on his left pinkie finger. I dont know if he's gay. Seems quite grumpy and has lots of booze bottles on his desk... I think he's Perry's equivalent, but for the drinks side of things. Behind me I have my manager Clare, and her assistant Charlene, who I've yet to meet because she's on holiday. There's various other people around us... Opposite Steve there's this guy who creeps me out a little. We'll call him creepy dude. Opposite Clare there's Shiny-Head man who deals with legal stuff. Next to Shiny-Head man there's Ginger-Frizz dude. Also legal, I think Next to Ginger-Frizz there's my managers manager, Nicola... I give people obvious nicknames when I cant remember their actual names

So yeah, will be fun I think. I'm still not completely clear on what my job role entails. I have a vague idea. My manager is gonna have a session with Steve and me to tell us WHAT we'll ACTUALLY be doing at some point on Thursday

We'll be in London tomorrow... Getting managerial and system training! Then on Wednesday we'll be at the Slug and Lettuce in Harpenden getting some bar experience! [If you're in the area, stop by and say hello... Or just to laugh at me and steve ] Even though we're office based, we're being trained at the bar and restaurants to gain background insight into how its run, and what the managers deal with daily, and how my office role fits into all of that [Basically, part of my job is to deal with reservation requests which go through our new online system. If within 6 hours its not responded to by the relevant bar manager, it comes to me and I make or break the deal. Basically doing that part of the Bar Managers job ]

Thursday will be back at the office for more beta testing on the new systems, and Friday... Back in Harpenden for more Slug and Le... ]]>
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Crap eyeliner
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20358539/
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20358539/
Sat, 06 Sep 2008 13:40:56 PDT

Just an updateroo really!

I start my new job for Bay Restaurant Group on Monday, a nice short day - 9.30-5pm, though I doubt those will be my hours everyday! [But here's to wishing, eh?]

After sitting at home being a loser for the past month, I'm so glad to finally be able to get back to work. My horoscope says Monday will be a good day, not that I believe in it all... Thursday's horoscope is just funny

"Romantic frisson at work is in the stars. Use protection."

Does that mean I'm going to have some kind of sorded affair at my new job?!

Back on point, I cant wait to get started! This company seems to be quite cool, and hopefully I'll enjoy myself. I hope to meet some cool people there...

So just to give you folks a head up. Some of you have probably gotten used to me being somewhat of a permanant fixture in dAmn over the last few weeks - It wont be that way during the daytime anymore Be the usual level of activity/trolling during weekends though

Â W E D D I N G T A L K Â

Ahh, the wedding! `dxd and I have discussed it, and we've decided that we need to get our finances in order before we tie the knot. We need time to save, and proper time to plan, which is why we've decided to slow it down a bit and instead of planning for this time next year, we'll be looking at either Late Spring or Autumn 2010, which isn't really all that far off. But it gives us the extra time we need.

This gives all you folks more time to save up for your plane tickets or gifts hehehe

But, instead of boring everyone with wedding talk [I've damn near put myself to sleep by answering questions in dAmn ], I've decided to create a blog for the specific purpose of wedding updates and such - And there'll be quite a few

If you have a LiveJournal then add me! [link] - Now there's no excuse for not knowing

Â O T H E R Â

I bought what appears to be the worlds shittiest liquid eyeliner the other day. Rimmel Exaggerate eyeliner. Avoid it at all costs. I only picked it up because I was at the chemist trying to pay with my card [no change] and they wouldn't accept a payment under Â£5 I figured since mine was running out I might as well buy some more. IT FAILS. Then again, for Â£4.49, what would you expect? So ladies, since Revlon don't make my liquid eyeliner of choice anymore, got any suggestions? Preferably waterproof or with long staying power. Blackest black please

OH And go give `ladytwiglet lots of love - She's finally given birth to a baby boy after being in labour for THREE DAYS!

Bini xx

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FACEPALM
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20295144/
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20295144/
Tue, 02 Sep 2008 17:26:22 PDT

One emo looks towards their new chat buddy, and in a bemused tone says:

" Emokid: u dnt cut ur wrist?" *

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

Fucking emo shits are so "scene" that they think it's cool to slice their wrists open and bleed out all over their mothers bathroom floor. So cool that they're surprised when other self-proclaimed emo's say that they don't cut, like its fucking protocol otherwise you're SO not, liek, cool anymore, poser!

Bunch of fucking unappreciative COCKSTAINS. Your attention seeking wrist slitting only detracts from the people who REALLY need help, cant you fucking see? There's people out there with real problems, real issues, who're unable to get the help they need because of your obsession to fit in at high school. People who're now too ashamed to say anything because of the "attention seeker" connotations that come along with it nowadays.

Oh honestly, it makes me wonder what kind of world we live in. Since when did suicide attempts become cool? Since when was it something to be praised? Oh that guy didn't notice you at school today, so you're gonna go home and cut yourself with a wooden spoon just so you can have something to talk about the next day

What a load of wank. Quit your pathetic cries for attention and do something decent with yourself. Like maybe going to the hairdressers and getting a haircut which doesn't look like your 3 year old brother went apeshit with a pair of scissors while you were sleeping. You might have something to smile about then.

I understand that there's genuine people out there. But those people wouldn't talk about their cutting in such a stupid, childish fashion. It's sickening.

I wonder when this whole cutting stigma will be separated from being emo. Emo isn't about cutting yourself for fucks sake. Emo is Emotional, not fucking suicidal. Emotional. A fucking range of emotions. Happy, angry, sad, loving... It's about the clothes and music. It's not a religion, so please stop treating it like one. Have fun, stop being so bloody serious. You're young adults, so act like it.

Kids, it's time to fucking GROW UP.

_{* Emogurl and Emokid's names have been slightly altered to protect their identity from you crazy people.}

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_{Find me in dAmn! #devart | #treefort | #seniors | #nutella | #thiscorrosion | #lolwat} ]]>
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The hilarity of boredom + questions
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20255947/
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20255947/
Sun, 31 Aug 2008 16:02:19 PDT

I think I'm three shades of fucked up. Just the three though

Shade 1 is like a greenish jaundice-baby turd colour. Everything is going great in my life. I mean, I cant REALLY complain. I'm getting married next year, I start my new job soon, I have my own place... Things are generally going well. So why am I so bored?! This leads me onto shade 2.

Shade 2 is a browny-puce colour. WHY oh WHY do I feel the need to piss and moan about my life being so damn good? I'm used everything screwing up, drama here, there and everywhere... And now that it's all settled and going well I just find myself being jaded. Well.. Maybe I'm not bored. Maybe it's just all the sitting around, waiting to start my new job that's driving me slightly batshit. It's coming onto 4 weeks of just sitting at home doing BUGGER ALL with myself. Maybe I've just had enough of that? I NEED to do something with myself before I completely lose it.

Shade 3 is a dull, muddy orange. I mean, there's only SO much you can do with limited funds, right? Up until Thursday just gone, I barely had any money in my account. I've now got the money, just lacking the motivation. So, this drab orange shade is all about me WANTING to get the fuck out and DO something with myself, just not being bothered anymore. What the hell is that about? Have I actually turned into the recluse that I previously joked about? And if I have, then I better snap out of it sharpish. I start this new job on the 8th of September and need to get back into the swing of things.

Oh, if only I could be bothered though

I'd like to have a 4th shade. A nice, pretty warm pink... Where I actually come to accept that it's alright to be happy with things as they are now, and I should stop searching for the next thing to get fucked up. Where I don't get pissed off at my lack of motivation, but instead I actually do something. Maybe tomorrow, eh?

_{I nabbed this from the beautiful =kat1e-
List 10 of your friends off DA (in no particular order)

1. `dxd
2. =Isvarmt
3. =duststorm10
4. *DryCellBodyCrumbles
5. $ArtBIT
6. `ladytwiglet
7. ^hellfirediva
8. `RockstarVanity
9. ~evilmunchkinbeauty
10. *azieser

Now answer the following questions:
What would you do if...

1. Number 1 (`dxd) was really your mother?
I'd wonder why I'm marrying my mother. I'd freak out in more ways than one

2. Number 2 (=Isvarmt) was who you were going to marry?
LOL well she's gonna be one of my bridesmaids, so uh... She will be present while marriage happens

3. Number 3 (=duststorm10) got turned into a frog?
It'd be lame because he wouldnt be able to draw such amazing pictures anymore D:

4. You and number 4 (*DryCellBodyCrumbles) got drunk and made out?
HE WISHES

5. You and number 5 ($ArtBIT) woke up in the same bed and didn't remember how or why?
That would be weird Then wonder who spiked our drinks.

6. Number 6 (`
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My campaign - IMPORTANT! + EDIT
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20179569/
http://xxbcxx.deviantart.com/journal/20179569/
Wed, 27 Aug 2008 06:40:17 PDT

C O C K S T A I N
_{C O C K S T A I N}
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For those of you who're avid facebook users, you'll probably have seen my campaign to get people using the term "COCKSTAIN" as an insult once more. Whilst it's worked a bloody treat on facebook [Thanks to all who've set it as their status! ], its about time to try it out on deviantART... ;D

It's such a wonderfully disgusting word, full of imagination and humour - The perfect insult!

COCKSTAAAAAAIN!

_{It'd be hilarious if this got to the top of the today page}

EDIT

SCORE!
Thanks everyone, you just helped me prove that my pointless shit is, in fact, FUCKING EPIC!

Courtesy of the wonderful *azieser

Bini xx

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_{Find me in dAmn! #devart | #treefort | #seniors | #nutella | #thiscorrosion | #lolwat}}
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