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]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/oh-to-be-a-cliche-147788427 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/oh-to-be-a-cliche-147788427 Wed, 23 Dec 2009 15:33:26 PST oh to be a cliche nonadult literature/poetry/general/song Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode this is for not knowing if the lights will be on  by the time i finish writing this song;   
this is for the lonely moments  that stretch longer than any other;  this is for clichés and clones  and french words that i throw around  like snow.   
this is for rhyming schemes that don't  make any sense, to me or you;  this is for semi-colons  and lines without enough syllables.  &nbs ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/the-trick-is-to-keep-breathing-147674300 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/the-trick-is-to-keep-breathing-147674300 Tue, 22 Dec 2009 17:15:48 PST the trick is to keep breathing nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode  
'it starts off slowly, and before you know it you're stealing money from the people you love just so you can inject heroin into your viens and slowly kill your infected brain'   
one cigarette won't send me into the decline   
but 20 a day becomes suspicious.   
 
it's not the users you have to watch for; their drugs are their drugs, fuck off are they sharing with someone else. it's the longing and yearning to feel the hit. that's what you have to watch for.  
 
being in the spotlight feels so mu ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/it-s-snowing-on-oxford-street-147531175 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/it-s-snowing-on-oxford-street-147531175 Mon, 21 Dec 2009 13:15:15 PST it's snowing on oxford street nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode it's snowing on oxford street  someone's shouts out  TOURIST as cameras click and flash  a sieren in the distance  but it's still beautiful to me   
because   
it's snowing on oxford street  it's snowing on oxford street  it's snowing on oxford street  a record on repeat.   
and did  you  know   
it's snowing on oxford street  the people crowd together  swarm like wasps and bees  t ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/vintage-shirts-and-147156174 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/vintage-shirts-and-147156174 Fri, 18 Dec 2009 10:00:25 PST vintage shirts and nonadult photography/people/selfportrait Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode

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]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/so-new-ID-147130106 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/so-new-ID-147130106 Fri, 18 Dec 2009 03:27:26 PST so, new ID nonadult darelated/deviantid Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode

]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Leave-me-behind-147046594 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Leave-me-behind-147046594 Thu, 17 Dec 2009 08:27:39 PST Leave me behind nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode backs of  my  Eyelids.   
Where you left them, how careless  How fucking careless of you to  leave them  just  There.   
I'd give them back to you, wrapped  In ribbon and shiny paper  But I think they're a bit like my heart  and  my  Body.   
You don't want them anymore  That's why you  
Left  Them  Behind. ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/nothing-can-break-me-mark-II-146930289 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/nothing-can-break-me-mark-II-146930289 Wed, 16 Dec 2009 03:25:28 PST nothing can break me - mark II nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode  
a casualty.                  (i know) ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/aren-t-you-scared-146890895 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/aren-t-you-scared-146890895 Tue, 15 Dec 2009 16:47:24 PST aren't you scared? nonadult literature/prose/fiction/scripts Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode - i... it would be too sad.   
- promise me you would. promise me you'd go.   
- but.. why?   
- promise me you'd go, and promise me you'd tell everyone that i loved them. that it wasn't their fault.   
- this.. this sounds like you're planning something.   
- just promise me.   
- ok, ok. i promise. i promise that, if you should happen to die, i would go to your funeral. and i would read to the congregation the most beautiful poems about you and your life. i would spill my heart into that church, and exhaust myself with loss and ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Only-Michael-146831581 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Only-Michael-146831581 Tue, 15 Dec 2009 03:26:11 PST Only Michael. nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode  
Michael reads self-help books, about how to save a soul you own, in hope that he can pass along the message to a soul he loves very much.   
There's a tree falling in the forest, and all the animals scatter. Except one rabbit who sits and stares, as though his little strings of hope can hold back the forces of gravity.   
When Michael finds the tree, and the tail of a rabbit, he crosses himself (although he ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/je-ne-me-suis-jamais-senti-146757280 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/je-ne-me-suis-jamais-senti-146757280 Mon, 14 Dec 2009 11:03:58 PST je ne me suis jamais senti nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode that i kissed someone else  and lay on his chest  then cried about missing you  into his itchy stubble  oh, he didn't know what to do or say.   
so then i just felt even worse.   
 
it's because when i'm alone my entire body aches for you   
that this smile is temporarily glued  to these curved lips  when i'm in company  but they don't see it  oh, fall away with the loneliness of night.   
and then i just feel even worse.   
 
it's because you've moved on without me an ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/The-Silence-that-Follows-146530150 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/The-Silence-that-Follows-146530150 Sat, 12 Dec 2009 10:22:47 PST The Silence that Follows nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/biographies Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode No-one thinks she cares anymore. No-one knows that every time she sees him the ache in her chest becomes a piercing constraint on her breathing. No-one knows that when he seems sad, it takes all her strength not to run to him and just hold him, rock him, play with his hair. Take care of him.   
'The worst thing I can think is that I have hurt him, that he is hurting because of something I did. It doesn't matter that he doesn't care about me, because ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/strength-only-sleeps-146029150 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/strength-only-sleeps-146029150 Mon, 07 Dec 2009 11:48:17 PST strength only sleeps nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Fire-and-Fuel-145175723 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Fire-and-Fuel-145175723 Sun, 29 Nov 2009 10:10:33 PST Fire and Fuel nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode       To the girl who holds my heart,        Keep me safe, with the vinatge postcards and blue eggshells your grandma gave you. You keep them close to you, and tread carefully. Eggshells break easily, so does my heart. You're like wet sand between my toes, however hard I try to rid myself of you, I'll still find traces of you in my shoes and clothes and ca ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/a-message-for-you-145050988 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/a-message-for-you-145050988 Sat, 28 Nov 2009 09:00:52 PST a message for you nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode I love you and I care about you and I hate seeing you sad but I don't know what to do. I'm not strong enough to keep you sane as well as myself.  
      Please realise that I notice what's going on, it's just difficult to know what to do so I just pretend to be oblivious.   
I love you.  Never feel alone x ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/limpet-love-143736160 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/limpet-love-143736160 Sun, 15 Nov 2009 14:55:21 PST limpet love nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode she thinks and believes and lives by 'it's not what you know, it's who you know.'  "oh my uncle works for frantic, oh my uncle works for frantic, oh i did some modelling, oh i do theatre companies and oh i am brilliant."   
but she knows a lot too.   
deep down i know (and so does she) that all she wants is recognition. she works her body to a stick and her mind near to breaking point, all because she thinks in futures.   
 
'where is he?'   
]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/There-are-things-I-should-say-142196650 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/There-are-things-I-should-say-142196650 Sun, 01 Nov 2009 14:22:59 PST There are things I should say nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode it's the point when love scenes make you cry  that you know something has changed  but i'm sick through my soul to think of  living without your skin against mine.   
what do you do when the magic leaves?  do you leave as well? ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/The-Sickness-141745017 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/The-Sickness-141745017 Wed, 28 Oct 2009 11:06:49 PDT The Sickness nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/biographies Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode Oh, physically, there's nothing wrong.  But have you heard of                                           conscience?   
(I have one.)   
Aches and pains, they spring up from nowhere. Back, arm, chest. And the sickness. Inside. Deep in the pit of my stomach.   
A sympton  Of depression? NO  Of knowin ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Walking-Disaster-141650429 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Walking-Disaster-141650429 Tue, 27 Oct 2009 12:28:58 PDT Walking Disaster nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/let-alone-laughed-141237126 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/let-alone-laughed-141237126 Fri, 23 Oct 2009 16:17:40 PDT let alone laughed nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode don't you just want to protect her! don't you just want to look after her!   
but all she wanted was to be left alone.   
she stood at the gates to the cemetary, wondering about death. someone once told her all about ghosts (he was a little boy and his name was edward. he had bright blue eyes and always breathed very loudly.) but she didn't believe him.  
 
when we die, there is nothing.   
long ago, her mother had held her hand and walked ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/I-know-by-tomorrow-morning-141220723 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/I-know-by-tomorrow-morning-141220723 Fri, 23 Oct 2009 13:29:14 PDT I know, by tomorrow morning. nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode Let's rewind, just a few hours.   
Sunlight glares down from the sky, I swing my legs in such jubilance that I feel al ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/window-to-the-sky-II-140785597 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/window-to-the-sky-II-140785597 Mon, 19 Oct 2009 06:53:26 PDT window to the sky II nonadult photography/architecture/exterior Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode

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]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/sortie-de-garage-140782719 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/sortie-de-garage-140782719 Mon, 19 Oct 2009 06:05:47 PDT sortie de garage nonadult photography/architecture/exterior Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode

]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/no-entry-into-paradise-140782533 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/no-entry-into-paradise-140782533 Mon, 19 Oct 2009 06:02:35 PDT no entry into paradise nonadult photography/architecture/exterior Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode

]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/i-wish-i-was-worth-it-to-you-140721769 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/i-wish-i-was-worth-it-to-you-140721769 Sun, 18 Oct 2009 14:48:13 PDT i wish i was worth it, to you nonadult literature/poetry/general/song Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode i've contorted and twisted  
this poor body, heart and mind  this apathy you show  oh self indulgent dream  i'm worthless to you and i see.   
carry me  away from tears  ripped seams  imagination tortures  me.   
i'm a blemish on your perfect skin  freak accident that left you scarred  the shame, the shame  oh the tense and wicked shame  i brought upon your precious name. ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/if-anything-139107909 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/if-anything-139107909 Sat, 03 Oct 2009 16:49:19 PDT if anything nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode i call it passion, i think other people call it hate. i make your blood boil, i make your heart race. race me. we know i'll win, but you can pretend otherwise.  we're always moving. it's as though if i sit still, something inside me will die. maybe that's why you're beginning to make me feel dead. or perhaps, it's just sabotage.  
 
this t-shirt is grey with sickness. she wears a dirty dress and prances around like she's crazed and heavy with lunacy, but really she's just breathing polluted air.  there's a thick smog that covers her mind, and her eyes are drowning in ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/a-boy-who-changed-his-mind-137032018 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/a-boy-who-changed-his-mind-137032018 Mon, 14 Sep 2009 12:27:45 PDT a boy who changed his mind adult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode oh don't you sigh at me. i try my best, it's not my fault i always end up in a heap on your kitchen floor laughing about balloons and harry potter jokes. with a cigarette and a bottle of vodka, i'll be asking where you hid the drugs.   
he holds her hand and tells her she's fat (she knows he's joking.) then he says he's disappointed in her and everything seems to fall a little bit into place, and she realises this is the beginning of the end.   
and we vow to enjoy every second.   
bedroom, bedroom, bathroom? a bath, a wall, a floor. is it scandalou ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/and-so-they-call-it-a-story-137029838 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/and-so-they-call-it-a-story-137029838 Mon, 14 Sep 2009 12:06:14 PDT and so they call it a story nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode i lick my lips and feel the sting.   
and the ants scurry across the floorboards, as i sit on my bed, knees pulled tight to my chest. eyes shut tight. if i can't see them, then they can't see me.  i wish i was blind and invisible.   
and the songs i play whistle through the air. sometimes i wonder if it's the certain frequency and vibrations that make me begin to cry.  i try to sit as still as possible.   
and he holds me to him, then pushes me to the floor. bruises blush the porcelain skin ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/NOTE-TO-SELF-134019767 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/NOTE-TO-SELF-134019767 Wed, 19 Aug 2009 17:49:08 PDT NOTE TO SELF: nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode 'anyone else fancy a dip?'   
and then they all joined me.  oh, and i was so good! hands tried to wander, corrected immediately. perhaps a harmless flirt or two? what harm, what harm what harm whatharm?  smiled.   
NOTE TO SELF: too much vodka & coke makes you stumble.  bleedy toe, oh oh.   ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Cleanse-me-132386315 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Cleanse-me-132386315 Thu, 06 Aug 2009 14:46:11 PDT Cleanse me. nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/biographies Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode Disgust for myself creeps along my skin, worms of hate burrowing themselves deep inside my conscience and causing a constant wince in my mind, like a twitch of the brain. Your purity and forgiving causes a deep ache that starts in my stomach, that unfurls itself and stretches up through my chest and into the muscle commonly known as my he ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/My-Mother-129117108 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/My-Mother-129117108 Sat, 11 Jul 2009 11:05:36 PDT My Mother nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/biographies Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode I wasn’t being ‘PC’; she wasn’t being fair.   
My mother believed that if you came from a bad family, you were a terrible person. If your parents hadn’t married they were whores, who were living in sin, and if they smoked and drank a lot they were common.  
 
I don’t think she’d heard of just having fun.   ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Cornfields-of-Absence-129100461 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Cornfields-of-Absence-129100461 Sat, 11 Jul 2009 07:51:53 PDT Cornfields of Absence nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/biographies Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode Desperation comes across in kisses. But for some reason mine were misinterpreted. How could you understand how little I was looking forward to the end of the day, when the sun sank into the earth and the moon was clouded with rain yet to fall? I tried to explain wi ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/I-m-So-Cold-Without-You-128966952 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/I-m-So-Cold-Without-You-128966952 Fri, 10 Jul 2009 03:20:08 PDT I'm So Cold Without You nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Promises-and-Hopes-128919866 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/Promises-and-Hopes-128919866 Thu, 09 Jul 2009 16:49:46 PDT Promises and Hopes. nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/biographies Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode The weight of your secret weighed heavy on my shoulders and I crumpled under the strain. Not only once. More. I was your world and I was collapsing because of it. I'm not strong enough to carry this around, alone.   
'I'm in control. I can stop whenever I want.'   
Oh yes, I'd heard this one before. Oh yes, I'd heard it from myself. Now look at me.   
'If I'm thinner, everything will be better.'   
But darling, who decides what defines thinner? I would say that you are thinner. Thinner ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/truely-127005726 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/truely-127005726 Tue, 23 Jun 2009 16:53:21 PDT truely nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode (in the true sense of the word, not the americanised, teenage meaning.) ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/An-exclamation-of-life-126295495 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/An-exclamation-of-life-126295495 Wed, 17 Jun 2009 16:16:37 PDT An exclamation of life. nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode  
Once, I asked her why she did it.  She tilted her chin to the sky, eyes melting like stones in hell, and whispered;  “I worry that these tears are poisoning me inside, so I have to get them out.”   
She smiled.  “I’m not sad, not really. Weeping like a widow does not always mean you’re sad.”   
It felt like an exclamatio ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/difficult-to-breathe-126177315 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/difficult-to-breathe-126177315 Tue, 16 Jun 2009 16:10:53 PDT difficult to breathe nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/come-back-come-back-come-back-124304185 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/come-back-come-back-come-back-124304185 Sun, 31 May 2009 03:10:26 PDT come back come back come back nonadult literature/poetry/general/open Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode she used to measure her moods  with stones and shells  but stones and shells can't  measure this mix of love and pain.   
keep him close, girl  the seeds of trust are sown  but still yet to take root and  
turn their leaves to the sun and rain.   
sunlight on the mirrors  dance like dreams in the corners  of her tired mind while she  
forces acid yearning from her heart.   
a week  is one week too long. ]]> http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/choke-on-your-own-venom-123306198 http://Arianrhode.deviantart.com/art/choke-on-your-own-venom-123306198 Fri, 22 May 2009 02:02:25 PDT choke on your own venom nonadult literature/prose/fiction/horror Arianrhode http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/r/arianrhode.jpg Copyright 2009-2010 ~Arianrhode you are sitting. there is no other way to describe what you're doing because there is no other action. simply, i don't believe any part of you is moving. perhaps you wouldn't feel it if i tore you apart. perhaps you are already dead.   
'you don't deserve him. he doesn't love you. he loves me.'   
there is a rush, a surge of adrenaline rips through my body, and suddenly i feel like i'm floating above myself. 'i t ]]>