http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:zeekhellsing&section=today deviantART RSS for by:zeekhellsing en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 02:30:37 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/20337346/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/20337346/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 09:07:10 PDT .< Oh and a random British ascend dude kissed another guy then started flirting with me o.o it was very Capt. Jack of him >/////////<;;; but then my friend Renee had to save me from him (Damn it I was fine with flirting with the random dude that was like Ianto's and Jack's love child) met some people that knew comics need now then ever to fix the Blasted Scanner of Doom!!!! T______T okay shutting up now >.<

working on:
Fixing my scanner so I can put up my stuff I've drawn up(stupid thing broke again)
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]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/17457997/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/17457997/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 12:17:42 PDT , and I'm going to kill him next time I see him.

Down to the Rules.

RULES
1. post these rules
2. each person tagged must post 5 random facts about themselves.
3. those tagged should write a journal about these facts.
4. at the end post 5 more deviants tagged.
5. go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

Now for facts.

1. I like eccentric things
2. I like libraries
3. I hate beaches (sand)
4. I hate rude people
5. I like butterfly

The people I will tag are:

No one I don't feel like tagging!!!

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Stargate Atlantis group pic
and fixing my scanner so I can put up my stuff i've drawn up(stupid thing broke again)
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working on:
Stargate Atlantis group pic
and fixing my scanner so I can put up my stuff i've drawn up(stupid thing broke again)
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For rules......

RULES
1. post these rules
2. each person tagged must post 5 random facts about themselves.
3. those tagged should write a journal about these facts.
4. at the end post 5 more deviants tagged.
5. go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

For random facts!!

1. I love all things Scifi...

2. I love Rocky Road ice cream

3. I love dark things like gothic stuff, yet I love chibi's and rainbows... what does that say...

4. I love shows/movies/books about searal killers...like Hannibal or Dexter...

5. I hate being tagged...

Now for people to be tagged!!

~Apocalyptic-Survivor
~SailorPluto-the-Pyro
~EvanescentWednesday
~chibiautomail13
~alphonseelric22


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Please read this below!

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because the would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised.The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was a transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end this.

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Please read this below!

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because the would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised.The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was a transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end this.

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/16345964/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/16345964/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 15:43:53 PST M<

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Please read this below!

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because the would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised.The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was a transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end this.

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/16319415/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/16319415/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 17:28:07 PST A lot people seem to be acnoring me so.... >< makes me feel a bit hurt...mmm

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Please read this below!

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because the would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised.The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was a transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me. I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end this.

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]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15937687/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15937687/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 22:10:58 PST How do we know if right now this is reality,
Or just some echo in Time that ripples on forever,
Or maybe this life is just a Dream that we will not remember when we wake up...
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We're on the Dark side of the Sun... Falling, Into Nothin'... Wrapped in our pain... lost.
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What is in the darkness, that scares us so much. What is in the darkness, that made us want to harness the light, Is it because there's something there or is it our over active imagination.
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Freedom is not Free. Life is lost, and we like flower wilt in sorrow, At the sight of what the world has become...
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You do not know what evil is until you walk across a million corpses,
look down at your hands and find that you are the demon that killed them all... And all you can do is laugh...
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You haunt me in my dreams, In my thoughts, making me lose my faith, Making me hate, Im falling into the black, Becoming the shadow of myself, I doubt all I am, And become the Monster you want me to be...
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The Shadow comes. The World is invelibed in darkness, And the crys of suffering caires on the winds. The smell of Roting flesh lingers everywhere. Fire burns everything until nothing but a barn wastland is left. Then the star expants and inveliopst the planet. And the world is no more...
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Shadow hangs over us now, like at twilight the world falls, now no real light on us, we crawl toward the fire in hope, for freedom and peace, but we find only, dictation and war.
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No human that has fallen into darkness can ever truly reach that light for there will always be some darkness within their hearts.
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You haunt me in my dreams, In thoughts, making me lose my faith, making me hate, I'm falling into the black, becoming the shadow of myself, I doubt all I am, and become the monster you want me to be...

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936963/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936963/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 21:02:14 PST The emptiness...
The Abyss of nothing that stretches on forever...
Why don't you run away?
Is it calling you...
The Darkness...
Why don't you just walk away?
Your alone...
No one but Yourself...
Why don't you move...?
You stand in the Abyss, listening to the silence...
Are you Mad?
Or just slowly going Insane...
Standing on the percipice of Time and Space...
The very existence of everything...
Should you fall into it...?
Or should you stand in the Nothing...
Feeling Nothing
Lost...
Don't you Fear it?

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936874/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936874/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 20:55:08 PST But you don't want to hurt me...
I said that it's Fine,
That you could never brake me...
But I was so wrong...
You ripped my Heart out grinning,
I cry out for your help,
But you just walk away...
Now I'm sitting here,
with my chest burning,
crying because you can't understand...
What have you done to me,
what you have lost,
what you should be feeling,
what you have become...
And now i know I can't help you,
and I wish I never met you,
Please don't pull me back...
'Cuz I'm broken because of you...
I'm burning inside because of you...
I'm dieing because of you...
All of this,
is because of you...
I'm numb...
I'm in so much pain...
Because you don't know how much you love someone until they truly hurt you.

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936714/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936714/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 20:39:12 PST fantasy is apart of Reality,
Hallucination's become Real,
but what is Real...
We Fade into dreamland,
We're all thinking clearly,
yet not thinking at all...
And it feels so right...
When we take more,
We're not worried,
We think not of consequence...
Death is near,
I can feel it creeping,
We can't hold on,
We'll disappear,
In the Darkness here...

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936627/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936627/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 20:30:27 PST Void of everything...
My heart is consumed,
In nothingness...
I can't feel anything anymore,
I know I should cry,
because I finally lost you...
but I can't.
I cut my skin just to feel something,
But I just feel numb,
Cuz' it's empty...
My heart is a Void,
my heart is Nothing,
And I shrivel into myself,
Try to keep the Nothingness in...
When all there is,
Is Nothingness...
All around me,
And there's Nothing I can do...

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936526/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936526/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 20:22:13 PST I can't seem to hold on...
You are slipping from me,
Why can't I reach you,
Why can't I bring you back...
I hated everything about you,
Why did I love you...
I loved everything about you,
Why did I love you...
I love everything about you,
Why did you hate me...
What did I do to make you this way,
What did you do to make me.. Love you...
I don't seem to have3 enough time...
I can't figure this out...
Please help me re-find myself...
I can't keep holding on ... without you here...
I'm dying inside...
I'm drowning in my pain...
I'm writhing in my fear of you...
I'm bathing in your love...
I can not hold on...
I'm fading here,
Without you...
Please help me here,
I'm fading without you here...

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936343/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936343/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 20:06:01 PST Tic-toc, Tic-toc,
Somewhere a child is dreaming...
Tic-toc, Tic-toc,
Somewhere the sun is setting...
Tic-toc, Tic-toc,
Somewhere the Tea is getting cold...
Tic-toc, Tic-toc,
Somewhere someone is running out of time...
Tic-toc, Tic-toc, Tic-
Somewhere a clock has stopped...

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936275/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936275/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 19:59:42 PST with me in the middle standing next to a man with a glass heart,
and if I move an inch it would shatter into a million pieces,
and they would be gone forever...
So I stand here next to a man with a glass heart in a glass forest with glass animals and glass trees,
Unmoving...
afraid to destroy this master piece of a world...

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936190/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936190/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 19:53:26 PST not forward or backward...
but sideways...
Black and white mend to Grey...
Fire no longer burn...
Ice no longer is cold...
darkness becomes light...
hate becomes love...
the world shifts...
the universe screams...
the stars disappear...
and black holes are the only source of light...
the sick and the dead are heathly...
the heathly and the living are dying...
I yell in agony as I start to be pulled slowly apart...
Then, It all Stops.

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936096/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936096/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 19:46:57 PST twilight engulfs the world
People become spirits,
the past ceases to exist,
the future never comes,
and the silents of nothing
seem to stretch out eternally,
the universe is swallowed,
Into the Nowhere,
This place is known,
Only to the few,
And the very unlucky,
It is called...
The Void.

]]> ~zeekhellsing http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936035/ http://zeekhellsing.deviantart.com/journal/15936035/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 19:42:01 PST And an occasional bird passes by,
I close my eyes and daydream about flying towards the stars,
And suddenly I feel weightless,
I open my eyes but find no clouds not even sky just Darkness and stars,
I look around and see Earth below me,
I stare in wonder as a comet passes by,
And see the moon come out from behind the earth,
I then realize the sun is above me, and i stare at it for a second,
I gasp as I feel my body getting pulled and I start to plummet down towards earth,
faster and faster,
but I never seem to reach it.
I close my eyes and lose all sense of time...
I feel a hand upon my shoulder,
I open my eyes and stare up at my friend,
who's smiling down at me and says I dozed off,
But I didn't really believe that all those wonderful things were just a fantastic dream...

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