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And now i fail to remember how things should feel.

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^{I wonder where I am.}




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And then,

i came back to unreal life. And i'll keep on pretending until the next moment of absolute truth.

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& i can't seem to get anything done. I just wish i could skip some time, a month or something, so things would be done on their own. But everything's gonna be alright.

[link]

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the lily.


One single white, beautiful lily.

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And he namelessly wandered away.

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And it goes on,

and on,

and on.. .. ..

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Then yesterday it broke down. 'Twas pretty much like God telling me well, if you don't like it there it goes.

I think i just need the numbers or something.

Yeah & i'm inviting a friend over for dinner this evening; potato soup, seasonal salad, filet au champignon, lasagne & spinach pie.

Then tea & chocolate cake.

Did you know i'm vegan?

I'm also feeling quite jolly today. Ya know, with the urge to chat & blog & everything. It's like i just woke up from the dead.

Most probably cos i've had terrible sleeping patterns for the past week & i'm just starting to adjust it. Well at least i saw sun today.

I shall leave you all in peace now. My room needs tidying up.

ps. I love you everyone!

]]> ~yoxxi http://yoxxi.deviantart.com/journal/23548059/ http://yoxxi.deviantart.com/journal/23548059/ Thu, 05 Mar 2009 20:35:22 PST same as that have once been up
there,
and that which will always be
anywhere else.

It does not matter where i am,
the sky above will never change,

and where i'm going
will always stay
the same.

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And i'm 20 tomorrow.

Now what?

]]> ~yoxxi http://yoxxi.deviantart.com/journal/19585561/ http://yoxxi.deviantart.com/journal/19585561/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 06:50:21 PDT sara85eg who is one brilliant photographer & i so strongly recommend you check her gallery out: [link]

The photoshoot was lots of fun & we took a whole lot of pictures which so far have resulted in this [link] & this [link]

You have to keep an eye on this girl i tell you, i don't think her brilliance will ever run out.

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Have a good one everybody.

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A sacred sublimity that appeared in a flash & disappeared in another, taking along with it a newly granted essence of life.

An occurrence to which i am not quite a stranger.

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The unfulfilled desire of grasping it all brings me to tears.

I wish it was part of me. I wish the world was part of me.

[link]

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You have been a mirror, you have been the echo through which i can only hear myself.

Of all unspoken words i behold, i come to acknowledge, unheard still, that there is no life for me but that i see in another's eyes.

My essence lies in nowhere but the glimpse i catch when i look in the eye i have chosen to expose myself to.

Elsewhere, i am nothingness.

Like a most desirable star that you reach out to but never hold, i reach out to mine self in your existence. & whenever i touch it, it turns to dust.

I turn to dust. & you turn into an unreflective being whose physical presence i see nothing beyond.

You reinforce the boundaries. & i die a hundred times a day.

[link]

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A painting is but an imitation of what it represents.

A book is but an imitation of thoughts the author has had in mind.

A chair is but an imitation of an idea the carpenter has come up with.

A piece of music is but an imitation of what has gone through the composer's head.

The only thing I so far acknowledge as real & absolute is soul.

You are real, a bird is real, a flower is real.

Soul is the only thing we cannot authentically create in our heads. When I think about You, it is but an imitation of You.

Whilst when I think about words you've spoken, it is but an imitation of an imitation. So it doesn't really matter if I didn't create it, for it wasn't authentic after all.


I miss someone so much.

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He has shown me the true meaning of delusion & the beauty in it.

I have ended a story that has never started. I have travelled through time for it is possible, just like every other thing.

I do not know what is past & what is present at this point.

Not anymore.

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But i've chosen not to see the jellyfish, i never really liked jellyfish.

& when i opened my eyes, i wondered what on Earth brought me where i was. The bath tub looked quite unfamiliar.

Here does not feel like home anymore. I am willing to go back at some point & stay for good.

Cos here is cold. . . . . .& lonely.

[link]

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Have a happy one, although i still think it's a bit too ridiculous.

[link]

I am going to celebrate Parinirvana Day instead. I am such the little Buddhist Monk.

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Yes you.

I'll take care of the gardens till you get back.

]]> ~yoxxi http://yoxxi.deviantart.com/journal/16509527/ http://yoxxi.deviantart.com/journal/16509527/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 16:51:34 PST I am sick & tired of making up things inside my head & believing them.

No really.

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& the ending point is somewhere unknown. . .& unwanted.

[link]

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]]> ~yoxxi http://yoxxi.deviantart.com/journal/15802289/ http://yoxxi.deviantart.com/journal/15802289/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 04:15:15 PST
I am going to die in sheer confusion.

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Mostly that, & a smiling face.

But that's for today, maybe not tomorrow.


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mad mad mad.

A fantasy world is where i'm living now. Distorted images is the new crystal clear. I'm on a high that's got me going down.

I'm on a break, a break from nothing. A break of which i don't want to come out so as not to have to explain why i went in.

It seems like disappearing on the expense of others gives me a kick. A kick that makes me high.

A high that gets me low, already.

Mad.

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