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deviantART: by:y0shee http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:y0shee&section=today deviantART RSS for by:y0shee en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 14 Dec 2009 23:19:00 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png When I think about my past.. http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/16325552/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/16325552/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 05:54:59 PST

I've read one of my journals 'new life - wish comes true' written on Feb 5, 2006 cos lately I was thinking how happy I was when I was with my first love from Wroclaw. I started to miss him, when I listen to music we used to listen together. Anyway, it's only memories.
Today is 2nd anniversary of our first meeting, so I think I'll call him. Wonder what will happen.

Anyway! Since march 2007 I'm a 'karaoke DJ'

I think I made some progress in singing

So if anyone from Lodz would like to come, it's 'La FouFoune' ul. Zachodnia 95 obok teatru nowego.

Damn.. I wish I could turn back time and live my life differently when I had someone. Well, not possible.

Have a good day everyone!

Marek.

]]> ~y0shee Restaurant - invitation !!! PL http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/13404232/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/13404232/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 08:27:12 PDT
Zaczalem pracowac jako kelner w restauracji Ciagoty i Tesknoty na wojska polskiego na przeciwsko ASP w Lodzi.
Gorrraco zapraszam na jedzonko, ceny sa przystepne a gotuja az palce lizac, probowalem na razie makarony i pasztet i MNIAM

Anyway, jak cos to bede w ta srode i moze w weekend. Srednio wychodzi 2 dni w tygodniu.

No a oprocz tego u mnie nic ciekawego, jakos sobie zyje, mieszkam u przyjaciolki, zaczalem wstawac rano i chodzic na rynek i zdrowo sie odzywiac brokulami itp

Jestem zadowolony z zycia, emocjonalnie tez (chyba - przynajmniej na razie).

Poza restauracja zapraszam na karaoke - ktore prowadze - w pubie After Dark, Zachodnia 95 brama obok Teatru Nowego, w kazdy czwartek i niedziele od 21szej do mniej wiecej 2giej w nocy. Fajna zabawa

No to tyle, pozdrawiam

]]> ~y0shee 50% back! http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/11970804/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/11970804/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 06:49:00 PST I can use my sisters computer hehe.. sometimes.
Later I will write a bigger journal!

Marek

]]> ~y0shee Disconnected http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/9673773/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/9673773/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 05:29:44 PDT I hope evetything will be ok with my studies.
Anyway, I will not write too much here right now (no time), but someday I'll update info's about me if you're interested

So.. Have a nice day! ]]> ~y0shee so.. it happened.. http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/9083631/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/9083631/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 04:19:02 PDT Firstly I will write about my final tests, that were kinda easy, so I think I'll pass them. Soon Studies will start, another chapter in my life, unfortunately, in my lonely life..

This happened. My half year relationship, my first relationship has finished. As a romantic it is a very big shock for me. I'm thinking about doing something unusual.. piercing or getting fucking drunk.. This 'ending' was so ugly.. Damn ugly! That I'd never believe that person I love..d could be that cruel to me.

It all started long time ago, when we had problems with our characters, me as a romantic and him as a realist, damn realist, and scared of love. But there were worse times, and better times, and always it made us stronger. But love in such distance.. 246 km.. I was seeing him once for 3-5 weeks.. 2 weeks ago I saw him last time in his city. While i was there I found a man in his internet communicator. Not a normal man, but a closer and closer in every week. And what more interesting, a man living in his hometown he was in once for 2 weeks (more often then seeing me). This man is 29 y.o. he has his own work etc. and the most important is that he lives next to him. They were chatting since april! And what they were talking about wasn't saint. It was obvoius that my .. love wanted to meet him, and maybe in future.. to be with him! I asked my ex about that person next day. he was shocked that I checked his archive.. I know I made a mistake but I couldn't resist, cuz something was in the air..
The next day was shitty.. Night was ok, it seemed he forgiven me (!). And what about me? What about calling me romantic sissy in archive! He said it wasn't about me.. but.. I just don't believe that.
Next day was ok, but our goodbye was so quick.. in bus.. I thought he was going to go out with me, but he stayed inside, and I only said 'bye'... damn.. it was so simple!
Everything was ok, he has a session on studies, important one, so I decided not to interrupt him. I only wrote 1-2 sentences per day like 'hi, I hope everything's fine, good luck in studying' etc. He answered me when I was sleeping, and I answered him when he was sleeping and so on..
I tried to call him few days ago, but he wasn't responding, I thought that his mobile phone might be broken again, so I called his roommate yesterday. She said that he is in home, and gave him phone and.. he disconnected it. Then I called again thinking he might had pushed the wrong button, cuz he's tierd or something, his roommate answered the phone and said 'I don't know what's with you two, I don't want to be involved, you should talk to him by yourself' DANG! I.. Was.. Shocked like hell! Asking myself.. WTF is going on?! I asked her 'WTF?' and she said that she doesn't know. So I said to myself OK. That's it!
I went home, turned on internet and checked his communicator once again, and what did I found??? THAT GUY wrote him 'where is my PUPPY? I miss you too, and I like you very much too! And not only from last sunday or last week! I'll catch ya later, kiss!'

And that was....... so...... disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!!! How could he! after all he said! After talking 'I will wait for you always, I will take you for holiday' etc!! DAMN!
He said that guy doesn't mean to him anything a WEEK AGO! And probably in the same time he was setting a meeting with him, damn....

That's what recently happenes in my life.. I had many dreams and plans and now all went burning in hell!

Life is fucked up people! ]]> ~y0shee scared & tag http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8663466/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8663466/ Wed, 03 May 2006 15:06:49 PDT It's hard to not have my love near me in such time... when I need it the most... hurts... I don't know what to write anymore... I'm just scared... Thought I was emotionally stable...

I was tagged by

-01.- What song do you think was written for you?

X-Japan - Tears

'dry your tears with love'...

-02.- What colour do you think best represents you?

blue like a beautiful ocean, full of suprizes and like a tear full of sadness...
and purple as emotional scent of me.

-03.- If you were an object, what would you be?

an old piano.

still with gentle and emotional sound.

-04.- If there were to be a movie/manga made about your life, what would it be entitled?

there's no such a movie like my life...

-05.- What actor/actress would you want to be played by you if your life was made into a movie?

Lilu from the Fifth element...

She didn't knew what is love... but finally she realized it's the essence of life...

-06.- If you were a shape, what shape would you be?

probably a heart... or a rose.

-07.- What story/manga/anime/fairytale would you like to live in?

Gravitation...

I smelled tolerance there...

-08.- What movie do you think best represents you?

'Dolls' Takeshi Kitano

Love is a journey through the mountains...

-09.- If a song were written about you or by you, what singer/band would you like to sing it?

'To, co nas laczy' by me would sound interesting if sang by Michal Zebrowski.

-10.- If you made a charm bracelet, what 5 charms would you have on there and what would they represent?

rose - my personality
tear - it represents me as a fragile person
eye - as the mirror of my soul
heart - as a wish for never-ending love
mouth - as a place I'd always like to return...

I tag

]]> ~y0shee Whatever, hair-cut http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8613047/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8613047/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 15:25:51 PDT
Okay! that's all for now. I have finished my secondary school, and soon I'll have mature test, so wish me luck!

And one thing about my 'problems' that I had (with myself).
Whatever is a wonderful word! It really helps. I miss warmth, but.. Whatever! This works somehow like this hehe, I try to focus on things that bring me joy, around me, instead of keeping myself down all the time, missing, crying, worring etc. Love changes person, Really much! I hope I had changed into the 'good way'.

God Bless life! let's use it now!

Cheers!

Marco Polo. duhh ]]> ~y0shee Chce http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8485981/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8485981/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 06:11:40 PDT I sprzedajesz uczucie.. w ratach i okruszkach..
Chce Cie miec, a Ty dajesz mi tylko nadzieje..
I karzesz w nocy plakac.. wtulonemu w poduszke..

Chce Cie miec.. A Ty wszystkim pokazujesz dume!
I puszysz sie jak kogut, pan swego podworka..
Chce Cie miec, tak dla siebie i tylko dla siebie!
A nie patrzec na Ciebie, jak na krola dworka..

Chce Cie miec, albo moze chcialem miec,
zbyt dlugo..

Czar prysl i upadl pomnik..
Co dlugo stal w chwale..

Chcialem, no coz..
Byc moze gdy ktos chce zbyt wiele i zbyt dlugo ten zwykle nie dostaje wcale..'

Justyna Majkowska - Chce
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ladny teskt.. cos w nim jest ]]> ~y0shee Crusify my love (one last time) http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8475060/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8475060/ Sat, 15 Apr 2006 11:10:05 PDT
Boze!!! Czym ja na to sobie zasluzylem!!! Znalalem milosc i co?! I sie boi.. Co ja takiego w zyciu zrobilem, ze musze sie godzic z takim losem!!!! Tak mnie serce boli.. Boze BOLI!!!! Za co... ZA CO!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!? Niby jest ok, bo wyjasnilismy sobie pare spraw.. coz.. ale jedna mnie tak zabolala ze.. po prostu sie zlamalem. Tak go chcialem w koncu poznac, a on nie jest gotowy... to kiedy bedzie?? jak sie ma przekonac jak nie sprobuje!! ale zmuszac go nie bede.. Powiedzialem mu ze bardzo mi przykro.. ale tak na prawde jest mi Przerazajaco przykro!!!! ja nie wiem czy dam rade mieszkac z jakas obca osoba... ze bedzie do mnie przychodzil zeby pogadac bo musi sie ukrywac. nie widze tego, nie chce!! A moglo byc tak dobrze nam razem.. Boze... jakim skurwielem musze byc by miec taki los..
Koncza mi sie chusteczki, juz nie mam w co wycierac lez.. tak jestem slaby jesli chodzi o milosc.. PIERWSZA MILOSC. ona koi najbardziej i boli najbardziej..

ten tekst odzwierciedla najlepiej co czuje...

'Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.'

'James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover'

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tak pusto jeszcze nie bylo... czuje sie jakbym stracil juz wszystko co wymarzylem.. chociaz to.. tez.. dlaczego musze tak cierpiec? (...) ]]> ~y0shee I pray http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8465153/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8465153/ Fri, 14 Apr 2006 02:17:20 PDT
I'm broken - can I - will I be repaired?

I pray for that, my friends, I pray. Please God.. if You hear me, please I beg you.. Help me. Show me the way, or I will dissapear.

Amen. ]]> ~y0shee Mon Essentiel http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8374678/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8374678/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 14:27:13 PDT I think I feel much better right now. I am starting understanding what it's all about. Damn

life! LIFE! and I won't be alone!

After my beloved session on studies we are wishing to go on holiday! I'm so happy

2 weeks together somewhere! I'm so excited! Now I just need to pass exams well and goooooooooooooooooooooooo

well that's all about it right now :] enough good news heheh

damn I was so stupid

]]> ~y0shee dalej. czyli gdzie? | Further. but where? http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8353218/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8353218/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 13:36:33 PDT 13 marca gdy pisalem swoj ostatni journal wszystko wygladalo tak przejzyscie, marzenia zdawaly sie nie miec umiaru w swym spelnianiu sie. Coraz czesciej ot tak sie usmiechalem z powodu lub bez. Pisalem 'czuje sie bezpiecznie', pewnie, wszystko wyglada.. Widocznie chodzilo mi o plany, matura, przeprowadzka, studia i praca.. a przede wszystkim zycie razem z osoba, ktora kocham. Widocznie, czyzbym byl az tak slepy? Budowalem swoje zycie, jego wizerunek, kosztem ukochanej osoby. Moge tlumaczyc sie tym, ze nigdy sie nie zakochalem, ze emocje biora gore.. czasem. A moze caly czas..? Wokol mnie slysze, ze sie za bardzo przejmuje, ze przesadzam, ze bedzie dobrze. Ale pozostawia to po sobie taki niedosyt..Gdybym mogl to poczuc, a nie tylko uslyszec.. Jestem wciaz dzieckiem. Aby dojsc do tego wniosku dlugo nie musialem myslec po ..tych.. slowach. Jestem tylko emocjonalnym i niedoswiaczonym dzieckiem, ktore pragnie tylko ciepla.. i tylko cieplo moze dac. Jednak w dzisiejszych czasach cieplo to tyle co nic, chyba ze na chwile. Pekl obraz marzen..

Milosc a Kariera.. Jakze godzi to w serce romantyka, ktorym chyba tylko jestem. Oklamywalem sie ze bede patrzyl na zycie trzezwo, ze bede wart mojej milosci.. a sam siebie zawiodlem. Nie umiem wyobrazic sobie bez niej zycia! Jestem mlody, pragne tylko szczegolow.. Jestem za mlody, bo druga polowa ma juz swoj lot ustalony od dawna, a ja.. Ja portafie tylko krazyc pomiedzy chodnikiem a kaluza.. Nie wiem co to 'Moj Plan na Zycie'. Myslalem ze milosc wlasnie nim jest, ale to tylko (az) dopelnienie. Kiedys myslalem, ze szkoda bedzie odchodzic nigdy nie pokochawszy.. Teraz az chcialo by sie zniknac..

W pogoni za wspomnieniami, aby nie uciekly - te ktore byly na poczatku, potykam sie tylko wtedy gdy juz nie moge oddychac przez lzy.. To juz sie nie zdarza, przerazajace. Mialem nadzieje ze tego nie doswiadcze, ale to znieczulica. Tyle zimnej wody sie wylalo na moje marzenia, ze teraz tla sie niemym zarem. To wlasnie moj blad, trzymajacy mnie wciaz w dziecinstwie. Moje marzenia opieraly sie na osobie, ktora pokocham, a teraz z nich musze zrezygnowac - WSZYSTKICH. Bo nie mam prawa sie od kogos uzalezniac, nawet jesli to milosc. Codzien, gdy wspominam czuje lekka slabosc w sercu.. To tesknota.. za niezapomnianym uczuciem ujzenia Go po raz pierwszy..

Zdaje mi sie ze bede musial zmienic swoj kierunek. Studia. jesli sie dostane powinienem uzaleznic od swoich umiejetnosci, a nie od miejsca, gdzie mam milosc. Szkoda tylko ze gdy znow bedzie nas dzielic taka odleglosc nie bedziemy mieli jak sie dalej poznawac.. Bo przeciez sie nie znamy.. Ale moze to i lepiej.. W koncu za rok juz nic Go nie bedzie we Wroclawiu trzymac.. A ja mialbym tam 5 lat do przestudiowania. Moze to zaplanowane ochlodzenie mojego przywiazania? Slusznie, bo nie mam prawa sie przywiazywac, to juz nie te czasy. Albo sie przyzwyczaje albo umre. Choruje na Milosc, najpiekniejsze uczucie, ktorego doznalem w zyciu z najkochansza osoba, ktora poznalem. Czuje jednak, ze moj strach bez najwazniejszego filaru kompletnie mnie zalamie..

Bo ktoz powinien mnie chronic przed utrata nadziei jak nie moja milosc?...

Przepraszam Was za moje brednie.. y0sh.

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english translation:

13th of March when I was writing my last journal everything looked so clearly, my dreams were becoming true. There were moments when I was just smiling for no particular reason. I wrote I feel safe, everything looks so sure.. It seems I had on my mind the final test, moving to Wroclaw, Studies and work, and above all life with the person that I love with all my heart. It seems I was so blind.. I was building my future life with my love, forgetting about his plans.... ]]> ~y0shee dalej. http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8150168/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8150168/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 14:15:52 PST w koncu zebralem sie do napisania journala. tym razem nie po angielsku.
nie wiem od czego zaczac, wiec moze zaczne od poczatku...
niektorzy pewnie zauwazyli, inni nie lub nie chcieli, ze sie zmieniam. chociaz tak na prawde ja bym to nazwal odkrywaniem siebie, niz zmiana. wiadomo juz ze zmienilo sie moje otoczenie, dosc drastycznie, nagle, ale dobrze sie stalo. ile rzeczy teraz sie wyjasnilo, jak bardzo widac jaki kto jest, kiedy czlowiek zaczyna o tym myslec.
do niedawna nie bylo tego. mialem inne priorytety, zainteresowania. tak.. glownymi byly sesje Warhammera prowadzone przez Aniola, w ktorych udzial brala ze mna Emi. byly to wspaniale czasy, do ktorych tesknote wyrazilem w opisie rysunku 'Joonan'.
tesknie, ale jednoczesnie nie zaluje ze stalo sie jak stalo. moze sie powtarzam, ale to wazne, mam cel w zyciu i chce go osiagnac. do niedawna tak na prawde nie wiedzialem co chce robic, gdzie.. z kim. nawet nie wiedzialem, ze poczucie pewnosci, bezpieczenstwa potrafi tak uspokoic czlowieka.
ostatnimi czasy duzo rozmyslam, jednak, o tym co bylo, chociaz mysle ze nie ma co do tego wracac, skonczylo sie, nie ma, ale..
ludzie sie nie zmieniaja, tylko otoczenie wokol nich.
moim otoczeniem stala sie milosc, o ktorej nie bede pisal, bo po co.

nie jest mi latwo, kiedy tesknie. Lodz nie jest juz moim domem. dom mam tam gdzie i milosc. 246 km ode mnie. pustka gdy tak tylko w myslach widze obrazy.. jednak sie trzeba przegryzc i cierpliwie czekac.
bedac we Wroclawiu odnosze wiele razy wrazenie jak obce jest mi miasto, w ktorym jeszcze mieszkam. i nie chodzi mi o puby, dyskoteki, to tez ma swoj urok. chodzi mi o zycie, ktorym Wroclaw tetni. piekno, romantyzm i blogosc. do prawdy urzeklo mnie to miasto..

ogarnalem sie, juz widze efekty, niedlugo koniec meki. zmiany, ktore nadejda, czekam na nie - upragnione. i pomyslec, to juz tylko dwa miesiace. tylko i az. juz wiem dlaczego miedzy innymi chce sie stad tak wyrwac.. nie mam w Lodzi nikogo procz Emi, ale ona tez ma swoje zycie i problemy, z ktorymi musi sie uporac *trzymam kciuki*! ogolnie to jestem w tej Lodzi obcy. coz.. gdy sie wyszlo z sielanki i dostalo prawdziwego kopa jakim jest prawdziwe zycie, czasem tak bywa. czekam, czekanie mi zostalo.

jesli ktos by chcial stac sie moim(ja) synem/corka to prosze bardzo [link] klik i sie zarejestruj. polecam, wciagajaca gra, kiedy nie masz co robic od czasu do czasu. mozna zapolowac na Wampiry.

to tyle, zycze wszystkim szczescia i szczerosci.
Yosh. ]]> ~y0shee Kissed ... t/\g http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8036170/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8036170/ Wed, 01 Mar 2006 10:06:55 PST

best Team ever

I got tagged by

put a

next to all the options that are true

I have kissed someone:

on the cheek.

| heh, many times, and me likes to bite sometimes ;]

on the lips.

on their hands or fingers.

| not only kissing mhehe

in my room.

| once!

in their room.

of the same sex.

| well.. happens

of the opposite sex.

| yup! and while I was singing Endless Rain & Tears..

younger than me.

| and that was my mistake.. -.-''

older than me.

with jet black hair. | humm.. jet? a pilot? I dunno o.O?

with gray hair.

| happened.

with curly hair.

with blonde hair and blue eyes.

| actually it's my huns look

with flaming red hair.

shorter than me.

| well, he seems to be 10cm shorter then me

taller than me.

with a lip ring.

with a tongue ring.

who was drunk.

who was high.

who I had just met.

who was homosexual.

| or 'who is...'

well.. happens mhehehe

who I didn't really want to kiss.

http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/8024414/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 04:04:34 PST sorry for not responding if I don't respond.
I will try to do it later, have a good day everyone,
James.. I mean Yoshee

best team ever!

]]> ~y0shee 3x3 http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7931534/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7931534/ Sat, 18 Feb 2006 07:33:48 PST

-+THREE-THREE+-

3 things that you think of first whenever you wake up from your sleep:
- damn it's so late
- i'm hungry
- me need to go to toilet..

3 things that you forget so easily:
- about food
- about exams
- about me

3 things that make you scared:
- I'm a little scared of the future
- of myself
- of pain

3 things that you treasure the most:
- well, love
- closest friends
- computer (heh)

3 things that make you hyper:
- love
- alcohol
- music

3 things that are good enough to kill your mood:
- friends
- my family
- my love

3 things about you that you're proud of:
- I can play some X-Japan ballads
- I am still not kicked out of my school
- I have wonderful friends and I found 'The One'

3 positive things about you:
- trying to be responsible
- I can listen to people
- I'm sensitive

3 negative things about you:
- I don't eat mushrooms
- I'm a lazy ass
- I can't do anything very well, only well.

3 of your favorite songs that you listened to recently:
- Bin-jip (3-Iron) OST 2004 - slvian (Natacha Atlas --- Gafsa)
- Kelly Family - Flip a Coin
- Kelly Family - I can't help myself

3 of your recent favorite books or shows:
- I don't read recently
- I don't watch TV recently
- --

3 of your favorite characters in manga/anime/games:
- Hotohori
- Hotaru Tomoe
- LongHair-sama

3 words about your artstyle:
- trying to be an art
- showing my soul
- killing my time

3 things that you like to draw the most:
- men
- elves
- women

3 parts of your drawings that you like to draw the most:
- eyes
- lips
- hair

3 artists who inspired you the most:
- the one that created Fushigi Yuugi
- the one that created DNA2
- Selene

3 reasons why you join DA:
- cuz Emi & Goth told me to do it
- cuz it's fun
- cuz I could meet some nice people here

3 reasons why you answered these questions:
- cuz I got tagged
- cuz I want my friends to answer them as well
- cuz it's not stupid

3 (beloved) friends that you want to tag next:

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best Team ever

]]> ~y0shee to chyba uzaleznienie.. xP http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7836996/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7836996/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 11:48:53 PST

1. Wez lezaca najblizej Ciebie ksiazke, otworz ja na 18 stronie i znajdz 4 linijkÄ.

*musialem az wstac bo nie czytam xD* '(..) bedzie uczyc. To dobrze. ''Wszystko mi sie jakos pomyslnie uklada'' | prawda! (:

2. Wyciagnij swoje lewe ramie najdalej jak mozesz.

okno xP

3. Co ogladalas/ogladales ostatnio w telewizji?

Moda na Sukces jak bylem na obiedzie u dziadkow xD 2700+ odcinek xD

4. Bez patrzenia, zgadnij jaka jest teraz godzina.

19:53

5. Teraz popatrz na zegar. Ktora jest godzina?

xD 20:23 !! | czas dla mnie stoi w miejscu hehe

6. Oprocz dzwiekow komputera, co teraz slyszysz?

jak ktos zmywa naczynia w kuchni

7. Kiedy ostatni raz bylas/byles na zewnatrz? Co robilas/robiles?

bylem z psem na spacerze -.-''

8. Zanim zaczelas/zaczales ta ankiete, na co patrzylas/patrzyles?

na baner ktory mi kumpel zrobil na forum (:

9. W co jestes ubrana/ubrany?

bluza, jeansy, slipy xP i pasek! & bryle do kompa 8)

10. Czy snilas/sniles ostatniej nocy?

ostatniej nie chyba, ale wczorajszej.... mialem piekny sen..

11. Kiedy ostatni raz smialas/smiales sie?

przed chwila (: gadalem z Archangelem x)

12. Co jest na scianach w pomieszczeniu, w ktorym sie znajdujesz?

obraz mnie z 1990 roku namalowany przez moja ciocie, jakies stare plakaty z Brawo & Popcorn, Plakat Epizode I Mroczne Widmo (SW), Plakat Powrot Krola (LoTR), rysunki -kolejnosc od lewej- Naomi, Basi, Himiko, moje, Selene *te na scianie xD i Ash'a, oraz kilka plakatow samolotow.

13. Widzialas/widziales ostatnio cos dziwnego?

przyjzalem sie twarzy Premiera Marcinkiewicza w Wiadomosciach, dochodze do wniosku ze choc nie jestem zwolennikiem PiS-u, to ma dosc mila twarz, taka niepremierowa xD ludzka, nie piekna xD heh, jestem dziwny

14. Co myslisz o tym quizie?

heh kolejny ale fajny x)

15. Jaki byl ostatni film ktory widzialas/widziales?

'Lalki' Takeshi Kitano .. with my hun (:

16. Jesli zostalabys/zostalbys mulitmilionerka/multimilionerem, co bys kupila/kupil?

kupilbym sobie normalny komputer, tablet, wierze hi-fi (taka dobra), Ipod'a, Perkusje TAMA, Fortepian Kawaii, Dom nad jeziorem gdzies w Polsce w ktorym bym mieszkal ze slonkiem, samochod ktory by prowadzil xD, studio nagran takie jak mial Yoshiki, bilet.. hmmm albo samolot ktorym bym polecial do L.A. i kupilbym sobie spotkanie z Yoshikim

a przede wszystkim pomoglbym moim przyjaciolom i nam (:

17. Powiedz mi cos o sobie, czego nie wiem.

ermm

a moge nie? jesli nie moge to moze zaciekawi Cie fakt iz DUZO JEM xD

18. Jesli moglabys/moglbys zmienic jedna rzecz na swiecie, bez wzgledu na przepisy czy przewinienia, co bys zrobiÅ?

zmienilbym nasz rzad na normalnych ludzi.. a moze raczej, wiekszosc rzadow na swiecie.. ale coz..

19. Lubisz tanczyc?

nie wiem xD moze, ale lepiej nie..

20. George Bush:

-amerykanin,
-polityk sterowany przez tych nad nim (jak 99% politykow)
-nieudolny bajarz

21. WyobraÅº sobie, ze Twoje pierwsze dziecko jest dziewczynka, jak jÄ nazwiesz?

nazwalbym ja Emilia

22. Wyobraz sobie, ze Twoje pierwsze dziecko jest chÅopcem, jak go nazwiesz?

trudne pytanie.. David

23. Czy kiedykolwiek zastanawiales sie nad zyciem za granica?

tak, ale.. sam nie wiem.. czuje sie polakiem i chyba chcialbym tu mieszkac.

24. Co chcialabys/chcialbys zeby powiedzial do Ciebie Bog, kiedy dosiegniesz perlowych bram?

'wpuszczam cie, niech strace -.-'' ' <-- mam nadzieje..

ztaguje

reszta przyjaciol juz jest ztagowana.. ]]> ~y0shee what music says about me? http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7830529/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7830529/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 16:26:04 PST

Put iTunes or Windows Media Player on shuffle and see what you get. (Take the first song as your answer to Question #1, and so forth.)

1. What's my mood like right now?

Queen - Love of my Life | oh my.. so true.. ;( I miss so much..

2. How's tomorrow going to be for me?

Southpark Soundtrack - Unckle Fucker | oh shit! XD no way!

3. What kind of person am I?

Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence | it's true, I'm kinda silent person..

4. Am I loved?

Queen - Who Wants to Live Forever | 'And we can have forever! and we can LOVE forever! ' ToT I miss him so much!!

5. How can I achieve my highest potential?

Seather & Amy Lee - Broken | well, I think that I need to stop being unsure, and I need to believe that I can be happy, no matter what! I just must believe it!

6. What should I do with my life?

Shakira - Don't Bother | lol xD don't bother and keep living the way I need! hehe

7. Is everything really going to be alright in the end?

X-Japan - The Last Song | ...I know that Michael has the same.. coincidence? well.. I don't know what to write.. I feel that Yoshiki's lyrics are sad but also I feel there is some hope.. with that song he tells us that X became a legend at least for him, that he did what he could do.. and he did it damn well! so I hope I will have a good life.. I hope.

8. What is my best quality?

Annie Lennox - Love Song For A Vampire | ekhm.. the best quality would be the Virgins blood nah xD?

9. How does my sex life look?

Avril Lavigne - I'm With You | only with one person.. only for one person.. the person that I ... <3 'won't you take me by your hand, take me somewhere new'
now that's interesing lyrics! and so true xD

10. What's the meaning of life?

Madonna - Secret | probably yes, but not exactly in every situation. I think.

11. What do people think of me?

Justin Timberlake - Cry Me a River | ouch! I was so bad? so sorry.. I promise not to make you cry anymore cuz of me! I'll try at least..

12. Would I make a good lover?

Annie Lennox - There Must Be An Angel | xD

!!?? lolz

13. How crazy am I?

Him - Beautiful | yeah. I am crazy cuz of one person that I think about all the time, and such a beauty.. damn I'm so creazy!

14. Will I have a good life in general?

Spice Girls - 2 Become 1 | (it reminds me of my old times spent with my Sister Emi.. thank You so much for those days.. so I know I had good life already and will I have good in future?) I think I will, but with 'that one' person. and I am so sure of that!

15. Can (insert name here) n ever really love me?

Timo Maas feat Brian Molko - First Day | 'It's a first day of a rest your life' so I guess yes.

16. Can me and (insert name here) ever be more than friends?

Sistars - Inspirations | heh true (: without inspiration there is no friendship!

17. What's going to happen to me this week?

Jet - Look What You've Done | 'You've made a fool of everyone' well, I will try not to (except of teachers x[ )

yup! that was fun, Yosh. ]]> ~y0shee one hundred questions to me http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7809401/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7809401/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 13:15:01 PST taken from

ok, here comes nothing!

1] What is your pen name?

Yoshee

2] How did you get the name?

well about 3 years ago I was called hide (

) but then I met

and

and they started calling me Yoshee, cuz Had (Rav) looked like hide so, it was like that

3] Do you use PC or Mac?

PC

4] What software you use most often?

Winamp 5.111

5] Do you use mouse, or tablet?

mouse, unfortunately..

6] The color you use most often is?

black? I don't really know, I use many.

7] What area of the pictures do you put most effort into?

shape of face and lips, and of course eyes.

8] How long does it take you do draw a picture?

I don't draw too long cuz I don't draw too difficult things. about 1-2 hours.

9] Do you keep your rough drafts?

no, I destroy most.

10] What kind of font do you use most often?

Arial, this normal..

11] What's the dpi when you scan?

I do not scan o.°''

12] Do you do anything else when you're drawing pictures?

I listen to music, and I draw

13] How many pictures do you draw in a month?

ouch, that question hurts

not too many hehe..

14] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?

white, A4, clean.. normal.

15] What kind of paper do you use for sketches and drafts?

toilet ?

norrrmall paperrrrr!

16] How long does it take to ink something?

no idea o.° ?

17] Do you do doujinshi or original manga?

ermm, nope.

18] Do you like doujinshi? Is it fun making it?

no idea, I forgot what that is..

19] Ever submitted anything to a magazine?

no, I wouldn't do it.. I'm not good at drawing that much.

20] Did it get published?

no, what? hehe

21] Who are your favorite artists?

heise and gothic-archangel

22] What's your favorite Anime/Manga?

Sailor Moon, Dragon Ball Z, X-the movie, Fushigi Yuugi, Please Save my Earth

23] Favorite Characters?

Hotohori, Hotaru Tomoe

24] Any artists that you'd like to draw like?

heise

25] Do you buy books a lot?

no, I don't read books

26] Did you ever buy a book to inspire you to draw?

um once, 'How to draw Manga?' but it helped me a little.

27] Any video games you enjoy?

Mu Online, Starcraft, Diablo II, NeverwinterNights, Icewind Dale II

28] Any favorite characters from video games?

Kerrigan

29] Do you have a favorite writer?

no.

30] Any books you really enjoy?

'Giovannis Room'

31] Do you write fanfics?

nope.

32] Any music that you often listen to while drawing?

mostly X-Japan

33] Any recommended songs?

it depends what You want to draw, sad drawing - the last song, happy - Joker.

34] Any web sites that you totally admire?

none, but I like DA.

35] Do you have any sites you want to go everyday?

DA and [link]

36] What is your dream site like?

something like hide-city, whole in flash

37] Do you like your own art?

sometimes, when I'm in good mood.

38] What... ]]> ~y0shee new life - wish comes true http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7773448/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7773448/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 17:18:40 PST I feel like I've just began a

life! it all happened three weeks ago, when I met that person, who made me think about real things like future, work, home (not with parents), studies, real life. and I am very grateful for that. we have spent two wonderful weeks together. unfortunately we live in different cities, about 300 km from me. but.. it will be all right. I'm going there in two weeks on february 14th. and I am planning to move out from my city to live with him, and I will hopefully do it in next 4 months, so.. not so far from now. everything is possible.

I write this journal to tell you that I became a happy person, a really happy person. I wasn't happy earlier, I was opthimistic. but now I feel that I have a person to live with, to live for. and it's so wonderful feeling.. I found a sense of being here

I never imagined that I could find a person who would give me so much warmth.. damn.. I'm so happy!!

my friends (Emi and Michael) seem to like eachother again.. or even more, I see a possibility that they might to be together again, but I'm not quite sure.. I think they will try friendship first, but who knows.
I just hope that they will never go through the same situations like they went through in new year and a month later.. they are my friends and I don't want them to be hurt. I want them to know that they make a right decission if to be together or not. althou I wish old times would come back.. I miss them.. I will start a new life (it has already started) and I hope I will be able to be close with them also.

I'd like to thank for all help to

and

just thank You for everything. :*

'It's a little bit funny this feeling inside,
I'm not one of those who can easily hide,
Don't have much money but, boy, if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculpture, heh, but that again, no..
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gife is my song and this one's for You.

And You can tell everybody that this is Your song
It's maybe quite simple but, now that it's done..
I hope You don't mind, I hope You don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful Life is, now You're in the World.. (..)'

Elton John 'Your Song'

that's how I feel

]]> ~y0shee T°A°G°A°T http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7720426/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7720426/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 06:43:45 PST

1. What is your middle name?
umm.. I have two names, first is Mark, no second and third is Adam.. so no middle name I think hehe..

2. What color underwear are you wearing now?
graphite

3. What are you listening to right now?
No Doubt - Don't Speak

4. What are the last 2 digits in your home phone number?
no idea, I never use this number..

5. What was the last thing you ate?
pasta with wonderful sauce made of 5 kinds of cheeses that my hun made mmm, tasty! (yesterday... I'm so hungry right now but too lazy to go to kitchen heheh)

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
violet

7. How is the weather right now?
sunny, blue sky, damn cold ..

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
hair

10. Favorite type of Food?
I'm beginning to love my huns kitchen hehe

11. Do you drink?
yes I do, occasionally

12. Do you smoke?
no, I'm not a smoker

13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did?
I hope not

or I just don't remember hehehe

14. Hair color?
recently mixed brown, light brown and dark brown.. so.. brown?

15. Eye color?
light grey-blue? dunno really, ask my freinds :b

16. Do you wear contacts?
nope, I wish I did.

17. Favorite Holiday?
summer holiday - warmmmm

18. Favorite Month?
hum... june? but honestly december (birthday, many presents :b meheheh)

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
for no reason? no. I don't like to cry.

20. What was the last movie you watched?
'Dolls' Takeshi Kitano (was beautiful, I recommend)

21. Favorite Day of the Year?
Saturday

22. Are u too shy to ask someone out?
sure!

23. Who is/are your best friend(s)?
Emi, Goth, Kav, Toki, Ryou - these are my closest friends that I know the best.

24. Hugs or Kisses?
Kisses and... warm hugs..

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
definately Vanilla!! ai shitemo ittai!! :b

26. Do you want your friends to respond?
yes, would be fun hehe

29. What books/manga are you reading?
none

30. Piercings?
nope

31. Favorite Movie?
recently? 'Dolls'

32. Favorite Football Team?
none

33.What were you doing before this?
playing GTA2

34. Any pets?
two, sausage dog and a lovely ferret

35. Aim?
aim and shooot! (nope)

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
salted popcorn and a good movie :b

37. Dogs or cats?
cats

38. Favorite Flower?
rose of pain :b

39. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to?
I suppose not, but maybe it was so tragic that I don't remember

40. Are you taken or single?
taken! single no more thank God

41. Have you ever REALLY loved someone?
I do I do I do!

42. Who would you like to see right now?
stupid question! of course my hun who is now at work

43. What's your fave color(s)!?!
violet and black

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
AIR-GUN yeahhh!

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
I did it twice and I liked it, boeing 737 400 was really comfortable and safe hehe

46. Right-handed or Left-handed
right handed :b Red handed!

47. If you could be with someone right now, who would it be?
another silly question! my hunn!

48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
at... ]]> ~y0shee 7 things that.. [tag] http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7693309/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7693309/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 09:22:40 PST

7 Things that scare you...
+ tornados
+ insects
+ loneliness
+ feeling that I can't do nothing
+ hurting people
+ thinking about leaving my honey..
+ the polish goverment

7 Things you like the most...
+ piano..
+ ..and music
+ feeling that I'm not alone
+ meeting my friends
+ being with my hun
+ my ferret
+ rpg

7 Important things in your room...
+ my Computer
+ Cell Phone
+ bed
+ tea
+ CD-s
+ many things from my past that remind me of good days
+ did I already write 'My Computer?' hehe

7 Random facts about you...
+ I try to be nice
+ i think Im the happiest man on Earth
+ I try to play piano
+ I love Japanese Rock
+ Yoshiki's my Idol
+ I like violet colour but I dont wear such clothes
+ I try to sing..

7 Things you plan to do before you die...
+ be honest with my family
+ do something that won't let my friends forget me
+ live a happy life
+ help my friedns to believe in happiness
+ go to L.A. and see Yoshikis residence
+ go to Japan and see the house where He grew up.
+ learn to play drums.

7 Things that attract you to the opposite/same sex...
+ Eyes
+ personality
+ body
+ mouth
+ legs
+ intelligence
+ hair

7 Things you say the most...
+ ermm give me five minutes
+ oops?
+ fuk
+ shit happens
+ I understand you
+ x-japan
+ sweet

7 Celeb or NOT-REAL crushes:
+ Yoshiki
+ Gackt (malice Mizer times..)
+ hide
+
+ no more..
+
+

7 Favorite drinks...
+ Tea
+ recently coffee with milk
+ Red sweet wine
+ beer
+ apple juice
+ ice tea
+ orange juice

________________________________________ _________

I'm happy

]]> ~y0shee Epilogue http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7548889/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7548889/ Sun, 08 Jan 2006 20:53:26 PST new year, yay..
I should be happy,
I should,
but I ain't.
why?
well, cuz many things have changed already in this new shit year.
what things?
important things, I could say, the most important thing in my life, yeah, I could say so.
and I am worried about this year, what will happen, what could happen and what will not happen at all..
normal, isn't it? yeah, problems, problems and problems.
I'm sad recently, humm, yeah, can call this state like that.

my best friends broke up, she is with other guy already, it all happened just before new year. I was fighting, but I'm not a fighter and I lost. I was fighting for what I believed in.
in love.
but life is life, You'll never get a wife, that's so true. heh, well..
I was fighting for 'Our' friendship, for mine, Michaels and Emilys, and lost, there is no longer 'Us Three' - so sad.. it was so fun.
now I am broken, yeah this is the state I'm in, broken between two people who are no longer together and will not be together at all, so sad, yeah..

new year, new worries, I'm finishing my school and have not quite Idea what will happen next.
but I will try to do anything not to go to military, I will die there. I am sure, and I'm not joking.
too much Quake III Arena. no thanks.

owaranai ame dakishimete yoru ga asa wo mukaeru, kokoro wa mada, nureta mama..
kizutsuku dake kizutsu ite wakatta hazu no kotae wo, doushite mada toikaketeru..

I'm sad. I miss many people, Toki, Ryu, Kav, Jun, Had..

I feel I lost a large part of my soul, such an important thing, heh, scary.. I was so deep in this 'Three of us' that I feel so blank now when it's all nothing.

well.. don't worry, it's just me, just me. it's me and my problems but I wanted to say why I am a bit different, or why am I so blue, or why am I not responding or whatever.. it's damn hard time for me and I'm wishing to calm down, hide myself somewhere I can fight with my pain alone.
it's really a tragedy for me, don't thing I'm stupid or silly. 'Our Friendship' has helped me so many times, in so hard moments, if not this Friendship I think I wouldn't be here today, yes, I wouldn't cuz I was stupid before and I could do many things.
This Friendship was my safety, it was my home. it WAS two people together and me as their best friend, and it was so nice to be their best friend of their relationship. Emily is now with Michaels friend, in one week after she met him, she has fallen in love with him and I was first to know about that. so sad I couldn't do anything to hold her with us, with us Three. it was really importnat for me but I failed. I am not angry with Her, feelings don't know limits.. I am angry that I was not meeting Her more often to see that something's wrong, to see that she might be bored with Michael, but I had no idea. and it was too late to warn my Friend that something's not right. I failed myself and I failed 'Our Friendship'.

now so many plans, so many dreams will vanish, and especially one dream,
the dream of us Three, together, cuz how is this possible if so many things have changed..? this is the way I see it is.

so.. different version..

&... ]]> ~y0shee Tell me http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7452920/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7452920/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 02:00:41 PST

sorry for some questions

I didn't create them.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
I committed a suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Family:

WOULD YOU:
Be my friend?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Love me?:
Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

AND MORE...
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna paste this to your journal see what I say about you?

________________________________________ __________________________

and

my friends

tomodachi

my really good friend

http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7299258/ Tue, 13 Dec 2005 08:48:21 PST
lately I have strange mood, I tell everyone I'm ok, and I say to myself that I'm ok but, something's wrong. some of close friends know it, but I kept telling them that I'm ok.. I can't name it, what's wrong, is it winter? is it my age.. or is it.. that I'm not a happy person. I try to smile, but all I can is stare without any expression. I'm sleeping long hours, I feel like time is running through my fingers.. and I can't help it.
I met with Emi and Goth on saturday, we had some warhammer session, like in old times, then we had a long talk.
I feel I don't have a place to spend a New Year, cuz it seems neither Emi nor Goth will not be able to invite me, and as for me I can't invite them cuz... when my mother will come back from hospital she will need to relax and be calm. I'm sad about that.
this will be hard week. I feel it..
last nights were not peaceful for me.. firstly 2 days ago I saw dramatic and ugly pictures in my dream.. I just can't describe them here, cuz not everyone would like to know it. and yesterday.. I had a dream that continuosly happen from some time. I was in a hotel, don't know what city. there was a big window showing the buildings ahead. then I saw the storm is comming.. but not normal storm, clouds were dark, and green-blue. there was no rain.. only calm, silent sound of wind. but suddenly I noticed, that the tornado is forming! and one more and another one! I was stunned.. I coldn't move (I hate this feeling.. with all my heart), I could only stare at people dying, cars crashing, buidlings being damged. then one of those tornados came very close to my hotel, just between two buildings. I saw when dark brown bottom of tornado cuz of mud turned to crystal white cuz of a water in a hotel pool.. I was really scared, and I felt all of this so real.. then it happened.. suddenly my window broke and I was caught by a tornado. I was flying high, and saw many different parts of buildings and other preys of this monster. then I woke up.
I felt it was the longest nightmare I ever had but.. I have the same feeling after each one. it was one of the 'tornado dreams' I had.
I don't know what that means, I'm not sure if I'd like to know..
I'm feeling blue maybe cuz of this, or maybe not.. maybe I'm just lonely idiot with stupid problems, but I can't help it.

well, shit happens.

ok now, I'd like to ask my friends and kind people to vote for me on

contest, the price is one month subscribtion. i think it would be nice to win, but I need Your support, everyone can vote, just pick two entries (I hope one or two mine) and leave them in Your comment. I don't know if I can win, but I'd like to make some pools etc, I never did it before. thank You.

so You know what's happening inside me, I'm sorry it isn't happiness as always, I'm just trying to be honest. thank You for everything, still, Yosh.
________________________________________ __________________________

and

my friends

tomodachi

my really good friend

~y0shee bring it on!! Celebration!! :D http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7209130/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7209130/ Sat, 03 Dec 2005 03:53:38 PST
Today is strange day for me

.. it's my 20th birthday. I feel like my -teen chapter is over.. it happened to be nice when I was 15, earlier I was living in a shadow. I'd like to thank all of people who were with me and helped in hard times,
I want next 20 years to be as interesting as last 5 years. Thank You

for being my friend still, it's over 10 years we know eachother, You alwyas help me Sis, Thank You

I'd like to thank

for helping me when I needed help, for dreaming about what I was dreaming, thank You - You were kind for me, and You always tried to give me good advices for life

, I know You for about 5 years, only You and me know how You affected my life, how much You've helped me. Big Arigato to You

we know eachother not for too long but I already feel You are a great person, full of good energy, and with warm word when I'm sad. Thank You for giving me Yourself

You make me believe there are still people with the same unreal dreams like me,

Ryo, You're great person, You must believe it! Jun, You're my Yoshiki hehe, and I really thank You both for Your friendship!

Dry Your Tears.. With Love.. Thank You Had, thanks hide!

There are more people I should thank but I think they know how much they've helped me in the past years, I'm just grateful that I met You all~!!

well, so my 20th birthday, yippie

I feel like an adult with mind of a child, still.. damm (lol)

I'm going to spend this birthday in other way then normally, I'm going to Warsav to meet my dear friend

Thank You for the invitation! I'm so happy we will (are) spend this time with You,

about MU Global

I've just became am importand high lvl (winger) when I heard that MU Global will be p2p

almost a year of playing for nothing, damm

so I started to check MU e-global server, its Greek and nice

yay I've joined to the best polish guild there, heheh... ]]> ~y0shee ~Showing my soul~ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7179550/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7179550/ Thu, 01 Dec 2005 18:58:30 PST

first of all I would like to thank Chris for making me so lovely avatar

Thank You

I really like it, I was so suprised that You made it for me

waa it's so late

but I will write this journal no matter what

ok, I am tagged by Chris (Thank You

) cuz I really liked this tag and I wished to be included to this also..

so I asked Chris if he could also tag me

I've decided to stay friends with someone important to me

Thank You for that decision, this will be the best way for both of us, Thank You.

other new thing!

I'm back in the MU Online Global

and I'm enjoying this again! I thought I lost the spirit for that game 3 months ago

but no, heeh I'm in again

oh, here comes the TAG

I need to focus

[My name is]: Marek
[In the morning I was]: angry at my mother for waking me up..
[All I need now is]: relax and hug someone (no thanks, no Ferrets

)
[Love is]: like oxygen
[Im afraid of]: being lonely
[I dream about]: the drums and piano, and to play them well

You:
-- Middle name: I don't have any
-- Birth time: about 10:45 am
-- Birthplace: Lodz - Poland
-- Last place traveled: England
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Nail Color: Rusty

(natural to be exact

)
-- Height: 187 cm.
-- Zodiac Sign: Saggitarius (I dunno if I wrote this correctly)

Describe:
-- Your heritage: um I think Polish
-- Shoes you wore today: dunno the English word o.0'' (glany) leather

-- Your hair: brown, dark brown and light brown, kinda long as for me.
-- Your weakness: music
-- Perfect pizza: Margeritta (no mushrooooomssss, bleeh)

~y0shee Tag\break\session.. http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7131994/ http://y0shee.deviantart.com/journal/7131994/ Thu, 24 Nov 2005 20:43:16 PST

I had two days break cuz I didnt have internet, but now I have and I think I will not vanish like that anymore. besides.. I had some sad accident two days ago.. I dont want to comeback to it.. but I lost my mobile phone, so I will have to buy another number. You (who had 694 215 779) all can throw away my number..

and happier news. I had a photo session a week ago, my friend photographer did a great work! I will submit some of these photos, hope You'll like them! Comments are very very welcome

Thank You

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