deviantART: by:zekamori http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:zekamori&section=today deviantART RSS for by:zekamori en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 10 Dec 2009 10:39:55 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Relationship help. http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27937466/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27937466/ Sat, 24 Oct 2009 08:59:18 PDT

Anyone wanna give me advice?


It really bothers me I can't get over this so soon like he did. :/

I to be needing professional advice!
Or something.
Like a house in Canada/Wisconsin.
I soooo wanna live there. :heart::heart::heart:

CSS by =blissart :heart: ]]> =zekamori THIS ISSS..... http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27528495/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27528495/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 19:19:18 PDT

FOR SERIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!1111ONEONE


I've been saying this for a little while.
I like it. :D
How is everyone?

CSS by =blissart :heart: ]]> =zekamori Hiatus. http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27346796/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27346796/ Mon, 21 Sep 2009 19:55:02 PDT

Not holding up very well.
I can't draw as much as I used too.
Not to mention my scanner and my mom's are dead.

I'm going to practice Adobe.
I also have school to freak out about.
Plus, things with my relationship aren't going too cool on my side..


I'll be back sometime.
If you care for my AIM/MSN/phone #, note me.

CSS by =blissart :heart: ]]> =zekamori Is strongly dislike men. =/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27295588/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27295588/ Sat, 19 Sep 2009 08:26:36 PDT

No, I'm not gay or anything like that. I just sorta hate them right now.

Preferably one person.

Being inconsiderate of my feelings.
Not caring about what's going to happen.
Throwing a bunch of bullshit at me for no reason.
Me feeling like the idiot for doing stuff, and then finding out it was all a waste.


If you guessed whom I hate, tis my ex.
Already found someone to like.
After 2 weeks of us ending.
Wow, and after you said no one interested you there.
>:
Now I do want to light your pants on fire.



I don't know what to do.

CSS by =blissart :heart: ]]> =zekamori In a state of depression, boys are stupid. http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27141369/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/27141369/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 21:06:25 PDT

Especially mine.
My ex-one.

Here I am crying, sad, hurt, and what does he do?

"Deal with it."
"Okay"
"kk"

Of course I have to deal with it, but really. You say that THAT bluntly to someone?
It seems so mean..
He called me a loser, or he assumed I was one, because I hung out with him a lot more.
Well duh, I was happy because of him, and I loved to spend time with him, since I barely got any with him..

I know he's got college, and that he wasn't feeling anything coming out, and yes, he DID want me back..for a day. Then he said he couldn't be a jerk and fake it. I was sad, and he came over, we are friends..but just, whenever I think about it, I'm really, really sad.

I don't want to be mean, and call him out, but just..he was perfect for me. We were the same basically, just the gender, and some life experiences.
I just don't understand.


If he started accusing me of stuff about our relationship and how it was my fault, I could take all my friends and put them on a jury and when they are asked who ended it, they'd point to him. If they were asked who was sad, who cried, who tried to make the best of time that was left, they'd all point to me.

I know he won't find someone ASAP, but I'd be really really upset if he did I know that won't happen so soon, he said there could be another chance, but I just don't know if I'd like to be there again. Would he just do the same thing, break up with me, then take me back, and do it again?
I love him dearly, and I'm so happy we are friends, and that we don't hate each other. I just..I don't know how far my love will go anyway.
No offense, but everyone in my school..kinda unattractive to me, and I'm not being picky. I've always had a problem where I can't find anyone at all, and I was teased, and called gay, and lesbian, or bi.
I think everyone is beautiful in their own way, and no one should be put down. I feel like a hypocrite saying that, but I guess I need a little flick on the shoulder to get my attention. A real hard flick, so I go like "LSADFWTF" and then notice that person.


I feel really, really lonely. It hurts a lot inside, and I know my friends are helping me with advice and love, but just..I don't want to be the only one sad. I thought I was over it, but then I was crying again.

How do I get over this?

One thing that will always stick with me, and please don't think I'm a super bad person, but we did a lot of sexual things together. No, not sex. I think if we did, it'd be a lot worse, awkward, name calling, etc. No, but just..how can you stop that?

Maybe I should have told him day 1, I don't know what your doing. But I just went along with it, I was curious to, I guess you could say. Yeah, not religious, but experiencing, in a good way..
I just will really miss all the love I got from him..feeling happy..


I feel so dillusional, we were talking about marriage, kids..maybe that was a distractor to get away from the real problem that would happen.



Sigh. Boys are really, really, really dumb.
I want huggles. ;-;

CSS by =blissart :heart: ]]> =zekamori Guess what everyone? I'm single! http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26982109/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26982109/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 17:11:00 PDT

Yup, me and my boyfriend broke up today.
I feel a little sad that I won't have anyone to hug, or say I love you each night, but I'll get over it in time.

I'm glad we are friends, and I am very happy with all the good he gave me over the year, would have been 18 months, so we've been together a year and a half? Yup, I'm very glad for him.
He said we could try again if we can, which I'm really hoping I get another chance, because I still do love him. We both love each other, I guess friendship with the occasional kiss (not benefits, but I sometimes might try when I'm then reminded) but yeah..


I was really happy, and I still am. he is a great guy, and I can't wait to do more friend stuff with him. :)

CSS by =blissart :heart: ]]> =zekamori New CSS/School starts Monday. http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26613044/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26613044/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 16:38:04 PDT

Life


SO HAI ALL.
NO ONE CARES LAWL.

To the point, yeah, I got this CSS, thank you =blissart for this free one. See if I can code one myself. But for the time being, I'm sticking with this one. I like the simplicity of it.

So anyway, yes! I start school Monday!
:iconcryingplz:

The horror, yes. I am quite upset this time around. I went to Six Flags with my boyfriend the other day. :heart: It was okay, I had no problem with it, got a tan from the heat and the waitings in the lines of ultimate doom. They have lockers now, so you have to pay to use them, and leave your stuff in there. Anything loose on you like a wallet, or a small purse, your off the ride. >_> BOREDOM ARISES. THE ULTIMATE PLOT OF EVIL.
So anyway, while me and my boyfriend were sitting on a bench, I got to stare at all these girls walking by, laughing, purses, swim suits on from hurricane harbor..and I thought, you know, why can't I have that opportunity of more time? Could I have been spoiled by middle school from expecting to go back early? It could, and yeah, there are probably a lot of other schools that start earlier, or the same time as us. I give you sympathy, but really. Why do we need LESS of a summer then everyone else? We can be fair rested, our minds just ready for anything, school friends, adventures, blah.

I hope school will be decent this year. My boyfriend left for college, so I hope things will go okay between us, and just me in general. :( Honestly, I love my friends, but it just seems they don't love me as much. I feel ignored half the time, and that they just don't really..well, they don't think I'll fit in with them. I'm a bookworm, I stay focused on my studies..is that so bad? I'm not a total nerd, but I have my friends that will vouch for me as being cool. I get by with my talent in art, and helping people..but this year, I'm just pledging to be different, not so much giving because of the crap I get from it.


But, I am going to look for a job. I need money badly, and I doubt I could start commissions and people by them. I'm planning to really draw more, and get a little popular, and maybe start then. I don't know when that will happen, but yeah.

I'm considering to apply in a mall, maybe at Hot Topic, or part time at this Dippin' Dots store. I could also try Jewel/Dominicks because its very close to home, so that's a plus.
I WANT to try Target, but they just..it's not worth it. My application is "lost", I can't get through to the manager, she's not there. My friend won't even put in a word for me, but she'll put in one for HER friend. Really, am I a threat? A 16 year old junior, a threat to a 19 year old Starbucks employee?

But here's a list of what I plan to get:

-new tablet
-copic markers
-art supplies (paper, pens, etc)
-books
-helping my mom out finacially
-pocket money


Sound good?
I got to do a little school shopping. Got some pens and pads of paper from a Sanrio store. Sooooo cute. I also bought a purse FINALLY. It's small, cute, and has a zipper! :iconohjoyplz:

I'm off to make a pizza. I'm HUNGARY.
AND I BOUGHT PEPSI AND OODLES OF GOODIES AT HOME.

NOW TO WATCH HEATH LEDGER FIGHT CHRISTIAN BALE TO THE DEEEEEEAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTHHHH. SPARTA.


Art Status


I have a few things in my folders, but really I have been super lazy. Not uploading, not feeling motivated. Blagarrhh. Maybe I'll draw more in school, get a doodle book. More pens.
God I need money.

And tools to create. I'm considering to doodle on my jeans/backpacks and my room to see what comes out.

CSS by =blissart :heart: ]]> =zekamori livejournal, please read. http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26538347/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26538347/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 23:08:47 PDT [link]


ADD MEH.
I NEED SOME SUPPORT TO HELP CHEER UP SOMEONE IMPORTANT TO ME.

]]> =zekamori ASFLSADFLK;S WHAT THE... http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26412567/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26412567/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 22:07:03 PDT

MY FAVORITE MATH TEACHER LEFT.
SHE WAS THE BEST THING IN THIS SCHOOL.


NOW I DON'T GET TO SEE HER IN THE HALLS AND SAY HELLO AND MAKE JOKES.



WHAT.
THE.
HELL.

CRAPSHITBULLBITCHASSWHOREAL;SDFLSKDAFSAD'LFADKSLSAD'L


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sorry, but I am maaaddddd..

]]> =zekamori STORY TIEM. http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26384884/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26384884/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 16:25:00 PDT
I got inspiredx100000 for a little story.
okay, mostly characters, but this was a wicked dream I had. It was soooo badass.
I decided to incoorperate my boyfriend ~peterwolfe into this, and he's the main influence for it. I need to think up some cool names, draw it out and whatever, but it'll be done. I'M SO HAPPY. I'm glad I have these ideas now.


AWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYYYYY.
OUO

]]> =zekamori I HAS A SUB. http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26304620/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26304620/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 18:53:03 PDT ohjoy.

WHO WANTS TO START A CLUB?!!?



i needs a pretty CS. :c
I'm working on little pictures, and if you help me, I'll draw yuuu onnneee! or two.

]]> =zekamori I will change, deviantART. And thank YOU! [read!] http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26221694/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/26221694/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 21:49:59 PDT You've been pretty good to me, having the chance to meet all these great people, watch a lot of people with magnificent talent. You've also inspired me to work to be a better person about my art style.

I've been lagging so much. I just go on DA and fave without commenting. Yes, horrible person. >_< But I'm really glad to be on such a cool site. I love bringing up various deviations to friends, family. Yeah, some of them don't understand some of them, but I do love bringing up a subject I feel I'm very knowledgeable in.

So, maybe some know, that our dog, Kira, will be adopted, or hopefully adopted. We have been watching her since the start of 09, since she got into a hit and run. She's been pretty frustrating, and we haven't really had much fun this summer, or all year really. She barks at anyone, she wants attention, not to mention the fur. The people at the adoption place said that if her behavior doesn't change, she'll go under gas. We didn't want that, so now, she's getting a lot better, and we are glad. We really think that she'll go to a good family. People will just have to understand her, and get to know her. We don't know her previous owners, but they must have been abusive. The poor thing. :C

Well, anyway, since she will be adopted (we'd love to adopt her ourselves, but..well, we just kinda can't take some of the things she does..we think she'll be really happy with another family..) I wanted to make something to remember her by. I'll probably paint a picture for my mom or something, but otherwise, I made a character of her, an OC so that I'll always remember her. That was the first thing I drew out. A ref sheet for her, with wings, markings, details, and even a human form. I'm really proud of it, and it also inspired me to make a new sona of myself, since that's all the hubba nowadays. XD
Now, I think of a lot of people when I draw stuff, but I was considering to draw fanart for this person, but then again, at the time, I was all "BLAHMYARTSUCKSZ" and I didn't. but I guess, I can write a journal to say this to that person.

That person is :iconshinerai:
You can think of this as a feature, but this guy's art is like freaking amazing. He draws everything on like will, he knows what is what, and he just has like a billion characters, a story, everything in his gallery has something to do with it (okay, not everything XD) but still. He colors beautifully, he is very funny, very kind, nice, and he takes the time to comment to everyone who has commented to him. He is like a great guy. XD
Yes, I consider myself a Shin fan, I wish there was a like button like on facebook, I'd like everything, also, I wish I could favorite everything of his, but I don't want to seem like some weirdo stalker person..

But this guy is really amazing. He's got creative ideas, nice guy, go give him a watch, or at least a watch.
I must thank Shin because his art work, and those amazing color and the beautiful claws and fluffilious tails he draws are orgasmic, and they have inspired me to draw Kira like such a beautiful, proud, fluffy dragon. XDD


Thanks Shin. :D I'm glad I came back and remembered I watched you..when something popped up in my inbox when I came back to 4023094293847324893 messages. Lol I am so picky with deleting crap. But thanks for inspiring me to draw such an important creature (my doggie) in my life as a dragon I'll always remember <3


DAMN I'VE SAID IT! :blush:
-hides in closet with the monsters-



But also, I want to thank all these people for helping me, and just, well, making me get back on this site, because I've been missing a lot. Thank you. Everything helps, the comments, the favs, the love, the random convos.

[link]

[I really just added some people, but they are just either idols, or I consider them friends because they are nice to me XDDD;; ]
But also, lots of people have helped me through weird times, and even if times are hard, I'm gonna doodle more, and I'm gonna go look for a job to help my mom. Also, school is coming up soon, so I'll need tons of people to talk to. Those that AREN'T in school a month early. >___>;;


Anyway, yeah. I also want to get more involved on DA, because I have goals of the following:

-have a popular gallery/popular deviation(s)
-get a DD
-have the ' in front of my name XD
-POSSIBLY, MAYBELY HAVE A ^ ON MY NAME!
-... ]]> =zekamori OH NO. DDDD8 http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/25744331/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/25744331/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 23:33:09 PDT



WHAT WILL HARRY POTTER DO WITHOUT HIS BEST FRINED?!?!?!?!

]]> =zekamori Help on art/drawing? http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/25494918/ http://zekamori.deviantart.com/journal/25494918/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 12:21:39 PDT and art. Boy I need to draw. I've been so lazy, and thinking "I suck." because everywhere I look, or when I try and not nessecarily copy, but see what the patterns in certain coloring tutorials/pictures are and try to do them myself, but my own style. Not working.


I know everyone has practice and whatever, but I have no idea what to draw..or how to..
if anyone can suggest ideas or tutorials, or ANYTHING, I appericate it. I'm desperate to try something.
One of my goals on DA is to have a popular gallery. Or at least a very popular picture that many people will fav and comment. Like :iconshinerai: has or :iconbudgie: has. I admire a lot of artists and their styles, but I know all those comments/favs comes from hard work. I WANT TAHT!
I will strive for it!



On another note,
I've no job.

IT IS TRUE.
My usual summer job put me on a waiting list, so if a spot gets open, I get it. Or someone above me does. Most likely no one, or very few get called in.


Srsly, in times like this, would YOU quit a job that pays 1grand for 8 weeks? I wouldn't. 'o'

Well anyway. I also applied for Target. Rejected. I thought it was a little dumb, my friend mentioned she'd recommend me. But all the time I told her "I really want to get this job!" she replied "I have one." Not helpful..but whatever. Guess I gotta depend on mehself.
Well, I'm going to apply for starbucks, I'll try Target again, in person though. I'll also go for Borders and Barnes and Noble. Also maybe gamestop if I can. I doubt I will since the only systems I know are PS2 and DS. Helpless!


I'm reading a little more. Read all the Harry Potter books in a month? The first 3 were done in about 4 days, but the 4 took a while because I was lazy, and school was in the way. But I finished! I'm impressed with myself for reading that fast. xD I can't wait to see the sixth movie! Hope they don't fuck itup with less details!


Anyway, I'm going to read and play games. :) Replaying kingdom hearts since I don't have anything to do much this summer.
LATER~!

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