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Hey fellas, i'm pimping this blog for my fellow Deviants who lives around KL area. I'll be selling cakes and desserts and so on.

No art update, too busy with other stuff and tablet is dead
Wait till i moved in with ~CielElric, ~FiendSoul and ~Kitsunyaa then only i might be updating new stuff.. till then

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/20020697/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/20020697/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 10:57:26 PDT
I would like to apologize to all the members..

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/17269968/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/17269968/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 11:45:14 PDT
Midterms and assignments

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/16827436/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/16827436/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 04:43:08 PST
Finally reached 30k, its actually my 5th year in DA.. WHUT? that long already?

ASTAGA!

onwards to GACC!! do visit Ju Lah! booth thr on day one! day two, i'll be joining cosplay comp

See ya fellas!

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/15703607/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/15703607/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 06:29:25 PST < anyway, i have finished my classes for this semester, and work is doing okay. Whats left for now is finals, touching up the comic and costume and also other Ju Lah! merchandizes.

It's less than a month till CF and i still hvnt print out the book, but dont worry, i'll manage to finish it up in time ^^ Many thanks to all members and guest artists. This year's volume wont be as thick as last year but i'm sure u guys dont mind XD

I will post up the lineart of the book cover as a part of the ad and promotion for the group. As you all know, Ju Lah! means 'bring it on' or 'lets go' so yesh, the group's theme is provocation.. will think of a more specific theme next year i hope.

As for the costume for cosplay in CF07, i am going as Hellboy.. yeap, gonna paint my body red.. lul.. whut?
Also will be joining the cosplay competition for the sake of joining the battle chess.. lol.. hope to put up a good show.

Anyway, we are opening the reservations for the second volume of Ju Lah! now, the price should be around 8-15 ringgit, will up date the final price, but for now, the early birds gets rm2 discount XD and a postcard ^^ so reserve ur copy today!

Okay, back to work and solitude.. LOL.. yosh, y'all take care..

Till next time..
Yours truly

Zend

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/15268149/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/15268149/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 05:38:46 PDT -----------------------------------------------------------------------------
It's that time of the year again, Ju Lah! group is calling existing members, recruiting artists and guest artists to join in to contribute for the second volume for the year 2007!

Our group was only established last year.. quite recently really.. The Group's name is "Ju Lah!" Whats that? its a phrase me and my friends usually use in our daily basis in Sarawak. So yeah, it's a Sarawakian Language. The meaning should be "Come La!" or "Lai La!" in formal english, "Bring It On!"


I've set a deadline for the submissions of the artworks. It's on the 30th October. If u wishes to join us, please send me a note or talk to me in MSN, my email is "darkness_Zend@hotmail.com" It doesnt matter where u are from.. The submission can be done online so dont worry.. i dont require the hard copies.. but please keep in mind.. those artworks must be originals.. and it must be done by u, and no one else.. unless its a collab by u and others.

The RULES are simple.

Group Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (30th October)
2. Must do at least 8 pages or artworks (doesnt matter whether its comic or illustrations)
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Colored pages arent cumpulsory. If u were to do colored pages, its limited to 1 pages only. Colored pages arent cheap to copy.
5. Doesnt mind working with a bunch of n00bs (that'll be us)
6. Members are to pay a fee for joining the group. The fee will be confirm upon printing. becoz by then only we'll know the cost needed.
7. Do not show or upload ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks' data must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.
9. Members were to pay a yearly fee that are yet to be set.. it depends on the numbers of members. So i need confirmation A.S.A.P!

Guest Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (30th October)
2. The minimum numbers of pages is 1. the maximum will be 3.
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Guest artist who wishes to do colored pages must infrom us first.. we'regiving a few selected guest artist only the privilage of colored pages.(depends on one's skills i guess)
5. Doesnt mind their artworks being use by the group however we want to.
6. Doesnt mind if their artworks arent selected to be printed. Because we might have too many guest artists.
7. Do not upload or show ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.


The rules are subjected to changes at anytime.. its just a few basic understandable rules..

Deadline of submissions: 30th October

Submissions can be made online using data file or softcopies instead of hard copies.

Target price for a book: RM8-15.. hoping to lower the cost as much as i can. The price will be confirm in end of November.

For those who would like to reserve a book, just send me a note or tell me via MSN.

I'm looking forward to hear from those who wants to join us.. Just give me a note or chat with me using MSN.

Guest Artists will be choose by the members. If there's too many guest artist trying to contribute, we might have to select a few only from all of the guest artist.

All are welcomed, doesnt matter whr u are

Till next time..
Yours truly

Zend

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/14922212/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/14922212/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 05:02:30 PDT
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It's that time of the year again, Ju Lah! group is calling existing members, recruiting artists and guest artists to join in to contribute for the second volume for the year 2007!

Our group was only established last year.. quite recently really.. The Group's name is "Ju Lah!" Whats that? its a phrase me and my friends usually use in our daily basis in Sarawak. So yeah, it's a Sarawakian Language. The meaning should be "Come La!" or "Lai La!" in formal english, "Bring It On!"


I've set a deadline for the submissions of the artworks. It's on the 30th October. If u wishes to join us, please send me a note or talk to me in MSN, my email is "darkness_Zend@hotmail.com" It doesnt matter where u are from.. The submission can be done online so dont worry.. i dont require the hard copies.. but please keep in mind.. those artworks must be originals.. and it must be done by u, and no one else.. unless its a collab by u and others.

The RULES are simple.

Group Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (30th October)
2. Must do at least 8 pages or artworks (doesnt matter whether its comic or illustrations)
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Colored pages arent cumpulsory. If u were to do colored pages, its limited to 1 pages only. Colored pages arent cheap to copy.
5. Doesnt mind working with a bunch of n00bs (that'll be us)
6. Members are to pay a fee for joining the group. The fee will be confirm upon printing. becoz by then only we'll know the cost needed.
7. Do not show or upload ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks' data must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.
9. Members were to pay a yearly fee that are yet to be set.. it depends on the numbers of members. So i need confirmation A.S.A.P!

Guest Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (30th October)
2. The minimum numbers of pages is 1. the maximum will be 3.
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Guest artist who wishes to do colored pages must infrom us first.. we'regiving a few selected guest artist only the privilage of colored pages.(depends on one's skills i guess)
5. Doesnt mind their artworks being use by the group however we want to.
6. Doesnt mind if their artworks arent selected to be printed. Because we might have too many guest artists.
7. Do not upload or show ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.


The rules are subjected to changes at anytime.. its just a few basic understandable rules..

Deadline of submissions: 30th October

Submissions can be made online using data file or softcopies instead of hard copies.

Target price for a book: RM8-15.. hoping to lower the cost as much as i can. The price will be confirm in end of November.

For those who would like to reserve a book, just send me a note or tell me via MSN.

I'm looking forward to hear from those who wants to join us.. Just give me a note or chat with me using MSN.

Guest Artists will be choose by the members. If there's too many guest artist trying to contribute, we might have to select a few only from all of the guest artist.

All are welcomed, doesnt matter whr u are

Till next time..
Yours truly

Zend

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/14161756/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/14161756/ Tue, 14 Aug 2007 08:24:20 PDT
ALSO!

It's that time of the year again, Ju Lah! group is calling existing members, recruiting artists and guest artists to join in to contribute for the second volume for the year 2007!

Our group was only established last year.. quite recently really.. The Group's name is "Ju Lah!" Whats that? its a phrase me and my friends usually use in our daily basis in Sarawak. So yeah, it's a Sarawakian Language. The meaning should be "Come La!" or "Lai La!" in formal english, "Bring It On!"


I've set a deadline for the submissions of the artworks. It's on the 30th October. If u wishes to join us, please send me a note or talk to me in MSN, my email is "darkness_Zend@hotmail.com" It doesnt matter where u are from.. The submission can be done online so dont worry.. i dont require the hard copies.. but please keep in mind.. those artworks must be originals.. and it must be done by u, and no one else.. unless its a collab by u and others.

The RULES are simple.

Group Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (30th October)
2. Must do at least 8 pages or artworks (doesnt matter whether its comic or illustrations)
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Colored pages arent cumpulsory. If u were to do colored pages, its limited to 1 pages only. Colored pages arent cheap to copy.
5. Doesnt mind working with a bunch of n00bs (that'll be us)
6. Members are to pay a fee for joining the group. The fee will be confirm upon printing. becoz by then only we'll know the cost needed.
7. Do not show or upload ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks' data must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.
9. Members were to pay a yearly fee that are yet to be set.. it depends on the numbers of members. So i need confirmation A.S.A.P!

Guest Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (30th October)
2. The minimum numbers of pages is 1. the maximum will be 3.
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Guest artist who wishes to do colored pages must infrom us first.. we'regiving a few selected guest artist only the privilage of colored pages.(depends on one's skills i guess)
5. Doesnt mind their artworks being use by the group however we want to.
6. Doesnt mind if their artworks arent selected to be printed. Because we might have too many guest artists.
7. Do not upload or show ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.


The rules are subjected to changes at anytime.. its just a few basic understandable rules..

Deadline of submissions: 30th October

Submissions can be made online using data file or softcopies instead of hard copies.

Target price for a book: RM8-15.. hoping to lower the cost as much as i can. The price will be confirm in end of November.

For those who would like to reserve a book, just send me a note or tell me via MSN.

I'm looking forward to hear from those who wants to join us.. Just give me a note or chat with me using MSN.

Guest Artists will be choose by the members. If there's too many guest artist trying to contribute, we might have to select a few only from all of the guest artist.

All are welcomed, doesnt matter whr u are

Till next time..
Yours truly

Zend

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/14096894/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/14096894/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 21:02:30 PDT
ALSO!

It's that time of the year again, Ju Lah! group is calling existing members, recruiting artists and guest artists to join in to contribute for the second volume for the year 2007!

Our group was only established last year.. quite recently really.. The Group's name is "Ju Lah!" Whats that? its a phrase me and my friends usually use in our daily basis in Sarawak. So yeah, it's a Sarawakian Language. The meaning should be "Come La!" or "Lai La!" in formal english, "Bring It On!"


I've set a deadline for the submissions of the artworks. It's on the 30th October. If u wishes to join us, please send me a note or talk to me in MSN, my email is "darkness_Zend@hotmail.com" It doesnt matter where u are from.. The submission can be done online so dont worry.. i dont require the hard copies.. but please keep in mind.. those artworks must be originals.. and it must be done by u, and no one else.. unless its a collab by u and others.

The RULES are simple.

Group Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (30th October)
2. Must do at least 8 pages or artworks (doesnt matter whether its comic or illustrations)
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Colored pages arent cumpulsory. If u were to do colored pages, its limited to 1 pages only. Colored pages arent cheap to copy.
5. Doesnt mind working with a bunch of n00bs (that'll be us)
6. Members are to pay a fee for joining the group. The fee will be confirm upon printing. becoz by then only we'll know the cost needed.
7. Do not show or upload ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks' data must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.
9. Members were to pay a yearly fee that are yet to be set.. it depends on the numbers of members. So i need confirmation A.S.A.P!

Guest Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (30th October)
2. The minimum numbers of pages is 1. the maximum will be 3.
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Guest artist who wishes to do colored pages must infrom us first.. we'regiving a few selected guest artist only the privilage of colored pages.(depends on one's skills i guess)
5. Doesnt mind their artworks being use by the group however we want to.
6. Doesnt mind if their artworks arent selected to be printed. Because we might have too many guest artists.
7. Do not upload or show ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.


The rules are subjected to changes at anytime.. its just a few basic understandable rules..

Deadline of submissions: 30th October

Submissions can be made online using data file or softcopies instead of hard copies.

Target price for a book: RM8-15.. hoping to lower the cost as much as i can. The price will be confirm in end of November.

For those who would like to reserve a book, just send me a note or tell me via MSN.

I'm looking forward to hear from those who wants to join us.. Just give me a note or chat with me using MSN.

Guest Artists will be choose by the members. If there's too many guest artist trying to contribute, we might have to select a few only from all of the guest artist.

All are welcomed, doesnt matter whr u are

Till next time..
Yours truly

Zend

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/13481326/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/13481326/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 06:13:14 PDT
The birthday outing will only be on this Friday though, celebrating it along with Shun's. It'll be on at 3pm-ish at midvalley megamall.. those who are free at that time please come and join us! XD we'll be watching Transformers (even though i'll watch it on Thursday as well) and then we'll be having dinner.. the rest of the activities are yet to be decided.. maybe a lil art jam.. u people better give me some giftart or i'll eat random lolies!! lol... jk jk.. Those who wants to join for the movies, please confirm by tuesday night! confirm with Toki..

Anyway.. i'll be back with more info and updates.. till then..

Yes.. this is a short journal as for i'm sick.. >>

First journal of the age of 22.. yay for me..

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/13173841/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/13173841/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 08:03:05 PDT dustyhawk

This will take forever...

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Death

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/12960651/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/12960651/ Tue, 15 May 2007 02:42:16 PDT

"5 Things You Hate About Yourself"

LOL... this is like a weird tag... ima changing it into something else... since i'm bored and its the last day of my holidays..

1) Procrastinator 3000: The newest brand of professional procrastination! This versions makes u procrastinate till the very last minute! make full use of ur work rushing abilities as the deadlines are within a few minutes! here's a testimony from Mr. Zenderson

"Oh my, ever since i've been using procrastinator 3000, i did my project works that should've been done within the given 2 months in just one day, and its the day before the submission!"

There u have it ladies and gentlemen, THE PROCRASTINATOR 3000!

2) Perfectionist perfection: This new product helps those out there to be unsatisfied with what ever job they got it done. And this product will also caused some people to stop their work half way because too scared to see the end result.. This product's results varies according to the users. This is a testimonial by Mr. John Optimus Pratham

"Huh? oh, yeah, the Perfectionist Perfection! i've been using it since i was born! it made be think of my job very seriously and sometimes made me stop doing a job that i dont like seeing the end result! Better nothing than something sucky!"

3) Big Spending Machine: The revolutionary spending machine will help u empty ur pockets! use every bit of penny till u're out! This will ensure future starvation at times.. According to Mr. Zender Bender's testimonial...

"Hahahah, now i get to buy the things i want without thinking about the consequences! because i nvr bother to think about it again! the only thing it will caused me is starvation!"

4) Megalo Maid Maniacal: This product will enables the users to be obsessed with maids! cute girls with maid costumes for the win! With each use, the users will be more and more obsessed with maids till they would want to get a few girls wearing maids costume for CF! The Royal Chef of CF Palace confirms the credibility of this product

"Ever since i've been using this product, all the time i see a cute girl in a maid costume i will go Ooh La La~ Now, i'm looking for my own maids to take back home!"

5) Get it now, watch it never! this is the motto for our latest product that will ensure the users to get new movies, animes and games! but never bothers to even touch them later! yes, another form of procrastionation! so far there are no testimonial for this product yet.. Those who are interested to give a testimonial for it can contact 1-300-ZENDSOUPFTW

I tag *CielElric ~wolfinus ~rylands ~Evilmatter and those who wants to promote the products... LOL

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/12647103/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/12647103/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 19:36:55 PDT >>> [link]

Tagged by ~BananasAteBarney

1. Do you like animals?
Hmmmm... depends.. cats i like, dogs, no.. i got two turtles as pets, so i think i like em enough.

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Lol.. tons of time, sometimes i met them accidently, "OMG, thats u?"

3.Are you athletic?
Does weight lifting counts?

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:
I'm trying to buff up.. lol

5. How much do you weigh?
dunno... hvnt weigh myself for a long time..

6. What's your height?
Almost 6 foot..

7. Shoe size?
12 to 11

8. are you tomboyish, y, normal, etc?
I'm normal, well, i like maids.. lol

10. How old are you?
2+2=22

11. When is your birthday?
25th June

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
Yes very much XD

13. Are you sociable?
When i'm with my own type, well, not really nowadays, i can mix and mingle with anyone.

14. Do you have many friends?
Yeah, online and offline.

15. What's your race?
Mixed, Malay+ Kadazan+pakistan+ chinese (got more, but its little)

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
Yeah, depends on my mood, if i just woke up expect me to be a bastard.

17. Are you single or taken?
Single.... and loving it. But i'm to give away to cute maids XD lol

18. Do you eat meat?
Yes please, no pork for me. Anything halal is good.

19. Are you paranoid?
Hmmm clowns, paranoid about losing my teeth.. lol.. and... hmmmm i'll let u know when i figure it out..

20. Do you read a lot?
Comics, business books and thats pretty much it.. online stuff and news counts?

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
I'm getting old, so listens to slower music now compare to last time.. but i hate malay songs.. most english band... maybe i just love japanese music.

22. Do you play any instruments?
LOL... no.. would love to learn..

23. How long have you been drawing?
Since i can draw, around 4? i started my first comic when i was 6.. (its based on sesame street, thanks for my sis to remind me about it..)

24. What's the meaning of life?
Religion, then Yuri, maid and loli! money, love, peace and the other stuff..

25. What is your religion?
Islam

I TAG:
Those who wants to do this ><;; just woke up and my mind is blurrish on who to tag.

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/12627331/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/12627331/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 02:42:28 PDT VENUE: HELP University College, Pusat Bandar Damansara. (Kuala Lumpur)
TIME: 11.00AM TO 5.00PM.
TICKET:
RM10 per entry
RM8 for for early bookers

Ticket bookings is now open! Please e-mail to c2agecosplay@gmail.com to obtain the required details. RM8 for early bookers. Tickets sold on the spot will be priced RM10. It is limited for the FIRST 80 TICKETS. CLOSING DATE: 29TH APRIL 2007.


MAP to Help Uni College
[link]


HELP University College is proud to announce that they are having an event called “C2AGE” (Cosplay, Comic, Anime and Games Convention) here at their college. This event is entirely by fans for fans which its purpose is to change the mindset of people towards the whole subculture – the very essence of cosplay, comic and anime.

As this is their first event in KL or to be more precise Damansara (map aboved), they hope that you are able to attend the event to show support for this interest which is widely growing within their society and to prove that it is an educational yet exciting hobby to explore.

C2AGE
It is formed by a small group of fans in college. This idea came out randomly as thought that a convention shouldn’t be entirely too big like GACC or Comic Fiesta. It is to raise awareness and educate people of the fundamentals of Cosplay, comics and anime and as well as just being there having a fun time while mingling with one another.

As this is their very first, they aim to make the event pleasant and enjoyable. Nothing too fancy or competitive thus they need you.

Yes YOU! The one reading this right now who is a fans of anime/manga/cosplay to make this a big hit. And even if you're not a fan, why not drop over to Help Uninversity and see how it is ?

C2AGE : Cosplay, Comic, Anime and Games Convention [[link]

Dont know if i'll be there or not.. but we must spread the love~

]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/12520592/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/12520592/ Mon, 09 Apr 2007 06:29:40 PDT BananasAteBarney

FINGERS:
Zend

CHIN:
xzwernbsd

ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED:
Zend

ELBOW:
ze nmxd (i did better than hanna did.. hohohoho)

NOSE:
zsesnbd (is it me or my nose is big?)

PALM:
zaen d (lol.. i think my palm shouldnt do better than my nose.. >.>

1.) List Four fandoms you have.
Anna Tsuchiya
300 (HAAAOOOOHHH!!!)
Chirosa
Maid!!!! Yuri!!! Loli!!!!! (yeah yeah.. more than 4...)

2.) Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
maybe.. when i was a kid.. i dunno.. the last time i've slept in a vehicle was in a bus..

3.) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
Cut, dyed dark brown.. look like ah beng..

4.) List four people that you look up to the most.

Kenjirou Hata,
Ryusuke Hamamoto,
Christian Bale (yeah... why? watch The Machinist.. u'll see)
Chirosa (what?... )

5.) How many pets do you own as of now?
2... turtles.. TMNT baby!!

6.) Which do you prefer white or black?
tsk tsk.. stop being racist will ya? jk.. black oughta do

7.) Who is your most played character?
I dont get this incomplete question... who started this tag anyway? most drawn character outha be Chirosa

8.) Choose one or the other, not both: being stuck on an island with your best friend OR being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances?
Stuck with 5 acquaintances... who are maids, cute maids.. harem time.. hmmm good idea for a manga... lol.. well best frens also nice.. but they're not maids..

9.) Name three aspects that tell who you are.
Cook, draw, laugh

10.) If you could have a power what would it be?
Hmmm take other's power.. hahahah

11.) Who was the last person you talked to?
Myself..

12.) Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
hmmmmmmmm.... tough one.. well do tablet counts?

13.) Write down the first five words that pop into your head
Maid
Yuri
Loli
ps2
final exams..

14.) What's one thing you wish you could do better?
everything.. *nod *nod*

15.) Do you like the way you are?
YES.. and i'm lovin it

16.) Choose, Summer or Winter:
Autumn dammit...

17.) Choose, Rain or snow:
Never experience snow.. but i'll take rain anyday

18.) Water or ice?
Iced water

19.) List two odd things about yourself:
- I dont study much instead i draw in class but still get A grades
- I love maids? and lolies?

20.) Now tag 5 people who should do this quiz!
-~Evilmatter
-*CielElric
-~definna
-~wolfinus
-~rylands

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I hope all the members can contribute at least 8 for the doujin.

New members are welcomed.

Conditions: must be able to pay the rm 30 printing fee and members fee. Able to do at least 8 pages for the doujin.

also.. we need to rename our group? if u think so do give out suggestions..

I'll update a more detailed version later..

Zend.

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Ahh the holidays are here, and one week from now, Anime Mega Blast will be held in Nilai's Inti College..

I'll take this opportunity to sell "Ju Lah! 06" again XD hope to see you all there. Also will be recycling my Wolverine costume.. and this time it'll better.. since last time was havoc.. lol..

Nth much to say other than i've been practicing drawing and CG-ing again XD expect cool artworks from me.. well at least better than before.. haha.. Oh yeah, lastly, Gong Xi Fa Chai!

Zend.
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Sunday.. a day of boredom.. will go out soon to meet up with my dad.. and get my trench coat.. ahh trench coat... i can do so many cosplay with u.. hahaha cant wait for it.. currently at the office waiting for ppl.. Who works on Sunday? good question..

Yesterday, Saturday was a fun day, went out with at midvalley. I was a few minutes late, hope she didnt really waited for me that long.. It was good to finally meet up with her, she's a fun person to hang out with. Yay for left handers~ finally met yet another left hander ^^

We went for lunch at the food court.. my food was served very late.. sorry to keep u waiting, ~midniteblu.. Talked and showed her the group's book. ^^ after that we went to check out the times for the movie "Blood Diamond". Was quite shocked to see the lines.. Soooo many ppl.. well, guess because it was saturday.. After a few minutes, we get up front to the counter only to find out that the seats remaining for that movie was only the first two rows..

So we decided to go watch "Death Note 2".. not really a fan of Death note but the movie was awesome. ^^ had a great time watching it.. after the movie. Had an hour b4 the movie starts, so we walked around.. went to Xl-Shop and Anime tech.. lots of stuff i wanna buy.. lol, but the shops in Times Square are cheaper.. hmm 7th or 8th floor.. i think.. Igunis cost only 200 ringgit.. lucky i didnt but it early.. anyway..

So we went to watch the movie at 3.. the movie finished at 5.30, quite a long time.. after that, we went to the ktm station to go to Sentral, at sentral i had to go buy some things at Watsons. ~midniteblu had to go meet up with her frens so we said goodbyes and depart. I went back home by bus.

At home, called my good fren Azuar, asking whether he wanna go hang out or not. He was free so we went to masjid majek to eat at Subways. The sandwiches were damn good, but kinda pricey.. After dinner, went to The mall to shop at cold storage.. i need my monthly supply of meat.. hahaha bought steaks, beef bacon and salami.. also bought Lebanese bread.. Made sandwiches with em for lunch today. It was good

Chat with *CielElric it was funny since she cant type with her msn.. so she had to use the drawing feature.. lol.. oi taiji! hope ur msn working fine already.. haha.. remind me to finish up the CD for our comic later.. Anyway, still at the office waiting for time to pass by.. hope to have a good time meeting up with my old man later..

see ya peeps..

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"Ju Lah!" 06 is out and sold in CF06.. You can still get it if you want to. Just contact me.

The book consist of the following artists artwork:

Members and group artists: ~zend, ~Evilmatter, Nige, ~HeisT-HeX, ~snsl5433

Guest Artists: *RyusukeHamamoto, ~Ashley-Himura, Jun, ~Zue, ~smallsushi, ~Annachuu, ~limbebe, Archilles, Dren, and many more!

Get your copy by contacting me,

E-mail: darkness_zend@hotmail.com , zendsama@gmail.com

MSN: darkness_zend@hotmail.com

h/p: 012-2769680

or just send me a note via DA.

-Pay to ~Evilmatter directly (for Kuching area)
-Pay to ~zend directly (KL area)
-Bank In to AM bank: 011-001-303786-2
-Send money order to:

Zend,
13-B2, Vistana Residence,
Jln Pahang, 53000,
Kuala Lumpur,

Till next time..
Yours truly

Zend

-------... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/11568222/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/11568222/ Thu, 25 Jan 2007 18:11:29 PST Journal::

RaR~ I be tagged..

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours..

Got tagged by

6 weird habits/things/hates about me:

1. I love to bend my fingers in a way it looks broken [link] .. also folding my ears.. rar.. i just get bored too often...

2. I can hate a person without a reason by using my instinct and guts.. the reason usually comes later.. haha

3. I can be damn annoying while hanging out with my buddies.. and scream out random words.. like ZAAAAAAAAKUUUURAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! haha

4. When i'm out in an outing or shopping, lolies tend to bump into me.. even though i am sure that i am very visible to the naked eye.. haha

5. Love to procrastinate on finishing a game or anime.. since i dont want it to ends.. till i forgot all about it.. so i got lots of unfinished games and animes..

6. I'll fall in love with any girls who's showing interest and passion on me.. but lately no..

I'm tagging

lazy to update journal.. rar..

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"Ju Lah!" 06 is out and sold in CF06.. You can still get it if you want to. Just contact me.

The book consist of the following artists artwork:

Members and group artists: ~zend, ~Evilmatter, Nige, ~HeisT-HeX, ~snsl5433

Guest Artists: *RyusukeHamamoto, ~Ashley-Himura, Jun, ~Zue, ~smallsushi, ~Annachuu, ~limbebe, Archilles, Dren, and many more!

Get your copy by contacting me,

E-mail: darkness_zend@hotmail.com , zendsama@gmail.com

MSN: darkness_zend@hotmail.com

h/p: 012-2769680

or just send me a note via DA.

-Pay to ~Evilmatter directly (for Kuching area)
-Pay to ~zend directly (KL area)
-Bank In to AM bank: 011-001-303786-2
-Send money order to:

Zend,
13-B2, Vistana Residence,
Jln Pahang, 53000,
Kuala Lumpur,

Till next time..
Yours truly

Zend

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I've reached 22k views! thanks guys!

Comic fiesta 06, it has been a week since it happened. But i can still feel the excitement since it went, past like a hurricane.

This was the first CF i ever get involve with actively.

Well, first of all i had to manage the foods for CF. (those who complaints about the food, please reconsider the situation first before you just simply say things out. I VOLUNTEERED FOR IT! and no one else did the same, it was the first time for me to do so as well, so u should've expect the worst out of it.. And on the first day, i had to take my finals.. so yeah.. still not satisfied? i'll kick u hard if so )

Then it was the first time for my group, Ju Lah! to sell our merchandise in CF the sales was okay for a first timer, but it could've been better if not for a certain neighbouring group of us who had those freaking dolls on display on their table.. Please, next time u do that again, i'll rip the dolls apart.. You guys are lucky that i controlled my temper that day.. Who cares if the group is a fren's group..

Then i cosplayed on both day, even though the costume and all that are last minutes and simple, there was quite a lot of ppl who wanted to take a picture of me. didnt expected that.. Anyway, i'll do a better cosplay next year! wait for it. Oh yeah, i cosplayed Wolverine from X-men (his casual wear, white shirt, jeans and leather jacket, not to left out the gloves and claws XD) then on the second day, i cosplayed Harima Kenji, turns out that Hisashi was cosplaying Harima as well.. so two Harima with only one Tenma. LOL had a blast on day two since we didnt rent a booth on that day so we get to enjoy it fully.

Maybe its better if i report it in full details..

The first day:

Woke up after sleeping for an hour. Didnt get that much rest even though the book was done, since decided to print out the other merchandise. Was a bit late when i met up with my cousin and ~Evilmatter since i had to gather up eveything and make sure nth was left out We all went to Sri Sedaya, arrived after almost 2 hours i think..

First thing first, gotta go meet up with Hooli about the food and stuff. Evil was upstairs setting up the booth and all that while i was downstairs setting up the food stall. After finish setting up the food stall, i went to check up on the booth upstairs. The excitement fills me unlimitedly. (this sentence is wrong yet it can sort of explain my feelings on that day) Evil was doing fine and i like the layout he made on the booth so yeah, becoz i'm having my finals on that day itself, i ask Evil whether i could go and walk around to enjoy cf. So i did and i wanted to take a lot of pictures but didnt get to since quite a few ppl stopped me and ask whether they could take my picture. After a while, i had to go to college and leave cf for a few hours.

I arrived at college after 1 1/4 hour. just realised that i looked at the schedule wrong.. it starts at 2pm not 2.30.. so i was the last one to go in the exam hall.. but the exam was easy (thank God!) and i went out after 1 1/2 hour. Was the first one to go out. lol.. I rushed to CF. But only managed to arrive at 5pm+.. I took over guarding the booth. Then after a while Evil guards it again, since i was kinda scaring the customers away.. I was pissed at the group next to us. Their freaking dolls is attracting ppl to take pictures of them and that kinda block ppl who wanted to take a look at our booth. SUCKS! i held back my temper since i didnt want to be banned next year.. But there was this time when i shouted "Where's Kyou?!" as she was the leader of the dolls group.

Apart from that, CF was a blast, Ciel's group was next to us as well, she and ~witchariake was very friendly and helpful thanks girls. But as i realised it, it was already closing.. so we did the closing and clean up. after that i went back home alone since my cousin has already left and Evil was hitching a ride with Dai. I walked to... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/10687201/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/10687201/ Thu, 16 Nov 2006 03:04:47 PST Journal::

Okay, time to place your reservations for "Ju Lah! 06" book!! The price has been confirmed.

The book will be RM15.00 per copy, and the first 10 reservations will get a free postcard featuring an artwork from either the Group artist or Guest Artist!

The book will consist of the following artists artwork:

Members and group artists: ~zend, ~Evilmatter, Nige, ~HeisT-HeX, ~snsl5433

Guest Artists: *RyusukeHamamoto, ~Ashley-Himura, ~zneryd, Jun, ~Zue, ~nanazhazie, ~Heckfire, ~Chingaruna, ~smallsushi, ~gridlocked ~Annachuu, *CielElric, ~limbebe ~Rawr-rawr, and some that hvnt confirmed..

Also, i am extending the deadline for the arts submissions.. since lots of people are asking for it. The new deadline will be 29th November.

Ju Lah! will be selling our merchandise on the FIRST day of COMIC FIESTA. Those who cant make it still can buy a copy of the book by letting me know. There's a few ways to get in touch with me:

E-mail: darkness_zend@hotmail.com , zendsama@gmail.com

MSN: darkness_zend@hotmail.com

h/p: 012-2769680

or just send me a note via DA.

This year, we will be selling only about 30-40 copies.. so get it fast before its too late!!

The way to make a payment are:

-On the spot (During the first day of CF)
-Pay to ~Evilmatter directly (for Kuching area)
-Pay to ~zend directly (KL area)
-Bank In to AM bank: 011-001-303786-2
-Send money order to:

Zend,
13-B2, Vistana Residence,
Jln Pahang, 53000,
Kuala Lumpur.

Method of paying for international are yet to be determine..

Group artist are to pay RM30 for yearly publishing fees. A way to pay is by giving the money directly to or by banking in into my account at AM bank: 011-001-303786-2.. or by money post.. send it to

Zend,
13-B2, Vistana Residence,
Jln Pahang, 53000,
Kuala Lumpur.

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Group Art's Rules

Group Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (29th November)
2. Must do at least 8 pages or artworks (doesnt matter whether its comic or illustrations)
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Colored pages arent cumpulsory. If u were to do colored pages, its limited to 2 pages only. Colored pages arent cheap to copy.
5. Doesnt mind working with a bunch of n00bs (that'll be us)
6. Members are to pay a fee for joining the group. The fee will be confirm upon printing. becoz by then only we'll know the cost needed.
7. Do not show or upload ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks' data must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.

Guest Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (29th November)
2. The minimum numbers of pages is 1. the maximum will be 3.
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Guest artist who wishes to do colored pages must infrom us first.. we'regiving a few selected guest artist only the privilage of colored pages.(depends on one's skills i guess)
5. Doesnt mind their artworks being use by the group however we want to.
6. Doesnt mind if their artworks arent selected to be printed. Because we might have too many guest artists.
7. Do not upload o... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/10138413/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/10138413/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 11:08:52 PDT Journal::

Sup ppl? long time since i've updated my journal.. been busy.. college, work and other stuffs.. Okay cant say much about me on this journal.. since i want to talk about the compilation book that my friends and i are doing..

Our group was only established this year.. quite recently really.. The Group's name is "Ju Lah!" Whats that? its a phrase me and my friends usually use in our daily basis in Sarawak. So yeah, it's a Sarawakian Language. The meaning should be "Come La!" or "Lai La!" in formal english, "Bring It On!"

So far, the group now consist of 5 members including myself. The other members is ~Evilmatter, his friend Nige, ~HeisT-HeX and ~snsl5433. This year we will be producing a book for Comic Fiesta that is coming up in December. We're still looking for artist and guest artist who's willing to contribute to the book.. Of coz, i myself think its a bit late to recruit.. but u all are welcomed to join!

I've set a deadline for the submissions of the artworks. It's on the 15th November. If u wishes to join us, please send me a note or talk to me in MSN, my email is "darkness_Zend@hotmail.com" It doesnt matter where u are from.. The submission can be done online so dont worry.. i dont require the hard copies.. but please keep in mind.. those artworks must be originals.. and it must be done by u, and no one else.. unless its a collab by u and others.

The RULES are simple.

Group Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (15th November)
2. Must do at least 8 pages or artworks (doesnt matter whether its comic or illustrations)
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Colored pages arent cumpulsory. If u were to do colored pages, its limited to 2 pages only. Colored pages arent cheap to copy.
5. Doesnt mind working with a bunch of n00bs (that'll be us)
6. Members are to pay a fee for joining the group. The fee will be confirm upon printing. becoz by then only we'll know the cost needed.
7. Do not show or upload ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks' data must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.

Guest Artist's rules:

1. Must submit the artworks before the deadline (15th November)
2. The minimum numbers of pages is 1. the maximum will be 3.
3. The artworks must be original, urs and urs alone, if u're doing a fanart, please say so.
4. Guest artist who wishes to do colored pages must infrom us first.. we'regiving a few selected guest artist only the privilage of colored pages.(depends on one's skills i guess)
5. Doesnt mind their artworks being use by the group however we want to.
6. Doesnt mind if their artworks arent selected to be printed. Because we might have too many guest artists.
7. Do not upload or show ur artworks online before the book is published.
8. All artworks must be scanned to fit A4 size paper.

THE SPOTS FOR GUEST ARTIST ARE FILLED... so i guess we wont be inviting anymore guest artist.. but if u insist, just send me a note and a preview of ur artwork, if u're that good, we might reconsider.. also, feel free to contribute for next year's book.. i thank all of the guest artist that's interested in joining in.. the feedbacks was more than i thought it would be i thank you all again..

The rules are subjected to changes at anytime.. its just a few basic understandable rules..

I'll post the update on the status of the Group here:

Founder and so called leader : ~zend (i wouldnt call myself a leader..)

Members and group artists: ~zend, ~Evilmatter, Nige, ~HeisT-HeX, ~snsl5433

Guest Artists: *RyusukeHamamoto, ~Ashley-Himura, ~zneryd, Jun, Dren, ~Zue, ~nanazhazie, ~Heckfire, ~Chingaruna, ~ ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/9928464/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/9928464/ Fri, 01 Sep 2006 09:50:12 PDT
Reading: Easy Microwave Gourmet Recipe

Watching: This Ugly and Beautiful World

Watched: Jarhead, My Super Ex-girlfriend, Silent Hill, Wedding Crashers, Ultra Violet, Lord of War, Weatherman, and tons more of dvds..

Watchlist: too many to list down..

Playing:
GBA games.. Water Margin Online (sucks)
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At last, even though it took longer than anyone else's pv.. i have finally achieved 20k!! booyah~

But nobody claim the kiriban at all.. which was a weird thing.. maybe its not worth claiming ><;; haha nvm.. no work for me.. (still have lots of kiribans to do..so...yea..)

A lot have happened for the past weeks... some things are better off untold here.. so i wont write anything for now.. i'm a sinner..

Meeting Nasher tmr.. after the Entrepreneur Convention that is.. looking forward for that..

Till next time..
Yours truly

Zend

Oh yeah, dont forget to visit 's page.. she's trying to raise some money by doing commissions.. if u have the time and money, please go and help her.. help her and save the cat!
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Reading: Easy Microwave Gourmet Recipe

Watching: This Ugly and Beautiful World

Watched: Jarhead, My Super Ex-girlfriend, Silent Hill, Wedding Crashers, Ultra Violet, Lord of War, Weatherman, and tons more of dvds..

Watchlist: too many to list down..

Playing:
GBA games.. Water Margin Online (sucks)
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NEXT KIRIBAN!!! 20K!!!!

A month.. one whole freakin month has past.. a lot of stuff had happened.. Me trying to be a player is one thing.. Work is another.. and a lot more events had happened.

I've promised to myself to not to do bad things... yet here i am again.. succumb to my lust and desire. Pathetic! I had to remind myself now that being flirtious can have a very big consequences.. very big..

I dont wanna go into details in what the wrong doing that i've done. I guess most of you can guess it cleary. But worry not.. at the very last minute i reminded myself about that promised i made. After that, i backed away. Though that doesnt mean that i wont try to do it again.. i know myself too damn well.. but i'll try my best to avoid it.

Being flirtious is deadly.. haha.. some girls will think that u're being serious. And i mean really serious.. Trust me, i've learn it the hard way. Some girls would just throw herself to ur arms and let u do anything to her. That wasnt really my idea when i decided to be a player. No, i was just trying to boost my confidence.. not trying to destroy somebody's life..

I hope that i would go through this well.. I'm not your typical player who's flirting to get laid.. NO!! Hell NO!! i'm just playing around.. and i have no intention to hurt anybody at all.. Should i stop? or go through this with iron will.. Say no to the girls who've been throwing herself to me..

I know, i know, Whats the point of being a player if u're not trying to score with the chicks that u're flirting with? the answer is simple.. I dunno.. haha Maybe it's like my kind of process of trying to find my patner in life. Like i said, i have no intention to hurt anyone.

Upon my encounter with all the girls i've been flirting with, i had to say that my neighbour, Thum, stands out.. why? i dunno.. becoz most of our meeting was by chances.. lol.. but i dont want to risk anything just yet.

Thats all for now.. i know i've just been beating around the bushes with this journal. sorry and thank you for ur time. A friendly warning to girls out there, i might be flirtious with u so be careful.. though i dont go with just any girl.. i'm picky.. and if u dont want me to be flirting with u, just say no. I will stop bothering u.

Yours truly

Zend

Oh yeah, dont forget to visit 's page.. she's trying to raise some money by doing commissions.. if u have the time and money, please go and help her.. help her and save the cat!
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Reading: 1001 Pasta

Watching: This Ugly And Beautiful World

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to
mention this season's new anime..

Playing:
GBA games..
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NEXT KIRIBAN!!! 20K!!!!

It has been a few weeks since i've moved to KL.. time here feels shorter and a lot faster than Kuching.. The next thing u know, another day has past.. It's been almost three weeks already..

Upon the time i've spent here.. i thought to myself.. why not change back to who i was when i was in Sunway.. thats right.. my morale and confidence level is back up on track like they should.. maybe higher.. I have to admit.. Those past years in Kuching had to be one of worst moment ever.. my confidence lvl were... u know, very low..

After only weeks here, i've gained back the self confidence that i used to have, for example, i talk to random cute girls without hesitation.. asking their phone number.. So far so good, made a lot of new friends and flirting friends.. My first victim was Iriya (Illia, japanise the name >.>; a cute girl, she's only 18 years old. Some of my co-workers thought that she was my girlfriend, haha too bad she's not.. maybe because i talked to her like i've known her for quite some time made them think that way.. Damn i'm good.. hahaha

But i'm not ready for a relationship yet.. looking back at my last ones... i'm better off being a player.. haha.. yes.. i'm a playah! Becoz...
I AM ZEND.

From now on, i shall go hunting.. haha dont worry.. i'm just being crazy.. i wont break a heart though.. well.. i'll try not to.. Oh well.. wish me luck peeps..

Nothing more to say other than i'm giving kiriban @ 20K.. and 19,999.. if i'm not lazy that is >.>;; haha until then..

Zend
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Reading: Milestones by Sayyid Qutb

Watching: This Ugly And Beautiful World

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to
mention this season's new anime..

Playing:
KOF maximum impact 2 (unlocked all characters, now off to the missions)
Smackdown Shut Your Mouth! (old game i know.. but still fun to play with)
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NEXT KIRIBAN!!! 20K!!!!

Alrite, straight to the point, I moved back to KL last Friday.. Leaving Cat Town and friends behind.. kinda sad really.. but i gotta move on and pick up my life whr i left it last time.. The past year being idle in Cat town doesnt give much room for improvement for me.. yes.. i really hate that.. What i dont hate about Cat Town is gotta be me friends there.. Wish all the best to all of them.. do keep in touch.

I arrived in KL on Friday night, the flight was okay, though i had to sit at the last row of the plane..haha first time for everything.. And lucky me, there's a cute chick sitting next to me.. so i go on and make my move to get to know her, who knows i might get lucky eh? but all of that back fired, turns out she doesnt speak english.. >.>;; just my luck.. oh well.. Took about an hour to reach to the apartment from KLIA.. as i arrived it was already 11pm.. so get ready to sleep coz of tmr's early start.

Saturday, Woke up damn early and walked around at the M floor, hvnt do that for a while, and the gym was open, so i go work out for a while.. have to shed this extra pounds i gained in Cat Town.. Went back up and had breakfast with my dad and sis, my dad said that i should rethink about continuing my studies.. Taylors is just too expensive.. and the intake is too early for me. so yeah, my dad and i went to search for other good colleges, went to look for Segi college (tho i dont really want to study thr) then we missed a turn and accidently found Olympia College instead.. So we went thr and asked a few questions about it.. Turns out its a good college for business studies.. and it took shorted time to get a degree thr compare to Taylors.. And also i got a scholarship worth RM7k with my shitty results.. haha.. good thing, means more money are saved to buy other stuff..

Sunday, Me and my sis went to Bukit Bintang, went to Sushi King for lunch. I need to get myself a new membership card.. haha.. been a while since i went to Sushi King.. so many memories.. Then we went back.. didnt go around much.. Sunday was rather a lazy day.. Monday, went back to Olympia to register, then went to my dad's office.. Called my cousin and ask him whether or not i could work at out Kiosk.. He said that i can start on that day straight away.. so i did, went to the Kiosk at Bukit Bintang and waited for my cousin.. while waiting i took a stroll at Sungei Wang plaza.. After a while, my cousin arrived and i started right away. Get to know new friends there, especially the arabs who rented out kiosk. Went back home at 3am.. slept at 5am..

Tuesday, Woke up at 8am tried to sleep again but i cant seem to do it.. so i just went with the flow.. cooked breakfast again, then read some books and went online for a while, after that went to the office. Then went to work at the Kiosk, a lot happened during work that day, About 6 ppl asked me for directions.. in arab! haha i looked like an arab? i dont think so.. Then there's this old lady who's a bit out of her mind.. shouting and mocking the Arabs.. she also did some kung fu moves.. weird huh? Then i met Tid, the arab friend i met yesterday, he's a regular at our kiosk. Our conversation was funny, to me at least.

Tid: My friend, I'm sad.. why? i dont know.. not because of the beautiful girls, not because of the foods.
Me: then? what are u sad about?
Tid: my tickets! i couldnt get my tickets!
Me: oh, the one u mentioned yesterday?
Tid: yes, See my face? i'm crying
Me: You dont look like crying, u look pissed.. haha
Tid: Exactly!
Me: Whats ur name again?
Tid: Tid
Me: Tits? O.o;;
Tid: Tid with T.D
Me: oh..

Then i continued working.. after an hour or two, i rest a little and sit down. Thats when my friend from kuching came by, kicking my leg without me seeing it coming.

Ajiq: Oi!
Me: Oh.. it's u.. (no emotion showing)
Ajiq: WTH? u're not even suprised?
Me: what do u want me to do? hug and kiss u?
Ajiq: Good point..

Talked with him for a while.. came up with an idea of a reunion with our friends who's studying around here.. will take some time though.. After that i went... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/9285004/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/9285004/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 19:04:52 PDT
Reading: Milestones by Sayyid Qutb

Watching: Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to
mention this season's new anime..

Playing:
KOF maximum impact 2 (unlocked all characters, now off to the missions)
Smackdown Shut Your Mouth! (old game i know.. but still fun to play with)
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NEXT KIRIBAN!!! 20K!!!!

Apart from my bday, nothing much happened lately, well, there's the World Cup.. not really a big fan of it but somehow i can predict the outcome of the matches.. well.. most of em.. too bad i'm not doing betting for this world cup..

Nasher and the gang are already in their last week in Cat Town.. meaning me myself might be leaving for KL soon.. bleh.. wont think much about it.. maybe i should delay it again? XP hahaha nah.. >.>;;

Well, i'm in a good CG-ing mood.. but somehow without drawing, i felt empty.. (i assume so since thats the only thing that i hvnt been doing lately and i felt empty, some rocket science huh?) Will try to do some drawing after i finish cg-ing ~wolfinus's lineart.. But my drawing skills might be rusty.. haha..

Will work on perspective angle and stuff like that to make my drawings less boring.. and just hope that my CG skills will grow even better.. currently trying to follow Range Murata's style.. but not really.. still cg-ing on my own skills and without tutorials.. do i need one? or i should focus on creating my own style..?

Past couple of month, my anime collections (downloaded ones) are double since Nasher is here and we're trading what we have and divide downloads for a more efficient results.. and looks like i'm all stock up for many winters.. assuming i might not be able to download as many over there in KL for the first few months.. Getting my umbrella ready.. oh yeah baby..

Nothing more to say other than i'm giving kiriban @ 20K.. and 19,999.. if i'm not lazy that is >.>;; haha until then..

Zend
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[link] ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/9163546/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/9163546/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 21:00:35 PDT
Reading: Milestones by Sayyid Qutb

Watching: Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to
mention this season's new anime..

Playing: Tales of Legendia (Final boss but a bit lazy to finish it that fast)
KOF maximum impact 2 (unlocked all characters, now off to the missions)
Smackdown Shut Your Mouth! (old game i know.. but still fun to play with)
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Ahhh.. My birthday.. 25th June.. Which is also Aya Matsuura and George Michaels' Bday.. Which also marks a half year in DA.. since my bday is exactly 6 months before my DA bday.. 21 years old.. i'm not young anymore.. Bday bash tmr maybe? maybe not.. depends.. BBQ is must? if i have the money yeah..

Anyway.. i'll thank those who wish me in advance.. since i'm lazy to go online.. i'll drop by for a while maybe..

I demand giftarts! give them to me!!!! hahahaha... >.>;;

Till then...

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Tagged by and

10 things about my art...

RULES: You have to answer that questions and to put it into your journal. Then you choose 6 other deviants to answer that. Put them into the journal and inform them that they've been tagged.

1. Started drawing since i was a lil kid.. toddler.. hmm.. i made a comic strip on sesame street for God's sake! haha..

2. Started to draw anime style after watching Ronin Warriors (though i watch lots of animes before that, Macross is one of em) in Indosiar.. Yes, they spoke indonesian language..

4. Started to draw seriously at the age of 13.. or at least i think so..

5. My drawing style evolves like this...

-Stickman>
-Drawing sesame street's characters>
-Mario>
-Sonic>
-Ronin Warriors (or at least i tried,was damn ugleh..what do u expect?
-X-men (Wolverine rocks!)>
-Dragon Ball>
-Hong Kong Style>
-Hentai/Ecchi stuff with referance( can be seen in my early gallery here)>
-My own style... which keeps on changes.. (looks a bit like -He is my master + Combat Butler Hayate + Shakugan No Shana)

6. Very lazy at drawing and cant be forced to draw something.. that sucks...

7. I've got a lot of unfinished manga.. Never finish any long stories manga..

8. Started CG at the age of 17.. First CG can be seen in my gallery.. The very first submission.. If u're someone who watches me from the very beginning.. u can see the differences between these 3 and a half years.. I'm so proud.. but yeah.. i improve on a slow phase..

9. If i CG too much my drawing skills will be reduce.. If i draw too much my CG skills will be reduce.. So yeah.. I rust quick..

10. I hope to make a hentai game out of my manga at the very least.. The big shot will be anime.. >.>;; but i hvnt finished the damn manga.. so... "dream on"
is the right word..

I tag... ergh.. dunno who to tag.. hahaha.. so random attack!


NEXT KIRIBAN!!! 20K!!!!

Zend
------------------------------------------------... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/9060878/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/9060878/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 21:13:02 PDT
Reading: Milestones by Sayyid Qutb

Watching: Futurama

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to
mention this season's new anime..

Playing: Tales of Legendia (Final boss but a bit lazy to finish it that fast)
KOF maximum impact 2 (unlocked all characters, now off to the missions)
Smackdown Shut Your Mouth! (old game i know.. but still fun to play with)
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Tagged by and

10 things about my art...

RULES: You have to answer that questions and to put it into your journal. Then you choose 6 other deviants to answer that. Put them into the journal and inform them that they've been tagged.

1. Started drawing since i was a lil kid.. toddler.. hmm.. i made a comic strip on sesame street for God's sake! haha..

2. Started to draw anime style after watching Ronin Warriors (though i watch lots of animes before that, Macross is one of em) in Indosiar.. Yes, they spoke indonesian language..

4. Started to draw seriously at the age of 13.. or at least i think so..

5. My drawing style evolves like this...

-Stickman>
-Drawing sesame street's characters>
-Mario>
-Sonic>
-Ronin Warriors (or at least i tried,was damn ugleh..what do u expect?
-X-men (Wolverine rocks!)>
-Dragon Ball>
-Hong Kong Style>
-Hentai/Ecchi stuff with referance( can be seen in my early gallery here)>
-My own style... which keeps on changes.. (looks a bit like -He is my master + Combat Butler Hayate + Shakugan No Shana)

6. Very lazy at drawing and cant be forced to draw something.. that sucks...

7. I've got a lot of unfinished manga.. Never finish any long stories manga..

8. Started CG at the age of 17.. First CG can be seen in my gallery.. The very first submission.. If u're someone who watches me from the very beginning.. u can see the differences between these 3 and a half years.. I'm so proud.. but yeah.. i improve on a slow phase..

9. If i CG too much my drawing skills will be reduce.. If i draw too much my CG skills will be reduce.. So yeah.. I rust quick..

10. I hope to make a hentai game out of my manga at the very least.. The big shot will be anime.. >.>;; but i hvnt finished the damn manga.. so... "dream on"
is the right word..

I tag... ergh.. dunno who to tag.. hahaha.. so random attack!


NEXT KIRIBAN!!! 20K!!!!

Zend
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Icon no Cipan~ XD
[link] ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8967061/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8967061/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 18:30:40 PDT
Reading: Nth

Watching: Transformers G1..

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to mention this season's new anime..

Playing: Tales of Legendia (Final boss but a bit lazy to finish it that fast)
KOF maximum impact 2 (unlocked all characters, now off to the missions)
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I'm bored... click here >> [link] <<

OMGWTFBBQ!!!!!!

Wednesday:

Nasher and i went out to survey the prices of the ingredients for our bbq. We didnt do anything much, just checking the prices and all. First we went to Upwell, the prices there are quite fair but it lacks variety of items.. after making a list for what that should be in the menu, we went to fill in the gas.. these days.. gas runs out so fast.. Finished filling the tank, we went to Century supermarket.. where we didnt last a few minutes coz of the song that was playing there... "Olele olala, Selamat ari gaway, moga umo panjai" WTF? No offense to our friends the Dayak and Ibans.. but that song is so wrong in many ways.. So we went to Choice Ria which is on the other side of the block.. Since the prices is the same with Super Mall's we decided not to go to Super Mall.. We also went to check the prices for chicken wings at the local poultry stores.. there's one with good price but the owner said that they're close the next day coz of Gawai festival.. Then we decided to go home after deciding on the menu for Friday..

So the menus are:
BBQ Chicken wings, Hot Dogs, Beef Shishkebabs, Spaghetti, Fish and Chips or BBQ sardines, Chocolate Milk Shake, Fruits Jelly, Ice Cream, Sodas...

Yeap.. thats a lot of stuff.. after calculating it roughly.. the budget should be around 100..

Thursday:

Off to buy the ingredients.. I had to bring an extra fifty bucks from my house expanses just in case.. Nasher went to pick me up and we're off to pick Metal up.. After that we went to pick up Rambo.. Then we went to Super Mall to buy the stuff we needed.. I started to collect the ingredients to make spaghetti since i'll use my part of the budget for it.. But becoz of a miscommunication, Nasher thought i would pay for the spaghetti and also pay the 15 bucks.. my bad.. should've made it clear beforehand.. So we bought the ingredients which adds up to 90 bucks.. hahaha we overshoot our budget! the results? we didnt get to buy the ingredients for certain menus like Fish and Chips and BBQ sardines.. But i still think that we had enough menu already.. just that it would be better with more stuff.. haha.. Then we went to my place to marinade the Chicken wings.. We contacted Titan and ask him to come over so that he would top up our budget so that we could go and buy the rest of the ingredients..

Titan came.. and the first thing he did was playing Smackdown!. hahaha what la that fella.. Oh yeah, forgot to mentioned that i was taping the day's event with a DV.. Caught some good moments with it.. So yeah after that we all went to Upwell again to buy some Shitake Mushrooms, Red bell peppers, Sodas, Milk, and some other stuff.. After that we send Rambo and Metal home.. Nasher and Titan stayed at my house for a while to play Smackdown!. haha.. we played till dinner time.. then we wrap it up.. gotta keep the fun for tmr..

Friday:

-Mise En Place-
I woke up and started to cook up the bolognese sauce for the pasta.. The plan should start after Friday prayer, Nasher said he would pick me up as soon as Metal arrive at his place.. But Metal came a bit late.. so i went to fill up the land cruiser's tank since my sis is going to use it later.. after that i went home and waited for Nasher.. He arrived with Crusher who brought a multi tap along! hohoho 5 players can play and the same time now.. So we brought all the stuff (the chickens, hot dogs, beef, spaghetti sauce also, my PS2) to Nasher's Trooper.. I brought the DV along as well.. After that we went to pick Zabit along.. Then we went to Nasher's place since Titan has already arrive there.. and we were waiting for Metal to arrive as well.. After Metal arrived we all went to pick Rambo up and went to Upwell to buy some pasta.. Then Titan just found out that his phone was missing.. There were tensions in the air after that.. it was all gloomy.. I thought that he left it at the payphone when he was contacting Nasher.. Crusher said that he probably left it at Nasher's chair.. We went to search at the payphone.. but it wasnt there.. the tension rise up even more..

-Prod... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8897982/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8897982/ Sun, 28 May 2006 01:14:18 PDT
Reading: Comprehensive Japanese Workbook

Watching: Shakugan No Shana

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to mention this season's new anime..

Playing: Tales of Legendia (Final boss but a bit lazy to finish it that fast)
KOF maximum impact 2 (unlocked all characters, now off to the missions)
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Friday:

Nothing much.. Decided to play CS at night.. so i took the Land Cruiser out and pick up Metal, Titan and Dren to battle. After a few minutes playing, Dren had to go back to give the keys to his bro.. So we went back and then go to the battlefield again. During the first part of the game (before the keys) Metal was owning big time. hahaha he didnt get rusty after all. But the fun starts at the second part. I was the one owning hohoho. After a while, we decided to play Warcraft's Warchasers(its clapping time!) since they're four of us. Then to our suprise, we won that damn thing.. After all this while.. finally.. hahaha... Went back home at 3am
Slept at 4am.

Saturday:

Saturday started a bit slow. I woke up at 7am.. well almost 8am. Went online to downloads the good stuff. At 10, contacted Nasher to confirm the plan for that day. After that, Nasher and Titan arrived at my place at 1pm.. We went to pick Metal up. Waited a while at the dude's place, turns out he was sleeping.. hahaha... Then we went straight to the cinema. (a bit early but its better since its not that crowded this way, it's saturday after all) Bought the ticket for the 3pm show. If u asked me to rate the movie.. I'd say 9 out of 10.. coz of a few of reason. *spoilers* Skip this if u hvnt watch X-men 3...

1. Wolverine rocks.
2. The stupid couple, Jean and Cyclops died.
3. Kitty is a hot LOLI!!!!! OMG! for the first time a white loli caught my attention.
4. The movie made the first 2 prequels looks like child's play. So yeah, it redeemed itself as an X-men movie.

After the movie, Nasher wanted to have his haircut so we went to Saberkas. After that we were clueless on what else to do for the rest of the day. So we decided to crash at Dren's place. Playing CS first come to our minds. But we also came up with plan B. That's to go to my place, watch some movies, play cs, cook and eat. But then, Dren got the permission to go out afterall. so we sticked with plan A.

We played CS for a couple of hours around 10pm. That day's CS wasnt that satisfying. (maybe coz most of us are hungry and hvnt eaten anything) After CS, we sent Dren back home. So plan B took place. The original idea was crashing at my place so we went there had a few bites. Then Metal told us that there were no one at his house. So we packed the PS2 and the plan took place at Metal's. Before that, we went to buy some raw ingredient for the foods. 2 packs of hot dogs, A can of tuna, a can of sardines and a pack of cookies.

Upon arrival, Titan and Metal unpacked the PS2 while me and Nasher get the foods and drinks ready. I started with cooking the pasta up. It was pretty late so i was sleepy and a bit tired, so i decided to make a damn simple dish (with that minimum choices of ingredients, i oughta be). Nasher was preparing the hot dogs by marinading them with bbq sauce to add up flavours. I didnt have time to blanch the pasta. After boiling em, i just sieve em and then started to add em with the rest of the ingredients that i cooked. Because i didnt blanch the pasta, it was a bit soggy. But it was still delicious if i say so myself. Yet again another recipe created out of nothing. Finished cooking around 12am.

Metal and Titan were creating a character in Smackdown!. It was Blade.. hahaha WTF? turns out it was Titan's idea. We had a break after that to eat since food was ready. Watched Astro for a while. nothing good was on, so we watched HBO. The show was Eraser. hahaha Arnold looked young in that movie.
But before we bore ourselves to sleep, we decided to play the PS2 as soon as we finished eating. Though there's a lot of leftovers, all of us was already full.

Continued playing Smackdown, like usuall a couple of hours went by just like that. Had a few of "Laugh till cry and wanted to puke" moments. The good ol times playing Smackdown. After Smackdown, we decided to play Rumble Roses for some eye candy. But like that's all that the game is good at, we got bored after 2 rounds. So decided to play KOF:MI2.. But Metal and Titan were already that sleepy, so Nasher and me was the one battling it out. Armor Ralf is a cheap character. after a while, dec... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8675700/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8675700/ Thu, 04 May 2006 19:24:34 PDT
Reading: Comprehensive Japanese Workbook

Watching: Shakugan No Shana

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to mention this season's new anime..

Playing: KOF maximum impact 2 (unlocked all characters, now off to the missions)
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I guess.. what i'll miss most is my friends and the foods.. Also some of my relatives.. but like 10 years ago, we must move on.. 10 years ago, i moved to Kuching, leaving my oyaji behind.. The reason for that because of broken home.. Not that i'm sad about it.. no.. I'm glad my parents went on their own ways.. As long as they're happy, i'm happy..

Kuching, the city that taught me a lot... I got lots of first time experience thr... Part of me love this city, the other part.. sick of it.. but that wont change anything.. i'll come and visit from time to time.. My friends here are irreplaceable (did i get that spelling right?) lol.. I wonder if i'll have a blast with my friends in KL later?... time will tell... Will thr be CS Supreme Sunday thr? Will thr be stupid jokes that makes u laugh till u want to puke thr? The Thrills are killing me..

I've already started packing... my mum is flying to KL tmr, to see the schools available and to see the house and the Apartment we're going to buy.. The house is in Mines area.. i'm not sure whr it is exactly myself since i've never been thr.. but it is close to the artificial lake thr.. i'm looking forward to see it.. and the new apartment is somewhr near Midvalley.. "shopping will be easier"
thats what came into my mind at first.. LOL.. I'll have to get ready for college again later.. cant wait for it..

Since moving day is coming closer every second.. i'll try to spend as much time with my friends.. since they're here for their holiday now.. Hmm.. maybe we'll go and seek some adventure.. haha.. I cant think of anything else.. hmm i'll update again later on..

oh yeah, i've finally reached 18k.. lol.. took me long enuff.. i wonder who got it.. oh well, i didnt promised any kiriban anyway.. (very lazy with kiribans since some of them still not finished)

Next kiriban gotta be 20k!!!!!!

Zend
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Icon no Cipan~ XD
[link] ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8639479/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8639479/ Mon, 01 May 2006 09:15:56 PDT
Reading: nothing atm

Watching: Iriya No Sora, UFO No Natsu (say bye bye to my hdd now will u?)

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to mention this season's new anime..

Playing: Rapelay by Illusion /Dragon Quest 8 (finished)
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Ahhh Labour day, 1st may, Holiday..
The idea was suppose to be this.. Spending the weekend at Gunung Gading.. but then, me being stupid, didnt reserved a room till last minute.. the results? no room was available at that time.. just my luck.. so the plan was cancelled..

But that doesnt mean i cant enjoy the weekends no? But then.. it was another weekend.. lol.. pretty much the usuall.. Counter Strike is a must.. had a double dose of it on Saturday.. so on Sunday, i didnt go to play.. was home alone that day.. woke up late with a very zegapain headache.. By the time i woke up, my family were out.. So yeah, had nth better to do, i had an anime marathon..

Sure.... it certainly help my headache alright... NOT.. so the rest of the day was a lazy day.. Monday, woke up early feeling fresh and recharged.. went to clean up and renovate my house's garden.. then it started to rain.. despite of it, i still continue on till i'm satisfied.. The lil rain didnt do any harm after all.. My uncle asked me to burn 20 copy of his cd.. did that.. worked on the garden again afterwards.. then i had to prepare dinner.. It was steamboat night for me and my family.. though usually we had that on Sundays.. but what the heck?

Through out the day, i received sms from old frens of mine.. What is this? contact your old fren day? LOL.. Went online, just to find a msg from an old friend of mine.. really close friend of mine.. Inside stated that she wanted to hear from me.. Why after so long then she suddenly contacted me remains a mystery till i read the end of the msg.. ahh.. she just broke up with her boyfriend.. maybe seeking comfort from ol Zend?.. then i decided to give her a call.. During the conversation, i found out a very very very interesting fact..

She had a crush on me OMGWTH? she said that after she broke up, she suddenly thinks about me.. i wonder why myself.. She said if i wasnt a couple with my ex last time, she would've told me about it.. but she decided to kept it all for herself since she wants to avoid conflicts..

After all this time.. now only i know.. well, the truth is, she was one of the girls i like apart from my ex back then.. but fate made it that my relationship with my ex grew faster.. so yeah..

I guess we should be ready for suprises huh? Life's like that..

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tagged by ==;; no one else to tag ar? just realised that also tagged me... lol..

6 weird habits/things about me:

1. I'm a anime downloading freak... download too many for me to even watch em all...

2. I'm a maid maniac..

3. I love rare steak.. the bloodier the better..

4. I draw women better than i draw men..

5. If a rpg game that i played is at the last dungeon or last boss fight.. i tend to delay it.. till sometime i forgot or loose the mood to play that game.. maybe coz i dont want em to end.. lol

6. err.. i buy animes and i wont be watching em till certain time.. (thr's an anime that i bought 2 years ago that i still hvnt watch..)

i tag... err...

oh yeah, i've finally reached 18k.. lol.. took me long enuff.. i wonder who got it.. oh well, i didnt promised any kiriban anyway.. (very lazy with kiribans since some of them still not finished)

Next kiriban gotta be 20k!!!!!!

Zend
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Icon no Cipan~ XD
[lin... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8616204/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8616204/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 22:56:55 PDT
Reading: Megahouse comic may edition

Watching: Black Lagoon Ep.2

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to mention this season's new anime..

Playing: Rapelay by Illusion /Dragon Quest 8 (finished)
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tagged by ==;; no one else to tag ar? just realised that also tagged me... lol..

6 weird habits/things about me:

1. I'm a anime downloading freak... download too many for me to even watch em all...

2. I'm a maid maniac..

3. I love rare steak.. the bloodier the better..

4. I draw women better than i draw men..

5. If a rpg game that i played is at the last dungeon or last boss fight.. i tend to delay it.. till sometime i forgot or loose the mood to play that game.. maybe coz i dont want em to end.. lol

6. err.. i buy animes and i wont be watching em till certain time.. (thr's an anime that i bought 2 years ago that i still hvnt watch..)

i tag... err...

oh yeah, i've finally reached 18k.. lol.. took me long enuff.. i wonder who got it.. oh well, i didnt promised any kiriban anyway.. (very lazy with kiribans since some of them still not finished)

Next kiriban gotta be 20k!!!!!!

Zend
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Icon no Cipan~ XD
[link] ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8579318/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/8579318/ Thu, 27 Apr 2006 09:23:00 PDT
Reading: Megahouse comic may edition

Watching: Black Lagoon Ep.2

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... not to mention this season's new anime..

Playing: Rapelay by Illusion /Dragon Quest 8 (finished)
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The title doesnt mean anything.. haha just a random combi.. ermm.. been a while since i updated my journal.. haha yes.. i'm still in Kuching.. going to leave for KL only this mid year.. for now, i have to pack the stuff to move em thr.. it's a big time move afterall.. cant rush these kind of things.. though i really want to rush it.. oh well..

The next intake is in July only.. i have to work to kill the times.. At least i'll get to save more money to get me ps3 later...

Went to play CS again just now with me sis and evil dude, screeners were everywhr as expected... but of coz, they ate my knife.. hahaha.. screw them..
Got this old school frenzy.. old songs that it.. from early 80s to late 90s.. downloading the songs like thr's no tmr.. up till now its 300mb worth.. still more to go..

Other than that.. i dont think thr's anything much to say.. oh yeah, i've finally reached 18k.. lol.. took me long enuff.. i wonder who got it.. oh well, i didnt promised any kiriban anyway.. (very lazy with kiribans since some of them still not finished)

Next kiriban gotta be 20k!!!!!!

Zend
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Icon no Cipan~ XD
[link] ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/7815825/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/7815825/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 06:00:56 PST )

Reading: What i learned on my way to the top: Zig Ziglar

Watching: Rahxephon (haha..it cost 8 gig on my harddisk.. need to get rid of it..)

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch...

Playing: Poko poko 2
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Time is impatient, it goes on with or without u realizing it.. and it wont come back.. so dont keep staying in the past like i did for some time.. I was the guy who always says "I love/miss those old days, If i didnt do that i would've still be with her.. bla bla bla" Took me quite some time, but better late than never, at least i realized it now.. I've been living in the 'past'

Thinking about the past all the time wont help u get anywhere.. u already had ur chance with it.. no use to regret about what u did or u did not do.. I've lost my confidence about myself after a couple of incidents.. and i did not pick myself up and pat myself at the back until recently.. If they've moved on so easily, why cant i? about 2 years ago, i was full of confident about myself, and i was in good shape.. then it all went into the drain.. haha.. it's funny when i see myself changed dramatically..

I've wasted about a year doing nothing... pratically nothing... but that doesnt mean that i did not achieve anything great.. i made new friends and they became my best friend here in Kuching.. life wouldn't be fun without them here.. i know i've been a little of a bastard to them but that's just me, i dont have to be someone i'm not infront of them.. hard to find those kind of frens nowadays, dontcha think? That is why i'm a little heart broke to think that i'll have to leave them in order to continue my study later on.. that is if i have the money by then.. Part of me is very excited about leaving Kuching later, part of me is exactly the opposite.. i guess u cant have all the good things in life.. Hope i'll find good frens like them in KL.. but i know no one can replace them ever..

I've registered to a couple of colleges for a major in Achitecture, most of the people i know is quite shock and kinda negative about it.. The fact that i go from recipe planning to building planning must be strange to them.. It's not that Zend is only about food and hospitality.. I'm trying to learn lots of things, the first idea i had is to take Business course.. but then again, u can learn things about business on ur own and with helps from others with exprience.. And most people i know is advising me to take art major since i can draw.. but i'm not planing to do a living by drawing.. no offense to those who's doing it..

I know that i have a big responsibility lies ahead, since my dad's company is getting larger and larger by the day.. The newest addition to it is the housing sector.. hence me learning architecture so i can manage and help the company later.. but of coz food sector is expanding quite vastly.. lots of ppl from around the world is trying to do franchises of the restaurant that my dad owns.. but for the time being, we're not ready for that since we need to be nationly stable..

Haha.. thr i go again.. keep talking about stuff that ppl would less care about.. okay.. enuff bout that.. hmm yesterday was Kaoru-chan's bday, i was being a bad fren by not knowing that.. but she wasnt mad at me for it.. promised to burn her some dvds and draw her something as a bday gift.. Happy Belated Bday Kaoru-chan ^^ On the other news, i have LAN networking at my place now.. so i can play LAN games! woohooo.. wait.. i cant play them.. since no one else to play with.. haha anyway, its good to have two pc to download stuff.. the speed doesnt decrease much.. only a couple Kbps.. Oh yeah, bought a portable DVD burner.. hoho so long cd-rs! now i can manage my external HDD with ease..

Apart from that, nothing much happened.. err just that we had a family gathering yesterday.. and got this cliche kind of scene.. lol well normal for me to not remembering ppl.. but they remembered me.. so yeah, suddenly i have a distant cousin who's beautiful and very friendly.. she remembers me, but i dont.. lol still trying to remember who she was tho.. Counter Strike is still fun to play with.. maybe i should get it install in my pc.. but scared that i'll lose the fun of playing it.. so yeah, better to go play it only with my frens..

Been a while since i write a journal this long.. lol, i wonder.. does anyone read the whole thing? pls, do t... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/7559947/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/7559947/ Mon, 09 Jan 2006 23:43:27 PST
Reading: Unlimited Power by Anthony Robins

Watching: Jigoku Shoujo

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch...

Playing: Dragon Quest VIII, Dynasty Warriors 5 Extreme Legends..
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3 years anniversary... time flies, and a new year is here... expect nothing much from me.. haha...

Just hope this year is better than the last...
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[link] ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/6807198/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/6807198/ Wed, 19 Oct 2005 07:23:36 PDT
Reading: Nothing at this moment..

Watching: Animes...(doh)

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch...

Playing: Fahrenheit, RADIATA STORIES!!! Ys, Rumble Roses, GTA:SA and lots more..
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Haha yoh, hisashi buri dana...

Hmm.. still hvnt finish the highlights on Sabah Journey... but nah.. too lazy to type it all up... lol.. anyway.. i got tagged..

Got tagged by

20 things bout me.

1) i'm bad tempered..
2) i enjoy making ppl laugh or ppl cry.. depends on my mood
3) Altho i dont look like it.. i can cook..and i do enjoy it
4) I'm racist against my own race.. (i'm mix but mostly malay)
5) I like to play video games... since i was a lil kid.. 5-6 years.. RPG is a must
6) I'm crazy at times..
7) King of procrastination..
8) If i like what i'm doing... i'll be damn good on it..
9) I like to eat rare meat.. the bloodier the better..
10) i make my own recipe at times
11) i dont like to speak formal malay..
12) i know japanese, french, sabahan malay, sarawakian malay.. and want to learn more language..
13) just got my license 5 months ago..
14) i want to buy a mansion in japan and hire maids..cute maids...
15) comes from a broken home.. i have 20 ppl in my family.. 3 mums, 2 dads, and 15 siblings..
16) owns restaurants through out malaysia.. going to open more.. maybe a hotel even..
17) i'm very lazy.. i love to sleep..
18) i don't smoke.. doesnt mean i dunno how.. i dont drink alcohol.. allergic to it and it's forbidden.. haha and i dont do drugs..
19) Studio Gonzo and Studio Shaft = the best!
20) I love animes! of coz la.. ==;;

I tag ,


ZCC... ppl have been asking me bout this like a lot of times... oh well, i'll answer them here to make it clear..

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-Whr can i read/get ur ZCC manga? how's it going?
Obvious aint it? DA... and no.. i hvnt post any of the new ones... the one in my gallery is the old version with the old storylines... think of it as a preview... i'll most probably finish up "ZCC:Mise en place" to sell or display it in CF later... pls look forward for it.. the storyline is almost finish so i'll be starting to draw the manga anytime soon..

-What the Fork is ZCC:Mise En Place?
Ehem.. ZCC:MEP is a prequel to ZCC... the story took place years b4 ZCC... MEP is mainly about how the main character before he realise that he loves cooking..

-Why cooking? and why is the name of the main character is ZEND?
... i have no idea myself... cooking.. lol.. oh i remember now, ZCC was created accidently when i was trying to make some Visual Recipes sheets for my ex-girlfren and my frens last time when i was still taking Hospitality Management Course... it all started with a chibi character representing myself.. then i decided to put another character... then the next thing u know, thr's a storyline and it turns into a manga..

-Visual...Recipes...what? whr can i see em?
lol, its a recipe with drawing in it... made em myself, some of them will be featured in the manga.. so u'll know what i mean then..

-U still havent explain why the name is ZEND?
what? i thought i made it clear... i draw a character representing myself.. ==;; so if u say i'm self centred and selfish.. lol.. it's my manga so sue me..

-So can i be in ur Manga?
only if u pay me! lol, some of my frens asked me to put them in the manga.. so i did.. at least i have to know that person to put them in the manga.. and no not everyone gets to be in it..

-What kind of genre is that manga?
hmm.. comedy, love-romance, ugh.. let me just say that it'll be like School Rumble.. only with... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/6568994/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/6568994/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 01:16:10 PDT
Reading: Nothing at this moment..

Watching: Tons of movies... coz my cousin got lots of DVDs.. haha more than a lil store is selling..

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch...

Playing: RADIATA STORIES!!! Ys, Rumble Roses, GTA:SA and lots more..
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Hey, me again.. lol.. 12 days since last updated the journal.. and yes.. the journey is still on! lol..
Yeap.. i'm still in sabah.. now currently in sandakan..

So how's the journey going? haha more cliches and stuff.. good luck streaks.. hmm all and all.. its been great! haha how so? hmm alrite.. i'll tell the highlights of it.. so whr was i.. oh yeah.. ankle..

haha.. yes.. upon arrival to KK my ankle starts to feel rather damn painfull.. the pain is like wants to make u cut off ur foot... lol.. yes.. that painfull.. so thats why i have to spend my saturday doing particularlly nothing.. sigh..

oh well.. the time wasnt really wasted.. coz of the rest i was able to walk a bit on sunday.. ahh yes.. sunday.. i would kill to have another sunday like that.. why? well.. half of it i slept over it.. why i say i would kill to have another day like that? no no.. its not coz of the sleep la! ==;; it was becoz i had to go to the airport to fetch my old man.. (no thats not the main reason) but turns out his flight was delayed so i had to wait for 2 and a half hours.. lol..

"what the fork am i to do in this 2 hours?" crossed my mind of coz.. then i saw this lady kinda out of place.. "that girl.. is she japanese? nah cant be" then i heard her kid talks in japanese.. whoa.. a MILF!! damn! but her husband was nearby.. i cant do anything then.. so i walked a bit.. then i saw more and more japanese ppl.. "what the? hmm i smell opportunities.." lol yes.. i did.. then i saw this cliche scene..

Two cute japanese girls having trouble at the vending machine.. lol "Cliche!" so i approached em and asked if i can be any help for them.... they said that their coin is stuck in the machine.. "one winggit" lol damn cute! so i tried to get the coin out and no luck.. after a while i told them it cant come out.. so i offered to treat them dinner instead.. They were excited.. i cant see why.. its just a dinner.. at the kfc somemore.. lol.. the airport didnt have any other restaurant open that time..

We introduced ourselves to each other after ordering.. lol they were kinda suprised coz learnin that i'm not a japanese dude.. lol.. they thought i'm someone from osaka.. haha why they say so? well.. i talked with them mostly in japanese.. lol.. but i think i suck at japanese.. wonder why they still think i'm a japanese dude.. haha.. anyway, their names are also cute, Kyoko and Nanako.. lol ur normal japanese names i guess.. they tried to communicate in english instead of japanese.. and they were so cute doing it.. XD haha i helped them to correct their grammar a bit..

We talked talked and talked.. lol about so much stuff.. i told them i can draw and stuff.. they again were suprised how much i love japan.. lol.. figures.. i'm a freak.. then announcement upon their flight calling for them already ends the dinner and the conversations.. we exchanged our e-mails address to keep contact though.. so i'm waiting for their e-mail now..

Then after fetching my old man i went back home.. the next day.. my ankle is killing me more than ever.. but then after remembering the event last nite.. i smiled upon the pain.. I FEEL NO PAIN no150.. lol.. so i spent my monday mostly in my room and at nite went online..

Then on tuesday my ankle is feeling much much better.. i went out to centrepoint.. bought a watch then.. i qualified for a lucky draw.. so hoping i get lucky.. i entered.. hah! just my luck.. 2 nights at Sutera Habour Resort.. lol.. for two.. so yeah.. i cant go alone.. so i invited Joyce of coz.. since we hvnt hang out since we arrived in KK.. she was busy helping my step cousin with assignments and i was busy.. with pain.. lol..

We also had free dinner that night.. and while having dinner there's a local artist performing.. Syafinaz.. she was good.. can sing in different language.. have to give her credit for that.. then we also met Deanna Yusof.. and she's not as tall as ppl say she is.. or is it coz i'm taller? hahaha I'm tall, dark and handsome so sue me! haha.. after dinner we went to out room.. it have the most beautiful bathroom i've seen in hotels.. lol.. and err.. it wasnt too privacy.. since u... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/6464864/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/6464864/ Sat, 10 Sep 2005 04:29:13 PDT
Reading: Nothing at this moment..

Watching: Tons of movies... coz my cousin got lots of DVDs.. haha more than a lil store is selling..

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch...

Playing: Ys, Rumble Roses, GTA:SA and lots more..
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Yoh minna-san.. how are ya peeps been doin? long time no see online huh? hahaha kinda.. been only few weeks what? anyway.. for those who dont know.. i'm currently in Sabah.. the state where i was borned.. haha

What am i doin here u ask? wandering off to a journey.. haha yeap.. i've been all over sabah.. first KK.. thr, i met my half sister.. the ojo-sama.. lol why? she plays golf, does gimnastic, got top in her class, speaks darn fucking well in english for someone her age (for those who dunno, malaysia's number one language isnt english mind u), she also plays the piano.. haha lots more facts about her la.. but i dont wanna chip in the details too much.. some lolicon freak might be her stalker later >.>;;

The next day after i arrived in KK, i went to hmm.. i forgot the names of the town actually.. Westin is one of em.. well.. drove around for one whole day.. from town to town.. can see that each town is different in their own ways.. went back to KK b4 midnight..

After looking around in KK for a few days.. i found out that it's way better than Kuching.. but then again.. Kuching does have a few points of its own.. after 5 days being in KK i flew off to my hometown.. the place whr i was borned.. The Nature City.. Sandakan.. lol.. while i was flying over.. i got lots of inspirations to make a manga out of it.. haha after all.. i cant be put into a more cliche situation cant i?

Sandakan.. it changed so much after a few years... so darn much i cant recognize some of the part.. well.. places and ppl change due time i guess... well.. right when i thought i wont be anymore cliche than that.. i ended up in my old house.. which is big.. like a mansion.. well.. not really.. but it IS big when u live thr all alone..

I was welcomed by my relatives in Sandakan upon my arrival.. all my cousins have grown up.. haha makes me feel rather old.. after meeting them and talkin to them.. i went home.. to the big house.. all alone.. what went in my mind was "hahaha.. now all i need is some cute young maids.."
lol.. the phrase "be careful of what u wish for" comes in handy after a scene that i dont wanna talk about..

In Sandakan, i contacted my step cousins.. lucky for me one of em is currently doing practically nothing.. like me.. hahaha.. so yeah.. i invited her to stay over.. since it is a big house to live all alone.. what i didnt know was she had a few of her frens with her as well.. the good news.. none of them stayed over for the night that day.. the bad news? thats comes later.. hahaha

Merdeka day.. my step cousin had a lil bbq over at her place.. and figures.. i was the one who did most of the cooking.. haha cant be help thr aint it.. so yeah.. after the party i went home.. along with some of the girls coz they wanted to stay over.. cant say no to that rite? haha.. well.. nothing much happened... i guess.. haha.. not..

Joyce was this pacticular girl who's very nice and kind.. well first of all i had a lil fever during that night.. not so bad la.. she made me a soup.. for the fever (duh!) felt a lil better after eating it.. but somehow my fever gotten worse.. lol Joyce, insisted that she should stay over till i'm genki and all.. so she did.. we gotten a bit too close i think haha.. but i wasnt thinking of a steady relationship just yet..

Sunday.. a day to laze about.. Joyce also lazed about that day.. lol then i felt like goin to the bathroom.. on my way.. i was freakingly shocked! who wont? i mean suddenly thrs this girl.. sweeping the floor.. i asked her who she was.. she said that she is filling for her mum to clean the house.. turns out my house is clean every sunday by her mum.. but on that particular day her mum was sick..

Cliche? haha even that word isnt powerfull enuff.. the girl is technically my maid.. well.. i dont really wanna call her that.. but BUT... muahahahaha... i'm one step closer to be Yoshitaka!!! lol... so i woke Joyce up and said that we should help Selina (the maid girl) and we cleaned the house.. which is freakingly hard.. lol.. but cant rant.. since its my own house..

That night i sent Joyce and Selina home.. then went back home.. felt a bit lonely.. but hahah what to do.. cant really ask Joyce to stay over longer.. her mum already 'bising'.. <... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/6126816/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/6126816/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 21:22:52 PDT
Reading: Ultimate Power by Anthony Robbins

Watching: Samurai 7, Elfen Lied, Saikano, Nadesico and lots more..

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... *o*

Playing: P-chan finally returned to my side... TT TT very happy, playing lots of games that i wanted to play and replaying some old games..

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Bokuwa naze... kaze no yoni?

Heh.. long time hvnt updated my journal.. time flies.. the next thing u know u're 2 decades old.. >.>;; not that its a bad thing.. but u cant seem to believe that u lived for 20 years already.. yeap.. thats how i felt.. then questions.. keep popping out of ur head... What? what have i accomplish upon living these 2 decades.. why? why am i here? is it becoz of the decisions i made over the past years? yes.. it's my choice afterall.. how to live my life..

Two decades.. words made it simple.. but in that period of time.. we learnt a lot.. laugh a lot.. suffered a lot.. lost and gain something.. and so on.. thats life.. and no.. i'm not bragging ==;; if u're saying i'm talking nonsense.. i didnt ask u to read this journal what? ==;; anyway back to my point.. at this particular time.. the questions that u ask might still be unanswered or unclear.. of coz.. after becaming 20.. this is when life kicks in..

I hvnt achieved much... i know that.. and i dont want to waste anymore of my time.. i still hvnt open that Cosplay Cafe thingy that i want to open... and i still hvnt finish that ZCC manga yet >.> and i hvnt have a steady relationship for a long time.. hmm? what happened to that girl i told u last time? the one that's like my character Lune? hahaa lets just say.. ermm i dumped her.. ==;; i got bored of her.. yes.. i'm like that.. easily got bored.. seems like its been like that since i was a lil boy.. i easily get bored..

BORED... why else would i obtain some skills that most ppl cant do.. like.. fold ur fingers till ur hand looks like u're handicaped.. and fold my ears into different ways.. i have to show u to make u understand what the hell i'm saying.. why else would i get to immitate some voice actors and ppl's voices? coz of boredom.. being bored.. lets just say.. isnt all that bad.. lol.. no wait.. thats not my point.. ><;;; i'm the type of person who gets bored rather quickly.. i mean.. after i obtain something.. or someone.. i will get bored of it/her rather quick..

But.. when i lost someone coz of my own fault.. then only i know how important she was.. yes.. but nothing can be done no? haha i might just move on.. i know i know.. i've been falling for Fiibii all over again last time.. yes.. i still am.. but it's just not rite.. i dun wanna hurt her again.. so i dont think i'll go back with her again.. but then again.. we wouldn't know what will take place in the future.. but in the mean time.. i rather not think about it..

Yeah.. i'm focusing on trying to improve myself in everybit.. in everything.. not that i'm a perfectionist.. no.. but then again maybe i am.. its just i wanna be better for the ppl who knows me.. and for my family.. the past one year.. has been a short one to me.. maybe coz its filled with less memories.. it's been a year since i quit SHTM in sunway college.. time sure flies.. like i said b4.. what i'm thinking in my mind rite now is that i want to live in that particular college life again.. lol

Wanting to learn and meeting new frens isnt a bad thing at all.. i'm looking forward to continue my studies later.. but i think it'll take place only after i move to Putra Jaya.. Some part of me wants to go some part dont.. but i'm sure.. for better or worse? i'll be ready for it.. lol

Another question pops out in my mind.. What if? what if i did made that decisions that i made a year ago.. whr would i be now? well.. it'll be a waste of time thinking of it no? since it's in the past.. think of the bright side.. if i didnt make that decision i wouldn't get to know some of the friends that i get to know with in this one year time.. haha

It's just better to move on and dont think much of the past and just focusing on the present and future.. there's still a lot that need to be done to open that cosplay cafe of mine.. lol So for the mean time.. i'll just learn and gain as much experience as i can..

Holy crap! thats a long journal.. wait.. not much of a journal.. >.>;; lol sorry if this journal took some of ur time to read it.. haha its not like this is important.. just wanna share my opinion on stuff ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/5707557/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/5707557/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 19:19:39 PDT
Reading: Ultimate Power by Anthony Robbins

Watching: Initial D!

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... *o*

Playing: P-chan finally returned to my side... TT TT very happy, playing lots of games that i wanted to play and replaying some old games..

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Oh! its been ages since i updated my journal.. one and a half month? was it? not that long.. but lots of stuff happened.. as usuall.. lol

As most of u who give a damn and read the description i wrote in "Sleeping Lune" might get a hint of what happened ^^ yeap, found someone that's have the same personality as my manga character! O_O weird freaky coincidence? dunno.. hope it's a good thing though.. She and i are getting closer and closer by the day... i just hope its not too fast like what happened between Fiibii and me last time... and i hope it doesnt end up like in my manga.. lol! but i'm not hoping much.. ; Fiibii still giving me that second chance.. i'm taking it... yes yes i know.. i already involved with this new girl.. what to do? i'm freakin greedy.. lol.. but Fiibii said that she wants to wait till i go back to KL for it.. so yeah.. in the mean time.. i'll go for Jia-chan (the new girl's name) ^^

Been working like...for 7 days a week... even on my day off @_@;; dunno what's happenin to me.. am i becoming a workaholic? XP hope not.. heh tryin to save some money for some unknown reason.. have the feelin that i'll be needin it later.. dunno for what.. so i'm calling that saving my "Just in case" money lol

Been watchin GSD and lovin it.. Impulse rox.. might be getting the model later.. if i can find it here that is == Shinn's attitude kicks ass XD muahahah stupid Kira can go die! >
That's My Master's anime hvnt been subbed by lately.. == a good anime died? nooooooooooo! damn! someone need to sub it! any of u go sub it! ==## Basilisk is licensed.. luckily got two or three groups are willing to sub it! u guys rocks! thx! and finally Speed Grapher ep 9 is subbed XD hmm nth else is news i think..

Got rid of the artist block.. i think, well most of it.. XD and i shall start on drawing my manga.. ^^ just hope that no more block or sumthin come up.. and been tryin to cg using mouse again.. dunno if its good or not.. u guys be the judge.. but restin for cg-ing for a while coz i cut my right index finger.. cant use it much.. what? i know i know.. i'm a lefty.. but i cg using my right hand.. so imagine the pain i have to endure to cg... ==;; lol

AND... finally.. My bday is coming up! woohoooo 25th June.. i'll be in the second decade of me life.. hmm.. getting older.. haha the inevitable.. i know the day wont be a eventful as the last year's one.. 4 parties.. with 4 different group of friends and family.. lol.. now that i'm in kuching, i doubt it'll be the same.. Ei! go bake/draw/buy or anything for me! haha jk.. >.>

Anyway thats all for now.. i'll update again later.. so see yas

ZCC... ppl have been asking me bout this like a lot of times... oh well, i'll answer them here to make it clear..

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-Whr can i read/get ur ZCC manga? how's it going?
Obvious aint it? DA... and no.. i hvnt post any of the new ones... the one in my gallery is the old version with the old storylines... think of it as a preview... i'll most probably finish up "ZCC:Mise en place" to sell or display it in CF later... pls look forward for it.. the storyline is almost finish so i'll be starting to draw the manga anytime soon..

-What the Fork is ZCC:Mise En Place?
Ehem.. ZCC:MEP is a prequel to ZCC... the story took place years b4 ZCC... MEP is mainly about how the main character before he realise that he loves cooking..

-Why cooking? and why is the name of the main character is ZEND?
... i have no idea myself... cooking.. lol.. oh i remember now, ZCC was created accidently when i was trying to make some Visual Recipes sheets for my ex-girlfren and my frens last time when i was still taking Hospitality Management Course... it all started with a chibi character representing myself.. then i decided to put another character... then the next thing u know, thr's a storyline and it turns into a manga..

-Visual...Recipes...what? whr can i see e... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/5334090/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/5334090/ Wed, 11 May 2005 21:45:10 PDT
Lyric:

In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders

I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
All this pressure centerizing
My life overturned
But there than despare
All these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

In this hole
That is me
A life that's growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set; all darkens

Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal path-way to contention

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone


Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Are you
HAPPY

Are you
HAPPY

Are you feeling happy?

In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
What's my release??
What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me out again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost here with nothing

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost here with nothing?

Reading: Nothing ATM

Watching: Guess will be watchin Star Whores.. i mean Star Wars Episode 3.. lol

Watchlist: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... *o*

Playing: BR2.. finished the darn thing.. waiting for other H game to finish downloadin

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Yoh minna! wazzup? i'm doing well here.. nth much happened.. waitaminute.. a lot have happened >< lol

I'm a happy man... not much to say.. been given second chance.. so yes.. of coz i'll take it! ^^ Fiibii~~ we will talk when i reached thr k? ^^

I'll try to post as much as possible XD just hope nth would stopping me from doing so apart from my lazyness hahaha

Decided to share a good song with u all, yes.. as it mentioned on top, the song is Happy? by Mudvayne ^^ always have been a loyal fan to them.. my kind of music and they keep on making catchy songs.. maybe i'll go do a fanart basee on them lol..

Ok, thats all i guess.. not much to say but i'm a happy man XD lol just feeling like updating my journal.. so i did see ya peeps again later~

ZCC... ppl have been asking me bout this like a lot of times... oh well, i'll answer them here to make it clear..

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-Whr can i read/get ur ZCC manga? how's it going?
Obvious aint it? DA... and no.. i hvnt post any of the new ones... the one in my gallery is the old version with the old storylines... think of it as a preview... i'll most probably finish up "ZCC:Mise en place" to sell or display it in CF later... pls look forward for it.. the storyline is almost finish so i'll be starting to draw the manga anytime soon..

-What the Fork is ZCC:Mise En Place?
Ehem.. ZCC:MEP is a prequel to ZCC... the story took place years b4 ZCC... MEP is mainly about how the main character before he realise that he loves cooking..

-Why cooking? and why is the name of the main character is ZEND?
... i have no idea myself... cooking.. lol.. oh i remember now, ZCC was created accidently when i was trying to make some Visual Recipes sheets for my ex-girlfren and my frens last time when i was still taking Hospitality Management Course... it all started with a chibi character representing myself.. then i decided to put another charact... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/5181856/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/5181856/ Mon, 25 Apr 2005 01:20:34 PDT Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... *o*

Watched: Tsuki Hime, Ikkitousen, Shinobuden, FLCL,

Playing: Nanaca Crash - 18,459.57m

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LOL, my free trial may expire any time now.. TT TT forgot to write a decent journal with it... shimatta!!! oh well, i guess this is the decent journal? lol...

Yes, School Rumble roxxorz my soxxorz... what does that mean anyway? >< Tenma-chan is t3h cutey~ She's in my list of favorite animes character top of Lunamaria from GSD..

Hmm.. been playing RO again... lol, after a year of silence in the RO world... i'm back to kick some major ass... kinda... i know i'll be bored of it any time soon though... sigh...

I'm in a good drawing mood XD yes... if u lucky enuff to catch me in MSN and ask me to draw some random stuff (no yaoi and BL) i will most probably will draw em... depends on my drawing meter gauge though... lol

ZCC... ppl have been asking me bout this like a lot of times... oh well, i'll answer them here to make it clear..

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-Whr can i read/get ur ZCC manga? how's it going?
Obvious aint it? DA... and no.. i hvnt post any of the new ones... the one in my gallery is the old version with the old storylines... think of it as a preview... i'll most probably finish up "ZCC:Mise en place" to sell or display it in CF later... pls look forward for it.. the storyline is almost finish so i'll be starting to draw the manga anytime soon..

-What the Fork is ZCC:Mise En Place?
Ehem.. ZCC:MEP is a prequel to ZCC... the story took place years b4 ZCC... MEP is mainly about how the main character before he realise that he loves cooking..

-Why cooking? and why is the name of the main character is ZEND?
... i have no idea myself... cooking.. lol.. oh i remember now, ZCC was created accidently when i was trying to make some Visual Recipes sheets for my ex-girlfren and my frens last time when i was still taking Hospitality Management Course... it all started with a chibi character representing myself.. then i decided to put another character... then the next thing u know, thr's a storyline and it turns into a manga..

-Visual...Recipes...what? whr can i see em?
lol, its a recipe with drawing in it... made em myself, some of them will be featured in the manga.. so u'll know what i mean then..

-U still havent explain why the name is ZEND?
what? i thought i made it clear... i draw a character representing myself.. ==;; so if u say i'm self centred and selfish.. lol.. it's my manga so sue me..

-So can i be in ur Manga?
only if u pay me! lol, some of my frens asked me to put them in the manga.. so i did.. at least i have to know that person to put them in the manga.. and no not everyone gets to be in it..

-What kind of genre is that manga?
hmm.. comedy, love-romance, ugh.. let me just say that it'll be like School Rumble.. only with cooking.. and no.. its not like any other cooking manga/anime.. not like Cooking Master Boy or Yakitate Japan! it's more like the japanese drama, "Antique"... kinda..

-Do ppl really ask u these questions?
not this one they dont... the rest.. yes.. and i think that'll cover enuff info on ZCC.. any other question, ask me.. MSN is the easiest way to find me..

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Whoa, thats a lot of stuff...haha... maybe coz i didnt update my journal for some time... so it all stock up to be like this...

hmm.. seems like i've promise a lot of ppl for drawings.. lol gomen if it takes time.. >< i just want them to be as perfect as they can be.. curse myself to be a perfectionist in drawing... >< and yes, i cant cg most of the drawings coz of no tablet situation.. gomene

maybe thats all for now... hmm... how exactly u put the pictures in ur journal? i'm such a noob... i'll try some random attempts after this..

See ya peeps later..

Zend.

Project:

Manga:
1. ZCC:Mise En Place ( the story that goes b4 ZCC... history that change one's life ^^ )

2. ZCC (Zend's Cooking Class, lol yeap the unfinished manga.. i remake it coz change of storyline and stuff)

3. CF doujin project.. Zendthology? no idea on what i should do yet.. solo? dual? or just main doujin? XD

Icon no Cipan~ XD
[link]
[IMG]http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/5091968/ Fri, 15 Apr 2005 06:41:21 PDT
Reading: nth

Mood: so-so

Watching list: Gundam X, Sunabouzu, Gankutsuou, Hellsing,
Steel Angel Kurumi, Kiddy Grade, Bakuretsu Tenshi, Full Metal Panic Fumoffu, Gungrave, ....the list goes on and on.... too many anime to watch... *o*

Watched: Tsuki Hime, Ikkitousen, Shinobuden, FLCL,

Playing: Nanaca Crash - 18,459.57m
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Suppose to write a longer journal just now... but called and said he's in front of me house... so only got a few minutes to write to previous journal just now...

Yeap, been drawing *ehem* ecchi stuff.. and will submit more of it later on... excuse me if u dun like it... for those who love it.. enjoy~

ciao..

Zend.
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Manga:
1. ZCC:Mise En Place ( the story that goes b4 ZCC... history that change one's life ^^ )

2. ZCC (Zend's Cooking Class, lol yeap the unfinished manga.. i remake it coz change of storyline and stuff)

3. CF doujin project.. Zendthology? no idea on what i should do yet.. solo? dual? or just main doujin? XD


Icon no Cipan~ XD
[link] ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4959142/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4959142/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 08:04:38 PST Reading: Giant Steps by Anthony Robbins
Mood: Supa dupa furasto
Watching: FMP:Fumoffu, Grenadier, Bakuretsu Tenshi, FLCL, Gundam X
Watched: Gravion, Tsuki Hime, Ikkitousen, Shinobuden
playing: R.O.S.E online.. T T
GTA Vice City
A3 online
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I CANT FREAKING BELIEVE IT!!!! here i was... enjoying writing my Gundam Vile story.. then suddenly... an email from the representative (Naoshito Anzu) of bandai and sunrise (the major company that makes gundams) was in my inbox!

As i thought it was a warning coz of me writing my own gundam stories and post them here in DA...but turns out to be a compliment and invitation to join their company.. to design and writes storyline for them!! can u freaking believe it? me... a writer for gundams storyline... OMG!!! cant belive that they actually love my designs and story... TT TT

I replied to them saying that i would love to join them.. but i cant read or speak good japanese... then, they said that it's all been taking care of.. they have this office in KL.. and they said its better for me to sort it with them there first..

Not only that, for the time being, they're sending me the storylines for Gundam Seed Destiny.. so yes gundam fans.. i'll get to know the ending faster than u guys will XP They mentioned that they want me to write a story after GSD... yeah.. another Seed story.. but then again.. it'll be my storyline.. well, some of it.. XD Gundam Seed Crimson is the current title.. they say its not comfirm yet.. ^^

A bit preview of the story.. (hope they wont kill me for this) its a story bout Athrun's brother.. yes, his bro.. what? u never heard of his bro? lol, hafta watch the story to find out about him.. thats all i can say for now... surely if i say more it'll be problems for me ><

So yeap, i'll be going to KL next monday, and sort things out there first... then, go to Tokyo, Japan to meet with the big guys of gundams... designing my own gundams and writing storylines.. O_O i, myself still cant believe it! lol
i've always wanna work with big companies like this.. and stay in japan XD oh my, lucky my passport hvnt expires.. ^^

I wonder.. will i get a free sample of the latest model kits and stuff thats out... hope so.. lol.. i came all the way from malaysia demmit.. they should give me free samples and stuff no? lol.. even if they dun, i dun really mind.. since i'm part of the company.. thats a huge honour already ^^

Cant wait to get thr.. go see Tokyo and meet cute japanese girls XD hora~ ojou-chan matte yoo~ lol i hope it'll all go smoothly.. heard that life is hard and fast in tokyo.. need to find a place to stay.. or maybe they provide it... coz they are 4 others that have been invited to join in.. XD it gives me the thrill just to think about! lol.. a dream come true if some might say so..

so anyways i asked parents about it.. they said its okay if thats what i really want.. so OF COURSE i'm going! woohoooooo! hafta prepare for it.. so cant really update DA as much... wish me luck people and thanks for all the support u guys gave me ^^
Yosh Gambarre!

Zend.









P/S: click on the link here [link]
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Bandai And Sunrise Project!

Manga:
1. ZCC:Mise En Place ( the story that goes b4 ZCC... history that change one's life ^^ )

2. ZCC (Zend's Cooking Class, lol yeap the unfinished manga.. i remake it coz change of storyline and stuff)

3. CF doujin project.. Zendthology? no idea on what i should do yet.. solo? dual? or just main doujin? XD


Icon no Cipan~ XD
[link] ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4715998/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4715998/ Thu, 03 Mar 2005 00:18:15 PST Reading: Big Step
Mood: Supa dupa furasto
Watching: Gravion, FMP:Fumoffu, Grenadier, Bakuretsu Tenshi
Watched: Tsuki Hime, Ikkitousen, Shinobuden
playing: R.O.S.E online.. T T
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Yoh peeps... a kiriban is coming up again XD lol.. though i hvnt finished the giftart for Aria-san.. gomen gomen >< will be working on it A.S.A.P..

Wouldnt be cg-ing for a while.. why? no tablet T T i sent Chirosa-chan (lol, i named the tablet that) to New Zealand coz my sis needed it... so i guess i will have to buy a new tablet... hoho Chirosa ver 2... XD lol yeah, i redesign Chirosa just for that..

So yeah, after 7 months of nothingness, i'll be starting a better chapter of my life... end of this month or next month.. still hvnt figure that out yet... that is after i get my driving license... yes! i still dun have mine yet TT TT lol

After getting my license and finish up all the business that i have here in Kuching.. I'll be going back to KL... but i cant really promise anything yet XP so keep ur fingers crossed..
lol! espeacially those who wanna meet me and eat free? heh..

I, myself cant wait to get back to KL to meet my PS2-tan lol.. and get a brand new pc XD life would be a bit better then... i think.. anyways, u'll be seeing me posting traditional arts a lot for quite a while.. that is until i get my new Chirosa XD

030305

Zend.
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Manga:
1. ZCC:Mise En Place ( the story that goes b4 ZCC... history that change one's life ^^ )

2. ZCC (Zend's Cooking Class, lol yeap the unfinished manga.. i remake it coz change of storyline and stuff)

3. CF doujin project.. Zendthology? no idea on what i should do yet.. solo? dual? or just main doujin? XD


Icon no Cipan~ XD
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http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4577834/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 08:58:09 PST Reading: What i learned on my way to the top -Zig Ziglar
Mood: so-so
Watching: Tenjou Tenge, Grenadier, Bakuretsu Tenshi
Watched: Tsuki Hime, Ikkitousen, Shinobuden
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Happy Valentines day~ yeap... its been a while since i updated my journal.. u guys missed my yapping? guess not.. anyways.. sorry for the lack of updates.. or slow updates rather..

So yesh.. i'm working as hard as i can to update as much as possible.. ^^ and will try to do the giftarts that i owe to ppl and some contest that i should be entrying >< gomen! anyway, i'm out of yapping idea.. oh oh do read the story of my newest misfortune saga adventures what ever it is.. lol
here's the link [link]
enjoy

Zend

p/s: the tittle is just a random tittle.. lol Bloody Valentines Tragedy.. from Gundam Seed and GSD.. that anime rox
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Mood: so-so
Watching: Cromartie High
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XP Usually i would update like almost everyday ^^ but somehow i hvnt been posting anything for a few days now XD heh gomen gomen, will be posting some artwork later ^^

ROSE online pwnz!!! w00t!! really! heh, reminds me of .hack the game actually, coz its kinda the same and yesh for those who plays them, i'm a hawker XD feel free to whisper to me if u're guys also playing the game ^^ the nick? its Zend of coz XD

Zend
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http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4201850/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 11:45:43 PST Reading: How to survive not attending CF- by Zend
Mood: so-so
Watching: Samurai Champloo and Apple Seed
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Happy New Year~!!!! a lot have happened in 2004, some are good and of coz some are bad.. but, it's a shame that some of us, can't celebrate the new year festive season due to the Asia Tsunami attack on the last 26th Dec, who would've thought that it will happen? a day after xmas.. maybe its a sign from God..

Anyway, i still hvnt finish most of my CG project and and the same goes for the kiriban and giftart i have.. XD well, at least i managed to finished the collab with I'll try my best to update frequently ^^ and yesh i'm looking forward for ur support this year as well ^^ yoroshiku

Zend
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Mood: so-so
Watching: Kaleido Star
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Merry Xmas minna~!! gomen gomen for the lack of updates ;; hontoni gomene! umm well first of all me wanna wish u all a merry xmas and happy new year.. just in case i'll miss it ;

A lot have happened these past few days ; some are good stuff and some are bad ^^ well thats life no? XD umm on the 20-22 Dec i went to Damai Beach Resort ^^ yup yup... its been a while since the last time i went thr... and to the beach @@;; (oh yeah... no snow here ; so its okay) umm had a great time thr.. took a lot of pictures and stuff.. will post some of it here later... ^^

Then on the 22nd i got back home.. after a while called asking whether i'm free to go to Coffee Bean or not.. well, had nth better to do, of coz i agreed to go even though kinda tired that time but after all, its his treat ^^ Brought my drawing file along coz who knows when ideas might poped up right? after that went to the game store and stuff then i went back home.. coz feeling tired i went to sleep early..

The next day, i umm went out to buy stuff... So yeah, went to the shopping mall and took a stroll around the grooming items isle.. then thrs this two sales girl approached me and promote some items of theirs.. at first it was a hair gel... (i'm guessing coz my hair is spiky and its kinda obvious that time i used gel..) so yeah, the item was kinda nice coz it smells nice and stuff... so i decided "what the heck, i'm running out of gel anyway..." but after that they told me bout this other stuffs... and about the xmas promotion... @@;;; i dunno.. but i kinda succumb to them... both of the girls is all over me ; haha and i kinda bought a lot of stuff... one of them even called me 'darling' @@;; and gave me her number.. a good thing? i dunno... she said her name was Alice... maybe should give her a call later...

After shopping, i went back home to found out that my parents wants to go to our shop house.. err apartment.. u see, we own this one unit of shop house.. 3 floors.. the top floor we turn it into a apartment like place.. kinda cool.. will spend a lot of time thr coz i think its better since i need some solitude after the months of being back here at my hometown.. At the apartment thr i found this book by Zig Ziglar.. i read it and whoa, the motivational words! moved me ^^ and i think i'll learn a lot from the book.. still reading it now...

So yeah, after spending some time at the apartment i went back to my house and decided to feed the fishes at the pond.. so i climbed to the small 'pondok' near the pond and accidently saw my neighbour errr drying herself with a towel... @@;; free show? ; being myself.. i watch her for a few minutes... (i didnt know that she was back from KL already) then my mom called me to help her find her phone... so yeah.. Jess ( thats the girl's name) noticed me.. but the odd thing is.. she just smiled and waves at me.. ;; kinda a shock no? she's not angry at all..

Xmas Eve... hmm didnt do much... just laze around the house.. and draw draw draw~! lol.. got some new masterpieces... will CG them later and post them ^^ err early warning... its kinda Ecchi.. umm the drawings i mean.. XP i'll post some doodles that i sketched at the resort for now...

Xmas day~ Merry Xmas!! ho ho ho~ yeah~ its my anniversary at DA too!! @@;;; 2 whole years already? so that means... i have the experience of Cg-ing for 2 years already... >< and i still suck! lol.. but i'll work harder to be better thats for sure~ and yesh! thx everyone for the support! hontoni arigatou! i know some... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4099776/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4099776/ Sun, 19 Dec 2004 03:00:37 PST Reading: How to survive not attending CF- by Zend
Mood: so-so
Watching: Kaleido Star
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Just got back from going out with the dude
bought some new animes again... @@;; yesh.. i got this buy anime but dont watch sindrome... lol meaning i buy the animes but i dont watch them.. i do but eventually that is... ;; maybe i should go on a marathon again...

Yeap, my annual anniversary in DA ish on Xmas... ; that'll marks the 2nd year of my existance in DA... @@;;; so long time... yet i just got my 11,111th page views just recently... and umm yeap~ i got 200 ppl devwatching me... @@;;; sankyuu minna~!!!! hontoni arigatou~!! umm umm oh yeah, got my 11,111th pageviews ^^ sankyuu sankyuu.. umm after seeing her screencap she's tittle for a complete deviation by me... lol, i know its nth much T T just a drawing and CG by me with her keywords... a.k.a what she wants me to draw ^^

Ummm Xmas is coming... @@;; still hvnt started the collab thingy with hmmm maybe later... ^^ oh yeah, my little bro's bday was on the last 16th Dec.. happy bday to him..

This year i missed Gempak fest, CF and CosMas... T T i'll make sure next year i'll go thr >< i'll make sure of it ><

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Mood: sad coz cant go to CF04 ><
Watching: Shaun Of The Dead
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my 11,111th hit is nearing ^^ so any of u out thr who's lucky to get it will get a kiriban request ^^ a complete drawing and CG by me ish the price... i know its not much but still... wanna show my gratitute to u guys ^^ sankyuu na minna ^^ hontoni.. arigatou~!!

oh yeah, for the time being i'm on my experimental mode ;; dunno till when it will last... umm i'll be back to my own mode later ^^ then, i'll submit many many stuff.... and i mean MANY >< hope u guys look forward for it ^^

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... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4048216/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4048216/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 23:34:30 PST Reading: How to survive not attending CF- by Zend
Mood: sad coz cant go to CF04 ><
Watching: Casshern and rewatching Antique
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(sing it like the what's the name again? ... the christmas dove song..)
On the the first day of CF~ I stuck here in Kuching,
Went out the whole day, go and watch movie,
Went out to drink~....

= =;;; okay, i'll stop that for now... it'll just make me more deppress ; so yeah~ i didnt get to go to the two days of CF... very very depressing... how depressing? the feeling is just like when u heard someone close to u died... yeah...its like that... oh well, thrs always next year >< hope me can make it to that one and boogie... lol

So yup, on the first day of CF (11th Dec) me started with CG-ing the BEAN member poster thingy.. finished bout 4am like that.. and then me went off to bed.. since before that i went out to watch a movie called Bunshinsaba... its a Korean Movie... the story was so-so... aint that scary though... and after the movie went to eat some japanese food... kinda full after that ^^ then after that we went to my friends cafe to drink even though he wasnt thr.. lol then had a chat with his bro instead then his mom came and chat... kinda long chat... @@;;; i didnt know how i get myself into it... after that i went home then only i started CG-ing the BEAN thingy ;; so yeah, back to the first CF day..

I slept after i got the CG done... around 4am... then i woke up on 10 am... funny, since no one woke me up for breakfast... or did they? and i just didnt wake up? @@ anyhow, after that my mum asked me to accompany her to the market... so i figure, why the hell not? i'm dead bored at home and i wanna take my mind off from CF... == the depression is eating me up... after a few hours out i received an sms from asking whether i wanna go hang out and have a drink or not? so yeah, went back home and then went out again at 2pm.. went to drink and stuff.. still cant take my minds off of CF... then i went back around 4pm? i'm not so sure... then received a call from another fren of mine... @@ asking whether i wanna hang out and go somewhr... yesh >< for the third time that day, i went out again... so went out, hang out at CC for a while then had dinner at that time only i realised that i hvnt eaten all day... maybe busy thinking bout CF... >< lol after that decided to go watch another movie... ocean's 12.. its a great movie... dem nice.. if u watched ocean's 11 u should watch this sequel too ^^

After that i went back home.. about 12am.. too lazy to go online and chat.. so yeah i went straight to bed... (not really...still cant take my mind off CF) After a nice rest i woke up at 10am... i think.. err wait.. ahh whatever... the whole day i didnt do anything much just watch tv? umm sleep.. and other usuall stuff.. after that times goes by and its already 11pm then i went online till now... oh yeah, the Streamyx guy came and install the ADSL modem thingy but the line hvnt been activated... i cant wait to get it on and start kicking major ass... lol

Thats all for now i guess... the moral of the journal is... you cant replace CF with anything at all!!! well, maybe sex.. lol so... i dont wanna miss another CF ever... ><

oh yeah~ my 11111 hits is near... so u guys know what to do? yeap, its kiriban time ^^ the one who gets it must have a printscreen to prove it and post it on their page as proof ^^ then only they are tittle to get the kiriban gift ^^ a drawing by me and cg-ed by me.. can say a cg-ed work by me... well, not that its something special ; but go for it XD go go go!!!!
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http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/4008311/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 11:06:37 PST Reading: How to survive not attending CF- by Zend
Mood: sad coz cant go to CF04 ><
Watching: Casshern and rewatching Antique
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Chirosa-chan will be keeping me company during CF... that i'm not going to go... sob sob... oh well, might as well enjoy my stay at the Beach Resort later on... ; maybe it can help me take my minds off CF stuff... ><

I've been away for quite sometime hvnt i? i feel so left out in BEAN team and stuff... haiz, cant be helped ;; cant wait to move to Putra Jaya and catch up with all the forumers and frens ^^

Finally updated with some new CG ^^ hope u guys like it ^^ yesh i love my Chirosa...very much... Chirosa-chan daisuki~!! anyway i'm free for collab...or if u guys wants me to color ur drawings.. i'll be more than happy to ^^

anyway...cant think of anything else right now... ; so thats all for now.. sore jya~

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~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/3676202/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/3676202/ Tue, 26 Oct 2004 02:32:55 PDT Reading: The books i've just bought.. have to read fast
Mood: so-so
Watching: tv...
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[link] XD is a club founded by me,, ^^ we dedicate the club to the one and only ^^ she deserve it no?

Journal: lol, i hvnt update for so long XD since been kinda busy with my doujin and all... well here's a segment from my doujin.. its called:

Mamoru's Interview With Chef Zend from ZCC...
*this interview is issued after Zend came up with his 50th recipe and after he employed Ayane, Mieru and Rachel a.k.a Ra-chan*

Mamoru: Hi Zend, I'm the reporter who issued the interview with u today... from Zendthology...

Zend: Ahh yes, Hi hi~ nice to meet u.. how should we start?

Mamoru: Nice to meet u too ^^ Hmm first thing.. Congratz on ur 50th recipe ^^

Zend: Thx, actually i have more recipe bt yeah, this one is the 50th one i teach to ppl..

Mamoru:Sou sou, umm so how does it feels? to achieve such progress?

Zend: Feel somewhat accoplish ; but yeah, still a long way to go no? so i cant let it get in me too much..

Mamoru: i see, yeah, but this is a good achievement at least.. k next question, umm Is it true that the three girls.. i mean
Aya, Mieru and Rachel have this feeling for u?

Zend: @@ wha? why ask me that question? its totally out of the topic!

Mamoru: no it's not... the topic is talking about u.. and that question is related to u...

Zend:= = okay then... umm i dun really know if they have feelings for me.. i mean i dunno if its love or sumthing else..

Mamoru: answer in yes or no pls..

Zend: yes.. i think they do..

Mamoru: How bout u then? do u have feelings for them??

Zend: ugh.. *no way to avoid not answering this..* yes.. i love each of them.. very much.. they're all are special..

Mamoru: I see... any chances that u like one girl more than the rest?

Zend: umm... i love Aya for her talent and skills and she's nice too but can be a bit jealous at times.. and Mieru is nice, sweet and caring and Rachel is umm innocent and blur.. she dont mind if me goes out with the others... Each of them are special for me ^^

Mamoru: Oh i see... well hope they can coop with the fact that u love all of them the same.. and i'm outa here..

Zend: Wait! whr u're going? @@

*Zend turns around and found the three girls, Aya, Mieru and Rachel behind him*

Zend: Girls~?? whatcha all doing here? ;;;

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huh? y ends thr? lol i have no idea how to continue it.. the girls go furious? or the girls is happy with the fact and huggles him till suffocate? tell me pls XD and yeah... the content is edited to a shorter version so i dun have to write so much here ;;

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Team: BEAN

Pirates of the Kari BEAN lol XD
lol this is my own term of BEAN : being extreme and naughty
>=3
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Project:

Zend's Doujin vol 1:
Couch Laugh (series of comic strips base on real life)
Hp Tragedy (A short comic i made some time ago)
ZCC (most probably i'll put it in the doujin too)
RO's comic strips (based on the famous Ragnarok Online)
FMA comic strips (by fan for fan, pls dun kill me 4 the jokes)
Recent Illustrations by me

more will be insert to my doujin XD hope u guys will buy it ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/3538929/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/3538929/ Thu, 07 Oct 2004 23:36:19 PDT Reading: The books i've just bought.. have to read fast
Mood: so-so
Watching: tv...
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[link] XD is a club founded by me,, ^^ we dedicate the club to the one and only ^^ she deserve it no?

Journal :

Gahh!! i need my usuall dousage of cg >< its been 3 months since i did one >< so yeah, decided to give this pc a shot of cg-ing... i forgot how hard it is to cg using a mouse.. futhermore.. the monitor makes me like a colourblind.. it doesnt fuction well at all TT TT

So yeah, XD i picked one of drawing and cg-ed it ^^~ finally after 3 months of no art submission, i got to post sumthing again XD although its not my drawing... ;; and yeah.. i kinda cg it without Ciel's permission.. @@ hope she dun go and kill me >< gomene Queen! hope u dun mind about the ugly colorings... TT TT

And yeah, posted more of his funny 4koma XD u guys should go read em ^^~

Ahh two more months to CF >< and still hvnt finish my Doujin... OMG! i hope i can finish it in time ;; and yeah still have the costume to finish too ;; Yosh~ ganbare

The new kiosk of my restaurant was opened on the 21st Sept and yeah, it went into the newspaper... sumthing about my stepdad's company invested 13 millions for promoting the world's first "Soft Shell Crab Burger" yeap, u can get em at any of the restaurant and kiosk that my stepdad owns XD in the menu they put the name "Nude Crab Burger" lol NUDE!! maybe this way it can attracts more customers ^^ and yes fellow forumers... the offer still opens... "the first person to catch me at the kiosk or restaurant will have free treat on me" XD its limited to one person only >=3 the rest have to pay their own...

Yeah, promised to make an Oreo Cheesecake for her b-day ^^ hope she likes em... but i dunno if i can make it on her b-day... TT TT lets just hope i can oh yeah also wants the oreo cheesecake, told her to ask some from Queen Ciel but she said that Ciel will give her instead.. lol! XD many forumers wants me to cook for them too ; lenglui~ u oso want ar? lol and wants me to make her a pudding ^^

these are the few tittles i got recently from fellow CF forumers... XD
Mr. Zenderson, Gothic Chef, Royal Chef, Private Chef, Knight in Durian Armor, Durian, Zendurian, Stalker, Chef sensei... wah leu.. got more >< thats just a few to name some... and i dun even like... ]]> ~zend http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/3502352/ http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/3502352/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 11:28:14 PDT Reading: The books i've just bought.. have to read fast
Mood: so-so
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[link] XD is a club founded by me,, ^^ we dedicate the club to the one and only ^^ she deserve it no?

Journal :

Oct 3rd: Sunday

Was up in IRC again XD yeah didnt sleep at nite.. ^^ was on it till 6am then i decided to cook some breakfast.. went offline then went downstairs XD cooked "Nasi Lemak"... finished cooking around 7 sumthing XD felt tired since hvnt sleep.. so went upstairs to my room to get some shut eye.. so i did~

11am.. my siblings woke me up by maing dem noises... == i was like.. "What the F**K?" i wanna sleep! but yeah.. its my own fault not getting some earlier no? so dun bother to go mad at them.. went outside my room... saw them getting ready to go out.. "Oh, thats good news..." lol i said to myself.. since if they're out i can rest again.. lol yesh.. i'm t3h lazy... lol they went out b4 12.. and me on the other hand went back to get some shut eye..

Woke up.. fully rested XD looked at the time.. it was 3pm.. hmm i thought i would sleep till 6pm.. but yeah.. i didnt XD after that i go wash up and take a shower.. then went downstairs to finally take my "breakfast" lol ; breakfast at 4pm.. yeah.. after that i didnt do much.. watched tv.. kinda stuck with it.. lol a few minutes later my family got back home.. me still watch tv

called me out of the blue.. ;; didnt expect her to call me XD after chatting with her i went back to TV.. watch till dinner time.. then i didnt take dinner tho.. still kenyang after the breakfast i took... lol went upstairs to my room.. and the darnest thing happened... i fell asleep again! lol from 8-10pm.. after that i got up.. watched tv.. Smallville was half way thru... TT TT dem... then i got online at 11pm... ^^

Oh yeah, went to DA and IRC.. turns out i hit 10k already! XD sankyuu minna! and yeah, it was Ciel who hit my 9999th views and Wolf and Ryl who hit my 10k views ^^ arigatou~ will be drawing them a kiriban now ^^

so yeah... thats my lazy sunday... heck.. i didnt even draw anything! @@;;;; no good!

The new kiosk of my restaurant was opened on the 21st Sept and yeah, it went into the newspaper... sumthing about my stepdad's company invested 13 millions for promoting the world's first "Soft Shell Crab Burger" yeap, u can get em at any of the restaurant and kiosk that my stepdad owns XD in the menu they put the name "Nude Crab Burger" lol NUDE!! maybe this way it can attracts more customers ^^ and yes fellow forumers... the offer still opens... "the first person to catch me at the kiosk or restaurant will have free treat on me" XD its limited to one person only >=3 the rest have to pay their own...

Yeah, promised to make an Oreo Cheesecake for her b-day ^^ hope she likes em... but i dunno if i can make it on her b-day... TT TT lets just hope i can oh yeah http://zend.deviantart.com/journal/3478802/ Thu, 30 Sep 2004 08:04:37 PDT Reading: The books i've just bought.. have to read fast
Mood: so-so
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[link] XD is a club founded by me,, ^^ we dedicate the club to the one and only ^^ she deserve it no?

Journal :

30th Sept Thursday:

XD Was in IRC till 6am... ; while chatting me, Ciel and Rylands got the idea of making a fanclub for KidChan~! yup yup
its ^^ why... Nyaanyaa? ; well KidChan always go off and say Nyaaa~ so yeah ^^ sounds cute and its totally her ^^ Umm the club isnt really officially up yet.. Will be updating stuff like.. ID, avatar, and giftart for KidChan~ ^^ yesh yesh.. and yeah, KidChan, dun say u dun deserver it! XD u really really deserve it.. its the least we can do ^^

So yeah, after putting the club up me went to bed ^^ slept till umm 12 sumthing ; not good not good... >< oh well ^^ hmm nth much happened today.. ; no fishies problem like last time (ummm the water tank flows out and banjir the house) and no problems or what so ever... just that >< i really have to get myself a license ^^:;; maybe will go and finish all the stuff on it tmr XD

Irc highlight: no no go irc yet so no no highlight ;

The new kiosk of my restaurant was opened on the 21st Sept and yeah, it went into the newspaper... sumthing about my stepdad's company invested 13 millions for promoting the world's first "Soft Shell Crab Burger" yeap, u can get em at any of the restaurant and kiosk that my stepdad owns XD in the menu they put the name "Nude Crab Burger" lol NUDE!! maybe this way it can attracts more customers ^^ and yes fellow forumers... the offer still opens... "the first person to catch me at the kiosk or restaurant will have free treat on me" XD its limited to one person only >=3 the rest have to pay their own...

Yeah, promised to make an Oreo Cheesecake for her b-day ^^ hope she likes em... but i dunno if i can make it on her b-day... TT TT lets just hope i can oh yeah also wants the oreo cheesecake, told her to ask some from Queen Ciel but she said that Ciel will give her instead.. lol! XD many forumers wants me to cook for them too ; lenglui~ u oso want ar? lol and wants me to make her a pudding ^^

these are the few tittles i got recently from fellow CF forumers... XD
Mr. Zenderson, Gothic Chef, Royal Chef, Pr... ]]> ~zend