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i love jasmine.
i dont love you, or you, or you or you.
i never didddddddd.
and your vaginas ugly.
and jasmines greatttttttttt.
woo.
i feel like dancing. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2473514/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2473514/ Thu, 20 May 2004 21:59:11 PDT
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woo. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2301791/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2301791/ Mon, 26 Apr 2004 10:36:46 PDT
If some one sneezes in the bathroom. and you hear them. do you say bless you?

lol what if there taking a shit? and they start thinking your hearing them squirt? ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2249572/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2249572/ Sun, 18 Apr 2004 14:54:34 PDT
Just a random question. where do you put your gum when your giving head to a guy or girl?


-lol this is for real, im just wondering. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2200614/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2200614/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 14:46:49 PDT










stock [link] stock ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2176149/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2176149/ Thu, 08 Apr 2004 01:39:22 PDT
i cut. for attention. from myself. from whoever will give it to me.
because im alone.

you sent that picture of you. or your art. for attention. from whoever will give it to you.
because your alone.

either way. were both in the same boat. you just think im in the wrong.

how dare you. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2157184/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/2157184/ Mon, 05 Apr 2004 12:12:11 PDT ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1971666/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1971666/ Mon, 08 Mar 2004 00:29:31 PST
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gogogo ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1886399/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1886399/ Sat, 21 Feb 2004 23:56:59 PST ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1868876/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1868876/ Wed, 18 Feb 2004 20:02:28 PST ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1861987/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1861987/ Tue, 17 Feb 2004 15:42:25 PST
who was my 1000th view?

free drawing of there choice. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1858890/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1858890/ Tue, 17 Feb 2004 01:09:00 PST

i just drew 4. of the ugliest wall papers in the dark art section.
im to tired to be drawing.
when im tired. everything looks so cool.

i better stop. before people get annoyed.

oops. i have school in 4 hours. i should get some sleep.

night peoples. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1851168/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1851168/ Sun, 15 Feb 2004 17:40:36 PST
make your own phrase. ill start.

I slice my arms for my own self-love. not because i hate the world. and the worlds not good enough. not because i have a hard life. not because of anything. i just like to love myself

i cut myself, for me.

its my love. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1844977/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1844977/ Sat, 14 Feb 2004 14:48:48 PST ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1800518/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1800518/ Thu, 05 Feb 2004 19:31:15 PST ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1775542/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1775542/ Sun, 01 Feb 2004 02:18:01 PST ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1742267/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1742267/ Sun, 25 Jan 2004 23:05:06 PST
1.Hair color-orange and black

2.Eye color-orange

3.Height-5'5

4.Long or short hair-longggg

5.Glasses-if there sexy on her.

6.Piercings- if there sexy on her.

7.Scars-arm

8.Eyebrows-nicely trim

9.Six pack- indeed

10.Big, medium, or small boobs- uhm. C

11.Big butt or little- dont matter they wont let me touch it anyway

12.Thin, curvy, or thick- whats this? hair? thick.

13.Straight, gap, or braces-braces are cute actually.

14.Funny or serious-can there be a girl with both? maybe the perfect one..

15.Party or stay at home- woo party hardy with me

16.Should she know how to cook or bake- woo both

17.Should she have a best friend- yes. one that is totally random.

18.Should she have had a lot of boyfriends- what the. this is my girlfriend. lol

19.Outgoing or shy-shy is cute.

20.Sarcastic or sincere-sincere

21.Would she be a smoker?-mmm no.

22.Would she drink?-occasionally

23.Would she swear?-always

24.Popular or not-populars cool i guess

25.Smart or average-smart makes me happy

26.Would she wear makeup- honestly. makeup makes girls sexier i dont care who it is.

27.Shows or hides her feelings-little of both

28.Virgin or not-not.

29.Talkative or quiet-both make me happy

30.Will she make the first moves-thats my job

31.Sexy or casual clothes-depends on the occasion, i dont want her dressing sexy to paintball lol

32.Happy-go-lucky or thoughtful- thoughtful

33.Does she listen to your type of music?-yes

34.Would you hang out with her friends?-yes

35.Would she hang out with yours?-yes

36.Softball-nope

37.Soccer-nope

38.Basketball-nope

39.Snowboard-hell yes

40.Surf-nope

41.Would she like to watch football or any sports?-yes

42.Skateboard-yes

43.Sing-yes

44.Play guitar-nope

45.Play drums-no.

46.Play piano-maybe

47.Writes her own music-yes

48.Paint, draw, sculpt-all

49.Dance- yes

50.How old is she-a billion. and forever lives. so that when i die. maybe one day i can pass my perfect wife down to another just like me.its just good lookin out.

51.What would her name be…?-the sweetest and most soothing name to say. something that just naturally fits her.something exotic that you can say with ease. something you dont have to repeat to a stranger 12kajillion times. a name that sparkles in her eyes as you say it.a name. that is so perfect. theres no possibly way to spell it. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1715829/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1715829/ Wed, 21 Jan 2004 00:12:34 PST

as i ride into a dark night to the fiery edges of my inner soul. i expected replies to my questions. i wanted an answer. as i ride into the night the air gets thicker to breathe. and my life seems to vanish right from my fingertips, yet i search on. black dust is whirlwinding around twisting and turning whipping my clothes around and pulling my hair. i put my arm up to protect my face from thousands of needle sharp grains of black sand crashing into every inch of my skin. i got off my horse that wasn't as crazy as me and it darted off into the blackness of whirl winding needles being thrown everywhere. i began my chants murming under my breath and drawing a huge symbol that represented me into the dark black sands. a liquid of pure white light filled into the symbol and the wind began to die down. i stood quickly waiting.. not expecting what was to come but that it had a purpose. the black sand exploded away from the symbol and disappeared into mountains around me. i looked at the symbol that was now solid gold on the floor. i walked hesitantly towards the golden mirrage and waited. the piercing white light that had started it all shot into me filling every part of me. i collapsed the feeling was so intense shaking and balling up on the glistening white floor. twitching, shaking, and moaning i screamed for an answer. the pain vacated my body and let me live. it was defense for whatever was next i suppose. i yelled into the symbol. why are we here?!... a few minutes later i grew impatient. i slammed my fist on the symbol almost breaking my hand. i cried and screamed and grew histerical. i just want an answer you piece of shittttttttt. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1698938/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1698938/ Sun, 18 Jan 2004 03:52:19 PST i feel so guilty.
what have i done.
it disappeared from the board.
but its still written inside of me.
what do i do.
i feel so guilty. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1696194/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1696194/ Sat, 17 Jan 2004 15:34:33 PST
I finally got through to her. .

I made peace with Ramy. So glad were cool again.

I make Angie upset alot. I don't know why..

My dad grounded me for getting lost. Good game.

Maybe if I was allowed out I could learn where everything is.

lalala.

Frozen bubbles of ecstacy flowing in my veins.
Happiness running covering up my soul.
Bubbles of love running to my brain.
Frozen bubbles of love filling my holes.

Cold love of ecstacy filling me up completely
Forcing the emptiness into a small void inside of me.
Dropping my entire body one hundred degree's.
Frozen bubbles of ecstacy make me go weeeeeeeeeeeee.

random. =/ ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1684960/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1684960/ Thu, 15 Jan 2004 12:57:51 PST eating away at all the organic things that lay inside.
Oh how i longed for an ounce of such a chemical reaction
to slide inside my organic throat bubbling and dissipating.

Such a death sounded Oh so sweet.
to let it roam inside my deafeated, incompleted body.
Oh what so sounds of the tastiest treat.
Letting the smoke burst from my face and letting it sink lower.

Letting it digest my entire body as if it was lava.
letting it taste my ever so sour insides, and feeling it love me
it loves me and it wanted every part of me
it wanted to taste everything i had to give it.

putting a pinch of it into each of my eyes and feeling the dry powder explode
explode into flames it felt like. but only smoke was appearing.
burning and eating away at all of my flesh. always wanting more.
slitting my arms and legs with a dull steak knife.

I put the drain-o inside of the cuts that scream with delight.
i let it eat. as much as it wants. i wanted it to be a happy sight.
cutting holes into the bottom of my feet. and pouring some drain-o inside those holes too.
feeling my feet tingle with love. wondering if it will ever be satisfied.

i poked my stomach with a small tack. causing it to bleed ever so lightly.
the blood was dark. the darkest of dark. an evil dark red. that came from within
i put a pinch in that. and watched it rip my skin apart. bleeding extremely
i watched it rip the hole untill i could see my intestines. and i poured the rest

I filled my chest as if i was possessed.
i was obsessed with the request for an ounce more.
i guess the drain-o was unimpressed
now i can rest... ever so depressed. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1650321/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1650321/ Thu, 08 Jan 2004 20:16:06 PST
One day many years ago. when i was a small child around 6 or 7. It was during summer when the sky was blue the air was so hot it felt as if you were walking through a waterfall of fire and the sun was bright so bright if you were inside to long the moment you stepped outside your eyes squeezed tightly to keep the light from seaping into your pupils.Anyways my birth parents were in a hurry one morning running around the house brushing hair taking showers eating breakfast when i awoke.. i went downstairs and ate my breakfast. 2 scrambled eggs and pancakes.. they were in such a hurry they forgot to say goodbye to me. or they didn't want to. after i finished eating i finished off my milk. i always save the drink for last cause its easier to eat more food when you dont drink.. i walked back to my room.. i went inside and got silent when i sat down on my chair it had a brown desk infront of it with a stack of really thick paper the paper was so thick it had a yellow tint to it.. i grabbed a sheet and opened the desk drawer and pulled out a pencil i began to draw things things that did not have names. things that didn't exist... but then i got creative and i threw away the piece of paper.. i grabbed a fresh new sheet and bent it in half and creased its crisp edges. i began to imagine all the possibilities.. i thought of a way i could impress my parents when they returned from there hard day of work.. i made a paper airplane for the first time.. it was boxy the wings were short and stubby the body hung lower then the wings length but it was a start. i threw it softly and it spung in a circle and crashed into the floor. i made another. bigger wings smaller body. i kept this up untill i had the perfect design for an airplane. a'las i had it. the perfect airplane. i threw it softly it glided threw the air and did a loop and came back to my hands. i waited.. i waited for my parents to return. i was so happy i had did it. i created a paper airplane and i couldn't wait to show them. my dad got home and walked in the door i was so excited i couldn't contain it inside my flesh. i was shaking with excitement i yelled " DAD DAD LOOK! " and i threw the plane as hard as i could the plane went straight down towards the floor. and at the last second it SWOOPED up skimming the floor and rocketed up into the air and crashed into my dads eye.. i said i was sorry but as i was saying it he was running towards me with his fist high in the air... thats all i can remember i woke up a short times later laying in bed with a busted lip and dried blood on my cheek.. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1648742/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1648742/ Thu, 08 Jan 2004 14:54:30 PST
"I was punished for accidents. " ©lp

Think about when you were a kid. how many times you spilled the milk. or dropped food. or forgot to do something. think about how many times you through a paper airplane and hit your dad in the eye. how many times you through the football and it wasn't close to him so he gave up and went inside. imagine all the times you started losing in roller hockey with your dad on your team and how angry he got at you like it was all your fault. imagine all the times he said your an idiot because you dont know what your doing so leave it alone. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1645622/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1645622/ Wed, 07 Jan 2004 21:17:31 PST
So about 3 years ago. I started this game of hide and go seek with my friends. they were kinda weird, they always dressed in white with big white jackets, kinda weird because i live in vegas, and its very very hot. I always went to there house to play.. usually we all sat in one big white room. (i think they liked white alot) and the walls had funny pads. I guess they tripped alot and needed something to break there fall Ha. Then one time they started wrestling me cause i was showing them how to shiver and shake and twitch and roll around and go crazy, like i saw this one guy do. and they were wresting me and tackling me. They lost, i got away ha ha.they gave me funny pills and injections that made me feel woooooooooooooosy. heeeee. they were great they were like my family. except not as mean and crazy. One time they had me draw a person for them.. so i drew them a person. and they looked at it like i was going to die in 5 minutes. kinda freaky. they sent me home without a treat. and ive been home ever since. ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1631293/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1631293/ Sun, 04 Jan 2004 23:56:38 PST would you lose money you already earned if you didn't?

Have you ever raked the front and back yard of all the leaves in the cold?
did you get a splinter that penetrated the skin?

Have you tried to pull out a splinter with icy cold hands?
did your hands bleed with anger, but you had to go on?

Have you ever reached into piles and piles of crispy ice cold brown and golden leaves as they sliced and cut your skin slightly just enough to cause it to bleed down to your finger tips?
did you not have a jacket or gloves to keep you warm?

Have you paused not because you were tired but to try and warm up your hands to regain some feeling by placing them in your icy cold pants?
did you have someone constantly telling you to hurry up?

Have you ever went to blow warm air on your cupped frozen hands, and your hands froze your almost warm lips?
did your nose feel numb and hurt when you tried to sniff a breath of air?

Have you ever had someone who is never satisfied no matter how hard you try?
did you have to live with him your whole life?

Have you ever had someone that doesn't respect an effort. but only accepts perfection?
did you know that i could work for hours. and he will still find something messed up?

Have you ever tried to just do everything and exactly the way they tell you
did you know my parents would still want more?

Have you ever just tried to hide in your room, and been asked to do more work. when your were finally getting some warmth back in your body?
did you know.. that i have? ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1626829/ http://xxxDelphiexxx.deviantart.com/journal/1626829/ Sun, 04 Jan 2004 02:57:26 PST
i spent alot of my childhood stuck in my room.. i would get in trouble for everything.. i wasn't a crazy maniac kid. its because my parents wouldn't let anything slide. they expected me to be a perfect full grown adult when i was born. they expected me never to spill the milk they expected me not to throw up on carpet. they expected me to know how to get a job and make money. they expected me to take care of myself... they expected me to know everything.. and if i had to ask them something they would tell me "figure it out". after awhile i just got use to being in the house. so much that i didn't like being outside.. even if i was allowed to. till about 9th grade i was in my room and on the computer.. of course i went to school but school only lasted me 6 hours. the rest was at home dealing with a hard life. i remembered i got my first hug. from a girl my age in 9th grade from a girl named Sierra.. i blushed violently but no one noticed. it felt like my faced exploded, i dont know why.

ive expierenced alot of things these past few years, things i never would have if i didn't meet john.. he started helping me leave the house.. making me go places, movies, park, etc. then i started leaving the house on a regular basis.. i think my parents were glad, though they would never take me anywhere.. john got his licence and now we go everywhere together. no im not gay. he has a girlfriend named kaylene and i have a girlfriend named ANGELA. shes the best. angela happends to be my first real girl friend.. shes the first girl i kissed, shes my first everything..

i use to be extremely shy, but im kinda getting over that, i can talk to strangers like its nothing almost, sometimes ill get an attack of it but its all good.. i think my parents are helping me become someone. a person who can live in this harsh ass world. some one who can depend on themselves. someone who can "go figure it all out" if i had to. there not bad people. they just gave me a pretty fucked up childhood. and im starting to thank them for it. not because i can sit and BITCH about it. but because i can grow from it. im not like a spoiled person that wont know what to do if their pen breaks in school. or if there computer stops working.. i know how to do everything on my own.

im not asking for pitty, so dont go to comment and tell me your sorry. i would rather have a friend. some one i can talk to about the present. and not the past. someone who will listen. someone who is "interesting" because i can not stand boring people. i need some one who will keep me entertained. feel loved. and respect me. if your some one who gives me dirty looks because i cut then go away. i dont need those people right now.

sorry this is kind of long. well.. really long. but im sure if you read it to this. you must have thought i was interesting. and was glad i had so much to read about me? ]]> ~xxxDelphiexxx