http://search.deviantart.com/?q=gallery:xian-ated/507054&section= deviantART RSS for gallery:xian-ated/507054 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 30 Dec 2009 07:23:10 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Painful-Thought-Process-122520535 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Painful-Thought-Process-122520535 Thu, 14 May 2009 15:36:32 PDT Painful Thought Process nonadult literature/prose/fiction/lifestories xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated and that's when the ghosts come out. they scare me when they say things about you. they like to creep into my ear and say things. and i like to listen to them because i like being mean. i am terrible aren't i?   
i'm so tired.. oh, but i'm busy complaining when i am living my nice life here. a really nice life. no reason to complain.   
just that when i have fallen in pain. all my weakness spilling out of me. it is quite a nice sight don't you think? oh. yes if you hated me and perhaps you might. but i really can't be bothered about all that. sometimes what everyone thinks of ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Deal-With-It-122173270 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Deal-With-It-122173270 Mon, 11 May 2009 08:06:25 PDT Deal With It. nonadult literature/prose/fiction/lifestories xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated i don't know how to deal with it.   
i have no idea what to do.   
so i get all this pent up pressure inside, i want to scream at them, even though it might not really be their fault. it's only because of my own inability to deal with it. i just want to hit them. first instinct. i want to make them scream for every single scream of frustration that i keep silent.   
i wish their brains would explode. so wicked. such mean thoughts.   
now i only have to look at a face and all these negative things, dark shadows creep across my mind, whispering ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Patchy-at-Best-116124280 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Patchy-at-Best-116124280 Mon, 16 Mar 2009 11:06:24 PDT Patchy at Best nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Miserable-Greed-116123870 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Miserable-Greed-116123870 Mon, 16 Mar 2009 11:02:20 PDT Miserable Greed nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Would-it-That-116123502 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Would-it-That-116123502 Mon, 16 Mar 2009 10:58:27 PDT Would it That nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Marionette-116060497 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Marionette-116060497 Sun, 15 Mar 2009 17:51:07 PDT Marionette nonadult literature/poetry/humanity/open xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated i am blinded and i cannot see your face.   
build me up  support me when the ground  threatens to swallow me whole.   
sow me a seed,  grow me a tree as tall as  the highest reaches of the heavens:  blooming archways of cloud,  pillars of sunlight,  hung with stars.  i sit among them  in my towering greenhouse.  walls of glass...   
they do not offer me protection.   
and now,  a new perspective,  i can see you.  you ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/To-the-Dead-115964289 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/To-the-Dead-115964289 Sat, 14 Mar 2009 22:43:47 PDT To the Dead nonadult literature/poetry/humanity/open xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated information of little importance  now that you are gone.   
yet the lack of it  leaves a twinge of bitter regret.   
words that i write  which i think sound good  in a bid to console myself.  what are words really.   
they are things that hold no meaning  nor power over you,  dear dead one  who are no longer dead  because of Him who went before you  and before us all.   
i am tha ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Happy-Belated-Birthday-113259781 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Happy-Belated-Birthday-113259781 Tue, 17 Feb 2009 15:56:12 PST Happy Belated Birthday nonadult fanart/cartoons/traditional/movies xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Debora-s-Kitsune-112742909 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Debora-s-Kitsune-112742909 Fri, 13 Feb 2009 08:24:13 PST Debora's Kitsune nonadult fanart/traditional/drawings/misc xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/chinese-new-year-ID-111499770 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/chinese-new-year-ID-111499770 Sun, 01 Feb 2009 15:55:33 PST chinese new year ID nonadult darelated/deviantid xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/A-Smaller-Place-111386718 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/A-Smaller-Place-111386718 Sat, 31 Jan 2009 17:42:22 PST A Smaller Place nonadult literature/poetry/humanity/song xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated and oh sometimes i wish that  the world wasn't such a big place that  we need planes and trains and other things  to see each other again.   
cold winds blow across the sea  they don't need a ticket to fly  and me next to the window,  looking out at the night   
there is a face looking at me  is that my friend i see there  and i find it is only a mirror  and it is inside my mind   
and oh sometimes i wish that  the world wasn't such a big p ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/A-Collection-of-Thoughts-111279099 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/A-Collection-of-Thoughts-111279099 Fri, 30 Jan 2009 18:02:36 PST A Collection of Thoughts nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/general xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated my pencil seems too heavy to hold, scrawling on the paper as if the hand that now holds it does not belong to me.   
what is this? is it because the sky is dark outside? or do i just like feeling sad. for no good reason? or for a reason that i can't pinpoint perhaps..   
feel like i can't be bothered today. like the world that surrounds me... is not something i belong in. like it is pushing me out. somehow. all this work i am doing. coursework.. studying.. there is an end, and i want the end to be a good one. but then again, these weighty thoughts don't stem from my academic purs ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Watching-the-World-s-Passing-110476291 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Watching-the-World-s-Passing-110476291 Fri, 23 Jan 2009 16:18:17 PST Watching the World's Passing nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/general xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated 望着人们的希望，他们心里所拥有的快乐伤悲，让我自己觉得一点悲哀。   
他们所盼望的，世界的前途，心里想要自己的世界会美变得更美。但是，我知道这个地 ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Rain-110367289 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Rain-110367289 Thu, 22 Jan 2009 16:29:47 PST Rain nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated Close my eyes, looking into the dark space behind my eyelids.   
The sound of droplets falling, falling onto the ground, perfect spheres destroyed by a broken tension.   
Listening...   
Reminds me of home, of sitting next to the window watching, listening. The rain falls, slowly.   
It makes everything shiny, glittering as the light falls from street lamps and windows. Pretty.   
Just me and my thoughts behind closed eyes.   
Thinking...   
An empty mind, full of the sound of rain falling onto concrete pavements. I heard once that when rain falls at ni ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Chibi-Edward-Cullen-110262811 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Chibi-Edward-Cullen-110262811 Wed, 21 Jan 2009 16:18:31 PST Chibi Edward Cullen nonadult fanart/manga/traditional/movies xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Chibi-Zero-110261465 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Chibi-Zero-110261465 Wed, 21 Jan 2009 16:05:34 PST Chibi Zero nonadult fanart/manga/traditional/books xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated .< well, i did draw it in on the original. too late to scan it in (literally; i...

]]> .< well, i did draw it in on the original. too late to scan it in (literally; i... ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/I-Don-t-Feel-Alright-108287531 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/I-Don-t-Feel-Alright-108287531 Sat, 03 Jan 2009 07:58:19 PST I Don't Feel Alright nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated all of a sudden, time started to go backwards. it felt so strange, watching people doing things backwards as if it was the most natural thing in the world.   
i suppose it is natural.. now that the whole world was doing it, and i the only one walking forwards. nobody noticed me, maybe they can't see me anymore.   
"...i don't feel alright..."   
it seems like the world has left me behind. the clocks are broken.. they run in reverse. deliberately. what stopped me from following the same course? i want to cry, but nothing comes ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Pessimism-108066445 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Pessimism-108066445 Thu, 01 Jan 2009 09:10:32 PST Pessimism nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/general xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated you end up finding out that everyone in a sense, is just like you. with problems, with issues that need serious help. and it goes on.   
where can you look to for help? for your comfort and support? sometimes it seems that since everyone has problems, you should try and find someone who doesn't have any. just so that they can help you with yours. but there never is any such person.   
where can you go to someone who won't divulge your secrets to the world? who will not laugh at you if you just said what was on your mind? i don't think there is anyone like t ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Help-108065411 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Help-108065411 Thu, 01 Jan 2009 08:57:34 PST Help.. nonadult customization/icons/emoticons/static xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2009 ~xian-ated .

]]> . ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Dyamite-108022995 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Dyamite-108022995 Wed, 31 Dec 2008 18:57:32 PST Dyamite nonadult customization/icons/emoticons/static xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Happy-New-Year-107998576 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Happy-New-Year-107998576 Wed, 31 Dec 2008 13:39:20 PST Happy New Year nonadult customization/icons/emoticons/static xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Music-Boxes-107549583 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Music-Boxes-107549583 Sat, 27 Dec 2008 09:27:57 PST Music Boxes nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated despite the sadness, a heart, like a music box will keep on playing its music as long as there is someone to wind it up.   
and the music that both music boxes create are so beautiful. what kind of chord does it strike with you?   
the heart has a soul to keep it alive, and the music box it's key. but some day those things will breakdown and decay. keys get lost, and souls can do that too or somehow they manage to get back home where they are really meant to be.   
then, at that moment, when dust and the troubles of life manage to cho ]]>

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Dear-Diary-7-107043843 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Dear-Diary-7-107043843 Mon, 22 Dec 2008 01:14:49 PST Dear Diary 7 nonadult literature/prose/fiction/lifestories xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated How long it has been since I've written in these pages. So much so that the paper has gone all crinkly from being exposed to such humid weather as this.   
It has been so long that things which were slowly changing then, have become a big difference in my life. I started to read the previous entries again. Records of how my life was plagued by fear, anger, hatred, and sadness. How can I forget how bitter those days were? I am glad that they are gone now.   
Nightmares, mental isolation.. it is all behind me now and I am glad of it. Things have changed for the better. I still enjoy my solitude, my l ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/I-am-the-Lonely-Astronaut-106911040 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/I-am-the-Lonely-Astronaut-106911040 Sat, 20 Dec 2008 17:50:19 PST I am the Lonely Astronaut nonadult traditional/drawings/misc xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/7k-lol-106818583 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/7k-lol-106818583 Fri, 19 Dec 2008 18:30:12 PST 7k lol nonadult customization/screenshots/mac xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated .

]]> . ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/winking-rabbit-106081555 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/winking-rabbit-106081555 Thu, 11 Dec 2008 17:20:43 PST winking rabbit nonadult customization/icons/emoticons/animated xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/wahahhahahaa-105610695 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/wahahhahahaa-105610695 Sat, 06 Dec 2008 15:06:57 PST wahahhahahaa nonadult scraps xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Bobble-Plant-105609567 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Bobble-Plant-105609567 Sat, 06 Dec 2008 14:53:18 PST Bobble Plant nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Obsessed-with-Fish-105609377 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Obsessed-with-Fish-105609377 Sat, 06 Dec 2008 14:50:57 PST Obsessed with Fish nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/ACE-It-s-a-Fishbowl-World-105609128 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/ACE-It-s-a-Fishbowl-World-105609128 Sat, 06 Dec 2008 14:48:04 PST ACE - It's a Fishbowl World nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/medicine-104321799 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/medicine-104321799 Sat, 22 Nov 2008 14:36:45 PST medicine nonadult literature/poetry/humanity/open xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated sitting in the corner  eyes clouded over  full of medicine  a drug induced sleep  full of haze and dreams  
that don't make sense   
taking another pill  with or without water  or whatever is at hand  perhaps, just perhaps  this time i can cheat my body  to believe that the pain doesn't exist. ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Evil-Enchanted-103500752 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Evil-Enchanted-103500752 Thu, 13 Nov 2008 14:42:06 PST Evil Enchanted nonadult traditional/drawings/people xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Because-You-are-Lonely-103498198 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Because-You-are-Lonely-103498198 Thu, 13 Nov 2008 14:12:47 PST Because You are Lonely nonadult literature/prose/fiction/general xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated 经过一时，一百的白天  度过千万的黑夜，你抬头望着乌云密布的天空   
今晚月亮又没有出现陪着你。床前无月光，低头只能看到无边的黑。   
你手握着电话，一时又& ]]>

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/The-End-of-the-Day-101787024 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/The-End-of-the-Day-101787024 Sun, 26 Oct 2008 02:49:06 PDT The End of the Day nonadult literature/prose/nonfiction/general xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated I've no idea where she's going. She's not wearing her uniform, so it's not school. I have a bad feeling that it's the airport. Why would she have so many bags otherwise? I don't want her to go! I told her so as I sat on her suitcase yesterday. But I guess she didn't really understand what I was saying. She hardly does.   
And so the day begins for me. Now all I have to do it to wait for her to come back. Maybe I'll sit by the door when I hear the gate open. Just in case it's her and she needs help with anything ]]>

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Protecting-Baby-100925408 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Protecting-Baby-100925408 Thu, 16 Oct 2008 14:59:44 PDT Protecting Baby nonadult traditional/drawings/people xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

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]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Eye-Creature-100923680 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Eye-Creature-100923680 Thu, 16 Oct 2008 14:29:48 PDT Eye Creature nonadult traditional/drawings/surreal xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Janey-s-Crane-93896383 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Janey-s-Crane-93896383 Tue, 05 Aug 2008 10:17:38 PDT Janey's Crane nonadult traditional/paintings/animals xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated .<i used a thin ch...

]]> .<i used a thin ch... ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Cold-Tea-93365727 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Cold-Tea-93365727 Thu, 31 Jul 2008 07:52:23 PDT Cold Tea nonadult literature/poetry/humanity/open xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated again.   
The end of a good thing  of the subtle aroma of tea,  and sweet white crystals hanging  off the edge of the spoon  diving into the depths of Earl Grey.   
As the tea slowly drains away,  leaving golden rings in its wake,  other less obvious things are left behind-  hiding, holding on to each other,  little clusters of dark tea leaves.   
Weak, dried up ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/We-Are-Legion-89504082 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/We-Are-Legion-89504082 Mon, 23 Jun 2008 02:50:05 PDT We Are Legion... nonadult traditional/drawings/portraits xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Sennen-Hakushaku-88144909 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Sennen-Hakushaku-88144909 Mon, 09 Jun 2008 06:10:34 PDT Sennen Hakushaku nonadult fanart/manga/traditional/movies xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Defeating-Demons-87461089 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Defeating-Demons-87461089 Mon, 02 Jun 2008 08:16:48 PDT Defeating Demons nonadult scraps xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Sidewalk-Angel-84992316 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Sidewalk-Angel-84992316 Wed, 07 May 2008 08:36:18 PDT Sidewalk Angel nonadult traditional/drawings/people xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Sleepless-84991685 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Sleepless-84991685 Wed, 07 May 2008 08:26:22 PDT Sleepless nonadult traditional/drawings/portraits xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/This-Smile-84793295 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/This-Smile-84793295 Mon, 05 May 2008 04:23:25 PDT This Smile... nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Sennen-Hakushaku-WIP-84716757 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Sennen-Hakushaku-WIP-84716757 Sun, 04 May 2008 10:28:27 PDT Sennen Hakushaku WIP nonadult fanart/traditional/drawings/movies xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Stressed-Rabbit-84713613 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Stressed-Rabbit-84713613 Sun, 04 May 2008 09:56:36 PDT Stressed Rabbit nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/3-girls-84617420 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/3-girls-84617420 Sat, 03 May 2008 10:30:52 PDT 3 girls nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/ACE-factory-of-doom-84616732 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/ACE-factory-of-doom-84616732 Sat, 03 May 2008 10:22:16 PDT ACE factory of doom nonadult cartoons/traditional/cartoons/drawings xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-nc-nd/3.0/

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Just-a-bit-of-writing-84614700 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Just-a-bit-of-writing-84614700 Sat, 03 May 2008 09:56:53 PDT Just a bit of writing nonadult traditional/typography/typography/calligraphy xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/For-a-Fleeting-Moment-82716550 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/For-a-Fleeting-Moment-82716550 Sun, 13 Apr 2008 08:17:34 PDT For a Fleeting Moment nonadult literature/prose/fiction/perspectives xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated  
 
 
 
I crave solitude. To be alone with my thoughts. To have the time to sort things out in my mind. The impossibility of such a thing happening. There isn't any time. There is everything else that is always demanding demanding demanding. And then, you forget yourself in the middle of it all. You forget who and what and why and how.   
Yet the realization of having to do something alone is there. Fear swells up like a balloon and goes on like it will never end. A big, black balloon made of lead. Slowly, it floats up and hits the heart, then sinks into the ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/on-one-hand-n-then-the-other-79734354 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/on-one-hand-n-then-the-other-79734354 Tue, 11 Mar 2008 14:12:09 PDT on one hand, n then the other nonadult literature/prose/fiction/lifestories xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated i don't know whether it is normal because i never have anything to compare with. because i never talk about with anyone.. who knows.. much of what i think cannot make sense in words anyway. it sounds stupid when it comes out. but i try anyway.   
lately, ive been noticing more and more that i feel like two people at the same time. two total opposites living in the same shell, sitting on a see-saw. everything becomes a freaking tussle. i guess the negative side has been too us ]]> ]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Snow-Lady-78189341 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Snow-Lady-78189341 Sat, 23 Feb 2008 05:54:49 PST Snow Lady nonadult traditional/drawings/people xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated

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]]> http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Dear-Diary-6-77362965 http://xian-ated.deviantart.com/art/Dear-Diary-6-77362965 Thu, 14 Feb 2008 08:19:21 PST Dear Diary 6 nonadult literature/prose/fiction/lifestories xian-ated http://a.deviantart.net/avatars/x/i/xian-ated.gif Copyright 2008-2009 ~xian-ated The dreams I have.. I just realised how similar they are. Yet I still cannot really understand what they mean.. Of course I understand bits here and there, but the full meaning is lost on me.   
They are always the same. I am alone, in some dark place, searching for something.. I don't always know what it is, and it might not even be the same thing anyway. It's always dark, and I'm always by myself. Well, sometimes there are people, but there is hardly any interaction, and often I feel this sense of fear and dread, yet I know that I must keep searching, no matter how scared I am. No matter what is waiting th ]]>